Baww Thread
I have a crush on this girl since 5 years ago and I can't confess what I feel to her. My social anxiety prevents me to even talk to her right now when I have realized this feeling towards her getting real and bigger. We were friends back then in high school but since we graduated she moved to another city to go to uni. We were close back then. She's beautiful, she always started a conversation with me when all I can do is sitting still in the back of the class and doodling around, with no hesitation she approach me and initiate a conversation about stuffs. Later I found out that she's attracted to me too since the first time we go to the same class. She has the most beautiful eyes, greatest smile, she's extrovert, warm, sweet, funny, strong and independent. She's the kind of girl people read book about. Every year after the graduation, despite my social anxiety I attend the high school reunion, she's the only reason, the major reason I would face the crowd just to see her in the distance, yet she's still said hello to me first and converse with me like there's nothing wrong in me. But the more I like her and the realization that she likes me too, the harder it gets to converse with her and stare into her eyes, it suffocates me that this anxiety driving me away from her. The fact that she lives in different city and we can only meet once a year is killing me.
She has a boyfriend there now, and my feeling towards her will never change, every year I met her in the high school reunion I only found myself falling over her, over and over again.