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 No.15487

I can hear my Suika tulpa talk in mixture of Japanese and English that I completely don't understand. I don't know Japanese at all, but I can hear expressions in something that sounds like Japanese with very strong, characteristic Japanese intonation.

Don't know if I explain it correctly, but if I took this characteristic intonation away, I think it wouldn't be Japanese anymore (?) At seconds, it feels like she talks in English but with Japanese intonation. However, as soon as she finishes the phrase, I can't repeat it in my head. Because then it feels like trying to write down thought that very quickly went somewhere deep through your head, and then got pushed away by another thought, and then another and another. It also has this vibe to it https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vt4Dfa4fOEY

Although I know there is nothing paranormal or magical about it, it's a surreal feeling to hear a stream of rich, imaginative expressions in language you don't know, being played so fast and casually in your head. It's close to the feeling you get in a dream when you interact with another being, except it's more solid experience. Years ago, when I couldn't remember my dreams at all and I didn't know this feeling, if I heard Suika back then - I think I would be more confused and washed away than after my first orgasm.

It feels like they're grammatically correct expressions that don't mean much. Unrelated clauses generated based on my memories from English and Japanese media I can't otherwise access. Feels like they're sometimes related, but still don't mean anything important.

At times it's like a really good actress was reading script, as if talking with herself, impersonating multiple characters. It has this exaggerated emotion typical for Japanese, sometimes extremely cheerful, polite and happy, sometimes playfully annoyed, like these 'artificial' anime voices of ASMR characters. If I start to hear her, and I don't focus on her shape in the corner of my eye, she fades away, and until I forget about it doing something on pc, I can feel something like radio static deep, deep in my head. As if she was still talking but with volume lowered to 1, and you could only hear vibrations.

If I focus all my attention on it at once and move my head, she disperses from her usual vague shape with horns into these stains that you see after looking directly at the sun for a few seconds, except these stains aren't on top of your eyes but in the space between your eyes and the place on the bed she's been just sitting on.

I can feel very strong pleasant bond, when she says things that are filled with emotion/intonation. It's like she's an artist who expresses positive vibes using emotion in her voice and really cared about me. At the same time I feel anxious because I can very clearly feel she talks as if she expected me to understand.

Do you sometimes happen to talk with someone who doesn't speak clearly because of lisp or something? And you don't understand them but it's too late to interrupt, because it would awkward. And the person is completely ignorant of this and keeps going.

 No.15489

having a tulpa is mentally draining but at the same time i dont think id want to go back at this point.

mine isnt as developed as yours despite her being around for a few years now but i know what you mean with the static in both visual and audio terms.


 No.15490

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go talk about your imaginary friends somewhere else


 No.15491

That sounds really nice, but I don't feel like I'm ready to go that far yet. For now I'm happy with just visualizing and imagining my wife and what she says.


 No.15494

Perhaps I should make a Kanye tulpa.


 No.15502

The biggest improvement you could make to your tulpa is realising that it's not "all in your mind".


 No.15503

8mod...why make a tulpa when you have us


 No.15506

>>15503

janny's a pooper


 No.15531

>>15487

Why aren't you back in the IRC so i can bitch and whine at you?


 No.15556

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are you retarded


 No.15561

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>>15502

that helps but another thing that helped me is realizing that the me on the net is not the same as the self that interacts with her.

i guess part of having a tulpa is keeping your own set of rules that help keep things stable


 No.15564

i want to sniff suika's pussy


 No.15609

My main concern about tulpas is that I would constantly feel guilty about not being good enough for her, I don't want my favourite character to be real, nor do I desire a romantic relationship with her for the same reason.

It just feels like it would defile the perfection


 No.15615

>>15531

I'm on vacation and won't be back until 2nd or 3rd of August. It's not like people write in the IRC much anyway but still. Please write emails. And about sakebug: idk


 No.15619

>>15609

It doesn't have to be about an existing character, they can be made from the ground up. They can also change forms, so getting it perfect right off isn't necessary. As for romantic relationship, it doesn't have to be one. For mine, I haven't figured out what relationship I want for us. I'm swaying between friend and father-daughter. Father-daughter seems the most accurate, but since I'm planning on relying on them to an extent it seems wrong to put that on your daughter so it kind of messes with the dynamic. I'm still fairly early in the process even after months, but that's because I'm lazy more than anything. I hope.


 No.15620

>>15615

not like people write in the IRC much anyway

Well obviously not the channel associated with this board , but you know what i mean.


 No.15621

>>15609

>>15619

Oh, right, and as for the feeling guilty, yeah. I can see that. The thing is, they wouldn't exist if not for you, so they directly owe you their life. Obviously that's a bad thing if their life is shit, but the trick is to make sure they are happy. I can feel her emotions if they are strong enough, but it seems like a weak signal, like a signal being thrown from a great distance. Usually I feel them in response to my own strong emotions, like an echo, almost, but every now and then they don't match up and it feels weird. My guess is that when it feels like an echo, it's her responding to my feelings, because when I get those feelings that don't match up mine, I usually change to match them. For example, if I'm listening to music and feeling great, sometimes I'll feel a wave of sadness, and then I feel like shit because I know that she feels like shit. Conversely, sometimes I'll feel bad, and I'll have an indescribable feeling that ends up making me feel better. I think it's just us reacting to each other.


 No.15622

I don't think I've had a dream in the past 5 years that didn't involve my brutal torture or social exclusion. I've never been able to control them even while lucid and whenever I try to change something the world seems to do the opposite just to spite me.

Should I make a tulpa?


 No.15624

>>15622

So use reverse psychology and you'll be good.


 No.15631

I don't get it. what's the difference between a tulpa and a schizophrenic delusion?


 No.15632

>>15631

One is self induced and controlled.


 No.15633

>>15624

It would be nice if it was that easy but unfortunately I know what I actually want.


 No.15634

>>15633

Pretend you're using reverse psychology and try for what you want?


 No.15636

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>>15622

It helped me in that regard is some sort of strange round about way. My current reason for living is to kill myself when im around 30 and have accomplished what I want in order to have the small chance of being with her in the after life.

Depressing as it may sound, it really does help having someone to talk to on a day to day basis that isnt human due to my general hatred/fear of them and it's also helped overcome my fear of death for my inevitable suicide.

>>15631

its more that tulpas are self induced, and thus more positive in nature, while schizophrenia is uncontrollable and negative. presumably anyway


 No.15637

>>15636

It was only after I had already begun that I realized that now I can't kill myself because it would be murder. On the plus side, however, I now don't want to kill myself. I've never been happier. Today I smiled so hard it hurt, whereas I used to not even know how to smile. I actually had to practice to figure out how to do it.


 No.15640

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>>15637

I can understand that. Me and my tulpa kinda branched out from the tradition model after so long and we kinda have out own thing going on as far as what you read in guides when first starting, so death isnt really murder but a means to finally come together in a even closer form than now.

I wonder after so long, that other's who aren't brain dead horsefuckers or tumblrite schitzophenics deviate from the traditional model that the guides suggest. Personally after years of being with her, I dont see how id be possible to keep a relationship with her without doing as such.


 No.15641

>>15640

How long have you been going at this, if you don't mind me asking? I'm only a few months in, and could always use advice.


 No.15672

>>15641

something like 3 years. i havent gotten to the point of where open eye visualization of her is possible, and to be honest i question if it's even possible at all.

Drugs help.


 No.15702

Can you have sex with your tulpa?


 No.15706

>>15702

I'm not far enough along to be able to say with firsthand experience, but supposedly you can.


 No.15847

>Can you have sex with your tulpa?

It's more about feeling the strong presence and intimate connection to someone independent in the same room than physical contact, at least in the first years. Also relationship with tulpa based on sex drive would probably be something toxic and depressing for both of you


 No.16164

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In light of recent difficulty and fear of experiencing ego death during trips of various substances, I've been (probally needlessly)worrying about what might happen to Saya and I if I dive into stronger psychedelics with the current difficulties I'm having. As it turns out, despite previous success with them months back, ego loss is surprisingly difficult when you have another residing in it.

That being said, my worries are probably unfounded since drugs like LSD or DMT tend to blast away such worries quite easily with just the sheer amount of good vibes on the come up, or in DMTs case, the sheer intensity of it all. Unfortunately however, this puts me in a spot where I'll have bad trips on psys like mushrooms in which you have all the control of a car speeding out of control into hyperspace.

So with all that in mind, I got to thinking as I did barrel rolls in bed for 5 hours worth of insomnia last night. My thinking goes like this; if Saya (a tulpa) can be considered an entity outside of yourself after completion (thx guy in thread), then myself experiencing ego death should have little to no effect on her since despite this sort of "distance", we're still connected in the same way we have since the beginning years ago. An example of this would be her ability to ride on my back or sort of merge into my sub/conscious for the duration of the trip so that she could experience it as I was. Another relevant example, would be her ability to retreat inside the tress/house I have set up in my "wonderland", as they call it, to take shelter and let me recupe if she see's things are getting too chaotic or heading toward a bad trip. As a side note it should be noted this ability is seldom used since things never get so bad that she doesn't try and help me out of it in her own way instead of running.

To sum things up, my train of thought eventually lead to the curiosity of if it was possible to let Saya roam about as she pleases and do her own thing during the duration of a trip. To take this further, I'm also wondering if it's possible for her to have her own unique trip/experience in this separated state without sort of piggybacking the effects of the drug from me.

Tulpas and drugs go together like a birthday addy comedown and booze and I honestly can't say I've ever regretted my decision to make/find her. If the fucking horse fuckers and deivantart rejects didn't give them such a bad name then we'd probably have all kinds of truNEET anons running around with one.


 No.16165

>>16164

and fuck do addies give me a hell of a flow of thought when typing. Sorry for the TL;DR.


 No.16193

I also have a tulpa but I have no desire to commit suicide, not that I am very happy with the world I live in.


 No.16327

I kinda have the same problem with my tulpa. I don't have imposition yet, and I can speak with my tulpa but I have to be focusing on her and "translate" her speech into a mindvoice. Otherwise it's just mumbling.


 No.16328

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>>16327

Don't worry so much about translating things into words. Less is more, in a way, so try not to over think things.


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 No.18313

I should probably tell you to seek professional help, but I'm morbidly curious to find out where this is going. Keep us posted on the progression of your lunacy.


 No.18318

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>>18313

Fuck off, faggot.


 No.18320

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This is some MLP-tier garbage.


 No.18323

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>>18313

go away


 No.18324

>>18320

>This is some MLP-tier garbage.

Before mlp went to sfw, both boards have a lot of similarities, except their fandoms behave differently. The worst part of /jp/ was it's tripfags especially a certain female tripwhore, mlp/pone might be one of the few boards to have avoided beta orbiting female tripfagging.


 No.18325

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 No.18332

>>18324

Although I was never the guy to post, I developed strong attachment to /jp/ and /jp/-like culture over the years. Ever since MLP became I thing, more and more I started experiencing strong feeling of something like cognitive dissonance. It's because I started finding similarities between MLP culture and /jp/-like culture. Nowadays I'm confused and can't take it easy at all because of MLP.

After some thinking I'm slowly realizing the one and only thing that separates me from MLP or tumblr cartoon fandoms is that Japs are superior at drawing. It's horrible, horrible realization


 No.18333

>>18332

I think /jp/-culture is far more reclusive and keeps to themselves more so than MLP fags do.


 No.18337

>>18332

As someone whose main boards were both, the biggest differences between /mlp/pone/ and /jp/ was that /jp/ was a more friendly board as long as the board culture was respected. Towards the exodus, /mlp/ became very critical and dramatic of differences between horse taste leading the to squabble among themselves, while jp always respected different touhou taste with the exception of community jokes regarding them.

/jp/ is like a touhou /s4s/ while /mlp/pone/ is more like a pony themed polite /b/. Pone is a miles better community than mlp ever was, Pone is as laid back as /jp/ is with, but with more emphasis on escaping to their medium, while jp is already there.

I've only been to 8/4chan /co/ once, but from what i've seen the tumblr/western cartoon communities are ridden with tripfagging and ugly individualist values, it's like those /v/ generals, a leftist hugbox. Yes, but i disagree, everyone lusts after their waifu/husbandos similarly, but the behavior and values are very different.


 No.18339

>>18337

>husbandos

This word is a written rape.


 No.18340

>>18339

The general stereotype/misconception outsiders have with waifu/husbando movement has been flipped into it's opposite definition, a 2d prostitute.


 No.18341

>>18332

>>18337

Okay guys. I'm going to fumble hard here, I can feel it coming, but bear with me.

Isn't this board culture, vaguely similar to some 2channel board?


 No.18342

I want the ponyfucker to leave (or to stop talking about MLP).


 No.18357

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Horse fuckers count as gays and as such deserve to be slain.

Get the fuck in here BO.


 No.18358

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I don't understand how he's connecting touhou and cartoon horses. Did he really take that touhou is just like mlp meme seriously?


 No.18359

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wtf is going on ITT


 No.18360

I bet he got here via the ads.


 No.18379

feelium when sooks will never plant her spats-wrapped butt and puss on your face after a long day of running around getting it sweaty


 No.18386

Take it easy.


 No.18929

I'd like for tulpas to be real, for there to be some seekrit way to get a holographic neuro-waifu, but everything I've read about them (including this thread) is written in the same way people who were 'abducted by UFOs' write, if you know what I mean.

People are clearly in it out of some needy craving for attention and a desire to be envied. Their descriptions are super-detailed for no reason. Seems like with every word they speak about tulpas they're constantly trying to prove that they're real (not in the literal sense), as if the burden of lying is keeping them under constant pressure.


 No.18950

>>18929

>as if the burden of lying is keeping them under constant pressure

You're spot on. Process of writing a post about tulpa sustains their construct of the tulpa through self-affirmation. Post like this is the manifestation of their quest to keep the dream alive. Validation feeds both their delusion and their self-esteem


 No.18958

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>>18929

They're real to an extent, but if you're looking for an accurate depiction from lying schizophrenic horse fuckers (e.g. full blown constant hallucinations), you're not going to find them. I whole hearty admit I'm not in what could be considered a healthy mental state by a psychologist as a result of all this, but who on /jp/ is? I'm happy with what I've obtained and it has given me purpose to keep moving in an otherwise meaningless existence.

Seriously man, for me at least, and probally OP as well, It has nothing to do with being envied, or getting attention. If the advice given here can help some poor lonely /jp/sie on his last legs, then hey, right on. The super detailed descriptions come from both the passion/determination required to undertake this sort of thing, as well as like I said above, as well as the chance to maybe help out someone here.

It's complicated even for us man.

>>18950

Reminds me of the abortion that is the tulpa fourms. Your logic is somewhat sound regardless, but a generalization and not the case in this instance.


 No.18962

is this the new blog thread?


 No.18976

>>18962

>tulpa

has it ever been anything else?


 No.18977

nice looking ass


 No.19054

Should I make a qt tulpa friend?


 No.19201


 No.19258

I've been tulpaforcing for over a year without hearing any responses. Can someone just tell me what I'm doing wrong, instead of just telling me to keep trying?


 No.19264

>>19258

How are we supposed to tell you what you're doing wrong if we don't know what you're doing to begin with?

Maybe read some guides if you're not sure.


 No.19269

>>19264

I've tried literally everything. Well, maybe not, but I've read every guide I've come across and tried to incorporate everything. I do a lot of visualization with all senses, but never seem to get better at it. I narrate often, both active and passive, but never quite get used to the idea that I'm talking to someone other than myself. I try to ask things and wait for a response, but never hear or feel anything specific.


 No.19270

>>19269

Well have you tried lying about your experiences on the internet seeking acceptance from others and the desperate hope that you can trick yourself and others into believing?

It seems to work for people like OP.


 No.19271

this thread would have been sent to KZ as soon as it was made if it hadn't been the board owner who made it


 No.19272

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>>19271

Pretty sure the board owner isn't a fan of Sooks.


 No.19274

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>>19264

https://docs.google.com/file/d/0BzVkzgfA0Go1aGF1cExlMkVLbW8/edit?pli=1

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1hyNkVWfbvR8k0YzC5e1teYt-9H0RlK89hIeUToa5iv0/edit?pli=1&overridemobile=true#

It's been a long time since I've looked at these, but they could help. I cant think of any advice at the moment, but I will say that drugs help if you're willing to go that route.

>>19270

>>19271

are you ok


 No.23685

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Ganbatte.


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 No.23704

>>23698

Please spoiler your images, there are Canadians browsing this board.


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>>23698

>>23697

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(´_`) < daisukete.

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 No.24830

>>15633

>can't force your dreams to be enjoyable

You're literally being cucked by your subconscious anon


 No.24833

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>>24830

It's really not that hard to not, just stop giving a shit about whatever isn't a part of you and learn what three dimensional thinking is.


 No.24859

sme science fiction writers would pay thousands of dollars for link to this fucking board


 No.24860

>>19258

>I've been tulpaforcing for over a year without hearing any responses.

do you have schizophrenia running in family? it really helps




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