>>24225
Well, I didn't take a knife like you wanted. But I did do something stupid. Have a trip report, whether you want it or not.
5mg moxy, 5g kratom, and 75mg DPH was fine as usual. Comfortably energetic sexual euphoria with a fun short term memory zap.
But 100mg uridine beforehand may have made it hell. Could also just be not getting enough monoamine precursors in my diet. But uridine is known for its overdose feeling.
>Too much uridine and you'll likely feel emotionally dull / overly focused.
Anyway. Moxy's come up was still glorious. I could do nothing but wiggle in bed laughing my ass off as bursts of serotonin and opioid euphoria flowed across my body like an enhanced orgasm for 2 hours straight.
But then suddenly nothing. Flat nothing. More sober, lucid, and in control than ever before. Absolutely zero euphoria, happiness, crash, wired energy, nod, nothing. Like an associative disconnect, but not like a dissociative. The desire to wiggle and laugh stopped flat too.
I felt there. Strongly lucid, yet emotionally and energetically flat.
Did a ton of basic algebra extremely easily. Just random problems off the internet. That's usually impossible on moxy due to the memory zap. Which makes games AWESOME, like the first time playing them as a child, so it's not all bad.
Nothing produced pleasure though. Even managed to masturbate to climax, feeling nothing.
The worst part is that it didn't even scare me.
Since then I've taken full course of vitamins, some NALT, and 5HTP. And some vague feeling is coming back slowly.
Gotta make sure to eat right and not mix things like that it seems.