No.24077
Never interested in any job/work in general and rather lived in my own world. In middle school I wanted to be a journalist for gaming magazines, but thanks to the internet that job became quite obsolete. In high school I became less autistic, but was still fucked up. Got into literature, philosophy and psychology, wanted to become a psychiatrist to help people (and analyze them out of self-interest), but my grades were too bad -> Studied 5 semesters Philosophy+English... was boring, no friends, no love live, nothing but boredom -> spend most of my time watching anime... stopped going to uni.. became paranoid living in a shitty apartment -> Hikikomori+NEET... then I got the opportunity to study Psychology, but by then I was too fucked up, the materials were boring and crap etc... On paper I'm still studying... but in reality just a dirty NEET.
No hopes or wishes for the future, no interest in work (would rather be dead). So yeah, don't end up like me^^
As long as your family finances this lifestyle it's actually nice to have 24h free time. But there's always the constant dread and fear that it'll end some day.. and when the only solution is death it gets depressing -__-
I should write a book lol
TLDR: Being a NEET may be a nice lifestyle if you have hobbies and stuff to do, but it has no future and fucks up your life. If you're rather normal and have hopes, wishes or dreams, then do something with your life instead of becoming NEET!
No.24078
Have you considered going to the middle east and joining kurds in rojava?
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No.24091
i had a semi-lucid dream last night where i could browse exhentai doujinshi i had read in the past and my mental reconstructions of them were disturbingly accurate despite having read most of them only once.
No.24107
>>24091
If I sleep well, I sometimes have short scenes in my dreams, which happen roughly half a year later or so. I just cannot grasp it how does that happen, it shouldn't be possible.
No.24108
>>24107
It's called Deja vu.
As I kid it would sometimes happen to me and I'd believe that I had supercool psychic powers.
It was a pretty sad when I heard that everyone has them sometimes.
Also I used to believe that if I try hard enough I can eventually fly
No.24110
>>24108
>Deja vu
I sometimes remember those dreams in detail, including quotes of other people which got repeated some time later, does it still count?
No.24177
I sympathize with you OP. I failed 7 years of college, I'm in my 8th now and after I thought I got my shit together and managing to clear a semester, now I gone and fucked up and failed two classes. I think I'm gonna drop out and go become a cook.
No.24179
It should be easy to become a games journalist now, every man and dog with access to a microphone and webcam is doing it nowadays.
No.24194
I feel like im always on one end of two extremes.
Im either depressed, lathargic, lazy, cold body temperature, and passive (lets call it Yin)
Or Im over-energized, restless, hot, and angry (lets call this yang)
Now I know that if I smoke weed and jerk off alot, I will become more and more Yin.
When I abstain from these activities I become more yang. Working out and exercising also makes me more yang.
But how do I stay balanced?? I feel like im always at one end or the other, never in the middle.
I feel like someone on here has to know what im talking about
>inb4 bipolar, bipolar disorder mood swings happen over the course of weeks-months, my mood swings throughout a single day
No.24195
>>24194
Did you find some other ways of increasing "yang" than workout?
I've been experimenting with cold showers and different food and I found something strange, I switch between these two states almost randomly. It has to do with digestion and fresh air from outside, but I can't exactly find a specific formula
The mechanics of mood are a mystery to me. Sometimes I'll do fucking nothing for days and then suddenly I get a random surge of happiness and motivation. If only I know how to control these mechanics
No.24226
Man, there are WAY too many words in this topic. Tone it down.
No.24279
Feel when made a profile on fetish dating website and 40 year old men are all over my dick.
No.24280
>>24279
One guy is literally offering me to be a neet and in exchange I could do pervy stuff to him.
No.24282
first shift of work in my life tonight
not too late to run away...
No.24283
No.24299
>>24194
While it is true that bipolar mood swings are longer term, growing up around people with bipolar can supposedly affect you in such a way that you naturally mimic them in shorter bursts.
My family is filled with crazy on both sides. And I know it has affected me. Like, it feels normal to be on either end of the crazy since everyone else always was, and it doesn't matter which or when.
Despite what a lot of people will tell you, simple mood swings are fairly normal. But if they're uncontrollable and severe then that's where the problem starts. The whole point is to get them under control, not eliminate them.
There's only two solutions.
Drugs are the easiest, but only a patch to the issue that generally makes it worse in the long run. Then again, escapism is totally /jp/'s philosophy, so who gives a shit.
Behavioral therapy is the other. Whether it's from a therapist of some sort, simple meditation, or even just brute forcing habits to calm or excite you where necessary.
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No.24304
My flu or cold or whatever is almost gone but over the course of the sickness I seem to have had a few odd pimples or whatever pop up on both my legs and on my finger. I thought they were just normal pimples or maybe spider bites or whatever so I popped them and rinsed the wound with vinegar. But now there's just a painful hole where the pimple used to be. I hope it'll heal soon, it's a real bother
>>24303
hang in there pal
No.24306
>>24194
The misuse of the quote function is an abomination to the LORD,
but the correct is pure.
Proverbs 15:26
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No.24308
>>24307
He's probably gotta go to work
No.24309
No.24310
>>24308
Oh I get it, >>24282
You always have the option to quit if you don't like it. If you've reached hard enough to start, then you may as well give it a try. Worst case you can say you tried and use it as an excuse for autismbux.
No.24313
>>24283
It would be hard for now, since we live on other continents. I became his "daddy" though, even though he's older than me. For now I've sent him to a restaurant in a diaper.
No.24314
that was fucking awful
i'm seriously contemplating seppuku
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No.24316
>>24313
If you play your cards differently you could end up with comedy gold, but it would be very rude
No.24317
>>24314
Tell us more about how it was, let it out. It'll help mostly you, but us too.
Maybe this infamous "work" isn't as bad as the legends say?
No.24318
>>24316
I'd say dominating a 40 years old perv is comedy gold itself. I told him he must wear diapers to bed from now on and he actually agreed to it.
No.24319
>>24318
Not the guy you're talking to, but as a diaper fetishist myself, it's quite understandable.
He wants to give up control to someone else. To be told it's okay to relax it all away. To put it like a fag, 'Give up the burden of the potty'.
Diaper lovers can be fun to hang around if they manage the smell well. Equal embarrassment makes everyone feel at home.
Long as you can either tolerate or avoid the adult babies. That shit can get creepy as HELL.
No.24320
>>24319
I'm just amazed how willing is he to obey some guy on the interne telling him to piss himself at night. Also four people are hitting on me simultaneously, is this how girls feel like?
No.24326
I had some girls sneaking glances at me the other day in the gym, but it is hard to know if it was because I now have muscles or if it was because I look very ugly. Another victory for 2D: They never look at you in the first place.
No.24361
>>24320
I made him wear a buttplug under a diaper and onesie for at least 4 hours, after that he was allowed to pull it out, but he couldn't use anything but the diaper for toilet things.
（・∀・）
No.24363
>>24361
I've done that before. It's quite relaxing and pleasant.
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No.24374
>>24370
Your emoticon looks like it has a hat.
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No.24451
I'm getting really tired of wageslavery and being surrounded by normalfags all day.
It's really ironic how people always put so much emphasis on being social, but when you go out into the world the people you meet are the most anti-social fucks you will ever meet.
Everyone is busy with themself and nobody gives a shit about who you are or how you feel. You could be crying and on the brink of suicide in a crowd of people and all you would get is weird looks.
Even interactions with people you meet every day will just boil down to stupid meaningless and shallow bullshit.
If you let your emotions come out you will be labaled as a weirdo, because in public you are supposed to be strong and independant.
It's really strange how on the internet I'm able to be more social and open about myself to complete strangers than I could ever be to people I've known in real life for years.
Thank you /jp/ for being my emotional outlet
No.24452
>>24451
Don't you have real friends?
No.24471
>>24451
The only thing more articulate than this post is watching someone get crushed by a bus and having pedestrians and motorists carry on in indifference or people whipping out their smartphones to get some fresh shots.
No.24472
My favorite Touhou game is 8 because the setting and atmosphere remind me of taking it easy and getting drunk on a warm and breezy summer night.
No.24474
>>24451
I know what you mean. It's why I always roll my eyes when a piece of media try's to preach to the anti social or introverted about coming out of their "fantasy world" or whatever by showcasing a fantasy depiction of the real world that those introverted people know is bogus.
No.24478
>>24451
>It's really strange how on the internet I'm able to be more social and open about myself to complete strangers than I could ever be to people I've known in real life for years.
I somehow think this is a standard for all imageboard users
No.24479
>>24478
True, but I've never really appreciated it before, it was just natural to me.
But after spending such a long time amongst normal people I feel really happy that we live in a time where the internet exists and I feel really happy to have a place on the internet that I can call "home".
I'm not sure why, but I guess I've had some kind of expectations in normal people even though I've resented them even before.
Maybe being exposed to them so much now made it grow into a grudge, and one day I will end up hating everyone.
That would be pretty unreasonable, but it can't be helped
No.24489
>>24474
>piece of media try's to preach to the anti social or introverted
what and where
No.24692
i'm no stranger to internal hemorrhoids and anal fissures but i got my first external today and it feels really weird. kinda like a rubbery bubble tickling a fissure that isn't there. mgsv the phantom anus
No.24737
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No.24738
NEET for 4+ years here, seriously considering becoming an hero but I want to prove that I am worth something. Somehow.
Chin up, OP. There is genetic waste out there worse than you.
No.24739
had a wet dream last night where i kidnapped and forced a little girl to finger herself and i came just by watching. i hate being a pedophile.
No.24753
8 years of being a dirty neet. The thought of improvement never did seem necessary when socially I've deteriorated so much and I already enjoy the solitary life.
No.24754
neets have the power to do great things, but power corrupts
No.24759
>>24752
But he won't bring communeetism like sir Sanders!
No.24760
>>24759
>>24752
yall gonna have to work again
No.24768
>>24752
racist attention whore trust fund kiddy
No.24771
>>24769
noscript is nice thing ...
No.24773
>>24771
your momma's pussy is much better tho ;)
No.24777
will i ever escape the torment of my own ass?
No.24784
>>24752
It felt a lot nicer voting for him than voting for the souless scumbags in last election. It was also the first warm day of the year. I still wish the government would let me worry about myself.
No.24789
I think I'm NEET by design...
No.24791
>>24777
I want to be tormented by a cute NEET girl's ass.