/kind/ - Random Acts of Kindness

>>23949

Eww, fat and old. Nice shirt, though.

>>23950

I'm too lazy to reverse google her and search for her twitter etc. but I remember her being very fine. Her face is a bit generic, but it's the kind of imperfection it's good to learn to appreciate. I'd say it's chubbiness done right, at least in most of her carefully prepared photos

>>23949

That's a very good way to put it. I've been struggling to describe my experience with the same. There's this girl I always talk to that I used to like. OK that's an understatement, I was obsessed with her. I stopped talking to everyone outside my family except her for six months (due to mental illness). I brought up the way I currently feel about her yesterday and I felt a transformation in my brain. Like you said, it made me feel a kind of energy. Or more like the energy that I feel usually shifted. I didn't start acting differently or anything, but my perception of the world just churned. This happens every once in a while, especially because of her. And I'm completely clueless as to why. I have schizoaffective disorder, and the time before that one I felt such a shift and I stopped going to school. I'm still out. So this is a crucial thing for me to understand. I feel like neuroscience is kind of missing something which is why my disorder isn't fully understood.

>>23969

Everyone has some "disorder", big or small. At least you know how yours is called and you can investigate it to better understand yourself. It's so fucking annoying I have no insight what my body wants and what it is doing, for instance now.

One of the examples is that I'm lacking the need to interact with people or form relationships with women. I'm not afraid of these things, but I just don't feel the need to. I have no idea what is going on except it's a tiny part of complex web of processes in me that I don't understand. I think I should start from doing blood tests and consult them with someone?

The problem is I'm on a stack of aphrodisiacs and healthy libido diet right now and weeks into no fap, because I'm experimenting with my sexual energy on my own.

>>23950

I think she's cute, chubby enough but not too out there.

>>23970

>The problem is I'm on a stack of aphrodisiacs and healthy libido diet right now and weeks into no fap, because I'm experimenting with my sexual energy on my own.

Lel there you go

>>23973

She's kind of flat for a chubby chick. Bigger tits and I would fug.

Yo homie, if you don't want that interaction, then why try and force it by choking yourself on chems? Just sit back and chill nigga.

>>23975

>>24027

I've been doing nothing for some time now and I'm not getting anywhere.

Besides, my "healthy libido diet" is basically Korean Ginseng and Ginko Biloba, so 2 pills at the morning + watermelon, ginseng, seafood, celery etc. Is gingeng and biloba that bad, for one month?

>>24030

Right dog, my point wasn't a dig at your diet, but for the whole reason you are doing it in the first place. You said you don't feel the need to interact, so why bother doing anything about it? Go do something you want to do instead. It would be a different matter if you wanted to socialise but were unable to. So again, just kick back and relax.

>>23949

…But who is the chubby asian chick OP

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization_disorder

I know I'm bringing back a dead thread but fuck it, this isn't reddit, if you're still here OP, I think you have depersonalization disorder.

Personally I only felt the way you describe a few times, usually when I haven't slept much, in fact, at one time I even thought my body wasn't a part of me and was just some robot which I operated, sometimes it felt like it moved and did things on autopilot. I wasn't even high.

>>24460

https://twitter.com/damaid_911

>>26015

nice.. thanks anon. though this raises more questions.