>>28555
Damn, the second part of my post is almost intelligible.
I wanted to say, it would be very useful to have a glimpse into a mind of successful artist, or perhaps into the mind of anyone very skilled in any craft.
From the little I read and talked with artists/skilled people, they get high off the subjects they're drawing. When they're drawing a human face expressing an emotion, during intense focus they make the same face as they draw, and it's like they're in trance. At other times, when drawing either porn or landscape, they're in state of "intense appreciation", that is, experiencing sexual or weed-like high.
I think the key to learning to draw is to magick yourself into such state, and you do that by relocating the emotional resources you spend fapping or playing games into drawing.
The problem is, and enormous one at that, when you're wired to derive pleasure from doing unproductive things and not from eg. drawing. Then, to get into drawing, would be like forcing yourself to hunt wild animals despite the fact you have all the food available in the grocery store. You don't draw because it makes no sense: you can satisfy yourself more efficiently with a simple fap or dopamine rushes from clicking links on the Internet all day.
All notable artists have always been people with high reserves of desire. When you make yourself feel good through watching tv all day, you're spending all your desire there.