/late/ - Late Nights

>be gay

>introverted, but love snuggling and being close to friends

>have a couple of friends who I can snuggle with

>but don't always do it for fear of being "clingy"

>haven't seen either of them in a little while, and in the odd occasion I do visit, there is no snuggling

>just wanna snuggle

need muh fix

>mfw i just realized i can't remember her name

>mfw i even dreamed about her last night but i don't know as little her fucking name

I'm seriously getting worried of what's happening to my memory. I can't recall most of the names of people I've met almost daily for a year. I've likely heard their names being spelled out at least 100 times but I still can't remember them.

The only person I think about from time to time is my first love, because I did her wrong for lashing out at her. I don't want to be with her, but I do want to say I'm sorry and hold her tight like I use to in high school. She always smiled even when things were bad.

>>1773

>considered myself straight

>met this guy

>we have great talks for hours

>he's smart, caring, witty, positive and appreciates all the weird things I do

>On some other things we are polar opposites

>It's a perfect mix

>fear that my gloomy attitude will only drag him down anyway

>I don't know what's happening to me

>He lives across the country and will probably never feel the same way

So this is what first love feels like… Thought better of it.

Pic semi-related (inb4 edgy teen-shit)

>>1788

If it's any solace, I experienced this thrice. Best thing is to be honest about your feelings and hope for the best. Also, even if you are rejected, it doesn't mean it's the end of that relationship. Although it was two out of three times for me.

Confront people with how you feel, be it romance or misery, because people often react positively and try to comfort you (and knowing people care for you can be very comforting). If you pent it up you will just get frustrated and might take it out on those people, which is a terrible place to be in.

Also, it doesn't get better.

Polite sage.

>>1797

To be honest, I'm not even sure if I just like him a great deal and this might be just an awesome friendship or if I really love him. I've been a loner for way too long to be able to differentiate.

Thanks for caring though. I'll give it some time to see where we are headed at…

Osaka. She is literally perfect.

https://8ch.net/c/res/435.html

>>1779

>>1783

Worse, my closest friend (both symbolically and geographically) recently got a boyfriend, and so there have been no snuggles since…

help ;_;

>>1780

i know what you mean anon. it's been a good few years now and i've still never felt the way i did about her for anyone. all i can think about when she crosses my mind is "i could have done differently, then maybe things would have gone differently". and i don't exactly want her back. just to hold her once again and let her know how much i regret not doing better. not sure if i should give her name or not, but fuck it, why not. her name was Chelsie. the name i hear in my head like a white-hot nail.

shit man, that feels good to get out, even to random people on the internet. thanks /late/

>>1775

>>1779

>>1783

Visited a friend, played vidya, had snuggles

and then it escalated to sex

Welp. Kinda sated!

She doesnt have a name, but oh god i need to meet her soon

>>1787

3 weeks and things have gone about 90 degrees straight down. I can't say I'm surprised anymore. I always seem to grab the shortest straw when it comes to relationships. I still have hopes that things may go well, but I won't hold my breath.

Two girls. One of which has been dating a close friend of mine for several years, the other is an ex/ now close friend. They are seemingly the only members of the opposite sex that have accepted my quirks/imperfections and I can't have either of them. I'd like to say I'm an alright person, both in looks and personality. Not great, but alright. I seem to attract people I'm not too fond of. These two are perfect for me. I'm around them frequently and am aware of their "flaws" which I personally think add to their beauty. Not having them leaves me feeling like this.