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New Years resolutions are a marketing scheme to sell fad diets, but I see no reason why leftists shouldn't pursue self-improvement. Let's have a thread to talking about getting fit, getting read, and developing skills.

I've got my current routine down, but I'm looking for books on syndicalism and communization. Can some anons help me out?



Facebook? I can't use facebook because I got addicted to it, just like twitter and whatnot.



Repeat after me: Calypso... Calypso could... Calypso could not...



Yep, you called it.


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I'm suffering…………

My life is in shambles…………


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now you can start to rebuild it on a more solid foundation


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My studies are failing and I am too old to start new study……………

Always hungry, no money, no direction in life……………


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What study do you do?

I dont have a direction in life either, other than a vague want to learn more CS so I can do socialist cybernetics.


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I study CS but haven't attended since 4th semester……………………………



What semester are you in right now?

>TFW have 5 courses instead of the normal 2

>TFW havent gone any classes this quarter

>TFW have to start pulling 9-5's almost every day to catch up

We can do this together, comrade!

What subjects are you struggling with?


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Is in fourth semester, didn't even attend exams for third semester, but finished prerequisites……….

Not so much struggle with subjects, just mostly uninterest in anything………………


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Don't give up Ceras! If you need help, just say. I could give you a few study tips and maybe even help with the courses if it's something I also studied.



What does a single course entail for you? We usually had 7-9 courses per semester, only having 2 courses seems to be really off…



Well, you, me and pretty much anybody attending CS.

If your study is anything like mine, its mindnumbingly boring and you hardly learn anything.

It really does help if you go to school every day, even if you have no classes, and go to every class. The routine helps you do work.

Just pick a subject and power through it for a whole day, makes sure its done so that you dont have to look at it anymore.



Well my workload at the moment is:

>One lecture a week about advanced software engineering

>One lecture a week about data science

>Writing a report in english and giving a presentation

>A half year long project about realising a product

This is the normal courses, which would be the normal workload if i hadnt fucked up last year. Additional shit I have to do:

>One lecture a week about security

>One lecture a week about statistics

>One lecture a week about linear optimisation


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Going to go meeting with student advisor tomorrow…………….

Hate studying so much……..

Just going to get a lame job anyway……………………



You would only have two lectures (both two hour long I suppose?) and that's all? No laboratories, no recitations? I always wondered about this since I read a book about how to study properly and it had an example of a typical day of an American student and he had two lectures a day and that's it, meanwhile I had to attend classes from 8 to 16 (sometimes 18) regularly. Which country is this if you don't mind asking?


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That's good, I hope you can figure out something together!



>You would only have two lectures (both two hour long I suppose?)

Both 2-4 hours long, yes.

>No laboratories

Nope, self-study

>no recitations?

What's the point of this? Don't you already do the test at the end of the period?

>8 to 16

Lol dude hate your life, that reminds me of middle/highschool. I am doing the same hours though, for self study. But sitting and having to actively listen to some teacher for 8 hours straight is fucking torture which you don't learn shit from. You learn shit by doing it after having it explained to you, not by listening to teachers for hours on end.

Being able to hit the gym halfway through the day is way better than having mandated hours of listing.

>Which country is this if you don't mind asking?

The netherlands.

Not I would have you know that I used to have more classes in the previous years, and that my school isn't known to be, eh…, good.



How much credit are your courses worth?



The one lecture a week ones are 4 points.



Don't you need 30 credits per semester, though?



I do. 4 periods per year.

8 points from lectures this period

8 points next period

6 points from project this period

6 points from project next period

3 points from skills lessons for the whole year

1 point from "career"

25 points from internship

3 points from literature study

A total of 60 for the whole year


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>25 points from internship

What the fuck, we had to do internships but they were worth zero credits.





If there is anything you learn anything from, it is that. Fuck knows I dont learn shit in school.



That's because your school is shit.



Fair point.

>Trying to write a parser generator in F#

>Keep struggling against the type system

I think I might have my parser generator finished in a week of my free time or so.



I want to get a masters degree after this in CS (not software engineering, done with that shit). Any advice?


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>Keep struggling against the type system

You are doing it wrong, types are supposed to help you. Read this, it's a lot shorter than it seems and will hopefully make types seem friendlier. It uses SML but it should be pretty straightforward to modify the code for F#. It uses a question-answer format so you should actually think about the answers before reading them.


What kind of advice? I did computer engineering, not CS, and my masters wasn't that different from BSc I just had less regular coursework and a lot more "research type" independent work. I could give tips for the latter but other than that there's not much to say.



>I want to get a masters degree after this in CS (not software engineering, done with that shit).

Why didn't you like SE? What's more appealing about CS for you?



I want to learn more than just uml and scrum. I would like to learn some kind of mathematics about programs, because we don't get any mathematics. Even statistics is just "remember there commands"



UML is pretty cool once you stop being anal about strictly following the standard though


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Well, okay, here goes:

I got a lot of shit to shovel. I'm a 1st world NEET, I'm completely alienated, there's no real outlet or counseling for me. I'm gonna eventually get a freeter job soon (I've put that off for a year now), I was really hoping to devote myself to personal study but I instead gave into the constant rewards & validation from instant messaging. I still have an over abundance of free time for awhile longer. I'm unable to fully embrace outside life, so it's still just bed to desk. A lot just sorta went wrong from early on, but I digress. My main problem is I need to learn math (GED level, yes, I'm below grade school level) and also pickup an easy at-home trade: I keep saying I'm going to write a book, learn a second language, or learn a coding language. Also, I only know basic theory from conversations.




>Also, I only know basic theory from conversations.

I can maybe help with that.


the current book is quite long and challenging but check out the archive link for the first thread on Wage, Labour & Capital. Some anon also posted their reading notes on that thread, they might help you while reading.



Uninstall discord and whatever instant messaging programs you have, uninstall all games, install leech block, block twitter, Facebook, youtube, Instagram, reddit and any chan you are on. Remove all games from your phone too. Turn sound and vibration notification from whatsapp off, or at least do it for any group chat you are in. If you want to do really well, do not turn on your pc at all. Put your phone on a charger out of reach, if people need you they can text or call you.

Set goals for yourself to train self dicipline and control, to make you feel in control. This cans be things like

>no more sweets or sodas

>not fapping for a week

Don't choose goals that require an active action, choose goals that require constant resistance against habits. You will notice that to resist these habits, you need to distract yourself. And because you cu off all useless distractions, the only options are to read, learn, make art or work out, things that are good for you as a person.

Try this and report back no more than once a day. Once a day, just boot up the pc, go straight to this thread, report and reply, then turn the pc off again. No checking other threads, no "just gonna see if there is new replies" or "just one youtube video".

Good luck.



Oh right, as for the "work from home", that is going to be really hard.

There is something psychological about this, you associate places and things with activities. Your home, and especially your room, are associated with distractions and games, with not doing work. If you try to work there, you subconsciously go to the other associations.

As a best advice I would tell you to go to a different place to learn and work. Don't try to work from home, go to a library or some other public place associated with learning or working. You will be less likely to get distracted and you limit the types of distractions you have access to. This has the addes benwfit of getting yoy out of the house, and a change of scenery ia healtho and will make you mentally feel better. If there is anything that makes you feel like shit, it is staying within the same 20 meters a whoke day. If this really is not an option (because you live on the moon or something), get a laptop to exclusively use for work. Go sit in a different room from your bedroom or relax room, it will reduce association with bad habits. Do not put any games on the laptop or use it for distractions, it will ruin the entire point of it.

Also, if you have the money and time, and would like a clean break for a while, pack your bags, do not pack any electronics, get an old Nokia to put your sim card in, pack some books, paper and pens, and go camping for a week or more. You will be outside, away from all the shit that is fucking you up and can do a mental reset. You will feel absolutely amazing.




these are both good pieces of advice and they help (when I follow them, naturally)


You're all gonna make it, but check out >>37700 and get read as well as fit.


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I think my parser generator works.

But I have created left recursion.

I'm going to need to write an algorithm to eliminate left recursion.

If anyone has any experience and wants to waste their time giving me pointers, this is my AST

type MatchingRule=
| SingleChar of char
| OR of MatchingRule * MatchingRule //exclusive OR (XOR)
| Not of MatchingRule * MatchingRule //do_match * dont_match
| Multiple of MatchingRule list
| Repeat of MatchingRule
| Block of MatchingRule
| Reference of string //calls a saved MatchingRule to parse the text further
| AnyChar //wildcard for any character

Should be pretty standard as far as AST's go me thinks.



Oh right, just so you remember, this is shitty school anon, I cant read any of those fancy greek maths symbols they use online.



What are you trying to do? You get a grammar and want a function that transforms it so that it no longer contains left-recursive rules?


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Treading water this week. No backtracking but no real progress

>Spend a maximum of 15 hours of free time a week online; no more than 5 hours should be on image boards or social media

Watched a bit more youtube than last week but otherwise I'm still working on curbing my use

>Buy lunch twice a week

Didn't do this this week

>Eliminate all junk food from my diet and drink half a litre of water a day

A few snacks here and there but nothing like I used to eat

>Go from a BMI of 29 to 25-26 and build noticeable muscle

Going to weigh myself tomorrow, I think I've been eating too much pasta.

>Learn twenty new recipes


>Reread the manifesto, Capitalist Realism; read Capital, Cockshott, and two other major texts

Mostly just read manga

>Finish my backlog of vidya, anime, and manga


Not repeating completed goals anymore


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>Uninstall discord and whatever instant messaging programs you have, uninstall all games, install leech block, block twitter, Facebook, youtube, Instagram, reddit and any chan you are on. Remove all games from your phone too. Turn sound and vibration notification from whatsapp off, or at least do it for any group chat you are in. If you want to do really well, do not turn on your pc at all. Put your phone on a charger out of reach, if people need you they can text or call you.

I'm going to do this to force myself to meet my internet goal. Sick of putting off my other goals so I can grapple with internet usage


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Finally quit my job, going back to freelance.

There my new planning

Goals :

<going back in shape losing about 15kg.

<resume my academic work and some side project.

<Re-organize side projects and publish them

<Try to finish writing a small novel

<Finish up reading the books that i orders.

<Resume learning electronics

<Resume learning some fucking Japanese

<Writing scripts for personal uses that will simplify my productivity

<Try out Big Query for sample data about products diversity + consummation by population per region


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You're gonna make it anon.



I wonder what happened to Ceras.


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alright so weekly update

Socializing Instances: Family only, Easter get-together, only person I talked to was my cousin who's my age. It kind of stung when he unveiled he got a coop in Germany and everyone was impressed, still jelly.

Socializing progress: was able to talk about basic things, but only stuff that interested me. Somehow able to come out of my shell when arguing with Grandma that privatizing Hydro is bad.

Current stance Social progress: still nonexistent, family is a heck of a lot easier than strangers, still can barely manage a squeak when talking even to a cashier at 7/11 this week.

Future plans: try and look for clubs that interest me, gonna be hard since the semester is almost over and exams next week. (suggestions?)

Fun Facts: I'm 75% sure my family thinks I'm gay because of stuff I've said/done over the years without realizing how gay that is. Doesn't help that I have an effeminate build. Or that I keep my GF a secret.

dunno what to do now, not much progress overall and I don't know what the next bar to reach for is.


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>Fun Facts: I'm 75% sure my family thinks I'm gay because of stuff I've said/done over the years without realizing how gay that is. Doesn't help that I have an effeminate build. Or that I keep my GF a secret.

>This antisocial sperg who cant even speak to strangers has a gf

>I don't



Maybe it's a daki?



no she's just another anti-social shut-in I met at therapy who tried to kill herself. More best friends than anything but we fucked so um.


it's not as exciting as it sounds. Sex isn't good and whoever says that has never had sex. Also the relationship varies. Mine just means we say incredibly offensive stuff to each other and giggle.


Didn't report in Sunday, keeping fit, no cheat meals, and currently rewriting my script for what I hope is the final time. Pretty sure I can shoot it without using too much resources, but I'm going to continue to autodidact shooting so it can be shot quickly.


Getting a gf is hard fam, finding someone you like spending time with is difficult. Just fuck thots using Tinder or something to get your dick wet so you don't fuck up your first time when you do meet a girl you like and who likes you.



>Just fuck thots using Tinder or something

Helping the less-advanced posters in this thread will go a lot easier once we acknowledge that 'fucking thots on Tinder' is a skill that not everybody has by default. There are a lot of component steps that, if you learned/did them early, aren't easily identifiable as component steps. For example, to bag a single Tinder thot at the minimum you would need: 1) At least one decent/normal photo of yourself, 2) Basic knowledge of modern texting etiquette, 3) The ability not to freak out at the thought of having sex with somebody. Lots of people had completed those steps by the time they were out of high school, and most of the remainder had completed them by the time they graduated higher education. However, we're dealing with people who regularly post on one of the tiniest, nichest, deadest, gayest, anime-est imageboards on the internet. Expectations of social competence are entirely unwarranted when it comes to people to post anime without shame.


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>one of the deadest imageboards

Seriously though, on average after how many tinder convos should you have managed to settle a hookup? I feel like I can check out all 3 of those points but I've only ever had one tinder date which hasn't led to sex (so far at least, we're still texting). Most convos eventually go nowhere even when they're fun. I'm 90% sure people who claim they can get thots through tinder whenever they want are almost always lying.


>Sex isn't good and whoever says that has never had sex.

That's exagerrating it but yeah; sex is overrated. still sexually frustrated



also follow up question, are you guys sometimes explicit about wanting to have sex when talking to girls on tinder? What's the best way to estimate if a girl is down to fuck in the first place or if she's just looking for attention?

Kind of pissed because one or two weeks ago the most frustrating thing happened:

>text tinder girl

>get her number after like 3 messages

>smooth convo, she wants to meet up

>she says she doesn't have a dorm yet (we're students)

>say that she can stay over at my place (""""on a spare mattress"""")

>she agrees

>text her on day of the date

>says she's sick and forgot about it, apologizes

>I see then she has unmatched me on tinder

>text her anyway 2 days later to ask if she's feeling alright

>doesn't answer

I can't think of 1 psychological explanation for this behavior except maybe wanting attention. I've had similar shit happen to me on tinder. How the fuck can you avoid this? Do you need to be autistically explicit?



1) start working out 2) No idea how to teach, really have to play it by ear and not be an asshole 3)Get a hooker to pop their cherry or stop being a pussy. Sex isn't that big of a deal and according to female friends most dudes are shit at it anyways.


>Seriously though, on average after how many tinder convos should you have managed to settle a hookup?

I talked to a girl for 2 weeks before fucking her, but for me I can usually get with them within three days if they're interested. Of course most conversations don't end in meeting, but I've got a big enough pool of women around due to living in a major city to not worry about it. Ultimately it relies on the girl actually being interested in you and having time, the former which relies on you having good pics and not being a massive faggot and the latter being out of your control.


>are you guys sometimes explicit about wanting to have sex when talking to girls on tinder?

Yeah, especially if they're forward about it. It's good to be clear about what you're looking for, like I'll say I don't want a gf but am just looking to have fun. It doesn't always end in sex, but one time I went drinking with some girl and then we ended up smoking weed and watching movies and that was pretty cool.

>What's the best way to estimate if a girl is down to fuck in the first place or if she's just looking for attention?

If she asks to see dick or says she wants to fuck. Obvious shit aside, it's really hard to tell just from messages but if she's interested she'll usually want to meet, a lot of times this ends in sex because it's tinder and they know what they're looking for.

>How the fuck can you avoid this?

You can't. It doesn't matter how good you look or anything else, you will sometimes get strung along. Just move on and forget about the bitch.



Examples of good pictures? Going to the gym doesnt create pictures, it just makes me more healthy.



My parents fucked me up by instilling 1900's quasi-religious views about sex into me while we live in a country where these kinds of morals do not exist anymore, all the while encouraging my destructive behaviour of not going out and being a shutin. It doesn't help that my is a control freak who can't keep anything secret and doesn't know what boundaries are, and my dad is an emotional dead sack, so I can't share anything or ask them for any real advice.

If I ever have a kid of my own I am going to raise them to not be a miserable sack of shit like I was raised to be. I just hope to god they won't be as semi-autistic and retarded as I acted when I was a kid. It's no wonder people didn't like me.



Getting in shape helps because you generally look better, but there's many more reasons to keep fit than looking better for a dating app. Basic shit is to take shots of yourself only, avoid wearing hats or glasses, and avoid making it look like a selfie. What looks flattering varies from person to person, but keep what you have going for you and use angles that capitalize on it, like fit dudes making sure to highlight their build or prettyboys showcasing eyes and face. You'll see a lot of models used as an example looking away from the camera with an expressionless look, if you can pull that off it's great but most of us don't have the time/skill to take a picture that looks good or resources to pay for someone to, so simply smiling at the camera will work for most guys. Lastly pets help a lot, if you have a dog or a cat fit a pic with you and the critter in there somewhere.


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Things aren't going very well for me. Working for my shitty boss is hard and… Ah fuck it I can't be bothered to type it out. I just can't do this for much longer. I hate my life.


Yup. Still want to kill myself.

Give me reasons why I should go on at all. The only reason I haven't ended it yet is because it would make my family sad.



To make porky pay for his crimes of course.



I don't have any tool with which I can do anything. No weapons, no bombs, no materials to do anything. I cannot change society, I am entirely powerless in a world that doesn't want me in it, that has consistently told me I am failed, worthless sack of shit, who will never have anyone who cares about him other than out of obligation. I will have to spend my life working a job making useless stuff to make the rich richer, while not giving myself any energy to do fullfilling things. And even if there was time, I do not have anything that fullfills me. Games give me no enjoyment anymore, nor does media. Programming doesnt give me fullfillment, drawing doesn't either. Even going out and being social doesnt do anything but make me feel somewhat neutral (not even happy) only for the duration of the going out, dropping me back down as soon as I leave.

Life is just going through the motions, a meaningless act of sadness, making nobody happy, being unwanted by everyone, only there to slave away 9 to 5 or more to make useless products to make the rich richer. I have no goal, I do not have any control over my destiny, and any alternative of running away from all this will just be even more misarable than the life path I am on now, because without a degree I would have to spend long days doing even more intensive manual labour for barely or unlivable wages. I do not understand how the proles of the industrial revolution did not kill themselves off, them having to work 16 hour days and sleeping hung over ropes, constantly in hunger.



Il est un produit merveilleux expérimenté par la science

Et qui pour nous les miséreux fera naître l'indépendance

Tant mieux s'il éclate parfois en faisant beaucoup de victimes

Chez nos ennemis les bourgeois cela nous venge de leurs crimes

Prenez une marmite bourrée de dynamite

Quelque soit la saison en faisant explosion la nouvelle ira vite

Car pour inspirer la terreur il n'y a rien de meilleur que la dynamite

On guillotine Ravachol un copain qui avait de l'envergure

Aujourd'hui c'est un espagnol qu'on fusille pour son allure

Il su montrer à son tour qu'il était un homme invincible

En plus qu'il promettait qu'un jour la vengeance serait terrible

Vive la dynamite puisque l'on nous irrite

A chaque exécution nous mettrons en action notre arme favorite

Car pour semer la terreur il n'y a rien de meilleur que la dynamite

Vous pouvez dresser l'échafaud la potence et la guillotine

Nous nous avons ce qu'il nous faut pour vous faire sauter en sourdine

Si vous croyez qu'ça finira

Vous êtes loin de votre affaire

Pour un homme qu'on nous tueras nous en foutrons 500 par terre

Avec la dynamite nous répondrons de suite

Casernes et prisons sans flûte et sans violons danseront au plus vite

Car pour semer la terreur il n'y a rien de meilleur que la dynamite



quebecois et francais?



My brother went to Louisiana once



then why type in French? I just assumed the halting french was because you were a quebecois idiot






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What kind of routine do I need to follow to achieve this kind of summer body?



Plastic surgery.



Become 2D


Is /leftpol/ into travelling?

I like to travel and see underappreciated places "off the beaten track"™, but I kinda feel like a dumb "wanderlust" libtard for doing this. Am I?


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congrats anon, you are DEAD now

dedicate your life to revolution or whatever the fuck, after all the DEAD have no wants or needs. if you think "this is bullshit I'm going to stop i feel bad" well that's ridiculous the DEAD don't think

might as well right, death is final and empty so literally anything is at the very least equivalent to it


yes, very much so. the thing about the 'traveller of AUTHENTIC' tm is that the search of authenticity itself undermines the authenticity. authenticity itself is a commodity, as with the gentrification process.

but still, I travel as much as I can, also looking for 'real' experiences as much as I can. honestly by now it feels like I only live for that ~one month a year I get to travel, the rest is just existing though at least for the last year reality hasn't been that awful

I personally prefer cities to countryside or natural landscapes. I've seen just about all of Europe. 6 or so more countries to go.



I like travelling and finding things in forgotten places. My favourite thing to do in china was wander around in the mountains on the old paths with trees fallen over them, and no people on them, finding cool shit like gravesites, watertanks you could climb on (probably wasn't allowed) and a literal hoxha-esque bunker on the far end of a dead end, hard to reach path next to a sign telling me to not go any further cause it was a military area.

God knows I fucking did not like the fucking city. Every block was like the next, with people everywhere and the same shit to do as the next block over. I did like the one time I went to cycle around the whole island and I ended up in some kind of ghetto-like place where a nice train conductor helped me find a bus (the only person who spoke english in the entire ghetto, probably) because it was getting dark.

It's not that I hare "the beaten track", its that I like to find stuff on my own more. I don't like being taken somewhere on a bus, I would rather wander around for a while with only a rough idea where to go, changing plans if I see something cool.



How you do that


Feel better today, had decent night rest. Still think maybe maybe maybe I have some form of bipolar disorder or something.

Is this a good workout scheme?




Crunches are bad, do this instead: http://www.nick-e.com/deadbug



Any suggestion that doesn't look like I have a mental disability?



Yeah, do some real sports instead of monotonously repeating the same movements like some autist.



Any suggestion for people who do not have any sports they even remotely enjoy?



It's good to start with, but don't neglect cardio.


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Hay, so i have a problem with anxiety when it comes to talking to other leftists. this anxiety never pops up when talking to normal people about communism, in fact i'm much more spirited and passionate when talking about it with people who like to know more about it or debate me on my politics, competent voice,looking straight at people when talking and don't stutter much. Compare that with how i talk and feel around leftists,usually at stores or meetings, my voice becomes frail, feel unsteady like i may fall over and after the experience feel like crap, but feel a bit good that i'm talking to fellow leftys.

How do i get over this?



>How do i get over this?

I don't know, why do you dislike talking to other leftists? Do you dislike sectarian infighting, not knowing as much, or just dislike the people in organizations around where you live?



>I don't know, why do you dislike talking to other leftists?

I'm ok with talking with leftists. It's more the fear I might say the wrong word in the wrong crowd and have people see me in a negative light and get blacklisted.

I have had good talks with other leftists, they just seemed less ideologically charged and more willing to talk to others who had different ideologies then themselves.



Then why are you anxious? It sounds like you're doing fine.



>Talking to other leftists

>Even knowing other leftists IRL



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Not feeling it lately lads. I'm pleased that I'm getting the equivalent of a full-time job in this month's shift schedule but between work and life shit I'm fucking beat. I should be grateful that I can pay my rent and then some this month but I'm not making any progress anymore. I don't even really come here that much, I just watch anime, clean my body, talk with my parents every now and then and do household chores. I don't have the mental ability to give people advice and encouragement here like I used to and it feels bad man.

Sorry for being negative but I just felt like I had to vent


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Also I don't know if continuing to advertise the thread here is doing anything of value. If posting the reminder in both trash threads is helping anyone I'll try to remember but to be quite honest familia I'd feel better extracting myself from irony-poisoned social media twitter/facebook/4chan/something awful nonsense if there's no point in doing it anymore




Godspeed camarada





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Juggling a job and anything is hard, but as long as you do what you can you should be happy.


At this point I think anons are here and working on whatever goals they have and advertisement doesn't do anything. I'm not sure this thread needs more traffic, but if we wanted it an initiative to create quality within the thread, like cooking tutorials or other shit related to skills would be best.


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Still wanna die. I think we should have a leftydepression thread or something for when you can't make the effort to improve anything and just dream about walking into traffic. I truly begin to understand the wisdom of 'you die if you work'. They don't even pay me what I'm owed, fucking cheats and liars. If I had a gun like in Americlap I'd blow them all away.


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There's something uniquely disgusting about the atmosphere of grocery stores.

Bitterness aside I hope you're all doing ok or are making strides to becoming a better person. Love you all


how do i move past the guilt of things i've done in the past


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>the search of authenticity itself undermines the authenticity. authenticity itself is a commodity, as with the gentrification process.

true, also a more mundane problem is that the backpack culture associated with this search of authenticity is often obnoxious and/or cringy. I still think attempts at "authentic" travelling (in whatever form), such as couchsurfing which I've had good experiences with, are superior to merely crossing out bucketlist landmarks - I'm really done with that.

>I personally prefer cities to countryside or natural landscapes. I've seen just about all of Europe. 6 or so more countries to go.

Cool, for me it's mostly nature, mountains and villages but I like city life too. Did you have a favorite country? I'm thinking of travelling to Georgia/Armenia this summer, not sure yet.


>It's not that I hare "the beaten track", its that I like to find stuff on my own more. I don't like being taken somewhere on a bus, I would rather wander around for a while with only a rough idea where to go, changing plans if I see something cool.

Yeah exactly, this is what I meant too.

>hoxha-esque bunker

You should also go to albania and see the original(tm) hoxha bunkers which are spread all over the country. Been there only like 3 days, but I loved it and want to see more of the country as soon as I can. (pic related)


How about running? I have trouble getting into serious fitness because it's so tiring, but running is something you become better at quickly and it's often very satisfying. Seriously I've had days where I went from feeling down to feeling genuinely energetic after a run. If you think it's too boring but then how would you not find workouts equally boring just listen to some music while doing it, which is what I always do. I have to admit it won't give you a lot of sweet gainz though except possibly in the legs.


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Have you read good books lately /leftpol/?

I'm reading One Way Street by Walter Benjamin (writing a part of my bachelor paper on him which memed me into reading his lesser-known works). Some of it is vague as fuck but other parts are beautiful. Favorite quotes so far:

>Opinions are, with respect to the monstrous apparatus of social life, the equivalent of oil for machines: One would not stand in front of a turbine and pour oil all over it. Instead only a little is applied to the hidden niches and joints whose locations must be known.

>The power of a country road when one is walking along it is different from the power it has when one is flying over it by airplane. In the same way, the power of a text when it is read is different from the power it has when it is copied out. The airplane passenger sees only how the road pushes through the landscape, how it unfolds according to the same laws as the terrain surrounding it. Only he who walks the road on foot learns the power it commands, and of how, from the very scenery that for the flier is only the unfurled plain, it calls forth distances, belvederes, clearings, prospects at each of its turns like a commander deploying soldiers at a front. Only the copied text thus commands the soul of him who is occupied with it, whereas the mere reader never discovers the new aspects of his inner self that are opened by the text, that road cut through the interior jungle forever closing behind it: because the reader follows the movement of his mind in the free flight of daydreaming, whereas the copier submits it to command.

>Written text, which had found in the book a safe refuge where it could lead an autonomous life, is inexorably dragged into the street by advertisements and subjugated to the brute heteronomy of economic chaos.

>Genuine polemics approach a book as lovingly as a cannibal spices a baby.

>Books and whores: they both have their type of men who feed on them and cower them. Books the critics.

The fact that the guy unironically combined marxism with Jewish messianism makes him lowkey the most memeable philosopher in history though.



>Have you read good books lately /leftpol/?

The reading thread is on What is Property and I'm currently going through Tiqqun and Invisible Committee.


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Where are the progress reports?


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here my progress of the week for my Goals of the month

>going back in shape losing about 15kg.

didn't go out had to assist fixing the bathroom water was leaking.

>resume my academic work and some side project.

Vulkan is fun to learn.

>Re-organize side projects and publish them

Remaking a old game project of my in Godot 3.0, need to clean the code and reorganize some elements before publish it.

>Try to finish writing a small novel

i need to rewrite the prologue is shit.

>Finish up reading the books that i orders.

Started with "Le cri de du peuple" a french comics about Paris commune.

>Resume learning electronics

need to make a panel for all my switches

>Resume learning some fucking Japanese

resuming learning katakana

>Writing scripts for personal uses that will simplify my productivity

need to remake yet again my i3config before using it

>Try out Big Query for sample data about products diversity + consummation by population per region

3To of data ain't paying for this shit



>No more unhealthy foods (sugary stuff, excessive fat, excessive dairy)

Did eat some, but not a whole lot

>Only one hour of games a day

I finished A hat in time a while back so I have no urge to game

>No more fapping

Jacked off once or twice a day over the past week

>Gym 3 times a week

Too busy atm, do have a new fitness plan which I plan to follow

>Drawing an hour a day


>Program an app that keeps track of things I need to do and shows a stack of things in order of urgency, so I never forget things and always have something to do if I am bored.

Dropping that one

>Go out to some bar/place next week to meet new people, although I have no clue where or what yet.

So old goal, did not really go out a lot, did went out with my class two times since then, but alas, no girls because programming class.

>Cycle to school every day if there is no rain, which is 20 km a day.

I try to when there is no rain (and when I dont have to be super presentable)


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not much going on for this week. Just studying for exams. Went home for a few days to study away from my vaping roommates. Haven't gone outside in 3 days. Uh ya that's about it.

Ok wait just thought of something, I made a deal with my mom that if I do well on my exams she might consider giving me the money to get this thing I've been saving up forit's a fursuit, so you know that's some progress since I've always seen this as something I'd always put off till the day I die. That's something.

Hooray, overcoming basic procrastination for life materialistic object.




Yugofag, no.


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I personally see a fursuit as something to buy, someday, when I finally get in shape. So that's my reward for if I ever make any physical effort.


That implies we made progress.



Fitness is good, screenplay is good, and I've been working on some new recipes but it's gotten really cold for some reason and grilling outside is delayed so I can't try them out. I have started using freekah as a protein rich grain and it tastes pretty good with chicken.


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I'm so fucking stupid it's hopeless. No matter how much I read, I can't seem to understand anything. If I make an effort I can repeat things like I memorized them, but I couldn't answer the simplest question about it even if my life depended on it.

Maybe it's time to give up for me.



People learn differently. Maybe try writing down notes and talking to your comrades about it?


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I never read and I'm still here, chin up fam. I really think people overestimate how much theory you need to know to be a good socialist. Do you know that the workers should control the means of production, and do you know to shoot porky if you're handed a gun? Well then you're a comrade in my book.



If you want to use knowledge in a conversational context then try to learn in a conversational form. I started watching debates on youtube with left wingers in them. They repeatedly cover the same common arguments/counterarguments so you become acquainted with them quickly. I personally get caught up in emotions so watching someone separate themselves from their emotions to give the best answer they can whilst also controlling the flow of the conversation is where I have lots of room for improvement. It must be a discussion on YOUR terms. NOT theirs.

Almost all discussions come with the caveat that you can only plant the seed of your ideas. It takes the person listening to relate them to their own life for them to change.

You need to recognize people who want to take the piss and brush them off. My favourite comeback that can be said in many tones is "You aren't on the internet anymore.".


I was looking at videos about the mishap with Tommy Robinson at speakers corner as well as hoping to find arguments against Islamophobia and found this (YT link to demonstrate comments): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oa5X3IUmuCE

The content of the discussion is interesting but not as much as the form. Respectful, concise, shakes hand and sends him on his merry way. When Harry looks back at the video he will see his ideas disproved and lots of positive comments telling him he seems like a nice lad. If this was an alt-right video the main goal would be to humiliate, not to inform.



This is the importance of reading groups, jump in the slow one here or find people irl. Looking at socialists talk is a good way to get a grip on concepts, and if you want to learn how to talk to normies unironically watch Immortal Technique talk to audiences.



Chin up, not everybody learns well by reading books. I spend 5 years learning german from books and vocab and I cannot form a sentence, but I learned english on my own and am fluent in the same or shorter timeframe.

Try to find another way in which you can learn these things.


Pretty much given up on studying at this point. hate myself. Done a good job at getting fit because it makes me feel better about myself. I should spend way less time working out. but the main problem is i spend so much time working up to it.



this is how I felt last year and for most of this year - except I stopped working out and lost what little gains I had during uni. I've accepted I need to get another job and get some savings and just get serious about study again.

how far into your degree are you, anon?


On to cutting to look better in July, ran hard as a motherfucker and I'm proud of that. I'm thinking of going all in on learning to cook better shit and was wondering if any anons here were interested in doing this as a group?



Don't lose hope comrades. Reading a small amount a day is good if you can, but not everyone needs to be a theory wizard. Just make an attempt to read and understand the basic concepts and you'll be fine.



I talked with student advisor………

They said my life is in shambles.

But I can maybe redo second year of university……….

I still feel depressed, don't even feel so nice when try to masturbate or anything……..

Also never felt so useless as a human before………


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Had an awesome conversation with my parents yesterday. Me and my father (socdem with marxist sympathies) roasted the neoliberalist policy of the new chancellor together and criticised American imperialism. Sadly I wasn't able to redpill them on Syria and Assad but at least I could make it clear to them that the rebels are islamist fags too and that the USA should leave Syria alone. Also how fucked capitalism is and what the problems of the modern left are.

I also started reading some local socialist writer's works. Too demsoc for my taste but his socialist analysis of the post war times are interesting.


I've been feeling pretty good the past week.

But still no gf or going out. Kinda giving up on the whole "clubs and bars" thing. I hope I will meet someone in the upcoming drawing course I will take, and if not I dunno, maybe I will try drugs to see if that helps.


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Where are the progress reports?


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No fucking progress, although I am learning to juggle and I feel fucking fantastic the past week.



(went from not knowing how to juggle at all to being able to do 3 balls 3 throws, now i need to get 3 balls 4 throws and so on)




Self improvement = get gf for you?

Why do you depend on 3rd parties to make you fulfilled?



If I could be happy sitting alone in my room with no friends doing only things by myself I wouldn't feel so shit and have such a strong urge to go our and find companionship.


Saw this link, thought it would be useful for anyone here who needs it: https://metanoia.org/suicide/

You're gonna make it, comrades.



Problem is, you wouldn't be happy even with friends and a gf. You seem like the type that if got a gf you'd become too emotional dependent on her.

Also, happiness as a goal is capitalist new age bullshit. Google Zizek videos on it if you want.

I spend most of the time alone in my room and I'm pretty fine with it just sucks there's no actual left in my country to organize with. I don't need friends or girlfriends, I need comrades.

I wonder if this obsession with friends/partners is weakness today, I wonder if it's relatively new or if it was like this across era's. I think it's a symptom of our highly narcissistic societies where people need each other to feed their own ego's. My friends were like that so I stopped going out with them, I mean, I had nothing against them (even if they were kinda reactionary they were good friends to me, probably better than I), but I simply didn't need them, and I don't miss them. It is kinda sad, but on the other liberating, I felt obligation to go out occasionally because it's normal, but we'd just fuck around. Once more, comrades are needed, not friends, or friends come after comradeship, a common goal.


Honestly, at this point in time, my only goal is to graduate from college. My major is studio art. This is my last semester. I just need to get back to having all my work done. I have crippling depression and my mood is like never stable. I'm seeing the counselor on campus tho, and that's been keeping me afloat.


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>Problem is, you wouldn't be happy even with friends and a gf.

No, fuck this, fuck this "you cannot be loved until you love yourself" nuclear bullshit. Humans need social validation, they need to feel like they belong to a group, like what they do matters to people, they need to be appreciated. I will not listen to any more of this quackery "first love yourself" shit, fuck you and your "happiness is a myth you should just be miserable" and ESPECIALLY fuck you and your "if you tried to get a gf you would make her miserable" fucking cancerous attacks that only further damage people by telling them and confirming their unhealthy self image that they only make people miserable so they should stay in and lock themselves away.

And fuck your "being happy is capitalism" meme as well. Honestly bruv, fucking fuck off and hang yourself right now. Happiness is not fucking "muh capitalism" and no, I am not going to "google sniffleman". Happiness, or, as it is also known, not being suicidal and termanently clinically depressed so you are even able to feel the emotion of happiness, is not "mmuuhhh kapitalishum". Fuck off, you fuck.

>I wonder if needing BACIS HUMAN CONTACT AND SOCIAL RELATIONSHIPS is caused by muh kapitalshum

No it is fucking not, humans need companionship, humans need validation. In the past all humans had this, they lived in tribes at first, always being among family and friends, then in the agricultural age they were at gatherings because there was nothing else to do than to drink beer with people from the surrounding area. Everybody who farmed found a partner before they turned 20, by the time they were 20 they would already have a family, and those who became soldiers always had their battlebuddies with them, and whores in towns, and the whores had each other. But no place in history before could you spend your entire life entertained inside your own house, alone, fooling yourself into thinking you had social interaction and validation while not getting the actual things humans needs, real social interaction and validation.

Get fucked, you destructive piece of shit, with your "you dont deserve love" and "you just make everybody miserable" and "I dont need my friends (even though I also say I go out with them regularly, pretending that this has no impact on my mental health) so you should just stay in your room, do the same routine day in day out, never meeting new people, not having friends and being suicidal from the time you wake up to the time you cry yourself to sleep".




> I have crippling depression



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Here's my progress of this week :

>going back in shape losing about 15kg.

didn't even go out this week

>resume my academic work and some side project.

nothing special this week

>Re-organize side projects and publish them

Still working in my old project in Godot 3.0, still need to clean up the code before i publish it.

>Try to finish writing a small novel

Need a better name for the MC his nickname was Momo and he went into a weird adventure

>Finish up reading the books that i orders.

Start to read Milk man book

>Resume learning electronics

need more solar panel

>Resume learning some fucking Japanese

didn't even touch it

>Writing scripts for personal uses that will simplify my productivity

Still working own my i3config



I feel this so much.

Weather women are attracted to you (Assuming you're male and heterosexual as I am, not to be exclusionary), and weather men respect you as a man, is all arbitrary AF and has no basis in morality.

It doesn't bother me that some people get the short end of this stick. What bothers me is that the stick itself is MORALIZED as if people who lack social success must have committed some sort of SIN in need of punishing.

Its a very midieval mentality. People who lack social success should be given support to navigate the very real trials and tribulations of living through such rough social conditions.

They should be told that this struggle can make them stronger. All this "You need to love urself" is a bunch of pseudoscience crap.



These damn normies want to persecute us so badly that they'll twist themselves into logical pretzels to avoid allowing us to face our struggle of lonliness with dignity.

Messed up how other struggles are "lionized", e.g. the survival of those struggles is seen as a "masculine" trait and men who survive those struggles are given social credit,

But people can't let us lonely people be given honor for our struggles, they can't let us face those struggles with dignity, no, they have to lecture us at every turn.



Cry me a river, don't blame me for your problems. You also do not understand the implications of my post.

Strength comes when you recognize you're worthless (just like everyone else), weakness comes when you need 3rd parties validating your petty self. This is literally idpol, you are weak because you feel the need of others validating your stupid identity.

No wonder the left is dead, people are more worried about their stupid feelings instead of dedicating themselves towards a cause.

Leftists like you aren't needed.


Also, the rise of "depression" today is a social symptom, but using it as an excuse if weakness.


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>Strength comes when you recognize you're worthless (just like everyone else), weakness comes when you need 3rd parties validating your petty self.

What a load of fucking bullshit. This goes against everything scientific psychology tells us.

>No wonder the left is dead, people are more worried about their stupid feelings instead of dedicating themselves towards a cause.

Yea fuck people for feeling like shit and thinking about suicide instead of being mindless drones dedicated to doing meaningless terrorist attacks or whatever, right?

Fucking end yourself.

>Leftists like you aren't needed.

People like you are not needed in society in general, and especially not leftism.

Some leftist author once said, i dont know who and exactly what, something to this effect:

>Don't dedicate your entire being to revolution. Live a little, find a partner, have some fun, socialism is about people and happiness.

Fuck you, you crypto-fascist shit, with your obsession about "strenght" and "weakness".



>scientific psychology

Is reactionary, science today only serves capital, and it's as scientific as race realism.

>Some leftist author once said, i dont know who and exactly what, something to this effect:

Must be a pretty shitty leftist, but you can indeed have some fun while still being dedicated, problem is leftists aren't dedicated and this site is proof of it.

>Fuck you, you crypto-fascist shit, with your obsession about "strength" and "weakness".

That's not fascist at all, that's a liberal definition of fascism, dedication, strength, self sacrifice etc were actually leftists values before fascists took them for us.

Also idk who you think I am, I'm worthless just like you and also felt like you, but i learned better and you could too if you took your head off your ass.


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>Is reactionary, science today only serves capital, and it's as scientific as race realism.

>All science is reactionairy

Pic related, you misunderstood latour

>but you can indeed have some fun while still being dedicated, problem is leftists aren't dedicated and this site is proof of it.

If you dont like it, feel free to fuck off.

>Also idk who you think I am, I'm worthless just like you and also felt like you

Well you fucking do not and did not, because if you did you would not have even thought about writing the shit you wrote.



>you misunderstood latour


>If you dont like it, feel free to fuck off.

So you do admit communism is for you an identity and not something you are ready to give yourself for.


Quoting Zizek: "I don't care about how you feel, kill yourself"

Man up, pardon sexist expression but there's truth to it



>So you do admit communism is for you an identity and not something you are ready to give yourself for.

No, it is an identity for you, actually. You consider your entire being to be "communist", you identify exclusively as communist, you want to be only communist. I'm a fucking human being, who also is a worker, who also is a communist. I am a human who believes in communism, I am not a communist. Communism is an identity for you, just like how being a woman is an identity for feminists, rather than just a small part of what they are, or how being white is an identity for nazis, instead of just a small part of what they are.

>Man up, pardon sexist expression but there's truth to it

No it is not. Just because you keep repeating shitty american capitalist "self help" shit doesn't make it real. We do not live in isolation, we do not live as atomized persons, you fucking capitalist cock gobbling cuck. "Weakness" and "strenght" are not values that exist objectively, you fucking fascist, and asking for help, getting help and giving help to people is not weakness.



>No, it is an identity for you, actually. You consider your entire being to be "communist", you identify exclusively as communist, you want to be only communist. I'm a fucking human being, who also is a worker, who also is a communist. I am a human who believes in communism, I am not a communist. Communism is an identity for you, just like how being a woman is an identity for feminists, rather than just a small part of what they are, or how being white is an identity for nazis, instead of just a small part of what they are.

The more you talk the more you reveal you're not a communist. 1st it doesn't matter how you think about yourself or myself but what you do, and you're not a communist because you do shit except cry. 2nd communism is not about having faith in it, how fucking stupid, if everyone has faith in it and no pone moves their asses there won't be any communism, not as if communism is a positive thing, when it's just the movement itself etc.

>No it is not. Just because you keep repeating shitty american capitalist "self help" shit doesn't make it real. We do not live in isolation, we do not live as atomized persons, you fucking capitalist cock gobbling cuck. "Weakness" and "strenght" are not values that exist objectively, you fucking fascist, and asking for help, getting help and giving help to people is not weakness.

I'm not repeating any self help bullshit, because self help exists to profit from people's misery, it's a reflex of our narcissistic societies. I'm not profiting from anything and I literally do not give a shit about you personally, so idc if you help yourself or not, but as a communist I want good comrades, not cowards and weaklings crybabies.

Once more, take your head of your fucking ass.

This is about communism, not about your (or mine) petty self.



>fascism is when people are strong n shieeeet

How horribly Christian of you. There is no virtue in weakness, or any use to it.

>Yea fuck people for feeling like shit and thinking about suicide instead of being mindless drones dedicated to doing meaningless terrorist attacks or whatever, right?

Fuck em, really. Do they actually matter? What difference does it make to reality, particularly towards the advancement of Socialism? In what page of Marx does it say I have to deal with a bunch of sullen cunts? Goodness knows the Bolsheviks wouldn't put up with a bunch of self-absorbed 20-something faggots too busy wallowing in their own self-pity.

>socialism is about people and happiness.

PFFFFT HAHAHAHA What is this New Age Leftoid shit? "Sozhilism is when u feel good in ur tummy" fucking PLEASE nigger. The Revolutionary War, the Guerrillas, the Terror; you think all this is gonna be happy happy fun time where you and your DSA friends get to sing Kumbaya?

To any Communist in the thread. A hundred years ago, all the Reds and Anarchists would have wished they had the vast array of knowledge that is so instantaneously available nowadays. So use it. Our goal is to fight in the Proletarian Revolution, getting prepared will ever get you forward. You have no excuse.

We live in a horrible world, how are we to right this injustice? Let's be strong, Comrades



>How horribly Christian of you

> virtue


The reactionairy thing to think is that "weakness" and "strength" exist like that, and are actually things.

> In what page of Marx does it say I have to deal with a bunch of sullen cunts?


>the revolution is war and thus shit

Yea no fucking shit. A war to achieve and build a society wherein we can be happy, wherein we are not cogs in a machine, wherein we are not alienated from each other and our labour.

By this same logic killing nazis is not about a world without nazis because it involves nazis.

>A hundred years ago, all the Reds and Anarchists would have wished they had the vast array of knowledge that is so instantaneously available nowadays. So use it.

>Use the same old books they had back then, except now you do not have guns and the government can hear and see everything you do through a vast surveillance system.

>Also you are worthless, make everybody you meet unhappy and do not deserve to live. So, this should be good for morale, people who are suicidal always are the best soldiers after all.


>I'm not repeating any self help bullshit

>You must fix yourself all on your own, you are worthless and weak, be strong but dont you fucking dare ask others for help because that is weakness

>This is not self help bullshit

>it's a reflex of our narcissistic societies

>Says the guy practically masturbating over the terms "strength" and "weakness".

> but as a communist I want good comrades, not cowards and weaklings crybabies.

Then telling everybody to kill themselves sure is going to help you grow their numbers.

Honestly mate, if I knew where you lives I would light your house on fire. Fuck you.



Exactly, just imagine if Marx or Lenin were alive today what would they say about the left today?

I mean if you guys are familiar with their writings you'll know they teared other leftists apart, if they were alive today they'd spare no one.

We have become so weak, so powerless…yet nothing is inevitable, we can turn this around if, I hope the rise of fascism is a wake up call, but so far it seems it has been the opposite, another excuse to cry and lament the end of the world.

Man the fuck up guys! If you have time to be here, to pity yourself etc, you have time to educate and organize. Millions starve every year, millions are exploited, and then first world leftists lament their stupid lives, obviously there's injustices and problems even in the first world, but we have the possibility to change, we have the tools!



>Then telling everybody to kill themselves sure is going to help you grow their numbers.

We are not at a time where we need numbers, we are so fucking behind we need dedicate leftists willing to sacrifice a "normal" life for communism.

If you're weak, so be it, we don't need you. You'll be worthless not only for capital but for communism too, at least I strive to only be worthless for capital but I try and be worthy of the communist tradition.


Honestly mate, if I knew where you lives I would light your house on fire. Fuck you.

Anger and hate has its place, but you're targeting the wrong people, it's not our fault you're miserable, we owe you nothing (and no one owes us everything either).



Maybe you should do something then, instead of going on fringe image boards, specifically seeking out a thread about trying to better yourself and trying to stop being depressed, then all you do is telling your supposed comrades that they are worthless human garbage and should kill themselves. THAT SURE WILL FUCKING HELP THE LEFT WONT IT?



>but you're targeting the wrong people

Oh no I am fucking not mate. The people who tell their comrades that they are worthless, that try to destroy any motivation that they have, that tell them that they are not needed in communism, are the right fucking people to target. You destroy the left, you create a culture of hate and vileness, a sekrit club only for "Da true revolutionairies" actively putting energy into turning away people and the worst of all, kicking and beating volnurable people, throwing them out on the street, right into the arms of the fascists, a group of people who abuse their vulnurability by grooming them, making them feel appreciated, making them feel in control, making them feel like they are warriors and needed, giving them appreciation, purpose, friends, etc.

All you do is kick them, tell them they are worthless trash, tell them to kill themselves, tell them that the economic system they support and the people that are supposed to be their "comrades" will kill them after the revolution because "you are not needed in communist society".

You are playing right into the hands of the fascists and I would almost say you might be doing this on purpose, because you are actually a fascist infiltrator trying to disrupt and destroy the left. Either that or you are just like that japanese maoist gang who all went black metal on each other and excecuted each other for not being hardcore revolutionairy enough.



>Maybe you should do something then, instead of going on fringe image boards, specifically seeking out a thread about trying to better yourself and trying to stop being depressed, then all you do is telling your supposed comrades that they are worthless human garbage and should kill themselves. THAT SURE WILL FUCKING HELP THE LEFT WONT IT?

I can do both, but you're right, I should come here less often since it's rare to learn anything here, but…nothing inevitable about this board being shit, it's shit because the posters make it shit, with some effort and discipline (both self discipline and from the mods) this could become useful tool.

I didn't say you should kill yourself, I say if you do it I won't care, in the same way Zizek said the same, we don't care about people wallowing in self pity, and Zizek himself struggled with suicidal thoughts, yet despite being almost alone in his positions he kept fighting and gave us more than almost any other Marxist today. (even if he's not fully Marxist)

Again, it's your choice, it's your responsibility, just accept it instead of finding excuses. Freedom is not a state in the future, but what you do in the present regardless of the conditions you find yourself in, you always have some space of maneuver, of struggle, we in the first world more than most, so do you take this freedom with no guarantee of success or will you find excuses for your weaknesses?


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um ya if we could get back to the self-improvement instead of devolving into every other debate threat that'd be great


anyways update: still exams, most social stuff I did all week was yell at my roommates because they're up at 3 AM partying and I have exams at 8:30. Social advancedment? I was offered some drug called "xam" and I was able to resist the peer pressure so that's something I guess

not much otherwise. I still think that even if I have no progress I should update every week, as it will keep me at it and not enter a loop of procrastination. I think it's diligent anyways Also I still am a shit human being who's only friends are equally anti-social freaks, so I kinda need to get out of my hole and this helps a lot



Amazing the conspiracies you create in your head to avoid dealing with what is being written, it's easier for you to think I'm evil fascist than to deal with reality. You keep putting words in my mouth while I'm just saying how it is, you don't even know what is communism. "Communism is for us not a state of affairs which is to be established, an ideal to which reality [will] have to adjust itself. We call communism the real movement which abolishes the present state of things. The conditions of this movement result from the premises now in existence."

You're worthless for the "real movement" (not that there is one nowadays), because you are weak, it has nothing to do with the future you envisage, but the present, your behavior, not your thoughts. Truth is in what you do not what you think of yourself or others, and in this sense you're not a communist.

Reply for yourself, don't make any pretenses to "the people", you think for yourself, you are responsible for yourself.

I know it must be hard to deal with this, and I probably sound patronizing, but be honest with yourself even if not with ourselves and you'll see there's some truth in what we're saying.


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It's okay Ceras, I believe in you, you can do it! If we can help you anyway, just ask.


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>Reply for yourself, don't make any pretenses to "the people", you think for yourself, you are responsible for yourself.

Yes good prole, everything that happens to you is your own fault. You are an atomized individual, society doesn't exist and don't you dare try to get help.


Self-improvement is an inherently reactionary bourgeois concept. Learning and developping new skills aren't abnormal states. They are entirely normal for people who have little to no psychological impediments. The abnormality is with inertia and pathological apathy. You can't expect people resume normal activity like a healthy person without first addressing the lack of necessary psychological tools to do so. The "just do it" mentality of bourgeois self-help denies this, claiming instead that inertia is a choice, which only serves to reinforce the myth that poor people are poor by choice and that neurotic disorders don't exist.

That being said, I am planning on going back to school in order to study cannabis culture in order to secure a job in the newly legalized cannabis industry upon graduating, join the IWW and a leftist organization (so far I lean Revolutionary Communist Party) after two years of severe depression, hopelessness and suicidal tendencies.



>um ya if we could get back to the self-improvement instead of devolving into every other debate threat that'd be great

Would be easier if there wasn't a poster here who says

>you are worthless, stop trying to be miserable, happiness doesnt exist, nobody in the world wants you, give up, give up, give up


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> I am planning on going back to school in order to study cannabis culture

Good luck comrade.

Also stop this "people are exclusively subjects" vs "people are exclusively actors" false dichotomy. You are both a subject of society and reality as well as an actor, you can take (limited) steps to improve yourself.


What the fuck guys, can we not just agree like "capitalism is responsible for worsening many social problems but individuals can take steps to try to avoid the worst effects"? Doing stuff better shouldn't be a controversial subject.



You're literally making shit up, holy fuck it's pathological, you WANT me to say for you to give up. You already gave up, not on life, but on communism, your posts show it, you know shit about communism, you do shit about communism.


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>The reactionairy thing to think is that "weakness" and "strength" exist like that, and are actually things.

The reactionary thing can be a flying fucking cock and balls, it makes no difference to reality. A fit man is stronger than some numale wary of "toxic masculinity", a charismatic person will make a much better guerrilla than some uptight college fuck harping on about white privilege.

>Yea no fucking shit. A war to achieve and build a society wherein we can be happy

But we don't live in a Socialist society, do we? Until then, I don't give a shit about your feefees, about what is wrong or what is right, about what my "values" should be as a Leftist; I care about the advancement of Socialism.

>Use the same old books they had back then, except now you do not have guns and the government can hear and see everything you do through a vast surveillance system.

Its almost as if Communists wanted a Revolution? Also please, after the entire 20th century, there is a veritable mass of knowledge on Guerrilla Warfare, Counterinsurgency, fitness, DIY Weaponry, US Army Manuals; More has been made with much less.

>Also you are worthless, make everybody you meet unhappy and do not deserve to live. So, this should be good for morale, people who are suicidal always are the best soldiers after all.

Honestly if you are like this in the first place, you're straight up not needed. We need to be men of the People, ready to rally the Proletariat to our cause. Not some depressed tangle of fucking nerves.



lol dude larp lets just wage guerilla war like mao did without guns



Thank you for the link, comrade. I'll need to read over it a few times to grasp the meaning of it, to be honest.


Wise words, comrade.

I have no idea what the *fuck* happened in this thread, but having a healthy amount of reminding that depression is a symptom of late capitalism. Now that I've told you guys I'm going to graduate, I have to succeed in classes so I can graduate, thus reporting back to this thread. Thank you, comrades. See you next week!



Not everything bad is caused by fucking capitalism, jesus christ, get a grip of yourselves and realise that brain chemistry is a thing that can make people depressed and that fixing capitalism will solve all of the worlds problems.



> that fixing capitalism will solve all of the worlds problems.

fuck me its too late.

destroying capitalism will not solve all the worlds problems.

Sleep tight anons, and stop saying everything bad is caused by capitalism, because it isn't and thats not how the world works.


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I don't care what comes next, it has to be better than this, or at least it will kill us quicker.

But seriously (?) I woke up at 2pm today and spent like 5 hours playing Endless Space 2 and 5 hours playing Kerbal Space Program while watching BS on Youtube and I feel like I wasted the whole day. I mean, I did basically, but I wasn't even really enjoying it. Just fuck my shit up.

It was just too hard to do anything even hobby-related.

In my defence I'm a little sick, but… not that sick. Depression sucks, and by the way, it's not something you can 'just be urself :)' and get over like some people in this thread seem to think


alright all of you, I come here for gakking self improvement, not your usual "Socialism or Barbarism" debate. You wanna do that? That's fine just do it in another thread, but not here. And don't be children and spend the next 6 hours pointing fingers, either shutup or go somewhere else.



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I already told you, self improvement is too hard.



You can, provided that you are given the proper tools. It's only rational to do so when you are presented with a way out.



This. The apology of social alienation and isolation is reactionary nonsense. Again. It's the kind of bourgeois mentality that "self-improvement" comes with. It's patronizing, it's humiliating and it doesn't actually help anyone.



Also this. People think you jerk off to quell your sex drive, while in fact, the more you jerk off, the more you want to jerk off.



In my personal experience it's nofap redpill people that are the most obsessed with sex.

But hey let's not start another argument.

I'm gonna clean my room, at least that's something I did today. All I have to do is get out of this chair….



The NoFap redpill people are actually pretty cringe with the bold claim that masturbation abstinance will turn you into Chad and will basically give you magical powers. I'm just saying that limiting masturbation is a good thing, especially if you're only fapping alot because you're chronically bored and you have nothing to do.



>In my personal experience it's nofap redpill people that are the most obsessed with sex.

I mean isn't this intuitive? Why would you start nofap if you are not at a point where you're fapping to a problematic extent?



>limiting masturbation is a good thing, especially if you're only fapping alot because you're chronically bored and you have nothing to do.

Well, I don't have an issue with that. Iron fist is a bitch.


Stop wasting time with this retarded reddit spacing arguments and read or work out instead.


At this point I'm just keeping to my routine and eating better, which is kinda boring. Having to hold off work on my script until May.


There is a testosterone boost if you don't ejaculate, but that peaks after a week and isn't enough to make a huge difference. The frustration is probably more harmful than a minor increase in testosterone anyways. Jacking off should be reserved for edging to help you not blow your load so fast with a partner, and once or twice a day is enough.



>Jacking off should be reserved for edging to help you not blow your load so fast with a partner, and once or twice a day is enough.

Horrible idea FYI… the alternate problem is much more likely.


You're all gonna make it comrades.


It's a good idea if it stops you from jacking it 4+ times a day because it takes more energy to do it in one session. And your loads are bigger which is cool.



All I'm saying is, at least in my experience, it's more likely you'll not be able to come from jacking too much than come too fast than not jacking enough. And it's not like I do/did it 4 times a day either. Plus the second problem seems like it would be a lot less frustrating.


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I've finally accomplished my main goal of curbing my internet usage and completely avoiding image boards and social media.

Descreening myself feels better than sex, comrades. I walk an hour four days a week and have the time to prep good lunches for myself almost every day

Also glad to see that /selfimprovement/ is livelier than ever!



Once a day and intentionally avoiding coming isn't going to hurt you fam. All you do is pull a kegel when you feel yourself about to blow and chill out for a bit, it doesn't take that long and feels better. It also can help with coming early, which if the bitches I talk to are right most dudes do.


You made it fam.



>brain chemistry is a thing that can make people depressed

But it can't be reduced to brain chemistry dumbass, reality has an impact on your brain chemistry. I understand reactionaries saying this, because they want people to focus on themselves and on "determinants" such as genes and "brain chemistry", instead of the capitalism, but hearing this crap from leftists is really depressing.

Is your "brain chemistry" telling you to type shit or the things you type and read have an impact on it because of the way you relate to it? How you relate to the social order is more important than bio-chemical mechanisms. This is why psychoanalysis is more important than ever and why capitalist apologists dismiss it (it's a threat), people keep trying to reduce everything to biology and chemistry like fucking idiots and they'll never improve. Pills treat symptoms but can't treat the subject dispositions.

Not that psychoanalysis should be reduced do self help which at its worst means making subjects adapts themselves to capitalism and still become t self absorbed, but it's important to have some psychoanalytic knowledge.



Holy shit, learn to READ what is written, not read what you want to read.

We all recognize the problems capitalism creates, but in the end YOU ARE STILL RESPONSIBLE FOR THE WAY YOU DEAL WITH THOSE PROBLEMS.

How will capitalism be sublated if not by a collective struggle? How can people struggle if they find external excuses to justify their lack of commitment? (not to Capital, but to Communism) As long as leftists wallow in self pity capitalist will be here to stay. Stop with bullshit excuses, "humiliating"? It's only humiliating if you feel humiliated.


Look, I know it's hard, I was in the same boat and still is in a way, instead of trying to completely give up your problems, accept them, but try to control them someway, instead of wasting your whole day, open a space for a couple of hours to productive labour (again, productive for you and communism, not capital), little by little transform your hedonist time into work ethic, it's not a daily immediate transformation (unless a trauma happens).

Read some Mark Fisher works on depressive hedonism, such as his blog k-punk, or if you're lazy, at least some videos (Zerobooks as many on his books), or this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhOcwhwumP4


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I've spend (wasted) like 20 hours in the last few days playing KSP, I didn't accomplish anything more than a Mun flyby. I've been trying to do an orbital rendezvous for like 4 hours and I just smashed my keyboard against the desk because I'm so frustrated. Somehow playing this game is making me feel even worse about myself. Doesn't help that I'm super tired even though I just had a nap for like 2 hours (in the middle of my playing). I just want to die right now.

I know it's stupid to get so mad over a stupid game but I'm definitely feeling too sick/tired to achieve anything real, but can't even do it in a game. I just can't deal with things.

I also have an appointment with the counselling service that I waited like 3 months for on Friday at 8.45am, great time to set an appointment for someone with severe depression right? I tried to fix my sleep issues but clearly that's not going to happen since I can't even stay awake in the daytime. I can't handle my job or my life, I've been sick and run down for weeks.


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Hello, I watched your video, I agree of course with that, I don't know what I can do about it though. Nobody cares if you're young and depressed, that's the truth. And the fact that it's socially imposed doesn't really help because I still can't change anything about that.

I don't know, maybe I can do some stuff for the rest of today that's productive, if only because I can't stand playing any videogames right now. But as I said I feel so tired, physically and emotionally. My health is terrible, my diet is terrible (I have an eating disorder that the NHS doesn't accept exists apparently), my sleep is terrible, it's like a pit I can never get out of. I'm too tired to cook even any of the not particularly healthy things I eat so I just sit here and eat crisps or snack cakes instead. I'm just so lost, I can't see any future or any way out.

>How can people struggle if they find external excuses to justify their lack of commitment? (not to Capital, but to Communism) As long as leftists wallow in self pity capitalist will be here to stay. Stop with bullshit excuses, "humiliating"? It's only humiliating if you feel humiliated.

What if I do feel humiliated? Communism isn't coming no matter what I do, all that's left for us is this shit. This isn't living, it's not even survival, it's just nothing.

I get that people say oh, you need to have willpower and so on but what if I'm just not strong enough to deal with anything? I never asked to exist in this shitty world so why am I expected to have this great will to survive?

Sorry I know I sound like a pussy but, I really just can't deal with anything.



>actually believing there is no revolution because communists wallow in self-pity

Dude, you're really a self-righteous one, are you?



This is depression. An actual disease. It's not your fault. It's like having stomach flu and trying to force yourself to do anything.



this, I believe the modern clinical psychological approach to >>50551 's depression would be to give them anti-depressants to give him the energy and drive to work on the reasons why they are depressed in the first place. unfortunately the banal dystopia of modern capitalism that is at the root of most depression is not so easily toppled. we all have to find ways to cope: some adopt the mindset of a single-minded revolutionary and rely on self-denial and self-control-affirming discipline, others try to get as much pleasure out of the present condition as they can, by escapism or self-medicating with whatever fucks their brains up for a brief moment of relief. this is an artificial, polarised contrast formed from the earlier debate in this thread, but there is merit in trying to conceptualise pathology and coping in this way.


So I've stolen a goal from Karen and have been coming by here less lately and I have to say that's improved my time management. Too much arguing over stale bullshit and not enough good shit. Still any anons here need advice on fitness or cooking? I'm doing good and want to help my comrades.


I feel like ive got nothing going for me, Comrades. Im broke, shitty job, car is falling apart and ive got no money to pay to fix it and while I could try it myself with YouTube tutorials I dont have a garage or have the space for that. As fucked up as it sounds knowing my friends are also working dead end jobs makes me feel better sometimes because at least I know I am not alone. I feel like a failure and a disappointment. I have resolved to try and lose about 50lbs because I know im fat and that at least bothers me. I hate exercising so I have started using the myfitnesspal app to track what I eat. I want to cut out most fast food and I want to stop drinking soda. There is a cute nerd girl who works at a grocery store near me that I have talked to a few times about video games and comic books but I have no idea if I should ask her out or not. I am lost, Comrades.


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Check-in day is Sunday my droog, every other day you're supposed to be busy improving yourself


So I've started doing some weird shit /selfimprove/. I still masturbate, but I don't jerk off to orgasm anymore. Instead, I've started to edge myself to a goal I have in mind. I just jerk off, bring myself close to the brink and then pull back, all the while concentrating on my most immediate goal. Seems to be helping me to be more optimistic of my chances if nothing else.


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Cutting soda is a great call. I would honestly consider going vegan for a few reasons but the biggest is it will make losing that 50 lbs way easier. I lost a 100 lbs a few years ago by only changing my diet. Sucked having to explain it to folks and getting limited selections when I went out but you'll lose weight fast and help out the planet as well as meat industry workers who are pretty seriously over exploited. It's crazy what they deal with.



>masturbate, but I don't jerk off to orgasm anymore

that cannot be good for you, physically



>I still masturbate, but I don't jerk off to orgasm anymore

Enjoy you're cancer


Progress reports or something?



I'm cutting and it's hard but good. Script is finalized, going to hopefully get shit together and start shooting within a year. Came up with some great roasted chicken recipes that are low-calorie and high protein and taste bretty gud.



Don't fall for the vegan meme, comrades. Reducing calorie and sugar intake is the real cause of the weight loss and health improvements that vegans claim. I dropped 20 kg in 3 months while improving my overall health and fitness by switching to an all-meat diet. Eating just meat or just plants isn't the point, though: it's the fact that the new diet meant I couldn't eat sugary shit or calorie-dense processed foods. There are plenty of vegans that stay or even become fat because they think the fact that potato chips and vegan cakes aren't made of animals means they can eat as much as they want of them.

Side note: I'd recommend a carnivorous diet over a vegan one for weight loss, as a) you'll go into ketosis and lose weight way quicker (it's not a meme, I've done it, it's easy as shit and it works), b) you can actually enjoy yourself while being on a diet, c) you don't have to get as autistic as vegans do about supplements and micronutrients since meat, especially ruminant meat, has a much fuller complement of micros and necessary macros in much more bioavailable forms, and d) your gut clears up massively - you fart way less. Turns out meat is pretty much entirely digested by the time it leaves the small intestine, since efficiently processing meat is the actual function of the stomach and small intestine. It's only indigestible plant matter that gets stuck in the large intestine to produce noxious gases as bacteria slowly rot it away. In other words, reality is once again the exact opposite of how vegans portray it.

Don't even get me started on the fact that the 'health benefits of vegetables' is essentially mutated WW2 propaganda designed to make people OK with having all their nutritious meat and grain shipped off to feed the army.

And spare me the 'b-but factory farming is bad' horse shit. We're communists, we should recognise that a) individual middle-class consumption choices won't effect the logic of profit, and b) All industrial agriculture is bad for the environment. There is no way to reconcile capitalism and environmental stewardship, no matter how much otherwise-agriculturally-useless grazing land vegans leave fallow.




To an extent they're actually right. You will lose more weight eating meat, cheese, butter and yogurt, than if you ate cereal, bread and fruits. I can personally attest to this.



Didn't mean to post with that flag. Also, I might as well state that I have no qualms with veganism, just with specific, individual vegans who more or less are vegans just to act self-righteous around everyone.



He's right, eating less calories will make you lose weight and sugars are bad. I like vegetables, but I realize that simply eating more of them while failing to account for macros and calroies isn't going to help you lose weight. That said they are good if you know what you're doing, and are useful for stretching meals out to keep yourself full. Comrades should eat whatever is around, is affordable, and that they enjoy instead of building diets out of lifestylism.



It's a scam and his post contains outright absurd falsehoods. The scam fad diet he's talking about is tricking the body to 'lose weight fast' while being extremely unhealthy in areas that don't involve "being a fatass", like clogging your arteries the fuck up to the point of being in danger of cardiac arrest.

The falsehood is

> improving my overall health and fitness by switching to an all-meat diet

>carnivorous diet

Either you're lying or you don't know what these terms mean. If you indeed are eating 100% meat have fun looking for a new stomach while in ER in a couple of months because that's physiologically impossible diet for a human long-term; unlike plant-based diets.



> If you indeed are eating 100% meat have fun looking for a new stomach while in ER in a couple of months because that's physiologically impossible diet for a human long-term; unlike plant-based diets.

What the frickety-frack kind of shit is this? By what mechanism, in your absurd reasoning, would this be the case? Plenty of people have lived on a 100% meat diet, just as plenty have lived on a 100% plant diet. There's nothing physiologically impossible about living exclusively on meat you utter dipshit. Also, there isn't a single falsehood in my original post. And ketosis isn't fucking 'bad for everything except losing weight', you're just the millionth idiot to confuse it with the ketoacidosis that diabetics go through. Plenty of people, fat and fit, deliberately go into ketosis and do just fine. Not to mention the whole 'babies are in constant ketosis the whole time they're dependent on milk and it's thought to aid in brain development' thing.



I said "to an extent", my dude. Again, I have personal experience with a (near) ketogenic diet and it does produce results, but like >>51825 said choosing some diet plan you found off the internet isn't necessarily realistic, and the idea of a pure meat (or pure anything) diet sounds absurd to me.

Except for breatharianism. That shit is legit, you'll become super skinny in no time.





I dont plan on going vegan, I just wanna lose weight and stop feeling like a shitty person all the time. But yes, soda, candy and shit is on my short list of items to cut out. Hopefully with a little resolve I can actually make an extended go of it.


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They stole my scooter while I was sleeping……………….

Can my life get any worse????


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that suck



You can do it comrade. You don't have to go vegan, but eating low calorie protein such as chicken, fish, or soy will help a lot. There's posters here who have lost weight, so ask any diet questions you have.


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>Can my life get any worse????

At least you're not pic related or Anthony Burch.


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Don't understand


I wish I could help Ceras somehow



My guess is you don't have to.


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Just want something satisfying to do in life…….


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another week of not much with any social activity, exams have taken the life out of me that I missed yesterday's Sunday checkup and only doing this while checking emails. Some news though, not really progress as an update on my current situation socially. So lately I've spent my time on imageboards, gotten some action on discord that I got mod privileges for and basically trying to interact online. I don't count it as socializing cause of the disconnect. Anyways, a side effect that I've noticed is that even online, anonymously, I feel as though people still judge me. This has probably been my largest obstacle with IRL socializing; what other people think about me, and despite trying my best to not care my mental illness keeps getting in the way. I think online it was always there to a lesser extent, but I never noticed as I never posted that much. But now that I'm posting more and more of my personality is spilling over, I've noticed how people are coming to identify me even as an anon. Most of it is negative, whether it's just general board hostility, or users really do hate me/my opinions. Oh ya, I also think I'm finally slipping to depression after having a weird episode this week.

alright now that's out of the way, goals for next week: go see doctor, get some damn sleep, relax, try and build a better self-image. Continuing goals: socialize more, interact in general.

I think even though interacting online's getting to me I think it's a good step in understanding that people are assholes and will toughen me up for IRL interactions. Anyways good week to you lads and don't give up

also we should start posting the reminder on Saturdays for this thread in /trash/ again since I've noticed a drop off in attendance, I think it doesn't so much attract new people but as an alarm clock for existing posters here


Comrades, I'm losing my goddamn mind over here. My current gf has BDP, and it's making it very difficult for me to trust her. She'll be loving one moment and then tell me she wants to stop talking. What the fuck am I supposed to do? I care about her a lot but this shit is killing me.



I'm assuming you meant BPD.

I don't know man, that's another level of crazy I haven't handled. Mine just had severe depression that came in waves now and then (which seemed to get treated by the sun returning).

BPD seems rather treacherous. Does she have meds? Then again maybe that's not good either. Imma leave this for people more familiar.



If your girl is mentally ill you're just going to have to decide if you can deal with it, BPD sounds like some heavy shit that would be hard to trust, let alone have a stable long-term relationship with. Decide if you can handle it and decide quickly so you don't string her and yourself along.


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Life is pretty alright

that's all.



dude masturbation is completely healthy and normal. Just stop watching porn, or stop going on porn binges. Or just jerk off when you're horny enough and you'll cum without porn. Fapping isn't the problem, spending hours watching porn and jerking off too much is though.


tomorrow's the last day at work lads. not sure what i'm going to do. I move into a new place in September, right now i'm just drifting around. maybe i'll travel somewhere and work for room and board or something



The idea is to use my horniness to do more productive stuff though.


What do you guys listen to when you work out?



For HIITS or lifting I usually keep to hardcore punk I listened to as a teenager and some hip-hop, hard and fast is what I need to get through sets. For biking, walks, or jogging I like to listen to an entire album and that really varies, tbh that is tied with driving to check new shit out.


Still procrastinating on a final paper (mock research proposal due tomorrow at midnight, I feel it's beneath me since I've done all the component parts of it before, but it also inhibits me from doing much else than the most pointless things). Went to the gym, did chest-tris in my usual fashion.


I'm not gonna bs you and tell you it will all get better, but I am telling you to fucking hold out in case it does. When the capitalists can no longer project force, we can get autonomy and get back to the land.


moar lifting, hit the punching bag, find some other form of physical+attention exertion


I find this really hard to believe anon. My guess is there is an office in central admin that deals with creating student groups, you just need to do the work to give it a name, stated purpose, etc. If that's not true, well not all unis are created equal. I went to a fun party uni with all those things (including networking) and sort of squandered it. Now I go to another uni as a grad student where there are still SOME parties and such, but mostly it is very sterile and autistic. Keep in mind unis are vehicles of reproduction of bourgeois society. All the fun stuff is supposed to be temporary and you're supposed to know it. "college was the best years of my life" etc. I really feel you on a lot of these other emotional problems. Haven't been laid in a long time and if I hadn't had some good times fooling around with women I'm sure I would be much worse off. Me, I think I'm the way I am because I was pretty severely bullied in childhood and never got restitution. Or maybe that's why I was bullied in the first place! Anon I think you are better than you think you are. All the stuff you fret about is pretty unimportant and there are other ways to get laid than to venture out into the alienated public sphere. I leave you with esoteric bullshit. It has something to do with every thought you have, every action you undertake coming from either a primordial affirmation or rejection in the soul. A yes or a no. And you need to develop a hearing for it. But your fulfillment and happiness comes with the existential 'yes'. At the same time, this comes from someone who is anxious and inhibited and terribly afraid to fail.


Even then, sometimes it's not so even and I've frankly nicked my sack once or twice. I bought a nice pair of clippers to cut my hair with (I just do simple short hair) and sometimes the clippers come in handy for the hair down there too, what with the plastic blade guards.


I feel you. Just don't have a kid anon. They will turn you into a miserable sack. Not speaking from experience, but all that extra money and effort you'd have to put in...




>paying rent




honestly? mescaline


There is hope after all? :0



mostly same. also, stic man from dead prez has an album about working out that I like.


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Alright weekly check in

Went to see a doctor, apparently it's not depression though, it's schizophrenia and I'm hallucinating without realizing it. Fun. I kinda always had a feeling I was seeing shit, but never saw aliens so I just never told anyone. Feels good to finally get conformation on that. Side note while on the subject, I got glasses, so now my already low self-image is slightly loweralso I don't like giving money to the glasses monopoly going on rn, and contacts scare me.

Social progress: Got invited to a party today, gonna try and bring drinks and try to get drunk enough to loosen me up a bit and not so stiff. Will probably post an update later tonight since I gotta get home early cause of work tomorrow.

anyways, good luck lads, and keep your chins up, no matter the shit life throws your way.


Was (still am but not as actively) super depressed again a night ago, even cried. Been ill since last tuesday, ive missed out on kingsday, next week is holiday and my two friends both have school. I have one day of lessons a week this period so I need to find something to do besides jack off and shitpost on leftypol.

On the upside there is this cute-ish nerdy girl in a drawing course I am taking, and when I smiled at her she smiled back. Is it flirting? I dunno. Let's see where it goes.


>Just don't have a kid anon. They will turn you into a miserable sack. Not speaking from experience, but all that extra money and effort you'd have to put in…

Having a child is one of the only things I would really love to do one day in my life. I love children.

>My guess is there is an office in central admin that deals with creating student groups

No, really, its dead as hell. I fucking hate it.

>Haven't been laid in a long time and if I hadn't had some good times fooling around with women I'm sure I would be much worse off.

Really helpfull.


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>going back in shape losing about 15kg.

didn't made it because this month was shit

>resume my academic work and some side project.

need more data for the study

>Re-organize side projects and publish them

need to implant a combat system, that i will have finish the prototype.

>Try to finish writing a small novel

finished the prologue

>Finish up reading the books that i orders.

i found that i have a weird book about fez and the """Islamic""" bourgeoisie

>Resume learning electronics

Need better equipment

>Resume learning some fucking Japanese

Playing Eroge are a good way to practice hiragana & katakana

>Writing scripts for personal uses that will simplify my productivity

finish some utility scripts, still working in ricing my i3config for now i'm using mate


glasses are hot though


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Pretty good week, cheat meal was ice cream but ate healthy and experimented with tofu. Friends loved the script and I think I could shoot it with the money I've saved up over the years and have it clock in at around an hour. Managing to get my shit together, but I think I'm unironically baby crazy yet don't really like most women I meet. Even getting fit and already looking breddy gud you'd be surprised how hard it is to find a qt who likes rough sex and wants to watch movies and read books together and wants to have kids and is some shade of socialist. I beat myself up for being too picky and I'm afraid I'm going to cave and shack up with some liberal I could never love or respect and subject the kid9s) to an unhappy homelife until I fuck off and they hate me.

On more positive notes, there is a new /DIY/ thread >>53772 so I thought we could refocus on learning skills or reading for comrades looking to do that. If you have any questions about anything please ask them here, and remember if you put the effort in you're gonna make it.



Comrade if I may ask for a favor; can you make generals for my suggestion in the last paragraph of this post: >>53812

>[...] a "/turbines, cultivation & cooking/" thread

I think phrasing it like "DIY" is too vague, it doesn't catch people's attention and creative engagement enough for people to keep it fresh.


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>On the upside there is this cute-ish nerdy girl in a drawing course I am taking, and when I smiled at her she smiled back.

go chat with her. talk is free, and you might make a friend, if not a lover


what is your novel about actually

> Playing Eroge are a good way to practice hiragana & katakana

is it really? I just got frustrated. A simple shounen mango will annoy me when I have to look up kanji, even with furigana.

It's Mayday, and we will all make it. We will build communism as the Real Movement. For our fallen forebears, for the future generations, and most importantly, for ourselves.



>Comrade if I may ask for a favor; can you make generals for my suggestion in the last paragraph

I'm not a mod, achair comes to this thread so you can ask him about it.



>glasses are hot though

I think it depends on the build of the person, and I don't got the physique or facial features for it. Also the glasses monopoly scares me.



>go chat with her. talk is free, and you might make a friend, if not a lover

Will try


>TFW there is litterally nothing to do in my entire country that I can go to

>TFW its not even an official holiday, even though I have time off due to unrelated holidays.

>weather is shit anyway



>TFW there is litterally nothing to do in my entire country that I can go to


where do you live

Mayday is a major event where I live even as a worker's day, though its mostly a whole-nation-drinks holiday these days. It's somewhat co-opted by students over purely working-class interests.



The netherlands, the most cucked country in europe.





>what is your novel about actually

About a guy named Momo, he goes into a "normal" adventure.

It's a light post-apocalypse, Lmao they get cucked by a giant crystal meteorite and they get weird radiation that turn them into crystal ::::DDDDD, and they can use magic for some reason but more like add to matter a element from the periodic table.

>is it really? I just got frustrated. A simple shounen mango will annoy me when I have to look up kanji, even with furigana.

Play any Alicesoft games like the early rance, have a sheet of paper and higaranna/katakana sheets, and start translating than open a jap dictonnary and translate the whole sentance you will see how grammar is structure and in bonus you will follow the "Story"


there >>53772


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I haven't written an update in a while but I've hit a lot of my goals; I've officially started to lose weight and I rarely eat takeout anymore, even if it's free stuff from the food cart at work. I still have my ups and downs but most importantly I am able to ride them out more easily, especially since I've (slowly) started socializing with IRL people around me instead of spending most of my free time on 4chan and /leftpol/ I do miss you guys though


>It's Mayday, and we will all make it. We will build communism as the Real Movement. For our fallen forebears, for the future generations, and most importantly, for ourselves.

needed to read this buddy

we're going to make it


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it's such a small country though, you could go join an event wherever within the region, even to Vlaanderen or Germany or something.


is it a reference to the novel Momo? I remember reading it as a kid.

>have a sheet of paper and higaranna/katakana sheets

I know my kana already, and the grammar broadly too. It's just the kanji I struggle with, rote learning isn't one of my strengths unfortunately. I also want to learn to both read and write properly, which means learning the correct stroke order.


man, I got sentimental while drunk and went and niceposted of all things. well I suppose once in a while isn't too bad, and it fits with the thread. good to hear you've made progress on your goals you still need to apologise for Rosa though

I'm starting to think it's more important to be able to set oneself goals and then systematically work towards them than to actually achieve or do things as such.


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>I suppose once in a while isn't too bad

It should be be the rule rather than the exception tbh. 2000's /b/ & /v/ style nihilism was much more of a product of its time than people realize, and when I see image board communities discard that attitude and try to promote niceposting the quality of the community and its OC improves dramatically. You have a lot less drama and self-loathing that is a turn-off for people that can produce engaging content. The original 4/pol/ aut-right/maga colonies from reddit took off so fast in part (I think) because they were spaces for their target demographic to comfort each other through reassurances that all of their problems were due to jews and globalists. Extreme vitriol was only reserved for outsider cucks.

This doesn't mean we should go full tumblr hugbox (especially since that's a good way to allow call-out culture to seep in) but one of the things I really don't miss from quitting social media is the constant self-inflicted reinforcement of negative attitudes that I got from spending hours on image boards. Felix is 100% right when he says that you get brain damage from being Extremely Online. I've posted this video here before but I think it's not just an important cultural document, but a good message that most people who post on image boards should heed:


>you still need to apologise for Rosa though

Funny enough I'm drafting an effortpost for the trash thread on this topic (kind of) which I'll be posting in a couple of hours.

Anyway thanks for the reply, I'm going to go jack off to that biker girl you posted but before I go what manga is the girl in >>54140 from? I see you post crops from it every now and then.


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eh, maintaining a certain distance, even an edge to imageboard communities is necessary imo. imageboards and the communities of outcasts they foster tend to perpetuate and reinforce the isolation from real-life contact and the connections that matter. misery truly does love company. The way to maintain a solid imageboard culture is to have denizens actually value the board and thus provide effortposts and OC, but simultaneously maintain a distance so as not to have it become a place where the emotionally deprived and needy get their faux satisfaction.

It's a really nice picture - if I can't have communism in this life, I'll settle for a girl on whom a high ponytail (like pictured) fits.


Fudatsuki no Kyouko-chan - by Yamamoto Souichiro

pretty generic shounen mango plotwise but the art is 10/10


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>imageboards and the communities of outcasts they foster tend to perpetuate and reinforce the isolation from real-life contact and the connections that matter. misery truly does love company

While this does help people like this cope with their isolation, I do think that it also causes them to mire themselves in an attitude that isn't conducive to productivity or thinking well of yourself. Communities (as I'm paraphrasing from the video I linked to) are shaped by the people in them, and it's really hard to value a community and contribute to it when that community's default response to anything is "shit oc ur a faget kys cuck famalam pepe.jpg" An edge or deliberate elitism is necessary as a way to prop up posting standards, but preserving them shouldn't be an end.

I think this topic does relate to self-improvement, but I can tell I'm already starting to veer off-topic so I'm going to cut this reply short so everyone else can discuss the thread's topic.

>Fudatsuki no Kyouko-chan



I'm giving up, good by anons



>giving up



My family is half falling apart, my grandparents are dying slowly, I still feel depressed and worthless, still dont have a social circle or a gf, but on the upside I guess tonight I am not feeling suicidal, unlike most nights.


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Get educated on Parkland guys



Early update because I'm drunk and can't sleep. Fitness is good, will have money to start shooting the short film in about 3 months, and I'm over tfwnogf and am comfortable enough being alone for now. Working on a reading group and maybe doing something about SESTA-FOSTA, but I don't know enough sex workers to do a good article or organize anything. I stole Karen's goal and stopped posting as much and tbh it's a good decision, the stale arguments that get repeated weekly are a waste of time and in the way of doing anything productive, whether for myself or organizing. You're gonna make it comrades and please adk for help if you need it, we're all in this together.


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Weekly check in

Started my summer job this week, it's grass cutting and outdoors at the cemetery, so I'm hoping that just doing that will cover my "get fit" and "get a tan" goals, since it works every other summer. Social shit, I mean interacting with coworkers counts I guess, I can actually interact with them without being totally autistic, just half-autistic. I did have a fuckup though on Friday when I tried pranking a coworker by fooling him to sign out early and because of a new punch-out system he actually fucking did, so I'm sweating all weekend that I just made a guy lost $50.

Also had to go to a unforgettable luncheon with extended family for a early mothers day thing. Oh and a party on the weekend, that was sorta ok.

Overall I think I'm slowly crawling out of the shell I developed during the last hard period in school, but I am starting to notice a bunch of mental shit acting up and I feel on the verge of depression from what I can tell.

Also I'm pushing off getting glasses still since they're A: fucking expensive and part of an artificially created scarcity monopoly, and B: look fucking stupid and make me self-unconscious. I was proud of my 20/20 eyesight now in my 20s I'm getting fucking cataracts.

anyways good luck to you lads and keep pushing yourselves.


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>when you have to self improve but literal pregnant roasties can still get matches with desperate beta cucks


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Unless you are saving up for plastic surgery for your FACE, everything is COPE.


I always suspected it, but now I have a 100% assurance. I have it black on white.

I have autism. There is nothing I can do to remedy that, no meds, no therapy. It's hardcoded in my DNA.

And it fucking hurts.



eh, at least you now have an excuse right?



own up to your mistake, either have it rectified or give him the $50 you're responsible for


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My there my goal for this month :

-losing more weight

-Get starting in deep learing with MNIST

-Publish my second projects

-Publish a second demo/template in Godot into the asset lib




I really doubt people are going to believe that someone is going to be "convicted three times of rape of a child" at age 23 and be out of prison.


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comrades, how the fuck do you properly shave your balls? I do it with a razor and scissors but it always takes hours and even then there's quite a lot of hair left that I just decide to ignore because I'm tired of it. (not that it matters because my attempts at getting laid fail anyway, but whatever)



He's spamming. Report him.


If you can afford it it's better to wax. I'll last longer and while it hurts there's not as much risk as a cut, which can be disastrous around your shaft and balls. You can try plucking, but honestly keeping your pubes around your dick clean (trimmed or shaved/waxed) is more important than your balls.



I've thought about wax but always pussied out because I figured it's fucking painful + I'm irrationally afraid my balls will keep looking red afterwards. How much does it hurt? also I know this is pathetic but wax is one of those things that I'd actually be embarassed to openly buy in a shop



It hurts, but it's effective both at thinning out the hair (if you've never waxed before) and lasting longer than a shave. If you've never done it before I'd recommend paying someone to do it if you know where to look.



Just get everything smoothed out as possible and use a normal safety razor.



>paying someone to do it

t-that's a thing?



Yeah, back, crack, and sack waxings can be done at many places and it's common enough for women to get their pussy waxed.



For what?


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I just finished getting my welding diploma and today I applied at 4 different locations where I was sure they would be looking for new welders. They all said not right now. Really discouraging. Should I just go on one of those job finding sites and spam my resume to everyone? Also should I be going through unions?



You don't.



I used to work for my grandfather. He ran his own business (self employed). He used to give me jobs he didn’t really want, like simple repair jobs, building custom equipment for people, ect.

Have you tried independent guys like this? Small businesses and the like. You may be able to get a more 1:1 experience (think apprentice type relationship). Also it was pretty laid back and I learned a shit load about metal fab, design and problem solving that you probably won’t get assembly line type stuff for bigger companies.

If not, have you considered starting your own business? Cost upfront may be big but you can start with small jobs and work your way up as you gain experience.

More realistically, try places you wouldn’t think to look. My grandfather got his start working for a local lumber company. I worked for them for awhile too. He worked in maintanence, so he would repair broken equipment and shit. Eventually saved up enough to buy his own shop, was just a big garage bay. After going independent he could take on contracts with everything from various industries to the US govt. but a huge client of his was the original lumber company he worked for.

Hopefully this helps. I think realistically your best bet is going to be with a company you wouldn’t expect at first.


Update: Am still depressed, still want to kms.


Progress reports motherfuckers.

Cutting is slowing down, only managed to drop a pound. Going over my diet and I think I'm going to attempt carb cycling to combat this.



acting like an autist


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Another week, another check in

still procrastinating with the glasses, also being told that my failing eyesight is partly responsible for my hallucinations, cause 50% of the time I actually am seeing shit, and the other 50% of the time I see something that's not a hallucination, but think is a hallucination…. jesus psychology is confusing. Anyways, work is going fine, problem I was worried about turned out to be nothing and turned out I was the one being pranked. Also I'm finding work helps me socialize, as I actually have small talk with them, also I let my guard down when I get tired, and landscaping's fucking tiring, so I become more loose for better or worse(I feel like I'm gonna say some shit I'm gonna regret)

anyways good luck lads on your journeys, and remember that any progress is still progress.

Also I'm getting in shape again, apparently people care about that


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I'd recommend that if you have the possibility of doing so, try and speak to a psychiatrist immediately, the sooner the better.



Diet is now less masochistic. Still predominately eating chicken. Girl friend is still crazy, but she loves me and I love her. Got a job doing lyft, made 100 bucks in 2 days working only 3 hours per day so that was nice. This is before taxes and gas cost though, but still pretty happy I don't have a boss at least. Dealing with the shitty app can be a nightmare at times though. Writing a little bit everyday, always stuff for my girlfriend to read. Still not sure what I want to do with the rest of my life, the phrase itself is quite depressing honestly.



you have jew parasites eating out your eyes growing your eyelash hairs into your whites. The bugs are demodex made in the image of the demiurge.



I'm sorry I worship Azathoth, the nucleus of chaos, you petty Cthulhu scrub



Good on you for the diet and sorry about having to do lyft.



>Good on you for the diet and sorry about having to do lyft.

Don't be. I'm pretty happy about it, at the moment at least. Don't pay for my car insurance or lease, and even if I did it's a write off. Don't have to deal with bosses, and everyone I've met so far has been pretty interesting and decent. Making my own hours is pretty great to. It would be nice if there was a guild for it though.



Is there a reason why I should rest three minutes in between sets?

My new year resolution was to build up some muscle mass primarily for my arm as I have good enough stamina to finish half marathon and okish leg power to deadlift 40kg I'm 177cm with 60kg btw .

Right now my strength training day routine consists of lifting dumbells, push ups, pull up. I try to mix 30 lap of push ups or 5 pull up between dumbells without resting unless I feel really tired.

I'm proud that I can lift 40 l.b. for each hand now former record being 15 and will keep adding weights bi-weekly or so. Am I doing this correctly?



In my friends experience, those gigs turn sour quick. Just watch your ass fam.


>Is there a reason why I should rest three minutes in between sets?

The longer rest helps recover between sets and hit them close to max, which encourages muscle growth or strength. Endurance requires the least rest while mass building requires middle and strength building requires the most. Rest is just as important as sets and reps imo.

>Am I doing this correctly?

I'm not sure. Imo you should lift 3 days a week, rest/light cardio 3 days, and do some intermediate cardio (enough to make you sweat but not enough to wear you the fuck out) 1 day a week when you start building muscle. I would drop the body weight and just go full lifting if you can, increment bi-weekly is ok if you're making progress and not getting hurt. Diet is of paramount importance and you have to keep track of that in a way where you change how you eat instead of go on a diet.



>In my friends experience, those gigs turn sour quick. Just watch your ass fam.

Would you mind being more detailed? Genuinely curious.



It seemed as time went on he got more passengers that were obnoxious or verbally abusive. Generally sort of a daily humiliation that got worse as time went on. He's also black in Texas so that factors in.


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It's Sunday guys


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new here, how do I improve myself?



this thread is quite disappointingly slow it seems


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Best way to start is to do something small. Minimum effort. But commit to it and make sure you do it regularly. Then build from there.

Pic related. Try rolling one every day.


The board is slow.


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Thanks. My starting point is: no irl friends, depression, terrible self-esteem, few online friends (and even fewer soon bc some are going offline for various reasons), no gf, deteriorating grades, terrible self-organization, time management, and self-discipline, no exercise, slightly underweight, and I spend way too much of my time wasting my life away mindlessly fucking around on the internet (social media, imageboards, you get the picture). On the positive side I do read theory and philosophy every now and then (just finished Notes from Underground by Dostoevsky) and I do spend some time trying to learn new languages online but that's kind of sporadic. Not quite sure where to start with self-improvement but I think that raising my grades before summer should be my main priority now and then I could probably work on the other stuff when school ends. Unfortunately, I have very low motivation and self-discipline so getting my shit together (especially with school) isn't going to be easy.



>Unfortunately, I have very low motivation and self-discipline so getting my shit together (especially with school) isn't going to be easy.

You can train that. It's probably the most important thing to train, too. Start by making yourself stand up straight and stand still for a few minutes. Your brain will make up excuses to go do something else, and what you're "exercising" is the impulse control that will help you ignore those excuses.



It's a sunday and this board has slowed down. We're going to have to post more and better quality if we want to change that.



Go for a walk or read instead of wasting time on image boards or social media. You don't have to go anprim or anything, but if you took 3 hours a week you would have spent shitposing and instead spent it on exercise, reading, or learning a skill you'd be better off. Find something you're interested in or enjoy and start there. I get school can be tough and time consuming but do your best.



.>just finished Notes from Underground by Dostoevsky

Wow i wonder why you aren't just drowning in pussy. You should probably go to your grave without telling another person you've read that. You can parrot everything you read in pessimistic literature and philosophy in an "ironic" way, and girls will think it's funny.

To cut down on screen-time, I find it's best to find something else you can do for hours. I find I get burned out if I read or study for too long, and can't exercise for too long for obvious reasons. I'd rule those out, but maybe they'd work for you. Doesn't have to be anything you enjoy. I'd recommend working on a skill.



To counter the above post: don't worry too much about your hobbies. People tend to be more interested in passion by itself than what the contents of that passion are. Even if it's something on the fringe, you'll find people who are just fine with it if you look in the right places (I've made contact with people by talking about anime at otherwise conventional parties, just to give you an idea).

If the above post does scare you, mind that it's not so much about what you are interested as how you present it. While this varies from person to person, a safe bet is to keep the cynicism to a minimum when meeting people.

As for self-discipline: start lifting weights. Unlike some others here who see it as some person-changing black magic, I've been lifting weights for six years and do it because I like to. From that experience I can tell you that physical exercise is a great way to teach yourself to deal with a schedule (even a flexible one). It's also not too expensive, 50 bucks for a basic weight set, and you can work around it. (If 50 is too rich for your blood, you can get jump rope for 5 (or even lower) and do cardio instead. Cardio is less intensive however and so not preferred for learning time management. Doing both fitness and cardio is ideal in that regard.)

Finally, and I can't stress this enough: be you, only one in the world. It's tired and tried at this point, I get it, but becoming more comfortable with who you are and embracing your idiosyncrasies is the definitive way to become a more pleasant person over all.


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Just started on making weekly and daily to do lists with (hopefully) realistic goals to accomplish each day. Goals include stuff like reducing social media/imageboard/fucking around time and doing productive stuff in my free time (reading, Duolingo, school shit, exercise, and some others). I'll also start drinking coffee more because it seems that caffeine motivates me to do productive shit. Hopefully I'll actually accomplish most of my goals if all goes well.

>You should probably go to your grave without telling another person you've read that.

Too late lmao. Most of my friends (including the female ones) are depressed neurotics with at least some kind of mental issues anyways so I don't really give a shit about them judging me for ready edgy existentialist novels. I also have poor social skills probably assburgers and/or social anxiety so whatever. I'll just have to accept living with a few online friends I guess.



I found the usual platitudes about socializing to be entirely unhelpful when getting out of a depressed slump, so I have a couple of criticisms. Maybe I was depressed for longer or more severely than the anon in question was, which could make my advice less helpful, but he didn't check a box I wouldn't have just over a year ago, and I'm productive and fairly satisfied with my social life now.

>mind that it's not so much about what you are interested as how you present it etc

This is true in general, but I draw a line at anything resembling pessimism. In general, people don't like it. I'm not gonna pretend I don't know anyone irl who will talk about it, but it's basically the last thing I'd talk about with anyone else.

>be you, only one in the world be comfortable, etc

I would disagree with this broadly, but short of that I would distinguish between who you are and how you present yourself. If you don't have friends, or if your friends are all as fucked up as you are, present yourself as someone that you are not. Think of it like networking. Make as many acquaintances as you can, then filter them by compatibility. Be cynical. Be fake.

Don't become comfortable with yourself. Find what you hate about yourself and change it as much as possible.



If we're going to engage in an oppression Olympics with respect to depression, you'll find I'll come out as the gold medalist. It's not a context you want to introduce. Likewise, despite being congenitally depressed, I still found considerable social success despite regularly being emotionally crippled and that success was contingent exactly on the insight (or "platitudes") I expressed above.

Furthermore, I sense some confusion as to what I meant. I addressed being cynical (which is what I suspect you seem to mean with "pessimism"):

>a safe bet is to keep the cynicism to a minimum when meeting people.

While it is possible to sell yourself while being a nark, it takes considerable confidence and charm which are things someone who self-identifies as depressive is unlikely to possess. Enfin: we agree.

More troubling is your later comment. My point was not: "don't change yourself", it was "learn to be comfortable with who you are". This 'becoming comfortable with oneself' could very well mean changing things about yourself - but at the end of the day, you are still you. As long as you do not accept who you are, as long as you find it impossible to be comfortable with yourself, you will be in a crisis of meaning and struggle to present yourself. Even without the social boon: you have to be you, for better or worse.

I also object to the notion that satisfaction from social engagements is dependent on a numbers game. You can be pulling like crazy, but that won't make the depression disappear. Instead: engage with people, because it's fun to do. Engage with people, because it's emotionally satisfying. Engage with others to learn more about yourself. Do not engage with people in a predetermined, calculating way with the goal of meeting as many people as possible. That is an excellent way to end up in toxic, demoralizing, and miserable relationships. In short: quality, not quantity. Find people who are good to you and you can be good to (tall order as that might be).

And to that end… I can't help but pick up on some lingering self-hate in your post. It is exactly that lingering self-loathing that I think should be avoided. It's needlessly exhausting, motivates cynicism, and makes it harder to progress to whatever goal is set. Yes, change yourself. Yes, seek out what you do not like about your identity. Yes, present yourself as good as you can. Try to be the best person you can be - but do not get stuck hating yourself.



Notes from Underground wasn't even that depressing, step up your game.


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Sorry for not checking in yesterday lads, I was away for the long weekend. I swear the only good thing about monarchies are the free holidays we get on Aunt Vicky's birthday. Suckers.

Anyways, work's going fine but I think I'm rapidly approaching the point where I'm gonna get too comfortable with my coworkers/too tired to care and let one of my bad aspects slip. already mentioned that I'm saving up for a fursuit when asked if I'm gonna do anything with the paycheck

I haven't talked to anyone else lately though, and since I'm doing manual labour I don't feel like going out with friends, at best I curl up in a ball and read a good book for 2 hours before going to sleep, sometimes I go on the computer and stay up most of the night. I just hope once the grass stops growing there'll be less work and I can actually do normal people stuff instead of going deeper into my antisocial shell.

Also I think depression's creeping up on me again, the being tired aspect isn't helping, but I'm slowly realizing there's nothing to look forward to, especially with the provincial elections coming up and it looks like the conservatives will win, healthcare will be privatized, and generally we'll get a micro-Trump as premier. So much fun.

Btw has anyone ever got eye surgery here? Apparently it's gotten better recently and it's covered by my healthcare and I'm looking into it as an alternative to glasses, but the idea of getting a needle/laser in my eye scares me a little bit.

Anyways have a good week lads and keep pushing it to the limit :3


I've been hanging out with family this weekend, so I didn't get to post much. I spent a few hours in Unity doing tutorials, but now I'm looking at Godot instead.


What do you end up doing on the computer? Just dicking around on imageboards or doing something productive? I'd recommend getting something like f.lux if you're going to be using a computer that late. Also, were your coworkers previously aware that you are a furry?

I don't think you have to worry about healthcare services being fully/mostly privatized, that would kill off any chances of reelection for the PC's.

Laser eye surgery is not so bad, personally I am fine with my glasses in spite of all the annoyances that come with it (except for the cost of a replacement, what a ripoff).



Do you have a Discord, anon? If you feel the need to connect with others, post your username. I would gladly add you as I'm sure some others in the thread would. It's no alternative to IRL friends but it's certainly better than little to no friends at all.



>What do you end up doing on the computer Just dicking around on imageboards or doing something productive?

some image boards, discord, and maybe an anime. Something productive are you kidding? The term's over.

>Also, were your coworkers previously aware that you are a furry?

No, but earlier in the day they were talking about cringy stuff on the internet and furries came up, so all day my retarded brain I was giggling to myself and I went full retard when I found a way to "subtly" drop it at the paycheck thing. Mind you this was after 8 hours of work and the 5th day of a 6 day work week.


You're all gonna make it.


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You're all going to make it!


>especially with the provincial elections coming up and it looks like the conservatives will win, healthcare will be privatized, and generally we'll get a micro-Trump as premier. So much fun.

Don't worry about it that much. For one, federal legislation forces the provinces to maintain a certain level of free-at-point-of-service coverage to keep receiving subsidies, so it would be hard to do a straight privatization of services. Also let's face it: we Canadians still love our health care despite its mediocrity, anyone who seriously fucks with it is writing a political suicide note. So I doubt a single term of a K-Mart brand Trump is going to do severe damage.

Also isn't the NDP polling well?


I'm not going to make it and that's OK.



>Also isn't the NDP polling well?

That's sorta the problem though isn't it? I mean I find that when we think it's gonna be an easy win we get lax and a tortoise vs hare thing happens, I mean weren't the polls in 2016 saying a 96% chance of Hillary winning?

also the worst thing of all is that my district is Wynne's own riding, and there's no NDP runner… so I gotta either vote for Wynne, who's in last, or the conservative.

talk about a rock and a hard place


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You're gonna make it whether you like it or not, comrade.


That's always the problem, isn't it? The left-liberal vote splits between three different parties and the tories sneak up the middle. Given that the vote isn't until June, the NDP still has a chance to force the PCs into a minority government, or even pull an Alberta and sweep the province by cannibalizing the entire Liberal electorate.

>my district is Wynne's own riding, and there's no NDP runner

I checked and according to Elections Ontario you have a succdem in your riding


Fucked up my shoulder at work and couldn't do certain exercises. Sad comrades.

Budgeting for the film and I think it may coist around $8K to shoot. In my current situation I can raise that but it will take a while, in the meantime going to work on script and teaching myself editing and scoring.



Proper thing buddy! Take it easy and let your shoulder heal.


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the NDP person pulled out, moved or something else since I got a notification that the NDP seat is open and the only runners currently are the Conservatives and the Libertarians and Economics(CEP), the Green and NDP have something weird going on where they won't be on the ballot or something. Dunno what's going on with it.

Ya the NDP lady just dropped off the fucking map, she's doing twitter and shit still but the campaign site's dead and she didn't show up for the local debate at the nearby school gym. Maybe she got whacked or something

I'm still fucking confused at the Libertarian running for a role in government though



well there's pictures of her campaigning on social media

either way after a certain date once you're on the ballot you can't get off. I guess you can just go vote and if there's no NDP or Green options you can just write NAZBOL GANG on your ballot in protest



> just write NAZBOL GANG on your ballot in protest

I'm not gonna be that guy who throws their ballot away, besides a vote for nothing is a vote for Ford or something. "Democracy"


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Post your progress reports!



Broke up with crazy GF, still friends though. Making decent money doing lyft, been eating sort of poorly lately though so I'm trying to fix that. Eating enough protein to make gainz is a pain especially since it seems like I'm allergic to whey. Pretty much eat a pound and a half of chicken a day to get what I need. Feeling pretty good though. Don't feel anxious about the future, or about finding a mate or anything like that. Just happy being volcel and working on myself.



Put spam into your baillot at least you will make the people that are counting vote laugh.


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Well, I fucked up on my attempts at self-organization, reducing time spent fucking around online, and time management for school. On the other hand one of my few remaining online friends just became my gf, so that's nice.


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Nothing to report, sleep still messed up, no progress on any of my tasks, still feeling sick and tired all the time. Oh well. I took two weeks off my horrible job before I quit then I've had three weeks between it and starting my new job, I'm halfway through that now and still haven't done anything. Urgh.


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Have exam tomorrow and I feel like crap………

Hopefully won't go too bad………


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It's been a long while since I've posted one of these…

I'm still happy with a lot of the progress I've made in the past five months, but I've backslid on exercise (though not on diet). I've lost weight but I fear becoming the dreaded skinnyfat. My work hours can be haphazard, so it's easy to say that I work and I eat healthy, so it's no big deal if I skip lifting even though I know it's just a cop-out.


Does anyone else here have severe depression? It makes trying to improve myself seem impossible.


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I might have something like it, but it comes and goes and I've trained myself to suppress it by working. Shark principles: I won't sink if I just keep swimming forward.



Mmmh. Seems I wouldn't make a very good shark.


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I don't really understand it myself and my problems are probably not identical to yours. I just find that I get depressed and go numb if I spend lots of time in old habits (spending a lot of time online posting, jacking off constantly, drinking tons of coffee). I find that if I occupy my time with menial work or personal projects I generally feel better when I'm done. Even stuff like sweeping up crumbs, meal preparation, cleaning your room, researching and adding missing metadata to mp3s in my music collection, walking up a hill on a good day, and other stuff that doesn't take a lot of complex thought to do.

I guess if it's something that stays with you even after you've improved your diet, exercise and have found something to occupy your time then it's probably clinical. I don't really have anything else to say beyond my own experiences, sorry.

Also I have to admit that the nofap crew on here weren't entirely wrong. I only fap once every three days or so now and it helps a tiny bit. I tried a two week nofap and after day four I didn't feel any additional benefits


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How severe are we talking? I've dealt with almost everything short of suicide attempts and ECT for what feels like about 15 years. I was diagnosed about 10 years ago. I started feeling like I was living in a waking dream at about 9, and I honestly probably didn't feel any pleasure (outside of getting dat nut) until I was 21 or 22 and even then it's rare. I would also advise becoming addicted to your work or exercise as opposed to anime or vidya.

If your depression is really bad, and you can afford it, I would take medication. In general I'd advise against it, but I know what it's like to have friends, job prospects, attention from women, a loving family and still want to fucking die.

From all of the awkward silences I've gotten after trying to explain to people that they never need to enjoy anything or feel good about themselves (all true btw), I can tell I'm not very good at explaining how to be ☘️successful☘️ and depressed at the same time. If you have specific questions, I can try to answer them.



Yes I agree that keeping busy is good, I guess, but it's hard to do that when I'm feeling super down and stuff. Right now I want to work on my videos but I'm having to wait for all the project files to be re-rendered (which has already taken a week ish with another week or so to go).

It's hard for me to improve my diet since I have an eating disorder that nobody acknowledges the existence of (ARFID), every health agency thinks its someone elses problem. As for exercise I know I should do it more but I just hate it, some people get a kick from exercise but I don't, it's just the opposite, I just feel hot and tired and unhappy. I know that makes me sound like a pussy but yeah. As for nofap, well, idk, that seems a bit weird to me but I'm down to like 1 a day usually anyway.


Yeah I've been diagnosed for years too, maybe like 7-8, I do take medication but it only helps so much you know. I can afford that but I certainly can't afford therapy/counselling or anything outside of the NHS which has horribly inadequate provision, I'm on a waiting list now that will probably be like six months or more.

So yeah I dunno guys, sorry, I guess I gave the impression I was new to the game or something but nah I've tried various things, nothing is enough though or really makes much of a difference long term, my life is just shitty. Shitty minimum wage job, living with parents, no bf/gf, no real happiness, bad health, and so on.

Also that webm is pretty fucked up, what is even that thing for. Are you supposed to feed every mouthful into it or something.


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I just find that achieving things for their own sake helps build confidence in your ability to do things. Simple tasks can help during stretches when you're too numb to really think about doing more complex tasks. Go to the drug store and buy a new toothbrush to replace your old one that should have been tossed out months ago. Or use an old toothbrush to clean the grout built up around your kitchen faucet. Or just take out the garbage before it builds up and starts growing mold. Or go to the kitchen and drink a glass of water. Something that might take half an hour tops.

I think this approach works anyway - it's what works for me.



Yeah I do try to do that. I have a to do list next to my PC now. But I never really get round to to doing much of it sadly. Still it's a new day, I'm gonna go have a shower and maybe try some online CBT.



I'll try to provide some advice. Lots of it is probably pretty obvious


It's hard to start doing shit, but if there's a secret to getting over that hump, I don't know what it is. I'd suggest getting a hobby with little to know down time if you can.


Are you in bad shape? Having started and stopped running 5ks a few times, it can take a while to go from exercise being absolutely miserable to pretty enjoyable. Even if you don't actually enjoy exercise itself, you might get something out of progressing.

>No fap

I'd try to do less than 1 a day. I'm not a big nofap guy, but I feel pretty shitty if I jack off every day.


How many have you tried? Could you try a different medication or a higher dose? If you've been depressed for several years it may be hard to tell how well the meds are working. Switching meds/doses late is better than never doing it.

>Everything is shit

If you've been depressed for a long time, you should come to terms with it. I'm not sure how helpful this is, but accepting that I'll probably always feel depressed has helped me tolerate life more than anything else. Don't tell yourself that you can't improve things in your life, but acknowledge that you'll probably still feel like shit even if those things do improve. Accept anhedonia as your baseline. It's probably a really unhealthy coping mechanism, but it helps me function.


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FWIW I've also found that shaving regularly is the easymodo way to self-improve. Same thing with beard trimming. I have to do it now because of my job but regardless I do feel some accomplishment at cleaning my face of stubble every couple of days

Anyway log off and do something comrade, you're going to make it


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Alright enough politics, time for the progress report, no matter how lousy it is

Work's going fine, the 4 day work week from Aunt Vicky's B-day really helped but I still think I said some shit I'm going to regret, nothing is too notable on its own but I just think that some of the stuff I've been saying was weird. Oh and I accidentally mentioned Marx when discussing the term "bourgeoisie" and now some of them call me a communist which is so fucking ironic since the discussion was about the French Revolution and I was just saying that Marx used the term bourgeoisie more than the third estate. The fucking irony.

other than that I didn't get out much. Wake up, go to work, get home, eat, go on comp, sleep. That's my routine now, so fucking bye to what little social life I had and was improving.

Oh and my hard drive which went belly up is confirmed dead, and after mourning its loss and trying to use the computer with all its new parts, now the computer itself isn't working, ffs technology just throw me a bone here.

anyways good week to you lads and keep pushing! No matter how much the damn computer hates me. fucking thing.



>That's my routine now, so fucking bye to what little social life I had

No opportunities to socialize with your co-workers?


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a social life that's only talking to your coworkers is like getting money in Monopoly without any properties because you went past "GO"


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Do your best!!


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I passed with a good grade but now I have summer vacation but I feel empty and have nothing to do……


Has anyone else got the old alcohol monkey on their back? I keep trying to improve myself, and I manage it for a while but soon enough I'll have to go out drinking with friends and its straight back on the shitty fast food/getting up late/alcoholism track. Especially when right wingers piss me off and I can't really tell anyone about it because when I talk about leftist issues I might as well be talking neptunian to my family and friends. I'm also MtF but trying to supress it. I dunno, it just always feels like I'm on a pile of issues that can set on fire anytime and I never really make progress, only stay on top.



>I'm also MtF

perhaps this is the wrong thread for this but I really don't want to make ANOTHER trans thread how do you know you are 'really' female? to somewhat paraphrase Germaine Greer: I'm a man with basically no gender identity issues, but even so I can't really tell what 'being a man' is, I can only say what being me is. how does one come to feel like they are the 'other' gender?




take up photography it's a nice solitary hobby


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Progress reports!


This thread is hilarious in hindsight, guess only right wingers can into self improvement.


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What (some) rightwingers can do is get /fit/ but they can't change their inherent loser natures. They'll still be terrified of their own shadows no matter what they do, and they can only reduce their own self-loathing by redirecting it into misanthropy and sociopathic self-obsession ala Peterson.

We might actually become well-adjusted members of society some day.



>We might actually become well-adjusted members of society some day.

It's not too late for most here, late 20's seem to be the turning point at which marxists irreversibly change into Jason Unruhe figures. You could call it dialectical wizardhood.


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Alright, so this update is probably gonna be the worst one in a while

So in terms of social stuff not much has happened, job's still going and nothing notable happened there except overdosing on caffeine via 3 Litres of Pepsi, and in hindsight I shouldda stopped when my coworkers started sniggering. I never tasted Reb Bull before so I just thought the pop was flat.

Anyways big news for the week though: I got my marks back from my exams and I did extremely poorly, nothing below 50% mind you but my average GPA was 6.25 for my major courses and 9.0 overall, and I need a 7.0 GPA for majors and 8.0 overall to stay in. So basically I was kicked out of the program I worked years to achieve even though I worked my ass off studying for the exams and thought I answered everything correctly, so either I'm a complete failure or a TA fucked me over because I said Neo-Liberalism is fad and that's at odds with their opinion. So I contacted my professor and he says I can shadow the program and if I meet the requirements for the course again in the fall term I'll be let back in. My big problem with this is that my program is an extremely small and tight-nit group, there being only 100 of us in 1st year and we were always in the same class for our major courses. So all of this has sent me into one of the worst crashes I've ever had, realizing that I'm a failure, that my work's meaningless, and that now the few friends I've made at university are going on while I'm in the university equivalent of the short bus. I had my first suicidal thought in years, the last time being 8 years ago when I got caught trying to hang myself, but this time it wasn't so much as offing myself as just coming to the conclusion that there's nothing for me to look forward to, why strive to go on when all that awaits me is disappointment? I actually stayed up a whole night trying to think of something to look forward to(this did not help at work the next day) and the only thing I could think of is maybe some vidya games that are coming out this year, but nothing long term or actually life related. Although I've slightly recovered and not having any more suicidal thoughts I still find myself in a dark place, darker than my normal dark. Things for me just seem to be getting worse with perhaps the only consolation being that there's people who have it worse and that I can only fall so much further.

On the bright side it'll just be that much sweeter when/if I finally overcome all my anxieties, irks, quams, and general shit that life throws my way, and that when I come out the other side I'll have a million victory marks on my banner.

also that fucking wombo-combo of deteriating mental health and shitty TA marking in today's post-secondary institutions makes for one hell of a headache.


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I'm sorry you've been feeling down and you got a shitty result, but like you said it's not the end of the world, and you can get back in, I know it feels bad but in the long term it isn't going to matter whether you took a little longer to finish. If you know what you want to do then you're succeeding already. I will say you probably shouldn't talk about politics at work/school though, especially around people who are grading you. If you feel backed into a corner say something bland like you support a major party on some things but you don't really think about it that much.

I think you'll be doing okay soon, I know that's kinda subjective but I just get that feeling from you and seeing you usually post progress. I know it's hard but just remember that if you're putting one foot in front of the other you're doing alright. Don't do something silly that the people who care about you will have to regret. Hang in there, we're rooting for you.


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Steady as she goes. I think I might finally have to get my wisdom teeth pulled though, that's going to be fun


This is a board dedicated to worker's issues, why are you surprised that most of us are preoccupied with joining the workforce?


For what it's worth and while I don't participate in the thread myself: seeing anons in this thread do their best inspires me to keep going myself. You can definitely do it, even if it takes longer than expected, believe in that.



thanks dude



>my average GPA was 6.25 for my major courses and 9.0 overall, and I need a 7.0 GPA for majors and 8.0 overall to stay in

wtf is your school even doing max GPA should always be 4.0 not fucking 8 or 9



Does your post-secondary institution offer counseling? If you're feeling suicidal and at the beginning of a depression spiral START COUNSELING RIGHT AWAY. Do NOT let your mental state deteriorate or you are going to be set back further. Things may seem bad now but you can actually make it through this if you take the necessary measures.


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Forgot to bump this


I'm keeping up with fitness and trying to read more in my spare time. Unfortunatly this means less time playing vidya or posting here, which I miss for the 50-80% of you I wouldn't want to kill. Budgeting to shoot the script I wrote and I figure I will neer around $10k, which will take me a while to save up. Until then I'll keep reading and learning shit about filmmaking on a budget.


Seeing this thread was good vibes. I'm gonna go be productive.


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So weekly checkin is a bit late, but that seems to be becoming normal so meh

So still shook about the marks thing but Imma trying to compensate/try not to think about it. Work's going fine same ol' same ol', although I am being called "communist" for something completely unrelated it's kinda weird actuallyI missed the joke myself, provincial election happened which was the biggest shitshow I've seen since 2016, upside though is that I have a new life goal: bash fat porky premier to death with a frying pan, hopefully achievable by the end of the year. For reals though, the election is now motivating me to get my grades up in the fall so I can hurry up and get to the second half of the programme which is in England so I can jump this sinking ship.

oh ya I'm trying to improve my social skills right? I mean it was a friend's B-day today and I took him to the baseball game, that's something.

OH and I finally got the balls/money to get IT, or at least order IT the fursuit which is something I always thought would just be one of those things which you say you're gonna do but never do, so hopefully I can now do this with more things I keep pushing off.

oh crud I actually gotta reply to stuff this time, lemme just do that real quick


Thanks anon, I wasn't that serious about killing myself though, as I said it was the first of its kind in almost a decade, and looking back it was just sort of a coping mechanism to justify to myself the possibility of time not moving forward since the future doesn't hold anything for me as far as I can see, but as you said I just gotta take it one day at a time and maybe I'll catch a break


my school's GPA system works with 12.0 being the highest, and 8.0 is actually a B- so the fact I wasn't able to reach even that is kinda salt on wounds. My only consolation is that it was a level 100 course and that my answers were more complex than what they were looking for since I got a 9.0 in the level 200 politics course.


I've already been through counseling, my school as far as I can tell does in fact offer some, but it's the kind that's come out of "comfort zone" of the new millennial age and isn't really any good. I am trying to get in contact with my old counselor though who helped me through some really rough times so I'm not just gonna sit by as I slip.

oh and could someone please remove the asshole telling us to you-know-what? I don't wanna give him the satisfaction of a (You) but I feel that his negativity is really not needed here, so if a mod sees this please look at the idiot using red text

anyways good week to you lads and keep pushing on, we'll all make it there together!


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>skipped going out with coworkers

>spent all weekend playing Zelda

>spent too much money on food

>weekly stress about thinning hair

>did absolutely nothing productive but apply for 20 something jobs which I did while watching youtube videos

Well at least this week can't be any worse



It can always get worse, you have to push yourself to be better. Force yourself to go exercise or spend less money on food until it becomes habit.


Since this thread started, I've lost 40 pounds, can deadlift a bag of bricks, do 15 pullups consecutively when before i could only do 3 or 4, and today did a 10 mile healthwalk with two qts I know. We're all going to make it comrades.


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I'm proud of you anon.


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Better week for me, my work effectively reversed a staffing policy change (to "seek efficiencies" of course) which cut my hours down to near part-time. I'm still officially a part-timer but with this local management is free to start calling in me and my coworkers to help with passenger gluts and rebookings. This was the first week where I took money out of my savings to pay for daily expenses so I've been noided for a while.

Downside is that I'm probably going to disappear again.Still I'm glad to see this thread going strong. I'm employed, anons are lifting and losing weight, and market socialist anon is buying a Chad fursuit. We're all slowly making it.


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>do 15 pullups consecutively



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I just quit my gym because they have a sign that says "we support our troops" now I'm going to start my own. Also in the month after I left I gained more muscle than I've ever had in my life. Gyms suck ass imho, they're only good for showers and the sauna.



>I just quit my gym because they have a sign that says "we support our troops"

It's not like the gym owners are on a first name basis with Jim Mattis, anon. Why do you care that much?

>Gyms suck ass imho

100% true, you shouldn't have wasted money on a membership in the first place honestly.

>now I'm going to start my own

Now I'm confused. I thought gyms suck ass? What are you going to do to improve on the standard gym formula, other than not having a retarded sign out front?


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Anyone here who plays/has played trumpet or sax? I'm thinking of picking one up and trying to teach myself with books and youtube tutorials, but am a bit unsure if i could manage. The only musical experience I have is one year of classical guitar at a music school 2 years ago (which i then quit because I fucking hated the solfège class). I didn't find the motivation to continue playing afterwards, so obviously i have my doubts if i will be able to with another instrument. Would it be realistic to learn these instruments on my own especially if i'm far from a prodigy? Also which is the easier one, I would guess sax?


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That's awesome anon! Motivates me too to be less of a lazy piece of shit. Keep it up





Thanks guys! Honestly, I've been in kind of a rut lately. It's either working or working out or dicking around at home. Now that I'm in better shape, I feel confident enough to try getting a gf but I'm not really sure how to go about it? How do you guys play the field



I just use tinder to get my dick wet, but I've accepted that at the moment I'm not ready for a gf and don't suggest doing it unless you want to get laid before getting a gf. best way to get a gf is to go outside to things you're interested in and talk to women who have common intersts, be urself is good advice because if you're being fake they will now and won't want to be with a fake and you'll hate yourself anyway. if you're specfically looking for a leftist gf you can go to DSA meetings and meet socdem or infiltrator qts, those are crawling with qts compared to the other options, second of which will be anarchist groups and dead last are marxist-snowflakist parties which are mostly dudes for whatever reason.



I also urgently need to get my shit together. I'm not yet working (in college) but my sleeping rhythm is as fucked up as you can imagine and I procrastinate studying for my finals to a point that i'm frequently amazed by it myself. How do you deal with procrastinating?

>How do you guys play the field

very badly

I've met some girls through tinder but it didn't really go anywhere (i'm probably not the person to give you advice)

But maybe you could try striking conversations with girls at the place you work out? Or join some organisation/club of something that interests you to make new contacts? Or through other social events, concerts (i wouldn't chat up girls on concerts but apparently this works for some people), etc.?

Personally I also have a hard time falling in love, I don't know how this is for you guys, but I feel like my general mindset at this point is just too apathetic to be madly in love with anyone. Maybe I'm taking it all too seriously though.



>How do you stop procrastinating?

Just take baby steps. Do a little more every day. Try to get into healthy habits like exercising 3 times a week.


What's good for a tinder profile though? Not really sure how to talk to chicks on there either. Like, how do you separate the interested from the attention seeking?



>What's good for a tinder profile though?

Good pictures of yourself and a bio that's honest and intriguing. You don't have to be a 6'3" 10/10 for it to work but don't be a fake fuck.

>Not really sure how to talk to chicks on there either. Like, how do you separate the interested from the attention seeking?

You have to play it by ear and accept that there will always be cases of it going nowhere. Just don't let it get you down.


bump for progress reports


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I think i haven't been taking care of me for too long, tomorrow i'm gonna go hiking to check my condition.


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Weekly checkin, slow one this time

not much is happening, I went to an air show in Hamilton for father's day, was fun. Work wise I think I'm past the point of no return, as the hours have been slowly making me more and more of a walking zombie, and its making me lower the barriers I put up around my fragile mental state. Suffice to say I went full retard, as in short school bus levels. Feels bad man. Nothing really bad, just acting like a manchild in general, but it still keeps me up at night once I'm sober. I saw my GF for the first time in a couple weeks, so that helped a bit with my current down situation, although she's a bit of a loonie but she's good people especially since she's gone through the same shit as me being schizophrenic and all. I'm kinda running out of shit to report on, but I feel like I got to post about something otherwise I'll get out of the habit of progress reports and improving myself. it's happened before.

oh and if my posts become less and less legible let me know, I do this just before going to sleep now so my drowsy self may write shit I don't mean to. Sorry in advance.

Anyways good week to you lads, and keep pushing!


I'm drunk and cheated way too much today on my diet but other than that and occasional nogf sadness I'm doing good anons. Just keep lifting and keep reading.


You're all gonna make it


>>66471 (me)

I did it but it was hard to catch my breath sometimes. Could be worse i guess



keep at it comrade.


crunches and other ab workouts are fucking cancer I hate doing them


i think there's something really wrong with me- I've been told it's antisocial personality disorder but I do understand right and wrong and I ""feel"" remorse when I wrong people who don't deserve it but it's not true regret or shame, it's just the understanding that yeah it was wrong but oh well.

I don't think I can ever be a normal, functional person with relationships. Just need to stay away from personal relationships, be a good socialist and work for a better future.



Understand your faults and work with them. Never let your shortcomings consume you, lest you become a detriment to the cause.



>antisocial personality disorder

>I don't think I can ever be a normal, functional person

One more thing, have you ever considered learning more about National Bolshevism? I think you would find a warm welcome within our ranks.



Just power through them because you have to fam, getting or keeping healthy isn't all pleasant but being healthy is more than enough to make up for a few minutes of displeasure.


Went to hard at the gym today trying to impress a new trainer, ended up throwing up my breakfast about 10 minutes in. suprisingly I felt in pretty high spirits the rest of the day. When I was depressed this sort of shit would really get to me.



Always train before eating.


Take acting course


He has antisocial problem not autism.


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Went to my first union local meeting a couple weeks ago and I'm pretty stoked. For someone like me whose entire praxis has basically been voting and shitposting it's nice to interact with my co-workers, organize around our collective class interests and talk with people whose brains haven't been thoroughly poisoned by twitter/chan culture irony

The only downside is that my union is part of CUPE. National org is thoroughly co-opted and there's barely a shred of radicalism among the rank-and-file activists (even for a dumb succdem like me). Also I'm the youngest person in the union by far and have to be assaulted by boomer memes daily.

A small price to pay, I guess



Work out an hour to three hours after a meal and don't hurt yourself trying to impress someone.


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Put the last touches on my new gun today. 16" 5.56mm AR-15, upper, lower, and hand guard from Aero. weighs 6.0lbs


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>The Last thing an alt-right bigot sees before I add him to my cringe compilation




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disappointed with that trigger discipline laddio



Why do no-guns liberals love pointing out trigger discipline? TD doesn't apply to posed photos.



When did the booru got infested with tankies? Everything slightly critical of Stalin has negative scores and wall of text comments defending his atrocities.


Another good week in terms of fitness, but I need to get about an hour or so more sleep every night.


Around the same time BO lost his shit. They've even taken down some anarchist content too.


Checking in after a long time (more than a month maybe two)

>Go to gym 3 times a week

havent gone in over a month

>Eat healthy


>Lay off the porn


>Talk to the cute-ish nerdy girl in my drawing class

I dont find her that cute anymore and we hardly have time to talk during the one hour of class

>Only one hour of games a day


>Drawing an hour a day

Nope, been so fucking busy and drained

>Make a planning app

Fuck that

>Go out


>Cycle to school as much as possible

Only have one day of school a week and the times do not permit me to cycle

Still cyclically depressed, still stressed, still no new friends, still not going out, still want to kms periodically, hate my life, hate reality, just want it all to end.



Oh right

I need to go to the doctor sometime soon. I think I might have ADHD.


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> I had my first suicidal thought in years

Wait people can go years without thinking about killing themselves?



Yeah you just have to take drugs that make you unable to think at all.



Been debating making a leftbooru specifically for original drawings, paintings, renders, that sort of thing. Anything that requires extended circulation for the person that created it. Preferably featuring a number of works every week.

Is there interest in that?


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Since I started working I didn't do anything else, I just waste all my time on imageboards.


Well I guess I should give some kind of update. Still doing Lyft, switching from startbodyweight to one of scooby's home workout plans instead. Doing more cardio, jogging everyday now. Being more adventurous when it comes to women, asked a friend of a friend out but got shot down cause I wasn't "athletic" enough (probably dodged a bullet with that one). Weight's been hovering around 175~ but it seems like my waste is getting slimmer, so I guess I'm still losing fat and just replacing the weight with muscle. Over all things are going well. Going out more, trying new things, being more social etc. Hope everything is going well with you guys



Good on you fam, glad to see I'm not the only one working out.


I'm not a drawfag but that would be nice because in addition to being run by idiots a lot of the memes in leftybooru seem derivative and bad.


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another week another checkin

slowly settling into the routine at work, and slowly turning into the weird manchild self that I try to keep at bay as keep pushing off sleep in order to cook an actual meal. While on that train, new goal: GET 8 HOURS OF SLEEP MINIMUM A NIGHT!!! Maybe obtainable by mid August, we'll see. Also had my first full tardo moment at work when someone said Ford was doing a good job. Short story is that my monologue sounded a lot better to me since The Internationale was playing on my earphones at the moment. Oh well.

Finally getting around to seeing a therapist, seeing my old one who I saw and then worked with at the mental health clinic when I went there and subsequently volunteered there for my 40 hours. He's good people and is a more down to earth kind of guy unlike the shits who act high and mighty with their Freud and Jung, and actually is just a cool guy to talk to in general. Opening up to him felt good.

still pushing off glasses. Fuck glasses, it's all just an industrial complex owned by a single company, I ain't buying into that shit.

Anyways lads good week to you and keep going, show life who's boss!


I just happened to meet good people and good circumstances, not that shit got better for me but I sortta realized YOLO except literally and unironically, my life may be shit but it's the only one I'm gonna get so I gotta make the most of it. Also pic related, I couldn't pass this opportunity up.



How are you going to bash the fash if you're a delicate twink? Do cardio and go ottermode


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>go ottermode

Fuckin' twinks


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I'm glad that you've been keeping up with the weekly updates for so long. They've inspired me to do much the same. I'm glad that you've been powering through when things in your life have gone shitty, and have even managed to get back in contact with your therapist, that's a big goal in terms of mental health.

My life is shit now, I don't have much hope at all, I'm a nobody and a fuckin weirdo but I still have some lust for life, I still have that hunger. So I'm going to stop fucking around on the internet so much and I'm going to start pulling myself out of this shit-hole inch by inch and day by day.

I'll be giving an update next Monday. Keep fighting Comrades.


Lads is convict condotioning worth all the hype or is it a meme


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I don't have knowledge of the specifics, but if you're like the normal posters of chans or a normie you could benefit from an extra hour or two of exercise a week, including bodyweight. That said a gym with weights is always the best option, if you can afford it, as it allows consistent and exact weight resistance. Bodyweight isn't totally useless if you're just starting out but you will plateau on those exercises quickly and end up training only for muscular endurance.



>there are no progressions in body weight training

good meme


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bampin for progress reports!


Where do you guys go to get cheap weights?


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I would like to start dieting to cut down on extra weight. I'm 180cm and 70kg, so BMI is normal, but I eat way too much unhealthy shit and lately I'm getting a bit of a visible belly. I often go running so my condition is good, but it's not enough to change my weight if I keep eating the same. I never did any attempt at dieting before though and apart from running/cycling I'm a lazy fuck. Any tips? Is low carb diet any good, or would I be better off just focusing on eating 3 decent meals without inter-meal snacks and not worrying too much about diet specifics? Vegetarian btw.

I would also like to start actively working out but the best I've managed so far is doing a few push ups every evening.

also my sleeping rhythm is extremely fucked up and I generally just waste my time during the day due to overall lack of motivation, but that's another issue



You need build muscle and lose fat, not weight.



I go to the convenience store and pick up a couple 6L jugs of water. If you live near a beach you can also add sand once you've drank the water. Pebbles are fine too though.



Guess I'll enter the fray. I eat really terribly and am convinced it will be the death of me. I don't have an alcohol or drug problems but I have a serious caffeine and sugar issue,which might as well be as bad. I don't really cook that well, so I need recipes that are simple and not expensive.



I thought about that, but i kinda fear that I will just eat more than I manage to compensate by training and the only effect will be more fat. Maybe I'm being irrational about that.



You can make decent easy meals using spaghetti/other pasta and veggies. Baked eggs with something like mashed potatoes and spinach is also pretty straightforward, as is rice + meat + beans. You should find lots of easy recipes on the internet



Weights allow more measured and consistent resistance progression than bodyweight, which is what you need to build strength or muscle.


Cheap gym membership for like $10 or $15 a month. Maintaining your own weights gets really expensive as you progress.


If you're looking to cut and haven't regularly worked out, run 3 days a week, lift or bodyweght 2, and walk 1 or 2 days. Cut down on sugars and starches and increase intake of healthy fats like avocado. You'll need to do more later, and probably want to build some muscle, but this will be enough to get you started.


If you don't fix your diet it will be the death of you. I used to be fat(lost about 100 pounds over a year) and if I didn't fix my shit right now I'd be over 300 pounds at 5'9"/175cm from being a lazy fuck and eating sugars and fast food. I can give you advice on recipes but tell me what you like and are capable of doing first, sugars and excess caffeine are the devil though. Right now start adding a walk and some sit-ups every day and completely cut out sodas and coffee, substitution green tea(preferably decaffeinated).


I managed to cook fish where it tasted good and figure that I can raise the funds needed for about 1.5 hours of footage by March 2019. Keeping fit and the only thing bothering me is tfwnogf when I'm not trying to fuck some girl I met on an app.


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Sorry for missing the Sunday checkin lads, was doing family shit for the long weekendfuck your July 4th, 1 is a much nicer and rounder number than 4

Anyways, this week was a bit of doosy, not in terms of progress but in terms of shit hitting the fan. More so than most weeks. So work went fine, it's fucking hot though and the coming week is looking hotter than Dresden in 1944. Good news is that I'm working out the workplace environment and norms, although at the price of me acting like a dipshit, although that's ok since I've found out that "fuck you" is how to say hello there. Normal people are confusing.

So on to the shit.This week was course selection week for the coming fall term, and as I stated in as past checkin I sortta came under the required grade for my course and am in a weird limbo/probation where I'm not in the course but sortta am and can get back in if I get my grades up. Bad part is that I found out that the special courses for my program, the level 300 courses that I get fastracked on, I can't take in the fall, so I won't be with my classmates of which there are less than 100 of in the fall term and I gotta take the missed courses in the winter term at night school IF I get my grades up. None of this was new news to me but it was just opening up old scars from a month ago which I had finally buried. Feelsbadman.jpeg.

This also happened at the same time as me finding out I fucked up an address for shipping an important packed i.e. I put 13e 17th street as the address when it was really 13 e(ast) 17th street. Hopefully the postmen can figure it out with the zip/postal code since I got that part right, but it's the US so I don't expect much. fucking US

Long story short I engaged fetal crying mode and this happened right on saturday so I wasn't able to see my therapist cause of the long weekend, planning on seeing him tomorrow though. I don't know what Life has got against me but it just keeps fucking throwing the shit at me. It's gonna feel so damn good when I finally get on my feet though.

Oh and just some general shit: No glasses yet, was my B-day this weekreally fucking good icecream cake with that one, trying to get into wiring and electronic hobbies so I don't spend all day on the computer, looking at some Soviet vacuum tubes right now for that bit, etc etc.

Oh and apparently I'm finally getting my growth spurt, 8 years late, since I've grown 2 inches in as many months. Woooh.


Thanks anon! I'm glad that just my sheer powering through shit is inspiring others. It is through collective effort that we'll get there, we just gotta all pitch in a hand and help our fellow man. You keep going anon, cause if we're gonna cross that line, it's gonna be together!

Keep at it lads! We'll all get there!


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Fist of the North star?

More like

Feels of the North star


Hey gomrades, I'm trying to find a new workout routine. I started with the routine suggested in brain over brawn, then found myself trying out startbodyweight, then one of scooby's homeworkout routines but I'm not satisfied with any of them. I really loved the simplicity and emphasis on on compound exercises that brain over brawn advocated, but I'm looking for something that's more intensive while still sticking to only compound exercises. Equipment wise, I've got a workout tower (pullup/dip bar) and a set of dumbbells with 200 pounds of plates to work with.


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May as well do an update. Haven't had a good week. I've mostly just been lying in bed and fucking around on the internet. I often feel too tired to do much of anything. I tried to clean my room a bit on Sunday, but I didn't get very far. my Mother is a border-line hoarder and I guess I am too. I don't have hobbies I don't cook for myself, I don't go outside much, and I don't have very good hygiene. When it comes to improving my life I don't really know where to begin. I have a hard time keeping positive when it seems like even Americans my age who actually have their shit together are struggling, unless they work in STEM or the Medical field, what hope do I got? I quit community college a year ago for a multitude of reasons; I can;t drive so I can't commute to campus, my panic disorder made it impossible to sit in classrooms for very long, and I've ruined my GPA by taking and re-taking online classes only to not do the work and fuck it all up


All I've got going for me are my savings that I've been able to accrue due to my seasonal work and living with my Mother, but I don't keep track of my finances. I had a subscription that I forgot about for over a year and it's been costed me over $600 dollars in accrue monthly payments. I just found that out today and I was so full of despair that I elt like I was drowning. I did what I often do in those situations, I drank until I passed out. The problem ith that is that I started drinking at 3 pm today and I woke up at 8 pm. I have to work a 12 hour shift on the 4th from 12pm to 12am with very little chance of getting any sleep in between now and then. I've fucked myself, I've fucked myself over badly yet again.

I suppose that things could be worse, and at least I'm not suicidal at the moment, I might post again later this week with an outline of some modest goals that I can accomplish in a ew days, assuming that I get though Wednesday all right



>Seasonal work

What do you do? In regards to everything else, worry about the future less and focus on the present. Start doing small shit for yourself like getting proper hygene in and cleaning up your room. If you're feeling out of energy all the time, you need to look at what your eating habits are like. Your sleeping schedule and alcohol abuse probably doesn't help with that either btw. Start working out, a healthy body procedes a healthy mind. http://brainoverbrawn.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/01/brainoverbrawn.pdf


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bumping for progress reports



Just extend the brain over brawl or some other program with this:



>Lost weight (30 kgs)

>Drop video games

>Enjoy exercise

>Read a lot more, like when I was a kid, only with more nonfiction

>Start to learn compulsively by listening to lectures

>Practice music

>Switch to an actually interesting degree

>Read more

>Autism fixes itself

I feel like I've pretty much fixed myself, feels good man. I'm French so we get free higher education (for now lol, macron is gonna kill it) and reading stuff thats relevant for politics gets me actually good grades. Also I get to read stuff like Foucault or Bourdieu without having to bother with translations.



I've significantly cut down on drinking and my diet is really good. Shit's going faster so I may be able to start shooting my film in the winter if I manage to get a cast and crew on board.


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wtf it's been a week? Alright better get to it.

had to get up an hour earlier for work this week as my boss thinks that we'd be cooler if we start early… so basically lost an hour of sleep every day since I still went to bed at 10 every night, cause I ain't going to fucking sleep at 9, fuck that shit. Also we got a letter from HR telling us to stay cool and hydrated, but nowhere in the letter did it say to take a break if it gets too hot. Capitalism in a nutshell.

Managed to recover from my little panic attack last week, the package found its way to the address alrightit got delivered on July 4th no less, props to that hard working prol mailman working on a statutory holiday and the courses I'm not getting in the fall I found out are half credits and can be taken in either the fall or winter so I'm still gud as long as I get my grades up.

Stayed inside the whole time I was home this week though cause of the heat, and the fact one of my coworkers was being an ass this week meant I didn't do much in terms of getting out and socializing. One day I'll work up the courage to do more than squeak when people say hello to me. One day…

Also in the news, my mother went to the hospital today for another problem with her body, kidney stones this time apparently. To add some context, my mother has always been one of those people that has a constitution of paper and gets something wrong with her all the damn time: First time was 5 years ago when a blood clot took her left leg, then it was lupus, then something with the kidney not filtering protein, then some autoimmune disease. It always happens in the summer as well. So basically my mum's having some serious health issues but it's such a regular occurrence at this point that I can't help but roll my eyes. It's like those school shootings in the US, it's something that I should be giving a damn about but after the 50th time it's just the evening news. I feel like a horrible human being for being like this, but fuck I gotta wake up for work tomorrow, I ain't got time for worrying about my sick ass mom.


anon your story sounds like you've been given the short end of the stick and that your immediate future looks bleak. But realize that even in this state you're still pushing through, even if somewhat reluctantly. I can't offer any professional or explicit advice on what you can do right now, but I will tell you this: Keep going, as long as there's a breath in you you've got a fighting chance. I can say that many people have been in your position and bounced back, but I find that comparing yourself to other people is stupid and you should only measure yourself against yourself and nobody else. You do you. I'm going to be honest with you and tell you that from what you've said there's no immediate solution or out for you. But again, you've gotta keep pushing, if there's no solution then you've gotta make your own, you've just gotta keep pushing and pushing and eventually you'll see a way out, but it will be slim and it will take a while, but this is an uphill battle and we're all there with you. Your best is good enough!

Good week to you lads, and keep fighting the good fight, never let yourself stay down!



>I have to pay for this

No thank you



You don't? Just read the article fucktard.


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it's been 2 month since i made a update so here :

>losing more weight

burned some fat and gain more muscle

>Get starting in deep learing with MNIST

>Publish my second projects

>Publish a second demo/template in Godot into the asset lib

This 2 months ware shit didn't even managed to do shit

>Start a SARL

Get my paper reject because i used the "Wrong" Font, also i'm must print it in the with special ink also i need to buy a Quintillion of stamp, also i need to registre to my local chamber of commerce.

I'm going to a art exposition next month, i wonder what big porky i will found there this time.

2 years in the same day, I meet one of the biggest Porky in my country ,He even start the conversation with Hey do you know my story i was just a orange sellers now i'm own half of the banks in the country LEL and look my son is now a famous boxxer and shit now my familly name echo throw the land and shit

Also i have no idea wich project i should finish first ?

Well at least i discovered that i fucking love watermelon juice it even match with Avocado-milk juice.


Overdid it with the weight and couldn't finish my routine this week because of it, but I suppose it was good since now I know my limits better. I've been feeling terribly irritated with people lately though. I'm not sure if it's my more nocturnal sleeping cycle, or the fact that I've started viewing porn again, or maybe something else entirely. Anyways, reading the enchiridion helped a bit. I guess the thing I'm really frustrated with is my interminable loneliness. I mean, I have friends, I hang out with them all the time even, but it just doesn't ever feel good enough. Meeting new people and doing new things is fun at first, but I quickly realize that I don't have really much of anything in common with 99% of them. It's very discouraging, and I'm not sure what I can do about it besides just making myself be OK with it.


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I like that many of you are succeeding in getting fit and making gains in other areas, but I don't see many talking about developing skills or reading. Book clubs haven't usually gone well, but would any anons be open to learning or trying to teach skills useful to us as socialists and workers?


>Well at least i discovered that i fucking love watermelon juice it even match with Avocado-milk juice.

What the fuck is Avocado-milk juice?


Proud of you anon. I wish I could have switched to an interesting degree but it was either finance, business, or economics for me and I even got magna cum laude from my shit school. Should have not listened to the memes and went to film school.


>tfw iktf

I like people but I'm not really close to anyone to call them good friends and most of my social life is talking to comrades or fucking a thot I met online. I feel like I need close friends and a gf but I'm uninterested in almost every one I meet and the ones I am are unavailable or anon online. We need to put the social back into socialism and get weird comrades talking to each other.


Getting raided, bumping to save ……..


Reporting in tonight because I got shit to do tomorrow. Hurt myself so couldn't work out on Friday and today but I should be ready to go on Monday. Eating really good and trying a lot of new recipes, significantly cutting down on read meat for health reasons. Going to tweak my script after getting a friend to read it because he felt one character was too likeable to be believable, after going over it I think he's right and am gonna try to fix it.


I don't have any friends. I've been thinking about this, working on myself and my health, but I can't find anyone who wants to exercise or go swimming with me. The closest thing I have to friends are the guys I smoke with, and we're beginning to drift away from each other because all they do is chill and fuck around on their phones. Modern life is so alienating.


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Post your progress reports, comrades.


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>but I don't see many talking about developing skills or reading. Book clubs haven't usually gone well, but would any anons be open to learning or trying to teach skills useful to us as socialists and workers?

Well I'm studying in philosophy and history and if you want to be half-decent, you have to read a fuckton, pic related what I've been working with for the past year.

We can setup a discord if you guys want to talk about books.



>We can setup a discord if you guys want to talk about books.

Get the fuck out.



Are you okay?



Realized I wasn't isolating the proper muscles groups, now I'm down to doing 10 pound bicep curls at 20 reps a set instead of trying to do 20-25 pound sets of eight. Helped out a friend with a project the other day, made me wake up nice and early so I'm on a better sleeping schedule now. I'm on a cutting diet now with intermittent fasting. Is it really true you need 1.5 grams per pound of bodyweight though? that sounds like overkill/


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I used to read a lot but recently I have a hard time focusing. Is there anything I could do to fix my attention?



A forum would be fine as long as it's secure.




I'm not comfortable with discord, could we do a forum or even a thread here?


If you're exercising and not middle aged you should take in about .75g to 1g of protein per pound. I wouldn't recommend 1.5g per pound for cutting and even for bulking I'd be wary of doing that much unless you seriously slashed fats and carbs, but that could cause issues as well. As someone who lost close to a hundred pounds and cuts regularly, I'd recommend eating more often and avoiding fasting so you don't get hungry and feel the need to gorge.


Exercising regularly helps me maintain focus by being a lot less anxious. If that isn't working for you try shutting out the internet and other distractions, going as far to read paperback or reading tablet if you find yourself browsing instead of concentrating on pdfs.Check your diet as well, caffeine and refined carbs can really fuck up your concentration if you take in too much.



Tyrosine, vitamin C, a b multi…



>lost 100 pounds

Any advice? I lost 40 pounds and plateaud



When you plateau look at your diet and see what might be causing it beyond calories, like extra carbs or something. Try working in some more light cardio like a 20-30 min walk, especially before or after meals, in order to burn more calories to keep up to what you were doing when you were heavier. Increase lifting to three days a week if you're doing less than that, maybe even bump up weight if needed.



I'm doing it like 5 days a week at the moment. Pretty much had a carb free diet besides a banana and apple a day.


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Checkin time, bit late again but not cause of me I swear

Week went by quickly and pretty uneventful, today being the only one of note cause of how shit it was. Not like "life is shit" kind of shit, but more crummy kind of shit. Was at my family farm for the weekend and took the train back cause my parents are retired and decided to stay there, train was late, cramped and crowded, got in and the half the subway is shutdown so I had to take a shuttle bus halfway home. Oh and the fucking world cup matchfuck you Robespierre. Also gonna get 4> hours of sleep thanks to the long travel time. Fun.

Mental state is stable for now, sortta just twiddling my thumbs waiting for something to pop up so I can make something of it, either good or bad I need something right now cause I'm kinda lost on where to go as while mentally I'm not great, it's not the sharp slope it sometimes is so I'm not really trying to do anything about but I feel like I should be.

Social status: Still pretty much a neet, noticed that my eyes are red and I feel tired even though I've been getting sleep, must be from the computer, so I'm definitely on the computer more than I should be but I can't bring myself to actually go out and do something, partly cause I don't know what to go out and do, and partly cause I don't got no friends that I'm in regular contact with and are still around. GF not withstanding but she's working as well and a fucking psycho, so we don't see as much as we should, also I wouldn't consider us as "sex havers" or such since it's more of a weird desperate relationship born out of group therapy and equally weird and anti-social personalities. It's complicated. But ya, still a waste pretty much socially, biggest hump right now is actually figuring out what to do next.

Something random I ran into this week was for the first time ever I was worried about my weight. This is a big time first for me as I've always been unhealthy skinny and stayed active, being never more than 135 pounds. But I've been not eating well since school finished with a lot of sweets to get some short term energy back after work. Then this week I suddenly thought I had some flab and I freaked the fuck out only to realize it was just cause of my work clothes choking my midsection. Still I couldn't help when looking at myself in a mirror that I should lose weight, but then noticed that I can clearly see my ribs through my skin. Kinda worried this is how people develop those eating disorders and go waaaaaay too skinny cause they think they're fat, and knowing my past mental issues it seems possible.

Anyways good week to you lads, and keep on pushing, we'll all get there!



Huh, are you an endomorph and can you post your routine and diet as well?



Not sure if I'm an endomorph or not. My diet consists of eggs and bacon in the morning, tuna with mayo and cheese for lunch, and boneless skinless chicken tenders with caramilized onions for dinner. Sometimes I would skip lunch and have a couple of pieces of fruit, dinner would always be the majority of my protein intake. I'm doing scooby's advanced home workout at the moment, been doing that for a few weeks. Before that I was doing startbodyweight and before that I was doing a brain over brawn. Only been seriously working out for 6-7 months.



Low carb is good but count your calories, fat is very calorie dense. Try to eat more veggies. Also onions have a fairly high carb amount in them so watch out for that. So yeah, more veggies less mayo etc. This is how weight loss is achieved, I lost 30kg and now I'm pretty much in a good shape.



Alright, for weight loss I'd replace the eggs and bacon with some greek yogurt(triple zero or similar with little added sugar) and granola or some oats. Keep the tuna or replace with other fish but cut the mayo and cheese, add brown rice(or farro if it's there) and some vegetables. For dinner reduce the onions and add various veggies to it, you can do a salad one night and the next do some roasted carrots. Don't skip lunch but add a couple of snacks, like some carrots or a banana. You want your carbs to unprocessed with sugar being avoided like hell and you want your fats to be olive oil or avocado instead of mayo and cheese.

For your workout, if the resistance training from scooby's advanced home workout is still challenging you keep it up, but try to do HIITs for cardio 3 days a week and rest on sunday, split the days up so you do resistance on day one, cardio on day 2. This is much easier at a gym, but you can do it with jogging/sprinting if you can't get to one. To start out with HIITs cardio do 1min low impact then 1 min high impact 7 times, it may not seem like much but you will burn a lot of calories and keep burning. In addition to your routine do a light walk everyday, something like 30 minutes or so, preferably before or after dinner (or breakfast if you workout at night).

Another issue you may have is you need to build muscle. After dropping 80 pounds I spent a couple of months to gain 5 pounds before loosing about 15 and from there started doing cutting/bulking cycles. It may be uncomfortable if you still think you look fat but if you're within 20 pounds of your goal weight it is something to consider.


I wish 8chan had a 'jump to bottom' button on mobile.

I'm feeling like shit as usual, I'm really tired but can never sleep unless I jack off and can't do that cause I'm too down and not into it. I'm glad you guys are making progress, it takes all my energy just to keep my head above water.



Sorry if that was TMI. But I figure we're all bros here or whatever.

I can't fucking do anything but work and rest from work. It's like my life is totally pointless fuck I'm so tired




Thanks for the advice guys. If you guys have any home workout routines you could recommend (something that utlizes mostly compound) I would appreciate it.




I dunno, maybe nofap will help a bit. Honestly, best thing you can do is start lifting. Making yourself do it the first few times will suck but stick with it and you'll notice the effects on your mood. Try doing simple stuff like making yourself smile the whole day, keeping correct posture and hygene.


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>I wish 8chan had a 'jump to bottom' button on mobile.

It does on my phone.You using firefox?


>Sorry if that was TMI. But I figure we're all bros here or whatever.

Bruh, I spent most of my life living only for getting up the next day. Even after I found a passion in film I struggle to connect with people yet feel crippling loneliness, both nogf and no real friends. I lost touch with everyone I knew in highschool, fell out with other motherfuckers I know, and my social life consists of shitposting here or another obscure forum and fucking girls I get matched with on apps. Shit sucks and sometimes life really knocks the fuck out of you so don't apologize for being down. If you can try to work out, even something as basic as a short walk everyday can help.


No problem. I can't really recommend anything unless I know what you're working with, honestly a cheap membership to a gym that has weights should be done if you can.



I got dumbbells and a pull/dip setup. I'm too asocial for gyms


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> I can't fucking do anything but work and rest from work. It's like my life is totally pointless fuck I'm so tired


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