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No.8369

New Years resolutions are a marketing scheme to sell fad diets, but I see no reason why leftists shouldn't pursue self-improvement. Let's have a thread to talking about getting fit, getting read, and developing skills.

I've got my current routine down, but I'm looking for books on syndicalism and communization. Can some anons help me out?

No.35457

File: b7b142f42a4d618⋯.png (234.97 KB, 491x708, 491:708, 1507450032274.png)

Status reports?

No.35477

File: dbbe1012e2b274c⋯.png (62.59 KB, 219x275, 219:275, Hibiki41.png)

>>35457

I gotchu

>Spend a maximum of 15 hours of free time a week online; no more than 5 hours should be on image boards or social media

I've spent a bit less on the Internet this week than last, but mostly because I've been working more shifts and also because it was finally my turn to get banned by Body Odour

Been eating more from home this week, like I alluded to I've hit on a good recipe for salads and I'm learning how to gussy it up with a few other things like sliced almonds

>Eliminate all junk food from my diet and drink half a litre of water a day

I've gotten into the habit of eating good, unused food that would normally just get tossed out after a flight. Some of it is good but I've also fallen into the trap of finishing off sodas (since I often get people who just want half a can or whatever). Good on the water.

>Go from a BMI of 29 to 25-26 and build noticeable muscle

No real change. I'm glad I had a conversation with onanist in >>35268, since it gave me the idea to set up a schedule regardless of whether I've been called in for shifts or not so I can shuffle around tasks and know where I'll have spare time to stick them if, for instance, my morning cardio gets pushed back by a shift. I can't afford to turn down shifts at the moment, so this seems like the next best thing.

>Learn twenty new recipes

I'm going to try either soup or chili this week, probably Nick's chili recipe from the newest cum town but a bit simpler

>Reread the manifesto, Capitalist Realism; read Capital, Cockshott, and two other major texts

>Finish my backlog of vidya, anime, and manga

Ibid.

>Write three essays

complete

I don't really know what else to say...I was feeling sorry for myself most of this week because I'm realizing that this job isn't going to pull in the big wages I had hoped, and whenever that happens I usually fall into a semi-catatonic state where I just wallow in front of the keyboard. I'm starting to see patterns in when I'm usually called in and I'm much more settled into my new apartment, so I feel like I might be able to get some more structure into my life and schedule workouts, designated shitposting time, etc.

I'm not bringing the trip back for good, I'm just using it to index my report posts with a unique identifier

No.35480

>>35477

I forgot to mention that I also heard that taking some vitamin D can help with seasonal depression and the like, so I've borrowed some cod oil from my parents (it helps that my work takes me back home on a layover a couple times a month) and will see if it does anything

No.35488

>>35480

>I also heard that taking some vitamin D can help with seasonal depression

This kind of makes sense as I take vitamin D for my MS as a supplement for sunshine, because while sunlight is beneficial for my condition heat exacerbates it…

No.35492

File: 9a049a34dbac6e9⋯.gif (73.79 KB, 600x260, 30:13, phd020904s.gif)

Good: continued hitting the gym, started attending dance lessons (unfortunately this competes with gym for my soreness capacity), read "Wage labor and capital", "Value, Price, and Profit", "Socialism: Utopian and Scientific", started the first tome of Capital.

Bad: relapsed into left*pol addiction (maybe I should stop being a filthy crossboarder and stick to this one. anyway going to do a new break for the next week), if I don't start seriously working on my phd at last I will likely lose my stipend (pic related. but if I quit my job, then I'll need the stipend even more, as I'm not really looking forward to falling in debt. negotiations with my boss to switch to half time so far were not successful)

No.35637

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

>>24203

>Finally get gf

>We love each other very much

>Cant get hard during sex because of furiously beating my meat day in day out

>Commiting to nofap because porn is giving me ED

I did it for like a month two years ago, I can attest it is not a meme. Im doing my best to build up another abstension.

>TED

Yeah, nah, I get you, but this one is worth watching.

Heres a second video to counteract the liberalism (embedded).

No.35639

File: aae9c6d52e156b6⋯.gif (1.87 MB, 500x370, 50:37, aae9c6d52e156b68b35b179361….gif)

>>35637

Heres the second video I meant to embed, my bad.

No.35654

>>35457

>No more unhealthy foods (sugary stuff, excessive fat, excessive dairy)

Tried to

>Only one hour of games a day

About to do my hour just now, havent done it yet

>No more fapping

HAhahaaha no I already broke that one

>Gym 3 times a week

Went yesterday and am planning on tomorrow

>Drawing an hour a day

Nope

>Program an app that keeps track of things I need to do and shows a stack of things in order of urgency, so I never forget things and always have something to do if I am bored.

Spend 5 hours installing shit

>Go out to some bar/place next week to meet new people, although I have no clue where or what yet.

Yet to do

>Cycle to school every day if there is no rain, which is 20 km a day.

Rain tomorrow, so no. I have an expensive laptop with me and need to pull a full day, dont want to be soaked.

No.35670

>>35637

Pretty convincing.

So should you give up porn or give up masturbating altogether?

No.35691

File: 25d8ddeaa6e776a⋯.png (45.51 KB, 278x224, 139:112, Danberus26.png)

>>35654

>Went yesterday and am planning on tomorrow

>Spend 5 hours installing shit

Great work, keep it up anon.

>Tried to

>HAhahaaha no I already broke that one

>Nope

Get back on that wagon. You're going to make it.

>Yet to do

>Rain tomorrow, so no.

Why not use that rainy day to find a new cafe you've never been to? New bar, programming group, etc.

No.35697

>>35691

>Why not use that rainy day to find a new cafe you've never been to?

I need to go to school lad. Also I am going to watch the black nationalist american propaganda film in the evening and then gorge on cheap unlimited spareribs with my class afterwards.

>programming group

Never heard of a programming group tbh

>new bar

pretty sure most bars are closed during the day or something, but I also need to go to the gym and shit during that time.

I am going to try to stop watching porn, its not good for me. I might begin with removing all the porn from my phone so its harder to get to.

No.35716

>>35697

>Never heard of a programming group tbh

I used to go to informal hacking clubs when I was a teenager, 2600 magazine used to have a list of meetups in major cities. Don't know if they still have it

No.35746

>>35457

Will be 3 year anniversary of working out consistently in May, no work on script but three people told me what I had was good because job, and I ended up getting drunk and woke up in a bathtub at my friends house but no longer sad about nogf and willing to smash thots for the time being.

No.35778

File: eeeed7236b1e5ea⋯.jpg (101.26 KB, 600x850, 12:17, DHFw1OnXoAEDXPG.jpg)

Been lurking here awhile but I guess I'll jump in.

Current situation:

>Haven't done any regular exercise since cross country in high school, apart from occasional bike rides

>Diet consists of university cafeteria food and sandwiches/fast food/garbage I buy at the store

>Hadn't read any theory in over a year, but recently joined a study group with some other comrades at my college (they're MLs but pretty decent and know their shit)

Goals:

>Start running again and working out regularly (I definitely have enough time outside of class and work to do so, but it's going to be tough to motivate myself to maintain a schedule)

>Cut down buying meals to twice a week

>No more coffee, soda, junk food

>Finish the scale model kits I have piled up

I think this is pretty manageable so far, I'll report back and maybe add more things I'd like to improve later on.

No.35811

>>35670

>So should you give up porn or give up masturbating altogether?

Not >>35637 but if you're struggling with ed you should give up porn and masturbating for a week. After a week your testosterone will peak and there's no benefit to not blowing a load, so feel free to masturbate but try to do it less and without porn. If you find cutting porn works for you, start edging when you masturbate to work on stamina and make your loads bigger.

No.35959

>started eating healthier and exercising

>lost about 25 pounds over the last 2 to 3 months

>can't bring myself to finding a job or quit masturbating

>can't bring myself to quit to vidya and read more

What's the secret to self discipline exactly?

No.35960

>>35959

25 pounds? Nice!

>Secret to dicipline

call me when you know

No.35961

>>35960

Well how bout strategies for no fap and unplugging in general? The problem is compounded by the fact that I can't afford physical books at the moment.

No.35980

>>35778

cool!

No.36029

>>35778

Excellent goals anon

No.36298

>>35654

Went to the gym again today

Also watched black panther. It was american as fuck but I like the fact that the wakandans didnt believe in the "muh black race" american myth like the black nazi villain did.

No.36334

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>>36298

>Went to the gym again today

good job

Managed to force myself out to do cardio today as well. I'm glad I did since I don't know if I'll have another chance for a couple of days

No.36824

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File: aeae9fcccc48341⋯.jpg (898.26 KB, 1680x2569, 240:367, ae_67pct-inertia-v01-ch011….jpg)

me_irl

No.36827

>>36824

You can do it!

No.36832

>>36824

Do you actually have problems with bodyweight squats or did you just post it because of the cute megane girl?

No.36844

>>36832

>TFW real asian girls arent as pretty as you have been led to believe

>TFW after spending half a year in china I cannot see that character as pretty anymore because I know what the drawing abstracts and that is not cute

No.36858

File: 1a1830e96a3e546⋯.jpg (24.62 KB, 400x308, 100:77, tomoko.jpg)

Still feel depressed with no real improvements despite going to the gym and shit. Going to a funeral tomorrow, hopefully I can keep it together.

Fucking end my suffering. Sometimes I wish I could just leave and live in the woods, chopping wood and gathering food my entire day. The only times I really felt somewhat better in the past ~8 years was when I was camping.

No.36860

No.36865

>>36844

Speak for yourself nerd, I live to plow the rice paddies of the homely daughters of peasant farmers

No.36867

>>36865

I bet asians in japan or SK look a lot better than the chinese with their access to better nutrition and healthcare and shit.

The chinese i met were almost all pockmarked or had weird teeth or some shit.

No.36869

Well good night comrades. I am depressed again. Possibly because of muh masturbation or just a continuation of the past, eh, 8-10 years?

Lets all try to not kill ourselves!

No.36876

No.36882

>>36858

Ask yourself what you're doing at the gym (the right training) and what you're eating. Keep your chin up mate, you'll pull through it all.

No.36886

>>34622

Reiterating this; you should probably stop calling it "nofap", as that creates confusion. Noporn would be a better and, dare I say it, more materialist way of addressing the issue. Information-age porn addiction is what has surged cases of erectile dysfunction, not some evil fap spirit inflicting the souls of sinning adolescents and young-adults.

Do your part in challenging this feudal meme. Don't perpetuate and normalize it's use in socialist circles.

No.36888

>>36886

Good point

No.36903

Daylight savings fucked me up but I forced myself to do a late night workout. Cardio tomorrow for me. Since I'm seeing some family this weekend I'm gonna eat my cheat meal then and ill try to cook up some chicken and waffles, which while not healthy tastes too damn good not to have occasionally.

>>36886

Yeah, I think an issue is a lot of guys trained themselves on porn and that's their issue more than shooting a load. I mean porn is ok if kinda stupid and usually vanilla but some dudes back themselves into a point where they can't get their dick up without it. Drinking and bad diet is bad for your dick too, as is neglecting cardio, so you guys should get fit and stop poisoning yourself.

No.36914

>>21825

Based. No surprise that this place is full of hons and white knights.

No.36973

>>36903

No.36980

File: 366122de24f2b5d⋯.png (2.8 MB, 1548x1851, 516:617, 1520988187605.png)

>>8369

What do you guys think about fasting?

No.36984

>>36980

It's not a good idea for weight loss, especially if you're exercising.

No.36988

>>36984

How so? I've been following the snake diet guy he's pretty cool.

No.37091

>>36980

I heard its bad for weight loss because your body tries to compensate and prepare for bad times by storing as much body fat as possible.

No.37105

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>>36860

This has some good advice if you have problems with the movement itself:

No.37106

>>37105

I know lots of people have problems with bodyweight squatting, but I really dont understand. Its not hard at all. Like, its just letting your knees buckle and dropping down, and putting your arms in front of you to keep from falling over.

No.37109

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>>36980

if ur fat you should do that tbh. but im not rn my problem is getting calories cheap because i live my own life, rely on no one, sadly I fucking pay rent so I gotta eat cheap.

No.37128

>>34628

Christ I'm fucking lazy. Still no attempts made. Booted the drink though.

Still fat and broke but in the mood to not be fat and broke in the near future. Eyed up some shithole of a flat that can have a deposit put down on it with a few sales of what I'm aiming to do.

Anyone sitting around making excuses like me know this from someone that's got in and out of shape a few times: The hardest part is getting off your ass and doing for it the first time. Not even actually doing it. But that moment where you just go and fucking do it for the first time, getting past that stage is the hardest because it breaks all routine and habit.

Historically I fucking suck at at making money compared to getting in shape, but I've been doing lots of reading and contributing elsewhere to get me dragged into doing it. It's also where I've picked up this borderline reddit spacing. I tell myself each one is a small paragraph. If I succeed I'll probably get a load of shit because it will look like a long term troll since this is literally muh bootstraps meme on a leftist board, but I've been hoarding some good methods for making money for a while.

No.37186

>>37105

Thanks!

>>37106

I kept fucking up the form. I tend to obsess over form since I'm afraid of injuring myself

No.37187

>>37186

Also for whatever reason I have a bad habit where if I am concentrating on getting the form down right I start holding my breath and tense up. I'm guessing that's a big no no since every video I've seen advises to keep breathing at a regular pace through exercise

Anyway thanks for video, Konata is best girl always

No.37191

>>37186

> I tend to obsess over form since I'm afraid of injuring myself

You're doing bodyweight excersizes. How the hell are you going to injure yourself other than falling over? Reflex bruv, dont worry about form too much unless you are lifting weights or if you are a hamplanet

No.37212

>>37128

at least it's something different. I look forward to hearing of your exploits, prospective porky

No.37218

File: e821ecddb804b48⋯.jpeg (34.35 KB, 400x400, 1:1, 5BCC75E3-88B9-4CD7-ABAB-3….jpeg)

Posted in this thread about a month ago about finding motivation to quit drinking. Some anons said some important words about how I should see it not as a neoliberal self-help program, but as a refusal to let capitalism crush your spirit(or something along those lines).

Well it worked as I quit drinking during weekdays, although I still drink on weekends in moderation. Also kicked a few other addictions and bad habits in the process, along with picking up lifting. Needless to say it’s been pretty tough and sometimes I feel like relapsing but I’m pretty determined to keep my head on straight if only as a ”fuck you” to this disgusting system we live in.

So yeah thanks for unfucking my shit I guess

We’re all gonna make it

No.37224

>>37191

Good form should always be a top priority, it ensures that you are using (and training) the correct muscles and doing the correct movements. You don't want to train yourself to do things half-assed, do you?

No.37226

File: 8112e741945a153⋯.jpg (72.06 KB, 1280x720, 16:9, megumin thumbs up.jpg)

No.37228

>>37224

>train the correct muscles

For what? You train to get stronger in general, good form when lifting weight is to prevent injuries, not to "train the right muscles" unless you are a bodybuilder.

Just my opinion obv.

No.37318

>>37228

My understanding is that fat is lost uniformly throughout the body, but individual muscles must be constantly worked to build resistance and reverse atrophy

>>37191

I eventually want to move from bodyweight to free weights and want to get into good habits while I am at a reduced risk of injury

>>37218

Well done mate. Keep coming back and checking in as much as you need.

No.37328

File: d549427fd0c3041⋯.png (67.16 KB, 350x265, 70:53, yuno.png)

>>37228

We are not talking about lifting, we are talking about bodyweight exercises. Often you will find that people have bad form because they are compensating for some particularly weak muscles, which of course defeats the purpose of the exercise. For most people, learning how to move properly, improving coordination, balance, etc. are as important as getting stronger, even if it's not that show-off-ish.

No.37331

I've been feeling pretty shitty lately /selfimprove/. It's been pretty much eat the same routine for the last few weeks. Eat healthy, exercise three times a week, avoid drugs and alcohol etc. Since last week though, I keep getting really short with people. I feel the impulse to commit violence quite regularly now. Meditation doesn't seem to be helping at all. Anyone got any suggestions on how to let off some steam?

No.37333

>>37331

Kill some pigs.

No.37334

>>37333

No.37336

>>37334

You should probably seek out some counseling or an outlet to hep you talk out your frustrations.

If available, I've had friends report that CBD oil can have a calming effect. That might help as well.

No.37357

>>37331

Get laid, watch a good movie, play some vista, have a cheat meal, do something to cut loose and see if that helps.

No.37358

>>37331

Go hiking

No.37362

>>37357

Why do people keep saying "get laid" as if its just something you do. Is it really that easy? How the fuck do people just "get laid"?

No.37364

>>37362

I mean if you're living in a major city and look ok It's easy enough to do.

No.37367

>>37364

Where do you go, what do you say, how do you approach girls, what signals do you look for, how do you handle the whole ordeal, where the fuck do you even go, how do you lose your virginity without having a full blown panic attack at the thought of sex?

No.37403

>>37367

No.37412

Just so all of yas know, never fucking shave your genitals. It becomes itchy as FUCK and you get all kinds of ingrown hairs that are shite to deal with. Just fucking trim the hairs if you want to keep it tidy.

No.37416

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>>37403

This is a fairly slow board. You might have to wait a day or two before you get a good answer.

Beyond that, perhaps the self-improvement thread might not be the best place for dating advice? People here are either in the same situation as you, or are able to get pussy because it just comes naturally to them. I don't understand how to make women attracted to me either and my sole relationship happened almost by accident (and fell apart pretty quickly).

The only thing I can really recommend is that you'll probably have less success if you obsess over not being able to date. If you take a more relaxed attitude to the world, you'll probably come off as more relaxed and natural and other people will notice that. I think.

No.37445

What do you guys think of The Enchiridion and stoicism in general?

https://enchiridion.tasuki.org/display:Code:ec,twh,pem,sw/section:2

No.37521

>>37367

>Where do you go

I usually use tinder, go out with friends, or meet someone at shows. I've heard bookstores and shit are good too, anywhere can work really.

>what do you say

it depends, I usually make small talk to gauge if she's interested and flirt from there. If I get the feeling she's uncomfortable or she shoots me down I make a joke and move on.

>how do you approach girls

Walking, making eye contact, smiling.

>what signals do you look for

Generally playing with their hair or moving their feet (when sitting) in casual conversation. There's no universal signal they want your dick so you'll have to gauge it on a case by case basis.

>how do you handle the whole ordeal

With the acceptance that if it doesn't go my way I'll be ok and that it's not the end of the world.

>where the fuck do you even go

Out. Apps help if you're really nervous or strapped for time because there's a sort of pre-acceptance.

>how do you lose your virginity without having a full blown panic attack at the thought of sex?

I lost it 14 but I was fucked up and didn't have sex while sober until I was 19. Just be chill, most dudes suck at fucking so if you don't perform well it's ok. If you're that nervous just hire a hooker for an hour.

>>37403

I have a job anon, I can't be here 24/7.

>>37412

Yeah, trim, pluck, or wax that shit. Shaving is stupid outside of beards.

No.37606

>>37521

Where do you go to have sex? Like, I can't take them back to my room because its really fucking far away and I still live at home due to studying. I cant have someone over in my room.

No.38174

>>37606

Their place, a hotel room, the filthy men's bathroom of the bar where you met them, a deserted part of a nearby park, etc, etc. Be honest though, anon, is being unable to think of obvious answers to minor, inane questions like "where should I go to smash?" seriously the thing stopping you from going out and getting laid?

I understand the mindset that leads to rapid-fire detailed questions like in your previous post, but I also know that even if we handed you a complete script of the encounter from stepping out the door to ejaculating in your paramour you still wouldn't get it done. I might come off as a bit of a cunt here, but the only real solution for you is to get over yourself and just try it.

I would bet dollars to donuts that, despite all of your stated anxiety, you've never actually made a go of going out to socialise, let alone to pick up women. You're declaring 'getting laid' to be this daunting and difficult ordeal, demanding detailed directions to pull off decorously, but you've never properly tried it! You have no point of reference, no idea how difficult or easy it is!

If you had started off by saying "Anons, I need your help. I've been going from bar to club to party to festival to cafe to class, I talk to every woman I see, but I just can't seem to get my dick wet. What am I doing wrong?" then I'd have some sympathy for you. As it is, you're asking how to beat the 100m world record before you've learned to walk.

Nobody's instructions will help you here. The only thing that will help you is to go out and practice your social skills. Strike up conversations with strangers, make an effort to make friends, attend any and all events you hear about, join groups, take up social hobbies, etc. That is guaranteed to teach you everything you need to get laid, but this isn't just for getting laid. The dirty secret of university is that the education itself is less than worthless - the people you meet, connections you make, and networking you can do while attending university is what you really get out of it.

If you invested half as much time into going out and trying to talk to people as you currently spend furiously refreshing a dead sectarian spin-off board of a dead communist spin-off board of a dead nazi spin-off board of a dead anime spin-off board of a dead gay forum, you wouldn't need to ask us how to get laid.

>>34868

And yeah, fuck it, while I'm at it you all definitely should cut out the anime. At this point it's just another endless font of novelty for you to feed off of in lieu of getting anything substantial done. No better than reality tv, porn, or social media. Don't wonder why your life is shit if the only thing you know a substantial amount about are the fictional exploits of cartoon schoolgirls.

No.38202

>>38174

Directionless blog-rant ahead. Feel free to not respond.

>The dirty secret of university is that the education itself is less than worthless - the people you meet, connections you make, and networking you can do while attending university is what you really get out of it.

I go to university. There is no student organisations, no events, no parties, no clubs, no nothing. I thought I would get to meet new people, but you never meet anyone new, everybody is fucking autistic and nothing happens. University being some kind of social place is a fucking lie, its a shittier, less educational, more expensive version of highschool. I don't know where any places are that I can hang out, I dont know where events are, I never hear about any events. Its fucking dead, just like my social life and self image.

But you are right to some extend, I should put effort in to go out. Its my emotional problems preventing me from going out and seeking excuses everywhere, because I shut down easily. I cannot see how anyone would like me as a person, half the time I think my 2 friends just pretend to like me, I don't think I am interesting, I think I am unattractive.

I dont know how to join "groups", I dont know what "social hobbies" I could take up, I dont even know what social hobbies would be beyond drinking yourself to death in a bar. Every sport i've ever picked up I've not been too good at, and the one thing that I do enjoy, my scouts group, is just a group of 5 people who are almost all massively autistic. And of course I had to pick a university study that litterally only has 2 girls out of 100 people.

And even when I was abroad, in a country where women were literally approaching me, I shut down. I got scared, did not know what to do, was afraid of hurting them or misreading shit. I got scared of the idea of "things" happening and lapsed into a cycle of finding new excuses not to go out (language barrier, cultural misreading, etc) and my brain kept going on and on about how these girls could not really like me, they just were interested because I was foreign and if I talked to them they would laugh at me and dislike me.

Maybe I should just fucking jump in front of the train like I think about every second day or so, life is fucking shit, I hated the internship I had and am half-panicking about not wanting to spend my life doing what I am being trained to do, because it is meaningless to me and every day was a drag that I wished would end. Whats the fucking point in all of this shit, I hate my education, I hate my life, I hate myself and I keep having existantial thoughts about how I am wasting my short life and how I already wasted 25% of the time I have in existence, or less, how I wasted what were supposed to be the best years and peak of my life, wanting to do it all over, being envious and hurt over the happiness other have and had that I never got to have.

No.38203

>>38202

And in the end all that happens is that I hate myself even more and spiral into a cycle of apathy because "whats the fucking point I already ruined it" and anger and depression because I can't or won't improve my life, resulting in more of that apathy.

I mean for fuck sake I spend half a year in a foreign country, where I could get free drinks at clubs, where everybody around me got laid almost constantly and went out, but noooo, mr autismo over here would rather stay in his room because he is afraid he will look like an idiot or will be ridiculed by people he will never see. Why am I like this, how the fuck do I change this, why do other people just seem to have no problems with going out and having fun, why aren't they afraid and anxious about that shit like I am. Why can they just talk to girls but I attempt to and then stop because I don't think they could like me?

And even despite all of that, I feel like I have no right to feel this way, I feel like I cannot go to anyone and bother them with my bullshit problems and bullshit, meaningless life, because I have been given everything for a good life. I am good at learning, I am not massively overweight, I don't have to worry about university costs, I do not have to worry about money, sickness, going broke or having to move, I do not have to worry about having to worry about money in the future, because I will make a good wage with my education. So why the fuck would anyone have any sympathy for me, why the fuck should I make their lives miserable by bringing my negativity into theirs? I do not have the right to deprive them of their happiness just because I am not happy, and I can't even kill myself because I do not want to hurt my grandfather and my mother, and I am honestly not sure if I would still be alive if I had had nobody who would miss me, but its all "what ifs" so I can't say for sure.

I have to say that I can very much sympathise with school shooters and other cunts like that. I would never intentionally hurt anyone, but this feeling of fundamental unhappiness, worthlessness and existential pain, constantly comparing yourself to others who are happy, who do have self worth, who people like and who have a purpose, makes you really resentfull and feeling like shit, giving you sick thoughts like "if I cant be happy why can they", taking your feeling of worthlessness out on the object of comparison, instead of your own problems.

fuck

No.38251

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been having an overactive bladder the last couple days and also very lethargic, blurry vision. gonna try to get a diabetes test at the local urgent care, but i think i'm supposed to be fasted for that so might have to wait until monday. plus i wouldn't get the results until next week anyway. here's to a weekend of anxiety and thinking i'm dying fml :(

No.38252

>>38251

Good luck lad. If your pee tastes sweet you might have beetus.

No.38278

File: c9cbfc5718bbe00⋯.png (465.3 KB, 480x640, 3:4, uncle benis.png)

>want a gf

>completely satisfied only having a few friends I only really interact with a few times a week

>content with progressing slowly in my hobbies which are all solitary and work for my grad program which I can do alone

>in my very limited experience, the time, money, and effort that dating requires just isn't worth it

>know in an academic sense that I probably wouldn't like having a gf

>still want a gf

How the fuck do I unfeel this?

No.38279

>>38278

shitposting flag

No.38282

>>38202

>Feel free to not respond.

It's your lucky day, buddy! I've been very organised and getting a lot done lately, which paradoxically has left me with more free time to talk brokebrained motherfuckers like you out of their anxiety. Why do I try to provide sound life advice against the tide of /r9k/-style sadsacks? Because I was you once. I'm still trying to claw my way out of that pit, every day. I still get shut down by positively distasteful women. I still have trouble carrying a conversation. But I can find a friend, fuck a woman, and make things happen for myself better today than I could yesterday. Tomorrow I'll be better still. Every day that I put the effort in is a day that I get a little bit closer to reaching my full potential. And goddamnit, if a cunt like me can narrowly avoid going full wizard, you can too. Right off the bat I'm going to say 5 things: screenlessness, diet, sleep, exercise, meditation. These are your keystone habits, in order of importance. I don't know you from Adam, so I don't know how well or poorly you're doing on these fronts. But judging from your words, I'd be surprised if you were doing well on any of them.

continued in the next post, where i'll respond to some of your particular points

No.38284

>>38282

>screenlessness, diet, sleep, exercise, meditation

I'm a programmer, I have to do the screentime, which sadly makes it easy to slip into the BS cycle of dopamine hits.

> I don't know you from Adam

>There is a torrent floating around for Headspace, which is a real easy intro to meditation.

Where would I find this? I used to use pirate bay but thanks to the global porkies that is dead.

Will be gone to cook dinner for a bit. Will read what you wrote later today.

No.38293

>>38202

>>38203

There's pretty much one thing I want to point out with these posts, and you say it yourself pretty early on: You seek excuses everywhere. Most of the shit you wrote in these blogposts are just so many excuses. For example, you say

> I dont know what "social hobbies" I could take up, I dont even know what social hobbies would be beyond drinking yourself to death in a bar.

But you can literally type 'social hobbies' without quotes into google and get page upon page of lists of social hobbies.

Your blogposting seems to luxuriate in failure, instead of seeking to escape it. The only person who can get you out of your current position is you, guy. You need to start thinking about things in terms of what you can do about it, not how it is. For example, you say

>There is no student organisations, no events, no parties, no clubs, no nothing.

Now, even if that wasn't a total crock of shit, it'd be fantastic for you! With no clubs or organisations on campus, you could presumably start whatever club you wanted! You could go out tomorrow with a fucking clipboard and start signing people up to any club you can think of! You say you're bad at sport - did you actually stick with it? Did you practice diligently? Or did you declare yourself worthless after a couple of games and quit?

You even spin positives into negatives, for example

>my brain kept going on and on about how these girls could not really like me, they just were interested because I was foreign

To which I say fuck, some of the best sex I've had happened for that exact reason. One big-titted 19 year old american co-ed went from 0 interest to riding my dick once she saw my passport. Did she, perhaps, not like me for me? Sure. Was her virtue given a little too freely for contemporary mores? No doubt. Did I hum 'The Star Spangled Banner' while motorboating those big american titties, regardless of those issues? You fuckin' know I did.

I know I'm cherry picking quotes here (the time's gotten away from me), but the overarching point I'm trying to make here is that you can change your perspective on things. You can refuse to see problems as problems, and start seeing them as opportunities. You can list off 5 positive reasons for every negative one your anxious mind throws up. You can force yourself to say yes to an invitation, even when your brain is screaming at you to retreat. You can smile and move closer to that nice foreign lass even as your depression tells you not to. It might sound trite, but it's frankly the only thing that's consistently worked for me. The keystone habits I talked about in my previous post can stimulate positive thoughts and help you resist negative ones. However, at the end of the day it all boils down to your own conscious refusal to submit to the failure that your anxious mind is trying to impose on you. If you do the things you've always done, you'll get the things you've always got. Act differently to get a different result.

>>38284

>I'm a programmer

OK, think of a way around that then. Do your coursework on a library computer. Restrict your time on the computer to certain hours, like 9-5 on weekdays. Break your task up into small, manageable chunks, and only get on the computer when you have a specific, defined goal to accomplish. Add all time-waster sites to your adblocker's custom blacklist - it wont stop you if you're determined, but it'll be enough of a roadblock for you to reconsider what you're doing. Hell, add them to your hosts file.

The biblical Adam. "I don't know you from Adam" is just a figure of speech that means "I don't know anything about you".

>pirate bay

They've blocked it here too, but I'm sure you can find a good "PIRATE BAY PROXY LIST" if you search for the right terms.

No.38297

>>38293

>just go around with a clipboard on campus.

There is no campus. My university is in the city. It's probably one of the only ones in my country with no students orginisation no fraternities no clubs no events no student houses no event comittee and no om campus habitation. The buildings are spread out all over the city so you never actually meet anyone except the people from your own course, who are all dudes who just go home after school.

I mean ffs every other university I've visited has had student orginisation pop up to ask me to join as soon as I entered the door, but my university? That one building surrounded by offices seprated by long distances from other studies? There is not one student orginisation.

If there were any I wouldn't say there weren't any. And I know it sounds like I am making excuses but I swear it is like this. It figures that everything I chose was the wrong choice, from programming which has literally only men to the university with the least student activity in the country.

>pirate bay

That's not what I mean, the pirate bay doesn't have anything, the database is dead as well, it's hard to find anything but the most recent movies.

No.38326

>>8369

im proud of who I am, which is more than I can say about most right wingers

No.38328

>>23972

>das kapital for beginners

is this a troll post? get the fuck out you retard

No.38330

>>38326

How about I blow your brains out instead of telling people that being miserable depressed and suicidal is the best they will ever be and they should just give up on life because "doing something to make your life better is fascism"

No.38347

>>38328

do you not like that book? what are your problems with it?

No.38370

>>38328

>is this a troll post? get the fuck out you retard

nou

No.38456

>>38297

>There is no campus.

OK, so you can't go around campus. Fuck it, you can still start a study group. You could still start the Computer Science Students Club by going around with a clipboard after class. You could try to start a student union to petition your university for student governance, or common social spaces. If you were really determined you could get your course credits transferred to another more socially efflorescent university. You could pretend to be a student at a different university and join their clubs. You could just turn up to a different university's events. This is what I was talking about in my last post. I just provided 5 positive things you could do in response to your negative reasoning. That's the kind of shit you have to do when faced with an unsatisfactory situation. You may have to think outside the box, but this is what I mean by not making excuses. I mean that you have to refuse to stop looking for solutions if the result isn't good enough for you. You can't just settle on "Oh no, everything I've done was wrong, oh well, nothing to be done for it", because your life will just continue on its current trajectory.

>no pirate bay

I assure you there are plenty of proxies out there with full backups of the pirate bay's content. Unrelated to that fact, here's a random string of gibberish characters. I think my keyboard might be fucked, it prints these occasionally.

No.38463

>>38456

> You may have to think outside the box, but this is what I mean by not making excuses. I mean that you have to refuse to stop looking for solutions if the result isn't good enough for you.

I guess you're right

>I think my keyboard might be fucked, it prints these occasionally.

You should get that fixed, that is really odd.

No.38507

>>38463

Again I say you're here too much. You're here when I do some light posting after some home improvement work, you're here when I effortpost at 1AM after friday night drinks, you're here after my morning meditation, This is directed at every poster who reads this, by the way. If your life isn't going the way you want it to and you're still watching anime and posting on the chans, then cut that shit out. For every minute you spend refreshing the same few threads or hearing someone get referred to as senpai or watching traps get sodomised, go exercise or talk to women or practice an instrument for two minutes. The first and last component of 'making it' is not wasting your time. If you're wondering why I'm here, it's exclusively to deliver this message, to bring just one more poster out of brokebrained wizardry.

No.38518

>>38507

Its hard to break out of an addiction, anon. Not that I would know where to go to hang out on a friday evening and somehow get back to my town on time to join the trip to family friends tomorrow. How about I promise you I will go to a bar of some sort on sunday? Tomorrow I will be gone all day.

I did exercise today, cooked dinner and went out to my scouts group, but today in particular I had a day off, hence why I reply so much. I also replied from my phone.

No.38573

>>38518

I can't help you figure out where to meet friends and women, but I can tell you that breaking out of your internet addiction is as easy as finding something else to do. Get a hobby that you can do for several hours at a time. I like playing music because I'm too mentally exhausted to read after reading for school, and you can always improve at an instrument. My shitposting is largely limited to time when I have to work at my computer, but I'm slacking off as opposed to being something I actually do for "fun." That's often still a few hours a day on bad days, but that's no time at all compared to when I was an undergrad. I'd shitpost before class, after class, sometimes during class, and I'd check /lit/ a couple of times on the odd occasion that I was actually socializing. I quit facebook and WoW at the same time, and also took a break from chans for a few months. I wasn't addicted to shit, I was just fucking bored.

No.38576

>>38573

I never learned to play an instrument, maybe I should try it. My sister has a base guitar.

No.38577

>>38573

Oh right. Thanks for all the advice, good night.

No.39372

File: 11641f88946cb20⋯.jpg (79.38 KB, 1280x720, 16:9, smile.jpg)

Time for reports!

No.39379

>>39372

Didnt spend time on my pc yesterday, felt great again after 2 days of litterally wanting to kill myself. Havent jacked off in a week, have been eating well, am about to go to the gym and go to a bar tonight.

Also making an excl sheet where I keep track of how healthy i eat, how happy i feel, days since last sporting, how well i socialized, days since last masturbating, time getting out of bed and going to bed, and if there were positive or negative events. Maybe I can see trends about what causes my pretty regular depression.

Also keeping tabs on if i have cyclical depression and highs, because maybe maybe maybe I might just have bipolar disorder.

No.39529

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No.39610

>>8369

I want to improve my social skills, I've always been an anti-social backwards fuck born aspergers, ADHD and a plethora of other fun mental stuff. For years in my early childhood I could never understand other people, quite literally as because of my autism I don't actually feel emotions, so much so that until I was taken to therapy when I was 6 I didn't know how to smile or what it meant. through my late childhood and early tweens, I went to a bunch of medical clinics and mental health places, this is in the early 2000s so I this was just as LDs were being recognized and treated and so the treatment I was getting was more pioneering than anything. Suffice to say it didn't really help me other than introducing me to other barely functioning people, although it does feel good to know I paved the way for kids with LDs today. anyways I still only feel and understand basic emotions and social concepts, but I at least now realize that there are thing there on people's faces which I physically cannot see or understand, and I mix up stuff like sarcasm and condescending. Perhaps the most offputting factor of all this is that people often treat me like I'm dumb, but I have an Autism Level of 189, but because of my autism I sound like a complete retard. It doesn't help that anxiety really got to me in high school and Ds were the average. The good news though is that in my last year I put my chin up and got such good grades that I got fast tracked to a law school in England, where I'll be headed next fall after completing my first year of uni. But I still don't have much interaction despite having roommates and stuff. I only see other people when I step out to get food or bump into my roommates when I head to class. The only person I talk to on a regular basis is my girlfriend, who is one of the people who I met during the therapy, but she's just as fucked up as me and is just an echo chamber for my social anxiety. What do I do? I want to go to parties and stuff but there are actual physical barriers blocking me from interacting with people, and I feel as though my courage isn't good enough when I'm part of a socially alienated and taboo group of "retarded" kids. How do I get gud?

No.39615

File: c4da27602fad0d2⋯.jpg (80.11 KB, 517x427, 517:427, Danberus22.jpg)

Great week for me. I wonder what could be the reason for that oh yeah maybe it's because I forced myself to stop being Eternally Online this week

Why am I always surprised at my progress whenever I don't spend most of my free time posting? Oh well, onto goals

>Spend a maximum of 15 hours of free time a week online; no more than 5 hours should be on image boards or social media

I wonder if I should thank leftyBO for kickstarting my gradual extraction from online time wasters. This is the first week where I came close to hitting my goal of 5 hours max online on image boards and other social media.

I'm meeting this goal now fairly regularly. My menu is usually incredibly basic and consists of sandwiches and other meals I can whip up in a few minutes. I'm thinking of looking at frying tofu and mixing it with kidney beans and corn for next week.

>Eliminate all junk food from my diet and drink half a litre of water a day

First week without drinking a drop of soda. It's a good step and easier to make once I tell myself that donuts, timbits and potato chips have zero nutrients and I'm basically paying extra for fats, salt and carbs I don't really need.

>Go from a BMI of 29 to 25-26 and build noticeable muscle

I'm doing better with a schedule that has prescribed cardio and lifting days, although I find cardio easier to avoid skipping than hauling myself to the gym. First week where I either never skipped a cardio day or made up for it when a shift pushed it back.

>Learn twenty new recipes

I am honestly surprised that of all the things I'm trying to do, learning how to fucking cook is harder than learning how to lift or quitting fatty foods. Every time I mess up a recipe I get pissed off, because that's about \$15-25 of food that got super soggy or burned up to almost nothing.

>Reread the manifesto, Capitalist Realism; read Capital, Cockshott, and two other major texts

Yeah I blew off reading this week. After work I mostly just want to load up Lucky Star or the latest moe anime this season and veg out for an hour before I start prep for tomorrow

>Finish my backlog of vidya, anime, and manga

At least I'm digging into my backlog although I really need to stop downloading more old anime before I'm finished with the entire pile.

Ibid.

>Write three essays

complete

Also thanks to the other anons for sticking around to give advice in my absence. Even if one of you is a filthy sex-haver

No.39623

File: 895818efc3edbf9⋯.png (280.67 KB, 684x568, 171:142, Danberus15.png)

>>39610

>How do I get gud?

I really can't speak to the needs of someone with a learning disorder - you should seek out the second opinion of a professional, such as a campus psychologist or counselor.

I can tell you how I managed to train myself to override my anxieties regarding socializing with others. I found that I hard a real hard time entering social situations because I didn't know what to do or if there were any rules for interacting with people. I got burned once by making an ass of myself (the details I forget, this was 2009) in some quasi-fraternity and cloistered myself in my studies to cope with the depression.

I eventually decided to force myself to develop a resistance to crowded and active social situations. If you don't go out and interact with society period outside of classes, start by gong to a Starbucks or other chain cafe where you're allowed to buy something and then sit down at a table and read or work on a laptop for an hour or so. I was a borderline shut-in and I became more comfortable with being around other people by doing this every day for a year or so. Start by sitting at a table in a corner if you need to, but you should eventually start sitting in the middle of the cafe or in a space where you're close to lots of foot traffic, other patrons, the cashier or wait staff, just to get comfortable bring around others.

After a while, seek out service or volunteer groups on campus where most group activities have a structure or are geared towards some activity. This can be an open source programming group, a church group, a charity or service organization such as Rotaract or the Lions Club. There are even groups such as the Toastmasters that are specifically geared towards helping people get more comfortable speaking in public, which is something you should be good at if you intend on practicing trial/criminal law. Political parties can also serve this function and if you're a true believer, most party orgs will tolerate your difficulties in socializing with others (so long as you don't seek to disrupt meetings or try to be an ass).

You're going to make it lad!

No.39624

Going strong on fitness, but having to sideline work on my script until a couple of friends read it and make recommendations. Chicken and Waffles turned out really good and I'm tempted to eat them for my cheat meal every couple of weeks, but variety and all that.

>>39615

>Even if one of you is a filthy sex-haver

I'm pretty sure there's more than one of us here or at least I hope so. If it makes any virgins feel better getting your dick wet isn't all that and won't be a cure for unhappiness.

No.39640

>>39623

This anon has good advice. Toastmasters was absolutely invaluable for me. Before I joined I was completely unwilling to speak in large groups. Now I am completely immune to social anxiety. I have literally forgotten what it's like to feel nervous about speaking to people or getting up on stage. It gave me the confidence to join a real political organisation. You may have to shop around a bit to find a Toastmasters club that has any young people, though. clubs near a university campus are your best bet.

No.39652

>>39624

>getting your dick wet isn't all that and won't be a cure for unhappiness

For me, the main source of unhappiness in my life was my lack of social skills, and I considered my continued virginity into my mid-20s to be emblematic of that. Losing my virginity represented a milestone in my social development, proof that my hard work in attempting to learn social skills from scratch was actually getting somewhere. When I finally managed it, it was a huge boost to my confidence and happiness. Trying to stay socially engaged and improve my skills further is still a daily struggle for me, and having actually managed to have sex is one of the core components of my positive self-talk. You can try to tell yourself you're confident, handsome, capable, etc all you like, but it's about 1000 times more effective when those statements come from someone who was willing to sleep with you. The act itself was whatever though - don't go in expecting to have your world rocked by penis-vagina contact, especially if you've been deathgrip jerking off for 25+ years before ever touching a woman. In fact I'd recommend noporn+nofap if you're in that camp - take it from me, you're barely going to be able to feel anything during sex unless you can acclimate your dick to the much subtler sensations of sexual intercourse.

No.39674

>>38282

Did you by any chance overcome your /r9k/ problems from being on leftypol? I remember people were pretty straight with them when it came to trying to get them sorted.

>>38297

Time to transfer. No joke. Look up the most lit university and change. It's the time of the year to do it.

>>38518

I kicked a meth analog and tobacco. You can do it fam. Just view the world as a bunch of brokebrains attempting to interact with each other and mimic them, the only difference is your neuroses getting to you. I know the human embodification of chad, he fucks one or two new girls every weekend and has done for years, and is a semi-pro boxer. I can get under his skin and make him feel small. That's everyone.

Reminder to always look back at your last day and ask yourself: Did I have fun? Was it worth the time I could have spent doing something else? I've quit habitual drinking and obsessive imageboard use doing this.

>>38576

These are very easy and fun to play. I recommend trying to perfect "Misirlou" by Dick Dale.

No.39680

>>39674

>I remember people were pretty straight with them when it came to trying to get them sorted.

You mean the Redditors who invaded the board were shitting on them and telling them to kill themselves and that the glorious socialist revolution has no use for them.

No.39683

>>39680

>muh redditors

>reddit spaces

You invaded the board you piece of shit, your constant "muh sexual free market" shit was the first immediate stage of the downfall of leftypol. Small wonder BO decided to kill it off shortly after.

I know you've been told this already, but fucking kill yourself.

No.39690

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>>31536

me again, here's a felix pic, didn't do an update last week since there wasn't much to say. Still running, had a few unhealthy meals since my flatmate bought me pizza after I did his Java assignment for him. Not too bothered though, I can burn it off.

Easter break in 2 days, it would be nice to go out running with my family but they both injured their legs so I have to run alone.

No.39698

>>39690

Thanks for the Felix pic but you really shouldn't do other peoples assignments for them that's cheating

No.39709

Went to a bar today. There were only 7 people. So I went back home and went out with my sister and her friends. It was nice.

Still horny as fucking hell though, since I haven't jacked off in 8 days.

I'm going to try to keep trying to cut the computer out of my life apart from programming work, I got shit done today. Cleaned my room and went to the gym and went out.

No.39710

>>39709

Are you the miserable city university anon?

No.39715

>>39674

Bruv I can't just change schools when I only have one and a quarter year to go, the credits do not transer that well. I would have to redo most of it and I don't have that amount of money (goverenment aid only covers exactly the time i have left ). I am going to do a masters degree after this at a place with social life so hopefully it will be better then. In the meantime I will just try to build a social circle of sorts in whatever local nightlife there might be.

No.39720

>>39710

Aye. Am on mobile so quoting is a pain with scrolling and all.

No.39723

>>39715

Ah, it works differently where I am. Are you close with your sister? You should hang out with her more, I've met loads of friends and a few flings through my mates sisters, same with my mate.

You can't be that insufferable if your sister likes you, as dumb as it sounds, and if her friends like you too you're closer to meeting someone you can form a relationship with than you think. Just keep hanging out with them.

No.39726

>>39723

Yea my sister is pretty ok since she grew up a bit. But the mates she was with today were all dudes. I am going to go try and go out more with some dudes from my class to widen my social circle and get some much needed social interaction. I am going to try and do one or two night out a week at a minimum. Might need to get a job to cover those costs through.

No.39730

Let me repeat: never shave your genitals. I have a pretty sizable zit right now on my dick, due to the shaving. Cleaned it with soap and wodka, hopefully it will go away soon because it looks like I have herpaids right now. The itching is mostly gone though. Just trim that shit.

No.39733

>>39683

>just because people double enter means they are the cause of the downfall of society.

you two are just calling each other reddit, apply yourselves and be nice. This is a nice board, most people here are not standard image board folk, otherwise we wouldn't be here. We are hated by pol and reddit.

Stop being mean

No.39736

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>>39726

You're a programmer, you don't need a job. I can give you some pointers on making money. Your skills are highly sought after, if you know where to sell them. I've missed all my targets so I've not been posting with a flag but I would be happy to help you.

No.39741

>>39736

>you don't need a job, you just need to sell your skills

sounds like job to me, luv

Also I just wanted to add that changing school makes no sense anyway because the first half of next year will be self-chosen courses that can be anywhere in the country and the other half is research/internship with paper writing for graduation, so I won't be physically in school at all.

No.39742

Alright lads that it's for today, good night eh.

Fuck drinking makes me dizzy, I feel like I'm constantly falling over even though I am lying down in bed.

No.39745

>>39742

>I feel like I'm constantly falling over even though I am lying down in bed

Put your foot on the floor, it'll stabilize you

No.39749

>>39741

>sounds like job to me, luv

Work's work. Regardless, try SEOclerks or SEOmarts rather than looking for a McJob. There's still big money to be made in SEO, I can hook you up with some guides if you're not familiar with it. Don't waste your talents on shitty jobs to pay to build on the talents you have.

>>39745

I've found if your head is spinning from alcohol then going to sleep with the light on will stop it.

No.39818

>>39640

Yeah. Judging from his description of his current social habits he should ease into something like that, which is why I recommended just making a habit of sitting in a cafe for a couple of hours to get used to being around lots of people in a social setting. It's a bit difficult to just jump straight into a social club - I know from experience.

>>39680

>>39683

>>39690

Great work

>>39709

It's a start and you're making progress. You'll become more comfortable in social settings as you keep going. And if you find that the type of person at bars just isn't interesting or doesn't really align with your interests then consider other social settings where you can meet women.>>39749

>Work's work.

>Regardless, try SEOclerks or SEOmarts rather than looking for a McJob.

Bruh…

No.39830

>>39674

>Did you by any chance overcome your /r9k/ problems from being on leftypol?

I had actually gotten most of the way through my problems before ever coming to /leftypol/. I was probably one of the anons trying to straighten brokebrained /r9k/ers out.

>>39749

I am not the person you're quoting but I would like some guides on SEO if you would be so kind, anon.

No.39853

>>39749

>ruining the internet for the sake of a little bit of easy money

Glad you have the porky flag on.

No.39979

>>39749

I wasn't planning on getting a mcdonalds or other minimum wage job. It's normal for everybody in programming courses to have a job at an it firm for one or two days a week, with normal junior dev pay.

No.39983

Ive been counting the calories and food I eat in an app and I have managed to cut out alot of candy and soda. I am down to about 1-2 sodas a week and the rest is water. I am drinking less and trying to eat healthier but I really gotta go for it if I want to make a noticeable difference. Gotta lose enough weight and get in decent enough shape that if my life ever really goes to shit I can just go to Rojava and join the YPG.

No.40132

>>39983

Go cold t*rkey on soda anon, you can do it

No.40182

>>40132

Yeah this. It's probably the easiest type of junk food you can quit, since it has zero nutritional benefit and you feel fucking fantastic if you replace the soda with water. After a couple of weeks any cravings you have will abate and overly sweet stuff like soda will be almost undrinkable to you after your tastes reset themselves

No.40338

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>>29547

>>29555

Hey, I'm the guy from the first link again, just checking to see if you either forgot to reply or didn't want to (completely understand if so, just wondering if I should keep checking my email for one).

>>40132

>>40182

When I quit soda, a nice transition was moving toward unsweetened carbonated drinks. I enjoy flavored seltzers just as much as soda, and the cranberry clementine flavor from pic related is my favorite. Don't bother with artificially sweetened sodas because they taste like ass and make you want the real thing. Personally I don't like any La Croix flavors but other people seem to

Note that seltzers, sodas, and tonics are all different. In particular, make sure you don't pick up a tonic with sugar in it

No.40354

>>40182

Ive been replacing the soda I drink with naturally flavored Seltzer waters, its cheaper than buying soda and I really like the carbonation. It has definitely helped.

No.40387

>>40338

I forgot to reply. My phone can't check my mail atm so I will reply to you in the next couple of hours.

No.40667

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No.40681

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>10 days of not masturbating

>Horny as fucking shit

>litterally every moment my mind wanders off for a while I think about sex

Also

>One day not having that much social interaction

>Feeling like shit immediately again

Could I have wrongly self-diagnosed as an introvert?

No.40685

>>40681

It's going to be better, for a week or two you will think you have gone asexual only for it to return with a vengeance.

No.40689

>>40681

Talking with people doesn't make you an extrovert. Humans need interaction whether they're introverted or not, just different kinds.

No.40845

It's amazing how much time you can waste on your pc. I need to kill one and a half hours today and it went by in the blink of an eye. Not going to do that again, I could have done homework.

No.40853

Seeing the spooked people deny their pleasure for ungrounded moralism ITT really saddens me.

Actually read the thread. People have been discussing why nofap is a faulty concept. There is literally nothing negative with fapping a few times a week, i.e. every other day. In fact it's healthy. Porn addiction is another thing though which has been linked to erectile dysfunction (ED). Nofap months are based in nothing but residual Abrahamic morality.

No.40861

>>40853

nofap is healthy insofar as it's a method of instilling self discipline. It has the added effect of forcing me to try and interact with the opposite sex, when usually I would just jerk one out. By all means, if you have a healthy sex life, or just don't care about one, or feel like their are other methods of self discipline better suited to yourself, then fap away.

No.40869

Why would I want to improve myself when I can just force everyone else to lower their standards?

(Der Übermensch)

No.40872

>>40869

Isn't that what you are trying to do /pol/? Forbidding people from fucking people other than you?

No.41280

Jacked off yesterday after 10 days. The weird feeling in my belly is gone, but I do feel noticeably less energized and eager.

No.41373

>>41280

I usually jack off before I go to bed to make myself more tired.

No.41380

>>41373

I mean even the day after I feel the difference. I don't know if it's the feeling of anxiety that made me more fidgety or if I really was more energised and motivated.

No.41453

I suppose one of us should try to do the prescribed 30 days to see what happens.

No.41458

>>41453

It's supposed to be 90 days to "reboot your brain." I did 30 days before and nothing happened. That anon probably feels lethargic because they failed and are disappointed with themselves, not because they ejaculated.

No.41476

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>>41458

Well I've been participating in this thread for about 90 days, so I suppose I can commit to a 90 day nofap and sacrifice my ropes in the service of my comrades. Other than work and reading I don't have much else to do.

I'll report every Sunday like normal under my old trip to keep me from slacking off…

No.41479

>>41476

>I will sacrifice myself for some scientifically unsupported bullshit for the 100000th time on the chans to prove that it has no benefits.

Or just don't.

No.41517

>>41479

If I go through with it and it turns up to be a placebo or does nothing then my experience will lend the anti-nofap viewpoint more validity within this thread going forward.

But I also want to give the pro-nofap people in this thread a fair shake as well. I am trying to avoid or minimize the chance of nofap becoming one of these topics that constantly derails the thread and discourages newcomers particularly newcomers from /leftypol/ from sticking around. I am not telling you to censor your opinions on nofap but please try and abide by the positive, comfy and relaxed attitude that makes this thread a good place to openly seek advice or information. If at the end of my 90 days I report that nofap really didn't do much (or if I felt better) then we can put the issue to bed.

No.41577

No.41580

>>41458

I don't feel lathargic and it's not because I am "disappointed with myself". My goal was reducing jacking off to once a week, and that I accomplished. I was not going for any of these retarded detox-esque things like 90 days or eternal, I just wanted to stop jacking off 3 times a day and using it as an escape from having to do other things my brain rewards me for.

Stop putting words in my mouth.

No.41581

>>41580

I said less energized and less eager because I can't translate the feeling I have from my language unto English. But you can imagine it like feeling a bit like thick molasses. You don't feel bad, it's just that everything is a bit more like thick molasses, a bit slow flowing, it takes a bit more energy to get moving and you are more resistant to changing your state.

No.41583

No.41586

Went to the gym again today. Used that fancy machine with the bar in the rails and the hooks, used to squatting or deadlifting, to squat. Fucking sucks tbh, you can never fully get the centre of mass under the bar so you are always pushing on it wrongly. Going o stick with a free bar.

I did for the first time get 5x5 at 35kg easily with benchpressing, so next time I am going to increase the weight for the first time in 2 weeks.

No.41590

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This machine. Piece of shit. I did do some amazingly deep ones, but I was using the wrong muscles and over compensating and doing bad form because the bar wasn't directly over the place I squatted.

No.41682

>>41590

Those are shit, stick to the bar and a partner.

No.41713

>>41682

shit man do you not have dumbbells, free bars, or anything but that awful thing?

No.41718

>>41713

I go to a gym with free bars and dumbbells, I used the rack early on but stopped because it didn't feel good.

No.41736

>try to make my own protein shakes using a whey protein isolated

>turns out I'm allergic to it

Anyone got some suggestions on alternatives?

No.41754

>>41736

eat eggs or drink milk

>>41682

I don't have a partner, that's why I build up weights slowly so as to not over extend

No.41858

I got fucking nothing done today, i wasted my entire day doing FUCKING BULLSHIT instead of all the other important shit I have to do. I feel like fucking shit, I am suicidal again and am thinking to myself why I would do anything at all. Everything is making me angry.

I spend the entire day doing FUCKING BULLSHIT WEBDEVELOPMENT SHIT, TRYING TO MAKE GODAWFULL CANCEROUS APIS FOR THIS RETARDED DATABASE, TRYING TO MEET UNREALISTIC STANDARDS OF "I NEED TO ACCESS ANYTHING IN ANY WAY BUT ALSO WANT TO RESTRICT AN ARBITRARY SUBSET OF WAYS TO ONLY ADMINS". FUCK WEBDEVELOPMENT, FUCK HTTP, FUCK APIS, FUCK DATABASES, FUCK FLASK, FUCK PYTHON, FUCK SERVERS, FUCK JSON, I WOULD RATHER HANG MYSELF WITH BARBWIRE THAN DO THIS MY ENTIRE LIFE. WHY DO THEY KEEP MAKING US DO THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT? IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH BEING A SOFTWARE ENGINEER. WE ARE BEING TRAINED TO BE SOFTWARE ENGINEER, NOT GLORIFIED SQL SCRIPT WRITERS. AND THIS IS THE FUCKING SECOND FULL DAY I SPEND ON THIS SHIT, AND I STILL HAVE NOT GOT A THING DONE.

No.41884

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No.41895

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>>41858

I'm guessing you are the individual who was here about a week ago seeking advice on dates and the like.

If that's true, you probably have recurring episodes like I do where you're more vulnerable to thoughts of dejection, depression, suicidal ideation, etc. which in turn amplifies the shit not going right in your life. And vice versa. Just recognizing that these episodes are cyclical and that they will eventually pass has helped me ride them out.

Beyond that, you seem to be knowledgeable about software engineering. If you're looking for something more worthwhile to do with your talents (which few people have and many more people in the left should pick up) why not help people learn how to code? Like with many other things, people often try to learn on their own but hit a wall and give up when they start running into difficult problems where there's no good source of advice available to answer these questions. They just get frustrated and fall back into old habits.

(Incidentally, this is how websites like Coursera make money off of "free" online courses. They give away the materials and lectures for free but then make you pay if you want your assignments graded or help on exercises.)

If you have the patience required to answer basic (and sometimes stupid) coding questions and possibly even organize a small teaching series for people here or over on >>>/gnussr/, you might be able to do more with your talents than typical database bullshit. I personally find that helping people here in turn gives me the calmness and motivation I need to carry on with my own problems, so it may work for you.

If this sounds like something you're willing to try out, then I can help advertise weekly or biweekly sessions using a free textbook, or just the existence of coding help here in the self-improvement thread or on a board with support for code (like what /g/ has). It would be a lot better than trying to seek help on 4/g/ where you ask a question and the typical response is memes and getting called a cuck.

No.41924

>sleep on the floor

>no pillow

>walk barefoot when i can

>drink only water , milk and sometimes fruit juices i make myself

>no alcohol

>no drugs

>started cooking

>trying to go vegeterian

>started working out

>stopped playing video games

>masturbating less

What else can I do to max my progress

No.41934

>>41924

I had no idea Varg posted here!

No.41938

>>41924

I already do about half of that except the dietary (my diet is shit) and the masturbation. I just don't know how to cook and the fapping is mostly out of habit, boredom, and the complete absence of women in my life.

>>no pillow

How is that going for you? Do you exclusively sleep on your back? Was it uncomfortable at first or still is?

> fruit juices i make myself

Fruit juices aren't much better for you than other sugary drinks. The fiber in the fruits is a big part of making you full and keeping you from ingesting too much sugar.

>meditate

>start taking cold showers at the end of a regular shower, maybe eventually only take cold showers

And if you want to get max /ascetic/

>engage in voluntary poverty by becoming homeless, quit your job, and survive from urban foraging (i.e. dumpster diving)

>maybe eventually go live in a barrel and become the famous town crazy

I unironically plan on doing the voluntary poverty thing soon.

No.41953

>>41938

As for the no pillow first week was very uncomfortable and I would find myself waking up in the middle of the night to wrap up a piece of my blanket as a pillow , also I had a sore throat and a mild neck pain - you shouldn't be afraid of it as its mild and you will get used to it rather fast

Now I force myself to fall asleep on my back but when I wake up , its almost always on the side .

I don't think its possible to to not move in your sleep at all , atleast for me

Once you get used to it its much better than sleeping on the bed and you wake up well rested and more relaxed , makes waking up in the morning a lot easier

>Fruit juices aren't much better for you than other sugary drinks.

I'm aware of this but its refreshing to drink them every now and then

>cold showers

I'm gonna start doing this as from tomorrow , thank you !

>voluntary poverty

N-no t-thanks..

No.41963

>>41736

>Anyone got some suggestions on alternatives?

Soy or just eat some meat instead. You can ignore the memes about soy, it's just a bean and the plant estrogen in it won't effect you. Otherwise look into what vegans eat for protein, I'm not one so I have no idea what that is beyond soy.

>>41924

Learn some skills or organize a reading group. Assuming you live somewhere you can get guns, learn to shoot and handle a firearm.

No.41981

>>41963

>learn to shoot and handle a firearm.

bolt-action only. semi-auto is a capitalist plot by the bullet industry (I'm shitposting don't dogpile pls)

No.41996

>>41963

You don't need to own guns to learn to shoot them, you can just go to a shooting range.

No.42072

>>41895

I have to do it because I need muh degree. I also don't really have time the coming few weeks since I have 2.5 times the nor al workload (have to retake 3 subjects) and I also have been slacking off for a few weeks, making me fall behind on my studies and lessons.

Other than my current lack of time, helping learn to code does sound somewhat fun, although I would not know how to start teaching people how to code. I will keep it in mind. And if anyone has any specific coding questions, feel free to ask them, although I do not have a terrible lot of experience with languages like c or c++ so I cannot answer very language specific questions for them. I do know c# well and python too to a certain extend, and most coding concepts are not language specific.

No.42073

>>41924

>sleep on floor

>no pillow

Is this a new meme I haven't heard about? I do get barefoot walking and not gapping too much but fucking up your back and neck for no good reason makes no sense to me. Humans have always used some kinda bed like thing wherever possible.

>no meat

why? You losing out on them gains and required basic nutritional intake . I would understand less meat but no meat at all is bad

No.42075

>>41895

Btw about the dates. Still haven't met any women despite going out several times. There is a cute goth girl in some other class I see sometimes but I don't know how to approach her without looking like a massive wanker, as she's the only girl out of a hundred people, so I should probably just leave her alone.

Should I get on dating stuff like tinder? I heard tantan has a ton of weebs in my area but I had deleted my account so I need to rebuild it be for I can check. Or should I just stick to going to bars more often. My social circle sadly has nobody who likes to go to social gatherings with new people so it's hard to go out and meet new people.

No.42092

>>41981

Honestly just get whatever you can afford and has plentiful ammunition.

>>41996

You need to learn how to store and care for them if you're going to own them.

>>42075

>There is a cute goth girl in some other class I see sometimes but I don't know how to approach her without looking like a massive wanker

Just try to strike up a conversation normally, don't pretend to like anything you don't, and if doesn't work out just shrug and move on.

>Should I get on dating stuff like tinder?

Tinder is for getting your dick wet not for dating, but if you're nervous about having sex for the first time? it's best to fuck someone who you won't be dating so when you do fuck someone you're in a relationship is you'll be more chill about it. Most dudes suck at fucking anyway so don't be worried about fucking up your first time everyone does.

No.42314

Is it just me or are american women fucking nuts?

No.42325

>>42314

I'm pretty sure everyone in the USA is insane.

No.42415

Went to the gym again today, some cunt was keeping the squatting rack occupied for over an hour, so I went home.

I also just made a lexer in F#. Fuck me that was a load of work. I now have a framework wherein I can define states, acceptable characters in said state and transitions to other states. It has an error system, but I still need to find a nicer solution to the end of file problem I am currently having, either by adding an extra character to the end of the stream (not prefferable) or by doing some work and adding a union type for "no more data" as an abstraction over my character datatype.

Anyone have experience with F#? I am having some trouble understanding what is and isnt allowed in recursion in data types.

I can do this:

let exampledata = "abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz"let rec letternumberstate = stateconstructor [    {Pathcharacters = exampledata;    Transition = fun characters parsingstuffs ->    letternumberstate characters.Tail (somefunction parsingstuffs characters.Head)};

With letternumberstate referencing itself, but I get an error when I try this:

let identity = fun (charactersToCheck : string) state ->    {Pathcharacters = charactersToCheck;    Transition = fun characters parsingstuffs ->    state characters.Tail (somefunction parsingstuffs characters.Head)}let rec otherexample = [identity "abcdefg" otherexample]

The error being "The value 'otherexample' will be evaluated as part of its own definition". Why is the fist one allowed, and the second one is not?

The fact that I cannot use recursion or crisscross function calling normally in F# really bugs the hell out of me tbh, give you so much more troubles than you need.

No.42472

>>42415

for the newfriends here, how do you paste code into a post and have it show up like that?

No.42557

No cheat meals and been working out. But I'm running into a problem on another front. There's a scene in the script where some music is put on so some guys don't have to listen to their roommate fuck his girl, originally I wrote it with Immortal Technique's "Dance with the Devil": in mind, but I'm wondering if something else might work better, like maybe "Me and Jesus the Pimp in a '79 Granada Last Night". It doesn't have to be hip hop but preferably something 5-10 minutes and melancholy, the song itself is worked into conversation so that's a factor too.

No.42569

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No.42573

>>41590

My local gym has one of these shits. They don't have a rack of any kind. Not a squat rack, not a rack on a bench. They have a bar but maybe 300 lbs total in plates, and that's assuming you could fit all the littler ones on there, which is made worse by the fact that they don't have the fucking clamps even. They at least have a full dumbbell set. It's mostly cardio and resistance machines for bourgeois old fucks who want to add a year or two to their parasitic lifespan.

>>41924

>sleep on the floor

>no pillow

>walk barefoot when i can

Probably too late to help much but good. Try to put your weight on the ball of your foot and build strength in your ankle which is a natural shock absorber.

>drink only water , milk and sometimes fruit juices i make myself

Milk is not good for you; drink soymilk or something like that if you have a place for milk in your diet (like in coffee or oatmeal). You should eat the fruit not just the juice. The fiber and minerals are in the part you don't get in juice.

>no alcohol

>no drugs

Good.

>started cooking

Very important.

>trying to go vegeterian

Don't sweat it too much. Doing "flexitarian" is most effective because feeling like you've fallen off the wagon with fuck with your psychology and you can end up eating more shit you don't want to.

>masturbating less

There's nothing wrong with masturbation. It's very useful for regulating your hormones and you should definitely do it every day or two unless you're having sex instead.

No.42578

>>42569

I never understood the point of dice rolling

No.42584

>>42578

the devs were too dumb to develop something fun, so they put that in there.

No.42627

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>>42415

I only know OCaml so I might be wrong, but…

First of all, let'' extends the lexical environment, it does not define data types.

Second, the main difference is that in the first example, the lookup of the value being defined is in a function body, so it is not evaluated until that function is actually called. Meanwhile, the otherexample is passed as an argument to the identity function so it is looked up before its value was evaluated.

So, in the first example, the lookup is deferred until the Transition is actually run, while in the second you try to use the value being defined before it was defined.

Try this, it should produce the same error but is much clearer, why:

let identity x = xlet rec otherwise = identity otherwise

Now look at this:

let identity x = xlet rec otherwise = fun () -> identity (otherwise ())

Here the value of otherwise will be a function, and its value won't be evaluated until that function is actually called.

Here's how let x = y in z'' works:

1. Evaluate y.

2. Extend the lexical environment with x = y.

3. Evaluate z in this extended environment.

In contrast, let rec x = y in z'' does this:

1. Extend the lexical environment with x = *undefined*.

2. Evaluate y in this extended environment.

3. Modify this extended environment so that x = y.

4. Evaluate z in this extended environment.

As you can see, with let rec closures will capture the value being declared, while without the rec they won't. (If the in z'' part is left out, they extend the global environment instead.)

I hope this helps, I can't really say more without knowing what the types and functions are in your code.

No.42639

Well in short I am trying to make a lexer with state machines, but I am beginning to think it might not be a terrible good idea to try and make a state machine in a funtional language.

No.42642

>>42639

You can easily do state machines in functional languages, that shouldn't be a problem.

No.42647

I'm in my second year of university and I'm less than 2 months away from my final exams for this year. I think I'm going to fail them, or at least do poorly.

I've been on tinder for the past ~6 months, liking every single person I come across and I'm not getting any "serious" matches (as in, I'll send a message and they won't reply).

I don't like my degree, and any "skill" I have in programming is quickly eclipsed by someone slightly better than me.

Don't know if I can "self improve" from here. I went for a run the other day, I guess.

No.42671

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>>42647

Don't give up! Two months is a lot of time, you can easily learn everything by then even if you don't know anything yet. You just need to consistently study. Check out these posters for some strategies for studying effectively: https://www.learningscientists.org/posters They work very well, especially "Retrieval Practice". If you have problems with actually doing them, I recommend trying those Pomodoro timers, where you work for 25 minutes, rest for 5, then repeat until you are done. They are much easier to do because it's just 25 minutes instead of doing a potentially endless task. Of course you can adjust the times if you want. This is also a good resource with some good tips on studying, I recommend watching it and taking notes: https://youtu.be/IlU-zDU6aQ0

Don't worry about programming that much, from what I've seen most students can barely program. If you are willing to spend some time practising it, you can easily become above average.

You can do it Anon, I believe in you!

No.42694

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Where do these numbers some from? I'm a former fat shit, I'm about 160 ibs right now and goin' for gains but I used to be around 280 or so. When I was a lard monster I was probably eating 2,500 or so calories per day. I had to adjust down to 1,500 to lose anything and am at 1,000 per day right now just to prevent gaining. Is my experience here just incredibly weird or are these numbers just wack?

No.42698

>>42694

>Is my experience here just incredibly weird or are these numbers just wack?

Youre probably just not keeping track of all of it. That stuff is hard to keep track off.

Also some foods are easier to store as fat than others, if your blood has a 50% soda percentage then your body will store it quickly, because sugar is damaging to your body. Youre better off eating stuff that takes time to break down. So off the top of my head, a few things you shouldn't eat because they are basically made of sugar:

>Pastries (croissants too)

>Candies

>Fruit juices (the fibre is what prevents fast digestion, fruit juice is just a glass full of sugar)

>Sodas

>Iced tea

And keep in mind that your general activity also plays into it. If your daily routine involves sitting in a chair all day, because of your job or general shit life, you won't burn that much. Compare that to a mailman or even a shop worker, who is moving around all day tossing and lifting shit, they will burn a lot more.

No.42702

>>42698

>Youre probably just not keeping track of all of it. That stuff is hard to keep track off.

I only eat one meal a day, it's pretty easy to keep track of anymore.

For instance, today: Milk, 100 calories. 2 eggs, 180 calories. Slice of cheese, 90 calories. Pack of vegetables, 90 calories. Sauce, 100 calories. Protein powder, 210 calories. Tofu, 160 calories.

>All that nasty shit

I don't eat any of that.

I'm pretty fit already but I'm just surprised I have to eat so little compared to everyone else, if those standard numbers are real.

No.42706

>>42694

>Where do these numbers some from?

Average including height and weight. Some people have special circumstances and need special diets even adjusted for height, weight, and activity level. I went from 275 to around 180 currently (but I need to cut) eating around 2k to 1.7k good calories a day and getting a lot of exercise, but I'm lucky enough to be a hybrid mesomorph/endomorph who can shed pounds easily enough with (normal) diet and exercise. You're probably just weird and might want to check with a doctor if you're able to because 1k is very little.

No.42707

>>42706

Huh, when I lived with my parents they didn't think much of it so I guess I didn't either. 1k is pretty normal for me, on days I don't have time to work out I only eat about 400-600.

No.42708

>>42707

>Huh, when I lived with my parents they didn't think much of it so I guess I didn't either. 1k is pretty normal for me, on days I don't have time to work out I only eat about 400-600.

Yea im sorry bro but unless you are midget size, I am going to have to say you way off track with tracking your intake.

No.42709

>>42708

5 foot 11

On days I don't work out, I.E days I go to uni, I eat 2 eggs, 1 slice of cheese, and a glass of milk with an apple. I eat nothing else on those days. I understand the incredulity but, in order to lose the weight I did, I got very anal about measuring my intakes.

No.42710

>>42707

Well a normal person(around average height and healthy weight) getting a decent amount of exercise would be taking in about 2-2.5k to maintain, so that sounds like there's something wrong with you. It's not exact, but 1k to maintain 160 at 5'11" sounds like a huge outlier. I'd get yourself checked out if you're able, because there might be something wrong with you fam.

No.42712

>>42709

I feel pretty OK and look normal but I'll consider it if I ever have any money laying around.

No.42715

>>42709

5 foot 11 what? Use proper metrics not this American insanity.

No.42716

>>42715

1.8 meters, I think.

No.42717

>>42715

You can find a conversion easily enough with a search, stop being a massive faggot.

No.42719

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>>42717

>We have to adjust to the deviants

No.42720

>>42717

You could just easily use a human readable format instead of being a massive faggot.

No.42723

>>42720

>I, the one too autistic to spend two seconds on Google and angrily derails a thread to scream about numerical formats I don't like, am the normal one, everyone else must change to conform to my standards

No.42725

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>>39623

So I tried going out this week to an alumni speech/social event at the school pub, I went in saying to myself to just talk to people and be social, I was even confident about it. But once I got there I found myself unable to speak above a whisper, the few people who I talked to spoke to me first and they had to ask me to repeat myself due to how quiet I was. I spent most of the event eating a muffin in the corner. I find this a regular problem: I go out thinking it's going to be different, that all I gotta do is talk, but once I get there I always feel enveloped by this odd pressure that I'm going to speak out of turn or miss some sort of social cue. The best way I can describe the feeling is it's like that butterfly feeling you get right before a big test or important event. I just can't even seem to break out. I feel if I got past the first barrier it'll get a lot easier, it's just getting over this first hurdle.

No.42727

>>42578

/tg/ and /quest/ mostly

No.42736

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feeling down today lads but I must check-in

still banned at /leftypol/ can someone advertise in /leftytrash/

>Spend a maximum of 15 hours of free time a week online; no more than 5 hours should be on image boards or social media

Doing good on this

Hit this target again this week

>Eliminate all junk food from my diet and drink half a litre of water a day

First week where I've eliminated all junk from my diet. The cravings are strong

>Go from a BMI of 29 to 25-26 and build noticeable muscle

My weight has plateaued but I haven't weighed myself recently. I know I haven't gained weight recently and I've been hitting most of my workout days. No muscle yet tho

>Learn twenty new recipes

Nope

>Reread the manifesto, Capitalist Realism; read Capital, Cockshott, and two other major texts

I've been reading nothing but manga this week, but at least I'm working towards the bottom goal

>Finish my backlog of vidya, anime, and manga

Ibid.

>Write three essays

complete

No.42748

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No.42751

>>42725

I'm giving you advice even though you didn't ask for it, and it's gonna be long, so I can avoid working. I never worked on my social anxiety as an undergrad and it was a mistake. I have mild social anxiety, but it was much worse even a few months ago. I pretty much had to bootstrap my way into not being paralyzed around people in that time. I'll give you some advice that helped me, and a platitude.

Before that, cut out the "if I got past the first barrier bullshit." You went out to an event yourself. That was the first barrier. Try to set an easily achievable goal for each event you go to in the future, and give yourself credit for accomplishing the goal. If you don't initiate conversations at the next social event you go to, but you speak confidently, that's a win, even if you say something awkward or break some social norm. If you mumble but you start even one conversation, that's a win, even if you sneeze on someone or your fly is open. If you go out, and you speak to nobody, at least you went out. There's a chance that you'll never magically "break out," but I guarantee you can make steady progress.

Also this whole issue of feeling confident until you get in the middle of shit is entirely normal. Don't whip yourself over it.

Now for my platitude. You have to fake it until you make it. I'll split that down into two more useful parts but that's really all my advice is.

First, you have to recognize your flaws. You know that you don't initiate conversations and you speak quietly, so you have this step down. It helps to break down anything you want to fix into easy steps, but speaking loud and starting conversation is easy.

Second, you have to correct your flaw. That's all I've got. That's why this is basically fake it until you make it. I can give you specific advice for starting conversations and not speaking quietly, but I don't know how useful it will be.

The thing that really helped my social anxiety was thinking of socializing like acting. When I socialize with new people, I basically have a script in my head. I predict the questions that I'll be asked, and I prep questions for the people I want to talk to. Hopefully I can go off script and have a "real" conversation, but if it doesn't happen, that's fine. I picked this skill up networking, but it transfers over to normal social events. I'm also a filthy lawfag, and maybe "just be a fucking sociopath lmao" isn't good advice if you're not, idk..

I have to speak in front of people who at least think they're important. If I fuck up in front of them, people could lose money or worse. Even if I'm prepared sometimes my voice is quiet or shaky when I start speaking to them. It helps to over correct. Just like nervous speakers overestimate how slow they're talking, you'll probably underestimate how loud you are.

No.42756

>>42736

Guess I should check in too

>No more unhealthy foods (sugary stuff, excessive fat, excessive dairy)

Ate too much chocolate that I won for easter. The rest is 100% healthy, no sugarry stuff, no sweets, only a little bit of milk really rarely (like when i went to the gym)

>Only one hour of games a day

Havent really played games since i finished a hat in time

>No more fapping

Nope, but reduced it to once every 3 days or so

>Gym 3 times a week

Yup. Went yesterday and am cycling 24 km every weekday when there is no rain. Im actually getting an urge to work out.

>Drawing an hour a day

Nope

>Program an app that keeps track of things I need to do and shows a stack of things in order of urgency, so I never forget things and always have something to do if I am bored.

Nope, but I did waste 2 days trying to write a lexer

>Go out to some bar/place next week to meet new people, although I have no clue where or what yet.

Didn't went out this weekend to a bar, but did hang out with my friends. I really need to find some kind of place I can meet new people.

>Cycle to school every day if there is no rain, which is 20 km a day.

Yup.

No.42759

>>42751

I don't think I've posted goals in this thread, but I'll write up my current position and short term goals

<Now

>Most of my academic goals are achieved at the expense of my leftist theory goals

>Doing much less shitposting

>Only jacking off once or twice a week

>Doing explicitly social activities at least once a week

>Have managed to re-instert exercise into my schedule

<Next week

>No porn

>Get up at 7:45 every day, even Monday and Tuesday and go to the library

>Exercise at least twice more this week

>Finish 18th Brumairse

>Finish The Lathe of Heaven if I have time

>No more than 2 hours a day on 8chan on Friday/Saturday

>No more than 1 hour a day all other days

<General future goals

>Don't eat out except on weekends

>Stop buying dumb shit on Amazon for the love of fuck

No.42767

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>>42756

>Im actually getting an urge to work out.

well done anon

>>42759

you're gonna make it.

No.42769

>>42767

I think I feel another depression cycle coming up (or the last one didnt end yet). I have to do so much shit with so little time and I keep staying up until 1 am the past few days. I should lay off the computer again.

No.42776

File: 83c20790f52a19d⋯.png (150.34 KB, 320x385, 64:77, Abs08.png)

>>42769

Abso-fuckin-lutely

No.42777

Also lads I need to get me a way to get into fitness more. I am sorta training my legs for cycling (wanna maybe maybe do 1500km next summer) but also want to get buff and lose my extra weight.

Any diet plans, gym plans, etc welcome. I go to the gym 3 times a week, got access to lots of fancy equipment, cycle 24 km on the regular. Starting condition:

>187cm

>87kg

>BMI 24.9

>Chubby not muscular

No.42779

>>42777

Oh right I benchpressen 35kg and squat 40. I used to do more with squatting but I'm working on my technique and going deeper. Benchpress is hard to make significant gains on tbh, but I have no clue how fast you should progress. I do both 5x5

No.42785

>>42777

>>42779

Do starting strength or an intermediate routine if you feel you can. 35 kg bench and 40 kg squat isn't much even if you include the barbell (20 kg afaik). The most important thing besides diet is to lift for strength building, which means doing sets of one to five (with corresponding weight) and giving yourself a good three minutes of rest before each set. I hate recommending machines, but if you don't have a partner to spot you start on machine or preferably dumbbells so if you fuck up you won't get hurt as bad. Your weight and height is ok 175 cm fag here and you should wait until you've packed on maybe 5 kg or so before cutting.

No.42786

>>42785

*exclude the barbell

No.42812

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Remember lads even if you hate me , this friday is special , hope some of you join in for the fasting.

Remember one meal that does not contain meat and two collations , small meals that together don't equal the large meal .

No.42814

>>42812

There is no virtue in suffering FAGGOT

No.42826

Is Leftism at a conflict with Marxism? To abolish Capitalism and class society is in the interests of the working class, and yet instead of promoting this, Leftism concerns itself with enshrining minorities, homosexuals, etc for how oppressed they are under the system.

No.42828

>>42826

>Leftism concerns itself with enshrining minorities, homosexuals, etc for how oppressed they are under the system.

It is only in conflict with socialist thought if you scrub class relations and the material basis from any analysis of this oppression.

You see left-liberals do this a lot, leading them to the false conclusion that remedying the problem of oppressed minorities only requires changing the people at the top. A marxist would be more interested in drawing connections between people within the working class, showing them that they have a common interest in their class struggle against the bourgeoisie, instead of fixating and, yes, trying to preserve the differences between proles who are "minorities"

>>42812

what did you give up for lent?

No.42829

>>42812

also: Is fish meat?

No.42830

>>42812

if I'm too poor and lazy to eat does it count as fasting?

No.42904

>>42829

Meat is flesh from animals with a spinal column so yes, fish is meat

No.42909

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>>42829

Technically yes, altough the diferrence between fish meat and terrestrial meat is sufficient to earn a distinction between fish and ther meats in the common language.

No.42917

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>>42814

Is fasting suffering ?

>>42828

Well it is quite easy to practise abstinence ( masturbation included ) for me , I am also going to the national defence day tomorrow so I can have the rest of the day to go to the church .

>>42829

Nope , you are free to eat it just like any crustacean , this is the interpretation the catholic church gives us .

Other than that yeah I believe fish is meat

>>42830

Well would you voluntarly fast even if you had it ?

No.42941

>>42917

no, why would I? I'd only recommend rubbish like fasting for people who need to make special effort to feel in control of their own lives and urges, I'm generally fine on that front.

No.42943

>>42917

Oh is this fasting some bullshit religious thing?

No.42944

Someone on leftypol told me I shouldnt look for self improvement because if I blame myself for my own faults I am making excuses for capitalism which is the reason for everything bad in the world.

No.42945

Existing is suffering. Today is yet another day in my short meaningless life that I spend unappy, depressed and which I am never getting back.

No.42946

>>42917

Then yeah it needs to be voluntary

>>42943

If you want to call it that , it comes from the tradition over lent , it is called " Good Friday" the day of the week when Christ was crucified .

No.42949

I always found good Friday to be a weirdnname for the day someone's religious holy figure was killed.

Anyway I didn't know about stupid shit like fasting or whatever the fuck lent might be because I was raised protestant.

No.42954

>>42949

"A common folk etymology incorrectly claims "Good Friday" is a corruption of "God Friday". The term in fact comes from the now obsolete sense pious, holy of the word "good"

Ah I see , probably from the US ?

No.42970

>>42954

No. Dutch. The word for good Friday is the same as I'm English. Goede vrijdag.

No.42973

>>42970

Oh I see , probably they are correct with the explanation presented previously .

No.42994

>>42943

We CathBol Gang now

>>42944

This thread really should have been called /mutualaid/, since many of us explicitly seek to make the improvement of the self a more collective project by encouraging anons here to involve others in their efforts

No.43039

So instead of doing nofap, I've been doing noporn and I feel like I've gotten more out of the latter. Still have a good sex drive and energy despite masturbating

No.43068

>>41953

>I don't think its possible to to not move in your sleep at all , atleast for me

it is good to move as you sleep as your body relaxes and stretches out

No.43091

>>43039

I'm gonna try that too, but I feel like its not really going to be that usefull, with my near-perfect recollection of all the porn i watched on the regular.

>Good sex drive

If only I could use it for anything else than jacking off.

No.43107

>>42944

Well your first mistake is continuing to go there. That's an incredibly stupid justification, communism will not be a utopia and there are some things you have to rely on yourself to improve no matter the conditions you find yourself in. Barring some space fantasy bullshit, we're gonna have to keep fit and learn shit even after we abolish capitalism.

>>42994

>This thread really should have been called /mutualaid/, since many of us explicitly seek to make the improvement of the self a more collective project by encouraging anons here to involve others in their efforts

Not really, because mutual aid has a very broad meaning and I specifically wanted to focus on shit anons can do by themselves and for themselves because I know a lot of guys here work ungodly hours and ave few or no friends. If I called it /mutualaid/ people might have thought this was a Kroptokin fan club or something, which I would like but wasn't really what I set out to do.

>>43039

There's no real benefit for not blowing a load longer than a week, if you're looking to boost your testosterone. The benefit is relatively minor anyways and will end up causing more frustration than anything, assuming you've got a normal or active sex drive and don't have a gf who is willing to fuck all the time. I think dropping porn is good for some guys because they train themselves on porn and can't perform otherwise, this more than ejaculation fucks up sex drive because looking at porn has become your stimulus and you no longer respond to what would normally get you going.

No.43323

>>43107

> people might have thought this was a Kroptokin fan club

It should be.

No.43792

any of you lads have tips on autodidactically learning a language?

No.43811

>>43792

Watch tons of movies in that language.

No.43827

I've got a girlfriend guys! Couldn't have done it without the support of all of you

No.43829

>>43827

DAWWWWwww!!! You're welcome. ;) Now go gett'er, champ!

No.43833

>>43827

Where did you meet her?

>TFW still no gf because I never meet new people

No.43835

>>43792

Listen to music in the language. This should work even better if the language is tonal.

No.43838

>>43833

It's someone I used to know in highschool. Decided to get back in touch, and we hit it off pretty quickly.

No.43840

>>43838

No.43841

>>43792

Repeat after me: Calypso… Calypso could… Calypso could not…

No.43844

>>43840

Yep, you called it.

No.43897

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I'm suffering…………

My life is in shambles…………

No.43898

>>43897

now you can start to rebuild it on a more solid foundation

No.43899

File: a63ec2962d3e5fe⋯.jpg (107.23 KB, 1280x720, 16:9, [Asenshi] Little Witch Aca….jpg)

>>43898

My studies are failing and I am too old to start new study……………

Always hungry, no money, no direction in life……………

No.43902

File: 12e76f3ee934624⋯.png (507.21 KB, 568x542, 284:271, konosuba01.png)

No.43904

>>43899

What study do you do?

I dont have a direction in life either, other than a vague want to learn more CS so I can do socialist cybernetics.

No.43905

File: 2a7dc935011c9ce⋯.jpg (72.78 KB, 1280x720, 16:9, [Asenshi] Little Witch Aca….jpg)

>>43904

I study CS but haven't attended since 4th semester……………………………

No.43907

>>43905

What semester are you in right now?

>TFW have 5 courses instead of the normal 2

>TFW havent gone any classes this quarter

>TFW have to start pulling 9-5's almost every day to catch up

We can do this together, comrade!

What subjects are you struggling with?

No.43908

File: 10a40ff8c987928⋯.jpg (86.19 KB, 1280x720, 16:9, [Asenshi] Little Witch Aca….jpg)

>>43907

Is in fourth semester, didn't even attend exams for third semester, but finished prerequisites……….

Not so much struggle with subjects, just mostly uninterest in anything………………

No.43909

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>>43905

>>43899

Don't give up Ceras! If you need help, just say. I could give you a few study tips and maybe even help with the courses if it's something I also studied.

No.43911

>>43907

What does a single course entail for you? We usually had 7-9 courses per semester, only having 2 courses seems to be really off…

No.43913

>>43908

Well, you, me and pretty much anybody attending CS.

If your study is anything like mine, its mindnumbingly boring and you hardly learn anything.

It really does help if you go to school every day, even if you have no classes, and go to every class. The routine helps you do work.

Just pick a subject and power through it for a whole day, makes sure its done so that you dont have to look at it anymore.

No.43914

>>43911

Well my workload at the moment is:

>One lecture a week about data science

>Writing a report in english and giving a presentation

>A half year long project about realising a product

This is the normal courses, which would be the normal workload if i hadnt fucked up last year. Additional shit I have to do:

>One lecture a week about security

>One lecture a week about statistics

>One lecture a week about linear optimisation

No.43920

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>>43909

>>43913

Going to go meeting with student advisor tomorrow…………….

Hate studying so much……..

Just going to get a lame job anyway……………………

No.43923

>>43914

You would only have two lectures (both two hour long I suppose?) and that's all? No laboratories, no recitations? I always wondered about this since I read a book about how to study properly and it had an example of a typical day of an American student and he had two lectures a day and that's it, meanwhile I had to attend classes from 8 to 16 (sometimes 18) regularly. Which country is this if you don't mind asking?

No.43925

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>>43920

That's good, I hope you can figure out something together!

No.43928

>>43923

>You would only have two lectures (both two hour long I suppose?)

Both 2-4 hours long, yes.

>No laboratories

Nope, self-study

>no recitations?

What's the point of this? Don't you already do the test at the end of the period?

>8 to 16

Lol dude hate your life, that reminds me of middle/highschool. I am doing the same hours though, for self study. But sitting and having to actively listen to some teacher for 8 hours straight is fucking torture which you don't learn shit from. You learn shit by doing it after having it explained to you, not by listening to teachers for hours on end.

Being able to hit the gym halfway through the day is way better than having mandated hours of listing.

>Which country is this if you don't mind asking?

The netherlands.

Not I would have you know that I used to have more classes in the previous years, and that my school isn't known to be, eh…, good.

No.43933

>>43928

How much credit are your courses worth?

No.43936

>>43933

The one lecture a week ones are 4 points.

No.43937

>>43936

Don't you need 30 credits per semester, though?

No.43939

>>43937

I do. 4 periods per year.

8 points from lectures this period

8 points next period

6 points from project this period

6 points from project next period

3 points from skills lessons for the whole year

1 point from "career"

25 points from internship

3 points from literature study

A total of 60 for the whole year

No.43940

File: ad1d10da82ea987⋯.jpg (30.13 KB, 871x462, 871:462, 1456009724214.jpg)

>>43939

>25 points from internship

What the fuck, we had to do internships but they were worth zero credits.

No.43943

>>43940

Wut

Why?

If there is anything you learn anything from, it is that. Fuck knows I dont learn shit in school.

No.43945

>>43943

That's because your school is shit.

No.43948

>>43945

Fair point.

>Trying to write a parser generator in F#

>Keep struggling against the type system

I think I might have my parser generator finished in a week of my free time or so.

No.43950

>>43945

I want to get a masters degree after this in CS (not software engineering, done with that shit). Any advice?

No.43952

File: 033b1c2c97028f0⋯.pdf (12.85 MB, Matthias Felleisen, Daniel….pdf)

>>43948

>Keep struggling against the type system

You are doing it wrong, types are supposed to help you. Read this, it's a lot shorter than it seems and will hopefully make types seem friendlier. It uses SML but it should be pretty straightforward to modify the code for F#. It uses a question-answer format so you should actually think about the answers before reading them.

>>43950

What kind of advice? I did computer engineering, not CS, and my masters wasn't that different from BSc I just had less regular coursework and a lot more "research type" independent work. I could give tips for the latter but other than that there's not much to say.

No.43972

>>43950

>I want to get a masters degree after this in CS (not software engineering, done with that shit).

Why didn't you like SE? What's more appealing about CS for you?

No.44123

>>43972

I want to learn more than just uml and scrum. I would like to learn some kind of mathematics about programs, because we don't get any mathematics. Even statistics is just "remember there commands"

No.44403

>>44123

UML is pretty cool once you stop being anal about strictly following the standard though

No.44496

File: 9c63f237b9e2d2d⋯.png (529.83 KB, 960x960, 1:1, DMR1XePWsAYV39T.png)

Well, okay, here goes:

I got a lot of shit to shovel. I'm a 1st world NEET, I'm completely alienated, there's no real outlet or counseling for me. I'm gonna eventually get a freeter job soon (I've put that off for a year now), I was really hoping to devote myself to personal study but I instead gave into the constant rewards & validation from instant messaging. I still have an over abundance of free time for awhile longer. I'm unable to fully embrace outside life, so it's still just bed to desk. A lot just sorta went wrong from early on, but I digress. My main problem is I need to learn math (GED level, yes, I'm below grade school level) and also pickup an easy at-home trade: I keep saying I'm going to write a book, learn a second language, or learn a coding language. Also, I only know basic theory from conversations.

END ME

No.44524

>>44496

>Also, I only know basic theory from conversations.

I can maybe help with that.

>>37700

the current book is quite long and challenging but check out the archive link for the first thread on Wage, Labour & Capital. Some anon also posted their reading notes on that thread, they might help you while reading.

No.44576

>>44496

Uninstall discord and whatever instant messaging programs you have, uninstall all games, install leech block, block twitter, Facebook, youtube, Instagram, reddit and any chan you are on. Remove all games from your phone too. Turn sound and vibration notification from whatsapp off, or at least do it for any group chat you are in. If you want to do really well, do not turn on your pc at all. Put your phone on a charger out of reach, if people need you they can text or call you.

Set goals for yourself to train self dicipline and control, to make you feel in control. This cans be things like

>no more sweets or sodas

>not fapping for a week

Don't choose goals that require an active action, choose goals that require constant resistance against habits. You will notice that to resist these habits, you need to distract yourself. And because you cu off all useless distractions, the only options are to read, learn, make art or work out, things that are good for you as a person.

Try this and report back no more than once a day. Once a day, just boot up the pc, go straight to this thread, report and reply, then turn the pc off again. No checking other threads, no "just gonna see if there is new replies" or "just one youtube video".

Good luck.

No.44577

>>44576

Oh right, as for the "work from home", that is going to be really hard.

There is something psychological about this, you associate places and things with activities. Your home, and especially your room, are associated with distractions and games, with not doing work. If you try to work there, you subconsciously go to the other associations.

As a best advice I would tell you to go to a different place to learn and work. Don't try to work from home, go to a library or some other public place associated with learning or working. You will be less likely to get distracted and you limit the types of distractions you have access to. This has the addes benwfit of getting yoy out of the house, and a change of scenery ia healtho and will make you mentally feel better. If there is anything that makes you feel like shit, it is staying within the same 20 meters a whoke day. If this really is not an option (because you live on the moon or something), get a laptop to exclusively use for work. Go sit in a different room from your bedroom or relax room, it will reduce association with bad habits. Do not put any games on the laptop or use it for distractions, it will ruin the entire point of it.

Also, if you have the money and time, and would like a clean break for a while, pack your bags, do not pack any electronics, get an old Nokia to put your sim card in, pack some books, paper and pens, and go camping for a week or more. You will be outside, away from all the shit that is fucking you up and can do a mental reset. You will feel absolutely amazing.

No.44762

>>44577

>>44576

these are both good pieces of advice and they help (when I follow them, naturally)

No.44882

You're all gonna make it, but check out >>37700 and get read as well as fit.

No.45105

File: bbaed5699fc6508⋯.jpg (72.82 KB, 1280x720, 16:9, sad renge.jpg)

I think my parser generator works.

But I have created left recursion.

I'm going to need to write an algorithm to eliminate left recursion.

If anyone has any experience and wants to waste their time giving me pointers, this is my AST

type MatchingRule=    | SingleChar of char    | OR of MatchingRule * MatchingRule //exclusive OR (XOR)    | Not of MatchingRule * MatchingRule //do_match * dont_match    | Multiple of MatchingRule list    | Repeat of MatchingRule    | Block of MatchingRule    | Reference of string //calls a saved MatchingRule to parse the text further    | AnyChar //wildcard for any character

Should be pretty standard as far as AST's go me thinks.

No.45106

>>45105

Oh right, just so you remember, this is shitty school anon, I cant read any of those fancy greek maths symbols they use online.

No.45114

>>45105

What are you trying to do? You get a grammar and want a function that transforms it so that it no longer contains left-recursive rules?

No.45140

File: a06adf46bfcc984⋯.png (163.25 KB, 544x819, 544:819, Cake03.png)

Treading water this week. No backtracking but no real progress

>Spend a maximum of 15 hours of free time a week online; no more than 5 hours should be on image boards or social media

Watched a bit more youtube than last week but otherwise I'm still working on curbing my use

Didn't do this this week

>Eliminate all junk food from my diet and drink half a litre of water a day

A few snacks here and there but nothing like I used to eat

>Go from a BMI of 29 to 25-26 and build noticeable muscle

Going to weigh myself tomorrow, I think I've been eating too much pasta.

>Learn twenty new recipes

Nope

>Reread the manifesto, Capitalist Realism; read Capital, Cockshott, and two other major texts

>Finish my backlog of vidya, anime, and manga

Ibid.

Not repeating completed goals anymore

No.45141

File: b8da51acfeab49d⋯.jpg (62.47 KB, 403x501, 403:501, Hibiki21.jpg)

>>44576

>Uninstall discord and whatever instant messaging programs you have, uninstall all games, install leech block, block twitter, Facebook, youtube, Instagram, reddit and any chan you are on. Remove all games from your phone too. Turn sound and vibration notification from whatsapp off, or at least do it for any group chat you are in. If you want to do really well, do not turn on your pc at all. Put your phone on a charger out of reach, if people need you they can text or call you.

I'm going to do this to force myself to meet my internet goal. Sick of putting off my other goals so I can grapple with internet usage

No.45147

File: 2dc0c858375309b⋯.png (25.09 KB, 683x427, 683:427, ClipboardImage.png)

Finally quit my job, going back to freelance.

There my new planning

Goals :

<going back in shape losing about 15kg.

<resume my academic work and some side project.

<Re-organize side projects and publish them

<Try to finish writing a small novel

<Finish up reading the books that i orders.

<Resume learning electronics

<Resume learning some fucking Japanese

<Writing scripts for personal uses that will simplify my productivity

<Try out Big Query for sample data about products diversity + consummation by population per region

No.45149

File: f73efdb91cb8b36⋯.png (29.5 KB, 200x250, 4:5, Abs06.png)

>>45147

You're gonna make it anon.

No.45209

No.45266

I wonder what happened to Ceras.

No.45303

File: 46d363552e15f50⋯.png (140.04 KB, 480x480, 1:1, ClipboardImage.png)

>>42725

alright so weekly update

Socializing Instances: Family only, Easter get-together, only person I talked to was my cousin who's my age. It kind of stung when he unveiled he got a coop in Germany and everyone was impressed, still jelly.

Socializing progress: was able to talk about basic things, but only stuff that interested me. Somehow able to come out of my shell when arguing with Grandma that privatizing Hydro is bad.

Current stance Social progress: still nonexistent, family is a heck of a lot easier than strangers, still can barely manage a squeak when talking even to a cashier at 7/11 this week.

Future plans: try and look for clubs that interest me, gonna be hard since the semester is almost over and exams next week. (suggestions?)

Fun Facts: I'm 75% sure my family thinks I'm gay because of stuff I've said/done over the years without realizing how gay that is. Doesn't help that I have an effeminate build. Or that I keep my GF a secret.

dunno what to do now, not much progress overall and I don't know what the next bar to reach for is.

No.45305

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>>45303

>Fun Facts: I'm 75% sure my family thinks I'm gay because of stuff I've said/done over the years without realizing how gay that is. Doesn't help that I have an effeminate build. Or that I keep my GF a secret.

>This antisocial sperg who cant even speak to strangers has a gf

>I don't

No.45320

>>45305

Maybe it's a daki?

No.45333

>>45320

no she's just another anti-social shut-in I met at therapy who tried to kill herself. More best friends than anything but we fucked so um.

>>45305

it's not as exciting as it sounds. Sex isn't good and whoever says that has never had sex. Also the relationship varies. Mine just means we say incredibly offensive stuff to each other and giggle.

No.45568

Didn't report in Sunday, keeping fit, no cheat meals, and currently rewriting my script for what I hope is the final time. Pretty sure I can shoot it without using too much resources, but I'm going to continue to autodidact shooting so it can be shot quickly.

>>45305

Getting a gf is hard fam, finding someone you like spending time with is difficult. Just fuck thots using Tinder or something to get your dick wet so you don't fuck up your first time when you do meet a girl you like and who likes you.

No.45644

>>45568

>Just fuck thots using Tinder or something

Helping the less-advanced posters in this thread will go a lot easier once we acknowledge that 'fucking thots on Tinder' is a skill that not everybody has by default. There are a lot of component steps that, if you learned/did them early, aren't easily identifiable as component steps. For example, to bag a single Tinder thot at the minimum you would need: 1) At least one decent/normal photo of yourself, 2) Basic knowledge of modern texting etiquette, 3) The ability not to freak out at the thought of having sex with somebody. Lots of people had completed those steps by the time they were out of high school, and most of the remainder had completed them by the time they graduated higher education. However, we're dealing with people who regularly post on one of the tiniest, nichest, deadest, gayest, anime-est imageboards on the internet. Expectations of social competence are entirely unwarranted when it comes to people to post anime without shame.

No.45653

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>>45644

>8chan

Seriously though, on average after how many tinder convos should you have managed to settle a hookup? I feel like I can check out all 3 of those points but I've only ever had one tinder date which hasn't led to sex (so far at least, we're still texting). Most convos eventually go nowhere even when they're fun. I'm 90% sure people who claim they can get thots through tinder whenever they want are almost always lying.

>>45333

>Sex isn't good and whoever says that has never had sex.

That's exagerrating it but yeah; sex is overrated. still sexually frustrated

No.45659

>>45653

also follow up question, are you guys sometimes explicit about wanting to have sex when talking to girls on tinder? What's the best way to estimate if a girl is down to fuck in the first place or if she's just looking for attention?

Kind of pissed because one or two weeks ago the most frustrating thing happened:

>text tinder girl

>get her number after like 3 messages

>smooth convo, she wants to meet up

>she says she doesn't have a dorm yet (we're students)

>say that she can stay over at my place (""""on a spare mattress"""")

>she agrees

>text her on day of the date

>says she's sick and forgot about it, apologizes

>I see then she has unmatched me on tinder

>text her anyway 2 days later to ask if she's feeling alright

I can't think of 1 psychological explanation for this behavior except maybe wanting attention. I've had similar shit happen to me on tinder. How the fuck can you avoid this? Do you need to be autistically explicit?

No.45667

>>45644

1) start working out 2) No idea how to teach, really have to play it by ear and not be an asshole 3)Get a hooker to pop their cherry or stop being a pussy. Sex isn't that big of a deal and according to female friends most dudes are shit at it anyways.

>>45653

>Seriously though, on average after how many tinder convos should you have managed to settle a hookup?

I talked to a girl for 2 weeks before fucking her, but for me I can usually get with them within three days if they're interested. Of course most conversations don't end in meeting, but I've got a big enough pool of women around due to living in a major city to not worry about it. Ultimately it relies on the girl actually being interested in you and having time, the former which relies on you having good pics and not being a massive faggot and the latter being out of your control.

>>45659

>are you guys sometimes explicit about wanting to have sex when talking to girls on tinder?

Yeah, especially if they're forward about it. It's good to be clear about what you're looking for, like I'll say I don't want a gf but am just looking to have fun. It doesn't always end in sex, but one time I went drinking with some girl and then we ended up smoking weed and watching movies and that was pretty cool.

>What's the best way to estimate if a girl is down to fuck in the first place or if she's just looking for attention?

If she asks to see dick or says she wants to fuck. Obvious shit aside, it's really hard to tell just from messages but if she's interested she'll usually want to meet, a lot of times this ends in sex because it's tinder and they know what they're looking for.

>How the fuck can you avoid this?

You can't. It doesn't matter how good you look or anything else, you will sometimes get strung along. Just move on and forget about the bitch.

No.45674

>>45667

Examples of good pictures? Going to the gym doesnt create pictures, it just makes me more healthy.

No.45680

>>45644

My parents fucked me up by instilling 1900's quasi-religious views about sex into me while we live in a country where these kinds of morals do not exist anymore, all the while encouraging my destructive behaviour of not going out and being a shutin. It doesn't help that my is a control freak who can't keep anything secret and doesn't know what boundaries are, and my dad is an emotional dead sack, so I can't share anything or ask them for any real advice.

If I ever have a kid of my own I am going to raise them to not be a miserable sack of shit like I was raised to be. I just hope to god they won't be as semi-autistic and retarded as I acted when I was a kid. It's no wonder people didn't like me.

No.45738

>>45674

Getting in shape helps because you generally look better, but there's many more reasons to keep fit than looking better for a dating app. Basic shit is to take shots of yourself only, avoid wearing hats or glasses, and avoid making it look like a selfie. What looks flattering varies from person to person, but keep what you have going for you and use angles that capitalize on it, like fit dudes making sure to highlight their build or prettyboys showcasing eyes and face. You'll see a lot of models used as an example looking away from the camera with an expressionless look, if you can pull that off it's great but most of us don't have the time/skill to take a picture that looks good or resources to pay for someone to, so simply smiling at the camera will work for most guys. Lastly pets help a lot, if you have a dog or a cat fit a pic with you and the critter in there somewhere.

No.45739

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Things aren't going very well for me. Working for my shitty boss is hard and… Ah fuck it I can't be bothered to type it out. I just can't do this for much longer. I hate my life.

No.45905

Yup. Still want to kill myself.

Give me reasons why I should go on at all. The only reason I haven't ended it yet is because it would make my family sad.

No.45906

>>45905

To make porky pay for his crimes of course.

No.45909

>>45906

I don't have any tool with which I can do anything. No weapons, no bombs, no materials to do anything. I cannot change society, I am entirely powerless in a world that doesn't want me in it, that has consistently told me I am failed, worthless sack of shit, who will never have anyone who cares about him other than out of obligation. I will have to spend my life working a job making useless stuff to make the rich richer, while not giving myself any energy to do fullfilling things. And even if there was time, I do not have anything that fullfills me. Games give me no enjoyment anymore, nor does media. Programming doesnt give me fullfillment, drawing doesn't either. Even going out and being social doesnt do anything but make me feel somewhat neutral (not even happy) only for the duration of the going out, dropping me back down as soon as I leave.

Life is just going through the motions, a meaningless act of sadness, making nobody happy, being unwanted by everyone, only there to slave away 9 to 5 or more to make useless products to make the rich richer. I have no goal, I do not have any control over my destiny, and any alternative of running away from all this will just be even more misarable than the life path I am on now, because without a degree I would have to spend long days doing even more intensive manual labour for barely or unlivable wages. I do not understand how the proles of the industrial revolution did not kill themselves off, them having to work 16 hour days and sleeping hung over ropes, constantly in hunger.

No.45924

>>45909

Il est un produit merveilleux expérimenté par la science

Et qui pour nous les miséreux fera naître l'indépendance

Tant mieux s'il éclate parfois en faisant beaucoup de victimes

Chez nos ennemis les bourgeois cela nous venge de leurs crimes

Prenez une marmite bourrée de dynamite

Quelque soit la saison en faisant explosion la nouvelle ira vite

Car pour inspirer la terreur il n'y a rien de meilleur que la dynamite

On guillotine Ravachol un copain qui avait de l'envergure

Aujourd'hui c'est un espagnol qu'on fusille pour son allure

Il su montrer à son tour qu'il était un homme invincible

En plus qu'il promettait qu'un jour la vengeance serait terrible

Vive la dynamite puisque l'on nous irrite

A chaque exécution nous mettrons en action notre arme favorite

Car pour semer la terreur il n'y a rien de meilleur que la dynamite

Vous pouvez dresser l'échafaud la potence et la guillotine

Nous nous avons ce qu'il nous faut pour vous faire sauter en sourdine

Si vous croyez qu'ça finira

Vous êtes loin de votre affaire

Pour un homme qu'on nous tueras nous en foutrons 500 par terre

Avec la dynamite nous répondrons de suite

Casernes et prisons sans flûte et sans violons danseront au plus vite

Car pour semer la terreur il n'y a rien de meilleur que la dynamite

No.45930

>>45924

quebecois et francais?

No.45935

>>45930

My brother went to Louisiana once

No.45940

>>45935

then why type in French? I just assumed the halting french was because you were a quebecois idiot

No.45950

No.45953

>>45940

QUEBECOIS TO THE ZOOS

No.45980

File: 7e7c123fc4bda6e⋯.jpg (Spoiler Image, 301.65 KB, 1600x2263, 1600:2263, 0d603e1ce5c2ad95e252650888….jpg)

What kind of routine do I need to follow to achieve this kind of summer body?

No.46024

>>45980

Plastic surgery.

No.46035

>>45980

Become 2D

No.46063

Is /leftpol/ into travelling?

I like to travel and see underappreciated places "off the beaten track"™, but I kinda feel like a dumb "wanderlust" libtard for doing this. Am I?

No.46100

File: 55ef37d9f16b87d⋯.png (283.52 KB, 764x659, 764:659, 2 real.png)

>>45909

congrats anon, you are DEAD now

dedicate your life to revolution or whatever the fuck, after all the DEAD have no wants or needs. if you think "this is bullshit I'm going to stop i feel bad" well that's ridiculous the DEAD don't think

might as well right, death is final and empty so literally anything is at the very least equivalent to it

>>46063

yes, very much so. the thing about the 'traveller of AUTHENTIC' tm is that the search of authenticity itself undermines the authenticity. authenticity itself is a commodity, as with the gentrification process.

but still, I travel as much as I can, also looking for 'real' experiences as much as I can. honestly by now it feels like I only live for that ~one month a year I get to travel, the rest is just existing though at least for the last year reality hasn't been that awful

I personally prefer cities to countryside or natural landscapes. I've seen just about all of Europe. 6 or so more countries to go.

No.46138

>>46063

I like travelling and finding things in forgotten places. My favourite thing to do in china was wander around in the mountains on the old paths with trees fallen over them, and no people on them, finding cool shit like gravesites, watertanks you could climb on (probably wasn't allowed) and a literal hoxha-esque bunker on the far end of a dead end, hard to reach path next to a sign telling me to not go any further cause it was a military area.

God knows I fucking did not like the fucking city. Every block was like the next, with people everywhere and the same shit to do as the next block over. I did like the one time I went to cycle around the whole island and I ended up in some kind of ghetto-like place where a nice train conductor helped me find a bus (the only person who spoke english in the entire ghetto, probably) because it was getting dark.

It's not that I hare "the beaten track", its that I like to find stuff on my own more. I don't like being taken somewhere on a bus, I would rather wander around for a while with only a rough idea where to go, changing plans if I see something cool.

No.46160

>>46035

How you do that

No.46196

Feel better today, had decent night rest. Still think maybe maybe maybe I have some form of bipolar disorder or something.

Is this a good workout scheme?

https://www.bodybuilding.com/content/the-ultimate-beginner-3-day-full-body-routine.html

No.46202

>>46196

No.46231

>>46202

Any suggestion that doesn't look like I have a mental disability?

No.46235

>>46231

Yeah, do some real sports instead of monotonously repeating the same movements like some autist.

No.46238

>>46235

Any suggestion for people who do not have any sports they even remotely enjoy?

No.46240

>>46196

No.46761

File: c7ddd1a1d3effbc⋯.png (29.6 KB, 746x826, 373:413, 7258df0479a559357ed48aa317….png)

Hay, so i have a problem with anxiety when it comes to talking to other leftists. this anxiety never pops up when talking to normal people about communism, in fact i'm much more spirited and passionate when talking about it with people who like to know more about it or debate me on my politics, competent voice,looking straight at people when talking and don't stutter much. Compare that with how i talk and feel around leftists,usually at stores or meetings, my voice becomes frail, feel unsteady like i may fall over and after the experience feel like crap, but feel a bit good that i'm talking to fellow leftys.

How do i get over this?

No.46776

>>46761

>How do i get over this?

I don't know, why do you dislike talking to other leftists? Do you dislike sectarian infighting, not knowing as much, or just dislike the people in organizations around where you live?

No.46789

>>46776

>I don't know, why do you dislike talking to other leftists?

I'm ok with talking with leftists. It's more the fear I might say the wrong word in the wrong crowd and have people see me in a negative light and get blacklisted.

I have had good talks with other leftists, they just seemed less ideologically charged and more willing to talk to others who had different ideologies then themselves.

No.46814

>>46789

Then why are you anxious? It sounds like you're doing fine.

No.46982

>>46761

>Talking to other leftists

>Even knowing other leftists IRL

Lucky

No.46990

File: 459a7c4e41e4130⋯.png (175.7 KB, 262x349, 262:349, kamisama59.png)

Not feeling it lately lads. I'm pleased that I'm getting the equivalent of a full-time job in this month's shift schedule but between work and life shit I'm fucking beat. I should be grateful that I can pay my rent and then some this month but I'm not making any progress anymore. I don't even really come here that much, I just watch anime, clean my body, talk with my parents every now and then and do household chores. I don't have the mental ability to give people advice and encouragement here like I used to and it feels bad man.

Sorry for being negative but I just felt like I had to vent

No.46991

File: e3fd5107e6a7ee1⋯.png (80.98 KB, 177x227, 177:227, kamisama60.png)

>>46990

Also I don't know if continuing to advertise the thread here is doing anything of value. If posting the reminder in both trash threads is helping anyone I'll try to remember but to be quite honest familia I'd feel better extracting myself from irony-poisoned social media twitter/facebook/4chan/something awful nonsense if there's no point in doing it anymore

No.46992

>>46990

>>46991

No.47001

>>46992

thanks

No.47006

File: 1bc29fe8ff601e7⋯.jpg (85.9 KB, 1280x720, 16:9, porfismorevolucion.jpg)

>>46990

Juggling a job and anything is hard, but as long as you do what you can you should be happy.

>>46991

At this point I think anons are here and working on whatever goals they have and advertisement doesn't do anything. I'm not sure this thread needs more traffic, but if we wanted it an initiative to create quality within the thread, like cooking tutorials or other shit related to skills would be best.

No.47076

File: 4e0d6acf4835f26⋯.jpg (68.08 KB, 600x399, 200:133, 1426363873552.jpg)

>>45739

Still wanna die. I think we should have a leftydepression thread or something for when you can't make the effort to improve anything and just dream about walking into traffic. I truly begin to understand the wisdom of 'you die if you work'. They don't even pay me what I'm owed, fucking cheats and liars. If I had a gun like in Americlap I'd blow them all away.

No.47096

File: 61effe9126453e7⋯.png (7.09 MB, 2000x3300, 20:33, 1518414058333.png)

There's something uniquely disgusting about the atmosphere of grocery stores.

Bitterness aside I hope you're all doing ok or are making strides to becoming a better person. Love you all

No.47185

how do i move past the guilt of things i've done in the past

No.47252

File: 3eb2e8e7f24a1e7⋯.jpg (1.69 MB, 3264x1836, 16:9, 20170723_065634.jpg)

>>46100

>the search of authenticity itself undermines the authenticity. authenticity itself is a commodity, as with the gentrification process.

true, also a more mundane problem is that the backpack culture associated with this search of authenticity is often obnoxious and/or cringy. I still think attempts at "authentic" travelling (in whatever form), such as couchsurfing which I've had good experiences with, are superior to merely crossing out bucketlist landmarks - I'm really done with that.

>I personally prefer cities to countryside or natural landscapes. I've seen just about all of Europe. 6 or so more countries to go.

Cool, for me it's mostly nature, mountains and villages but I like city life too. Did you have a favorite country? I'm thinking of travelling to Georgia/Armenia this summer, not sure yet.

>>46138

>It's not that I hare "the beaten track", its that I like to find stuff on my own more. I don't like being taken somewhere on a bus, I would rather wander around for a while with only a rough idea where to go, changing plans if I see something cool.

Yeah exactly, this is what I meant too.

>hoxha-esque bunker

You should also go to albania and see the original(tm) hoxha bunkers which are spread all over the country. Been there only like 3 days, but I loved it and want to see more of the country as soon as I can. (pic related)

>>46238

How about running? I have trouble getting into serious fitness because it's so tiring, but running is something you become better at quickly and it's often very satisfying. Seriously I've had days where I went from feeling down to feeling genuinely energetic after a run. If you think it's too boring but then how would you not find workouts equally boring just listen to some music while doing it, which is what I always do. I have to admit it won't give you a lot of sweet gainz though except possibly in the legs.

No.47254

File: 7b7215f3b7bdd87⋯.jpg (508.94 KB, 1280x800, 8:5, benjamin.jpg)

Have you read good books lately /leftpol/?

I'm reading One Way Street by Walter Benjamin (writing a part of my bachelor paper on him which memed me into reading his lesser-known works). Some of it is vague as fuck but other parts are beautiful. Favorite quotes so far:

>Opinions are, with respect to the monstrous apparatus of social life, the equivalent of oil for machines: One would not stand in front of a turbine and pour oil all over it. Instead only a little is applied to the hidden niches and joints whose locations must be known.

>The power of a country road when one is walking along it is different from the power it has when one is flying over it by airplane. In the same way, the power of a text when it is read is different from the power it has when it is copied out. The airplane passenger sees only how the road pushes through the landscape, how it unfolds according to the same laws as the terrain surrounding it. Only he who walks the road on foot learns the power it commands, and of how, from the very scenery that for the flier is only the unfurled plain, it calls forth distances, belvederes, clearings, prospects at each of its turns like a commander deploying soldiers at a front. Only the copied text thus commands the soul of him who is occupied with it, whereas the mere reader never discovers the new aspects of his inner self that are opened by the text, that road cut through the interior jungle forever closing behind it: because the reader follows the movement of his mind in the free flight of daydreaming, whereas the copier submits it to command.

>Written text, which had found in the book a safe refuge where it could lead an autonomous life, is inexorably dragged into the street by advertisements and subjugated to the brute heteronomy of economic chaos.

>Genuine polemics approach a book as lovingly as a cannibal spices a baby.

>Books and whores: they both have their type of men who feed on them and cower them. Books the critics.

The fact that the guy unironically combined marxism with Jewish messianism makes him lowkey the most memeable philosopher in history though.

No.47288

>>47254

>Have you read good books lately /leftpol/?

The reading thread is on What is Property and I'm currently going through Tiqqun and Invisible Committee.

No.47476

File: 39aeb95706cc5ca⋯.png (48.4 KB, 1024x1024, 1:1, e6238425902e668db06f510256….png)

Where are the progress reports?

No.47485

File: 2cda39b5af86646⋯.png (118.82 KB, 1598x928, 799:464, poke.png)

here my progress of the week for my Goals of the month

>going back in shape losing about 15kg.

didn't go out had to assist fixing the bathroom water was leaking.

>resume my academic work and some side project.

Vulkan is fun to learn.

>Re-organize side projects and publish them

Remaking a old game project of my in Godot 3.0, need to clean the code and reorganize some elements before publish it.

>Try to finish writing a small novel

i need to rewrite the prologue is shit.

>Finish up reading the books that i orders.

Started with "Le cri de du peuple" a french comics about Paris commune.

>Resume learning electronics

need to make a panel for all my switches

>Resume learning some fucking Japanese

resuming learning katakana

>Writing scripts for personal uses that will simplify my productivity

need to remake yet again my i3config before using it

>Try out Big Query for sample data about products diversity + consummation by population per region

3To of data ain't paying for this shit

No.47582

>>47476

>No more unhealthy foods (sugary stuff, excessive fat, excessive dairy)

Did eat some, but not a whole lot

>Only one hour of games a day

I finished A hat in time a while back so I have no urge to game

>No more fapping

Jacked off once or twice a day over the past week

>Gym 3 times a week

Too busy atm, do have a new fitness plan which I plan to follow

>Drawing an hour a day

Nope

>Program an app that keeps track of things I need to do and shows a stack of things in order of urgency, so I never forget things and always have something to do if I am bored.

Dropping that one

>Go out to some bar/place next week to meet new people, although I have no clue where or what yet.

So old goal, did not really go out a lot, did went out with my class two times since then, but alas, no girls because programming class.

>Cycle to school every day if there is no rain, which is 20 km a day.

I try to when there is no rain (and when I dont have to be super presentable)

No.47658

File: c23226a43ae1f56⋯.gif (1.26 MB, 1275x916, 1275:916, 1__PxWaV3GzXo_PpLLV1608g.gif)

>>45303

not much going on for this week. Just studying for exams. Went home for a few days to study away from my vaping roommates. Haven't gone outside in 3 days. Uh ya that's about it.

Ok wait just thought of something, I made a deal with my mom that if I do well on my exams she might consider giving me the money to get this thing I've been saving up forit's a fursuit, so you know that's some progress since I've always seen this as something I'd always put off till the day I die. That's something.

Hooray, overcoming basic procrastination for life materialistic object.

No.47659

>>47658

>fursuit

Yugofag, no.

No.47660

File: 40b95a771647b8d⋯.jpg (22.03 KB, 296x190, 148:95, 1424030797004-0.jpg)

>>47658

I personally see a fursuit as something to buy, someday, when I finally get in shape. So that's my reward for if I ever make any physical effort.

>>47476

No.47665

>>47476

Fitness is good, screenplay is good, and I've been working on some new recipes but it's gotten really cold for some reason and grilling outside is delayed so I can't try them out. I have started using freekah as a protein rich grain and it tastes pretty good with chicken.

No.48302

File: 6172baa1230bdec⋯.jpg (780.85 KB, 1584x1750, 792:875, 9b691bf884c436543681d76209….jpg)

I'm so fucking stupid it's hopeless. No matter how much I read, I can't seem to understand anything. If I make an effort I can repeat things like I memorized them, but I couldn't answer the simplest question about it even if my life depended on it.

Maybe it's time to give up for me.

No.48313

>>48302

No.48321

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>>48302

I never read and I'm still here, chin up fam. I really think people overestimate how much theory you need to know to be a good socialist. Do you know that the workers should control the means of production, and do you know to shoot porky if you're handed a gun? Well then you're a comrade in my book.

No.48374

>>48302

If you want to use knowledge in a conversational context then try to learn in a conversational form. I started watching debates on youtube with left wingers in them. They repeatedly cover the same common arguments/counterarguments so you become acquainted with them quickly. I personally get caught up in emotions so watching someone separate themselves from their emotions to give the best answer they can whilst also controlling the flow of the conversation is where I have lots of room for improvement. It must be a discussion on YOUR terms. NOT theirs.

Almost all discussions come with the caveat that you can only plant the seed of your ideas. It takes the person listening to relate them to their own life for them to change.

You need to recognize people who want to take the piss and brush them off. My favourite comeback that can be said in many tones is "You aren't on the internet anymore.".

_

I was looking at videos about the mishap with Tommy Robinson at speakers corner as well as hoping to find arguments against Islamophobia and found this (YT link to demonstrate comments): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oa5X3IUmuCE

The content of the discussion is interesting but not as much as the form. Respectful, concise, shakes hand and sends him on his merry way. When Harry looks back at the video he will see his ideas disproved and lots of positive comments telling him he seems like a nice lad. If this was an alt-right video the main goal would be to humiliate, not to inform.

No.48380

>>48302

This is the importance of reading groups, jump in the slow one here or find people irl. Looking at socialists talk is a good way to get a grip on concepts, and if you want to learn how to talk to normies unironically watch Immortal Technique talk to audiences.

No.48404

>>48302

Chin up, not everybody learns well by reading books. I spend 5 years learning german from books and vocab and I cannot form a sentence, but I learned english on my own and am fluent in the same or shorter timeframe.

Try to find another way in which you can learn these things.

No.48425

Pretty much given up on studying at this point. hate myself. Done a good job at getting fit because it makes me feel better about myself. I should spend way less time working out. but the main problem is i spend so much time working up to it.

No.48498

>>48425

this is how I felt last year and for most of this year - except I stopped working out and lost what little gains I had during uni. I've accepted I need to get another job and get some savings and just get serious about study again.

how far into your degree are you, anon?

No.48897

On to cutting to look better in July, ran hard as a motherfucker and I'm proud of that. I'm thinking of going all in on learning to cook better shit and was wondering if any anons here were interested in doing this as a group?

>>48498

>>48425

Don't lose hope comrades. Reading a small amount a day is good if you can, but not everyone needs to be a theory wizard. Just make an attempt to read and understand the basic concepts and you'll be fine.

No.49095

>>45266

They said my life is in shambles.

But I can maybe redo second year of university……….

I still feel depressed, don't even feel so nice when try to masturbate or anything……..

Also never felt so useless as a human before………

No.49112

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Had an awesome conversation with my parents yesterday. Me and my father (socdem with marxist sympathies) roasted the neoliberalist policy of the new chancellor together and criticised American imperialism. Sadly I wasn't able to redpill them on Syria and Assad but at least I could make it clear to them that the rebels are islamist fags too and that the USA should leave Syria alone. Also how fucked capitalism is and what the problems of the modern left are.

I also started reading some local socialist writer's works. Too demsoc for my taste but his socialist analysis of the post war times are interesting.

No.49121

I've been feeling pretty good the past week.

But still no gf or going out. Kinda giving up on the whole "clubs and bars" thing. I hope I will meet someone in the upcoming drawing course I will take, and if not I dunno, maybe I will try drugs to see if that helps.

No.49394

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Where are the progress reports?

No.49395

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>>49394

No fucking progress, although I am learning to juggle and I feel fucking fantastic the past week.

No.49396

>>49395

(went from not knowing how to juggle at all to being able to do 3 balls 3 throws, now i need to get 3 balls 4 throws and so on)

No.49408

>>49121

Pathethic

Self improvement = get gf for you?

Why do you depend on 3rd parties to make you fulfilled?

No.49410

>>49408

If I could be happy sitting alone in my room with no friends doing only things by myself I wouldn't feel so shit and have such a strong urge to go our and find companionship.

No.49413

Saw this link, thought it would be useful for anyone here who needs it: https://metanoia.org/suicide/

No.49415

>>49410

Problem is, you wouldn't be happy even with friends and a gf. You seem like the type that if got a gf you'd become too emotional dependent on her.

Also, happiness as a goal is capitalist new age bullshit. Google Zizek videos on it if you want.

I spend most of the time alone in my room and I'm pretty fine with it just sucks there's no actual left in my country to organize with. I don't need friends or girlfriends, I need comrades.

I wonder if this obsession with friends/partners is weakness today, I wonder if it's relatively new or if it was like this across era's. I think it's a symptom of our highly narcissistic societies where people need each other to feed their own ego's. My friends were like that so I stopped going out with them, I mean, I had nothing against them (even if they were kinda reactionary they were good friends to me, probably better than I), but I simply didn't need them, and I don't miss them. It is kinda sad, but on the other liberating, I felt obligation to go out occasionally because it's normal, but we'd just fuck around. Once more, comrades are needed, not friends, or friends come after comradeship, a common goal.

No.49416

Honestly, at this point in time, my only goal is to graduate from college. My major is studio art. This is my last semester. I just need to get back to having all my work done. I have crippling depression and my mood is like never stable. I'm seeing the counselor on campus tho, and that's been keeping me afloat.

No.49418

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>>49415

>Problem is, you wouldn't be happy even with friends and a gf.

No, fuck this, fuck this "you cannot be loved until you love yourself" nuclear bullshit. Humans need social validation, they need to feel like they belong to a group, like what they do matters to people, they need to be appreciated. I will not listen to any more of this quackery "first love yourself" shit, fuck you and your "happiness is a myth you should just be miserable" and ESPECIALLY fuck you and your "if you tried to get a gf you would make her miserable" fucking cancerous attacks that only further damage people by telling them and confirming their unhealthy self image that they only make people miserable so they should stay in and lock themselves away.

And fuck your "being happy is capitalism" meme as well. Honestly bruv, fucking fuck off and hang yourself right now. Happiness is not fucking "muh capitalism" and no, I am not going to "google sniffleman". Happiness, or, as it is also known, not being suicidal and termanently clinically depressed so you are even able to feel the emotion of happiness, is not "mmuuhhh kapitalishum". Fuck off, you fuck.

>I wonder if needing BACIS HUMAN CONTACT AND SOCIAL RELATIONSHIPS is caused by muh kapitalshum

No it is fucking not, humans need companionship, humans need validation. In the past all humans had this, they lived in tribes at first, always being among family and friends, then in the agricultural age they were at gatherings because there was nothing else to do than to drink beer with people from the surrounding area. Everybody who farmed found a partner before they turned 20, by the time they were 20 they would already have a family, and those who became soldiers always had their battlebuddies with them, and whores in towns, and the whores had each other. But no place in history before could you spend your entire life entertained inside your own house, alone, fooling yourself into thinking you had social interaction and validation while not getting the actual things humans needs, real social interaction and validation.

Get fucked, you destructive piece of shit, with your "you dont deserve love" and "you just make everybody miserable" and "I dont need my friends (even though I also say I go out with them regularly, pretending that this has no impact on my mental health) so you should just stay in your room, do the same routine day in day out, never meeting new people, not having friends and being suicidal from the time you wake up to the time you cry yourself to sleep".

FUCK YOU.

No.49419

>>49416

> I have crippling depression

http://www.lacan.com/depression.htm

No.49422

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>>49394

Here's my progress of this week :

>going back in shape losing about 15kg.

didn't even go out this week

>resume my academic work and some side project.

nothing special this week

>Re-organize side projects and publish them

Still working in my old project in Godot 3.0, still need to clean up the code before i publish it.

>Try to finish writing a small novel

Need a better name for the MC his nickname was Momo and he went into a weird adventure

>Finish up reading the books that i orders.

Start to read Milk man book

>Resume learning electronics

need more solar panel

>Resume learning some fucking Japanese

didn't even touch it

>Writing scripts for personal uses that will simplify my productivity

Still working own my i3config

No.49425

>>49418

I feel this so much.

Weather women are attracted to you (Assuming you're male and heterosexual as I am, not to be exclusionary), and weather men respect you as a man, is all arbitrary AF and has no basis in morality.

It doesn't bother me that some people get the short end of this stick. What bothers me is that the stick itself is MORALIZED as if people who lack social success must have committed some sort of SIN in need of punishing.

Its a very midieval mentality. People who lack social success should be given support to navigate the very real trials and tribulations of living through such rough social conditions.

They should be told that this struggle can make them stronger. All this "You need to love urself" is a bunch of pseudoscience crap.

No.49427

>>49418

These damn normies want to persecute us so badly that they'll twist themselves into logical pretzels to avoid allowing us to face our struggle of lonliness with dignity.

Messed up how other struggles are "lionized", e.g. the survival of those struggles is seen as a "masculine" trait and men who survive those struggles are given social credit,

But people can't let us lonely people be given honor for our struggles, they can't let us face those struggles with dignity, no, they have to lecture us at every turn.

No.49428

>>49418

Cry me a river, don't blame me for your problems. You also do not understand the implications of my post.

Strength comes when you recognize you're worthless (just like everyone else), weakness comes when you need 3rd parties validating your petty self. This is literally idpol, you are weak because you feel the need of others validating your stupid identity.

No wonder the left is dead, people are more worried about their stupid feelings instead of dedicating themselves towards a cause.

Leftists like you aren't needed.

No.49429

Also, the rise of "depression" today is a social symptom, but using it as an excuse if weakness.

No.49431

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>>49428

>Strength comes when you recognize you're worthless (just like everyone else), weakness comes when you need 3rd parties validating your petty self.

What a load of fucking bullshit. This goes against everything scientific psychology tells us.

>No wonder the left is dead, people are more worried about their stupid feelings instead of dedicating themselves towards a cause.

Yea fuck people for feeling like shit and thinking about suicide instead of being mindless drones dedicated to doing meaningless terrorist attacks or whatever, right?

Fucking end yourself.

>Leftists like you aren't needed.

People like you are not needed in society in general, and especially not leftism.

Some leftist author once said, i dont know who and exactly what, something to this effect:

>Don't dedicate your entire being to revolution. Live a little, find a partner, have some fun, socialism is about people and happiness.

Fuck you, you crypto-fascist shit, with your obsession about "strenght" and "weakness".

No.49433

>>49431

>scientific psychology

Is reactionary, science today only serves capital, and it's as scientific as race realism.

>Some leftist author once said, i dont know who and exactly what, something to this effect:

Must be a pretty shitty leftist, but you can indeed have some fun while still being dedicated, problem is leftists aren't dedicated and this site is proof of it.

>Fuck you, you crypto-fascist shit, with your obsession about "strength" and "weakness".

That's not fascist at all, that's a liberal definition of fascism, dedication, strength, self sacrifice etc were actually leftists values before fascists took them for us.

Also idk who you think I am, I'm worthless just like you and also felt like you, but i learned better and you could too if you took your head off your ass.

No.49435

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>>49433

>Is reactionary, science today only serves capital, and it's as scientific as race realism.

>All science is reactionairy

Pic related, you misunderstood latour

>but you can indeed have some fun while still being dedicated, problem is leftists aren't dedicated and this site is proof of it.

If you dont like it, feel free to fuck off.

>Also idk who you think I am, I'm worthless just like you and also felt like you

Well you fucking do not and did not, because if you did you would not have even thought about writing the shit you wrote.

No.49437

>>49435

>you misunderstood latour

who?

>If you dont like it, feel free to fuck off.

So you do admit communism is for you an identity and not something you are ready to give yourself for.

>

Quoting Zizek: "I don't care about how you feel, kill yourself"

Man up, pardon sexist expression but there's truth to it

No.49438

>>49437

>So you do admit communism is for you an identity and not something you are ready to give yourself for.

No, it is an identity for you, actually. You consider your entire being to be "communist", you identify exclusively as communist, you want to be only communist. I'm a fucking human being, who also is a worker, who also is a communist. I am a human who believes in communism, I am not a communist. Communism is an identity for you, just like how being a woman is an identity for feminists, rather than just a small part of what they are, or how being white is an identity for nazis, instead of just a small part of what they are.

>Man up, pardon sexist expression but there's truth to it

No it is not. Just because you keep repeating shitty american capitalist "self help" shit doesn't make it real. We do not live in isolation, we do not live as atomized persons, you fucking capitalist cock gobbling cuck. "Weakness" and "strenght" are not values that exist objectively, you fucking fascist, and asking for help, getting help and giving help to people is not weakness.

No.49443

>>49438

>No, it is an identity for you, actually. You consider your entire being to be "communist", you identify exclusively as communist, you want to be only communist. I'm a fucking human being, who also is a worker, who also is a communist. I am a human who believes in communism, I am not a communist. Communism is an identity for you, just like how being a woman is an identity for feminists, rather than just a small part of what they are, or how being white is an identity for nazis, instead of just a small part of what they are.

The more you talk the more you reveal you're not a communist. 1st it doesn't matter how you think about yourself or myself but what you do, and you're not a communist because you do shit except cry. 2nd communism is not about having faith in it, how fucking stupid, if everyone has faith in it and no pone moves their asses there won't be any communism, not as if communism is a positive thing, when it's just the movement itself etc.

>No it is not. Just because you keep repeating shitty american capitalist "self help" shit doesn't make it real. We do not live in isolation, we do not live as atomized persons, you fucking capitalist cock gobbling cuck. "Weakness" and "strenght" are not values that exist objectively, you fucking fascist, and asking for help, getting help and giving help to people is not weakness.

I'm not repeating any self help bullshit, because self help exists to profit from people's misery, it's a reflex of our narcissistic societies. I'm not profiting from anything and I literally do not give a shit about you personally, so idc if you help yourself or not, but as a communist I want good comrades, not cowards and weaklings crybabies.

No.49445

>>49431

>fascism is when people are strong n shieeeet

How horribly Christian of you. There is no virtue in weakness, or any use to it.

>Yea fuck people for feeling like shit and thinking about suicide instead of being mindless drones dedicated to doing meaningless terrorist attacks or whatever, right?

Fuck em, really. Do they actually matter? What difference does it make to reality, particularly towards the advancement of Socialism? In what page of Marx does it say I have to deal with a bunch of sullen cunts? Goodness knows the Bolsheviks wouldn't put up with a bunch of self-absorbed 20-something faggots too busy wallowing in their own self-pity.

>socialism is about people and happiness.

PFFFFT HAHAHAHA What is this New Age Leftoid shit? "Sozhilism is when u feel good in ur tummy" fucking PLEASE nigger. The Revolutionary War, the Guerrillas, the Terror; you think all this is gonna be happy happy fun time where you and your DSA friends get to sing Kumbaya?

To any Communist in the thread. A hundred years ago, all the Reds and Anarchists would have wished they had the vast array of knowledge that is so instantaneously available nowadays. So use it. Our goal is to fight in the Proletarian Revolution, getting prepared will ever get you forward. You have no excuse.

We live in a horrible world, how are we to right this injustice? Let's be strong, Comrades

No.49451

>>49445

>How horribly Christian of you

> virtue

>weakness

The reactionairy thing to think is that "weakness" and "strength" exist like that, and are actually things.

> In what page of Marx does it say I have to deal with a bunch of sullen cunts?

NOBODY IS FORCING YOU TO BE IN THIS THREAD YOU ABSOLUTE LARDPILE

>the revolution is war and thus shit

Yea no fucking shit. A war to achieve and build a society wherein we can be happy, wherein we are not cogs in a machine, wherein we are not alienated from each other and our labour.

By this same logic killing nazis is not about a world without nazis because it involves nazis.

>A hundred years ago, all the Reds and Anarchists would have wished they had the vast array of knowledge that is so instantaneously available nowadays. So use it.

>Use the same old books they had back then, except now you do not have guns and the government can hear and see everything you do through a vast surveillance system.

>Also you are worthless, make everybody you meet unhappy and do not deserve to live. So, this should be good for morale, people who are suicidal always are the best soldiers after all.

>>49443

>I'm not repeating any self help bullshit

>You must fix yourself all on your own, you are worthless and weak, be strong but dont you fucking dare ask others for help because that is weakness

>This is not self help bullshit

>it's a reflex of our narcissistic societies

>Says the guy practically masturbating over the terms "strength" and "weakness".

> but as a communist I want good comrades, not cowards and weaklings crybabies.

Then telling everybody to kill themselves sure is going to help you grow their numbers.

Honestly mate, if I knew where you lives I would light your house on fire. Fuck you.

No.49452

>>49445

Exactly, just imagine if Marx or Lenin were alive today what would they say about the left today?

I mean if you guys are familiar with their writings you'll know they teared other leftists apart, if they were alive today they'd spare no one.

We have become so weak, so powerless…yet nothing is inevitable, we can turn this around if, I hope the rise of fascism is a wake up call, but so far it seems it has been the opposite, another excuse to cry and lament the end of the world.

Man the fuck up guys! If you have time to be here, to pity yourself etc, you have time to educate and organize. Millions starve every year, millions are exploited, and then first world leftists lament their stupid lives, obviously there's injustices and problems even in the first world, but we have the possibility to change, we have the tools!

No.49455

>>49451

>Then telling everybody to kill themselves sure is going to help you grow their numbers.

We are not at a time where we need numbers, we are so fucking behind we need dedicate leftists willing to sacrifice a "normal" life for communism.

If you're weak, so be it, we don't need you. You'll be worthless not only for capital but for communism too, at least I strive to only be worthless for capital but I try and be worthy of the communist tradition.

>

Honestly mate, if I knew where you lives I would light your house on fire. Fuck you.

Anger and hate has its place, but you're targeting the wrong people, it's not our fault you're miserable, we owe you nothing (and no one owes us everything either).

No.49456

>>49452

Maybe you should do something then, instead of going on fringe image boards, specifically seeking out a thread about trying to better yourself and trying to stop being depressed, then all you do is telling your supposed comrades that they are worthless human garbage and should kill themselves. THAT SURE WILL FUCKING HELP THE LEFT WONT IT?

No.49457

>>49455

>but you're targeting the wrong people

Oh no I am fucking not mate. The people who tell their comrades that they are worthless, that try to destroy any motivation that they have, that tell them that they are not needed in communism, are the right fucking people to target. You destroy the left, you create a culture of hate and vileness, a sekrit club only for "Da true revolutionairies" actively putting energy into turning away people and the worst of all, kicking and beating volnurable people, throwing them out on the street, right into the arms of the fascists, a group of people who abuse their vulnurability by grooming them, making them feel appreciated, making them feel in control, making them feel like they are warriors and needed, giving them appreciation, purpose, friends, etc.

All you do is kick them, tell them they are worthless trash, tell them to kill themselves, tell them that the economic system they support and the people that are supposed to be their "comrades" will kill them after the revolution because "you are not needed in communist society".

You are playing right into the hands of the fascists and I would almost say you might be doing this on purpose, because you are actually a fascist infiltrator trying to disrupt and destroy the left. Either that or you are just like that japanese maoist gang who all went black metal on each other and excecuted each other for not being hardcore revolutionairy enough.

No.49458

>>49456

>Maybe you should do something then, instead of going on fringe image boards, specifically seeking out a thread about trying to better yourself and trying to stop being depressed, then all you do is telling your supposed comrades that they are worthless human garbage and should kill themselves. THAT SURE WILL FUCKING HELP THE LEFT WONT IT?

I can do both, but you're right, I should come here less often since it's rare to learn anything here, but…nothing inevitable about this board being shit, it's shit because the posters make it shit, with some effort and discipline (both self discipline and from the mods) this could become useful tool.

I didn't say you should kill yourself, I say if you do it I won't care, in the same way Zizek said the same, we don't care about people wallowing in self pity, and Zizek himself struggled with suicidal thoughts, yet despite being almost alone in his positions he kept fighting and gave us more than almost any other Marxist today. (even if he's not fully Marxist)

Again, it's your choice, it's your responsibility, just accept it instead of finding excuses. Freedom is not a state in the future, but what you do in the present regardless of the conditions you find yourself in, you always have some space of maneuver, of struggle, we in the first world more than most, so do you take this freedom with no guarantee of success or will you find excuses for your weaknesses?

No.49459

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um ya if we could get back to the self-improvement instead of devolving into every other debate threat that'd be great

>>47658

anyways update: still exams, most social stuff I did all week was yell at my roommates because they're up at 3 AM partying and I have exams at 8:30. Social advancedment? I was offered some drug called "xam" and I was able to resist the peer pressure so that's something I guess

not much otherwise. I still think that even if I have no progress I should update every week, as it will keep me at it and not enter a loop of procrastination. I think it's diligent anyways Also I still am a shit human being who's only friends are equally anti-social freaks, so I kinda need to get out of my hole and this helps a lot

No.49460

>>49457

Amazing the conspiracies you create in your head to avoid dealing with what is being written, it's easier for you to think I'm evil fascist than to deal with reality. You keep putting words in my mouth while I'm just saying how it is, you don't even know what is communism. "Communism is for us not a state of affairs which is to be established, an ideal to which reality [will] have to adjust itself. We call communism the real movement which abolishes the present state of things. The conditions of this movement result from the premises now in existence."

You're worthless for the "real movement" (not that there is one nowadays), because you are weak, it has nothing to do with the future you envisage, but the present, your behavior, not your thoughts. Truth is in what you do not what you think of yourself or others, and in this sense you're not a communist.

Reply for yourself, don't make any pretenses to "the people", you think for yourself, you are responsible for yourself.

I know it must be hard to deal with this, and I probably sound patronizing, but be honest with yourself even if not with ourselves and you'll see there's some truth in what we're saying.

No.49461

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>>49095

It's okay Ceras, I believe in you, you can do it! If we can help you anyway, just ask.

No.49462

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>>49460

>Reply for yourself, don't make any pretenses to "the people", you think for yourself, you are responsible for yourself.

Yes good prole, everything that happens to you is your own fault. You are an atomized individual, society doesn't exist and don't you dare try to get help.

No.49463

Self-improvement is an inherently reactionary bourgeois concept. Learning and developping new skills aren't abnormal states. They are entirely normal for people who have little to no psychological impediments. The abnormality is with inertia and pathological apathy. You can't expect people resume normal activity like a healthy person without first addressing the lack of necessary psychological tools to do so. The "just do it" mentality of bourgeois self-help denies this, claiming instead that inertia is a choice, which only serves to reinforce the myth that poor people are poor by choice and that neurotic disorders don't exist.

That being said, I am planning on going back to school in order to study cannabis culture in order to secure a job in the newly legalized cannabis industry upon graduating, join the IWW and a leftist organization (so far I lean Revolutionary Communist Party) after two years of severe depression, hopelessness and suicidal tendencies.

No.49464

>>49459

>um ya if we could get back to the self-improvement instead of devolving into every other debate threat that'd be great

Would be easier if there wasn't a poster here who says

>you are worthless, stop trying to be miserable, happiness doesnt exist, nobody in the world wants you, give up, give up, give up

No.49466

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>>49463

> I am planning on going back to school in order to study cannabis culture

Also stop this "people are exclusively subjects" vs "people are exclusively actors" false dichotomy. You are both a subject of society and reality as well as an actor, you can take (limited) steps to improve yourself.

No.49468

What the fuck guys, can we not just agree like "capitalism is responsible for worsening many social problems but individuals can take steps to try to avoid the worst effects"? Doing stuff better shouldn't be a controversial subject.

No.49469

>>49464

You're literally making shit up, holy fuck it's pathological, you WANT me to say for you to give up. You already gave up, not on life, but on communism, your posts show it, you know shit about communism, you do shit about communism.

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>>49451

>The reactionairy thing to think is that "weakness" and "strength" exist like that, and are actually things.

The reactionary thing can be a flying fucking cock and balls, it makes no difference to reality. A fit man is stronger than some numale wary of "toxic masculinity", a charismatic person will make a much better guerrilla than some uptight college fuck harping on about white privilege.

>Yea no fucking shit. A war to achieve and build a society wherein we can be happy

But we don't live in a Socialist society, do we? Until then, I don't give a shit about your feefees, about what is wrong or what is right, about what my "values" should be as a Leftist; I care about the advancement of Socialism.

>Use the same old books they had back then, except now you do not have guns and the government can hear and see everything you do through a vast surveillance system.

Its almost as if Communists wanted a Revolution? Also please, after the entire 20th century, there is a veritable mass of knowledge on Guerrilla Warfare, Counterinsurgency, fitness, DIY Weaponry, US Army Manuals; More has been made with much less.

>Also you are worthless, make everybody you meet unhappy and do not deserve to live. So, this should be good for morale, people who are suicidal always are the best soldiers after all.

Honestly if you are like this in the first place, you're straight up not needed. We need to be men of the People, ready to rally the Proletariat to our cause. Not some depressed tangle of fucking nerves.

No.49484

>>49472

lol dude larp lets just wage guerilla war like mao did without guns

No.49506

>>49419

Thank you for the link, comrade. I'll need to read over it a few times to grasp the meaning of it, to be honest.

>>49429

I have no idea what the *fuck* happened in this thread, but having a healthy amount of reminding that depression is a symptom of late capitalism. Now that I've told you guys I'm going to graduate, I have to succeed in classes so I can graduate, thus reporting back to this thread. Thank you, comrades. See you next week!

No.49512

>>49506

Not everything bad is caused by fucking capitalism, jesus christ, get a grip of yourselves and realise that brain chemistry is a thing that can make people depressed and that fixing capitalism will solve all of the worlds problems.

No.49513

>>49512

> that fixing capitalism will solve all of the worlds problems.

fuck me its too late.

destroying capitalism will not solve all the worlds problems.

Sleep tight anons, and stop saying everything bad is caused by capitalism, because it isn't and thats not how the world works.

No.49519

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>>49512

>>49513

I don't care what comes next, it has to be better than this, or at least it will kill us quicker.

But seriously (?) I woke up at 2pm today and spent like 5 hours playing Endless Space 2 and 5 hours playing Kerbal Space Program while watching BS on Youtube and I feel like I wasted the whole day. I mean, I did basically, but I wasn't even really enjoying it. Just fuck my shit up.

It was just too hard to do anything even hobby-related.

In my defence I'm a little sick, but… not that sick. Depression sucks, and by the way, it's not something you can 'just be urself :)' and get over like some people in this thread seem to think

No.49522

alright all of you, I come here for gakking self improvement, not your usual "Socialism or Barbarism" debate. You wanna do that? That's fine just do it in another thread, but not here. And don't be children and spend the next 6 hours pointing fingers, either shutup or go somewhere else.

Gakk

No.49523

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>>49522

I already told you, self improvement is too hard.

No.49526

>>49466

You can, provided that you are given the proper tools. It's only rational to do so when you are presented with a way out.

No.49528

>>49418

This. The apology of social alienation and isolation is reactionary nonsense. Again. It's the kind of bourgeois mentality that "self-improvement" comes with. It's patronizing, it's humiliating and it doesn't actually help anyone.

No.49529

>>34637

Also this. People think you jerk off to quell your sex drive, while in fact, the more you jerk off, the more you want to jerk off.

No.49530

>>49529

In my personal experience it's nofap redpill people that are the most obsessed with sex.

But hey let's not start another argument.

I'm gonna clean my room, at least that's something I did today. All I have to do is get out of this chair….

No.49535

>>49530

The NoFap redpill people are actually pretty cringe with the bold claim that masturbation abstinance will turn you into Chad and will basically give you magical powers. I'm just saying that limiting masturbation is a good thing, especially if you're only fapping alot because you're chronically bored and you have nothing to do.

No.49537

>>49530

>In my personal experience it's nofap redpill people that are the most obsessed with sex.

I mean isn't this intuitive? Why would you start nofap if you are not at a point where you're fapping to a problematic extent?

No.49540

>>49535

>limiting masturbation is a good thing, especially if you're only fapping alot because you're chronically bored and you have nothing to do.

Well, I don't have an issue with that. Iron fist is a bitch.

No.49546

Stop wasting time with this retarded reddit spacing arguments and read or work out instead.

>>49394

At this point I'm just keeping to my routine and eating better, which is kinda boring. Having to hold off work on my script until May.

>>49535

There is a testosterone boost if you don't ejaculate, but that peaks after a week and isn't enough to make a huge difference. The frustration is probably more harmful than a minor increase in testosterone anyways. Jacking off should be reserved for edging to help you not blow your load so fast with a partner, and once or twice a day is enough.

No.49551

>>49546

>Jacking off should be reserved for edging to help you not blow your load so fast with a partner, and once or twice a day is enough.

Horrible idea FYI… the alternate problem is much more likely.

No.49555

You're all gonna make it comrades.

>>49551

It's a good idea if it stops you from jacking it 4+ times a day because it takes more energy to do it in one session. And your loads are bigger which is cool.

No.49557

>>49555

All I'm saying is, at least in my experience, it's more likely you'll not be able to come from jacking too much than come too fast than not jacking enough. And it's not like I do/did it 4 times a day either. Plus the second problem seems like it would be a lot less frustrating.

No.49562

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>>49394

I've finally accomplished my main goal of curbing my internet usage and completely avoiding image boards and social media.

Descreening myself feels better than sex, comrades. I walk an hour four days a week and have the time to prep good lunches for myself almost every day

Also glad to see that /selfimprovement/ is livelier than ever!

No.49569

>>49557

Once a day and intentionally avoiding coming isn't going to hurt you fam. All you do is pull a kegel when you feel yourself about to blow and chill out for a bit, it doesn't take that long and feels better. It also can help with coming early, which if the bitches I talk to are right most dudes do.

>>49562

No.49580

>>49512

>brain chemistry is a thing that can make people depressed

But it can't be reduced to brain chemistry dumbass, reality has an impact on your brain chemistry. I understand reactionaries saying this, because they want people to focus on themselves and on "determinants" such as genes and "brain chemistry", instead of the capitalism, but hearing this crap from leftists is really depressing.

Is your "brain chemistry" telling you to type shit or the things you type and read have an impact on it because of the way you relate to it? How you relate to the social order is more important than bio-chemical mechanisms. This is why psychoanalysis is more important than ever and why capitalist apologists dismiss it (it's a threat), people keep trying to reduce everything to biology and chemistry like fucking idiots and they'll never improve. Pills treat symptoms but can't treat the subject dispositions.

Not that psychoanalysis should be reduced do self help which at its worst means making subjects adapts themselves to capitalism and still become t self absorbed, but it's important to have some psychoanalytic knowledge.

No.49586

>>49528

We all recognize the problems capitalism creates, but in the end YOU ARE STILL RESPONSIBLE FOR THE WAY YOU DEAL WITH THOSE PROBLEMS.

How will capitalism be sublated if not by a collective struggle? How can people struggle if they find external excuses to justify their lack of commitment? (not to Capital, but to Communism) As long as leftists wallow in self pity capitalist will be here to stay. Stop with bullshit excuses, "humiliating"? It's only humiliating if you feel humiliated.

>>49519

Look, I know it's hard, I was in the same boat and still is in a way, instead of trying to completely give up your problems, accept them, but try to control them someway, instead of wasting your whole day, open a space for a couple of hours to productive labour (again, productive for you and communism, not capital), little by little transform your hedonist time into work ethic, it's not a daily immediate transformation (unless a trauma happens).

Read some Mark Fisher works on depressive hedonism, such as his blog k-punk, or if you're lazy, at least some videos (Zerobooks as many on his books), or this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhOcwhwumP4

No.50544

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I've spend (wasted) like 20 hours in the last few days playing KSP, I didn't accomplish anything more than a Mun flyby. I've been trying to do an orbital rendezvous for like 4 hours and I just smashed my keyboard against the desk because I'm so frustrated. Somehow playing this game is making me feel even worse about myself. Doesn't help that I'm super tired even though I just had a nap for like 2 hours (in the middle of my playing). I just want to die right now.

I know it's stupid to get so mad over a stupid game but I'm definitely feeling too sick/tired to achieve anything real, but can't even do it in a game. I just can't deal with things.

I also have an appointment with the counselling service that I waited like 3 months for on Friday at 8.45am, great time to set an appointment for someone with severe depression right? I tried to fix my sleep issues but clearly that's not going to happen since I can't even stay awake in the daytime. I can't handle my job or my life, I've been sick and run down for weeks.

No.50551

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>>49586

Hello, I watched your video, I agree of course with that, I don't know what I can do about it though. Nobody cares if you're young and depressed, that's the truth. And the fact that it's socially imposed doesn't really help because I still can't change anything about that.

I don't know, maybe I can do some stuff for the rest of today that's productive, if only because I can't stand playing any videogames right now. But as I said I feel so tired, physically and emotionally. My health is terrible, my diet is terrible (I have an eating disorder that the NHS doesn't accept exists apparently), my sleep is terrible, it's like a pit I can never get out of. I'm too tired to cook even any of the not particularly healthy things I eat so I just sit here and eat crisps or snack cakes instead. I'm just so lost, I can't see any future or any way out.

>How can people struggle if they find external excuses to justify their lack of commitment? (not to Capital, but to Communism) As long as leftists wallow in self pity capitalist will be here to stay. Stop with bullshit excuses, "humiliating"? It's only humiliating if you feel humiliated.

What if I do feel humiliated? Communism isn't coming no matter what I do, all that's left for us is this shit. This isn't living, it's not even survival, it's just nothing.

I get that people say oh, you need to have willpower and so on but what if I'm just not strong enough to deal with anything? I never asked to exist in this shitty world so why am I expected to have this great will to survive?

Sorry I know I sound like a pussy but, I really just can't deal with anything.

No.50588

>>49586

>actually believing there is no revolution because communists wallow in self-pity

Dude, you're really a self-righteous one, are you?

No.50590

>>50551

This is depression. An actual disease. It's not your fault. It's like having stomach flu and trying to force yourself to do anything.

No.50612

>>50590

this, I believe the modern clinical psychological approach to >>50551 's depression would be to give them anti-depressants to give him the energy and drive to work on the reasons why they are depressed in the first place. unfortunately the banal dystopia of modern capitalism that is at the root of most depression is not so easily toppled. we all have to find ways to cope: some adopt the mindset of a single-minded revolutionary and rely on self-denial and self-control-affirming discipline, others try to get as much pleasure out of the present condition as they can, by escapism or self-medicating with whatever fucks their brains up for a brief moment of relief. this is an artificial, polarised contrast formed from the earlier debate in this thread, but there is merit in trying to conceptualise pathology and coping in this way.

No.50663

So I've stolen a goal from Karen and have been coming by here less lately and I have to say that's improved my time management. Too much arguing over stale bullshit and not enough good shit. Still any anons here need advice on fitness or cooking? I'm doing good and want to help my comrades.

No.50727

I feel like ive got nothing going for me, Comrades. Im broke, shitty job, car is falling apart and ive got no money to pay to fix it and while I could try it myself with YouTube tutorials I dont have a garage or have the space for that. As fucked up as it sounds knowing my friends are also working dead end jobs makes me feel better sometimes because at least I know I am not alone. I feel like a failure and a disappointment. I have resolved to try and lose about 50lbs because I know im fat and that at least bothers me. I hate exercising so I have started using the myfitnesspal app to track what I eat. I want to cut out most fast food and I want to stop drinking soda. There is a cute nerd girl who works at a grocery store near me that I have talked to a few times about video games and comic books but I have no idea if I should ask her out or not. I am lost, Comrades.

No.51167

No.51191

>>51167

I have nothing to post

No.51241

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>>51167

Check-in day is Sunday my droog, every other day you're supposed to be busy improving yourself

No.51455

So I've started doing some weird shit /selfimprove/. I still masturbate, but I don't jerk off to orgasm anymore. Instead, I've started to edge myself to a goal I have in mind. I just jerk off, bring myself close to the brink and then pull back, all the while concentrating on my most immediate goal. Seems to be helping me to be more optimistic of my chances if nothing else.

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>>50727

Cutting soda is a great call. I would honestly consider going vegan for a few reasons but the biggest is it will make losing that 50 lbs way easier. I lost a 100 lbs a few years ago by only changing my diet. Sucked having to explain it to folks and getting limited selections when I went out but you'll lose weight fast and help out the planet as well as meat industry workers who are pretty seriously over exploited. It's crazy what they deal with.

No.51494

>>51455

>masturbate, but I don't jerk off to orgasm anymore

that cannot be good for you, physically

No.51559

>>51455

>I still masturbate, but I don't jerk off to orgasm anymore

Enjoy you're cancer

No.51563

Progress reports or something?

No.51577

>>51563

I'm cutting and it's hard but good. Script is finalized, going to hopefully get shit together and start shooting within a year. Came up with some great roasted chicken recipes that are low-calorie and high protein and taste bretty gud.

No.51816

>>51457

Don't fall for the vegan meme, comrades. Reducing calorie and sugar intake is the real cause of the weight loss and health improvements that vegans claim. I dropped 20 kg in 3 months while improving my overall health and fitness by switching to an all-meat diet. Eating just meat or just plants isn't the point, though: it's the fact that the new diet meant I couldn't eat sugary shit or calorie-dense processed foods. There are plenty of vegans that stay or even become fat because they think the fact that potato chips and vegan cakes aren't made of animals means they can eat as much as they want of them.

Side note: I'd recommend a carnivorous diet over a vegan one for weight loss, as a) you'll go into ketosis and lose weight way quicker (it's not a meme, I've done it, it's easy as shit and it works), b) you can actually enjoy yourself while being on a diet, c) you don't have to get as autistic as vegans do about supplements and micronutrients since meat, especially ruminant meat, has a much fuller complement of micros and necessary macros in much more bioavailable forms, and d) your gut clears up massively - you fart way less. Turns out meat is pretty much entirely digested by the time it leaves the small intestine, since efficiently processing meat is the actual function of the stomach and small intestine. It's only indigestible plant matter that gets stuck in the large intestine to produce noxious gases as bacteria slowly rot it away. In other words, reality is once again the exact opposite of how vegans portray it.

Don't even get me started on the fact that the 'health benefits of vegetables' is essentially mutated WW2 propaganda designed to make people OK with having all their nutritious meat and grain shipped off to feed the army.

And spare me the 'b-but factory farming is bad' horse shit. We're communists, we should recognise that a) individual middle-class consumption choices won't effect the logic of profit, and b) All industrial agriculture is bad for the environment. There is no way to reconcile capitalism and environmental stewardship, no matter how much otherwise-agriculturally-useless grazing land vegans leave fallow.

No.51817

No.51821

>>51817

To an extent they're actually right. You will lose more weight eating meat, cheese, butter and yogurt, than if you ate cereal, bread and fruits. I can personally attest to this.

No.51823

>>51821

Didn't mean to post with that flag. Also, I might as well state that I have no qualms with veganism, just with specific, individual vegans who more or less are vegans just to act self-righteous around everyone.

No.51825

>>51817

He's right, eating less calories will make you lose weight and sugars are bad. I like vegetables, but I realize that simply eating more of them while failing to account for macros and calroies isn't going to help you lose weight. That said they are good if you know what you're doing, and are useful for stretching meals out to keep yourself full. Comrades should eat whatever is around, is affordable, and that they enjoy instead of building diets out of lifestylism.

No.51826

>>51821

It's a scam and his post contains outright absurd falsehoods. The scam fad diet he's talking about is tricking the body to 'lose weight fast' while being extremely unhealthy in areas that don't involve "being a fatass", like clogging your arteries the fuck up to the point of being in danger of cardiac arrest.

The falsehood is

> improving my overall health and fitness by switching to an all-meat diet

>carnivorous diet

Either you're lying or you don't know what these terms mean. If you indeed are eating 100% meat have fun looking for a new stomach while in ER in a couple of months because that's physiologically impossible diet for a human long-term; unlike plant-based diets.

No.51827

>>51826

> If you indeed are eating 100% meat have fun looking for a new stomach while in ER in a couple of months because that's physiologically impossible diet for a human long-term; unlike plant-based diets.

What the frickety-frack kind of shit is this? By what mechanism, in your absurd reasoning, would this be the case? Plenty of people have lived on a 100% meat diet, just as plenty have lived on a 100% plant diet. There's nothing physiologically impossible about living exclusively on meat you utter dipshit. Also, there isn't a single falsehood in my original post. And ketosis isn't fucking 'bad for everything except losing weight', you're just the millionth idiot to confuse it with the ketoacidosis that diabetics go through. Plenty of people, fat and fit, deliberately go into ketosis and do just fine. Not to mention the whole 'babies are in constant ketosis the whole time they're dependent on milk and it's thought to aid in brain development' thing.

No.51840

>>51826

I said "to an extent", my dude. Again, I have personal experience with a (near) ketogenic diet and it does produce results, but like >>51825 said choosing some diet plan you found off the internet isn't necessarily realistic, and the idea of a pure meat (or pure anything) diet sounds absurd to me.

Except for breatharianism. That shit is legit, you'll become super skinny in no time.

No.51858

No.51865

>>51457

>>51816

I dont plan on going vegan, I just wanna lose weight and stop feeling like a shitty person all the time. But yes, soda, candy and shit is on my short list of items to cut out. Hopefully with a little resolve I can actually make an extended go of it.