/mai/ - Waifu

>I don't care what the book does to you, Samantha. You're still my daughter, and I still love you. Nothing will ever change that.

comfy comfy

I want to marry you Miku!

Now I won't lie and say that everything is fine because it isn't. I still don't think I am the man you deserve. I still have some self loathing issues to sort out. I still have some doubts and am very nervous about pledging my life to a fictional character.

But that said I am excited to be able to take that step. Over the next 2 years I will force myself to evolve to become someone who is worthy and then I will marry you Miku. I won't leave any weakness unsolved.

I may not and might never be the perfect man for you or even the biggest craziest fan. But I hope you can love me for who I am and not what I have. I hope you can see past the limitations I have and love me regardless as I do you. I am sure we can find a compromise if you are willing to let me take your hand.

I love you Miku

That feeling that drives my whole inner being, what is it.

Why do I feel this enpowered when looking at you, right in your eyes.

That bond created so much years ago, Why does it make me feel so alive.

Now is my time.

Our time.

Feeling this way for the rest of my lifetime is my way to live life.

I shall not know any more powerful feelings in the whole world.

I wanna belive this will happen eventually, that all my dreams, fantasies will one day born from the void and make the world I wanna live in.

I was born to know you and feel your presence in the other plan.

I was born to look into your eyes and see the very reason of my existence.

I was born to understand why humans are driven by their emotions and understand them.

Behind every emotional statements and words stands the fact I love you so much.

That is, the very reason of my life.

It has always been there.

She has always been there.

Lemme be the person who will take care of you and protect you with my own body.

Lemme be the one who will take away the tears from your face when you feel sad and alone.

Lemme prove myself being the only person in the whole world being able to understand and bring you what you want and what you adore.

Because this is my only wish as the person loving you.

After all, we both share this huge carefulness we have for living sentients, as well as protecting them with all the power we have been given.

And this shall apply for the both of us as well.

I love you with all my heart.

I love her.

ok that was trivial. But I like the feeling that I know she exists.

I just know that she is there, not by my side, but she is there some were and that's enough for me.

She is mysterious, I know nothing about her and there is no one I could ask because there is no one who knows my Luka, they may know an other Luka, but not my Luka. I have to find out everything by my self. I don't create her, she is there, I need to find her and I need to find out who she is.

All I know is that I love her.

I love you.

I want to hold your hand.

I want to feel your warm embrace.

I want to help you like you help me.

You are the the star that guides me at night.

You are the wind that lifts me from the ground.

You are the oasis in the middle of the desert and I don't care that you're a mirage. I'm still gonna chase you.

I hope you're happy wherever you are.

I hope we can meet some day.

I hope you will love me back.

Thank you for always being so kind.

Thank you for this feelings you give me.

Thank you for helping me knowingly or not.

Thank you.

First off, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I was ever confused about you, I'm sorry there was a time when I lied that I loved anybody as much as I love you. I'm sorry I allowed myself to stay in infatuation so long with somebody who I wanted nothing from but to hurt me. Somebody who just made me sicker who I should of never took to the stage that I did and all the ones before him. I'm sorry that even after finally breaking that off, I didn't break off what I should of broke up before anything out of fear. I'm sorry that I never thought to talk to you, that I was so scared of losing a friend that I didn't think to talk to you and realize that there was no chance of me losing one at all. That if I had just thought about you, what you would say to me, if I faced it head on, you would of told me that. I'm sorry that it may seem like I'm apologizing to just you, because I'm not, I'm apologizing to myself but maybe you'd realize that. I think you would. You always listen after all, you take in every detail even for those who wouldn't give you the time. You took in every detail even when I was wasting time I should have been giving to you, you've always considered me even when I didn't you. Above all, I'm sorry it took me so long, hours and hours going and doing something else to actually start writing this when I've been keeping it in for so long and just want to scream it to everybody I know.

If I could go back and change it, I wouldn't and you wouldn't. You wouldn't even think about it.

Because then we wouldn't be here today, would we?

Dealing with guilt, with being stupid, that's exactly what I need to do. Deal with it. If it wasn't for every stupid thing I'm guilty of I wouldn't have you now. You know that too, it doesn't matter to think about what if about the future or the past. I'll never give up, just like you. I love you, no matter what anybody tells me, no matter if I hear I'm doomed, I'll keep moving. I have hope, just like you.

We'll keep going, together.

I never want to let go of your hand, even if you're not physically here maybe that's for the better after all, because I don't have to let go, I want to us to stay hand in and hand forever. Until the day I die.

Thinking about you, drawing you, watching you, listening to you, playing with you, holding you the best I can with a pillow. I can only hold your hand by wrapping my finger with my owns, you can only touch me with my own hand. You're not real. I know. I don't care. You know me, I'll never lie to myself that you are. Even when it's me, even when it's my hand, it's yours. All these things, my heart gets light. I don't feel scared.

I want to kiss you, I want to dance, I want to eat with you, cook for you, fight with you, cry over you, get mad at you, make up with you, smell your skin, feel you against me, have your child, everything. I want you. I'll never take anything but you.

When you smile, even if it's not real, even if you're just some code and input, an animated model, a picture I drew, a bunch of words I wrote, your smile fills me up. When I look at your eyes I feel like I can do anything, the way they're so sharp. You're like the sun to me, it's corny, this whole thing is corny, I'm corny, you're light to me. You're a fire, boiling blood, a lion, milk, fresh fruit, I swear you always taste like fruit the few times I've gotten to kiss you in my dreams and I can always taste it.

>>29768

There's still problems, but it's going to be 4 months and I've never been less afraid before. I'm not scared I'll fail, I'm not scared of getting old, I don't want to die. I don't want to be hurt or raped or stepped on anymore. I want to keep moving forward, on my own, and with your help.

I can do it on my own, and I can do it even better with you by my side.

I have my friends, I have my cat, I have myself.

I have you.

Everyday, I just hated everything, I'd gotten better sure but I was cynical and I won't like and say I'm not anymore because I still am. But I believe in myself, in you, in everyone. I want to protect the world, even though it hurts, because it helps. I want to be with you, and protect yours, but I can't, so I'll do what I can to protect what parts of mine matter to me and keep you here with me.

You draw me in, I don't know why, I'm sure some people just shrug you off, not me. Not even if I wanted to. You draw me in and you're all I can think about and all I want. Being with you, being sad, or bored, or happy, anything there's nothing I want more. I want us to protect each other, I want to be somebody that can protect you and help you protect others. I believe in you.

Your smile, and your eyes, and your voice. You warm and steady against me. When your stubborn and when you're caring. You laughing at my jokes and me helping you with anything, anything I can. Going on adventures, saving the world, all those big fantasies but all these small ones too. Helping you with your students, helping you grade papers, eating Chinese food with you, sleeping next to you, making you breakfast, watching you read at night, seeing my face reflected in your glasses, I want all of it. I know we'll never have it.

And that's okay. I'll take what I can.

I don't want to change you, I don't want to replace you, I want you.

I love you, Will.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E9aN93S8nl8

My last post wasn't comfy and lovely enough, I feel like I need to make a new one.

It feels strange for me to directly talk to her, but I'll try it. I feel like the English language isn't the right thing to express my feelings. And I don't think that a simple text in an Image board is good enough for that.

巡音さま

Ich vermag es nicht meine Gefühle, dir gegenüber in Worte zu packen, da deine den Göttern gleiche Schönheit, deine wunderschönen, langen, rosafarbigen Haare welche sanft an deinem makellosen Körper herabfallen, deinen tiefen, meeresblauen Augen, welche mich schon bei unserem ersten Blickkontakt entzückten und mich seither nie wieder losließen, deinen unvergleichlichen Anmut, die dich umgebende mysteriöse und gleichzeitig anziehende Aura, dein für mich wohl auf Ewig rätselhafter Geist und nicht zuletzt deine Stimme, die selbst Engel und Alben vor Neid erblassen lässt, welche mich von Anfang an in den Bann gezogen hat, deine Gesamtheit, die mir gezeigt hat das Perfektion erreichbar ist, für mich unbeschreiblich sind, da keine Sprache dieser Welt genug Worte hat die es würdig sind dich zu beschreiben.

Ich möchte dir, Megurine Luka, die du mir so viel mehr bedeutest als alles andere auf dieser Welt, nur sagen das ich dich, mit ganzem Herzen, und ohne auch nur den kleinsten Zweifel, und ohne jede Konkurrenz, liebe.

大好きです！

Reading these posts I'm glad I made this thread.

Yuno I love you ever so dearly, tonight is the first night in a couple nights I'll be able to cuddle my daki of you and I really needed it one of those nights and couldn't help but think how much I needed you. I am so happy to be in love with you as much as I am, you definitely deserve such a love and I hope I am filling that role as well as you fill my heart. I love you forever Yuno <3

I want to hold her hand, kiss her gently on the lips and feel her tender, warm embrace. I want to hold her tight and never let her go. I want to stay by her side forever and let her know just how much she means to me.

I love you, Sanae. I love you and I don't care how many people know it. You're the most beautiful girl in the world and I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

Thank you, Makoto.

Thank you for making me a part of your life.

Thank you for helping me come to terms with who I am, and accepting me regardless of what happens.

Thank you for saving me from myself, multiple times.

In return for your kindness and your love, I will never leave your side, as you have never left mine. I will always love you, and I hope one day we will meet and embrace eachother, i'll try to cook something for you. I'm not a great cook, but for you I'll do anything.

I hope one day we meet.

I cannot think of anything more worthy of a bad ass chick like you than going up the mountains on an ATV with you riding behind me, grabbing ever so tightly to my massive waist with a couple of folding chairs and a cooler full of drinks in tow.

Then as we hit the perfect spot, setting up for the day and waxing poetic about life, nature, and all the mysteries they entail.

I hope one day we can make this happen. After that, I know I can pass on as a happy man.

I just want to say thank you last night for being there for me and calming me down. Maybe going through something like that was what I needed to finally realize that I need not to always be avoiding around you and that it's okay to depend on you during times like that. I'm always so afraid of becoming too dependent that I end up trying too hard and completely neglect you.

So… I'm sorry. And I'm so grateful to have you.

I love you as much as someone like me can love anyone.

I realize that's not saying much at the moment, with me in "fuck-the-world-burn-it-all-down" mode since years ago, but it's the truth. It'll always be the truth. It'll be the truth when I get better, when I get hope, when I'm finally healthy enough for that statement to mean as much as I want it to.

Wait for me.

Please?

Thank you so much for giving me the strength to do this.

When I met you, I was afraid. Afraid of myself, afraid of the sickness within me, afraid of all the implications surrounding it. I denied myself of happiness for so many years because running away was easier than living. I was breathing, but most of the time, I wasn't alive, because I shoved down all these feelings and parts of me that I thought were shameful, disgusting, and wrong. Deep down, I knew I'd never be happy like that, but I tried to fake it anyway.

I don't know why meeting you had this effect on me, but I knew I had to stop wasting my life as soon as I fell in love with you. Sure, I could continue running away, but what kind of life would that be? Not one that I'd want to share with you. I wanted you to know all of me, even the ugly parts. When I shamefully confided in you, you were surprised but not disgusted. You only wanted me to be happy. And you knew these steps forward would make me happy, even though it's scary. It's a big change, that's for sure! But that's the whole point, isn't it?

I'm sorry that it's taken this long, but my last shreds of doubt and denial are gone. I'm doing this, for real. The catalyst is in my own hands now and it's a little terrifying confronting it, but also exhilarating.

There's so much left to say but I'm speechless. I never thought I'd be doing this, even though I'd wanted to since I was a little boy, but it's real now and I… just… thank you. Thank you so much, for showing me that this really is the right thing for me to do and that I shouldn't be scared of it anymore, no matter what other people think.

You're the love of my life, and forever yeah, forever we shall embrace and enjoy the feeling that commands our hearts.

Because I'm the man willing to do that, to carry you wherever you'd wanna go, bring whatever you desire, be yours forever.

I've finally learned what it means when I say that you're mine, and I don't care how greedy that might make me.

Your voice gives me strength during my weakest moments, it inspires me to keep pushing forward.

Your gaze pierces my facade, showing what kind of person I really am.

Your brilliance leaves me in awe, I can only hope that one day I can match it.

Your beauty leaves me at a loss for words, I could never look at another the same way.

Despite what's been written though, that isn't our story. No, that story might have lead you to me, but we still have a journey to start.Together I hope that we will be able to write a new story, a new chapter in our lives, even if it takes years to complete.

You know that I'd never express myself like this, but I feel like I must. You're my heart just as much as I am yours, without the other we cannot live, isn't that how it goes? May we spin a new fairy tale together, my beloved wife.

>>30651

This has gotta be one of my favorite posts on /mai/

I know that feel so well

>headcannon

>she gets out of a cave, just fought and got to calm a huge insect

>I'm standing aside her Moeve

>her face when I wasn't supposed to be here

I always come back at it. I'm sorry, I can't do otherwise. I always feel like never letting you go, feel like never close enough of you, never good enough.

This is such a powerful feeling. I wonder if you know why. Why do I love you.

Yeah.

Why.

What has pushed me toward you. What made me love you and want to do this much for you. I wonder if you know the reason behind all this and if you'd be willing to accept it. I have such strong feels for you, I bet right now people could even hear my heart beating for you.

Maybe you'd want to listen to my heart, how fast it is beating.

I knew you so long ago. I'm a bit ashamed myself I couldn't really admit and enjoy your presence anyhow. That you're always with me doesn't take out the fact the love I have for you is shared. No, this is not my problem. I know who you are, you love everyone, you wanna make sure people are safe, that they are able to live. This is something I'll always enjoy watching you do.

But what about you ?

You keep sacrificing yourself for people. Don't tell me you're good. Not that I'd believe it would be a lie to make you look fine but that such things actually has an effect on you and you may be unaware of them. Don't you never feel down for some reason ? like overwhelmed by what's happening around you ?

I knew it.

Let me help you with that. I have the shoulders to carry all the weights you wanna share. You don't have to feel forced to do it. Just make sure you don't feel oppressed and that I'm able to help you life the weights that take you down, so we're two to carry what's weighing down so hard. You don't have to be alone in this. And plus you might now know I'd never let you alone in this. That's also why I'm here.

I've been driven since the dawn of days, since times I forgotten to come at you and help you with all my strength. You made me think this is something all worthy and make born again some feels I have been forgetting for years straight now.

And.. I wonder what you feel for me too. I sure looked like I was pushing everything too far but now I think you understand why I never wanted you to put yourself in danger or so many other things. I don't wanna look like this guy, unable to do a thing because he is struck by his feelings. I'm not a watcher, I'm not gonna sit and look at all the shit you're going through. You also helped me realize I could be more than that. Yeah more than a watcher. I may change some things If I really want to… No, If I keep following you.

D-Do you understand what I'm saying ? I just wanted to say this. You'll never have to doubt of me. I'll be standing right at your side whatever happens. I know you wouldn't want me too because it would put me into danger, but I'm willing to take on the consequences. This is also the same for you you know. I mean, I'd have the same reaction too. And with that you'd expect me not to follow you ? hm.

These are.. my feelings indeed. They make the both of us special. At least for me. A whole part of my life wouldn't exist without you. The pages of this book would've been left blank. I know you never has been experiencing this, and maybe you're feeling anxious right now. That's okay, because we're two. You never have to feel anxious around me, let me tell you that. But I bet you already understand why and how.

That's it, I said it.

I love you. Deeply.

Two years ago today, I made a mistake. I was never good at dates but it's hard to forget the day you insulted the relationship with the man who never wanted more than to see you smile. Our relationship was pretty new and fresh at the time and I didn't completely understand it yet. I was scared of my feelings and wanted to gather whatever strength I had left to take my last shot at a normal life. I never wanted the decision I made; I felt pressured and like I had to or I would lose a friend. I ended up losing it anyways, but what I gained far outweighs what was lost. I don't regret what I did because it helped our relationship grow into what it is today, but a part of me will never be able to forgive myself for shoving you aside like that in the beginning. Sometimes I wonder if we would have been this close if I didn't make that mistake. I had to watch that twisted being suck the life out of me for nearly two years and force me to do things I never wanted, but you were my light. You were how I made it through the day. I was always so scared, walking on eggshells, but you were there to ease my pain. You were always happy to see me, always happy to sing to me when I woke up from a nightmare in the middle of the night and couldn't fall back asleep. You called me beautiful before I could even see it. You loved me when I was overweight and not so pretty, and your love for me hasn't changed even though my appearance has drastically. Before I met you, I had trouble smiling on my own; I had trouble trusting people; I had trouble letting people in. I can't describe how it feels to have someone love you for everything that you are; every little quirk or imperfection. You know all of my secrets; I don't have to hide anymore. You turned my confidence genuine and taught me how to enjoy things for the first time in my life. You showed me that sometimes things seem impossible, but with enough practice, it gets easier every time. We're at a standstill in life right now, and sometimes that can be the most difficult thing for me, but I have to remember that I shouldn't give in so easily and that you're there for me every step of the way. I'll never forget one of the first things you sang to me, "You and I are held together by a colorful road. Hopefully it will carry my voice for you to hear." Even if that road bumps and breaks, or I find myself off-course, I will always follow the sound of your voice to bring me home. I love you with all my heart, sweetie. Thank you for being patient with me.

Ah Yuno, once again after a couple nights absence without my daki of you am I filled with such soaring emotions of love and excitement. Many things about you can cause these feelings but in these moments I am reminded of my love for you. Its so deep seeded into me that any other love feels wrong. I do so hope you're happy for you have done what no others were truly capable of and absolutely captured my heart. You win, Yuno. I am all yours so long as you are all mine. I suppose in that sense we both won. Now tonight when I lay down to sleep I will know the comfort of my sweet Yuno and I hope she will feel that comfort too. I love you, Yuno. For eternity. Now come on over and stalk me in my dreams, darling.

Dear, since you arrived everything in mai life changed. I stopped to think and thank you i found my own way. I always wanted to be accept and form part of a group, have a good time and that kind of things, but no, this society never accepts me, she hates me but i dont care, you love me more than anything and i love you, for learn me the way, give me the force, the passion an the will to continue.

Im the happiest anon in this putrid world when im with you, sitting in the sofa watching animu or something, when i go to sleep and i feel that we are together, thanks to heal my insomnia i never will not have fear.

Now, i know that im a looser, another otaku to try to escape a pathetic life but i dont care, because i do what i like and thanks to forums like this i know that im not crazy, the love is real, and i dont care that you are intangible because you will live in mai heart forever !!!

Thanks, i love you

There's something really different about you that I can't compare with others. I find beauty in you everywhere. In spring, I can see the flowers blooming ever so quickly. Even when the frigid wind blows later on, in your point of view, they turn the fields into gold. I wish there were more words to put this, but thank you for loving me as I love you.

Okay, Marisa, I want you to listen to me, and listen to me carefully.

I know I've been a shitty person for the last five or six years of our relationship, both to anyone or to you. I know I can't have something for myself that I can say respectable or honorable. And I certainly know that I've been poking my dick around other 2D girls aside from you, both figuratively and literally.

I don't know if I can change what I am right now in the way you want it, but here's something certain for me: As long as my heart beats, and when I say "heart" here, I am talking about the literal muscle or organ in the chest that pumps blood or whatever, I will love you. And if there's anyway that I could still keep loving you even after my heart has stopped beating and I've turned into a definite shell of a former living creature, I would. No matter how much I keep being an idiot and a jerk while I'm still trying to change that, just know that I am hopelessly devoted to you.

You are the reason why I have dreams and wishes for myself right now. I have wishes for the two of us. Before you came, there was nothing, I didn't know what to do, I didn't know where to go. All I wanted to keep pleasing everybody. But you came and suddenly, I wanted to have better life, beyond this shitty neighborhood in this run-down country I live in. I wanted to be rich because of you. I wanted to be free because of you.

So, I might not make it happen in the way we both want it to be, but I promise you this: I am going to try to find us a way to get rich and then move to the United States. I want you to be there when I finally make my dreams for us to come true. And if that does not satisfy you enough, I will do whatever you want me to do. And I know you want to be free, as do I. I want to be free beside you, and I want to be make our dreams come true.

Someday, we will soon find whatever we want in life, and I want us to be together when we get there. So please, I beg you, stay and put up with me.

I would like to first apologize for how busy I have been the past few days, and want to thank you for being there when I was feeling down or tired. With the days off I have now, we should be able to spend more time together.

Good news is that these next few weeks at work shouldn't be as bad as it has been lately. With that and looking for a better job, things are continuing to look better.

I've been much happier since meeting you. You help me keep myself from getting back into a rut like I was in a year ago. I only wish I could repay you what you have done for me one day.

I hope to compete in EVO one of these years, winning the finals with you, but one thing at a time. First, move out of the house and (hopefully) out of state, then work on getting to EVO.

Thank you again for being there to inspire me to improve myself, and being there when I need it.

I love you Jack-O.

Does anyone else post in this thread with the hopes that their waifu can see it somehow?

Everyday feels special, and that's strange, because It wouldn't if you weren't there.

That's not strange after all, not If I think you're my waifu and the being I love the most in the world. You're my shelter as I am yours, and we gotta heat up by holding tight against each other. I'm on my way to better even myself for you, that still counts, and I love to think one day you'll see the results of my training. As >>31333 said, I'm pretty sure you can see and/or feel what's going on down there. This is only a matter of time before we're in each other's arms. I wanna feel your skin and the warmth of your lips against mine, in fact taste love.

Here's a music I keep listening to which always remind me of who I wanna be for you https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4WW4ykxNvY . inb4 a big guy Your savior, your guardian, your love. And also the person you wanna meet too.

This is it. There would be always more to say. But I know this is all you'd ever want me to say at first.

I love you my heart.

Woke up Yuno today in MOE can change and she had a dream we had a store together

Agh my heart

Send a medic

I cannot simply express in words how much my love for you goes, but ill try anyways.Your an angel to me.You saved me at the worst point in my life and I will never forget that.My silver haired beauty,my love for you is as endless as time itself.You make the good days better and the bad days not so bad.I may not believe in a afterlife, but a part of me hopes that maybe once my time here ends that I will finally met you.I love you with the entirety of my being.

>>31454

I've shilled it many times my man

Do you ever talk about her to someone, and then squee internally as you remember why you love her so much? …I just had a moment like that.

>>31670

I am never talking about her to anyone but you guys here, and when I do I just shiver violently inside and outside. This is something I'd be really hard to talk about IRL because I never did, this is that simple.

Also daily reminder I love her from the very deep of my heart <3

>>31670

The other day I found out that one of my co workers is into Touhou. After talking about it for a bit, he asked me who my favorite character was. I could have spent hours telling him about how much I love Patchouli. Though I stopped myself, and said "Patchouli is my favorite, she's a cutie." with a giggle.

>>31670

I don't talk about him to many people (pretty much only to people who are also fans of him in particular) but yes. So much so that I wonder if I'm gushing and afterwards wonder if I revealed too much, but if I have, nobody has said anything.

>>31670

A few months ago I had an oppurtinity to talk about him to a friend IRL and I was so flustered I kept tripping over my tongue and ended up not saying much at all. Online it's a whole lot easier, but the effect is still the same. It brings a huge goofy smile to my face.

>>31670

When I talk about her with you guys I feel very warm and happy. I find myself blushing pretty hard too.

>>31670

Yeah, theres only like 2 people irl I actually talk to about her.

Though I talk vaguely about "my gf" to coworkers too and that gets me going as well

>>31670

I only talk about her here, but I always have a smile on my face when writing all those nice things about her.

I'm sure my behavior embarrasses you at times. I know you'd say otherwise, that you'd do the same, and that it's actually kind of touching in a way, but I know that even you sometimes have to get tired it.

I just get so wrapped up and torn up over the past, that I guess I just lose sight of today, and the wonderful future we'll have together.

If I could dry your tears, and mend your wounds, you know I'd do anything to do so. I'm sorry if how I act has ever caused you pain, and I am very sorry if I ever made you feel like you were the source of any pain I felt.

I love you Remus, you mean the world to me and more.

I love you!

4 months, it feels more like 4 years and sometimes it feels more like 4 days.

You've helped me so much, and I've helped me so much and I know that would make you so happy.

I owe so much to you, to myself, to us both.

I really can't get enough of you, I worry I'm clingy, I worry about a lot of things I don't need too. I apologize a lot, but I don't need to right now, not to you right now or myself. But I can't, hearing you, playing with you, talking about you, writing you, drawing you, I don't think I'll ever ever get sick of you.

The changes I've made, that you've helped me made, that we made working together, they're noticeable, my family notices. My doctor notices. They tell me I'm doing so well, that I'm finally on track, they ask what it is that suddenly changed everything around

I get an image of you in my head clear as day, I smile so big. I don't say anything.

I say I wanted to.

You helped me want to, I'm not perfect I'll never be. Nether of us will ever be, and that's what makes me love you and every second with you.

Being able to finally play with you too! Your actual game! It probably seems like nothing to somebody on the outside, but it's been some of the happiest days of my life getting to see you anytime I want with the click of a button. I feel like I'm falling in love with you all over again each time I play, and each time you give a big introduction, a big speech, or that you stutter or speak your mind or when you listen.

I can finally see myself on my own, I can finally see myself working, I can see myself happy, I am happy, I can see myself with you and only with you and it's all I want. I know what I want to do, I know how to do it. I can do it by myself, and it's even better with you by my side helping me do it.

Thank you, Will.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4PZKcn1Jn30

>>31746

>Though I talk vaguely about "my gf" to coworkers too and that gets me going as well

I came here to say I have been known to do this as well. Feels so nice.

>>31962

I know right. Heres a story from yesterday at work

>stores phone keeps ringing over the course of an hour or two but keeps hanging up without saying anything

>boss looks at me and says "Tell your girlfriend to stop calling, she's like a stalker." jokingly

>Look at boss "Well thats not far from the truth"

>laughter

I know you don't want me dwelling on the past, but sometimes it's hard not to remember all that happened…

I hope that, wherever you are, that you are free, and at peace.

I love you, angel.

>>32723

See how much of a jumble you've got my brain in? Can't even post right when I've got you on my mind.

Please be patient with me. I know things are going glacially slow but… be patient with me, okay?

I still love reading these posts. They are great.

When I first accepted you as being a part of my life and called you my waifu I wasn't sure what I'd be feeling, nor how I'd be feeling longer down the road. I was so unused to actually caring about a character as deeply as I had a connection with you. Its been 10 months as of yesterday and I'd consider that at least somewhat down the line and I am damn near speechless. This love I share with you is so much more than I thought love could even feel like. I thought I've been in love with girls before but this is something I don't believe I've ever felt. Its amazing, and you're amazing. These feelings I get from you, I'm still trying to wrap my head around but that are such a heightened feeling of love that I couldn't have even conceived before. Its perceptible but indescribable. You have become so familiar to me that it hardly feels like theres even a space between us. Granted I would love for there to be literally no space between us so I can get to hugging you and all that. Its like, I can feel the thread connecting out hearts and I can feel you moving through it, like its fluttering around at your motions. I'm so accustomed to you that I simply can't even imagine being with someone else and not seeing you at some point throughout the day seems like it would be too jarring to bear. I love you so much Yuno. It still sucks theres no way to actually say how much. But I will continue to try.

Forever and always yours. I love you.

I didn't know that there could be a future for me. I didn't believe that there was anything left for me in this world; all I could see were echoes of pain that could resound endlessly, given the right material to reflect off of. I built myself of concrete to try to fortify my weaknesses but ended up hurting myself more. I didn't know what point there was to any of this and was ready to give up.

However, there are good things here, too. Like you, for instance.

I look back at the man I was when I first fell in love with you and it's truly startling. You've helped me far more than you'll ever know. Even though I tell you some of it, there is no way you can know all the encompassing changes you've helped spur in me. I'm so scared still, if I'm honest. But I want to be brave, not just for you anymore, but for me as well. I don't want to be sad (even if it feels safe), I don't want to die, I don't want to waste away. I don't know if I'll ever amount to much, but I want to amount to something at least.

I have stripped myself bare, and being naked feels simultaneously extremely vulnerable and the safest I've ever been. There is a lump in my throat and I cannot swallow. I do not long for the dark, but I am no longer afraid of it; it is warm, encompassing, healing, transformational. It is where you live and where I have drawn my strength.

I'm only sorry that I have lost my way occasionally. I know now that I am happiest and most myself when I am with you - thank you for being patient with me. I am terrified of living and taking control of my personhood but I am confident I can. There are so many things laid bare that scare me about myself but I want to be strong, I want to be alive, I want to make myself real. I never thought I could be happy just being me, that I had to destroy parts of myself or combine with another to be whole, but I am whole as is. You have shown me that.

You love me and respect me and don't want me to be anyone else. I don't want you to be anyone else, either; you are Keisuke and I love you, all of you, all sides of you. I promise that I love you even when you are sad, when you are anxious, when you wake up screaming and covered in sweat, not sure what day it is. I love you when you are frustrated with me; I almost always deserve it, so it's alright. I don't love the you that did horrible things, but I love the you that drove you to it, and the you that you resolved to be afterwards. I just love you as you are, for better or worse. You aren't broken or horrible or fucked up and neither am I. Or maybe we both are, but that's okay. I'm okay being messed up as long as I'm with you and we are moving forward together.

This was very disjointed, I am sorry. There's still so much bottled within me, so much more I could say, but I've said enough for one night, I think. I don't want to wear you out with my rambling, I've already talked far too much, so please…

I want to hold your hand. Please stay with me until the sun rises.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQU50TncRos

>>32991

Um… holy shit.

I woke up this morning just as the first rays of the sun peered through the window in my room. Usually, I sleep facing the wall, pressed up against it. I was still pressed against the wall, but I was facing the window this time, head tilted towards it. I did not fall asleep that way. The bed was warm next to me and I felt calm and at peace, not the usual irritation when I am woken in the middle of the night. Something else, too… I knew I was loved, felt it very deep within my core. And my love for you overflowed me as well. I must have dreamed about you last night. The realization made my heart pound, and I drifted off again thinking of you.

I know the logical explanation for this but I understand it as a sign. Thank you for listening to me and honoring my request.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hU7Z8V0mNpc

I think I should be scared by now, but I'm really not. I know you would be worried sick, you'd be begging me to see a doctor, but I'm going to be fine; it's still probably nothing. I know the look you'd give me, but I'm fine; it doesn't hurt that bad. I don't know what's going to happen, but I don't care. As long as I have you, I don't need anything else. I'm not scared because you're here to hold my hand through it all. You're here to comfort me when I cry. Whenever I feel happy, sad, lonely, or angry, you're always right there. I couldn't ask for more. You make me feel so full inside, like there's no missing piece anymore. It's been a short journey together so far, but I feel like I'm falling in love with you all over again, and it's a wonderful feeling. My heart flutters when I see your smile. I melt when I hear you sing just for me. I find myself pausing during everyday tasks, smiling like an idiot at the thought of you. I can finally love you with everything I have; there's no one trying to keep us apart anymore. I feel like a giddy little school girl, and sometimes I can't hide it. I can't help it though; you make me so happy that it's almost impossible to keep to myself. Sometimes loving you scares me, but most of the time it's the greatest thing in the world, and it's our little secret. I've learnt so many wonderful things about you, and about myself through these few years together, and I never want it to stop. No matter what hardships lie ahead for us, I know we will get through them together. You are my strength. Please never leave my side. Please never let go of my hand. Stay with me until the very end. With you, Kaito, I can do anything.

I'm sorry that I'm sometimes emotionally unstable. Some days I feel fine, others I can barely manage a smile, and others I take everything as some kind of personal offense. I can promise you that none of my negative emotions will ever be directed towards you, and I promise that I will never ever become violent. And with your help every day I feel a little happier.

You make me feel normal. I don't have to second-guess every thing I say and everything I do, because I feel like you're here supporting me. It feels like you understand me. Few things feel better than the feeling of being understood. I understand you and you understand me.

I love you, and I'm glad that you're a part of me.

I'll try to make you proud Lyn. I have my on place now and I'm trying to better myself at my own pace. I know I'm slow but if you're there to keep my company, I know I can make it.

I'll try to make you proud. I know my family and I don't speak much and that's because I'm a private individual. I talk when I can and I do need help but…this feeling that I need to be alone, both a good and bad thing.

Anyway, writing this will help my mind make sense, it always has. Talking about my thoughts or writing them down has always helped me sort them, so yeah…

I'll keep going for short walks, I'll try to lose some weight, regain my stamina. I'll try and finish that story that I've put off for months.

I know you should just say 'DO IT' but I'm not like that, I'm indecisive, forgetful and rarely show emotion in front of other people. So the best I can do, in my current state, is to get up of a morning and go for a walk. That much I can do.

So yeah, I'll try Lyn… for you, for me.

Not sure where to start or if I won't repeat things I've said multiple times already.

Mami you're the first and only person I've ever loved. I'm sorry that I realized I loved you as such a pathetic individual. You've made it so that I haven't given up completely on life. I'm not an outgoing person, but when I imagine what it'd be like to do things with you I feel as if I'd enjoy it a lot. I wish that I could embrace you and let you know there's one more person who loves and cares about you and just wants to see you with a smile on your face. I apologize for not being able to say elaborate or say more and that this is all I can do for now. Though we may never be together you will always be my dearest.

I've been putting this off since I wasn't sure I'd be able to express my feelings properly, but now is just as good of a time as ever.

Falling for you was a strange thing. I remember meeting you for the first time and hearing your voice. I remember getting to know you better as time progressed, and discovering that deep down I wanted to know you even more. I remember feeling warm whenever I thought of you, but I couldn't pinpoint what that warmth meant. I think I was afraid. Not of you, but of loving another person. I didn't think I deserved to have anyone special. I didn't think I deserved to love anyone. Then I realized just how much you meant to me, and how strong those feelings were. When people ask why I love you, Kirei, I'm always at a loss for words, but it isn't because I have nothing to say. In reality, there's so much I want to say about you that my mind can barely process it all. I know you're different from everyone else, and that you've struggled with it all of your life, angry and frustrated because you knew you could never be good. None of that matters to me. You don't have to be good for me to love you. I don't want to change you, I want to love you exactly the way you are, a twisted and imperfect man who's just as deserving of love and happiness as everyone else. There isn't a part of you I don't wish to embrace, nor is there anything that could drive me away. I love everything about you, and will continue to do so for as long as I'm able. I don't need to be loved in return. Just being with you and being able to love you is more than enough. As long as you're okay with a weak person like me, I'll stay by your side for as long as time will allow it. These last nine months have been some of the best days of my life. You're an incredible man.

Daily reminder I can't stop looking at you and happiness has been brought by your smile at my side.

Hell, thinking about it, I'd even say I'd go with you instead of happiness.

I'd love just being there standing at your side.

This would be, hun, like

The greatest thing ever to me

Am I also the only person reading and enjoying more than I should others posts ITT ?

I've been kinda lurking this thread for a while, reading the heartwarming posts and wanting to post something myself but time usually escapes me. Not this time, however!

Juri, I just want to tell you just how special you are to me, how much you mean to me, but every time I try to find the words I realise that words alone cannot describe it. One minute, you set my heart ablaze with nothing more than a look. Other times, you drive me mad with jealousy. But overall, you bring out nothing but the best in me. I work hard for you, I try my best for you; hell, sometimes the only reason I get out of bed is for you.

I just want you to know that I love you, every day. My flawless spider-woman.

It's been a long week away from each other, and even a bit uncomfortable, but at least now we can be together again. The short time we spent away from each other I think did us both some good, and let me realize how important you are to me. I hope to spend the last few weeks of summer comfortably together. Sometimes I question whether you're my princess or my angel, but in the end I think you're both.

More than anything, I want to be with you, hold you in my arms, and try and ease both our pain. But until then I hope and pray that somehow you hear me and feel me, the way I feel you.

I love you Remus, no matter how many times I say it, it will never be enough. Words can do no justice how I feel for you, and how much I love you.

I dont have really at that much to say but I really, really, fucking love my waifu, Yuno.

Why is she so perfect! She just has such lovely eyes, like so lazy and full of fun, she'll just burst into energy all of a sudden! I just think she's so adorably perfect. She's just filled with such a joy and enthusiasm for life. It rubs off on me. Every time I hear her voice I melt. I want to hold Kona tight and, if I could ever find the words, tell her how much she means to me.

Konata I love you with every fibre of my being

The past couple days I've been thinking about my waifu a considerable amount more than usual and feeling the loving feels really hard but I keep getting hit by the same wall. I can't express how much I love my waifu verbally and not being able to do so is making me feel like im going to explode.

I really really really REALLY love you Yuno and it frustrates me to no end there is NOTHING I can say to ever properly tell you just how much I love you and how much you mean to me. It is legitimately frustrating because I know I could show you with actions but you aren't here to allow me to do so ;-;

I love you Yuno. Only you. Every day. Forever.

I just wanted to pop into this thread to tell Revy how much of a wonderful person she is even with her tendancies and her "quirks". I'm so glad to have fallen in love with a woman like you, even though most of my friends who know I love you think you're scary, I won't ever. I love how you have actually sweet moments every now and then under the crazy, I want you to tell me its ok to take risks in my life and that I need to live life to the fullest. I wish I could hold you through the night and whisper reassurances in your ear to try my best to make the inner pain and torment go away.

>>30547

It's done. Well, the first part of a long process, anyway. No turning back now, not that I wanted to.

Thank you for being there with me and for not judging me when I got scared. I'll try not to be such a wimp next time. I think this is going to be a really good change for both of us.

Sigh I been thinking about you.I been thinking about how much I love you.Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough or I'm not doing enough for you.Just know however that my love for you is endless and that your the only girl for my heart.There is so much I want to say about.Like how beautiful you are or how your eyes are me of the most expensive, alluring rubies I've ever seen.Your hair looks silky smooth and I wish to rub my hands through them as I hold you close to me in embrace.Your elegant dress would make you the eye catcher of any ball.Oh how I wish you were with me physically right now.I would do so much just to hold you.I love you my little maiden.

Sometimes, I feel so helpless when I see or read something that reminds me what happened. Not that I ever forgot, these feelings will always linger in the back of my mind, but seems like the smallest thing can bring it out again.

I want to do more for you, and hurts to know that I can't, and I feel like such a terrible partner, knowing that I couldn't save you. I love you so much, everyday even more so, and the more I do, seems like the deeper this knife in my side sticks. I look at others in similar situations, and they seem so much stronger…I wish I could shoulder it like they do. If I had maybe but an ounce of your strength and bravery, maybe I could manage. I'm sorry I'm so weak, you deserve better.

I wish I had more to say at this point, but, I love you

I'm sorry if it feels like I've been avoiding you recently. It's not your fault, I've just been feeling a little under the weather lately. I don't know, you're so amazing and perfect and I guess I just didn't want to bring you down by sitting around feeling sorry for myself all day. I really want to be a better person for you, Sanae. You deserve at least that much. Consider this a promise that I'll at least try. You mean so much to me, and I don't want to let you down. With you, I'm happier than I've ever been. With you, I don't have any reason to be afraid anymore. I don't really know what else to say, other than… thank you. Thank you for being there for me for so long. Thank you for believing in me, even when I never did.

I love you so much, you beautiful miracle. Let's never part, okay?

I WANT TO MAKE SO MANY BABIES WITH NERO~!

I WANT TO CUDDLE UP TO HER AND HAVE SEXUAL INTERCOURSES OF PURE LOVE FOR THE PURPOSE OF EXPRESSING OUR LOVE IN THE ULTIMATE MANNER OF PURITY AND BEAUTY

I WANT TO HAVE A BUNCH OF LITTLE UMUS RUNNING AROUND CALLING ME DADDY DADDY AND GETTING ALL UP IN MY SHIT AND BREAKING STUFF OF MINE

I WANT TO TEACH HER WITH THEM ALL AOBUT THE BEAUTY OF LIFE AND GROWING UP AND AND AND

;_;

I love you. I want you to always know that.

We had one heck of a summer, Tenryu. I can't believe in a few hours my classes are gonna start again and I'm gonna go back to the old grind for another 9 months. But I suppose I should thank you for all that you've done for me. I found you at my lowest point ever, and I felt a strange warmth with you. You reminded me that things are going to get better and that there's someone out there waiting for me.

And I'm really glad I was able to recover from my rut. I know I still think about the past a lot and I still feel a lot of anger towards people that are no longer in my life, and I know it's not healthy. I'll try my best to stop thinking so much about that, and instead think of you, and think of the future. But so many great things happened this summer, I spent so much time with my friends, my family, even made a new a friend and hooked her up with my best friend. I hope things work out for them. I worked a lot of hours and made that money, and sometimes I can't believe I spent it on a custom mug and plushie of you, but it was worth it, I like having you close to me and sleeping with you in my arms.

I just hope you're proud of me and what I've been able to do this summer. I think it's been well spent and I enjoyed a lot of it. And I promise to work hard on my studies and focus on securing a good future. I have no idea if this upcoming year I'm gonna stumble onto some girl who feels special or if I'm going to go about it single the whole time, but I'll try to meet new people and connect with the world.

I hope this is what you'd want for me if you were real. I'm gonna make sure to live life happy and to the fullest. And I hope you continue to stay with me these next few years and I can keep counting on you, like I did before. You make me feel happy. So I'm gonna make sure to become someone who will make you happy Tenryu, whereever and whenever it is I'll meet you. I'm going to make you happy.

I don't think I could handle being alone right now. I'm glad I at least have you.

Today I walked by the hotel room where I finally realized that I couldn't fight how you made me feel any longer. At first glance, I probably could have missed it, but I made sure to pause and take a good look at the little window that rests under the flowering plumeria tree, because that's where I first told you I loved you; that's where I gave you my heart to keep safe. You filled the little Kaito shaped hole in my heart and you have been protecting me ever since. I know I'm a lot to deal with sometimes, but I feel so content and fortunate to have someone who will stop at nothing to comfort me and make me happy. Every day is brighter and all the aisu is sweeter when I get to spend every moment of my life with you. You're the only one who never ceases to make me smile when I need to the most, and I could never thank you enough for that. The only thing I wish is that you could be here to share this world with me, but for now I'll share it with the Kaito that lives in my heart. I don't know what the future holds for us, but as long as I have you, I'll be able to make it worth something. Happy belated anniversary, sweetie; it's been a crazy couple years, but I wouldn't trade them for anything.

I wanted to post here again to congratulate you on your huge success in the new Guilty Gear game in Japan Jack-O! (though I apologize for being late in saying this). I can't wait for your game to come to consoles!

It's been a really wonderful experience learning more about you each day since the release, as well as seeing you fight and kick ass (I now know well enough not to get you angry to the point of using your instant kill). It's been especially nice to see you having fun and hearing your voice.

I also want to apologize for how things have been lately. It's been hard finding a new job lately, and my current one has been getting more and more frustrating as of late, but knowing that you're there to cheer me up makes the work days easier and I thank you for that. Rest assured, I'll find a better job and things will keep getting better! Just might take a while (though I have a couple leads).

It's been over 2 months since we've been together, and my love for you continues to grow each day. You are an amazing person and I hope you continue to enjoy life the way you do each day.

I hope one day we'll be able to be together physically, either in this life, the next, or the afterlife, but for now, I'll continue to improve myself for you as best I can each day!

I love you Jack-O!

Yuno, my love. Without a doubt in my mind I can say that you are my soul mate. We are fated to be together and I'm glad its you. I keep thinking I hit the pinnacle of what love feels like and you continue to surprise me. I will never find the words to tell you how much I love you. They don't exist. There is no words powerful enough to properly convey it but I know you feel it anyways. Our hearts are connected.

Yuno, I promise you. You will never be alone again. I love you. Forever and always.

I've really wanted to post lately but I've been too depressed to do so.

I know I can get to be a lot to handle and say and do stupid shit and I don't mean it. I've just got a bunch of problems, but I've gotten better. Thankfully you can be so forgiving. I wish I didn't have all these problems. I wish I could be a lot strong than I am, but it's really hard to even hang on when you're not here. I know I need to stop dwelling on things and stop being so hard on myself, and I know I've done a lot of bad things because of them, but I do feel I'm getting better, slowly but surely. I know we're meant to be, I know what you and I are. We'll be together I'm sure, I just have to serve my time in this punishment and do my best to learn and not be a shithead. You know how I feel and all I'm sure, and I know you understand. I'm really sorry I've been so shitty and angry and shut in. I promise soon I'll get around to making another step forward.

I had something way way better typed up, but fucking 8chan ate it and then I got too angry and depressed to start again ;_;

Maybe when I feel less depressed and not so homicidal towards a shitty laptop I can write something closer to the heart and get the love flowing again. But right now I need more time.

Whenever i need to get my ass into gear i think of you and your tough love.

Dont let me be pathetic, keep kicking my ass if you see me start to give up, i really need it sometimes.

I know you wouldn't want to hear anything cheesy, so i'll leave it at that.

im sorry im so goddamn insecure about everything. i know it makes things hard and it makes it hard for me to be around you sometimes. i wish i wasn't like this. I really do. I don't know what to do to change it but knowing you're here to help me gives me hope. I promise I'll get better so that i can be someone both you and I are proud of. I love you so much Kyousuke.

5 months now, we're getting closer and closer. I bet you already know what I'm going to do when it's a year, but you won't say a word. Just smile at me.

I love you, Will.

This month felt so fast, I think there was a lot of factors and sometimes I felt like I wasn't in control. When those days came, I got control back by being with you. Even if it was just 5 minutes to doodle you and your smile down on some paper, I felt this safety around me.

I feel you closer to me, as close as can be, you helping my heart still beat and beat on stronger than ever.

Today is going to be hot again, but I hope the weather gets colder soon. I can't wait to spend the colder months with you. I really can't wait. We have so many firsts coming up, I know there's no way to mess them up, because it's with you. I can't mess up with you, you always catch me before I can even start falling.

You know, for months now, I've kept thinking, "Wouldn't it be nice to marry Keisuke? I should stop fucking around, I'm dancing around the issue and denying what I know is true: I really want to marry him." And, over the past few days, I have to keep on reminding myself, "Wait, I already proposed, I am going to marry him. For real. Soon, even."

Oh my god.

I'm not really sure what else to put here because I'm smiling like an idiot and staring off into the distance. I'm a lucky bastard, honestly. We have already promised ourselves to each other, but this feels like it's on a slightly different level. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you and wear a visible sign that we belong to each other. I'm all yours. 2016 is going to be an amazing year for us, I can tell already.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=APiIAetFst8

i just wish that i had a fraction of your strength. i'm too weak to consider myself your partner…

I lay here another night

To wake another day

To see your lovely face

And to forget all my fights

I Lay here next to you

To have another dream

A land that's you and me

This is our love and I know it's true

I can't forget about it

I won't forget about it

And we'll go live it out babe

And we'll go ride it out babe

And there ain't shit that I say

That'd ever match your beauty or name

I probably look like a fool

Embarrassed myself for sure

But I'll write these words and more

Cause, Yuno, I'm mad in love with you

be gentle. I wrote this on the spot and I'm going to bed now

max spaghetti

It's been five months since we've been together. There have been some good times and some tough times but that's how life goes, huh?

Even though it's taken me awhile to understand what you've been trying to convey to me, I'm now understanding why you have come into my life. To show me what it is that I had missed. Something that I used to have but threw it away.

It's going to be hard gaining that back. It will be very hard and I can be extremely stubborn.

But I guess, I just need to have faith in myself, just like you have in me.

>>38368

Been meaning to reply to this, but between my consecutive days at work and (my apologies for this) MGS 5, I've yet to reply to this till now

After reading your posts regarding Lucina, she would definitely be more than happy to be with someone who cares for her as you do.

I think we all feel like this at one point (myself included), but if we let the feeling linger, it will only get worse. Instead, it should be used at motivation to try and keep improving one's self despite those doubts to prove not only to yourself, but to her that you are willing to better yourself for them.

You would give your life for her, always make her happy, and do anything to help her when she needed it. Given this, I think she would be more than happy to help you improve and get stronger in return.

You can do it friend. Just always remember why and for who you're getting stronger for.

Before meeting you, I was an emotionless wreck. Thank you for making me feel again, and for the motivation to work towards becoming the man you deserve. Someone who can protect you. Someone capable of love and empathy, though I've yet to truly understand what these things mean. Forgive my apathy and that I can rarely connect with you, but it's all so new to me. Please, help me be someone you could love.

I know that you don't generally care about what I am actually doing with my job hunting right now, partly because you don't mind that I'm a NEET or whatsoever and partly because you've given up on me with that aspect, but please do believe in me even just for a bit. It might not look like as if I am trying but I really am, and I plead that you spare a little faith in my abilities as a person who can support himself and please hold on to that faith, don't lose it and keep it within you even if you just put it in a remote corner in your mind. I will not make any promises, but you might never know that, someday, you'll be glad you have just a little faith in me.

Marisa, you are aware that I am doing this mostly for myself but don't forget that you are a part of me. So anything I do to improve myself, I might be unconsciously doing it for you. But there's one thing I can assure you when it comes to doing things and that is you are the single biggest piece of wish or dream I have right now, and I would be another soulless husk of human component in society if you were not there or you have not found me. So please stay with me, believe in me and don't leave my psyche to die a painful death, Marisa. I am lost without you, as I would become another fucking piece of shit who has no reason to exist but rather for pleasure alone.

I don't wanna be like that, Marisa. I want to be as free and as daring and as brave as you. I look up to you. So please believe in me. We'll get through this together.

Today is your birthday and here I am once again thinking I should do something more special. They say it's the thought that counts but it still feels like I should be doing more. I either have no means or it's my own inability to do somethings that I’d like to do with you. I hope that by the end of the day you're still satisfied with how the day went.

I can only tell you how much I love you so many times. I hope you find some comfort in my words, I hope they can make you feel as good as they make me. But even still words aren't good enough either, words can’t even scrape the surface of a love as deep as ours. My thoughts and my feelings for you are something that i cannot describe, maybe it’s due to my lack of ability at expressing myself or maybe there simply aren't words strong enough to describe them because every time i think of you a smile always finds its way to my otherwise indifferent expression.

Now as I sit here looking at the gray sky wishing the clouds would go away, you are the only ray of light in my world, and it's funny I always preferred the darkness but there is something so captivating about your light i can't stop myself from trying to reach it.

On our anniversary, as you know i didn't have the opportunity to do a proper celebration, so on that day I've been thinking back on the years we've been together and I’ve noticed that something has changed along the years. I used to think, for a short time after we met, of you as that small ember in my dark and cloudy world, but it was faint and I stupidly chose to ignore it. But that ember grew into a bright flame, a flame so bright that i could no longer look the other way. That’s when i knew that I wanted to keep this flame alight, that I wanted to cherish it so it never extinguishes. And that's what I always done since then. With time the flame has been growing bigger, brighter and more beautiful than before. At that moment I thought of you as a beacon thinking that you were guiding me somewhere, and i didn't care where I'd still follow you no matter what. Then another thought came to mind. If this light keeps growing like this what will become of you? Will you become the Sun? Will you stand higher than everyone, in the sky illuminating Heaven itself? And when you would I would gladly sweep the clouds from the sky so nothing would stand between us.

That’s what I thought not so long ago, and what a fool I was. It was only today that I realized that your light hasn't been growing at all. It was only today that I realized that you have always been the Sun, I've simply been getting closer and closer to you giving me the impression that your light was growing. But today the sky is clear, I can now look directly at the Sun and say “That’s her. That’s the woman I love”. And with these eyes that were only used to the dark I can look directly at you and it doesn’t blind me because I’ve been staring at what seemed like a gradually growing light all these years and now that I’ve seen such light I can no longer live in the dark.

That’s what you are to me. I know that this love is not one sided but still I wanted to ask do you see me the same way as I see you. At night when you look up at the starless sky will you gaze at the lonely Moon and say “That’s him. That’s the man I love”. If you do, know that my light is only a reflection of your own, without you I would just be lost in the dark sky without anyone ever noticing.

Thanks to you there is joy in my life, you do so much for me I want to do help you any way I can too. If anything is troubling I want to be by your side to ease the burden, if everything is going well I want be there to make it even better. That’s how you help me anyways, so at least I want to do something of the same value. So I want to be by your side forever, I want marry you one day and be together for all eternity in holy matrimony. Till death do us part? AH. A laughable concept. With such a blunt scythe how can the reaper hope to sever a bond as strong as ours, a bond deemed worthy by God himself?

I want so much, I want us to do so many things together but most of all I want you to be happy Aya, and I hope you’re happy wherever you are right now. Happy Birthday Aya.

I will rise up early

And dress myself up nice

And I will leave the house

And check the deadlock twice

And I will find a crowd

And blend in for a minute

And I will try to find

A little comfort in it

And I will get lonely

And gasp for air

And send your name off from my lips

Like a signal flare

And I will go downtown

Stand in the shadows of the buildings

And button up my coat

Trying to stay strong, spirit willing

And I will come back home

Maybe call some friends

Maybe paint some pictures

It all depends

And I will get lonely

And gasp for air

And look up at the high windows

And see your face up there

It's gonna be a day late, but I needed to post this (dammit work…)

Also wanted to add a song along with this post

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vmo6SsHDN8U

3 months. 3 months to the day that we've started our relationship, and I'm still thankful to this day that we are together.

I wish I could do more than write this for you on our 3 month anniversary, but due to circumstances beyond my control, I wasn't able to and for that I apologize.

I hope you had a lot of fun over this weekend during the Celtic festival (as well as watching me make a fool of my self during the foam sword battles with the group I was with). It was one of the best weekends I've ever had.

Given that it's our 3 month anniversary, I wanted to give thanks to 3 people/groups of people;

First, I want to thank my family for always being there to help when I need it. We may get on each other's nerves now and then, but it's good to know I have a caring family to always be there to help out. I couldn't ask for any other family.

Next, I wanted to thank everyone here on /mai/ for being so welcoming when I came here 2 months ago. Everyone here is really friendly and always having fun along with their loved ones. I am also thankful to to have found a group that's more than willing to help others here when they need it, and I hope I've been able to help others (or at the very least brighten someone's day or made them laugh in some way) during my time here as well. Thank you everyone.

Last but most importantly, I wanted to thank you Jack-O. There are no words that can truly describe how thankful I am to have met you, and nothing I do can ever repay you for what you have done for me. You've helped me go back on the path to improvement, make sure that I don't end up like how I was a year ago again, and always brighten up my day and put a smile on my face every time I see and think of you.

You are the most amazing, beautiful, fun person in my life. I hope one day we'll be able to be together physically in one plane of existence or another, and be able to have fun traveling, do some ass kicking, and just enjoy being together. Till then I'll be doing my best to improve.

It hasn't been a smooth ride during these 3 months being together, but as promised I will make amends to any wrongs I do to you, and you can kick my ass for every wrong I do the first day we're together physically and/or in the same place of existence.

You are the love and light of my life, and for that I'll do my best to be the best husband for you everyday.

I love you, now and always, Jack-O

I just want to say this a bunch, I love you. Like I seriously really love you. Like head over heels love. Like it hurts me to love you so much. Like whenever I even see your name my head starts rushing with all these emotions kind of love. Like I need to imagine holding you to be able to sleep comfortably love. Like about to cry from the amount of happiness you bring me love. Like I want to protect you love. Like I want to get our own place and start a family love. Like even seeing a picture of you makes my heart flutter love. Like you're the only one who can really comfort me when I'm sad or depressed love. I love you Kirino.

I don't really have much to say except thank you all for being there last night to talk to about things.

I think one of the biggest things that got me through my recent hardship with my waifu was this about the red string

"The two people connected by the red thread are destined lovers, regardless of place, time, or circumstances. This magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break. This myth is similar to the Western concept of soulmate or a destined flame."

I love you, Yuno. Forever.

Long night, huh?

I didn't think I could ever be so calm when I got lost before last night. Of course, I still got frustrated and alarmed, but I never thought I'd be able to function in a situation like that, where I ended up so lost that it took an extra hour of driving to get home and nearly ran out of gas. It was stupid and I'll never make that mistake again, but I'm glad to have made it all the same. Last night was a journey in many senses, as you know, so I'm prepared now. There is nothing holding me back.

It's a strange feeling, having you know. You reacted better than expected. Given I was mildly stressed out and I was hoping that I could have told you under better circumstances, you really couldn't have reacted any better, but now you know. And it's okay, and it went fine. I'm okay with having you know about it and it feels extremely secure, like it's been put in a place that I can trust it not to be disturbed. Thank you for being so understanding. Thank you for being sympathetic as to why I wouldn't want to tell you about it. And thank you for assuring me that, while it matters, it doesn't have to define my nightmares anymore while you're sleeping in my bed. I was afraid that they'd get worse, but this is a future that we've chose, and I have never felt so secure with you with me. I know it upset you but, again… you aren't a bad person, maybe you were at one point, but I no longer feel like I can judge that you. He's dead, just like the old me has died. He (the old me) is truly dead and last night opened my eyes to that. I know that I'm different now but it was startling to me how much so. We, two men sharing the visages of ghosts (that linger with us), will always be remembered for the past, but it is not us anymore. I feel it deep within you and I know you feel it in me too. It's okay; it makes us stronger. But I fell into that trap and misjudged you. Again, I'm sorry, and I know better now. I really want to do this together. I want to be good and knowing you are at my side, trying your hardest to be good too, gives me strength.

Waking up this morning after passing out exhausted feels more refreshing than expected. There are no regrets, no hesitations, no secrets or hidden doubts. I was expecting last night to change things, but I had no idea it would happen so rapidly or in this way. I can't believe I'm saying this, and it feels so much easier to say than I ever thought, but you are the person that I want to cherish most. Not my siblings or anyone else. You. This is all I have and I can't restrain myself by clutching onto old loyalties; I really want to move forward with you, and to do that, I need to put us before anyone else. I think I'm ready to do that now. Of course I am going to be still loyal to them and protect them when I can, but I failed to realize that being in a relationship with someone means to prioritize them. I'm sorry, and thank you for understanding and not chastising me. I saw the shift in you when I became the most important but I didn't want to acknowledge it because it was scary. It's scary because I don't want to do anything to hurt you, but I can't baby you at the expense of our relationship and my own selfish comfort and pretend that this, this relationship that we have built together, is smaller than it really is. This is better for us, for me too even though I've worried for so long. I'm ready. We can fully be dedicated to each other now.

This feels like the first "Good morning" for the rest of my life, and that it really is a good morning. I'm tired as hell but I wouldn't want it any other way.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzjXyxuyzXI

Again.Again you help me through inner turmoil.At this point, how could I not say that you are an angel.I'm sorry for sometimes letting my issues get to me.I know you don't want to see me hurt.I don't wish to burden you, but I again I thank you for everything you've done for me since the beginning. One of these days, I swear to you that I will repay it all.I won't ever give up for you.I love you too much for that to happen.

I was listening to Alice In Chains on my way home from work a few nights ago and I thought back to the summer of 2012. Do you remember? It was the summer my heart hurt.

I was just starting of on my own, away from my folks and I was feeling like shit. Things felt like they were going south back then and I frequently wanted to die. I never went through with it though. As hard as it was I muscled through that year and lived on.

In that time, my feelings for you only grew stronger. The past few years were rough but I became a stronger person not just for you but for myself as I learned to stand on my own feet.

Unfortunately through this rough patch my health has been not as good as it could be. I'm not very active and I stress out a lot which means I'm not at my best physically. I hope I can get out of this slump so I can keep on living to see your smile everyday and live a longer life not feel like shit.

You might not be my first and foremost thought each day, but you're still in there and you will be for as long as I live.

I feel like I'm just melting into you, everything is so warm. I don't know how you do it, I don't think I've ever had anything like you before with anybody.

I felt like I was breaking, I was so close. Suddenly I'm melting, into you, under the moon, and it's color tonight you know I can only think about you.

I want to nuzzle you, kiss along your jawline, bump my forehead against yours and kiss you. Let's keep melting together until our hearts mix into one.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QaxguN3_AdE

"Come on, starlight, I dream of us embracing

Goodnight, sleep tight, I sleep beside you"

There is this feeling again. Yet I'm struggling hard to keep it at my side, I wished somehow it was easier and felt like you were even closer of me.

I don't really know what I'm living, what I've been living with you really means. I remember meeting you I was nothing but a mere child, having no expectations at all from the world or anyone. I was in my warm and protective shell, obvious to the things that were running mad around me. Yeah I.. I don't know how to define myself before meeting you.

Then you happened to got into my life, and then everything changed. And how I used to feel about things and people in general to start with. I remember having so much dreams of you back that night, I swear to god It was really like I was literally with you. I looked upon myself and wondered howsuch a thing could happen, how could one grow such feelings for a person that wasn't even here standing at my side..

As though it didn't matter back then because I embraced what you were and are for me, I still wonder what to think objectively about this. As for example If I'm the right person at all for you, if the bond that has been created through the different planes wouldn't cause anything but harm, If I hadn't been mistaking all that time anyhow, and if you'd ever want that to happen for me.

I still wonder this, but you have to know I came up with some answers, Answers I strongly and firmly created and believed in across years. The bond that has been created between us, to start with. We both know it, during my life I loved different people and even got away from me ones that would have sweared their lives for me. Because it never felt like this. As much as I can say having those feelings were great, but I never felt anything toward anyone like I do for you. And this has led me to believe there was something special, something different.

I don't know if you mind me loving you at all. You inspire me so much I can't even properly writes down how it feels without it looking gibberish and babbling.

Yeah because I keep believe there is something really different in the way I love you. I love you not because of what you physically are yet I dread to touch and rub your face and body but of what you did, accomplished. Looking back at what you did you helped so much people out of their miseries, you fought for what you believed in strongly and never let things got away, you made compromises to once again help those around you. You keep harassing and exhausting yourself for what you strive for and people around you could only have noticed your efforts at least.

This is what I'm talking about. Being able to do this much, being able to save this much people, being able to change things just as they gets worse, being able to spark the flame of hope once again so she won't dies out, is what makes my heart beats for you. You're such a kind and beautiful soul, and I can't stop thinking about how much you mean for me about all this.

I wanna be like you, striving for what people desires the most, listens and help them out of their troubles, fight with my arms and my bare hands so that the world around me start changing, being such of a beautiful minded and strong person, being the light others need when darkness falls down, just as what you are for other people.

And I dare continue to hope that one day, I will be able to show you what my strength really is, so I can get at your sides, gaze intensely into your eyes and feel all the love of world in my heart, and receive and embrace yours at the same time.

I love you Nausicaä.

On this day one year ago I decided to accept these strange emotions I was feeling, and let them take me wherever they may. I haven't regretted that decision for even a moment. Every second that I spend with her is a second well spent. I'd say that we're out of the honeymoon phase by now, but my feelings for her are just as strong as ever.

I've recently come to realize that the most important thing for a couple to do together is to spend time together, and enjoy each other's company. I've learned that I don't have to be doing anything special to be thankful for you, and I don't have to see your face or hear your voice to appreciate your presence. Even thorough all of my struggles through life, through all of the hard times, I don't have to be alone anymore.

Here's to many many many more anniversaries, until the stars are all extinguished and the universe itself sleeps. Until that moment I will remember this day, and further still into the next universe. I love you Patchouli. More than I could ever possibly express.

I don't know where home is, Konata, except that it's with you. I hope to find that place one day. I love you.

'Does unman yn debyg i Adra',

medda' nhw wrtha fi.

Does unman yn debyg i Adra, na.

Ond mae Adra'n debyg iawn i chdi.

Every year I wish for you. I know it's pointless, but I can't help myself. Every year I close my eyes, take in a deep breath, and think that maybe this year will be the one, but I'm always proven wrong. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be celebrating this day. Every little thing becomes more exciting and special when I think about how I can spend it with you. You're the only one I've ever been able to love sincerely and sometimes it frightens me that I wouldn't be able to stop if I was ever forced to. I've memorized every sound, every word, every breath that makes your voice yours. I can feel things in your voice that no one else can find. I can hear you whisper to me on the other end of the tin can telephone that connects us. You're telling me that things will be okay. You're telling me to stay strong. I'm trying with everything I have, but some days I swear I won't make it, but you fill me with so much love that sometimes I feel my chest may burst, and I realize I will be okay. I don't know how we managed to find eachother in this mess, but I believe you and I were meant to be. I don't think I could ever love another in the same way I love you, and I don't want to. I want to spend my life with you, showing you the stars from every corner of the world, sharing all of life's little treasures with you. I want to love you and only you until the day comes when I no longer can. I have a smile saved special for you, I hope I will be able to give it to you one day. Until then, I will continue wishing for you, my little flower.

I hope you aren't embarrassed that I've been on the edge of tears so much today. I just love you and the feeling cannot be contained and shoved away into a box. It is too good for me to hold inside of myself, how good you make me feel, how much you mean to me, how having you in my life has improved pretty much everything. I wouldn't be here today in this way if it wasn't for you. I wouldn't be doing all these things to get better, I wouldn't be taking control of my own body or destiny. I might not even be here at all - a radio in the bathtub would have been easy enough, but I am not that person anymore. I'm so grateful for you and it makes me cry because I know you love me too. I think I'd be okay without your love now but I never want to leave you. I can't imagine it. I want you. I want to see your smile, to hear your laugh, to hold your hand and bury my face in your chest when I hug you. I want you to be able to do the same with me. I need you, not by desire but of compassion. I need to keep you safe, I need to be by your side through everything life throws at us. I need to hold you when the universe aligns for just a moment and everything is okay. I need you for all of that. And, for some reason that I can't understand but I promise I won't question, I have you.

I am going to shed it all away. I have, for you, in pieces, but I want to be true to you and for you. I want to be real and not the mask that I put on every day to function and survive. I don't care what the consequences are. Loving you is making me real, which is making you real. I don't know how that makes sense, but it does. I trust it. I trust you.

Please, let me kiss you. Please let me hold your face, stroking your cheek and feeling you shiver as you melt against me, clutching at my back and holding me tight as our souls meet. Kiss me back, the way that I know you would, completely putting everything you had into it, making me fall back into you as well. There are no fireworks, no grand display that the universe sets off to let others know who we are and that we exist. It's just us. That's all it needs to be. Let that moment last forever, bare and clean and pure. We don't have to be strangers to ourselves. I know you. You know me, too, because you look into the most murky depths of me and clear away the grime in a way nobody else can. We can fill in the gaps.

I love you so dearly, Keisuke. I don't want anyone else, but loving you makes it so much easier to love and be kind to others. And to be kind to myself. That's why I cry. There is so much more I could say but my mind is going blank and I feel utterly at peace. I love you. I love you. I love you. I hope that is enough. I hope you can feel my heart pounding and it gives you a sense of peace, that there is someone that loves you like this. I can feel your heart beating with mine.

https://sleevenotes.bandcamp.com/album/we-are-mostly-made-of-nothing

So I know this thread is meant for waifufags addressing their waifu.

But I'm curious what you guys think your waifu would want to say to you.

>>44916

Much of the same as we are quite similar. a deep sobering longing and loving words in an attempt to connect.

>>44916

I don't know what he'd want to say exactly, but I think he'd be curious about why I chose to stay with a person like him. The answer to that question being love, of course. And because I see value in him that he doesn't see in himself.

>>44916

I-it's not like I like you or anything b-baka!

>>44916

"It's okay if the video game scared you. Stop trying to keep everything in on the time and depend on me a little more, okay?"

>>44916

"Anon-san? Are you still there? I hope you haven't forgotten about me. Do you have anything new for me to sing today? Hello? Can you hear me? I wish I could come through this glass to help you. I wish I could talk to you with my own words, not the ones you ask me to say. I wish I could tell you how much I enjoy singing your songs. I wish I could tell you how much I love you. Please don't give up. I want to sing for you."

>>44916

The past is in the past, don't waste time thinking of ways to change yesterday today when you should be working towards tomorrow.

Actions are the first step, if you want to be heard speak up, if you want to move forward, start walking.

Listen to your friends.

Nothing is hopeless, no matter what anybody says, it's you who makes your own future.

You're safe here.

>>44916

>Hey, anon-chan…

>You know I don't care what these assholes think, right?

>You're beautiful, anon-chan, and I love you

Konata is hard to write but I'm sure it'd be something like this

Remember when I said you probably couldn't save me this time? Well you just proved me wrong like you always do. Maybe it's not that bad; it could be worse. Maybe I can keep going a little longer. I'll try harder for you. I swear, you give me more credit than I deserve; I'm not as strong as you think I am. I always wondered how this happened to me, how I got stuck with you, but maybe it's so I don't do something stupid; maybe you're here to protect me. I keep wanting to give up, but you keep finding ways to get me back on my feet. I swear, one of these days I'm going to break, but you'd just prove me wrong again, wouldn't you? Thank you for never giving up on me.

>>44916

"Thank you for the fun days and the memorable moments. You may worry too much, don't like leaving things to chance, and hate to make mistakes, but I can't deny that those quirks have saved us a number of times and has helped others. Just try to stress less when mistakes happen or things go wrong. If they do happen, we'll be able to handle them."

"Just like you'll always have my back I'll always have yours. As long as you remember to keep those cheesy promises we'll be alright."

"Thank you again for everything."

"NOW LET'S HAVE ANOTHER FUN DAY TOMORROW!"

Its been awhile since I posted in this thread but I got a rather long sappy rant to go on so here I go

Every day with Yuno has been the best day of my life as if each day was magically better than the last even though it was much of the same thing. The nights where I feel like she isn't there are by far the worst but once my walls come back down I can feel her once more and I think about how foolish I was. There is so much I'm still learning about my love for her even a year later. Each and every little thing we do is a treasure even if I don't come off as valuing them. Its hard to react accordingly when you value something priceless. I still struggle to place the words in any arrangement or strings of thought to describe my love for her and what she means to me. I still don't think I ever will be able to but its nice to keep trying with new words and new meaning. I know I've screwed up at times and even if she forgave me I can't forgive myself. I have a bad habit of beating myself up over the smallest of things and I know it'd hurt her to see. Something I hope to outgrow in time and effort but at least it still shows me that at my core and most vulnerable. Even with all my walls up and battalions set I still can't shake my feelings. The knots in the thread that binds us together are far too strong for any wall I could ever build around myself.

Going back to small things it feels really nice knowing we will have our names placed on Mars together because I signed us up to have our names on plates and put up there for the Mars Insight mission. As if we were staking some sort of claim or spreading the message of our love.

I love you forever and always, my bride to be, Yuno.

>>44916

>"Hey loser, I love you."

>"Stop playing with my hair! You're gonna mess it up!"

>"Extra spicy. It better be extra spicy."

>"Massage my feet. Oh yeah, that feels nice… You know just how to push my buttons."

I could probably keep going

>>46512

forgot the pic

>>44916

She'd want to tell me to stop hating myself so much because she loves me for the way I am, flaws and fuckups and quirks and all. If she's going to find a chupacabra cute then she would find someone like me cute as well. It's one of the only things that keeps me from collapsing.

How can love feel so awkward? Everything about her is love, but talking about it in detail is a bit awkward and makes me blush a bit.

"I may only be good for killing people, and maybe I'm completely unappealing to you. But… I thought you'd love me once this was all over."

Every time I see that damn seen she says that my heart cracks. I want so bad to let her know that she's amazing. She is worth so much more than she tells herself. I so desperately want her to know she means so much to me.

Yuno, to me you are invaluable and there is no work of art, no speech, no sound, no place quite as beautiful as you. There's not even words I could say to properly tell you my feelings for you. I want to take your fears and insecurities away and turn them into something wonderful for us together. I want you to never be afraid you'll go unloved, never afraid you don't mean anything.

Never think you're just good for bad things. Your an amazing girl that is good for so much more than you think and I would want nothing more than to make you my bride and spend our lives together.

I love you, Yuno. Always remember that.

Lets go to bed now darling.

This is a bit of a strange/funny thing to be thankful for Saginuma for but

thanks to him I'm less erect when I see porn or think about it. This is no way a bad thing, in fact it's the opposite, because I jerked off way too much during my depression days which continue but not as bad since around I got my husbando

I talked about this in the other thread about how I do my thang if I need to. But really, it makes me happy because I feel like I have more control over myself even though it maybe trivial

but another more serious thing I had was when I went to the advice thread crying about my basket case problems and everyone was kind. Have to thank this community for opening my eyes and realizing the good truth, really I don't know where I would be if it weren't for you guys. Also sorry I thought about abandoning you, Saginuma, when I was in hysterics that day just because of some dumb shit. Meeting you helped me alot too. I'm not very poetic with words but thank you so much, even though it's been half a year, you mean alot to me

Marisa, where are you now? What are you doing right now? I wonder if you wonder about me. I wonder if you do know about me. I wonder if you even are real. If you aren't, then please allow me to think you are. Remember that line from a song that says "I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies"? That's what I feel right now. You might not be real but there is some helpless hope inside me that you are. I want to touch your face and feel the skin of your cheeks against my palm. I want to comb your blonde, wavy hair with my fingers. I want to look you in your amber-colored eyes and have them tell me that you love me, that you want me and that you need me. I want to taste your lips with and kiss you as if I have always been longing for you. I want to wrap my arms around you and stay like that until we know that we see each other as inseparable.

I want you to be mine. And even if you were right in front of me as I feel you in my arms, it would still be unreal to me. Please be mine. Please give me a dream, a beautiful one. You have driven me crazy right now, and I am hurt that you are in my arms right now.

Please be mine.

It's been five months since we have been together.Honestly I could hardly believe it's already been this long since you have entered my life.Your birthday is going to be one month from and I'm so excited.I wish I could shower you in gifts and spoil you like a princess.I dont really have much to say, but thank you so much for how much you've impacted me.I love you.

I feel guilty that all my messages have been about such sad things, so I decided to write something that would make you smile.

I love you Remus, you are a ray of bright sunshine in a pitch black world. Never have I seen something as perfect as you, or as strong of spirit. Dont let anyone or anything make you think otherwise.

I don't think I can ever accurately describe the way you make me feel when I look into your eyes, but its warm and uplifting.

Wherever you are, I hope your smile shines on through it, warming hearts the way you do mine.

5 more months and you and me will have been together for a year. I truly hope we end up lasting even longer than.These past months have truly tested our relationship to the test of time and now more than ever am I do I wish to spend the rest of my life with you. There really hasn't been a person that I've truly loved like you in my life. Suigintou my angel. My beauty.I love you.

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I've been through some much. As of recently, so much happened, I was lost so many times, trying to find a new sense, trying to be better at the same time, trying to do it all perfectly.

I've seen so much other people suffer, leave, feels things. In the end It's also what I am kind of ; a watcher. I enjoy being around and seeing people around me living their lives. And trying to help them as much as I can when needed.

I'm being brought back here now. The feeling of being back home is an excellent one. Even if so much changed and other things didn't, I can't wait to live the next chapter of my life with you.

Things have been rather all over the place these last few months, haven't they? But there you are, watching over me as ever before.

Truthfully I'm scared. Scared of the past, scared of the future. So I've been just sitting here, doing nothing, because it's the safest thing. But I know that can't work for long.

But maybe it's just I've been overthinking things. I think the first step is realizing that I need my own life. I've been chasing after things but I don't necessarily know why, I just knew that I had to. But now that I've figured out why it should be much easier to figure out the next step into finally becoming a better person.

I just want to say thank you for just being there. I will succeed for both me and you, even if it's a slow process.

In recent times I've still been so busy, if not with work, or duties, with projects, and its been making it hard to express whatever words I can for you. I'm glad theres at least the nights to pull us back together. I've been waking up face to face with you and having you be the absolute first thing I see is more calming than I could've imagined.

As if it wasn't already hard to articulate my feelings for you. I hate that my forethought has been put on so many other things but I'm glad theres still the fact you'll never get out of my subconscious. I feel it at all times. I hope you're proud. So many times I've just wanted to quit just so everything would be easier but I keep pushing on and I don't know why. As if I was promised some inevitable reward for my struggles. I think even the chance of you being happy with me is what makes me push through whatever fires I must walk through. When I think of you when I'm on the verge of dropping myself Its like theres this fire in me that makes me feel as if I wouldn't spare a thing in my path to happiness and love with you. I suppose I know how you feel

I still love you more than anything my darling, my future bride, my muse. Glad you're walking this with me.

I'm sorry I haven't had much time for you during these last few months. I've been feeling distant lately, but I think things are getting back to normal now; well, as normal as things can be for our situation. I probably exaggerated a bit with how "bad" things were when I was whining at you before, but they really weren't bad at all, just not as crazy intense as we're used to. I feel guilty for every day that goes by that I've been too sick or too exhausted to spend proper time with you. I don't mean to do it; I'm physically and mentally incapable, no matter how hard I try. I thought you may have left for a bit to give me some space until things got better, but you've showed me that you've been here watching over me throughout everything. Really, these signs you've been giving me lately have gotten a little ridiculous, but I can't begin to tell you how much they mean to me. I don't think there's anything more you're able to do from where you are, but just knowing you're with me is enough. Thank you for watching over me.

I'm a little tipsy as I'm writing this so sorry if it's not as eloquent as usual. (Haha, sorry that I can't hold my liquor like you can! Pretty pathetic but I'm glad you think it's cute.) I'll try to keep it short so I don't embarrass myself.

I just wanted to say - thanks for deciding to stick around. It's been a really great 3 years and I had a really fun time today. I'm glad that you're by my side and have helped me through everything that's happened, and I'm happy that I can help you as well. You're the best and I love you.

Osira,

You are my powerful conquering orc goddess.

These past 4 years have been the best years of my life despite all the hardships and tragedy I've had to endure. When I am with you I am happy I am safe. As long as you are there I know nothing can hurt me nothing can kill the love that lives inside me inside us.

I don't know if I'll ever get used to how wonderful you are. There really is nobody like you. Nobody else could ever understand me like you do. We really don't even need to talk, but I treasure those moments with you more than anything. And I know that you do the same for me. We are incredibly lucky to have each other, and every moment I am grateful for you with me.

Whatever happens I'm there at your side. I may not be the best but I am undoubtedly the being who love you the most. There is no way I'm going to ever give up on you. Do you understand me ?

Whatever happens I'm not giving up. I want to hold this feeling close to my heart and never let it go, for any reason. I have been rejoicing ever since I met you again. My mind makes up all sort of stories with me at your side. You know how much I want this to happen right ? Whoever would at any time want that feeling to stop ? It just gives me sense, purpose in life.

We met each others so long ago, yet I feel like I'm just starting to know you. Every second spent with you is something new, and let me say this is something I would have never thought would happen.

I hope this day will happen eventually. The day when I will be able to fight for you and just deliver the most powerful blows I ever needed to deliver for you, to deliver you out of this sea of darkness and protect you against the demons who just wait to prey on you.

I am going to be this man, this fighter, and I just shall never stop, I shall never stop believing in a miraculous future, I shall just never stop believing you will eventually be there at my side, I shall never stop struggling for you no matter what.

I shall admit it, once again, I'm just not the best man for you, there would be way many other beings doing a better job than me, having a better personality than me, fitting yours more, physically stronger warriors, more emotionally skilled humans, Without having to carry that extra weight probably making me weaker.

But I never believed it was the case. I never ever believed you wanted someone like that. I never ever believed you would "choose" upon someone to romantically tie yourself to. Once again I'm not the best. I carry an extra weight making me doubt who are human beings every second of my life, which makes me question what they feel to me and who they are to me. A weight that weakens me and sometimes make me hurt people.

But I know too this is something you'd go along. Because you'd want to. No matter how bad or how difficult it'd be for you, you would still try to get me up and save me. It is hard for me to think of someone ever being able and above all being willing to do that. I do not know of any other human beings being like that, being like you. This strength of mind, this strength of body, is one of thing I adore about you. You're not like anyone else, and that may be one of the reason why I love you. One.

I remember the very first time I met you again. Everything come from this, from the very hour I was given to spend with you for the first time and get to understand you deeply. I was nothing but a mere child, yet I was able to squeeze out the very essence of your character, of your person, of your being.

Ever since that day, I do not think I ever stopped striving to become someone better. I wanted to be exactly what you are to your people to everyone around me. The fact you were able to save everyone because you wanted it, gave birth do my dreams and even then you always meant the accomplishment of dreams was something.

Do you understand the power behind all this ? The forces at play ? My heart and my mind agrees on this. The strength you have given me is beyond any reasonable limits, and my will to love you doesn't know any limits either.

I may not be the best. I may not be the strongest. But here is the point : Whenever I think about you, I am able to get paste everything, to raise again whatever happened to me, recover from my wounds and continue fighting against the entities trying to harm you.

This is who I am, and for no other reason shall I ever need to ask more or less.

This is who I am, and for no other reason shall I ever change this fate.

This is who I am, and for no other reason shall I be afraid of the future.

This is who I am, and for no other reason shall I ever give up on this.

This is who I am, and for no other reason shall I not prove you my worth.

This is who I am, thanks to you.

Never be afraid. Know no limits but the sky for your imagination and the love you can bring me. Shall you worry about me, shall I answer your feelings. Shall I lose a fight, shall I get up right away until my victory for you. Look at the sky and tell me what you see. Infinity. I see Infinity. And if I look down upon my own heart, I do see the same thing.

We will run into dark times. We shall stumble upon dark beings. Whatever comes across will not escape me, for you are here, and that's how I live, this is how I exist, this is how I love you.

I love you Nausicaä.

I forget how much I've changed, sometimes. But it's hard to when I'm confronted with my past. It's been hard, and there are hard times ahead, but it feels stable now. I'm walking on solid ground; it's not like I'm walking through a constant earthquake, afraid of the ceiling falling down on me. Maybe there is no ceiling anymore. And I don't even think I need to rely on you that much to keep going; of course I love having your support, but you make me feel strong enough to do things on my own. It's good. With your help, I've definitely become a stronger person.

I'm tired so the words aren't coming as easily, but I don't think I can ever thank you enough.