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MGSV SPOILERS
I've put spoiler tags on pretty much all of this post. However if I missed something tell me and I will delete this post right away. I don't want to spoil anybody even if it's minor!
This also means spoilers for Kingdom of the Flies, which I consider canon even if cut from the final game.
So please keep that in mind even if you already know the story/beaten the game but have not seen that yet!
Eli is the strange case, my relationship with him is very different than with my other children.
The parental feelings I felt for him confused me at first and I was very unsure if it was okay to call me son due to the character he becomes.
Technically speaking you could say I sort of knew Eli the longest of any of my kids.
Eli is Liquid Snake, I knew he was Liquid Snake the minute I set eyes on him in that trailer. I was insanely excited, though at this point I've actually spoiled the game for myself after finding out that his most important scene was cut but I'll go on /v/ to whine about that and how I'm still going to play the game anyway but let me get back on topic before I go full Metal Gear Autism. Before that I had a friend of mine feeding me spoilers about him, every time he sent me a screenshot I felt like it was a photo of my kid. Eventually, I got the hard confirmation. Eli is Liquid. It does seem so obvious when you look at him, but it's a spoiler none the less and his eyes being blue was something I couldn't shake off. Liquid's eyes are green, so the blue eyes are ether a mistake, if you're really into crazy theories a sign that you're still being played like a fiddle, or Eli is similar to me as a kid and his eyes changed from blue to green as he grew up.
This doesn't really lead to why I was unsure and I will say this bluntly: well before Eli or MGSV existed, before we even knew the character’s real name, Liquid Snake was the first man I ever had a crush on. It wasn't anything close to waifuism, and I must have been in what middle school? Maybe younger? At the time. Still it felt strange to me, I used to draw Liquid Snake very often and he was and still is my favorite Metal Gear character. I don't think it's really that big of a deal I thought Liquid Snake was good looking especially when I have no interest in any man but my husbando and Eli really doesn't appeal to me like that at all considering how much he just looks like a 3d kid in game, but still it does bug at me. I think it's strange that my childhood crush turned this way, and I can't see myself ever being attracted to him like that again even as an adult now that I don't know him as Liquid, I know him as Eli. I've actually always been somewhat protective of Liquid, he's a strange character and he's campy and unintentionally hilarious but I have always hated seeing fanart of him degraded.
More so then that, what I'd like to have with Eli. Liquid is my favorite character, but he really wouldn't be Liquid Snake if me and my husbando raised him. I don't have a problem with Metal Gear canon, I don't think Liquid's story needs to be changed or “fixed” but when it comes down to it, already, the Eli who is my son is becoming a very different person than Liquid Snake.
I want Eli to have a family the loves him, that doesn't care about genes, I want him to be happy as who he is and know that his fate isn't fixed in place. It broke my heart in pieces how angry he was, how dirty and violent already and how he'd never have a family that cared for him. I know I could give him that as well, and that my husbando would be an amazing father for him that would help him grow up happy and confident. Of course he is Eli, he's still posh and cocky. I don't want to turn him into a totally different boy than the one in TPP though I suppose it could be argued that I am kind of doing that.
But it was those strong feelings, of wanting to step in and be a parent for him that told me this wasn't just my favorite character in a small package.