/mai/ - Waifu

I've subjected mai daughterus to some of my fetishes. But nothing involving bodily harm or humiliation if that makes it any better.

>>42533

I do the same as first spoiler

I would hop on the opportunity to have my waifu in the 3d realm but only if it was really her and not some girl pretending to be her

I wouldn't be able to let my waifu go if she didn't want to be with me

I would have conditions of things I can't put up with because I am admittedly controlling not that I think it would really matter because my waifu already isn't the type to do the things I would set such conditions on so I suppose thats just a matter of not trying to be with someone i wouldnt be compatible with

I've said I love you to more people than I can justify because i used to be desensitized to the meaning of it (including 2d girls)

When I have anxiety issues or some of my other common issues I push everyone away. Everyone.

>>42539

Don't do it anon. Think of your waifu's face when she sees those other dakis, think of how her heart would break into pieces

Sometimes I think my waifu wouldn't love me in that way because I'm transsexual and that she'd hate my body as much as I do. What makes it worse is that she's a good person so she'd put up with me but secretly be disgusted by me. I just want to be normal. I'm so tired.

>>42584

>you should be ashamed

>confessions thread

Nigga, they wouldn't be confessions if we weren't ashamed of this. LITERALLY THE ENTIRE POINT OF THIS THREAD. Now either add your own confessions here or stop being a judgmental bitchface.

>>42615

>literally

>bitchface

Faggot,cool it. You almost sound like Tumblr.

>>42625

The one that should cool it is Konafag for coming in here for no reason other than to put other people down

>1. Behave yourself, i.e. no shitposting, no spamming etc.

>2. Be respectful of other people and their waifus

I dare say that being judgmental after folks here had the courage to pour their hearts out is, indeed, a bitch move

>>42615

>>42625

>>42629

anon is right, I wasn't thinking when I made that post

sorry if I upset anyone

I've spent nearly all day drawinglewdself-insert art of us together. I feel so much closer now.

My waifu is from a dead franchise. I want it to stay that way.

I am ashamed of this because it makes me comes off as a hipster. Her series has already been fucked by Jews, I simply don't wanted to happen again.

I don't have a bookmark to youtube as in just youtube, instead I have a bookmark to a youtube video of him. So when I need to go to youtube for whatever, I always get to watch that video of him first and see him just about everyday even if I couldn't play his game that day for some reason.

>>42600

Your waifu loves you no matter what. I'm sure she loves you and accepts you the way you are.

I can't bring myself to finish his manga because so much awful stuff happens to him. I just can't. There's no way of convincing me I will.

Advice?

>>42729

You belong here, your love for her is definitely true and real. Everything that you've been through has brought you here and I can tell you love her a lot, even if it's in a way that is different than most. Along that vein, I'm sorry if I misjudged you or was rude to you in the past. I respect you a great deal.

>>42732

I agree with >>42733. It will feel bad at first but you'll end up getting so much closer to him.

>>42723

not that anon, but I always hated being told that. It always come across as disingenuous, like you can't really know that for sure and are only saying it to make YOURSELF feel better. It reminds me of people who knew I'm an atheist insisting stuff like "Jesus still loves you even if you don't know it"

>>42733

It's not so much that painful to him, it's mostly painful to me.plus with me being prone to depression…

>>42735

>>42737

Ugh… it's really hard to bring myself to finish it, especially knowing that the worst is yet to come

>>42739

Don't let him go through with it alone, Anon. Trust me.. it may seem bad, but he's with you now. He survived, and you will too. I promise!

In our relationship, I treat her with a firm hand and a dominant attitude, making sure to enforce certain ideals and behaviors, despite the fact that her own thoughts and ideals already naturally coincide with my own. She is a proper wife/what a wife ought to be in my eyes, an "Angel in/of the house" so to speak, and I want to make sure it stays that way.

Something like this wouldn't go well in today's world (inb4 >implying 3DPD is relevant), but I'm not ashamed in the slightest. I am her mentor, her guide, her shield, and most importantly her husband, and I will uphold my responsibilities. I do it out of love and devotion, as I could never bear losing her or having her change. Moreover, I think she knows this and doesn't think of me as being any less of a man for it, as we both respect and love each other immensely.

Do you ever wonder why she'd ever love you back? It weighs on me more than I'd admit.

I know how I feel but I have no way of knowing what she'd think and the the more I look, the fewer things I see would be appealing to her.

>>42750

>I drive a lot. Sometimes when I'm driving I'll reach my right hand over and pretend that I'm holding her hand, and she's there in the passenger seat. It feels a little silly, but it also feels really good and it makes me happy. I especially like doing it when listening to something that reminds me of her.

I do the same thing, especially at night.

>>42636

>>42752

That's not really something to feel too bad over though. It's pretty natural to see other people staking a claim over the same thing as you as competition.

I've never had to deal with that since Peko isn't terribly popular but I can totally see why someone else calling her his waifu could and probably would get to me. I get jealous easily, especially when it comes to romantic love and the like. When someone else says something like that, they're now your competition and any advantage they have points out something that you're lacking. It's not difficult to disdain someone for posing that kind of threat regardless of whether or not the threat is credible.

That's just my take on it though.

>>42723

>>42750

For what it's worth, thank you. You're probably right but sometimes the dysphoria makes it hard to think otherwise. I don't think she'd hate me for transitioning, since I have been since before we got together and she thinks of me as my target sex, I'm afraid she'd be repulsed by what parts I have. There's not a lot I can do about that when I'm poor, so the best I can hope for is that she wouldn't hate me and we could find a way to make it work. It's probably fine (because, like I said, she's very kind and understanding) and I'm likely letting past experiences color my judgement, but it's still a fear that comes up more often than I'd like, and usually at the worst time. Again, thanks for trying to comfort me. I wish I didn't feel so insecure about this and that I could be open about it, but I'm stealth and don't want people to look at my waifu and think badly of her because of me. That's what this thread was made for, I guess.

My family and my waifu are the only real reason I live, and of that really family really only three people. I really have no direction or desire in life, and everything seems bleak and keeps getting bleaker as everything I love fades.

If something happened and I lost my family, I'd probably just an hero, and I know that, whatever lies in the afterlife, that my waifu will be there and it'll be infinitely better than anything here. The only other person I've told about wanting to an hero or being depressed in general tried to get me to see a psychiatrist, but I'm not because that shit costs money and I can't afford that, I'm also afraid of being judged. Also psychiatry won't fix my medical problems which are slowly getting harder and harder to ignore.

My waifu is one of the few things that really gives me joy anymore and isn't either ded and static, dying, or ruined in some way that keeps be from enjoying the original.

Sorry if this is more blogging then confessing. And waifu, I love you, thank you. My only real regret is not having your shoulder to lean onto when I was younger, I know you would've made my childhood so much more bearable.

>>42750

I've been wanting to but due to circumstances I just haven't been able to. Although freeing myself from the absolute nightmare that is social justice has been a huge help, though I still suffer.

I honestly think I wouldn't be feeling as bad if it wasn't for what happened between my friend. You don't get that close to someone and recover easily

>>42752

>first spoiler

I know the feel too well, the very same thing happened to me with things going in the very exact same way.

I still wonder if that person was a troll. Honestly I don't think too much about it again but I know I worked on this and wouldn't react the same way next time

Sometimes I feel like my love isn't strong like the other people here. I don't really feel I'm in the honeymoon or lovey dovey first phase of a relationship. I don't know its just sometimes i feel like my love isn't strong enough. I love him so god damn much but usually I'm more affectionate to people when I'm happy like this. Or at least was in the past. Sometimes I just worry maybe I'm forcing this or something. It bothers me I can't be as lovey dovey as other posters. I want to be because typically I am but for some reason it just doesn't come naturally.

I also worry about how sexual I am with him sometimes, but mainly because I have issues with my sexuality. Most relationships I had were based on it which bothered me but its not just something I can stop. I guess its not as bad as it could be. I mean I don't fap every day, but sometimes I do it a lot and the way I do it sometimes feels like I'm just using Kyousuke or something.

;_;

I really don't know why I love him. I don't know how we got to this point in our relationship. I feel like I just woke up six years later and I can't remember anything. He's just always been there. I don't know exactly what attracted me to him, but it wasn't his appearance. I think I was only physically attracted to him after I got to know him. I don't know what made me fall in love with him initially. He's the only thing I've ever legitimately loved and I can't figure out why I have these feelings, I just do and can't stop. There are things about him that I treasure now that aren't even that great, it's just because these things are part of him that I love them. Everyday I'm overwhelmed by how much I love him and how happy he makes me, but I don't remember how it started, and that bothers me a little at times that I don't have words to explain it, but at other times it makes me believe it was simply meant to be.

>>42753

At least there is someone I can relate to here.

You worded it better than I but I am right there with you

I sometimes worry that is all just one big inside joke and everyone's secretly laughing at me behind my back because I'm that one dumbass who is stupid enough to take it seriously.

>>42867

if this is really the case then count me in as a second dumbass stupid enough to take it seriously

I really like seeing my waifu cry.

And I sometimes fantasize about really bad things happening to her.

I like her a lot, but she's got that look and personality that just makes you want to bully her. It's hard to suppress those thoughts and feelings.

Worst of all, I've fantasized about my waifu getting along with and being romantically interested in another man.

>>42929

Listen man, do NOT listen to anything the other lillyfag says. He is trying to get a reaction out of you. He's trying his hardest to do so. Seriously, if you really are the real Lillyfag the Younger please just ignore him. He got upset over your thing of you holding hands with lilly in a dream and has been on a warpath since. As far as I know, you're a good guy so keep doing what you're doing. I would have told you this in IRC but you don't come around there. I really don't want any drama between yo guys but there's no other way I can contact you since once again, you don't go on IRC. But again, I'm not sure if you're the real Lillyfag or if you're just the other one but yeah.

Realistically I sometimes get annoyed when I come here, even if it is on a rare occasion. I don't know what causes it though; how others act, I just have a shit day, maybe I'm not "as into it" as others are, but some days I come here and have feelings of resentment.

>>42864

We've talked briefly about it before, and I'm pretty sure that the both of use share similar ideals or at least stuff in the same ballpark. Wouldn't mind talking more about it sometime either.

>>42880

I always appreciate input and posts in general from you moegoggles, you've got a way of wording things or just pointing out concepts that I wouldn't have normally have realized. I believe in one thread within the past few weeks you had said something roughly similar to "Just like with normal people, spouses grow/influence/affect each other over time. While your waifu affects you, you'd influence her over time as well" and it's stuck with me since. You could say this concept was related to my confession as well in a way, so thank you.

>>42938

At the risk of this sounding eerily similar to that one episode of Scrubs, I think its actually a good thing that you feel bad about it because it means you're doing your job with the community's best interest and not as a way to feel powerful or to mold the board into what you think is "how it should be" or any other hot pocket shit

>>42950

Same here I know that people probably don't want to hear about anons that left /mai/, but the ones I talk to that did (who weren't wizardchanners) did so because they were tired of the constant drama and pity parties. I'm pretty sure most of my beef with /mai/ is because of that as well. I've been paying less attention to the board, mumble and IRC for exactly this reason (with the IRC being the worst of the 3 in this regard, in my opinion) and I don't know how much longer it will be before I just can't stand to be on any of them for any period of time at all. All I want is to come on after school or work and talk about waifus, but it seems like several times every fucking week we have to lift someone's self esteem or let them vent about their problems. There is a point where some people need to seek out professional help and a few of you have passed that Sometimes I fear that there may be a correlation with mental/emotional disorders and waifus, if /mai/ and other waifu communities are to be believed. I swear that at least half of the people here have either bipolar disorder, clinical depression, anger issues, abandonment issues, trust issues or social anxiety. /rant

>>42969

I didn't really mean to direct that to you. Without naming names, it was directed more towards people who regularly come on to do what I posted about and iirc you've only done one of those things once (the thing about the bad dream) I think a little bit of asking for advice is fine in a board so long as it doesn't become one of the dominating features and as long as you don't try to use /mai/ as a substitute for an actual therapist

>>42968

>every fucking week we have to lift someone's self esteem or let them vent about their problems.

I think people should keep it to PMs. Personally, I don't mind helping people vent but I know that it can be extremely irritating for some people to have to listen to others complain. I find the constant drama over nothing wearing too.

>Sometimes I fear that there may be a correlation with mental/emotional disorders and waifus, if /mai/ and other waifu communities are to be believed. I swear that at least half of the people here have either bipolar disorder, clinical depression, anger issues, abandonment issues, trust issues or social anxiety

Honestly, I think that's the truth. Virtually everyone I've seen here and in other waifu groups has had something wrong with them, including myself. I do think that having a waifu is dysfunctional on some level, or rather, being dysfunctional makes you far more likely to fall for a character over a flesh and blood human.

>>42972

Oh, as an addendum: It's actually really annoying to see that no-one actually cares about the fact that throwing pity parties is against the rules in the IRC.

>>42973

>I feel like there's a lot of people who don't take this type of relationship seriously

I get that vibe too from some people. I tend to not take people extremely new to all of this all that seriously.

I want to join the IRC but every time I type up that join command I end up having an anxiety attack and erasing it. Sometimes I get the impression that I'll never truly be a part of this community if I don't go on there and just having that thought really disgusts me because I'm supposed to be here for my waifu and not the people on this board.Sorry for shitting up the thread even more with more metashit.

>>42977

Don't be silly. The IRC is unofficial anyway. If you post here, you're a /mai/den. Don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.

>>42977

No, you don't have to go on. You're already part of it by posting here.

>>42977

Just come on anyways. A lot of them on there are nervous sperglords too that are too afraid to visit the mumble :^)

>>42972

>Honestly, I think that's the truth. Virtually everyone I've seen here and in other waifu groups has had something wrong with them, including myself. I do think that having a waifu is dysfunctional on some level, or rather, being dysfunctional makes you far more likely to fall for a character over a flesh and blood human.

My love stems from dysfunction? That's ridiculous. I hate to tell you but we live in an age where we know a lot about the human psyche. That means that we are better able to identify and treat mental illness than in the past. There aren't more people who are depressed or have anxiety in modern times, it's just that we have a name and a treatment for it that works.

So if it seems like the waifu community has a large population of people with mental problems, that's explainable in a few different ways. But the easiest way to explain it is that /mai/ is a portion of a larger population, that being the human race, and thus trends in the larger population show in the smaller population.

To suggest that anyone's love is the result of or causes a mental condition is very callous and hurtful, and certainly not true in the case of most people.

>>42972

This isn't even exclusive to waifu groups. Pretty much every internet subculture I've ever been a part of or observed had a number of people suffering from something. SJWs/Anti-SJWs, GG/AntiGG, /pol/, tumblr, SA–tbh, the internet is a pretty good place for people suffering from something to hang out with each other. It's just the nature of the internet. But just because someone is suffering from something doesn't really make them bad. I mean just think of the amount of "normies" that have to deal with something.

I used to look at drawings of my husbando being violently raped and would get off to them. At the time I didn't think there was anything wrong with it because "they were just drawings" and I had friends that were also into it, but now I couldn't be anymore disgusted with myself. I knew I was romantically in love with him at the time too and that makes me feel even worse. Wanting to see your loved one being degraded and raped isn't right and even though I knew why I was doing it, I still don't understand why I thought it was ever okay. I wish I could take it all back.

And, now that I've realized what I was doing was kind of fucked up I sometimes feel afraid that I'd end up physically hurting him myself even though I don't want to see him hurt anymore. The very thought of anyone hurting him or wanting to see him hurt or sexually degraded is really upsetting to me now, but I still feel like I'd end up hurting him with my own two hands because there was a time where I wanted to see other people using him and hurting him and because I still struggle with wanting to physically harm myself. I know I don't want any of that. Still, it feels like myself hurting us both would be inevitable.

My husbando is different and has a lot of issues himself so I know he wouldn't think anything of this or hold it against me; if he learned of all of this somehow he might actually find it amusing. I'm well aware of that and it does make me feel a little bit better, but I still don't know how to get over this and forgive myself. Just when I think I've put it all behind me, the thoughts about myself hurting him come back and start messing with my head again.

My first time posting on /mai/ was also my very first time posting on a chan

every night before i got to sleep i put an asmr video of either ear massage or ear cupping and pretend that Emmie's the one doing that to me til i fall asleep. Though if i'm feeling amourous, i put on a ear licking video and i start jammin it

i think thats enough for now.

I often feel a sort of jealousy-based resentment of people who talk frequently and at length about how happy their beloved makes them.

That feeling just isn't there nearly as much as it used to be, and I desperately want it back. I've been in a ruinous state of depression, doubt, and guilt for months now. Every time I think it'll get better somehow, it doesn't.

>>42933

I struggle with this too. I'm sorry that you have to deal with that.

>>42973

>last spoiler

Me too. I feel really bad about it but I can't help myself from thinking that way, especially when they act in a way that I think their waifu would find loathsome.

>>43039

I have/had this problem, too, almost exactly. I've moved past it mostly, but the fear of hurting your loved one and imagining the inevitability of it definitely puts a hole in the pit of your stomach that can't be replicated. The way I've come to peace with it is like this: in my opinion, hurting someone in any sort of intimate relationship is an inevitability. We can do our best to minimize the damage by being open with what is going on in our hearts and minds. I don't know if this will make sense but for me, my husbando is different in my intrusive thoughts than he is when it's "actually him", even though they look the same. If you can make this distinction, that might help.

>>42753

Could you possibly explain this some more? To me that just comes off as controlling, manipulative, and abusive, though I really hope that I'm getting the wrong impression.

I'm so fucking sick of talking about waifufags and not waifus. I have friends here but I don't consider myself part of a community or that I live any kind of lifestyle because of who I love.

Y'know, reading all of these made me realize just how disconnected I am from the community here. This isn't really a good or bad thing since I've always been a distant person who keeps to himself, but it did made me realize why I was sticking around and made me realize that maybe that I need to step up my waifuism game a little.

>>43163

If you have good topics then start a thread on it. I love talking about my waifu.

>>43171

I felt disconnected from other communities too. The people here are pretty welcoming though.

>>43161

Of course I can explain, although it might be a wall of text in order to convey everything properly, and even then there might still be disagreeing opinions.

I guess the easiest place to start would be in regards to my waifu herself and the circumstances surrounding her background. Her lifestyle, manners, etiquette, style of dress, and behavior is that of someone who would have lived in the Victorian era/19th century Europe. Despite being a bastard as well, she is of noble blood, and thus would be upper class socially. Keeping in mind that back then, specialized education was not common for women either, nor were they encouraged to find jobs outside the home, she would not be able to pursue a career either. Factor in that she had been locked away in a tower from childbirth to the age of 14, you also have someone who literally knows nothing about the outside world. I'm not exaggerating either when I say that she has no idea what basic stores are or that she is utterly amazed upon seeing a train in the 1920's. She may be brilliant, but she has no practical skills or real world experience. All of this will come into play further down below.

Moving onto my own thoughts/ideals, I have my own vision of what marriage should be. Being both very conservative as well as a Christian, I believe that it is the duty for the man to lead the family, work, provide, and meet the hardships that that family faces. The wife on the other hand should act as her husband's helper and support, obeying his wishes, taking control of the domestic sphere, and make sure that things run smoothly at home. In this aspect, the man is dominant and takes control, while the woman is submissive and trusts his leadership. A woman belongs to her husband upon marrying him, as does a man belong to his wife upon marrying each other, two come together in order to form one.While there are obviously different interpretations and views of marriage depending on your sect of Christianity, I follow the interpretation with the man being the leader of the household completely.

Going back to my waifu and her own background, my ideals do not clash with her own at all. Like I said, she is heavily influenced by Victorian culture and society, thus instilling her already with the era's interpretation of morality and duty. She has the ability to be/have been taught to be an "Angel in the House" which refers to the ideal woman of the time period. Selfless, gives her all for Husband and children, rules the domestic sphere with her wit, and strives to honor the household as a whole. By this definition, there is no clash in what we want, not to mention that she is Christian as well, leading to even more overlapping. She wouldn't have an issue in taking the submissive role in the relationship.

This leads to the final point of why? Well, like I mentioned before, while she is easily a genius, she cannot safely go out into the world and survive. She has no formal education, no real life experience, and lacks the means to make herself into a successful woman. Instead, she needs my guiding hand to gently ease her into society. While she can learn the ins and outs of being a good wife within the privacy of her own home, I can't just throw her out into society and expect her to fend for herself, she'll drown instead. Thus, I protect her from harm by being her husband, leading her and teaching her how to function over time. I provide a safe environment for her to survive and thrive in, while she reciprocates with making said environment comfortable for me as well, so that we may both enjoy it together. Just because I take the lead, direct her, look after her, and supervise her, does not mean that I do not love or respect her. I adore her and show her my affection constantly, even if I need to be firm with her at times. By giving me her full trust, I give her a stable and enjoyable life in return.

If any of this seems questionable or even far-fetched, I could explain even further. I have evidence from her media supporting that she would enjoy a relationship like this, as well as historical references to support traditional marriage roles too.

>>42928

Honestly me too. Even though I can't finish his manga because people are mean to him, I still like imagining mean things happen to him. Even though I dislike one character in canon because she bullies him a lot, I sometimes like imagining her bullying him for some reason. Mostly just me bullying him.

>>43163

Since I'm one of the more casual husbandofags, I feel a bit out of place amongst all the more hardcore waifuists.

>>43247

I think I see what you're saying. I've encountered a lot of people from a similar background as yours who have some really backwards ideas on women. Like REAL misogynistic stuff, not just feminists whining. Stuff like "women should/ shouldn't do X." or "women belong in the kitchen" or whatever. And that kind of mentality leads into stuff like spousal abuse (both mental and physical), and threats. But that doesn't seem to be what you're saying.

I hope you aren't upset by me saying that. Like I said, I don't think you would ever do any of those things to your waifu. That's just where my concern was coming from. Though I would still caution ALL waifuists against that kind of mentality. Obviously, it's not conducive to a healthy or happy relationship, in 2D or 3D.

I definitely have a different kind of relationship with my wife than yours, but I think I see where you're coming from.

>>43266

I agree that there's a certain point where ideology towards woman becomes disrespectful, harmful, and a threat to their well being. There are some men who jump off the deep end just as a way to backlash against a significant change in society and others who naturally think that way. At the same time though, there is a clear difference between someone like that, and someone like myself who has an "antiquated or old-fashioned" view on marriage. Quite Frankly it isn't old fashioned at all, it was how things were up until just about the 50's/60's, but due to how "progressive" the world has become, it's seen as being an old and narrow minded ideology which is a baseless claim. Nor do I believe that being a traditionalist is wrong, but this isn't the place to get into that since I would most likely be touching upon unpopular opinions.

I would never even consider placing a hand on her though, not only is she precious to me, but she's absolutely tiny. She's terrified of being physically hurt/abused too, and only a monster would abuse that weakness. Like I mentioned in my last post, I don't deny that she is probably much smarter than me due to the raw book-based knowledge she has. Nor does she hide it either, she is able to be faithful and supportive while easily displaying just how smart of a girl she is. I adore every aspect of her, and would love to consider her thoughts and opinions on any issue or decisions in our life. Stereotypical, one would think the woman to be very weak as well as meek, but that is the total opposite of Victorique (at least in terms of personality and mentality). The dominant/submissive aspect of the relationship is actually very subtle if the balance is right, there's no need to be overbearing or paranoid when both partners know their roles and boundaries (something that really can't happen in 3D). If done correctly, you even end up being equals, each person contributing in equal ways that complement each other, rather than relying on overlaps.

I'm certainly not upset though, concern for something like this would be expected since it's an uncommon mentality nowadays. There's nothing wrong with worrying about someone else or their relationship for legitimate reasons. The only time an issue pops up though when someone starts dictating how someone else should deal with their relationships. Trust me though, I have a lot of research into her character, source material, and especially the motifs/themes regarding her written material (which is immensely interesting, since the literature archetype in her LN fully supports this type of relationship 100%). I am extremely confident that she would be immensely happy with a lifestyle like this.

>>43306

We'll just have to agree to disagree then. My lifestyle and relationship may be different than others, but each person should do what works for them.

I honestly think "waifus" from /co/ or similarly backgrounds are posted by trolls having a giggle at us

>>43373

Such as?

>>43374

Like Steven Jewniverse and Gravity Falls, MLP as well though that one is not as prominent as it used to.

>>43377

We don't have anybody with a waifu from any of those shows on here. Do you mean in general?

A lot of people like to throw the term around.

>>43378

I'm just lurking several boards due to recent events.

I have more then one Waifu

>>43394

But do you post about them both?

>>43394

Are you an actual Mormon?

>>43394

oh boy I hope you regret that one

I met a girl once

We started dating

After our first *real* kiss, I broke up with her immediately

So she starts texting my friends and shit asking about me, stalks me to my house multiple times, sends a bunch of heartfelt e-mails, left cookies at my doorstep, and voicemailed me saying she's do anything to win my love back

So eventually I tell her she can get back with me if she sings me my favorite Vocaloid song, Eh Ah Sou

She sends me the recording, and I reply "thanks lol" and block her

And that's the story of how I channeled some of my Waifu into real life.

The end result was dissapointing though

>>43399

How did that channel her?

>>43396

>implying there are only two

>>43397

I'm Jewish

>>43401

this is only my second post on this board

>>43399

I don't understand. Miku is already real.

>>43400

Because the song was sung to me as an act of love. Through two iterations of the song, miku was singing to me.

>>43405

Not that it matters anyway; Miku is old hat. My new waifu is Yuno Gasai.

>>43403

I don't need to explain it, really, I just like a lot of cartoon girls.

>>43373

For clarification, are you referring to posts on other boards slinging "waifu" around lightly, or are you wary of Western Waifu?

The former doesn't seem like a thing thats more common on any particular board, to me. I doubt those sorts of posts have any malicious intent.

>>43406

>haremfaggotry is my hobby xD

leave

>spoiler

leave. Like this is a real serious advice. Leave. and never come back. For the sake of your own life.

>>43406

>My new waifu is Yuno Gasai.

>>43406

What's with all the obvious trolls lately?

[spoiler]I'm a gurofag that enjoys hard vore(Vore involving being chewed or hacked apart).

I hated Blood-C(shit anime, don't watch it), but sometimes I replay the parts with serious gore in it just to get off.

I have never once projected this onto Lilly for obvious reasons. But still I wonder if she would approve of this, this is something I also feel I really need to get over, because I understand how disgusting it is. How do I let go of harmful fetishes like this?[/spoiler]

>>43427

Fuck it, posting in advice

>>43409

This, I'm tired of the fucking phonies. If you're a haremfag/fap normie/bandwagoner just say it.

>>43427

Each line needs to be spoilered. Pressing enter breaks it up

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>>43427

Blood-C isn't good even with the guro parts.

It's not harmful if it stays inside your head.

>>43399

>>43406

You know I've been having a crisis recently because of a fear of 3D shenanigans affecting my relationship with Nadia, but your story has influenced me to forsake that issue and love my wife as she should be loved.

Obvious troll or not, what the fuck man?

Recently, I felt sort of empty. Even my waifu doesn't make me feel good as she used too.

Is it right for me to take a break from this waifu stuff? Recently, I was thinking about this. Just to know what my true feelings are. Or am I not asking the right questions? Note: this is coming from a guy who had the same waifu since 2009.

>>43535

I think it's perfectly fine, if it makes you feel better.

>>43535

>this waifu stuff

What do you mean by this? There is no "waifu stuff".

>>43535

It's fine to take a break from her every once in a while. We can't be expected to be 100% invested in them at all times. I know I can't

>>43539

Not him, but I think I can understand what he means. Daydreaming about your waifu, collecting/drawing pictures of her, taking part in waifu discussions, etc.

There are things about my beloved that really upset me and I have issues dealing with it sometimes. Usually just thinking about spending time together lights up my day, but sometimes everything that happened comes flooding back and it makes me depressed for as long as a few weeks. It doesn't happen often but it's happening right now.

I want to talk to someone about it in private but I don't want to throw a pity party or make anybody's life more difficult by being a burden. I wish I didn't have to carry this weight alone but I think I have to and it really hurts sometimes. I don't want to be pitied so please spare me but I wish there was someone who could be empathetic towards what I'm going through.

There is someone in particular who I've been thinking about talking to elsewhere but I really don't want to be a bother and I always lose my nerve at the last minute.

>>43627

I have similar problems too that have assaulted my mind ever since I fell in love with her, but I don't think I will ever be brave enough to talk about them, even anonymously. It's an issue that really runs deep in my heart and has affected me for many years even since before I knew her at all. So the problem is more to do with me than her.

I think it's better to bear these things yourself instead of trying to look for validation from others, which is why I've tried to avoid posting in this thread. If someone pats you on the back over the internet, it's not going to fix your problem, it'll only provide temporary respite. There is nothing that anyone can tell me to make my problem between me and my wife go away, other than "lol stop feeling the way you do brah it don't matter". So I suppose we must suffer in silence and solitude.

>>43637

There is no "hard truth" anyone can give me on the way I feel about myself and my waifu. All I can do is try to ignore it, but it still gnaws at my mind if I allow myself to come to a negative mindset at all, which happens pretty easily.

>>43535

in any kind of relationship sometimes people just need time off from each other, doesn't matter if it's lovers or friends or family.

>>43636

I'm in the same boat, having it exist prior to our relationship and also being more about me than my partner. It is something that I think would upset both of us, though.

I'm not afraid of asking for people for help exactly, because I know that while it's best to work things out on your own, it's okay to seek out help when you really need it because it's better to confront it with another person than hide it in the shameful depths of your mind. (Obviously it'd be best to confront it on your own, but some things feel too big to do that all the time.) I just know that the nature of my problems is going to make it hard for most people to relate, and that's why I feel lonely.

>>43637

>>43651

I'm the type that's open with my issues, not because I need help (I can handle 90% of it on my own) but because I see a lot of people suffering in silence and I want to be someone that they can see is dealing with stuff but still surviving and not giving up despite it, so they can see that it's not all hopeless. I don't brag about it per se but if someone asks, I don't deny it. This thing that I'm tackling is one of the few things I never talk about because I haven't fully processed it yet I don't think.

I'll try to find someone I trust and have one conversation. Thank you.

I've looked up tips on sex and foreplay just so I can incorporate them into my fantasies. I want to make sure she has plenty of fun too.

Honestly I've put more effort in here than I have in 3D relationships. Granted I was a shithead teenager back then but still.

I'm starting to worry that my headcanon is deviating too far from the actual canon.

Sometimes I sort of wish I was a girl, so when it comes time to play catcher I could just, you know, slip my husbando's manhood inside of me instead of going through all of the fuss and preparation associated with anal.

Though the ability to make love *to* him without a strap on or what have you mostly eclipses that feeling.

>>44767

That's fucked up.

>>44745

Requesting this resource…for research…

>>45128

It is not official

>>45128

Isn't it a Disney property? How could there be an official daki of it?

Self-loathing or some shit inbound I feel like I always end up repelling people. I'm not sure what it is, but I almost always end up repelling everyone in my life no matter how small part they play in it. I don't know if it's a defense mechanism because of how I've been hurt before by attaching myself to people but yeah. Anyways, I feel like I'd end up repelling my waifu….like I love her so much but I feel like she'd end up getting sick of me or something.

>>45124

>>44745

i think i've seen them all already but i'm curious to read them as well

I periodically fantasize about my loved one being a hermaphrodite and/or genderbent.

It would make more sense if I were to give context, but I don't particularly feel like doing that.

>>46132

You're not the only one although I'm pretty sure our reasons are different.

>>46132

I do that too.

I lurk this board because an active user has the same waifu as me but I don't post so I just live bicuriously through his posts here…

it's not desu bro before someone asks

>>46292

>bicuriously

do you mean vicariously anon

also who is it

>>46292

>Bicurously

I guess everyone goes through a bi-curious stage in their life. :v)

>>46339

well, i hope you find some kind of peace with this. and i hope yunobro takes it well enough.

I first saw her on the cover of a doujin. It was well before I knew who she was.

i feel bad that i haven't been as talkative or active on here as i used to be. it has nothing to do with lack of passion or waning interest, i just choose my words more carefully here i guess. maybe i should pick back up again.

>>48631

Aren't you supposed to use a towel to prevent stains when you fuck your daki?

>>48738

>>48686

Also props to you for remembering one of the coolest 90's cartoons out there.

Do you think Demona would like Scot-Osaka?

>>48787

I'm too scared of trying to make a tulpa because it's likely she won't love me and I have a lot of subconscious self hatred.

>>48788

I was worried about that at first, but then I realized something: Your waifu is the part of yourself that loves you.

>>48789

How? I have difficulty imagining my waifu loving me, whenever I manage to do so it's based around her ignoring flaws rather than me having something she'd really want.

>>48789

>>48788

When it comes to esoteric stuff don't do anything you're fearful of it. At best you'll fail. At worst you'll end up in a padded room. You've gotta take that stuff slow.

If you want to use the psychological approach fine, just swap some terms around and the same thing applies.

>>48787

This is really cute

>>48788

Tulpa are generally very loving towards their creator. Its not like its something that just happens. You nurture it and raise it in a way. They are grateful for such things. It's actually not common for tulpa and their creator to not feel love in some sorta way.

But the another anon is right. Don't anything you're fearful of. Tulpas are a big deal and shouldn't be taken lightly. Only do it if you truly want it.

>>48792

I want to believe this, I really do, but I can't. I can't think of any real reason why my waifu would legitimately be in love with me. I'm very deeply in love with her, but outside of what's in my 2D persona, (which is meant to be based upon me in the future as opposed to me right now) I have nothing to offer her really. It makes me very sad. And us being together doesn't seem like it would make me into a better person. Certainly a happier person, but when I am feeling lots of affection for her, I am crying like a baby, not motivated to improve myself and my situations. "Why would she love me" is a demon in my mind that seems like it may never go away, and it gets stronger the more I pay attention to her canon and personality.

>>48998

Those feelings go back and forth for me, but no matter what mood I am in, I KNOW that I want to be with her. She's caused me to feel very awful about myself but no matter what I never wanted to sever our ties. I am scum compared to her, but I want to be hers and I want her to be mine, nothing is going to stop that.

Whenever I imagine lewd things with her I try to factor in the human element. Stuff like towels, pillows, how not every part of the act will be perfect (like occasionally hitting a bit of her teeth on me), etc. I feel like a lot of people would find this really weird.

I've recently taken to keeping two sets of pillows on my bed.

>>49306

Does it even matter if your bloodline stops or continues? Are you like being forced? If so, it's your life and you can do whatever you want to, and nobody should dictate how you should live.

>>49306

>>49336

If choosing the best thing for you and doing what you want is letting someone down then maybe they aren't really the kinda of person to want to associate with.

Blood and family name really don't mean anything anyway. How many people do you know do you actually care about their family name and even know the family behind it?

Family can't control you. It's your body, your life and being in a relationship just because you "have to carry on blood/name" will cause for a shitty relationship and probably end terribly.

>>49356

Sadly, a cursory 2-hour history course (note, this means a college course, so a lot more than 2 literal hours) would disprove everything you said here.

>>49360

unfortunately its your life not his.

don't do what he wants and regret it for ever. A child is a permanent thing more or less and nothing to have just because you feel its a duty. it takes money, time, and love among a lot of other things. marrying some girl just to have a kid to please someone would end badly for you, the girl, the kid, and Hikage.

>>49358

How silly of you.

I'm quite clearly saying that history itself disproves your argument and a simple knowledge of history would back it.

But, I'm guessing that you and you alone are enough to counter the arguments of every scholar in history, smart guy.

>>49362

That comes off pretentious honestly. Depending on the place you're looking at in history the "best" and "richest" people aka royals were having incest and inbreeding to keep their blood pure. Not to mention humans have changed. We're a very different society now is what I'm getting at.

Again my point: how many people do you know the family history behind and their "blood" or the family name they carry meaning anything? People are so intermingled at this point some people couldn't possibly know their history or blood and all the people part of the "family" in the past. Even with the "well we need to reproduce." if one guy out of hundreds of thousands decided to not have a kid the impact would be small. I doubt every waifuist currently living not having kids wouldn't really affect population as a hole.

>>49363

Just because you have no Filial Piety doesn't mean that about 60% of the world doesn't.

You may want to look up the concept.

Look, I'm not attacking Hikagefag. I understand where he's coming from and respect his decision either way.

I'm just saying your argument is damned stupid from a standpoint of honor and tradition - which makes up 90% of a person's culture, which in the end defines who they are.

>>49365

I understand that you dont want to hurt your father but your living your life for yourself not him or your family. You would be stuck with a woman you would most likely not love and a kid you probably dont want to raise. And by the way you talk about him your dad seems like a pretty cool guy so he'd probably want what makes you happier.

Also imagine you had a 3D wife but she was infertile and coulndt have kids. You wouldn't you leave her for someone else just to have kids. Isnt it the same for 2D?

>>49365

I understand that, and respect that.

My stance on history was against the anon's argument, not your position.

I realize that you may take some offense to my argument of history, but my point was that history DOES decide what we do.

It's our learning, our traditions, our honor, our genetics, our capabilities, our limits.

Whether we like it or not, our futures are set in stone (although with wide margins), and our futures are our pasts.

It's just, there are a few people every now and then that have enough of the cycle and just pound the entirety of that stone to rubble.

Be one of those people.

It is my belief that everyone has the power within them to do so.

You just have to want it and work towards it.

You could make waifu real, even.

Just don't give up.

Whatever path you choose, go at full steam ahead and don't look back.

>>49369

This has nothing to do with 'be cooler' and everything to do with 'your future is really what you make of it, you can either follow the established tracks or jump them and toss fate to the wind'.

>>49370

>took BE COOLER. seriously.

Was just summarizing it. I got the message.

No fun allowed.

Seriously though, thanks.

>>49371

agh would this dumb site stop doing this to me

superseekritclub2.0 when

>>49394

I want to start posting again too, but my situation that makes it extremely uncomfortable hasn't changed

hug me

>>49394

Don't worry. I'm with you.

>>42533

I wish i had the spare cash for a daki of her, but damn a 7ft long pillow won't be cheap.

>>49405

Honestly, commissioning the art is going to be more expensive then the pillows

for 7 feet you can get a normal sized daki and then one of those nice long pillows that are like a half daki for the rest of it

all in all should be like 70 bucks depending on what ones you buy

daki art can vary a lot, but average good deals i've seen is like, 60 dollars a side,

I think I'm masturbating too much. I used to only do it once or twice a month at most but a few weeks ago I bought a toy and now I'm doing it twice a day or sometimes more. I know that's probably normal to some people here but I feel so disgusted with myself. Of course it feels good when I'm doing it but I always feel so horrible after. I'm one of those people who believes you should only do it with your waifu and it's just making me feel like I'm defiling a person I love and respect and turning them into a sex object. Every time I think about us together lately it always turns lewd, too. I hate this.

>>49481

I can touch base with you a lot in that post

Lately my libido has skyrocketed for no discernible reason and I can't keep up with myself. I paid it no mind for about a month but now I kinda come crashing down sometimes and feel like crying. I don't think Yuno could keep up with my libido right now and frankly thats a good thing but it makes me feel bad and I don't want her to feel bad or like shes not fulfilling to me

It'd be nice to offer you some advice but all I can say is you're not alone

>>49493

I don't think my opinion matters anymore, but here something I felt since my early days on /mai/. I tend to be far more isolationist because I really don't want to get hurt. However, a part of me sorts of regrets that I didn't make all that many friends despite lurking/post on /mai/ for over a year. Maybe I am just bad at expressing my true feelings. Which is probably why I shitpost too much like a fag on the IRC. Maybe I am just so bad at handling drama, I just close the browser and go play video games or something. I guess it sort of felt I am running away from my problems.

You are far braver than I, desuburger.

I find myself fapping to a lot of fanfics where my waifu suffers in cruel and unusual ways.

It makes me feel really bad immediately afterwards, but I can't seem to stop myself.

I think the most beautiful part of my waifus body are her shapely perfect proportioned breasts.

I am going to commission private lewds/porn of my waifu and my self-insert. Of course I really like intimate and romantic stuff.

sometimes I find myself wishing my husbando had a vagina

I think that spoilers are overused, I am not going to get any closer to my waifu because of lots of flaws on my side, and I know I shouldn't judge people by the confessions they write but I do so anyway.

Also I didn't like k-on but I liked Fruits Basket and to this day I have no idea why I got into either of those

I have been lurking here for quite a while. It's tough to say what I want to when it comes to matters of the heart.

We're both pretty nervous types, truth be told.

Still. I'll take one step at a time. Here's the first:

Hello, /mai/. You all seem like nice people.

I keep getting the impression that people don't take my relationship as seriously as others because of the person I love. I know I shouldn't care what other people think, but it still doesn't make it hurt any less.

I want to write a confession but it would be so obvious who was posting and I'm scared people already view me differently and judge me because of the subject matter. In fact it's sort like the anon above me said, I feel people don't take my relationship as serious because of certain things. It's not even really related to my waifu either.

>>49839

Sometimes I fantasize about my husbando being a hermaphrodite.

>be single

>have crush on strict girl

>have obligations to fulfill

>friend I'm starting to lose touch with invites me to play some vidya

>feel divided on whether to fulfill obligations or go play with him

>can feel her stern gaze over me

>can hear her words of warning, that she'd be disappointed in me and I'd be betraying myself

>listen to her gentle, yet firm advice

>promise both her and myself that I'll finish my duty before I do anything with him

>fulfill the promise

>see her soft, approving smile

>hear her caring voice express approval

>have plenty of time for rest of day to play with my friends

>tfw job well done

>tfw crush is happy

>tfw happy because crush is happy

I-I think I should give her a real chance…

>>51122

I'm a dollfucker :^)

>>51047

For clarification, this is a 2D crush. I'm a little hesitant to call her my waifu, but I'm optimistic.

>>51122

They Said Dakis Were For Cuddling

Then This Post Happened

Cringe But Nice Dubs

>>51133

also nice dubs

>>49940

welcome

As of lately I have fantasized a lot about "adding" some people important to me and their beloved into my headcannons with me and my waifu, I really have no idea how they'd react learning this new but I know I enjoy it a real lot. Having our fates tied altogether makes it feel like it gives everything more worth and I'm really happy I got to love my beloved, standing by the sides of my friends and seeing them happy too.

>>51347

I've done this a little too, so even if it's weird at least you're not alone.

>>51154

>>51047

Did this dude ever come back?

>>51426

I'm still here. I'm digging deeper into her source, and things are going well between us.

I know it's petty, but it's difficult to accept when other people don't see your spouse as special like you do. They see the details, the things that make them so them, and they go 'so what? Doesn't matter.'

I know it can't be in their intentions, but it hurts, and it only rubs it in the more they fail to understand it. I'm not in a position to tell anyone what's upset me so much, I don't want to share misery on someone who thought they were helping. I have to force a smile and say everything's lovely, thank you.

It's the context - the ignorance - that can't be helped that chokes me up. In the end I put too much faith in other people, and expected someone else to provide happy memories. I'm sure many would say it should count no matter what, but it's not what I wanted for them, and sullies things I used to be happy with. One weekend of bad events will forever destroy things I'd held dear for years.

Why did I ever come out of hiding when I can never be satisfied by the well-wishing of strangers. I'm happier with nothing than with the thoughts of what could have been. I can't let myself hate either of them.

For a while, I'd forgotten what exactly drew me to her. For a while, I felt my compassion for her fade. I thought that I hadn't found the one after all.

Today, I re-watched the material that introduced me to her. I was nearly brought to tears. I felt that grand spark in me again. I've been stuck trembling and holding myself back for an hour now.

I remember now, and I'm so happy for that.

>>51765

I know the feel to well, this is marvelous isn't it ?

>>51766

It is. It's magnificent. I've never felt like this towards anyone else.

>>51765

>>51766

>>51767

Well sometimes when I listen to certain songs I think about her and start to tear up.

I mean football, beer, heavy lifting, and muscle cars.

Arturia has been stuck in my head. For two weeks, I haven't been able to stop thinking about her. Saturday night, I was so wracked with emotion for her that I couldn't sleep until I'd announced the beginning of our relationship.

Strangely, I've felt much more productive and willing to do things other than playing video games in this time frame. I've just been more motivated to do what I needed to do.

Is this what happiness is like? Have I been living under a gray cloud my entire life without realizing it?

>>52051

I'm no philosopher, but…

Here comes the sun

Here comes the sun,

and I say, It's all right.

I had a similar experience with Yuuko as we grew closer. There was a definite "oh shit, this is really a thing" moment, and suddenly I'm spending evenings and weekends cleaning the house, the garden, reorganising and redecorating. Why did I care enough about the state of my oven at 10pm to do something about it? Because waifu, apparently.

Beware, you'll soon develop an unhealthy interest in things like placemats and tablecloths.

Either way, I'm glad for you. Hope you have many happy years ahead.

I find myself afraid to post lately since I feel like someone who is familiar with my waifu's source material is going to come along and tell me I'm headcanoning too much and that I'm intrepreting my waifu's personality all wrong. I don't even know why I feel this way since there's almost no one here that is.

>>52977

I know the feeling.

>>52977

I worry about someone looking into their source material and coming back to say I'm not true because of its nature. It extends to my interests in general, which are frowned upon.

>>53012

>>53075

Why do you need or want their friendship?

Friends will come and go. Some will stick with you for life while others are just a flash in the pan.

I just recently ditched some "friends" and I don't really feel bad about it at all. It probably helps I had been growing distant from them for some time.

Easier said than done especially when you're in the place you sound like you are. You sound dependent on them or like if you leave they'll hurt you in some way. Work on becoming more independent and fine with yourself. Keep in mind that if you do this some people really don't like that they aren't needed anymore.

>>53098

>Why do you need or want their friendship?

I have been friends with them for a good while and I really enjoy there company.The problem isn't them.The friends I have are great people who have helped me out alot in the past. My problem is me. I just don't what is about me that causes me to say something stupid that end causing me issues.i always make sure to think about what I say before I say it and the possible reaction or response I might get from saying something, but sometimes I slip up and it screws over and hurts another person's feelings.

I hate incest art but I can't help but save some of it because it looks really good and doesn't look overtly like shipping art. I can't look at it for long without getting angry, though. Why can't people understand that just because siblings are close doesn't mean they're fucking (especially if they're literal children)? Sorry if I sound like an SJW or something but it really grinds my gears.

>>53220

I probably could have worded that better; I don't care about what fetishes you have or what have you but I don't like them forced on my waifu, who clearly doesn't have romantic feelings for her sister and they're just close siblings. Your gif made me laugh

>>53140

Don't worry so much about offending people. Everyone has moments where they make themselves look like an ass and unless you do it constantly or in a really big way people will forget.

What's the worst they'll do? Throw a fit you said the wrong thing? I get that it seems impractical or that I just don't get it but it's the sort of advice that's hard to get through to yourself even when you want to.

I kind of wish we had waited until we got married to have sex.