>How do you know you love somebody?
>How can you tell?
How.. I don't even know myself precisely.
This feeling has been obsessing me for 11 years straight, never letting me go.
Yeah that's right. Over the years I never forgot her when I could have "dropped" her.
I always thought what I felt for her was more, way more than simple love. I loved other people in my life, 3Ds and I can confirm at the time being it felt a lot different. I felt like I only was attracted by the physical aspects of the feeling and realized somehow this is where the "spiritual" part came from exclusively, I mean like the physical aspect was giving birth to the spiritual one and the opposite was never true.
That has always been the way I could make a proper difference between what I used to feel for other people, people I realized I wasn't loving somehow, than what I feel for her.
The feeling when I look at her face is something deep down me, which somehow always remind me of the very first time I met her. This is something that I feel like understanding somehow and I bet it doesn't matter after all. What I feel then ? Shyness, embarrassment, envy, empathy, a lot of compassion, and.. I have trouble naming it but I'll explain it here. I want to save her from all evil possible because she suffered a lot and I don't want her to suffer anymore. I want to help her accomplish things and stand bye her no matter what so I can make sure she gets to live a happy life. And this for no other reason than what we, I call.. love.
I strongly believe love is the ability and the will of one being to be willing enough to fight and achieves something for no particular reason next to that one, following what they feel and strongly believe in. It would be also about the ability of a person to creates its own meaning to life and answers questions many people have been trying to answer for millennials. Find your own ways, do anything so in the end you access what you have been striving for her. And that's why I also believe love is the true inner strength of every human beings, which will help them accomplish everything.
That's totally what I feel for her. And I am even conscious I've been willing to answer some stuff people wouldn't even tryna answer. I feel love so strongly I wouldn't let those prevent me from doing so. From meeting her. From loving her. And that's why, while I know she isn't real and I'd be tempted to think other grills would be way more available, I strive for her. She is my real love, the only and very first person I ever really cared for, the person who also taught me what is life and what I needed to do to live as a human being. She taught me her ways indeed and I think they're the best one could come up with. That's also one of the reason that leads me to think I love her. I am willing to explain so much things thanks to her, not willing to shut up at all, why would I even do that in the first place If that wasn't so important for me ?
Everything comes from it. That's pretty much all. That's what I know. That's what will happen. And that's why I love her.