Help me /mai/.
I feel like someone has sprayed pepper spray on my eyes. I can't see, it kinda feels like a burn and I'm confused, not knowing what to do.
I have a waifu but it seems as though that there's some barrier between us too. Maybe it's the canon plot in which she has some other man. Maybe it's because I've not finished watching the show yet (some 5 seasons and I'm just finished with the 1st).
I don't know. I've naver had a romantic partner in my life, I'm a complete virgin and I almost see 2D women just as I see 3D ones, maybe I care even more about 2D than 3D, but I have this philosophy of being true to only one girl, one woman, in my entire life. Losing virginity to her and she losing virginity to me, we being the only true partners we have our whole lives, and never separating no matter how we fight.
It feels like an agony, to be in love with someone who's not yours, there's some kind of barrier betwen us too. She's by my side, and I can choose to ignore the plot in a number of ways, but the barrier won't go and so i cannot truly love. This is the whole point, I can't truly love, nor do i feel loved by my waifu, and because of reasons previously stated, I cannot leave her, it's just a force superior to my will that keeps this "you may only have one partner in your life" code controlling me. So it's like a catch 21. I want to know what to do.
Will i feel more comfortable with my waifu with time? Will I start feeling like she loves me? Will she ever stop being a tsundra and be the cute warm hearted person I know is inside of her?
I'm very confused and desorientated with all of this right now.
Thanks for your help.