>>52820
Though we are not a proper couple I have been with Sui for roughly 7 years now, I have loved her so much this whole time, loved her when I met her, still love her today, the only thing that has changed has been my understanding and interpretation of that love.
In the beginning I just thought she was a character that I really really really liked, which developed into casual waifuism, which long after I rushed into thinking I was married to her, and only later came to the conclusion that this was a mistaken interpretation, which was reunderstood as worship
Regardless of what I describe them as, or how much I am aware of them, my emotions have remained constant, and she has remained a fixed point in my mind, one of few things I never tire of, perhaps part of why I love her so much, unlike everything else in my adhd mind, I never tire of her beauty.
Just hang in there, you may sometimes doubt yourself, or perhaps sometimes the dynamic of your relationship will change, but this doesn't mean the end is nigh just because things feel a little different than usual.
Even after 7 years I still find out new things about her, little details I missed, or some piece of content I skimmed over, and even if she remains the same your relationship with her might change over time.
I don't know if one day I will feel comfortable marrying her, but I know one thing for certain, I love Suiseiseki and will until the day I die, and then even past that content i've created and made will live long after my passing, carrying my love across the net for her for all eternity, regardless of what I call it or think it is.
>>52862
y'know, id like to think I'll be cured and be able to marry her by then… that sounds nice