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 No.12797[Reply]

So /mental/, what other sites about mental illnesses or for generally mentally ill people do you visit?

http://www.psychforums.com/

http://shutinnetwork.com

http://mentalpod.com/forum/

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 No.12816

>>12811

Too normie how?


 No.12822

>>12816

moralfags and stupid females


 No.12823

hell no, i can barely stand this place.

the amount of fuckbaby island hobosexuals around here is just bearable enough in small doses that it doesn't make me want to die like those places would.

hell the first post i saw in shut in network was a transgender flipping the fuck out over oppression or whatever.

no. no thank you. no i'm good.


 No.12824

myproana.com


 No.12829

>>12822

>stupid females

Hnng. Yes please where



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 No.8326[Reply]

How many traits of a potential serial killer do you exhibit /mental/?

http://listverse.com/2013/01/02/10-most-common-traits-of-potential-serial-killers/

I exhibit 9/10, yet the only one I don't exhibit is that I didn't wet the bed until an abnormal age, apparently that trait has been rubbished anyway…

So 9/9 ;_;
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 No.12720

8/10

Shit


 No.12741

>>8326

10/10

…shit

Makes sense actually.

I had a tendency when I was younger to get in lots of fights and I reveled in getting my ass kicked.

I liked the feeling of adrenaline and pain numbing endorphins going through my veins so much I got addicted. But then I got better through meditation

I'm just not a serial killer.

…yet. when I get rich I'll be like Bane and Punisher put together


 No.12793

>>12741

>torturing animals

Just why?


 No.12796

>>12793

Cruelty to animals is mainly used to vent frustration and anger the same way firesetting is During childhood, serial killers could not retaliate towards those who caused them humiliation, so they chose animals because they [animals] were viewed as weak and vulnerable.they vented their frustrations because the person causing them anger or humiliation was too powerful to take down; they felt as if they regained some control and power over their lives through the torture and killing of the animals; they gained the power and control they needed to cause pain and suffering of a weaker, more vulnerable animal . animal cruelty was a way for the children to feel as if they were retaliating against those who abused, frustrated, or humiliated them.


 No.12828

4. Funny thing is, I actually planned a killing spree once



 No.12799[Reply]

made this.

reddit is actually deleting posts about tinfoil.

(and the linked psychiatry fraud, lobotomobile threads, and mercury known to cause illness since 500bc threads)

dunno, fuckin illegal aliens

 No.12800

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>>12799

f o r g o t the p i c


 No.12801

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>>12800

bump. made a meme.

fuckin illegal aliens


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>>12801

shielding + how to escape mental illness

leddit \r\ gangstalkingmkultra/comments/475o1v/youtube_playlists_questions_and_short_messages/d13166b


 No.12825

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3 steps to get out of mind control for $10

last meme sry


 No.12826

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eyes in the woods

and $10 shielding

>2 memes



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 No.12700[Reply]

So I was researching the negative effects of social isolation, and I noticed that a lot of articles liked to act like social isolation is exclusively involuntary (such as prison or experiments) or the symptom of an anxiety related mental disorder.

I'm socially isolated, and I'm neither in prison, nor do I have any anxiety disorders, and I felt like writing why I choose to be alone before I go to bed. And i thought it'd be funny to share it with all of you and see what you think.

I'm probably going to crosspost this on other boards.

"reasons for my voluntary social isolation

i cannot relate to normies' simplistic philosophies and general motives for doing what they do. normies hand-wave philosophical issues off by conveniently pointing at their Christianity (even though they neither attend church or open the bible, ever) or answer grand questions with simple answers, such as "because tradition". This leads me to believe that normies don't engage in deep thought and have no individualism, and disgusts me.

normies do not desire deep interpersonal connections that i do, and are in fact disturbed at the idea. as a result, normies are unwilling to share any details of their personal lives, ensuring no one in their social circle will ever go beyond an acquaintance

normies have never shown me any genuine emotional response to anything ever, leading me to believe their emotions are quite dulled and also further supporting the "no desire for interpersonal connections" theory

if normies do not desire interpersonal connections and are not emotionally responsive, then what do they crave in a relationship?

They crave hand-outs and someone to kill the time with. They use everyone near for pathetic indulgences; when they are bored of staring at their television sets, that is when they will call someone up to give them a ride to do [something].

I have no desire to be their plaything. I would be their friend but they don't want a friend, they want an alternative to the telly; mindless passage of the time. I am not the answer to their bPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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 No.12814

>>12702

The irony of this post is that by assuming the position of moral superiority, it is you who looks like a smug asshole, not OP.

>>12809

>muh profeshunuls!!!

>considers divorcing, accruing debt, and throwing ones health down the drain to be the gold standard of behavior, by which all other behaviors are judged.

I really dislike you.


 No.12815

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>>12814

>The irony of this post is that by assuming the position of moral superiority, it is you who looks like a smug asshole, not OP.

That's fine. Go on, be a rebel, but don't whine when you're staring down the grave you made for yourself.

>>muh profeshunuls!!!

That's a lovely and convenient way of rejecting things that disagree with your outlook because you don't like them.

>I really dislike you.

I didn't expect any less from someone who holds such opinions. Typical. Frankly, I really dislike the people who think of mental disorders as nothing more than quirkiness or out-of-the ordinary behavior that makes one a snowflake rather than the terrible and debilitating things they really are. They shouldn't be something to be proud of, that's like being proud of being an amputee because you have one less limb than most everyone else even though in reality, you're at a disadvantage.

Again, feel free to try and push that boulder over a hill, Sisyphus, but don't complain when the same results happen over and over. Go against the grain and the grain will go against you. If that's what you find satisfaction in, then I see no reason to complain other than out of hypocrisy. If it isn't, then it is you who is the problem, not everyone else. Is it always the case that someone is to blame for their problems? No as it can be involuntary as is the case with mental disorders, but that doesn't make it any less disorderly and neither is it a sort of 'get out of jail free' card.


 No.12817

>>12815

Thats a mighty lot of verbiage you've got going on, shame you forgot to address the meat of my argument.

>Go against the grain and the grain will go against you.

Good! Resistance is thrilling. Society is shaped and moulded by people who aren't afraid to go against the grain, in case you aren't aware. A person isn't automatically defective just because they don't fit into the shit sandwich machine known as modern society.

Maybe I'll replace dislike with pity. It must be a miserable existence, being a consensus based 'thinker'. I wake up every day thankful I don't have to derive my happiness from the approval of others.


 No.12818

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>>12817

>Society is shaped and moulded by people who aren't afraid to go against the grain, in case you aren't aware.

I'd say it's destroyed. I'd say that such a line of thought is the very thing that leads to chaos, disorganization, and turns man back into a beast. But whatever.

>It must be a miserable existence

Actually, having a solid foundation with no compromise, a life with structure, is quite satisfying. Much more satisfying than the days when I was constantly trying to be something I'm not just for the sake of feeling like I mattered. I care very little for frivolity. I don't need your pity because I don't value it and there is nothing from that lifestyle which I find desirable.

You think you're different for being a rebel? You think you're unique for pushing against? lol the world is filled with people like you and because of that, one could even say that you aren't the rebellious ones at all anymore.

Enjoy this mindset while you can, because it can and will bite you in the ass someday.


 No.12820

>>12809

>Trained professionals.

Trained professionals who once thought homosexuality was a mental illness but then changed their mind when it became more socially acceptable to be gay. Trained professionals who diagnose vivacious boys with attention deficit disorder and give them medication that fucks their brain chemistry up. Their opinion is worthless.

>If a screw doesn't fit in a machine its intended to fit into, it's defective.

The screw is fine, it's the machine that's defective.

>Likewise, if a person can't really exist like people are generally expected to, they are defective(or, as psychologists call it, disordered.)

That's just the point of view of society, which is not even an actual entity. Only the individual is real. Most people can't exist as how people expect them to, so according to your logic, most people are defective, but then if that's the norm, it invalidates the premise.

>Being 'different' is perfectly fine so long as you can still function normally when needed.

Human beings are not tools that only exist to serve some vague function required of them by society.

>And if it affects those around you. Caring solely about what makes you happy without thinking of long term consequences upon everyone else is selfish and egotistic.

Nobody thinks about how his behaviour is going to affect others in the long term.



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 No.12226[Reply]

what is your favourite quotation?

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 No.12489

>>12488

I'm not that Anon but I wrote something in this thread for someone else, maybe you'd be interested

>>>/edu/28


 No.12490

Hi guys sorry for saying schizotypal wasn't real, this is a year later and I realize now that it totally is because if it's interfering in someone's life then it's a problem clearly. I guess I was just angry that someone had it less severe than me, me having schizophrenia. That's pretty stupid though. Apologies to raven.


 No.12491

>>12490

Wait i accidentally replied sorry


 No.12499

>>12488

Not that guy. The usual way to start meditating is with breathing meditation for ten-twenty minutes - best to set an alarm. You can do it daily but depends if you can get yourself to do that.

There's a lot of guides on breathing meditation - you basically just concentrate on your breathing and how your body moves as you breath.

You can use guided meditation videos at the start, if you want; people often avoid it so they don't get dependant but it can be helpful to give you an idea on how to do it.

I had a pastebin that was pretty good. It suggested you count the breaths 1, 2, etc. and loop at 0, 1, 2, etc. I found I always kept counting and kept thinking about the numbers instead of the breathing.

It wasn't this one but this is all right. http://pastebin.com/RiztB70J

Position-wise, sitting is generally the general one but if you have back problems or something you can stand, walk or lie down. I can't remember where I read it but there's two measurements of difficulty. One is the physical side - so walking is the 'hardest' and lying is the 'easiest' - the other is the mental difficulty, where walking is the easiest and lying is the hardest. Sitting is in the middle of both. I lie down because I'm lazy.

>>12489

>find meaning

>set and review your major life goals

I need a chart on how to do that.

That's a neat chart either way.


 No.12813

“A man isn't tiny or giant enough to defeat anything - Yukio Mishima.

This the shortest quote I know that I like. Generally the quotes I like are really long.



 No.12804[Reply]

>Be 19

It's currently my 4-5 years of watching porn about 4-5 times a day usually more than that.

I did successfully stopped for a month and it was horrible, I couldn't sleep, I didn't want to eat. The only time I could do anything was to oogle at pin ups just to understand it's cheating so I counted again.

Anyway it ended in 30 days total. And I'm now back more times than ever. (5-7)

I want to stop (Reduce to 1-2 a day) and I can't. I have no friends I can talk to. The only people are just my parents.

The rest are very long distant so if I ever meet them it's one every 3 months.

I was wondering if there's a way to cope with an addiction without the use of more than one social interaction every week.

 No.12805

Learning to hate the thing controlling you with a passion. Make it the epitome of everything wrong, make it your nemesis. Think of everything you hate and attribute it to that which you wish to get rid of. Many say hatred is a bad thing, but I believe there is such a thing as righteous anger towards things worth hating. As cheesy as it is to quote a video game character, there is wisdom in Darion Mograine from WoW: "Harness your hate, make it useful."

If that alone isn't enough, then you will also have to give yourself a motive behind disgust for it. This can be anything so long as it is something very meaningful to you.

Then there is finally the simple matter of keeping yourself busy. Idleness leads to these kinds of compulsions. I'm going to assume that you have a lot of free time to be staring at dead-inside whores that many times a day, so I'd suggest that you find something to keep you busy for lengthy periods of time. Anything will suffice so long as it is something you want to do and will take time be it a grindy video game, a new craft, a busy job, it just has to keep your mind off of the thing bothering you.

A lot of folks suggest to keep track of days and set goals but this just makes the thing stay on your mind and, because of that, it will take a hold of you much easier. Remember, it is your worst enemy and its weakness is neglect.

All of this will take time, practice, and discipline and you will fail multiple times. However, you will get better and better as time passes and eventually it will be but a gnat that you occasionally have to swat away.


 No.12806

>>12805

I don't think hatred would be useful in this case. It would just lead to feelings of guilt and shame when he can't stop doing the thing he hates.

Your other suggestion however is valid. Boredom and an empty life are the enemies here. OP should find a hobby, a job, or a girlfriend.

Don't try to quit completely! It's not a sustainable long-term solution and you're just setting yourself up for failure.


 No.12812

how many times a day do you masturbate?



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 No.2867[Reply]

I wonder what kind of vidya /mental/tard plays.

Right now i'm playing a lot of Postal 2, Total war rome and some snes & ps1 games that give me THE nostalgic feels that sometimes ends up in depression, especially after the new wave of femminist shitstorming vidyas, and also because when i was a kid i wasn't the useless piece of shit i am right now.

Pic semi-related to the nostalgic feels: i used to play the demo of swat 2 a lot when i was a kid
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 No.2950

>>2949
Psychic, hdoom, I know Sergeant Mark IV is a massive faggot, but brutal doom itself is 5/5 bretty gud.

 No.3061

>>2949
>>2950
I also just tried fractal doom for the first time. It was a very surreal experience.

 No.12794

Bastion is a really good game, but I've mainly been playing hat fortress 2 as of late. Not sure if there's some sort if deeper meaning there.


 No.12795

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War Thunder.

One of the few F2P games that doesn't seem P2W.

I also play Diablo 3. Crusader is love, Crusader is life.

Used to play WoW and sometimes dork around in single player Gmod(seen enough multiplayer videos to know not to play in that cancer pit.) Also play skyrim, oblivion or fallout here and there.

Any game with flyable aircraft or wrpgs are games I like so long as they aren't terrible.


 No.12810

i was addicted to video games since i was 6

i had finally quit the damn things two years ago and shifted my hobbies to film and literature and studying political science.

well see the thing is

i watch a movie, that's an hour and a half.

i read for three hours.

i study for an hour.

there's still 9 hours left of free time. i don't feel like watching two movies in one day and i'm tired of reading now. now what the fuck do i do?

video games are fucking shit. they're the shittiest medium there is. they're artless, schlocky and for children and I hate them. but they're the only way to kill huge amounts of time. i can play a video game for 18 hours solid whereas the superior film is only two hours at best.

so i got back into them. i bought a vita. i'm playing natural doctrine right now. the only way i have fun in video games is if they're extremely difficult. difficulty = fun to me. and this one is acceptable levels of challenge.



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 No.11170[Reply]

A quick survey, /mental/ists

What do you do for a living?

What's your profession?

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 No.12787

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>>12786

> letting them fuck me in the arse etc.


 No.12788

>>12786

i have completely no experience with that matter, but is not it that males just want to fuck and from male point of view dates are redundant? what do you do at dates?

> giving them company

i suppose it is not about companionship but about social status

>, letting them fuck me in the arse etc.

is your pussy so loose (worn out) that males preffer anal sex? sorry for very personal questions xd


 No.12789

>>12788

Nah, the guys are pretty lonely, so they really want some company. They're the type of guys who focused so hard on their career that they never had time for socializing with others.

I'm a guy btw.


 No.12791

>>12789

ebin XD also where are you living? some tolerant country i guess


 No.12792

>>12791

Denmark



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 No.12758[Reply]

who /snort their meds/ here?

 No.12769

Why the fuck would anyone do that? Just swallow them like us not-mentally retarted freaks.


 No.12773

Why would I want to do that? The goal is to become sane, not an overripe vegetable.


 No.12774

>>12758

who dat in tha pic? he cute af


 No.12790

.xanax sometimes (when i need the effects immedieatly. or just chew them and let it dissolve under my tongue. nasty taste but works quicker



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 No.12775[Reply]

psych skype chat

For people with diagnosed psychiatric disorders, self diagnosers need not apply.

a/s/l/disorder(s)/skype

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 No.12777

last time i have been there, they were chatting about who they fucked, fucking normies


 No.12780

>>12777

this is not group skype but for individuals to people theyd like to talk to


 No.12782

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>>12780

ah ok then

21mPoland

schizotypal disorder, depression

skype: costam.pff


 No.12783

>>12782

ps. if you are into philosophy or psychiatry, go ahead and chat with me


 No.12785

>>12782

That was one guy. He has since left



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 No.1767[Reply]

Does anyone else wish for that final push to drive you completely insane?

I just want that one straw to break my back, to completely destroy my psyche and ruin what little sanity I have left. I want an excuse to completely give up, something that will make everyone who knows me look at me and go "Well, after all he's been through, we can't really blame him for snapping like he did". I want to escape into my own fantasy world, giggling and screaming like a madman, while the rest of society continues to live in their deluded little worlds, dictated by corrupt men of power who tell them what'll make them happy. I just want to lose my mind already and put it where no one can find it ever again.
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 No.12412

>>12399

It won't work unless you have some genetic predisposition


 No.12415

>>12412

Doesn't matter right now. I've been much happier these last couple of days. I'm still having a few homicidal thoughts but they're not bothering me today


 No.12416

>>12415

Well, good luck


 No.12762

>>1767

Sometimes I feel like insanity would make me more creative and let me see beyond the herd in some ways. Is there truth in madness? Only the mad are truly free from social constructs.


 No.12781

Histrionic personality disorder would be a fun way to lose it. You would slide from being a dramatic manipulative slut to being a sociopath or something.



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 No.12771[Reply]

I have so many I can barely even count them:

>depression

>anxiety

>bulimia

>atypical autism

>dysthymia

 No.12778

>schizotypal disorder

>depression

diagnosed loong ago

>adhd

>social phobia

>dyslexia

>dysgraphia

>dyscalculia

>dysorthographia


 No.12827

>adhd

>asd

>sad

and some eating disorders im fucking embarrassed about



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 No.10796[Reply]

ITT: Just post what you want out of life anon, it can be anything, let your dreams run wild, let your mind take flight. Post what you want AND/OR what you expect/want in second place. I'll start:

>Peace of mind

>Want to live somewhere quiet, on my own land, with like minded neighbors near a suburb/lone town for resupply, without any family there to make me feel bad about it

>Would like to save money to travel across country and see where I want to go, kind of a mini-adventure across some states in an RV/truck

>(This part wont ever happen) wish someone who actually understood me would come with me

>Decent sized bong and some pot, a few easy to make meals maybe some fresh stuff, water filter, supplies etc etc

>Golden Dawns Hot Sauce, a small crates worth because its liquid gold

>Ideally to settle down somewhere as I described before, work as a park ranger or something, enjoy life simply

>To escape current living situation

Keeping my thing simple for now. Lets see what /mental/ wants.

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 No.12685

>be in relationship

>live somewhere i'm happy

>make enough money to buy expensive clothes and travel


 No.12709

>intimacy

>have someone actually love me in a romantic way

>stable job I can handle

>not be a casanova type (minus the sexual/romantic attraction) character

>do my best to be a good person


 No.12713

>to have a ghibli style house in the California countryside but still close enough to Los Angeles

>have it be kind of a small farm

>have a pet pig, a few pet dogs and cats, and maybe some other pets too

>a whole flower garden for aesthetic purposes

>to be a nice lesbian relationship with some girl, maybe poly, maybe not, w/e

>maybe we'd have kids

>maybe have a few pot plants growing since it's legal down there

>practically a million flypens I bought off of ebay or amazon

>to be a successful indie cartoonist

or more realistically

>be semi-popular internet cartoonist

>have comfy affordable apartment far from from my abusive family

>have it not be infested with roaches or w/e the fuck

>to not feel exhausted and suicidal 24/7

>stop hallucinating this one fuck that rapes(?) me a lot

>not have schizophrenic mental decay

>acquire an actual self esteem and not have to cover up my insecurities with ego

>STOP STAYING UP TILL 4 AM


 No.12725

I just want to fix the management of natural resources, perhaps some physics and maybe play in a jazz band with other aspies. Also, I'm not sure yet if I can enjoy a relationship, would like to find out but can't really make any other contact with people but kind of exploitative/subject-related. Also, a ocean capable sailboat would be nice.


 No.12772

>death



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 No.7317[Reply]

Can we get a PTSD thread going?

Just wondering how many /mental/ists are dealing with it.

Can you touch on how you came to have it, and how you are coping with it?

I was diagnosed with PTSD after I got back from Afghanistan.
This was some years ago, and I'm doing much better–I no longer require medication or therapy.

From what I've seen on here, it's seems, unfortunately, to be much harder for non war-induced PTSD anons to get treatment and acceptance.
Is my impression correct?
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 No.7565

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>>7317

I wish there was a cure.

Basically, my mother was more or less insane. Scitzophrenia, PTSD, substance abuse and what not.

I could deal with public humilations. I could deal with getting kicked in the stomach occasionally. I could deal with being hungry as hell. I could deal with being cold due to lack of winter clothing in December or January. I wasn't probably awfully bothered with witnessing my mother and her boyfriend fighting over a six-pack(of beer) in Christmas, even if I did have to wash the blood from walls and the floor afterwards. I didn't think much of it when mother said that I was the worst mistake of her life. I even found it funny that I was being chased by a knife
wielding mad-woman few years later.

I couldn't deal with couple of things though.

I couldn't deal with not getting enough sleep. It was awful when I had to go to school, try to get food from somewhere during the day, and when I sneaked back home, mother was playing music so loudly that I couldn't sleep. I probably could have gotten some sleep eventually, but mother kept ordering me to pour her more booze, make her coffee, make her food and what the fucking ever between 2300 and 0400 until she finally passed out on booze. I had to wake up at 0530, walk to school which usually started at 0800. This shit kept going for a three or four days and then I just kinda snapped if I remember correctly. I was then forced to eat some pills my mother gave me and then I was allowed to sleep.

But I couldn't deal with having my puppy beaten up infront of me. I can never forgive myself for being incapacitated with fear, when my puppy was chased into my room, dragged from undearneath my bed, and then being beaten up infront of me, in the middle of my room. Sure I tried to do something, but when she started hitting me with that aluminium pipe I just became paralyzed with fear.

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 No.12748

>>7317

I got it from witnessing a particularly brutal fight between two dogs I own. One is dead now because I wasn't strong enough to save it from the other. I've also got several scars on my hands from being bitten trying to pry mouths open. I'm surprised I never lost a finger or something.

I don't have nightmares but as soon as something reminds me of it I go into flight-or-fight and sometimes I think I hear the sounds of them screaming and growling and it shocks me into that state. Just typing about it now makes my fucking head hurt.

I can't focus, I get very anxious around people's pets and I'm basically completely dead inside 24/7. I was deeply considering killing myself for a long time, then decided to do it. A day before when I had decided I would eat my gun I got a gf who had fallen in love with me and now I live only for her. If I'm not on drugs or drunk I can't function for more than a day or so before I'm overwhelmed by everything.

The only thing that has actually helped me cope is my gf. She's making me find a therapist and start going because I didn't want to.

If anything happened to her I would just finish the job.


 No.12749

>>12748

Try not to blame yourself. I'm sorry


 No.12763

I'm sure a lot of people who were bullied at school, etc have it to some degree and receive no treatment.


 No.12768

>>7317

I think it's not taken seriously by others cause when people think of PTSD they think of war vets. Cause after Vietnam a big spike of PTSD cases happened so it's just "tied" to vets only. I mean logically if you think someone being in a war seeing death 24/7 is heavy, so comparing that to those who have PTSD form abuse or such are seen as weak in the eyes of society. People just like to judge everyone's pain so people can't feel bad cause they don't "deserve" to when others "have it worse".

I only recently finally got help for my PTSD, cause one of my first psychs, refused to confirm me for PTSD since i wasn't a war vet/military. I went 4years without getting help i needed cause of the view on what is "true" PTSD.



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