>tfw fear of being undiagnosed borderline
>tfw turn inward for all my anger and every issue ever
> Get too stressed out over little things and eventually break down like a fucking cunt
>not very smart, low IQ
> heavily, heavily idolize certain people
>emotionally manipulate a friend who I know barely cares for me any more into staying my friend out of pity because I don't want to lose her
>quite literally hate myself, tell myself every day
>over emotional
>climgy
> short bouts of suicidal behavior
>know that everyone else would be better off if I disappeared and never showed back up in anybody's life
Christ, I don't know anymore