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 No.10254

Around 3 years ago maybe I got it in my head that I might be schizo. Immediately after watching some youtube video of a simulation of a psychotic episode I heard a faint noise, which I later realized was a construction worker outside, that I interpreted to be a voice. I was so panicked that I literally ran down stairs.

This went on for a while, me being constantly afraid that I was going to be barraged by voices but I was able to mostly conquer the fear after a while. It was still there but it didn't bug me nearly as much. I still had some lingering depersonalization, which at the time I was convinced was the main symptom of schizophrenia (I didn't dare look this stuff up because I was afraid of validating my self-diagnoses) but I managed to suppress it. Then a few months ago it got so bad that I couldn't work anymore and had to go to a psychiatrist. Despite the fact that she said I had no indications of psychosis I couldn't shake it and lately I've moved on to worrying about delusions. If some guy is staring at me for instance I start to wonder if maybe I think he's plotting against me even though on an intellectual level I realize he's not. Whenever I'm out in public and people are behind me I start to worry that maybe I think they're trying to kill me. Things of that nature.

This insane doublethink, constantly evaluating my thoughts and emotions to determine if I'm insane, has ironically been driving me insane. I've mostly regained my functioning with the help of zoloft but I feel like I can't shake the foundations of my fear away. I'm still worried that I really might be in the prodormal stages and that at any moment I'll have a full on psychotic break.

Anyway, I was wondering if anyone out there has a had a problem similar to this and could maybe offer some insight. Diagnosis was Generalized Anxiety Disorder if anyone's curious.

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 No.10281

OP, I don't mean to be to be insulting or malicious but this is kinda funny in some sense.

It's like being afraid of being afraid of something…or something

I don't know how similar I'm to you but I experienced something similar, I guess?

When certain events made me doubt my sanity?

So one night I hear these gnawing sounds while laying in my bed at night half-asleep. Being the former owner of hamsters, I thought I knew what gnawing sounds like. They used to nibble on all kinds of shit including the same carpet that I have in my room.

So vermin freak me out and I even buy a mouse trap the next day. My sister thought, that I was insane.

After a few days of trapper's misfortune and laying in my bed again I suddenly realize what these sounds were.

I just switched rooms and started sleeping in a wooden attic and sometimes the wood just creaks during temperatures changes. I must've interpreted these as gnawing sounds or something. Only in hindsight I regardes this experience as having been potentially psychotic.

Fast forward a few months, I stayed at a friend's shared appartment. Trying to sleep on my new air matress on the floor after emptying a beer crate.

Suddenly, I hear these tapping sounds that insects or spiders make or which I imagined them to do. So I try to ignore them but in my head I see some kind of spider's nest breaking up and thousands little spiders exiting it, starting to roam around and going towards my head, like in these horrors movies or gifs from down-under and my arm actually starts to tingle a bit but it's not a visual hallucination.

So I freak the fuck out and jump into a standing position pulling my cellphone light. But there's nothing. Just my brand-new air matress crackling because it hasn't been used before. I didn't want to sleep on the floor again after that, though.

My psychatrist didn't regard these events as psychotic.

Diagnosis: Major Depression but I'm med-free and in remission right now. I had my very last appointment 2 months ago.


 No.10282

>OP, I don't mean to be to be insulting or malicious but this is kinda funny

No offense taken, I recognize that this fear of mine is absurd but I'm occasionally overcome with dread anyway.


 No.10294

Sup op. Get yourself a Rorschach done and report back to us with results. That will clear things out.

>on an intellectual level I realize he's not

That's the difference between you and a full-blown schizo. You can still separate reality from imagination.


 No.10310

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>>10294

>a Rorschach


 No.10347

Sounds like OCD, bro. You know so obsessed of the fear to be mentally ill while not really being so. Just something to think about


 No.10351

>>10310

What's the deal with Rorschachs?


 No.10363

>>10351

it is a bullshit, not scientific, read https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tomasz_Witkowski


 No.10397

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I used to to live in the US and hung out with a lot of friends but then i moved to Malaysia and had no one. Ive always been self aware about death and such. Ive had periods of suicidal thought because I couldn't think of what was worth living if we all die anyway. These thoughts happened about a year and a half ago. When I moved to Asia, I began to feel as if I were in a dream. It started out small and didn't affect my life in anyway. As the months went on, I continued to feel as if I was dreaming. I already knew I had depression and I thought this was just another symptom of depression. Soon, I'd have to check if I was really dreaming or not. I had my first 'episode' eating lunch by myself in a crowded area. The world around me began to distort and I felt like I was not even in my body. My breathing was heavy and my heart was thumping.

These kind of symptoms went on for a few weeks. It then got to the point where I count recognise myself in the mirror or recognise my body parts when I looked at my hands.

This is my second bout of depression. My first one, was mostly a factitious disorder because I was sad about something that I shouldn't have been sad about. But right now, its pretty serious. In my first bout of depression, I was holding secrets from people close to me and I began hearing voices talking shit about me and telling each other they knew my secrets. I called these two voices Mom and Dad because they were a man and woman. The first time I heard them, I checked to see if people were talking but it was just the TV. I was reassured that I wasn't going crazy. The second time I check to see if it was still the TV, it wasn't. I was alone.

Right now, during my relapse of depression, I still here 'mom and dad' talk about me. I also see things. At first it was just a face with no eyes and an open mouth. That was the first time I saw something. It didn't speak. The second time I saw something (he is currently in his usual spot now) was 'the old man'. This old man wears a monk cloak with a hood and stands at the left corner of my bed. Ive heard him say "Hi" once but that was it.

To add on, I also have extreme paranoia. I can't even shut my eyes in the shower to wash my face. I always think some kind of creature is going to enter the shower and kill me. I also, feel as if I'm being watched constantly.


 No.10407

>OP's schizophrenia manifests itself as being paranoid about getting schizophrenia

What will happen if you accept that you're a schizo?


 No.10408

>>10397

Jesus Christ, that sounds horrifying. But I can relate to the eyes closed in shower phobia. I used to have it. It's a really bizarre kind of scary feeling when I imagined the creature, knowing it can't possibly be there, yet being convinced on some small level that it's there. I'm glad it went away. I outgrew it I guess.


 No.10411

>>10407

Well I don't think I am. I'm just worried that I might be in the prodormal phase. I know this is very unlikely given my lack of psychotic experiences and clean family history.

>>10347

I've read about "schiz-ocd" which is basically people with OCD going through the same thing as I am. I'm wary about self diagnosing though because that's mostly what got me into this mess.


 No.10413

>>10411

I was convinced too. However, due to my philosophy that if I can't do anything about it, there's no point in being worried, it was fine. Two years later, soon 21 and no schizophrenia. No more schizophrenia symptoms. I am, however, bipolar.


 No.10453

>>10363

I'm all up for skepticism, but that counts for skeptics, too.

Check the Exner system: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rorschach_test#Exner_scoring_system

It's based on research and intense correlations. It is based on the same principles that the DSM, that cognitive research, that is: it's based on facts and statistics.

A well-applied and well-interpreted Rorschach is the most powerful tool I know for diagnosis. Please revise your facts. This man's campaign is as unscientific as feminism, and reeks of SJWism

A Rorschach test can be powerful enough as to trigger a bout of psychosis in a schyzophrenic person during the test.

Anyways, OP, a Rorschach test can help you and your psychiatrist understand your messed-up brain


 No.10455

>>10453

> well-interpreted

that is the key problem

>DSM

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16636630

>A Rorschach test can be powerful enough as to trigger a bout of psychosis in a schyzophrenic person during the test.

[citation needed]


 No.10456

>>10455

>that is the key problem

A problem pertaining to the examiner, not the test. The same can be said of practicaly any tool, scientific or not. Say, an X-ray plate.

>DSM

The DSM is 90% bullshit. I quoted the DSM because most of the people I've heard discrediting proyective tests favor DSM diagnosing.

My point was, what would you consider "scientific" in psychology? My guess is that it involves a form of statistical inference, which is the same basis for Rorschach interpretation.

>[citation needed]

Gladly.

>"At the time this test was done the patient was at the beginning of a manic-like excitement. He showed motor excitement and flight of ideas, but at the same time he perseverated, always repeating the same things. Associative series were interrupted bu typically schizophrenic leaps in his thinking."

Rorschach, Hermann. Psychodiagnostic, p. 161

http://www.igorgrzetic.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/02/Herman-Rorschsch-Psychodiagnostics.pdf

I was searching for more colorful and reliable examples, like in this book https://books.google.co.ve/books?id=DMdMqZdFlpMC&pg=PT368&lpg=PT368&dq=schizophrenia+outburst+during+rorschach&source=bl&ots=8Ry1XJAZu-&sig=tdxB8NOZ2HU8GqwGhqu075muolA&hl=es&sa=X&ei=JjyHVbKIIO7isASi8a_IDw&ved=0CEAQ6AEwAw#v=onepage&q=schizophrenia%20outburst%20during%20rorschach&f=false may contain, but jews won't let me.


 No.10459

>>10456

>A problem pertaining to the examiner, not the test.

but that distinction is senseless

>, what would you consider "scientific" in psychology?

i am a feyerabendist, "scientific" is only a label, i like unscientfic things as well


 No.10462

>>10456

Psychology is not scientific. It's not a science.


 No.10613

>>10363

>>10351

>>10310

Depends on what type of Rorschach test you get done. There are many different ways of interpreting the results. The oldest one is shit. The newest one (post-1995) has a 60% ability to predict suicide and an 85% ability to predict psychosis.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25560479

http://psycnet.apa.org/journals/pas/11/3/278/

http://psycnet.apa.org/journals/pas/8/2/206/

http://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1207/S15327752JPA7602_13#.VZYrs3qUzGc

http://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1207/s15327752jpa5902_6#.VZYrvHqUzGc

Some data for you on the Rorschach.


 No.10614

>>10613

I must make an edit: the Rorschach is not as "scientific" as the MMPI because of the judgement calls the interpreter has to make while scoring the test, so it is not as effective in that regard, but at the same time the MMPI relies on self-measurement so overall the two tests are for very different purposes with their own strengths and weaknesses. But the MMPI is better for the most part.


 No.10630

beware of demons but also don't worry but pray


 No.10887

>>10397

I was never crazy but when I was a kid I had to keep the lights on when I slept, and I had a paranoia about closing doors quickly to protect myself. I was also afraid to look at myself in the mirror because my staring eyes would freak me out, and I felt like a demon would pop out, and I kept this until my 20s Losing my Christianity helped me to face myself in the mirror.




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