>>11950
I used to be really edgy like that, obsessing over death and such, but looking back on it now makes me realize how much of a cringe fest it was. I think it was all just to stand out, to give myself a sort of identity.
Funny how the biggest rebellion of all isn't to be angsty and brooding, but to genuinely try your best to be good. That's what's really tough. Someone can easily just do whatever makes them happy, but to sacrifice yourself and the things you like to do for the good of others, especially those who you don't even know, that's quite the challenge.
I'm also not sure why you are that surprised. A mental illness is called an illness and not merely a 'condition' for a reason and, most of the time, when people are aware of the fact they aren't all too well in the head they will try to do anything to kill the pain and fight against it. Those who you see reveling in it as a sort of identity are dumblr-tier attention whores and, perhaps, have something else going on in the background but are using this crafted snowflake identity to hide it. To put it short, I wouldn't be surprised if most of us actually had good intentions. Some may want to watch the world burn and, at times, I can't blame them for how shit the world seems, but the intent behind such a desire isn't destruction I would guess, but rather just so all the wrongs can be cleaned up and the world can start over again from scratch.