/mental/ - Mental Health, Illnesses and Disorders

Many. Most never involve killing, but they usually involve lots of pain towards the victim. Usually against people I have grown to have severe distaste for.

I just want to pin them down, make them feel utterly powerless, and have them submit themselves. Not really in a sexual way, but more out of vengeance.

I don't like it, though. I know I shouldn't want that and often catch myself in the act of fantasizing about such things. It wouldn't solve anything in the end, it would only make them oppose me more.

As for medication amplifying it, I don't quite know. If anything, I imagine something like risperedone would actually suppress it.

these are called intrusive thoughts, scholars distinguish three types of these: sexual, blasphemic and agressive, i have all of them at times

as to side effects, all side effects should be written in package leaflet

More and more everyday. I like planning out murders in my head, like how to do it, how to avoid being caught. I also like planning how I could ruin someone, I have somewhat of a fetish of wearing a strap on and date raping a guy, someone who really deserved it, telling him how pretty he is and how much of a slut he is, dehumanising and violating him and making it hurt until I leave him a total hysterical mess. He wouldn't report it because thats how guys are when it comes to rape, and even if he did he wouldn't see my face (night time, face covered).

I also have anger issues which are slowly getting worse.

>>12043

Are you hot? I'd be fine with a strap on-less RP. :-^) >le typical chan desperate male

>>12064

Should maybe also add they don't necessarily have sexual tones but the thoughts sometimes turn me on.

>>12039

And in response to this I premeditated and got a nuisance dog run over. (I'm bigging myself up again. ;_;)

>>12074

>friends

The derogatory term for black people is filtered to friends on this board apparently

>>12075

friends

testing

>>12102

You don't trust me?

>to be fair I did just say a bunch of trust-reducing things

>>12074

How did you manage to get caught? Did you post personal info and then someone called the cops on you?

Is there a treatment for intrusive thoughts? I got pulled over by city survellance for cycling on a pedestrian path, and my intrusive thoughts keep coming back about it, but then worse.

>>12115

No idea. People called the cops, I know that. A couple of /b/tards linked to a reddit page about the thread I made and several people said they called. Fucking reddit.

I've been fantasizing about raping and murdering on a daily basis since I was 9.

I've even caught myself doing a little "finger gun" motion in the air in public many times, pretending I was shooting no one in particular. People must think I'm a freak.

It's always no one in particular, just a guy or a girl. Although I'll admit it's typically racism driven, I like imagining executing friends.

I have a strong interest in repeating carbines, so lately when I do the finger gun motion, I'm using both hands and doing the lever action pull in the air. This is much more eye catching to people than a quick finger point when I would imagination shooting people with a revolver…

It's never about a sexual thrill. I just hate everybody.

>>12138

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intrusive_thought#Treatment

(Edited and reposted, as well as deleted original)

I was going to kill a bunch of black people and myself. I made a couple of threads on /b/. The police took me to the hospital, that was the first time I was hospitalized. I got to the point where I had the materials to make molotov cocktails and made one which I was going to test the next day. Later I expressed intent to join Pravy Sektor and after that ISIS. I ended up being hospitalized 7 times in 1.5 years. I attempted suicide in the summer, but that's a whole different story. I'm on risperidone now, so I got much better.

>>12168

The article suggests exposure therapy but how would one go about exposing themselves to attractive young beautiful women?

>>12158

>tfw someone else has been fantasizing about raping and murdering since middle school.

I don't run into our kind very often. How do you cope?

>>12215

How do I cope? I think that's a strange question, it's not like imagining violence stops you from being able to function like a human being. Most people daydream about music or cars or girls, I just happen to use my daydreaming time thinking about shooting black people in the face with cool guns. I don't like it or dislike it, it's just something that came naturally to me.

>>12227

Have you considered writing a script for an action movie?

>>12227

Yeah but eventually urges are supposed to show up.

>>12231

I'd love to write a film, I think I'd be good at it. But this world has an over saturation of idea guys.

>>12258

None have for me yet. I had a very abusive father and an abusive teacher. the teacher is what made me start imagining rape and murder. she had been raped in college and was traumatized by it, probably why she power tripped and took it out on me. after learning this information i joyously fantasized about raping her again and slitting her throat every day for years. and i imagined killing my father as he slept often too. but even despite their abuse, and the knowledge that I would be in the moral right, and the legal right too (well minus the rape), I never acted on either of them or even considered to. i sort of regret not acting on the dad one, i would have gotten away with it like it was nothing at a young age. too bad.

>>12274

>>12227

>>12158

guy who posted these three

small update i think is interesting

the violent fantasies stopped. i don't know how or why, they just went away. i didn't realize it till just now when i saw this thread in the catalog again.

it went from imagining a murder at least two or three times an hour to nothing ever just out of nowhere. i haven't been trying to stop them or anything, as you can tell from my posts i didn't give a shit.

i've been told obsessions usually make a return eventually though.

I often fantasize about torturing and murdering people, yet for some weird reason I'm also very masochistic and can't cum unless I fantasize about being raped or tortured.