Transwoman here, been on HRT for over three years.
Being trans *IS* a mental disorder. Its a fucked up situation where life is one big cruel joke, at best people accept you and then talk behind your back. Its a fantastic way to lose your friends and loved ones.
And lets face it, Ill never be a *real* woman. Ill never give birth to my child, Ill never have the experiences of womanhood. At best, we can simulate the experience as best as we can, but even the best Elvis impersonators aren't Elvis if you know what Im saying.
We commit suicide at the rates we do for a good goddamned reason. The vast majority of us realize that hey, those pills we get to take for the rest of our lives? They dont make you a woman, they just let you approximate one. But generally speaking, 100% of men arent women, so there you go.
I really wish there was a *cure* for me, not hormones. I wish there was therapy I could get that would make me comfortable being a man. But there isnt, so my best shot at happiness is being fucking crazy and doctors and therapists will applaud me for it.
Isnt that backwards? Is that how the health system works?
Im going to catch the bus soon, this life is terrible.