Fucked in the head but no one takes you seriously?

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Fucked in the head but no one takes you seriously? Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 04:38:06 No.12494

I have audio and visual hallucinations, I have sensory issues, I experience paranoia, I have obsessions (with characters, people, fantasies, animals), I've fantasized about murdering people for over a decade, I'm a sexual deviant in ways you wouldn't believe, I binge drink, I punch holes through walls and throw shit at people while I scream in rage, I drank a whole bottle of codeine and spent a night in a hospital. And so on and so on.

And I tell all these things to doctors and somehow leave the hospital without a prescription and without a diagnosis. How is it possible? Is it my fucking tone? Am I too upbeat, do they think I'm making up stories? I don't remember any stories about healthy people having hallucinations regularly in broad daylight.

I've never seen or heard this happening to anyone else before. I thought these doctors loved to put people on addictive psych drugs. I thought these doctors loved admitting people. Don't they have a quota, or they get paid commission or something for every prescription they hand out? I remember a time I bruised my leg and they gave me goddamn vicodin.

How am I still a free man after all I've told them?

I'm in America, Arizona to be exact. I've talked to two normal doctors, a psychologist, two counselors, and a life coach who had a degree in psychology. All told me I'm healthy.

What do I do about this? How do I get treatment if everyone thinks I'm healthy? Personally I think I'm bipolar II, and I just watched Shutter Island (a movie about a bipolar who murders her three children, great movie, watch it) and it made me more self-conscious about the state of my mental health and want to get help again. I don't want to kill someone.

Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 12:12:14 No.12498

These seem like questions you should ask them. I do get the feeling some psychs/doctors don't explain themselves to the patients, so you get understand why you've got the diagnosis (or lack of one). I'm guessing you've tried talking to one before about this or has it been difficult trying to get them to talk to you about it, did they say why perhaps?

I empathise, I had to go out of my fucking way between multiple people to get a diagnosis purely for paperwork and govbux reasons.

Anonymous 12/18/15 (Fri) 08:07:45 No.12505

>>12498

No, I'm always very nervous talking to them. Of course I've thought about asking them about it, and I'd also like to suggest to them that I may have bipolar disorder, but I'm quite young and I fear they may think I'm being disrespectful or that I want attention and blow me off even worse.

Anonymous 12/19/15 (Sat) 15:40:43 No.12506

were not these psychosis caused simply by alcohol- alcohol-induced psychotic disorder

Anonymous 12/19/15 (Sat) 15:43:34 No.12507

>>12505

The thing is when you have something wrong, it's normal to try and figure it out yourself before you get an official diagnosis. Saying what bipolar symptoms you think match with what you have, would help them figure out the issue. Then maybe they'd go into detail on why they diagnosed you as they did (or lack of one, in this case).

The issue with mental illness is that a lot of it is based on communication and interpretation, not saying something out of fear won't help. They'd have to be a real shit to think you're being disrespectful.

Anonymous 12/19/15 (Sat) 20:35:55 No.12509

>>12494

The hallucinations are the only symptoms relevant to a diagnosis, and maybe the paranoia, depends how severe it is. Ask the doctor what causes them if not a mental illness.

Anonymous 12/21/15 (Mon) 19:47:16 No.12521

I see a psychiatrist monthly so I'll give some free input:

>I thought these doctors loved to put people on addictive psych drugs.

The drugs psychiatrist give you for schizophrenia are anything but additive. They make you feel like crap all the time and make you fat and tired. You become an emotional eunuch and your sex drive goes to 0.

>I drank a whole bottle of codeine

You admitted taking drugs, and the doctor probably has you labeled as a drug seeker, even if it's over the counter.

Never tell a doctor you do drugs. He probably thinks your hallucinations are drug induced. No prescription is going to help you.

>How am I still a free man after all I've told them?

They only admit you to the mental ward/hospital if your "currently" homicidal or suicidal. I've been there. Your choice.

>What do I do about this?

Look up something called psychological malingering. Psychiatrist use this term when they think someone is faking, usually for criminal cases.

You said you have audio and visual hallucinations. Most people have auditory only and it's pretty rare to have both concurrently.

Just some things to think about.

Anonymous 12/21/15 (Mon) 19:51:30 No.12522

Also, if you want to a doctor again don't go to the same hospital. Believe me, the doctor wrote down everything.