>If you were to lose your mind to madness, make it a sweet dream and not a nightmare.
Who's to say I haven't already? Who's to say anyone hasn't? What is sanity? Only thing keeping me from drowning in this pool is my family.
>What delusions would you want to hold in your final years?
That's a difficult question because at this point I've had any senses of reality shattered over and over. But if I had it my way, I would be thoroughly convinced that I had achieved everything that was asked of me. At least I wouldn't feel useless.
The best way to go insane is to not go insane because then you'll only have questions and no answers other than the ones you make up. After you make up those answers, deep down inside you will know that they are wrong but you still don't know what is right and it will ruin you. Once you think you've found a solid answer, something comes along and tears it down but instead of leaving truth in its place, it leaves nothing but questions that can't be answered or their answers cannot be comprehended. The only truth I know is how I feel about things(but not why) and let me tell you this. I. HATE. Doubt.