>be 15, october
>friend and i are skyping
>think it would be funny to pull some beta uprising shit on our school
>literally make a fake threat, with a list of people we hate as targets, signing it as another kid, post it on /b/
>somehow it gets posted on ifunny, school gets notified
>cops all over, don't think we'll get caught
>do
>spend two weeks in juvie, not too bad but the guilt sucks
>come home, get expelled
>parents don't understand that it was a huge lapse in judgement and nothing more
>still havent been sentenced yet, probably gonna be fines and community service
>have to visit an inept therapist that talks more about her personal problems than listens to mine
>nobody but the few friends i had talks to me anymore, spend most of my time inside
>want to an hero constantly, even just to relieve the financial burden on my parents
>finally got a diagnosis, can't go to a psychiatrist for some reason though and my therapist can't prescribe anything
>on house arrest until sentencing, can't do shit
>cops took my computer and my phone as "evidence", have to use family laptop to do anything
>can't do drugs because gonna be on probation, don't wanna risk it
>can't even do the things i slightly enjoyed
>over doing something i could have just as easily not done
>dad has to work overtime and side jobs
>have to budget for groceries
>mom couldn't sleep for 2 weeks
>for some fucking reason, they still love me
>want them to hate me so i can an hero shamelessly
>hate myself for being such an emotional and financial roadblock to them, but they can't even see that I am
>all because i wasn't thinking for a minute
I could have prevented this, but I found another way to fuck everything up. Jesus christ.