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 No.12831

It's 2 AM now I've got an interview for national service in 7 hours.

I already shaved myself, and my dish washing nightshifts which I receive mere pennies on, so I can make a working desk for animation, and game development makes it difficult to fix my sleeping pattern.

I hate everyone I work with, the only way I found to communicate in a way that I can tolerate is spewing the foulest shit imaginable and making sarcastic thanks and apologies. I share a room with my little brother while my unemployed dad uses a room as an office. (I'm not kidding)

I hate people mainly because they allow in my area to make cosmetic surgeries, even worse they encourage them to. because they feel they're trapped in the wrong gender. Which if I don't get consumed by the desire to puke I compare that to if the case was if they wanted to become dolphins, and the fact that they won't be really a woman or man because they'll be infertile or function like the gender they're born with.

I don't have any friends, as most of whom decided to opt out from defending me when I get assaulted, neither bandage me, or at least call for some help. They just run away. Well… They're no longer my friends any who.

Some are also enemies because I lost them when they started a rumor in which they said I raped a girl and called a bunch of thugs to beat me up. Didn't work as I barley got hit, for until a passerby went by and they ran away.

I was outnumbered by the people who'll be witnesses for me so I didn't file any charges.

So tell, me how do you deal with toxic people? As non toxic for me feel they're hands' should stay clean and not opt a friend in need. And the toxic actually get their hands dirty by pushing you to the dirt so they have their moment of pride.

Anyway I have no idea I can forget those visions, so I'm pretty stuck like this thanks for the surrounding humanity I'm living with.

 No.12832

fortunately i have a room only for myself. if i hear family speaking behind the doors- i put earplugs on, i spend my free time lurking internets

>I hate everyone I work with,

why? personally, i hate everyone who is happy, especially females, i fucking hate females https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UxpVwBzFAkw

>I hate people mainly because they allow in my area to make cosmetic surgeries, even worse they encourage them to. because they feel they're trapped in the wrong gender. Which if I don't get consumed by the desire to puke I compare that to if the case was if they wanted to become dolphins, and the fact that they won't be really a woman or man because they'll be infertile or function like the gender they're born with.

are not these queer people who undertake surgeries suffering? i have nothing against such surgeries but i fucking hate sjw scum

>I don't have any friends,

at least you had them

> defending me when I get assaulted, neither bandage me, or at least call for some help. They just run away.

are you living in a ghetto?

>So tell, me how do you deal with toxic people?

today i was waiting at the busstop and fucking female was talking very loud which was painful for me, hearing cars passing by is painful for me as well (my ears are sensitive). but fortunately i have time to regenerate. but general protip is to evade people


 No.12836

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I deal with people by not dealing with them.

It started when I was 14. I began slowly isolating myself. I still had friends at that age, and I would jump at any opportunity I was invited to hang out, but this was the age when I stopped actively trying to make new friends myself and spending more time on the computer or playing video games.

As time progressed, I changed schools a few times and moved to a new place. Since I was no longer making social advances, my only time outside the house was when an old friend would call. Time continues. My old friends don't call anymore. At this time in my life, apart from school, my only interactions with human beings was on the computer.

Then I dropped out of school. Now my only contact to the outside world was on Steam.

A year and a half after dropping out, I realized, oh, I fucking hate all my "friends" on Steam. I realized, that's funny, I've spent nearly two years talking to these guys daily and wow, my relationships with them still sure are shallow. How long till an actual connection develops? How long till I have something to show for our friendship? What is there to be gained, really, from talking to these guys?

And I voiced these concerns to them. I asked them, guys, we've been talking for a year and a half now, where has it gotten us? Some of you in the Steam group chat have been talking long before I arrived. Three years, four years, five years, what became of any of it? How has it bettered your life?

And so that was the day I lost my internet friends.

I still talked to people online for a while, just much less than before, and without any expectations of it turning into something better than mindless conversation.

My contacts list dwindled more and more. My joining random chat rooms once a month became once every three or four months, until stopping completely.

Then my social isolation actually increased even further when I finally located the source of much of my anger… which was browsing this website.

I absolutely loathe many boards here. I loathe the people in them. I loathe the stupid posts those stupid people make. I always have. I loathe their hypocrisy, and their weird worship of autism spectrum disorder. There's an autistic culture here–many people on this site pretend they have autism to fit in with the little cliques that form on these boards. It's very obnoxious to me. But I stupidly browsed them anyway out of habit. Around September of last year, I managed to get better control over my self-punishing habit of browsing this shit site. I've dropped my time spent browsing this loathsome website down by a good 80%, and stopped visiting some of the most annoying boards to me entirely.

And I achieved true happiness through this. Finally, I was alone. Finally I have no one asking favors of me or otherwise causing me stress. Finally I no longer had to look on at fucking retards. I'm almost never angry now, and I very rarely have any existential crises now that I have disconnected myself from those who make me ask myself unpleasant questions, like "how is it possible for me to stand on the same ground as men who use their brain so little?".

I'm finally happy.

>>12832

I too hold a special hatred for women, and I want to thank you for posting that video. It's going to be an interesting watch for me.




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