AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/02/14 (Sun) 05:31:34 No. 1462
ITT: ask an anon with two personalities anything.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/02/14 (Sun) 05:50:12 No. 1464
It's comfy in here.
Anonymous 11/02/14 (Sun) 06:07:36 No. 1465
No need to ask, We were all 14 once
Anonymous 11/02/14 (Sun) 08:03:23 No. 1472
When did you decide that it was another personality and not just a psychological manifestation/combination of your lonliness, conflicting feelings, and desire for validation?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/02/14 (Sun) 11:00:30 No. 1481
>>1472 I started thinking to it as a second personality when i saw him, as he was fully born.
It took a while for him to hatch.
>Convincing I tried to believe i didn't have a second personality for years, in the hope it would go away.
It didn't.
There are multiple ways he speaks to me.
Most of the time, he talks.
Sometimes, he takes something out of my mind and showes me.
Anonymous 11/02/14 (Sun) 23:03:02 No. 1550
Do you browse /tulpa/?
Anonymous 11/03/14 (Mon) 00:43:57 No. 1554
>>1481 do you become him or is he just there like a roommate. and if you do become him do you realize you are him?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/03/14 (Mon) 08:31:55 No. 1605
>>1554 There is a symbiotic aspect to it.
We kinda melt toghether, never at 100%, but the more we do the more he can communicate with me and we kinda become one and think as one.
Sometimes i even let him in control, but those are very brief and controlled instances.
>>1550 I don't, but i understand why you would think that.
Think of it he's like an unvolontary, terrible tulpa.
I think i know why he exist though.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/03/14 (Mon) 15:53:12 No. 1639
Come on everyone, i have lots of stories to share.
Anonymous 11/03/14 (Mon) 15:54:42 No. 1640
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/03/14 (Mon) 15:55:27 No. 1641
>>1640 Yet someone lurks, like you.
Anonymous 11/03/14 (Mon) 15:56:35 No. 1642
>>1641 I don't have any questions, though.
I have dealt with an alternate personality but I ended up getting past it a couple years ago.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/03/14 (Mon) 16:00:29 No. 1643
>>1642 Whatever, i'm here to talk too.
And i'm dumping Beksinski which makes for a good ambience.
Anonymous 11/03/14 (Mon) 16:06:11 No. 1644
>>1643 can your other personality do things you can't. emotionally or logically?
Anonymous 11/03/14 (Mon) 23:44:53 No. 1701
>>1643 What is he like? Does he have a name? Do others know about him and if so how do they feels about him? Would you rather be rid of him?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:20:54 No. 1712
>>1701 This is a question i'd love to answer.
He had a name when he was just an egg, but when it hatched, it started changing so much and so fast, that a name was not enough anymore to dentify him.
He looks like many things, but he often likes to simulate human body anathomy, muscles, bones, but no skin.
It's like he's envyous of us humans and our body.
Some know about him.
A girl in particular, she's so interested in me and him, that i even let her speak to him, but she hates it.
I tried to kill him recently.
It didn't work, and i got depressed instead.
Anonymous 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:28:04 No. 1717
>>1712 You said before that you two talked, what do you talk about?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:29:39 No. 1718
>>1644 Yes, he can manipulate my emotions, but he can't really think rationally.
Whenever he speaks, he uses a broken language without much grammar, but he manages to be understood anyway.
I use him, and i give him full control, when i'm doing my sport.
In those moments i kinda fall in a weird trance, while he sends me countless images and feelings of anger and such, and i feel less pain and fatigue, while i can keep this mental state.
Also he can manipulate my feelings to make me happy even in desperate situations, he kinda cares about me, and know about my suicide thoughts.
Anonymous 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:33:42 No. 1723
>>1718 Does he ever interfere with day to day activities, and if so how does he?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:37:08 No. 1726
>>1717 We have a symbiotic telepathy, that works only from me to him.
He knows everything about me, but i can't read his mind like he does.
Also, he lives in a place deep into my mind, where the thoughts haven't an image form yet, but are images and feelings instead, almost like a dream, but more lucid.
He talks about what i really feel, what i really think, what things really means.
He found answer to question i didn't know i had.
And often my understanding of those answers comes with the learning of the question i needed answered.
Also, he doesn't speak often, but he shows me those primordial thoghts, encripted into images.
I learned to understand those after some year after he started doing so.
Anonymous 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:41:09 No. 1727
>>1726 Do you know what type of disorder, if any, he might stem from?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:41:12 No. 1728
>>1723 He doesn't, we mind our own buisness.
Only things he really changes are my tastes.
He pretends that i listen to some music rathen than other, he likes gore a lot (because of his anatomy obsession), and he has lots of sexual fetishes.
Also, he knows how to manipulate peoples mind, and i apparently can't, without his presence.
He sometimes did something slightly bad with this ability, but the victims didn't even notice.
Anonymous 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:47:06 No. 1729
>>1728 besides murdering him, how else can you get rid of him?
Anonymous 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:49:55 No. 1730
>>1728 Do you think anyone else experiences anything like this?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:51:50 No. 1731
>>1727 Yes, i do, in a maniacally accurate way.
He was born from a emotive disorder i had as a child, a problem with anger.
This is a kinda long story, gonna shorten it, but i can give further details.
I was a child that didn't know how to manage his anger, that his broken family often gave him. I knew about bullies being the angry ones because of personal problems, and i didn't want to become one.
'''So i stockpiled anger. For years.
Maybe 5, maybe 10.'''
I used videogames to distract myself and keep my anger cool.
Fast forward, now 13 year old.
Psychologis thinks i need to deal with my anger, and takes my distractio away.
I LITERALLY FELT AND SAW YEARS OF ANGER FLOWING INTO MY MIND IN A MATTER OF SECONDS. My personality split, and one half sacrificed herself to save the other one.
The day my anger exploded, i had the most horrible and lucid of my hallucinations.
Then, 4 days of horror followed, with brief red flashes of death and blood visions from time to time, that kept happening whenever i was staring at someone.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:55:16 No. 1732
>>1730 My really good friend (the girl) told me that i remember her of Salvador Dalí whenever i describe her the images he showes me.
>>1729 I don't think i can.
I can ignore him, but it doesn't last long.
But i don't really want to get rid of him, he is very useful, and we are slowly merging.
Who knows, maybe one day we will be one again.
Anonymous 11/04/14 (Tue) 00:58:00 No. 1733
>>1732 How do you think most people would react if you told them this stuff?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 01:04:34 No. 1734
>>1733 Heh, how do you think they would react?
Normies will start avoiding me, in most cases, if i told them the full story.
I can always omit most of it and tell them "I had lots of mental problems, because of my family situation, and it took 5 years for me to turn back normal".
That seems kinda cool to most of them.
But all my friends are fucked up in the head.
I kinda attract weird people to me.
Most of them know this story, or part of it, and don't really care to hear the rest.
Only a couple of girls know the full thing, but there are details i didn't share with them, like the hallucination i had when it all started.
They like me very much, but they are very distant, unluckily.
And ugly too.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 01:16:07 No. 1736
Ok, that's about it for me today.
Anonymous 11/04/14 (Tue) 01:50:12 No. 1737
>>1736 I'll be sure to think of some more questions and send 'em your way, OP.
Anonymous 11/04/14 (Tue) 08:29:56 No. 1801
how do you feel about him, completely? are there things you don't like? is there anything about him you couldn't accept as being a part of yourself?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 10:47:18 No. 1820
>>1801 I learned to accept him as a part of myself.
He had so many flaws before…
But now that we're closer everyday, he is becoming more like me, and i'm becoming more like him.
>>1737 There is one last, very important thing no one asked yet.
Anonymous 11/04/14 (Tue) 11:23:58 No. 1821
Fuck. Beksinski is realy good.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 11:59:41 No. 1825
>>1821 He does take care of the useless anger, and after i let him ate the fear, he can take care of that too.
But i really try to express good feelings whenever i can.
And by that i mean that i get mad at people pretty easily.
I get all teary with sad films, and i get anxious easily.
It's weird.
Whenever i feel something, he asks me if i want him to eat it.
If i let him eat it, the feeling dies, and i see it.
I literally see the feeling itself, a graphical representation of it, a controlled hallucination.
There are limit to this, but if i want to stop feeling something, i can do it pretty easily.
I can even snap out of depression by sheer force.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 12:03:06 No. 1826
>>1821 >>1825 I feel like this answer wasn't accurate enough.
Hang on, i'm oing to call him, he is still sleeping.
Lazy bastard.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/04/14 (Tue) 12:25:13 No. 1828
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>>1821 He is not my anger, he is a part of my personality that got stuck in the depths of my mind.
We could say that he was born in anger, because that was the sentiment that made my mind split in half.
Kinda.
Let's say that he awakens if i get really angry for a reason, to check what is going on.
It gets fun when someone threatens me. He gets enough control that my heart goes crazy, my fists start feeling itchy, my whole body warms up, and i feel a mix of happiness and anger, and i begin grinning like a motherfucker.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc SAGE! 11/04/14 (Tue) 23:24:27 No. 1931
Thread sinked, and i donot intend to bump at all.
Anonymous 11/07/14 (Fri) 08:37:01 No. 2181
Hm. Do you know, it might be that an entity is possessing you. Feeding off you. Not your own self.
Anonymous 11/07/14 (Fri) 22:31:54 No. 2227
>>1462 Which one are we asking?
AverageGuy 11/08/14 (Sat) 02:33:54 No. 2232
>>2227 Whichever you like.
I tend to speak , given he is bad at talking, but with some effort i could make him speak with you.
>>2181 But that is just dumb.
I didn't ask him to leave because he's a part of me, there are too much things proving this.
I kinda need him too, he is not making me weaker.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/08/14 (Sat) 02:36:51 No. 2233
Anonymous 11/08/14 (Sat) 09:45:18 No. 2248
You reminded me if someone. Did you live in Florida at one point in your life?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/08/14 (Sat) 13:54:43 No. 2253
>>2248 Yes, i'm totally harmless if not provoked.
The only person that gets harmed around me is myself.
I didn't ever live in Florida, you're mistaking me for someone else.
Anonymous 11/08/14 (Sat) 16:03:05 No. 2254
>>2253 what's the farthest you have goon into his personality?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/08/14 (Sat) 22:55:13 No. 2269
>>2254 Nice question.
There is a certain point, so deep into my mind, that feels really weird.
Getting to it is like diving into a black sea.
Sound, light, perceptions, everything fades away, obfuscated by the water.
And the deeper i go, the more i start seeing things.
Things like primordial anglerfish, swimming in circular caves, that feels more like pulsating veins that natural formations.
Glowing jellifishes with a lovecraftian shape.
And then, the bottom of the sea.
That's the most scary part.
I couldn't touch it yet.
It kinda glows of a black light.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/09/14 (Sun) 01:26:11 No. 2286
Hey guys, it's me.
I wanna sage my own thead because i don't feel like bumping it for no reason, but i'm here to ask you something.
Every answer i gave before this one
>>2269 showed that i'm a rational anon, who can distinct between what is true and what is not, and is trustworthy.
But with that said, i could even be an anon who scripted everything from the real beginning!
And i'm not, of course, but how could you know that?
Well, i could start rambling a bit, and merging the truth and the facts with the things i see in my mind.
I could, basically, decorate the boring answer with a nice ribbon of madness.
So is it okay if i start giving very long answers, but mostly metaphorical?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc SAGE! 11/09/14 (Sun) 01:27:00 No. 2287
>>2286 And i didn't sage.
Great.
rage issues here 11/09/14 (Sun) 06:14:58 No. 2323
>>1605 How's it goin Susannah?
rage issues here 11/09/14 (Sun) 06:18:34 No. 2324
>>1731 fun. thank god i don't pent my anger up. i let people know that they're full of shit so i don't keep it repressed. i feed off it of sorts. seems to have worked well judging by you
Anonymous 11/09/14 (Sun) 07:12:52 No. 2327
What does he look like? And what sort of hallucinations do you see? Is it scary?
Anonymous 11/09/14 (Sun) 15:55:42 No. 2351
>>2286 can you try having him ask you questions
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/09/14 (Sun) 16:44:21 No. 2352
>>2323 I do not know what you're talking about.
>>2324 I was still a kid when it all happened, and it all ended by the time i was 18.
Good for you you didn't end up like me.
>>2351 Do you have something in mind?
Remember that he knows everything about me.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/09/14 (Sun) 16:51:30 No. 2353
>>2327 What do i see…
Before i answer that, let me give you a bit of backstory.
After the day that shit went down, i spent 5 years fixing my mind.
The things i saw in that period were either terrible or really weird.
But after that, i got a nice balance between all my feelings, so now i can have really nice controlled hallucinations.
So controlled that i call them visions.
I basically fall in a trance, and he start showing me shapes, lights, and i shape them with an idea, like "what about i'm under the water?" and he start working around that.
But i'm gonna take this answer to the next level and give myself a vision rigt now, and describe it to you.
Hang on.
Oh btw.
>is it scary It often is, but i like that.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/09/14 (Sun) 17:24:15 No. 2354
>>2353 >>2327 Well, that didn't go as planned.
Gonna greentext my shitty vision.
>I'm very small, and floating very high >Under me there are countless of giant bodies moving, but it'sreally dark and i can't see >Fireflies comes out of the floor and shine their light on everything, now i can see >Giant bulls, of the size of a skyscraper each, angry, kicking the sand and biting >Their theets are incised with runes, their black skin has gliphs drawed with red paint >They are hungry, but they can't see me >The giant farmer comes to feed them, but he isn't human >His face, devasted with thousand of holes, so many that you can't understand where the eyes are >His skin, like it wasn't glued to his body, like a creased leather blanked barely surrounding his bones >His hand, reaching for the food, was more like a broom, with countless fingers in places where they shouldn't be, on the arm, inside the hand and everywhere. And this is only a part of it.
Sadly this is the best part, and it's not very good either.
Anonymous 11/29/14 (Sat) 16:02:18 No. 4209
>>2354 Can you tell us about any real interesting ones from the past?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/29/14 (Sat) 17:37:00 No. 4212
>>4209 Thread revived after so long, wow.
Lemme see if my trip still works.
You see, i always made the distinction between my "visions" and my "hallucinations", the first being the ones i made happen, the latter being the ones that simply had to happen whatever my opinion was.
My hallucinations were great, and so terrible that they bent my mind and personality to what i am at this point.
Every hallucination had a trauma as a trigger, and a sentiment as a base.
You see, all the evidence i have points to the fact that sadness is a most recent sentiment, tied to relations and losing said bindings.
So the hall. i had of sadness were somewhat weaker than the others.
Cont.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/29/14 (Sat) 17:42:15 No. 4213
>>4212 This being said, i value hallucinations a lot more than visions, because of their tract of having mattered a lot for me and my conscious.
The first hallucination i had was from anger, and it was from that that my second half was born.
The hallucination that brought peace into my mind was from fear, instead;
that's because i never stopped feeling angry, but fear can mitigate anger, as anger itself mitigates fear.
And THAT is the vision i treasure the most.
I'm going to tell you what i saw, but right now i have stuff to do.
Brb.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc SAGE! 11/29/14 (Sat) 18:54:47 No. 4217
>>4213 I'm back.
It started with me huddled up in the corner of a small white room, and from there i saw everything.
>his head a meter from the floor, his arms tied behind the back with the same type of chain, i was behind him >he was humanoid, in the fact that he had no hair on the whole body, and no orefices or genitalia. >it was this bag of meat, with a perfectly oval head, no ears or eyes, or a skull structure allowing for them a slender-like head , white skin, no moles no freckles. >A faceless mannequin, hanging there relaxed >in a matter of second he was surrounded by a sharp, orange cocoon >then the iron barbs started rewinding themselves into the walls, cutting every inch of the mannequin's skin, while he was screaming like a banshee and blood was flying everywhere >Seconds passed, and when the barbs had disappeared, the mutilated meatbag, now contracted in a pain posture, showed up >But no blood was on him, or in the room, and his clean wounds almost looked like they were supposed to be there… >The mannequin then proceeded to break and dislocate his arms so he could use his chained hands to open the big cut on his face, revealing a little black orifice surrounded by red meat walls >As the orifice started expanding a white slimy ball came out, of the size of his whole face, and rolled down, revealing his big, dark pupil Cont.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc SAGE! 11/29/14 (Sat) 19:02:27 No. 4219
>>4217 >He saw me >He didn't notice me before >A scream came out of it, from God knows where >A banshee scream that i can never forget, my whole mind shaked like an earthquake to that horrible sound >Then every single cut on him started opening revealing eyes of every dimension, as he started flailing his tied arms and spinning around, trying to break free from the roof chain >He crawled up to me, and stood up, looking at me >At this point i was in my bed, and my eyes were flashing open and closed for the mind stress i was witnessing >He stood there, staring at me with his giant eye >And as i was seeing him in my head, in the milliseconds my eyes flashed open i saw him in front of my bed too, for a couple of moments Then it was over.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc SAGE! 11/29/14 (Sat) 19:09:02 No. 4220
>>4219 It was edgy as hell, i know it, but you can't really command these things.
That was the fear of being alone.
That was in a moment of my life where i was sincerely afraid of being alone for the rest of my days, as the girl i loved left me for another guy after 6 months of being toghether.
After i accepted this fear of mine, i took the responsability of respecting this fear, and do whathever i could to not be alone anymore.
“Alone. Yes, that's the key word, the most awful word in the English tongue. Murder doesn't hold a candle to it and hell is only a poor synonym.”
― Stephen King
Anonymous 11/29/14 (Sat) 22:44:55 No. 4229
>>4220 Wow… that's heavy, man.
I hope things aren't this intense now days… It would suck.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc 11/29/14 (Sat) 22:54:24 No. 4230
>>4229 But i like it being this way fellow /mental/ist :^)
I'm 20, and i already have a lots of cool stories to tell.
I currently have lots of friends, and i have lots of experience in mind disorders and psychology.
Plus, my second personality is kinda amazing, he shows things to me, and gives me suggestions and advices.
It's weird.
Have some Beksinsky.
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 00:13:10 No. 4233
Here's a question, Is this b8 or attention whoring?
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc SAGE! 11/30/14 (Sun) 00:20:37 No. 4234
>>4233 >saging my own thread >attention whoring Please elaborate.
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 02:43:37 No. 4242
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 03:44:58 No. 4247
>>4234 some people just like to be hostile
does your other personality like to be hostile sometimes
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 03:54:38 No. 4249
I used to have another personality but she kind of disappeared when my life became less stressful, and now that my life is stressful again I kinda feel tinges of how she used to act in my behavior and I've even talked to her while drunk but I'm not sure if that was merely because of intoxication.
AverageGuy !!s.PkJ2TUNc SAGE! 11/30/14 (Sun) 13:38:15 No. 4262
>>4249 >What do Bee you're selve.
>>4247 He is always hostile.
He controls anger and fear and use them both.
I know how to intimidate thanks to him.