Anonymous 11/15/14 (Sat) 03:28:26 No. 3065
ITT: describe your week in one picture.
Anonymous 11/15/14 (Sat) 03:31:58 No. 3066
>go to work at mcdonalds >go to job interviews >i get the job at a metal foundry >schedule my orientation >learn that they changed their mind
PrincessDelta 11/15/14 (Sat) 04:08:23 No. 3069
Rarely any sleep
Anonymous 11/15/14 (Sat) 04:16:53 No. 3070
The highlight of my week was applying for a seasonal position at Best Buy, calling to see if it went through okay, then being told that I didn't pass the personality test. Then realizing that it's probably the same reason I didn't get a call back from any other place I applied for in the past two weeks.
Anonymous 11/15/14 (Sat) 05:07:28 No. 3071
>>3070 You gotta lie man. It's an unspoken rule. No one gets hired who doesn't exaggerate themselves a bit.
Anonymous 11/15/14 (Sat) 05:45:33 No. 3075
>>3071 >exaggerate themselves a bit When I say "lie," I mean "spew out a constant stream of 100% pure high-octane bullshit about basically everything." But at the same time you can't lie too much, because the fucking robots that grade these things can tell.
Anonymous 11/15/14 (Sat) 11:46:58 No. 3092
File: 1416052018221.jpg (89.58 KB, 736x937, 736:937, c133b26f252b3f13a2d72a6ba8….jpg )
who need sleep when you have a deadline?
Anonymous 11/15/14 (Sat) 15:45:17 No. 3100
>>3070 Personality tests are there because HR managers are too lazy to do any real work, so they dial it in with those questionnaires. Walmart, for example, uses those personality tests, but you see a lot of people that the tests would normally weed out working there because they know a guy who knows the answers.
Anonymous 11/15/14 (Sat) 19:46:52 No. 3118
Anonymous 11/15/14 (Sat) 21:10:36 No. 3126
Anonymous 11/16/14 (Sun) 22:50:44 No. 3228
Anonymous 11/16/14 (Sun) 23:00:53 No. 3231
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 01:12:57 No. 3245
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 01:55:19 No. 3248
my week went something along the lines of "hello I am the new week"
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 02:38:58 No. 3257
File: 1416191938405.jpg (173.47 KB, 400x433, 400:433, brain is full of shit fuck….jpg )
>Have a boyfriend >Don't know whether to stay with him or not >Really want to leave him >Don't know if I'm overreacting to his faults and should stay instead
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 03:03:55 No. 3259
File: 1416193434934.jpg (101.33 KB, 500x271, 500:271, if there is a god then tha….jpg )
>go to work today >left arm covered in cuts >very visible bags under my eyes >paranoia hits me hard that day >suicidal thoughts have been hitting me all week >depression has made me barely able to function >starting to resent people who function normally >very stressed and very tired >mfw
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 03:37:54 No. 3261
>>3259 At least I'm not you.
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 03:48:05 No. 3264
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 03:50:25 No. 3265
>Fucked up my mind so bad that i can do wathever i want with it
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 04:13:05 No. 3274
"Staying inside all the time and doing nothing except be on the internet isn't healthy. I know that's how depression is but you need to shape up."
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 05:21:04 No. 3276
Cut off England and add "shitty region nobody cares"
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 07:06:29 No. 3281
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 09:26:27 No. 3291
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 16:58:37 No. 3314
>>3265 >that i can do whatever i want with it It's not like you reach a quota and then it doesn't matter. Each unit of "fucked up" is as significant as itself, and every moment is a new premise for the future.
Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 23:54:44 No. 3335
>>3314 Yes i know.
But to be more precise, i kept self imposing trauma to myself, to shake the base of my personality, to shape it again.
And again.
The third time was perfect tho.
Anonymous 11/18/14 (Tue) 01:41:31 No. 3338
>Trying to work up the motivation to do anything
Anonymous 11/18/14 (Tue) 23:30:24 No. 3414
>this past week
Anonymous 11/19/14 (Wed) 00:02:24 No. 3417
If I don't start anything I won't be disappointed when I fail said thing.
Anonymous 11/19/14 (Wed) 02:24:40 No. 3425
>>3417 Yet you won't be satisfied when things go right. Seriously, though, I know that feel.
Anonymous 11/19/14 (Wed) 03:07:17 No. 3427
Anonymous 11/19/14 (Wed) 06:16:19 No. 3430
Anonymous 11/19/14 (Wed) 15:08:33 No. 3445
Almost every week of my life I feel like this.
Raccoon ## Board Owner 11/19/14 (Wed) 16:03:56 No. 3453
A whole week without having to ban anyone has me and all the anons like
Anonymous 11/22/14 (Sat) 03:40:15 No. 3678
Other than having to get a root canal yesterday, my week was actually kind of nice. I still have no idea what I'm going to do with my life after graduation beyond "become a NEET and try to get autismbux," but this past week was fairly pleasant compared to most others.
Anonymous 11/22/14 (Sat) 04:35:46 No. 3679
Anonymous 11/22/14 (Sat) 18:03:44 No. 3709
>>3065 JUST kept my job after I pissed off a manager.
My job sucks so badly I'm going insane. I need out. They promised training for a new role, but they haven't fucking delivered on it.
Winter insanity is growing.
Not enough sleep, not enought sunlight, and the pressure of people is getting to me. I just want to shake people and scream at them until they shut up, or ram slow people off the fucking road.
Had to practically shove someone out onto a roundabout today because they wouldn't. Fucking. Move. Missed so many breaks in traffic, so I edged right up behind them, and whenever they moved, I got closer. No retreat. No reverse. Get out my fucking way.
Anonymous 11/22/14 (Sat) 18:46:10 No. 3716
Anonymous 11/22/14 (Sat) 19:44:14 No. 3724
Anonymous 11/22/14 (Sat) 20:32:00 No. 3730
Haven't self harmed all week!That won't last, I'm addicted.
Anonymous 11/22/14 (Sat) 22:16:04 No. 3732
Anonymous 11/23/14 (Sun) 04:03:24 No. 3757
>>3730 I almost made it 12 hours after posting this.
:c
Anonymous 11/26/14 (Wed) 04:05:23 No. 3924
finally felt happy for more than a fleeting instant.
Anonymous 11/26/14 (Wed) 09:12:03 No. 3949
My week has been pic related.
Anonymous 11/29/14 (Sat) 00:42:51 No. 4176
>can't even go a few weeks without wanting to die
Anonymous 11/29/14 (Sat) 01:01:33 No. 4177
>can't go a day without wanting to die
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 00:12:41 No. 4232
Why can't I fucking sit down a do what I need to fucking do?
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 00:36:30 No. 4238
I'm just glad this fucking month is over with.
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 01:19:15 No. 4239
>>4238 it's bad for me too basically every cold month is bad
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 04:15:52 No. 4252
File: 1417320952818.jpg (114.69 KB, 1024x1728, 16:27, whats the point of living ….jpg )
>never had any opportunity to make something of myself >too far in life to change any of that, probably until I finally get to die
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 07:50:37 No. 4256
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 07:59:18 No. 4257
>>4238 … decembr is a good month for anyone? cum on wtf and all this tacky shit and all this tacky tradition of o ooh tahnksies for getting me what i asked for and eerh . at best.
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 13:26:36 No. 4261
I'll just describe the last three years.
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 14:14:26 No. 4263
>>4257 Yeah, by all accounts December should be the worst month for me, but it's not. It has and will always be November.
I guess I should be grateful I didn't get a cold or something for once.
Anonymous 11/30/14 (Sun) 18:21:57 No. 4267
>>4257 Down the street from me there's a duplex that has ridiculous christmas lights already up, like "those" kinds of houses, I want to go cut all the cables. Last night going to sleep kept seeing the flashing through the cracks in my window covering ugh. They have got to have at least 20 or thirty different strands all flashing and shit and some reindeer, man wish I could be happy for this time of year
Anonymous 12/01/14 (Mon) 02:58:10 No. 4291
>>4261 I know that feel all to well
Carlos 12/01/14 (Mon) 12:04:16 No. 4298
tfw i hate my self more than ever now
Anonymous 12/01/14 (Mon) 13:26:31 No. 4302
Anonymous 12/01/14 (Mon) 15:08:22 No. 4303
I've been sweating like crazy all week from stress and fear, probably also from alcohol withdrawal.
Anonymous 12/01/14 (Mon) 15:25:24 No. 4304
I just want to sleep forever
Anonymous 12/02/14 (Tue) 04:28:40 No. 4339
File: 1417494520780.jpg (42.86 KB, 250x333, 250:333, tumblr_mcgfvrxj941rfrax8o1….jpg )
>in New Orleans visiting family all week >don't have to worry about shit, just eat good food and have a good time >genuinely don't want to kill myself during that time >come back to real life >can't stay motivated to do anything productive, schoolwork piling up without being done, self loathing sets in again >remembering why I want to end my existence every day
Anonymous 12/02/14 (Tue) 05:14:51 No. 4350
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Anonymous 12/02/14 (Tue) 08:47:35 No. 4367
Anonymous 12/02/14 (Tue) 08:52:56 No. 4368
Anonymous 12/02/14 (Tue) 19:25:16 No. 4381
>>3224 That's 2014 for me.
Anonymous 12/03/14 (Wed) 03:20:57 No. 4401
File: 1417576857385.jpg (148.48 KB, 500x415, 100:83, M6f7bdf777204c93383532e88f….jpg )
>Miss class because were too anxious to go and just felt like sleeping is only okay thing to do >Procrastinate >Get annoyed by people surrounding me >Think about ways to change situation >Deadend.png >Killing myself would be a great option, wouldn't it? >Be awake procrastinating till 5am, class 8am >repeat
Anonymous 12/03/14 (Wed) 03:21:28 No. 4402
This week I'll either get a job I'll hate or be rejected and I'll stop trying.
Anonymous 12/03/14 (Wed) 05:22:56 No. 4410
>more job applications >internet gf still isn't online after two months, says her lappy broke >dad yelled at me for something I didn't do and it affected me more than it should have because I know deep down he's disappointed in me for not having a job or going to college >will go volunteer at the hospital on Thursday and feel exhausted for no real reason as always
Anonymous 12/03/14 (Wed) 11:46:56 No. 4426
this job is killing me mentally and physically
Anonymous 01/11/15 (Sun) 23:45:10 No. 5955
Anonymous 01/12/15 (Mon) 00:14:14 No. 5962
>I'm transgender and my hormones are finally starting to make me look pretty decent >finally came to terms with being bisexual, so twice the porn >suicidal thoughts have chilled out >gaining more faith in my ambitions >self esteem is increasing >mfw It'll be over soon enough and I'll go back to hating myself.
Anonymous 01/12/15 (Mon) 05:24:07 No. 5998
File: 1421040247574.jpg (78.66 KB, 720x479, 720:479, its-magic-i-aint-gotta-exp….jpg )
Reading more fringe stuff and doing more meditation on it.
Anonymous 01/12/15 (Mon) 08:07:00 No. 6001
got fired, cant sleep because im getting nighmares and sleep paralysis
Anonymous 01/12/15 (Mon) 08:32:10 No. 6003
the exact opposite of this
Anonymous 01/12/15 (Mon) 15:22:27 No. 6010
Anonymous 01/13/15 (Tue) 14:54:42 No. 6045
>>4298 Hate everyone else instead.
Anonymous 01/13/15 (Tue) 18:09:20 No. 6056
Its been alright actually. If you consider drug escapades to be productive.
Anonymous 01/13/15 (Tue) 22:50:58 No. 6071
Anonymous 01/14/15 (Wed) 02:54:21 No. 6088
Starting college, loving all my classes so far.
Anonymous 01/15/15 (Thu) 20:59:02 No. 6150
Watched anime and did some things.
Anonymous 01/16/15 (Fri) 06:57:37 No. 6170
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 11:36:25 No. 6214
I'd been in somewhat good mental condition since my acid trip at the very end of November but now that I'm having to get ready for college (and the realisation of how much debt I'll be in), I can feel the wheels on my little wagon of comfortable happiness starting to shake.
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 13:30:39 No. 6218
Hahahaha. Hahaha. Ha.
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 14:10:32 No. 6222
this sums it up nicely
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 14:12:47 No. 6223
damn
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 14:57:05 No. 6226
>>6214 By stepping out of your comfort zone gives you new experiences and thus making a even newer person.
I should do that myself too
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 17:10:36 No. 6234
Not today, but I'm sure it will be relevant soon enough…
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 21:29:29 No. 6242
More like>describe your life in one picture
Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 06:21:31 No. 6325
>>3257 Depends on a lot of things. From what I've learned over the course of my years is that you must take the bliss with the anguish.
Your relationship will see happy blissful days, truly great days. It will see painful, sorrowful days as well. This is a fact. Look at your partner and ask yourself if you would rather be happy with this man than any other man. Ask if you would rather be sad with this man, than any other man. And believe me the latter is more important, many will up and leave you as soon as the going gets tough. It comes down to commitment. Best of luck to you.
Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 13:14:39 No. 6341
Spent a lot of time in bed. I was ill for whatever reason- not eating enough, consistently enough, not drinking enough water… something. Unbelievably tired and feeling disgusted by eating even normal portions of food. I don't even think I have an ED.
Anonymous 01/20/15 (Tue) 18:25:19 No. 6398
Anonymous 01/20/15 (Tue) 20:24:05 No. 6401
>had a dream that a boy I fell in love with who broke my heart a few months ago came to my childhood home and warned me about anger >seeing him enraged me >throw him down >punch him in the eye a bunch of times >he doesn't put up a fight at all >let him go >he runs off crying >"I knew this would happen." >wake up >mfw
Anonymous 01/20/15 (Tue) 21:13:01 No. 6402
eternally bed-ridden
Anonymous 01/22/15 (Thu) 06:17:45 No. 6466
Right now I'm just moving forward in time against my will.
Anonymous 01/22/15 (Thu) 06:57:14 No. 6472
>>6466 my week has been boringashit
Anonymous 01/23/15 (Fri) 17:59:52 No. 6561
Anonymous 01/24/15 (Sat) 22:20:31 No. 6627
been slightly angry and disappointed but not really anything else
Anonymous 01/25/15 (Sun) 01:53:27 No. 6631
>>6242 That picture is depressing, but it just makes me cozy as fuck. I've never had shag carpet and some days I think all I want in life is a room with shag, water bed and all the games and movies I love. Just to enjoy them like I did this show as a kid.
Anonymous 01/30/15 (Fri) 16:11:38 No. 6854
Anonymous 01/31/15 (Sat) 16:32:31 No. 7058
>bored as shit >puke and lay in it >cough up a lot of that almost puke kinda spit that's not quite puke but it's not quite spit either >cough up red on my new shirt >can't keep it up, porn is boring >the short walk (two smoke trip) left me completely out of breath and dizzy >feel like I'm about to puke after every bite >just >that happened
Anonymous 01/31/15 (Sat) 21:10:31 No. 7132
I want to play all the videogames, but I dont feel like playing them at the same time. I wake up thinking "ok, videogames!" and think how much fun Im going to have, then I just browse through my videogame libraries, look at them and think how good they are, but because I've been depressed as fuck lately, I dont really feel like playing them for some reason. Feels like I would be wasting them in a way. Gotta wait untill I feel hyper again so I can fully enjoy them.
Anonymous 02/03/15 (Tue) 21:55:58 No. 7296
File: 1423000558234.jpg (Spoiler Image, 2.51 MB, 4128x2322, 16:9, 20150202_201503.jpg )
Anonymous 02/05/15 (Thu) 03:28:55 No. 7344
>>3338 this
>looking for a job >get really fucking depressed because i feel like such a failure >lose all motivation to do anything
Anonymous 02/09/15 (Mon) 02:19:23 No. 7470
Anonymous 02/22/15 (Sun) 02:39:17 No. 7874
>skipped school every day save Monday >Friday was a snowday due to weather (Hail Michigan) >Parents schedule a doctor's appointment to find any physical cause for my depression (my father has lupus and my mother has an issue with her thyroid) >not remembering eating anything, go to the blood lab in the same building >remember that I had a kickstart this morning >reschedule for Monday.
Anonymous 02/22/15 (Sun) 05:30:24 No. 7875
Anonymous 02/23/15 (Mon) 02:27:13 No. 7883
Shit. Also fuck cripple's flood detection.
Anonymous 02/23/15 (Mon) 02:47:50 No. 7884
Anonymous 02/23/15 (Mon) 07:55:02 No. 7892
Anonymous 02/23/15 (Mon) 14:58:14 No. 7895
Just kinda weekish
Anonymous 02/27/15 (Fri) 01:18:49 No. 7972
Anonymous 03/02/15 (Mon) 01:31:05 No. 8070
>had a practice presentation in class >panicked and fucked it up >still panicking >actual thing is in less than two weeks >being this fucked
Anonymous 03/02/15 (Mon) 18:35:52 No. 8083
Anonymous 03/03/15 (Tue) 11:03:06 No. 8089
>Only three months into graduation >Gonna fuck off to animation school soon even though I can't draw for my life (not as bad as pic, but almost as bad) >mfw there's still tons of hs bullshit to get done >mfw still have to deal with my social anxiety
Anonymous 03/03/15 (Tue) 12:15:32 No. 8090
>work 9 hours >no license >travel 2.5 hours daily >this 5 days a week >living with parents >anything else at all is at least 20 minutes away >mediocre abilities in a plethora of fields >severely regressed creativity >existential crisis >no gf >no motivation >creativity regressed >merely vegetating >waiting for death
Anonymous 03/03/15 (Tue) 16:56:22 No. 8095
>haven't left the house since my birthday >haven't gone to class the past two days >haven't sought help, even though I know I need it
Anonymous 03/03/15 (Tue) 20:30:24 No. 8097
>>8083 I hate that feeling and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
Anonymous 03/04/15 (Wed) 09:25:21 No. 8100
Anonymous 03/05/15 (Thu) 14:36:41 No. 8114
This is my life in 2015 so far.
Anonymous 03/05/15 (Thu) 17:39:47 No. 8116
>>8095 Does your school not have free help?
Anonymous 03/05/15 (Thu) 20:32:36 No. 8119
>>3274 >"Staying inside all the time and doing nothing except be on the internet isn't healthy. I know that's how depression is but you need to shape up." How annoying. "I don't know anything about this very serious disorder but you aren't behaving like I want you to so you need to stop/shape up/man up/drop the attitude/get your head out of your ass/cheer up/etc."
Anonymous 03/05/15 (Thu) 21:28:09 No. 8126
>>8116 It does. I'm just terrified to go in because I intend to apply to the Navy's nuclear officer training program as a way to kickstart a career as a nuclear engineer, and that's not something you get to to do without having them comb through your entire life history. I don't want any hint of mental illness showing up when then do that.
It's a great way to solve problems; just hide them in your closet. What could go wrong?
Anonymous 03/05/15 (Thu) 23:05:50 No. 8127
>>8126 I feel that. I can't join the RAF now because of it, but school counsellors won't be on a record or under mental health or anything. It's not much help - especially when you want to be alone - but you might find it useful.
They get worse.
Anonymous 03/05/15 (Thu) 23:42:02 No. 8130
>>8119 >but you aren't behaving like I want you to It's not that you should "behave as they want you to" it is just that such a lifestyle isn't healthy in any way and will only worsen if it keep up.
As for the whole "dropping the attitude" thing, they are actually correct in a roundabout sense. Medications, therapy and all that junk can assist you in stopping whatever is bothering you, but the only thing that can truly pull such an endless cycle of negative thought that is depression to a halt is one's self…which, frankly, is the most difficult thing for a depressed person to do because have no real will to do anything.
The problem I keep seeing with depressed people is that they are waiting for some sort of savior or miracle to happen to pull them out of their hole which simply won't happen. They keep looking for something else to turn off the torture machine because their will isn't strong enough to do it alone(or so they are convinced.)
They have no will to actually do anything for themselves because they feel they are worthless.
They feel that they are worthless because they refuse to see any sort of positive thing about them and, instead, focus only on the negative.
They refuse to see the positive because they are constantly worried that they will fuck up when it comes to anything, constantly worrying leads to being very very sensitive to even the slightest negativity/mistake they make while dulling how well you see the positive.
Because of the perceived magnitude of the negativity/mistakes, they lose their will to do anything because, to them, not doing anything means no risk of failing. And then the cycle repeats, getting worse and worse every time.
I've been around many depressed people, most are acquaintances from high school or family relatives and, on a barebones basic level, it is always the same damn pattern. It is like a terrible machine that keeps refueling itself once it is fueled and activated by an outside source.
Human brain, y u do dis?
Anonymous 03/06/15 (Fri) 02:19:37 No. 8136
>>7058 Holy shit dude.
I can kind of relate, since my stomach is apparently a total asshole. It constantly keeps telling me what to eat and when and gives me horrible stomach pain if I don't comply exactly. It's not as bad as your whole body is for sure, but still enough to drive me nuts.
Picture is my week. Fucking paperwork bureaucracy hellmachine was built just to spite me I swear to fucking christ.
Anonymous 03/07/15 (Sat) 22:12:38 No. 8188
>>3335 Tell me more about your mind shaping abilities, oh deep wizard.
Anonymous 03/07/15 (Sat) 22:30:32 No. 8189
>>7132 I know that feel. I can't seem to start playing a game until I "really" feel like it. The feeling rarely come though, so I just browse 8chan all day.
Anonymous 03/07/15 (Sat) 22:33:12 No. 8190
>>8189 I feel that way, except with women. And it never actually arrives. It's just that holding pattern, that expectant feeling.
Anonymous 03/08/15 (Sun) 18:35:39 No. 8210
Had a super phun tyme going back to self harm, overdid it a bit.
Anonymous 03/10/15 (Tue) 23:41:49 No. 8270
>>3092 Social media? Really?
The commodification of socialization is the reason society is so fucked up right now. Why take part in it?
Anonymous 03/11/15 (Wed) 07:24:32 No. 8295
>>8270 If you're an artist on the internet, participating in social media is kind of a necessity. Unless you're a big name that people will check on the reg (like Penny Arcade for example), it's easy to get lost in the shuffle.
Not that I'm defending it. "Social Media" is a tremendous load.
Anonymous 03/11/15 (Wed) 08:17:09 No. 8297
>started self-harm again after 4 months clear >now right arm is covered in scars >planning to do it again tonight
Anonymous 03/19/15 (Thu) 00:39:57 No. 8548
>>3065 I have no real motivation to do my work. I've been like this for weeks now, and I've got a ton of stuff due in for next month that I haven't even started on. Before I felt panicky about it, but now I almost don't care any more.
Also, last week on Monday I strangled myself just a little bit, just to get an idea of what it would feel like if I were to hang myself. And the day after that I wanted to cry like a little girl, but I went to sleep and ended up wetting the bed.
Anonymous 03/19/15 (Thu) 08:22:45 No. 8562
I've had to work longer shifts than usual this week, but in spite of that, i'm quite fired up. Maybe it's because everything went smoothly, but I feel motivated, as if I could make something more of myself if I just put in a little bit of extra effort.
Anonymous 03/23/15 (Mon) 23:33:02 No. 8694
(not a cute girl)
Anonymous 03/27/15 (Fri) 05:01:07 No. 8743
Anonymous 03/27/15 (Fri) 13:46:51 No. 8748
File: 1427464011840.jpg (12.77 KB, 280x249, 280:249, 10624997_10152473912488598….jpg )
Anonymous 03/27/15 (Fri) 18:05:33 No. 8754
I skipped a speaking assessment because even trying to plan it was impossible and I figured the desperation of the resit would force me through it. I learnt the resit will be a written assessment.
Anonymous 03/28/15 (Sat) 23:46:44 No. 8773
>Starting to diet a bit because I'm fat and neet >Lose 4 pounds in two weeks >Start feeling depressed and eat like shit because I don't feel like trying >Put it all back on in a couple days
Anonymous 03/30/15 (Mon) 12:49:42 No. 8819
>>8773 Hellraiser is a great movie.
But please don't flay yourself to lose weight, It really hurts.
Anonymous 03/30/15 (Mon) 14:38:17 No. 8822
>>8819 It also doesn't work. Most of your weight comes from the bones and muscles.
Anonymous 04/04/15 (Sat) 16:55:24 No. 8936
Anonymous 04/04/15 (Sat) 17:25:43 No. 8937
Like this except both pictured are me.
Anonymous 04/04/15 (Sat) 18:24:03 No. 8938
>>8937 What's that like a nice and sadistic side?
Anonymous 04/04/15 (Sat) 23:35:30 No. 8942
>>3417 I spent the last 28 years trying and failing. I finally snapped and just stopped.
I've made a little progress however. I'd I get an up mood I'll do things but with zero expectations.
I know I'm never going to finish anything, don't care. Try and enjoy it while it lasts.
Anonymous 04/04/15 (Sat) 23:41:46 No. 8943
>>4176 >>4177 Does knowing someone has it worse make your own problems seem shamefully small. Every time I feel good it make me feel bad for not succeeding on it.
Anonymous 04/05/15 (Sun) 03:51:12 No. 8947
>>8938
It's more like my sexuality has me on a leash. I would explain further here but I don't want to make other threads about me when I have one up.
>>8923
Anonymous 04/05/15 (Sun) 13:42:28 No. 8952
Anonymous 04/05/15 (Sun) 17:28:34 No. 8959
>>8952 >>>/fringe/ That's how you play, right? Link people to random boards?
Anonymous 04/06/15 (Mon) 12:29:35 No. 8987
bear = me
Anonymous 04/06/15 (Mon) 15:24:34 No. 8990
>>8987 Does this pic feel like depression too?
Anonymous 04/07/15 (Tue) 04:26:47 No. 8999
Anonymous 04/07/15 (Tue) 14:18:08 No. 9012
>>8990 Not really. It's the thousand yard stare in the bear's dead eyes that does it for me. It's as if he just realized that all his struggle is in vain.
Anonymous 04/07/15 (Tue) 15:58:05 No. 9013
>>9012 >struggle is in vain. Lovecrafts story pls, but in all seriousness the struggle is real and sometimes you need to try REALLY HARD to succeed or use different methonds to accieve that.
Anonymous 04/08/15 (Wed) 23:13:48 No. 9053
Mewtwo looking up to the light: The good
Anonymous 04/09/15 (Thu) 02:25:39 No. 9056
>>9053 These pictures keep getting more and more autistic. Not that I mind…
Anonymous 04/09/15 (Thu) 04:58:19 No. 9058
>>9056 It's funny coming to an imageboard and seeing 'autistic' not being used as an insult for once.
>Bro are you autistic or something? Cause I am.
Anonymous 04/09/15 (Thu) 19:52:01 No. 9074
Something about it captures the disappointment I feel daily.
Anonymous 04/09/15 (Thu) 23:01:37 No. 9075
>>9074 >I have failed as a father and as a human being >I should have aborted him
Anonymous 04/10/15 (Fri) 19:34:47 No. 9084
Is talking about remission considered to be douchy bragging on this board?
Anonymous 04/11/15 (Sat) 16:13:33 No. 9105
I don't know how I feel, what I feel, why I'm feeling it, whether it's a good feeling or not. Nothing man. I just feel strange recently.
Anonymous 04/12/15 (Sun) 14:37:50 No. 9116
>>4291 LOL r9k
bad place; have a friend who browses it
Anonymous 04/12/15 (Sun) 14:51:18 No. 9117
>>3075 yea, thats pretty much what everyone else does lmao
thats what I did to get my job, bullshit as much as possible any time you can.
Anonymous 04/12/15 (Sun) 18:14:09 No. 9118
Anonymous 04/14/15 (Tue) 01:43:33 No. 9143
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>>3065 Depersonilzation symptoms came back, i thought it was finally going away but it came back with a vengance, fuck sake.
Anonymous 04/14/15 (Tue) 13:23:00 No. 9149
I think it conveys my week accurately.
Anonymous 04/14/15 (Tue) 16:35:58 No. 9155
Anonymous 04/14/15 (Tue) 17:03:52 No. 9156
>>9149 If only the No button could have been greyed out.
Anonymous 04/15/15 (Wed) 15:01:04 No. 9166
>>9156 I made this paint-job edit just for you, anon.
Anonymous SAGE! 04/15/15 (Wed) 15:03:45 No. 9167
>>9166 And here's the last edit because I noticed the off centered 'No' looks weird, all bolded and clickable and whatever.
Anonymous 04/16/15 (Thu) 01:48:46 No. 9172
>>9167 i wish i could give you a picture anon, but i am not on my usual PC. thank you <3
Anonymous 04/17/15 (Fri) 04:03:33 No. 9187
Not getting shit done and its fucking me over
Anonymous 04/22/15 (Wed) 07:13:33 No. 9253
Anonymous 05/22/15 (Fri) 02:45:09 No. 9852
>parents are having marriage trouble
>finished high school; still never had a job, a driver's license, or even made plans for what to do with my life now that I'm in the real world
>monster girls still aren't real and I will never be forcibly cuddled by a drunk red oni
I don't even know any more never knew in the first place and this is getting even harder to understand. At least no more school means more time to play vidya and funpost.
Anonymous 05/22/15 (Fri) 15:02:49 No. 9856
>>9852
And here's the picture.
Anonymous 05/22/15 (Fri) 22:12:15 No. 9862
All this suppressed rage. Feels like it is about to boil over.
Anonymous 05/22/15 (Fri) 23:00:23 No. 9863
>>9862
Why did you suppress it?
You know what's going to happen if you suppress is too long.
Anonymous 05/22/15 (Fri) 23:09:42 No. 9865
>>9863
Because it is either that or me being a wrathful/angry person all the time. I am just absolutely sickened by the behavior of so many around me yet I try to acknowledge that they are no better or worse than I am, so I try and forgive them.
I am also incredibly tired of how much the entire world has gone to complete shit and how it is only getting worse with no signs of improvement. I want to escape, I want to leave because I have and am trying to simply cope with it, but it doesn't work.
I have ways to release anger that aren't harmful to me or others, but I still don't like feeling this way. I don't want to be an angry person.
Anonymous 05/22/15 (Fri) 23:36:24 No. 9867
>>9865
Is it possible to use that anger to make the world a better place then?
Anonymous 05/23/15 (Sat) 15:04:00 No. 9874
>>9867
Not really given that the only thing I see coming from anger is destruction and violence. I don't want people to get hurt, I just want them to stop being so…awful.
Besides, I am just one person with no real importance or significance. Yeah, many other great people in the world are/were only one person as well, but a lot of them had backing and/or experience from something else. I am not cut out to be a world-changing person, the most I can do is try and be the change I want to see in the world, but that is…quite difficult.
Anonymous 05/23/15 (Sat) 19:53:52 No. 9875
>>9874
Well you can still do things, not sure if so great like those, but still.
Not that i can say anything, because i haven't acomplished "anything".
Like sure i know how to make videos and something, but that's about it.
I fucking suck, i want to know more things.
Anonymous 05/25/15 (Mon) 16:44:52 No. 9901
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Anonymous 05/25/15 (Mon) 18:11:48 No. 9904
Anonymous 05/27/15 (Wed) 00:23:36 No. 9928
>>7132
gonna fix this a bit
>wake up
"fuck yeah friday/saturday, we video games now!"
>open up Steam/Desura/folder of pirated vidya
>play a game (for good game see Path 1, mediocre or bad game see Path 2)
>Path 1: enjoy game and play it until the end of the day (almost never happens now)
>go to sleep
"everything went suprisingly okay"
>Path 2: accidently play Wasted Potential #1: The Video Game
>remember everything that went wrong with Wasted Potential #1
>lose motivation and quit game
>go back to vidya library
>see that library is nothing but Wasted Potential , Good Concept, Abysmal Execution , AAA Schlock , The 3.3 Million Dollar Kickstarter Scam , Pay To Not Grind MMO , Low-Budget Indie Shovelware , Pseudo-Retro 90s/80s Pixelshit
>close library
>surf the web
>get "outraged" at social politics and identity politics and anons fully aware of their shitposting
>go to bed
"i've seen worse"
Anonymous 05/27/15 (Wed) 01:47:07 No. 9933
It's gonna be a loooong week…
Anonymous 05/27/15 (Wed) 09:27:25 No. 9944
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Anonymous 05/27/15 (Wed) 09:33:49 No. 9946
Holy shit, you guys.
Up until now:
>behind on homework
>missing entire projects
>essentially do nothing all day outside of class
>very rarely go out with friends
>hate how I can't do any of it; it should be so easy.
What's most frustrating for me is the knowledge of my wasted potential. I have an IQ of 140+, and am accelerated 2~3 years in math and one in science. I don't have any kind of social disability, so I count myself lucky for that. For most of my life I have been an amazing student, and I only know a few people who are even farther ahead than I am. (and they're pretty amazing; one of them is years younger than me, not even in high school yet, and has a $500k research grant from NASA).
However, for the past few years, my ADD has really screwed up my life. It seems pathetic that just one disease is causing such a problem (seeing as how so many people here have a much wider burden), but it's pretty bad; a PhD on ADD I visited a while back ranks me as the worst case in his 15 years of work. My grades have constantly fallen each semester. and I'll be lucky if I get into an average-tier school.
The worst part is the constant reminder of who I could have been. There is no doubt in my mind that if I could have kept everything from falling apart, I Would have a decent shot at an Ivy League school. Now, finals are coming up, and I have essentially one last shot at not falling through the cracks entirely, although I'm almost positive that I won't be able to study at all, which pretty much seals my fate.
I'm sorry if this seems like a relatively privileged person complaining about what may be a trivial problem to people who have gone through much more, but I'm terrified at how close I am to irreversible failure.
However, seeing everyone here, and your much more significant problems, I feel like I can put in one final effort for the exams.
Is it worth it? Do I have a chance? Or have I already proven that I can't go through a normal life with this illness? Once again, if this seems whiny, I apologize. I haven't been able to focus on anything but this for weeks now.
Anonymous 05/27/15 (Wed) 21:09:38 No. 9960
Just like every other week, broken up with the occasional bmx ride to try and fail to get some endorphins in me.
Anonymous 05/29/15 (Fri) 05:26:14 No. 10012
>just want to stay at home and play castlevania
>have to force my pathetic, anxious, depressed self to get to school
>6+ hours of pretending like im not rattled and shaky as fuck
>sleeping next to my locker at lunch, trying not to cry
>get home and sleep instead of playing castlevania
I never asked for this.
Anonymous 05/29/15 (Fri) 10:17:57 No. 10015
>>9946
>Implying there is such a thing as irreversible failure.
That's all in your head. You can always turn your life around, you just need to stop blaming your ADD for your shortcomings. If you were really smart, you'd realize that success is always at your fingertips. However, as long as you assume you're going to fail, failure is certain. It's a self fulfilling prophecy. Now quit being a bitch and study goddamit.
Anonymous 08/10/15 (Mon) 06:03:24 No. 11184
I was just told to stop drinking. By someone on opiates. Don't have an appropriate picture saved so here's semi-drunk oekaki.
Anonymous 08/11/15 (Tue) 00:33:19 No. 11191
I spend mos of my day, every day, playing final fantasy 14
its ruining my motivation to do anything else
fuck mmos stop being so goddamned addicting
Anonymous 08/11/15 (Tue) 09:57:21 No. 11202
>33
>NEET
>No friends
>No girlfriend
>Had my birthday on August 8th with my mom
>Sold next to all my toys and video games to a nostalgia store because I find no joy or connection to them anymore because of depression
Anonymous 08/11/15 (Tue) 14:22:45 No. 11203
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In the last week
>Had my phone stolen
>My wallet lost
>The girl I liked, broke down, cried saying she loved me
>I tried to ask her out and she didn't want any of it
>Even after picking her up from a party 50 km out of town on my bike
>My ex has stopped me from seeing my daughter
>No one cares or talks to me, just uses me for everything
>Tried to put my head through a few shop windows drunk the other night
>Haven't had a sober night in a week
>Failing uni
>Work in a shit job that pays less than minimum
I don't know how to cope anymore.
I can't do this.
Anonymous 08/11/15 (Tue) 20:54:35 No. 11214
Just about had enough. I just feel defeated frankly. After 7 years, I'm just not getting better. I can't get rid off depression and now social anxiety is playing havoc on me.
I'm not able to become a job holding normalfag. I just don't have the mental strength for it anymore. Can't even seem to be able to get a goddamn trade because of mental issues. I just can't keep my shit together long enough without it all coming crashing down mentally.
Anonymous 08/14/15 (Fri) 16:14:51 No. 11233
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Now imagine doing that for days on end without sleeping.
Anonymous 08/15/15 (Sat) 02:58:04 No. 11243
Had a huge fight and got dumped. She called me sick and anything else you can imagine.
I'm beginning to feel alone as I haven't felt in quite some type and I'm scared to feel that way again.
Anonymous 08/19/15 (Wed) 03:01:56 No. 11292
I fucking had it.
I'm tired.
Nothing ever comes out right. I'm a waste of space and oxygen and I don't belong in anyone's life anymore. People are better off without me… I'm sure they easily could replace me. Not that I'm worth anything anyway.
I've been stuck in bed for 2 weeks, avoiding lunch and dinner and to be seen by my family. I'm steadily losing weight and my meds do jackshit. Haven't seen myself in a mirror in a while. I probably look like a monster.
I'm sorry for all these years of wasted time. I'm sorry for not being able to repay you all somehow.
Anonymous 08/19/15 (Wed) 03:35:22 No. 11295
>>11291
>>11292
>couldnt post right
I.. Im sorry…
Pic related, my week again.
Anonymous 08/19/15 (Wed) 06:57:19 No. 11297
I smoke a lot of cigarettes hoping to catch cancer.
Anonymous 08/20/15 (Thu) 09:11:40 No. 11310
>>9901
looks like me irl cousin.
Anonymous 08/20/15 (Thu) 09:45:10 No. 11311
>>11191
>i only play games that have end-games and not mmos
>played habbo for 6years mostly reading chat-logs.
but ye know what i mean;
>'only you can' says someone
>15 others are around you mostly reading the same thing
Anonymous 08/21/15 (Fri) 05:31:29 No. 11320
First semester of college starts Monday. Just one more weekend of summer before I can start! I'm so excited! ;~;
Anonymous 08/21/15 (Fri) 19:43:29 No. 11327
>be in LDR for a year
>meet a couple times
>suddenly hit a manic episode
>partner hits a period of high stress
>we lash out at eachother, I instigate a breakup
>while broken up I do manic things
>partner hits a period of sadness
>mania ends after few months, realize how much I truly loved this person
>text them and ask if they want to skype
>"sure"
>have the best time I've had in a long time
>towards the end they say they have lost all feelings for me and how we shouldn't talk after this call
>oh.png
>fall asleep talking to them
>wake up to an empty screen
>realize how much I fucked them over and how terribly I treated them
>feels bad man
I know I was the abusive one and ruined everything, but what I wouldn't do to have them back with me. Might as well drown my sorrows in some cheap booze and contemplate suicide :^)
Anonymous 08/22/15 (Sat) 00:48:28 No. 11328
Damn guys. You're like me.
>>11327
Never had a significant other. The one time I tried to tell this girl who I really was she INSISTED on having sex with me until I went into a depressive episode and told her to stop trying to coax me. Fucking whores.
Anyway,
>narcissistic, selfish, hypocritical manipulative bastard that is known as me
>literally the perfect description of what men across the ages have described as the bane of human existence, I just try to not act like it
This past week I blew through all my bud, had a few more delusions of grandeur, the worst one was about how I was going to discover a way to be immortal, and now that I'm settling down and seeing how pathetic I am, I just want to get high again and escape. Really, really, really badly. But I'm poor. I'm poor and I have no more drugs. I dropped out of state uni a year in because I couldn't get proper treatment, going back to community uni this fall, I can't do this man.
I usually tried to get so high that I wouldn't be able to think about bad things. Now I'm sober.
I don't want this man.
I don't want this.
Anonymous 08/22/15 (Sat) 03:44:28 No. 11330
>>11328
Be careful with your weed, man. I met a guy in treatment once. Dude couldn't eat for a week after admission because he only had an appetite when he was high.
Anonymous 08/22/15 (Sat) 04:34:21 No. 11331
>>11328
Hey do you have skype cause I am lonely and would love to vent to you in a private medium, along with listening to your problems and understanding.
Anonymous 08/22/15 (Sat) 07:32:29 No. 11334
>>11333
What's stressing you out, man?
Anonymous SAGE! 08/22/15 (Sat) 08:49:13 No. 11340
>>11334
his trips, obviously
Anonymous 08/31/15 (Mon) 03:50:57 No. 11416
>>3065
>describe your week in one picture.
Anonymous 09/05/15 (Sat) 17:33:47 No. 11494
>Birthday this monday
>Barely any excited for it
>Actually thinking it will suck ass because of all the unwanted attention like phone calls and messages I'm gonna get, even if minimal
>Fucking hate myself and wish I was dead so I didn't bother anyone anymore
Anonymous 09/05/15 (Sat) 18:11:42 No. 11495
I'm withdrawing from my meds(mirtazapine) because my psych forgot to fucking write a refill for it. I'm too anxious to call him on the phone about it so I'm just waiting until my next schedules appointment.
It's almost impossible to eat anything. I can't enjoy anything. I can only sleep about every other day.\
I wish I wasn't such a coward so I could just hang myself and get the fuck out of here
Anonymous 09/06/15 (Sun) 23:08:01 No. 11521
>haven't had weed for months
>no boos
>no dex
>have exactly five quarters to my name
>the only grocery store nearby is onto my shoplifting schemes so no stealing
>resisting the urge to gobble down benadryl because it makes feel like I'm dying and nutmeg just isn't worth the hangover
>keyboard is fucking up and makes playing video games very difficult
>procrastinating starting labor job at my dads work "to get my sleep schedule fixed" while dreading it but I need the cash to get fucked up and it's been more than a week since I've been able to and I'm dying on the inside
Anonymous 09/09/15 (Wed) 02:05:05 No. 11549
>xanax everyday
>inbetween pills
>gotta kill myself, gotta save some money for a good plan
>take another 2mg
>nodding
Anonymous 09/13/15 (Sun) 04:46:42 No. 11589
>>9053
This is me if something didn't go as planned.
Anonymous 09/18/15 (Fri) 01:27:33 No. 11665
>>11549
If you don't mind my asking, how did you get prescribed xanax? Like, what did you tell your doctor? Did you need a recommendation from a therapist? Did you just go to a psychiatrist and say you had anxiety?
Anonymous 09/21/15 (Mon) 00:06:30 No. 11701
>>11416
At first I laughed.
Then I recalled a time I had done something similar not so long ago.
Where is this animation from?
Anonymous SAGE! 09/21/15 (Mon) 05:10:10 No. 11704
Anonymous 11/08/15 (Sun) 19:43:47 No. 12244
>Unoriginal content! You have been muted for 4 seconds.
Fucking piece of shit spam filter.
Anonymous 11/08/15 (Sun) 20:25:45 No. 12247
it looks that my depression relieved when i started going to college after summer holidays
Anonymous 11/10/15 (Tue) 06:47:50 No. 12259
Attempting university was a mistake. Depression has fried my brain so much I'm too retarded to get a decent grade. I'm just going to end up a wageslave anyway and the thought of that just makes me want to jump.
Not sure why I keep trying to tell myself I'll get anything better.
Anonymous 11/10/15 (Tue) 17:58:19 No. 12261
Here's muh week
>stop going to school
>homicidal thoughts, pretty intense
>go to hospital
>admitted
>tell them I don't have the thoughts currently
>they release me after 3 days
>back at home right now
>I barely feel anything due to blunted affect
>feels like a psychotic episode coming up
>no one even gives a fuck because I don't have active symptoms yet
>I have to wait until I turn delusional like last time because no one cares about me
Anonymous 11/10/15 (Tue) 18:24:06 No. 12262
>>12261
Forgot to mention, my case worker's on vacation and the replacement is a retired mental health researcher, basically useless in therapy. Fuck I just want to die
Anonymous 11/13/15 (Fri) 04:22:24 No. 12273
>getting holes in teeth
>the white on my teeth is coming off
>1 nerve pain is stinging 3 teeth
>keep brushing and salt+water
>dentist this weekend
>tfw can never have anything with sugar/dairy in it again
>cannot go vegan because i have cebral palsy and am taking pills to not get rickets
>tfw 5'7/120lb at age 25
>tfw death has not taken me but have been shut-in neet since 2010
friday should be fun because;
>low on drinks/food
this weekend;
>dentist
>going with family to a kid's birthday party
>>12262
do you know how to kill all motivation and just slug around?
Anonymous 11/14/15 (Sat) 16:42:10 No. 12278
>>12273
>do you know how to kill all motivation and just slug around
That's exactly what I've been doing since I made that post.
Things got worse, but only a little. I'm just above the maximum dose of risperidone so I'd imagine it's working for the most part. I'm stuck in this shitty zone where I need help but I'm not sick enough to have priority or be hospitalized.
Anonymous 11/15/15 (Sun) 03:58:22 No. 12283
I fucking hate the spam filter on this board
Anonymous 12/13/15 (Sun) 22:02:39 No. 12480
For whatever reason, this week, I've been trying to stay awake during the night/early morning because I don't want to sleep. Usually I feel the opposite.
Anonymous 12/13/15 (Sun) 23:01:49 No. 12481
I had an EXCELLENT week
I broke my body exercise streak, I skipped half of my college classes and I was pretty much friendzoned by the girl that invited me to her place before, unexpectedly, which I pussied out off at that time of course.
This ship has sailed now, so I only have 2 years left until I keep my vow of losing my virginity to a hooker if everything else fails.
It seems like everything is running on schedule.
I'm heading for a total relapse now.
Have you ever seen magnesium burning during chemistry class? It produces harsh, white light.
Imagine this unbearable light stinging in your eyes, entering your head. The sensation continues all over your body towards deepest parts of your bone marrow, to a point where you can't even differentiate between categories like 'hot' and 'cold' anymore. It's just pure, unadulterated pain.
This is how I'm feeling right now.
Anonymous 12/14/15 (Mon) 15:01:56 No. 12482
>>4261
welcum to the nhk hit so close to home
watching that was almost as depressing as my thoughts themselves
Anonymous 12/17/15 (Thu) 00:30:59 No. 12493
Finally on academic suspension, for lack of trying.
Hopefully I can reach the point where being alive is unbearable. Until then I will sit and watch
Anonymous 12/19/15 (Sat) 23:23:12 No. 12514
>>12481
Yeah! Force it!
You obviously won't regret sleeping with a soulless gutter snipe!
Seriously though, let it happen naturally, and enjoy yourself.
>Unless you like mental scars and unpleasant memories that is, then go for the hook!
Anonymous 12/22/15 (Tue) 15:29:36 No. 12529
>>12480
where are the bedsheets?
Anonymous 12/30/15 (Wed) 01:57:12 No. 12568
Didn't have an image of not having people listen to me so the inability of getting what isn't there will do.
>ask GP for psych referral
>get med prescription
>get 20 questions about suicidal thoughts from older info
>lie about not having suicidal thoughts because I'm done with being interrogated with that shit every single fucking time
>get a bunch of self-help links that are a) patronising as fuck and b) don't actually cover what I want
>get directed to a place I have to refer myself to
>there's no point of the GP at all
>>12529
I sleep without bedsheets a lot. Hard enough to get the effort to get the first lot off, can't put a new set on.
Anonymous 01/02/16 (Sat) 10:03:06 No. 12598
>>8083
You feel watched constantly too?