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Holy shit, a fucking miracle Anonymous 11/15/14 (Sat) 23:49:36 No.3142

So yesterday, the strangest thing happened to me.
I felt happy.
For no particular reason.
I didn't do anything special, no achievements, no drugs, nothing.
I just felt content with my lot in life.
It was one of the best moments I ever had
even though it did not carry on into today

Anonymous 11/16/14 (Sun) 01:34:07 No.3153

What exactly are you suffering from? Maybe your depression is lessening incrementally. Some days you might be feeling better and some days you might be feeling normally depressed, but the better times might increase. I hope this is positive for you.

Anonymous 11/16/14 (Sun) 01:58:30 No.3154

You're probably starting to become more honest with yourself.

Anonymous 11/16/14 (Sun) 02:03:57 No.3156

>tfw can't tell whether happy or schizophrenia acting up

Fuckit this isn't a disease I feel free and elated, I can't stop laughing; I'm left with my mind to create myself in myself fuck every tick of the clock, everything feels like at any moment it could unravel entirely, like everything I ever knew or understood could just drift away, I finally understand everything, everything's fallen into place I truly understand and every aspect of my life and has all been leading up to this, I am HAPPY

Anonymous 11/16/14 (Sun) 03:12:37 No.3163

>>3153
Depression is the main thing, but I also have anxiety and asperger's.

And yeah it's most likely because my depression isn't so severe nowadays, but it still was a rather pleasant surprise to feel non-depressed for a day.

Anonymous 11/16/14 (Sun) 04:45:02 No.3172

This thread reminded me that sometimes I laugh so hard that I start crying and then I get depressed and keep crying.

Anonymous 11/16/14 (Sun) 21:25:22 No.3222

>>3156
That's how it is, then it's back to reality/illusion.

Anonymous 11/17/14 (Mon) 00:29:16 No.3243

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>>3172
TOP KEK.

I cry too when laughing too much, but with happiness.

Anonymous 11/18/14 (Tue) 05:31:45 No.3356

>>3172
Same here man, except I don't cry. When I laugh super hard I feel great, but then I crash and feel depressed.

Anonymous 11/18/14 (Tue) 06:03:51 No.3359

>>3172
>tfw whenever anything good happens in my life it is succeeded by a crash of misery, as if to remind me that I can never be happy forever

I swear happiness is a drug or something with the worst withdrawal symptoms imaginable.

Anonymous 11/18/14 (Tue) 06:24:38 No.3360

One day, must have been about 2005, I had some kind of epiphany in the frozen food section of my local supermarket. I considered, what if I were actually just fine the way I am? What if I could actually ask for what I desired? What if I could actually tell her how I feel? And I felt great for about four days.

I actually planned a neat little date, but she got sick and couldn't go, and by the time next week rolled around the effect had worn off and I was back to normal.

Anonymous 11/18/14 (Tue) 08:01:00 No.3366

>>3142
I remember one day where I just felt at peace for a little while. No worrying, no feeling like shit, I just felt content few minutes. It felt really foreign. Then soon enough it was back to feeling shitty anew.

Anonymous 11/18/14 (Tue) 08:08:28 No.3368

If I get happy I immediately remember every reason I was depressed and my happiness deflates because I don't feel like I deserve it.

Anonymous 11/18/14 (Tue) 14:23:41 No.3375

>>3142
That's the depression lifting, momentarily. Remember how it feels. When times are hard, remember that it happened; IT IS POSSIBLE TO BE HAPPY.

That should help you get back there when it fades.

Anonymous 11/18/14 (Tue) 14:33:14 No.3379

Tricks for being happy?

Anonymous 11/20/14 (Thu) 20:36:07 No.3582

>>3142
similar thing happened to me a few days ago, except it's because I got high

Anonymous 11/22/14 (Sat) 18:04:46 No.3710

Sometimes I get random bouts of euphoria and inspiration that last for about a minute. It feels very great, wish I could harness it though.

Anonymous 11/22/14 (Sat) 22:29:41 No.3733

I have those sometimes.
They feel horrible.

Anonymous 11/24/14 (Mon) 17:45:46 No.3858

>>3379
Caffeine. Something to do to keep your mind off things.

Anonymous 11/25/14 (Tue) 05:52:58 No.3897

>>3359
yes exactly this, I feel very guilty straight after i'm in an odd happy state for some reason. it's as if i think i dont deserve it when i know i definitely do, but i guess i'm just used to feeling so empty always i'm stuck

Anonymous 01/17/16 (Sun) 20:26:20 No.12634

>>3142

A year old post has time really gone this fast?

Are any of you still alive?

Anonymous SAGE! 01/20/16 (Wed) 20:00:21 No.12638

>>12634

Sort of, check IRC.