/mental/ - Mental Health, Illnesses and Disorders

well i'm lucky enough to have a pretty painless life (for now anyway) so i'm just enjoying the present day

and the main problem in my life is loneliness, me dying isn't even guaranteed to fix that haha.

My life has been real hard. My reasons for living are the appreciations I found after taking LSD. Not casually for fun like all the other drugs I've done, but more like a holy ceremony with my one and only friend, one of the best and most loyal people on earth. We did it in/outside his cabin in the middle of Norwegian nowhere, and our lives were changed forever. DMT - no need for words. If you did it you'd understand.

That gave me a reason (and an appreciation for life, even though it sucks for me) to live, but that's just a "safety net", because my main reasons for living are the fact that I would never kill myself to stop my own pain when the pain my parents would have to live with for the rest of their lives is far greater.

Then there's my dedication to music. It is literally my life. I'm almost done writing my album. It's all I really care about in life besides my family. I don't need to be sedated, drunk or withdrawing myself with two-hours-long baths when I'm writing music. Writing music is pure bliss for me. All the shit I've been through, have felt and feel go right into it, creating sincere, powerful, anthemic, non-bullshit music that I actually think is bretty good if I can say so myself.

I'm just happy to have a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in, loving parents and a computer to write music with. We're not poor at all. I wouldn't want to live anywhere else. We have much more luxury than we need, and I'd be golden with just a bed, warmth, my computer for music and my medication.

My psychedelic experience, my family and my passion for music are the three things that keeps me wanting to be no one but myself instead of kill myself. Do you have a passion, OP? Do you have a loving family, a roof and a bed? (I'm not implying these have to make you happy, I know all too well that earth-shaking misery can exist without a good reason.)

Op here, is it me or this thread vanished?

>>3235
Nope thread is still here for me, i'll reply in next post.

>>3242

>find a reason for your living that is good enough for your mind to accept, to not get mad at the thought that we are literally without a purpose at all.

What he said.

Each individual serves their own purpose in life, however, they need to find that purpose.

Reasons? Not dying is a reason.

Having fun is another reason. You could view that as an utilitarian imperative- maximize fun.

No reason beyond your interest in living, really. I can't tell you what that means for you.

>>3244
I find the idea that each individual has a purpose ridiculous.

>>3300
Read better.

We do not have a purpose. We need to find one.

>>3305
You cannot find one unless there is one for you. If there is one for you, you have a purpose. Having to work to obtain or find it does not change the fact that it exists and is for you. For many, there isn't a purpose to be found, and therefore they have no purpose. Read better.

>>3316
>It's either black or white

You can find a family as a way of living.
But you can also tell yourself, fuck it, and abandon them for another life.

Destiny's not existant, we make it.

>>3317
It is black or white. You either have purpose, or you do not. Feel free to enlighten me as to what alternative state there is.

>You can find a family as a way of living.
Some can.

>But you can also tell yourself, fuck it, and abandon them for another life.
And yet that does not mean you have a purpose. Choosing an alternative existence != having a purpose.

>Destiny's not existant, we make it.
And some people aren't capable of making anything.

>>3318
>Some can
>Some people aren't capable

Keep telling that to yourself.

The only thing between these people and their purpose is the bullshit story they tell to themself to believe they can't.

All I can think of is reason for living is living I can't think of anything I don't get it when people say hey look at the up sides to me. all I can think is there are none to me

>>3334
Or maybe you're just wrong.

I work
It's pretty much all I have at this point, and I enjoy it.

Video games.

Being alive offers the opportunity of being happy. Happiness is nice.

Being dead denies this opportunity.

That's really how it breaks down for me, I think. Obviously being alive also means you can be utterly miserable, but misery isn't a permanent state. That's easy to forget when you have something like Depression (which I did for 2 years), but there's always the opportunity for things to turn around, whether it's by chance or your own workings.

>>3318
>Some people aren't capable of making anything.

Opportunity does not limit your ability to assign yourself a purpose in life. It might be a purpose you never fully achieve, but it can still a purpose that's true to you. Constructing purpose for yourself is a very personal thing. Nobody else has the authority to deny you of it.