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 No.3778

How long has it been since you self harmed?

If it's been a while, how did you get over it?

If you've never done it, have you ever had the urge?

 No.3779

>How long has it been since you self harmed?
Less than 24 hours.

;_;

 No.3785

>>3778
I don't.

I'm dyspraxic; I get hurt all the time ANYWAY.
There's a scrape on my finger; fuck knows where that came from. Ripped a scab off my leg that I forgot was there. Ripped it off at work by kneeling on it, scab was from where I tripped over a kerb in London the other week.
Innumerable bashes on knees, legs, and feet. Perma-bruises on my feet from my boots.

I curse the fact that I'm bored by sitting in front of screens. If I could get a cushy office job, it'd be harmless. But no, I had to go for practical, useful work.

Still! At least this retail shit is less harmful to my brain than working in the defense industry. What with the solvents, and the hazardous shit, and the people who thought shocking me with testing equipment was fucking funny.

 No.3804

Four months. I'm not over it. I just resist every time I want it because I don't want to lose control again.

 No.3811

>>3778
Its been almost a few months. I keep thinking about it but have nothing sharp to cut with

 No.3822

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4 days i think.

I punch stuff.
It's gotten to the point where it's not really self harm, i just like the pain, but the bones and the meat are ok, if i only give one big ass punch, or a few more.

I were with my friends and punched an iron lamppost, with all my strenght.

Didn't had any noticeable damage from it, but it felt pretty good.

 No.3840

A few days.

Don't even feel like I even have the effort today to beat myself up physically.

 No.3852

About a day, honestly. I went about six months without doing anything, though. I just didn't have the means to do it for the longest time, until I realized alternatives.

 No.3860

About 4 months.

I gradually stopped doing it.
At the time that I did it everyday I think it was because I was suicidal, and I was sort of preparing my self to that.

I stopped having the urges once I didn't want to kill myself all the time.

But right now I'm having problems in my life and have anxiety again, and cutting has entered my thoughts again.

 No.3907

a couple hours give or take

 No.3910

5 or 6 months, but only because I don't have anything that I'm comfortable doing it with

 No.3936

A few days. The last time wasn't as serious as it had been. I'm working towards something to take the place of self harm when I'm stressed out.

 No.3941

A couple of months. But the urge is rising to slip back into that habbit. Im to tired to do anything now. Thats the one good thing about my job. It tires the shit out of me so I cant do anything stupid afterwards.

 No.3956

>>3778
>If it's been a while, how did you get over it?
Drinking, sometimes tattooing myself (with a needle and india ink, it's near of my very first self harming with a compass), walking trough hard pathes in forest and mountain (sometimes also being scratched by thorns)

 No.7359

Less than half an hour, and before that? Roughly two weeks, and before that, it had been nearly four years. I am starting to question my motives in this regard, I find myself almost reaching tears in the thought that I may be attempting a subconscious grab for attention whoring as I've thought about making a masochist related thread on this board.

I have not lurked /mental/ enough, does this all seem like the typical cry for attention to you? I truly wish to know.

 No.7362

More than a week ago. I just do it because I can't kill myself. I do it everytime I wan to kill myself.

 No.7365

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Few days ago.
It was well thought out, clean and all that. I just did it to sort of reset my mind. I was clean almost throughout 2014, but sometime around december I was feeling like shit, looked at my left arm and thought "why the fuck do I even try to resist, Im already past the point of return" and went ahead with it and boy did it feel good.

My left arm is in a pretty bad shape, theres no way I'll ever show my arm to anyone. Forever doomed to wear hoodies ect, but its something you just learn to deal with after a few years. Few years ago I almost did the mistake of getting attracted to another person. She came over and stayed overnight, nothing weird happened. Then the next morning she was suggesting that I'd take my clothes on. I freaked out and went with the "oh shit I really gotta go! you have to go too!". Thats also when I realised that I can never have a physical relationship with anyone. The shame these scars bring is stronger than most would think. If my family would find out, they'd probably stop calling me their son.
Good thing I "gew out" of romantic feelings and such and none of that bothers me anymore.

When you get to this point, you really have to think, "is there a reason to stay away from self harm?" For me, no.

 No.7366

>>7365
Aaand apparently I cant type. Try to look past it, havent slept properly in a week. fug.

 No.7367

I had no idea there were so many people with this problem here. I've never had the urge to do it, even though I hate myself and my body, have thought about killing myself, suffer from anxiety, etc. I guess this is just one of those things that are difficult to understand, either it feels good to you or it doesn't?

 No.7377

Couple days ago. Cut my left arm. Feel fucking stupid about it right now. I don't what I was really thinking. I had the knife in my hand and just… sort of did it.

 No.7378

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>>7367
In my case, it's about focusing on something else, and that's coming from someone that has… fairly similar thoughts about their opinion of themselves.

It's been a while. A few days ago, more borne out of frustration at being a fuckup and waking up late, but it's eased off somewhat over the last month or so. Mostly because I've been fucking distracted with a persistent cold making me feel shitty, and it's taking the edge off everything else somewhat.

That doesn't mean I don't want to jam a knife bodily into my leg some mornings, even though I've never done such. But it would be so fucking easy. And it'd hurt like a bitch. Knives in the kitchen. Shower so I don't bleed over carpet. Doesn't have to be deep, but it does have to fucking hurt.

I normally settle with impacts to my head. Punching, or much less commonly, headbutting. Sometimes it's restrained, sometimes it's lashing out at myself for the sake of hurting so I don't have to worry about other stuff.

 No.7389

A bit over two days I guess.

I flagellate, which seems to get points for originality. I use a 1/4 inch thick sisal cord with knots every inch or so. The cord is folded in half, giving me two tails with about two feet of length each.I stand naked in front of a very large mirror and simply swing them over my shoulders and hit my back. This serves the purpose of reminding myself that my mind is in control of my body, so when I feel like eating candy, or skipping on my exercise routine, I need a reminder that physical weakness can be conquered by mental strength.
Admittedly it probably doesn't hurt nearly as bad as the people who cut or burn.

It wasn't until I saw this thread that I realized that I'm self-harming.

 No.7393

I have only self harmed on one occasion.
>be me, 15
>be depressed because my mind feels literally broken
>be on Skype with drug buddy who is also depressed
>he is cutting tho at least he tried to avoid veins
>I decide to try it but my knife is dull so I heated the knife up with lighter
>tap it on my skin and omfg that feeling
>as soon as it touches my skin I get a full body tingling sensation similar to ASMR
>spot that I "burnt" feels warm and nice
>also that fucking adrenaline

Now that I think of it, the results are nice and it didn't leave any permanent visible marks. Though I would only do it if I felt bad enough to not care about the pain.

 No.7399

Twelve-ish hours ago, I guess. Barely feels like it counts, I just scratched up my palm with a sharp pencil. I was trying to stop myself from stabbing my hand, as edgy as that sounds.
I only seem to self-harm every few months, although I've been doing it for eight years. I don't really feel addicted to it like some people do. Makes me feel like a fraud. I should do it more often, honestly, I fucking deserve it.

>>7367
It can give you an endorphin rush, which feels great but doesn't last.
Other than that, it's just another maladaptive coping mechanism. Maybe you found a better one?
Not entirely sure why I started myself, so unfortunately I can't give you any insight.

 No.7412

>>3778
Less than half an hour.
I'm so bored of doing this, though.

 No.7414

Maybe unrelated but.. What methodes do you guys use ?
I personnaly bite myself.

 No.7417

>>7414
Razor blades. Just randomly cut myself until the adrenaline makes my depression go away.

Sometimes I cut because I'm bored or because I'm tired of not feeling anything.

 No.7418

>>7414
I'm >>7389. Correction, the cord is only about 1/5 of an inch thick, not 1/4.

Where do you bite yourself? (I'm guessing it's arms).

Also, let's change that from "two days ago" to "twelve hours ago".

 No.7437

>>7418
Yes. Arms, wrists and hands. I once did it on my shoulder but it's less accessible..
(Sometimes I also hit myself with heavy things on the legs and stomach, but that's more unusual.)

 No.7448

I haven't cut in almost 7 months now but when I get nervous/depressed/angry, I chew all of the skin off the inside of my mouth, like pulling off chunks and playing with the blood. It leaves minimal scarring but eating hard things is painful. I'm not sure if it's actually "better." Takes a few days for the skin to grow back and I chew it all off again.

 No.7454

Same poster as >>7393 here.
I forgot to say that I do bite my fingers a lot because muh dermatophagia.

 No.12852

I've been cutting recently. Just with my knife I always carry.

Promised myself that I'd only do it on my legs but that was broken and now I'm doing it on my arms as well.

Why I do it is because I'm angry and disappointed at myself. Honestly I deserve this. Wearing long sleeve shirts is gonna take me some time to get used to here in Texas


 No.12854

I don't exactly self harm… But a month ago I walked into the police station and slit my wrist.

First and last time I'll cut myself


 No.12856

>How long has it been since you self harmed?

years

>If it's been a while, how did you get over it?

i do not get into rage any more, i grew out of it



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