/mental/ - Mental Health, Illnesses and Disorders

>having internal discussions with myself, and referring to me "rational" side and my "irrational" side, and they always conflict with each other.

Huh. That same thing happens to me.

I thought it was normal.

Is derealisation the same thing as dissosotiating?

DID anon here, what you have is normal.

Come back when:
1-your second half and you have totally different opinions

2-he starts telling you stories or showing you stuff

3-he asks you to do horrible things

>>5121

It probably is normal and I'm just over-judging myself. I tend to do that as well. I have really low self-esteem and I'm often evaluating and re-evaluating things that I do, even mundane things, even things that I know normal people do. My "irrational" side is always trying to find flaws in what I do.

>>5124

No idea, I'm not familiar with that term.

>>5125

I see, thank you for your input.

I am curious, though. Does DID gradually form over time, or is it something that comes on suddenly after a trauma, or something else entirely?

>>5119
I always assumed that this was normal behaviour due to the duality of man and all that crap.

>>5127
For me it was caused by a huge trauma.
After that, tho, it took him 5 years to hatch and to be fully born.

Maybe you had a trauma too, and now it's developing.
Who knows for sure.

>>5127
Derealisation is when you begin to loose touch with reality. You don't feel like your in your body and your thoughts are not your own. At least thats what my psychologist told me when I told him I was feeling like that.

>>5132
It's happening to me. First I started te get very confused over my own thoughts, emotions, and imagination. It mixed all of this in a thick paste in which I could not find the right shits for the right time. Since i smoke a lot (cannabis really helped me gettin over a constant depressed state of mind), I started to often feel out of my body, see weird colors patterns, have odd thought…

>>5124
Yes.

>>5124
Depersonalization is a type of dissociation.

I might have something similar. Instead if having a "rational" and "irrational" side, I have a "human" side and my "detached" side.

"Human" is hedonistic, naturalistic and always wanting to be challenged. She is very down to earth.
"Detached" is a perfectionist who counters my "human" side's laziness by constantly wanting to improve and move forward. He is very concerned with knowing his place in the universe and has grandiose ideas about things.

I haven't really explored these two sides of me as I usually just stick to one, but I'd like to know more about them.

>>5140
Why do you feel the need to craft an identity out of not being an one dimensional person?

>>5127
I wouldn't say it's "normal"…I am the same way, but when I talk about it to other people they stare at me like I'm an alien. I'd say it's abnormal, but not a mental disorder.

For what it's worth, the therapist I'm currently going to is trained in Somatic Experiencing, which deals with trauma. She gave me a book called "The Trauma Spectrum" in which a doctor proposes that not only can trauma (or PTSD-like symptoms) cause physiological changes, but it can be from less obvious circumstances than what we currently attribute to causing PTSD.

But if you think that's bullshit, I think my irrational side (which I call my "negative" me) came about as a result from a combination of a legalistic religious upbringing, my poarent's divorce, and rejection by social peers all at around the same age.

Shit's fucked, yo.