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Anonymous 12/25/14 (Thu) 03:08:50 No. 5194
>want a relationship >want to feel loved >too weird for normal people >too awkward to pretend to be normal
Anonymous 12/25/14 (Thu) 05:24:27 No. 5197
In a five year relationship from 13, then 2 years at 20, in a new one now… Struggling to fight my anxiety, depression and anger which culminates in jealous outbursts. 5.22 am and it's Christmas Eve. My whole life was going ok for a moment and I choked and just went into the dark again.
Anonymous 12/25/14 (Thu) 05:25:26 No. 5198
Well it's Christmas now I guess
Anonymous 12/25/14 (Thu) 18:15:15 No. 5212
Anonymous 12/26/14 (Fri) 13:42:09 No. 5243
>>5194 Never been in one.
Thanks to my assburgers, I can't stand being in a one-on-one conversation for more than a few minutes. Even if I somehow accidentally ended up in a relationship it probably wouldn't last very long.
Oddly, I can do group conversations just fine, and I found my way into a few friend groups as a result. I'm just unable to talk to any of them alone, so I'm not really close to anyone.
This never really used to bother me, but lately being a 25KV has started taking its toll.
Anonymous 12/26/14 (Fri) 14:45:24 No. 5245
I was. It fell apart because I'm a stupid asshole that took things way too far and kept feeling things despite the other person knowing it was over and not wanting to make me feel like shit by breaking up while I was starting medication.
Anonymous 12/26/14 (Fri) 19:01:12 No. 5251
>>5194 been in a few (only long distance, sadly), they lasted about two years each, felt pretty great, and even when they start getting bored of you, each second feels like a breath of fresh air, a hand pulling you out of the water
then they dump you, and you sink, reach rock bottom and hope you'll find someone as good again, even tho the previous one was perfect
worth it
Anonymous 12/26/14 (Fri) 23:45:17 No. 5254
>>5194 i want to be, but i dont at the same time and its kinda confusing. i dont really feel any
need to be in a romantic relationship, yet i want to because i feel like its something i should be doing. i know aromanticism is a thing, but i think im probably so fucked with this dysphoria shit that i dont know what i want and i wont know until i transition
Anonymous 12/27/14 (Sat) 13:16:28 No. 5279
>have agoraphobia, pretty isolated and suicidal >also tfw no gf >had a crisis team coming over because I sawed into my wrist with a bread knife like a badass >they recommend a day hospital where I can meet people who feel the same way I do >go there, it's basically like a nursery, fat carer bitches everywhere telling us to do finger painting or some shit >told to sit with group while they take turns talking about their issues >women: "my parter said…" "my kids are…" "I watched tv" "also my partner" "I went to a party" "did I mention my partner?" >men: "bought a cat for my feels" "felt pretty lonely this weekend" "friends won't respond" "fighting suicidal thoughts again" >mfw
Anonymous 12/28/14 (Sun) 02:24:37 No. 5297
My romantic life follows the same tired pattern.>meet a girl >think she's cute, crush pretty hard >she likes me too >I get into her interests, meet her friends >feel irritatingly jealous when any of them talk to her because it sounds like they're flirting >do my best to keep it to myself >eventually we get to know each other >she finds out about my anxiety and depression and anger issues >eventually she finds someone else >I bail from group of friends because I only hung out with them because it was time I could spend with her
Anonymous 12/28/14 (Sun) 05:40:38 No. 5301
>Constantly fear my partner is cheating on/going to leave me >Easily aggravated due to suspected hidden motives >Become far too dependent >Always fuck it over by dumping them in a pit of impulsiveness.
Anonymous 12/28/14 (Sun) 17:54:07 No. 5308
>tfw no f
Anonymous 12/28/14 (Sun) 18:39:42 No. 5309
The problem is :
Anonymous 12/28/14 (Sun) 18:43:19 No. 5311
>>5310
Anonymous 12/29/14 (Mon) 14:36:05 No. 5331
>>5194 >autist with no desire for friends >want a gf or wife or something >social retardation makes this impossible well there are always cats
Kutgebruiker9000 12/29/14 (Mon) 21:24:35 No. 5337
>kutge = autistic as FUCK >had a "gf" (she had someone else but I hanged out a lot with her) back in 2012 >she leaves school >there I am >friendless >tfw
Anonymous 01/04/15 (Sun) 23:04:09 No. 5591
"Relationship ?"
Anonymous 01/05/15 (Mon) 18:49:11 No. 5623
Just get some cats
Spike 01/06/15 (Tue) 03:45:41 No. 5653
Being bipolar has helped me multiple times to get into relationships.
Anonymous 01/09/15 (Fri) 20:33:40 No. 5795
>can get people to love "me" >"me" is a lie >real me is pathetic >all relationships end because of lies and deceit >get called psychopath/sociopath >find next girl and repeat
Anonymous 01/09/15 (Fri) 23:03:34 No. 5796
>>5623 You can't love a cat! Not THAT kind of love. Or at least you shouldn't.
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 06:41:41 No. 6207
>>5279 >had a crisis team coming over because I sawed into my wrist with a bread knife like a badass >bread knife >like a badass No kidding. Damn, that's some really determined self-mutilation.
I once ripped open this boil on my face with cleaned toenail clippers because it was gross and I hated the way it made me look. It hurt like hell (I used the pain to psyche myself up further/keep going), and now there's a permanent scar on my cheek.
>>5297 >Met an awful lot of girls who lost their virginities - to the guy after me. Shit man, them feels.
>>5814 Fucking manga, man…just no.
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 22:40:48 No. 6244
>>6207 >Fucking manga, man…just no. this one is nothing, now let me show you this little goat
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 22:43:57 No. 6245
>>5814 Kek, but are u into that sort of thing? you shouldn't abuse your pets.
Anonymous 01/17/15 (Sat) 23:50:42 No. 6254
I was gonna type out my story but it'd end up being a 10 post epic of angst, depression, high school tier drama and "poor me" sob stories. The short version is that I was in a long distance relationship for two years. When she was ready for me to head out there I was dealing with my mental issues, and when I was ready to take the plunge she was putting it off. Her therapist wanted her to call it off so she could focus on herself, and she eventually did. She said she wasn't happy with her life and couldn't be in a relationship with anyone. I still love her with every fiber of my being. The only thing that stopped me from killing myself was the thought of spending my life with her. She gave me hope. I'm still hoping there's a chance for us somewhere down the line. There has to be. We both invested too much time and energy to throw it away without even meeting face to face.
Anonymous 01/18/15 (Sun) 01:26:33 No. 6259
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Anonymous 01/18/15 (Sun) 02:02:57 No. 6260
Married person here.
Anonymous 01/18/15 (Sun) 18:13:36 No. 6286
Anonymous 01/18/15 (Sun) 22:19:49 No. 6296
Anonymous SAGE! 01/18/15 (Sun) 23:19:51 No. 6304
Hate acting normal, hate being myself. Dead.
Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 00:26:50 No. 6306
>>5194 Yes. One for 8 months, the other for about 6. I'm usually the one wanting to get out. Biggest issue is paranoia and I'm completely unable to have trust at all times, sometimes leading to anger outbursts.
It's only in relationships where my illness really appears, so, I don't talk to anyone anymore.
Anonymous 01/22/15 (Thu) 08:48:03 No. 6482
I don't think it's because I'm depressed that I'm not in a relationship. I just don't want to hurt anybody. There's so many cases where there's another girl that likes me that would be broken if I dated someone else, or another guy that likes the girl I like that there's nothing left for me to take.
Anonymous 01/28/15 (Wed) 21:31:42 No. 6765
I'm in a relationship with a girl who understands me, and is really cool about my condition(s). She is also very cool, if I wasn't dating her id still hang out with her all the time.
Anonymous 01/29/15 (Thu) 01:29:54 No. 6778
>if I wasn't dating her id still hang out with her all the time.