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need help Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 09:23:15 No.6328

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I need help. I may have a wide range of disorders: Depression, depersonalization, schizophrenia, etc.
My father had schizophrenia. I'm currently in Israel with no money or contacts. I went on a birthright trip with the hope of ending my life as a /neet/
I was kicked out of the us navy for having panic attacks.
I'm currently trying to get into an Israeli combat unit…
I flunked out of two different community colleges because both times I didn't show up to the final after a semesters worth of what would have been an A. I graduated from high school a year early.
I don't want to kill myself, but only because of my irrational fear of death.
I don't know what to do.
I just wish someone would end my suffering.
I have basically been on life support for the last 5 years.

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 10:22:14 No.6332

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I don't see any scenario in which I could function.
I can't imagine a future.

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 10:27:45 No.6333

>>6328
>>6332
Does your country have some sort of suicide prevention helpline you can call?

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 10:56:41 No.6334

>>6333
I don't know. I've only been in Israel for a few weeks.

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 11:05:40 No.6335

>>6334
This is a total fucking longshot but I might have a friend who can help. What part of Israel are you currently in?

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 11:24:32 No.6336

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>>6335
Jerusalem.
What?

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 11:29:20 No.6337

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I'm an extra in a film that I was never informed of. I did not ask to be here, yet here I am. I feel so guilty for being a selfish brat over my role. I'm alive. Billions of people are not. An infinite amount of people are not alive. I'm so stupid for being selfish, yet that doesn't change how I act.

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 12:22:25 No.6340

>>6336
I have a friend who lives in Israel, if I can get a hold of him he might be willing to help you get settled in and maybe find a doctor.

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 13:16:51 No.6342

>>6340
0584546928
That is my phone number.
I can't go see a doctor. They will not let me into the army if I do that.

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 13:31:03 No.6343

>>6342
I had a friend who stopped taking her medication to get into the army instead of continuing treatment for her schizophrenia, I really wouldn't suggest doing something like that. But I'm not a doctor.

I'm trying to reach my friend right now.

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 14:31:12 No.6345

>>6343
What ended up happening?
If I don't get into the army I might as well kill myself because I have nothing else to do.

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 14:47:27 No.6346

>>6345
She went back on her medication because she realized that joining the army to get away from her family and not dealing with her problems wasn't the way to go. She continued at an IOP program at a hospital out here (this is where we met, actually) and found the right medication for her. She went back to school, moved across the country to be with a guy and has a kick ass job at some bioscience lab that she loves. Her life did a complete 180. She was so certain that the army was the solution to her problems, but now she's eternally thankful that she didn't go that route. You don't have to an hero, you can get help and do something else. Something better. Do you have any hobbies? Any interests?

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 15:33:58 No.6347

>>6346
I have no hobbies.

I can't go to college because of no money.
I have no hobbies anymore. I used to like videogames, camping, weight lifting, swimming, cooking, sewing, chess, space, trains, math, physics, and programming But nothing has ever stuck.
I am incapable of anything. I don't have schizophrenia. I barely have depression. I'm just a lazy cunt.
I am nothing.
I'm average.
I graduated highschool early, but after that: Nothing.
My best bet is to die in the army, or kill myself after.

Anonymous 01/19/15 (Mon) 16:45:31 No.6351

http://8ch.net/advice/res/174.html#181
Help

Anonymous 01/20/15 (Tue) 13:14:37 No.6388

If I do try to seek help what do I do? Where do I go?
What do I say to get my whole story out?

Anonymous 01/21/15 (Wed) 20:04:15 No.6450

Help me.

Anonymous 01/22/15 (Thu) 10:12:53 No.6484

>>6450
Please.

Anonymous 01/22/15 (Thu) 14:44:47 No.6492

Go post on /pol im sure they will be willing to help you out.

Anonymous 01/22/15 (Thu) 17:17:54 No.6495

:(>>6492

Anonymous 01/22/15 (Thu) 17:51:48 No.6503

Nu>>6492
Liar…

Anonymous 01/24/15 (Sat) 07:42:47 No.6602

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>>6503
Help…
Pol sent me to b and they didn't help either

Anonymous 01/24/15 (Sat) 17:11:12 No.6616

>>6602
Help

Anonymous 01/25/15 (Sun) 06:35:01 No.6635

>>6616
Help

Anonymous 01/25/15 (Sun) 08:59:41 No.6641

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>>6388
>>6635

There's probably no one here that can help you. You have to help yourself.
I'm not gonna say you have to give up your dream or goal or what you wanna call it, to join the army, but you should put it on the shelf for a while, and seek help. And just make it a realization when you feel that you have a better life.
I have no idea how you should seek help in Israel/US though, so you should find it out yourself I'm afraid.
Search around on the internet, meet a doctor and ask some question or whatever.
You'll probably end up at a doctor anyways though, so might as well go for that. If you don't know how to find one, use google to find some nearby clinic from where you live.
If you have issues getting your whole story out, just use some days ahead to think of what you wanna say, and write it down in a letter. Take it with you to the appointment, and either read it out to the doctor or just hand it over to him/her. It have worked wonders for me before.
Hopefully you will be able to get help that way. Things might get though and seem hopeless, but don't give up. Remember your goal of joining the army. Let it motivate you.
Good luck.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 06:32:02 No.6668

>>6641
Joining the army is not my goal. I have no goals. The army is just the last chance I have to turn my life around before suicide.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 07:40:22 No.6669

>>6668
Well, I hate to break it to you, but there's a really slim chance of you getting to join the army with mental illnesses. Especially when you have panic attacks and are suicidal. If you ever get out it the field, your panic attacks and/or suicidal tendencies might put the other soldiers in danger. That's why the US army wouldn't let you stay.
Which is why you should seek out help with your issues.
I'm sorry.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 08:11:59 No.6672

>>6669
If I don't get into the army then I have no future.
I will just lie to them.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 09:02:54 No.6674

>>6672
If you're fine with putting other lives in danger because of yourself, then go ahead.
And good luck hiding those panic attacks of yours.
I've given you the help I could, and you've just ignored the advice I've given, as far as I can see.
There's nothing more I can do for you now.
I apologize.
Though, there's always a future for everyone. If you seek out help, you might find it.
Good luck.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 09:13:43 No.6675

>>6674
Your advice was
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idk how to help use google
I am not ignoring anything.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 09:46:15 No.6676

>>6675
Well, the first thing you wanna do is to go to google.com.
Type into the search field something to help you find a doctor. For an example "hospitals in Israel". Or "Clinics in Israel, or something along those lines. Hit enter.
When you've done that you should get some results to help you find it. Additionally, you can press the button that says "Maps" above the search results, to find out where they're located easier. It might also help you find one close to where you live.
For even more accurate result, you should search for "Hospital/clinics in [your area], Israel".
Hope it helps.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 10:09:53 No.6677

>>6676
I have no money or insurance.
If I even so much as think of going to one I will bevome further homeless and have no shot in the army.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 10:45:44 No.6678

>>6677
As far as I know, you don't need money or insurance in every country to get help. At least not much of it. I have no idea how that works in Israel though.
And you're partly correct. You won't have any shot in the army, for now at least. But at least you won't put anyone else in danger, and you have a chance to improve your life in other ways.

Anyways, I did a bit of searching around for you, and there's apparently this thing in Israel called "Eran", which is a free service in Israel. They might be able to help you more than I or anyone else here.
It's a suicide prevention thing, among other helpful stuff it seems.
http://www.eran.org.il/
Their hotline number is 1201, if you wanna try to call them.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 11:22:34 No.6679

>>6678
I would have to be put in a psychiatric hospital because the place I am currently staying is for people in the army….
They are awful from what I have read.
This is why I have to go into the army and fight my disposition.
I have to fight it because if I lose then I die.
I came to Israel because I hoped that the fear of win or die when enable me to overcome what had previously lead me to failure so many times .

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 11:29:24 No.6680

>>6678
info@eran.org.il
Is there email. They have no english hotline. What should I say?

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 11:39:00 No.6681

>>6680
I dunno. You know your own situation better than I do.
Just explain your situation I guess.
How you have it, what you want and intend and stuff like that.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 13:05:56 No.6683

>>6681
There is very little that they can do.
What is my goal in speaking to them?

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 14:29:06 No.6686

>>6683
Well, what was your goal in asking for help here on /mental/?
The answer should be the same.

Anonymous 01/26/15 (Mon) 18:02:05 No.6690

>>6686
Idk

Anonymous 01/27/15 (Tue) 12:49:04 No.6716

>>6686
I emailed them this:
I just want to start by saying I am not really sure what to say. I am currently in Israel waiting to go into the army through mahal. I feel that before you can understand that, I have to say a lot more first. I'm going to just give you a warning: This is going to be a long email. I don't know what your English skills are like, so I don't know if this message will be interpreted correctly. I don't know what I expect out of you. I'm going to be honest for the first time in quite a while. I'll just begin.
My name is Mikey. I am a 19 year old American. I've lived in Kansas City, Kansas my entire life and this is my first time on my own, let alone in Israel. I'm a compulsive liar. I just want to get that out of the way. Ok.
Throughout my child I was always considered a good kid. To this day I have people who knew me as a child tell me how good I was. I was a shy kid, except for when I was comfortable. Through out my childhood I would get in labeled the "class clown." In boy scouts I used to make everyone laugh. I remember always being happy during elementary school. I considered everyone my friend, and them the same for me. At home I had friends from across the neighborhood. I was a happy fellow. This was my life until middle school. Middle school was with a new group of kids. This lead to me being shy. Shyness spawned loneliness. For two years I was very sad and alone. I quit boy scouts and sports. I gained a lot of weight. Something changed in Highschool, though.
In highschool I was back with the kids from elementary school. I was happy. During school I would make jokes and everyone thought I was funny. At home I was depressed. I was alone. Nobody answered my texts/calls or hungout with me after school. Eventually my freshman year ended and I was alone for the summer.

I'm going to stop telling my life story. I feel like I have told this story a thousand times before. I'm going to just cut to the chase.
The past two years of my life have been spent with me flunking out of college and producing autistic acts at home. Last April I attempted suicide and was minutes away from death. I came to Israel December 14th on a birthright trip. Now I am trying to go into the army.
Thank you.

I have had no response…

Anonymous 01/28/15 (Wed) 06:15:10 No.6742

They have still not responded….. What do I do? Why does everyone dismisss me?

>>6686

Anonymous 01/28/15 (Wed) 10:33:50 No.6747

>>6716
>>6742
Well, I don't know.
You didn't really ask them for help, or advice or anything. All you did was email them your life story.
If someone gave me an email like that I would look at it with a question mark and ask myself what I was supposed to do with that information
I get that you want help, but how is anyone supposed to help you when you don't even specify what kind of help you want yourself?
I kinda assume you don't even know it yourself, and that just makes it more difficult.

Anonymous 01/28/15 (Wed) 15:27:37 No.6754

>>6747
What do I do?

Anonymous 01/29/15 (Thu) 14:11:34 No.6799

>>6754
Should I go to a mental hospital???

Anonymous 01/29/15 (Thu) 16:56:13 No.6803

>>6799
No, never.

Anonymous 01/29/15 (Thu) 17:45:29 No.6806

>>6803
What do I do then?????
I've finalized on suicide this sunday.

Anonymous 01/30/15 (Fri) 09:42:20 No.6834

>>6806
:(

Anonymous 01/31/15 (Sat) 16:26:29 No.7057

>>6806
Please

Anonymous 02/01/15 (Sun) 13:02:38 No.7200

>>7057
Please