How would one go about acquiring depression again, /mental/?You see, when I'm depressed, I feel hollow, deprived of life and a will to both endure through my suffering and yet end it in a twisted, self-exerted dichotomy, and it vehemently helps with my

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Anonymous 02/07/15 (Sat) 10:10:01 No.7426

How would one go about acquiring depression again, /mental/?

You see, when I'm depressed, I feel hollow, deprived of life and a will to both endure through my suffering and yet end it in a twisted, self-exerted dichotomy, and it vehemently helps with my writing. Right now, I'm generally alright, even teetering on the edge of positivity, and I have very little motive to write.
Without my writing, I am nothing. It is the core element to my being and absolutely inherent to my sense of self.

Help. While it is awful to be depressed, I would rather suffer emotionally than go without my writing.

Anonymous 02/07/15 (Sat) 11:22:27 No.7427

I know how you feel, OP. I personally have a playlist of depressing music I play to induce depression in myself to help my writing.

Anonymous 02/07/15 (Sat) 11:25:18 No.7429

>>7427
I would listen to The Cure and The Smiths (more melancholy songs) to emphasize the feeling, but these days I'm just enjoying it as music, not an accompanying notion to my sadness.

This sucks.

Anonymous 02/07/15 (Sat) 12:42:28 No.7433

Just remember that you're going to die VERY soon and that there is no escape from an eternity of unconsciousness.

Good luck!

Anonymous 02/07/15 (Sat) 15:20:07 No.7436

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>>7433

Anonymous 02/07/15 (Sat) 16:09:34 No.7439

>>7433
>eternity of unconsciousness
I see no problem with this. You were unconscious before I was born and I don't have any complaints.

Anonymous 02/07/15 (Sat) 16:39:32 No.7441

Consider this: your writing vehemently sucks. Hope that helps.

Anonymous 02/08/15 (Sun) 04:21:57 No.7447

>>7426
>>7429
Depression-fueled writing? Music will definitely help. Add alcohol and spend much time sitting, thinking about every single bad/embarrassing/stupid/worthless/failed thing you've ever done or tried, every person you used to know who abandoned you who is better off without you, every person who has ever hurt you and how their actions were justified, think about every pet or friend you knew who is now dead, and every asshole in the world who is happier/more successful than you are and how pointless your attempts to be a good person have been. Rinse and repeat until death seems favorable.

Anonymous 02/09/15 (Mon) 06:36:31 No.7475

>>7447
> every person you used to know who abandoned you who is better off without you
This. This is the hardest hitting feel. Even worse when your ex best friend dropped you because they knew that they'd live a happier life without you.

Anonymous 02/10/15 (Tue) 08:47:44 No.7494

>>7433
>>7439
I prefer the more horrifying idea that we're going to do this over and over again. Once we die we come straight back into a new body and do this whole song-and-dance all over again. Forever and ever.

It's what Buddhists call Samsara - the cycle of death and rebirth to which life in the material world is bound, the wheel of suffering.

There is no rest because death is an illusion. There is no rest ever.

Anonymous 02/10/15 (Tue) 13:27:41 No.7497

>>7494
In a sense, they're right. All the matter that your body is composed of has always existed and will never truly vanish, just change into something else. However "you" won't be there to experience it, so there's nothing to be afraid of.