/mental/ - Mental Health, Illnesses and Disorders

I kinda wish that i could help, but single i'm so apathetic.
I could say that go and talk to someone who knows about this kinda stuff.

I can relate. I'm not someone violent at all. Even when drunk/high/affected-by-some-drug, i am usually passive, and i'll never rage for nothing. You must do _alot_ of work to piss me off. (rage has been replaced with dissapointment)
Girls, have done so much damage- too much damage over a very long time. How many times i've dreamed of abusing my "ex" Internet relationships never counts. in all sorts of way. Night after night. Cumming on a load on her face in my mind. I visualized her dripping of despair. I might break someday. If i do, i'll just hang myself.
Girls are filthy. I blame them for it. Hit me and see.

>>8988
Have you tried asking yourself, when did I start feeling like this?

>>8988
It's common in people with mental illness and those who were abused as children. Basically, you want to hurt people because you don't feel like you are in control.

That's my guess, I'm not a mental health professional, although you could make the argument that nobody truly is. Psychology is less science and more "Here's my theory, I have no proof but it makes sense doesn't it?"

>>8997
I feel like women have it easy and deserve to suffer. I think they wouldn't be such manipulative selfish whores if they understood what it feels like to be on the receiving end.

>>9001
Nah, women may have it easy compared to men, but still not very easy in absolute terms.

>combat footage inciting rage
I feel like you haven't been in a combat situation.

You get so jacked up on adrenaline you shake without thinking of it. You feel like you're running on fumes. You don't think "ugh, running with this gear is heavy and tiring". You think "fuck, why won't my body keep up". You don't think "yeah, I'm going to fuck those people up!" you think "I fucking hope I hit this guy who's taking accurate shots at us so I don't go home in a bodybag".

It's a bit like derealization, except everything feels extremely real. You're disconnected and your body functions the best way it can to keep you alive.

I'm not a combat vet, I've just been in milsims, and getting hit hurts a lot. Psychologically, the difference is "oh, I'm going to hurt really bad for a while then have to walk a long distance and sit this scenario out" compared to "I'm going to die". But it's, in my head, perfectly comparable.

>>9014
I can imagine. It'd be both good and bad. People have stared at me for my looks. When I walked in fatigues, people stared. At least when you're an attractive woman, there will be attractive guys being embarrassed that they looked at you for too long, or maybe they'll shoot you a charming smile. That's incredible for your self esteem. Compare that to being bullied, or, the scenario you described.

Sure it could be straining. It could also be really positive. But girls don't like to think about that.

>>9009
>I've just been in milsims
fuck off 14 year old monster energy drinker, airsoft is the modern day equivalent of 90s skateboarding culture

You have to expound, OP.
"I feel it is now limiting me from experiencing the good things in life. (I was already limited before that but this enhanced it)."

What did you mean by this, exactly? How has your fantasies consumed your life? I have sexual fantasy obsessions that I think about for six hours a day too, but I can't imagine how they would prevent me from functioning at work or anything else for that matter. It's just sorta a constant background thought. Are you sure you're not exaggerating? In any case, I think so long as you don't plan on acting out any of your violent desires that there's nothing to be worried or ashamed about.

>>8988
perhaps islam is the religion for you, mate.

>>9030
Aren't you buttmad.

Did people not let you in because you were too edgy?

>>9033
Islam is a pretty fun religion, not gonna lie.
>Blow shit up
>Murder unarmed women and children
>Treat your own women like property
>Use violence to get your way

Too bad they had to ruin it with retarded rules. Pray FIVE fucking times a day? friend, I have shit to do! I don't got time for that shit!

>>9035
Friend = ⓝⓘⓖⓖⓔⓡ
Raccoon u cheeky cunt m8!

There's nothing wrong with you, you've just realized that the true beat of humanity is the march of the jackboot.

>>9017
>or maybe they'll shoot you a charming smile. That's incredible for your self esteem.

This is exactly what doesn't happen to men. This is why you have it more easy. (again, not absolutely) This is what we will never get. This is what you will always get.
See what i mean? What we mean? Girls don't like to think about that. But we dwell our thoughts into "Why"?
This is suffering.

It truly depends on how these thoughts manifest themselves, as this could lead to a proper diagnosis of a mental disorder or simply why you're thinking that way in general. Since I was young, at least 7 or so, I've thought the way you did, except I acted on these, and from then to now I was very manipulative and aggressive, an extrovert yes, but extremely bitter and antisocial nonetheless. I was diagnosed with ADHD and intermittent explosive disorder when I was 13, and took medication and therapy to treat it. At 20 I got in a scrap with a workmate and, one thing leading to another, I was diagnosed with ASPD. I was raised in a proper home, and the doctors told me it wasn't nurture but rather nature, a genetic predisposition to violence and aggression coupled with my bold personality, as they said. For you, it could be this same biological makeup, but lacking my impulsive, outgoing personality that puts action into thought. Just some food for thought.

>>9044
I am, according to others, very attractive. No, 'others' does not mean family members.

I've been outright stared at exactly once. It was a girl with downs syndrome who decided to like me when I was out at a restaurant with my family. She went on to be very uncomfortable, but I tried to be nice to her. I've been treated a lot worse myself when approaching average girls.