Currently I don't have any. I just wish my suicide wouldn't have the impact on others that is has.
I don't see much point in living. Maybe I am just depressed, but even if I wasn't, I still don't see how I would be worse off dead. Sense I don't believe in Hell.
I have tried to learn a bit of philosophy, but it seems all the philosophers with life affirming thoughts all ready have a strong desire to live, and build everything on that.