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b5888e  No.203

Apparently if no one posts for a week the board gets available for claiming. I don't want that to happen considering what happened last time, so I will make a post here every week.

This is now a general thread, you can post whatever you want, as long as you follow the rules.

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b5888e  No.205

Is it possible to just make a post and delete it immediately? I wish the claim rules were laxer. They're unfair to slow boards.


b5888e  No.206

>>205

I am not sure, but I think so. On the claims page at https://8ch.net/claim.html it only mentions latest activity, not newest post.


b5888e  No.208

So can this be just a general thread then? It looks slightly less pathetic than just a "post to keep the board alive" thread


b5888e  No.210

>>208

Yeah you're right, that is a good idea, I didn't think of that.


b5888e  No.217

So anyone hear about that srs surgery clinic in canada that got burnt down by a trans woman who had gotten her dick turned into a vag there? Thoughts?


b5888e  No.218

>>217

Where did you read that it was a woman? Every source I found mentioned that it was a man.


b5888e  No.221


b5888e  No.222

>>221

Adding to that I found this on my local trans resource place's facebook group and they were concerned that it would just at fuel to the whole anti trans thing.

I don't really know how to feel about it really, on one hand I'm thinking it will make people think more seriously about transitioning and on the other I think it adds to the picture of trans women being ugly, unstable men


b5888e  No.225

Bump for the week


b5888e  No.226

I was walking out in the woods yesterday and saw some guys sitting there,

one of them whistled at me as I passed by them.


b5888e  No.230

>>226

What mysoginistic filth, they pratically raped you!

But really that's great! I had a couple guys yell out of their car for my number a few weeks ago, I don't think they werw being sarcastic which made me feel pretty good


b5888e  No.242

Safety bump


b5888e  No.257

File: 1468067673989.png (117.19 KB, 500x507, 500:507, 1377095300258.png)

>>242

Safety on


b5888e  No.258

>>257

Thanks a storm knocked out my internet relay box I and I couldn't make the safety post


b5888e  No.259

File: 1468308774048.jpeg (35.08 KB, 480x532, 120:133, 8jpzOGZ.jpeg)

>>258

So how is everyone doing? I hope you're all making progress day by day!

Here is a kitty I found on google today for your pleasure


b5888e  No.261

>>259

Cute adorable kitten


b5888e  No.285

>>259

>I hope you're all making progress day by day!

;_;


b5888e  No.292

>>285

Don't be sad! Instead make plans to start changing what you want changed. And even if you don't make any progress today make some tomorrow then you can take another day off! Either way I hope you have a good day anon you can do it!


b5888e  No.637

Bump to keep the board alive.


b5888e  No.658

Another week.


b5888e  No.659

>>658

Its a little bit sad we have so little to talk about :/


b5888e  No.660

>>659

What kinda things would we talk about?

I for one like how my nails look painted.


b5888e  No.661

>>660

I've been growing my hair for the past months and the longest are now over 20 cm, longer than it's ever been. I like to comb it but I'm afraid people will mock me if I do (and also if I don't comb it). Still, I like having it like this (also because it makes me feel I'm not doing nothing).


b5888e  No.662

>>661

*feel like


b5888e  No.663

>>661

Well combing your hair is a natural thing.

Mine is up to my shoulders and i comb and braid it every morning.


b5888e  No.664

File: 60e09993d0d40f5⋯.jpg (30.98 KB, 500x500, 1:1, 1f66b1087637e2bd68147efb0c….jpg)

>>660

How are your nails painted? I haven't really gotten into nail painting because my nails are areally flimsy :/ I'm trying out a nail hardener but it dries out my cuticles a lot

>>661

No one will mock you for combing your hair, I've had long hair all my life and even when I was still acting like a guy I never got hassled for it. Also do you style.your hair at all? Do you part it in the middle or on the side?

I used to have hair similar to pic related (I'm blonde though) and I loved it so much. I'm sad that I let my bangs grow out and now my bf hates that hairstyle so I can never have it again :(


b5888e  No.665

>>664

I just painted them myself with just nail polish.

I can show a pic of how they look right now.

Also it's easier to paint the hand which isn't your "main"


b5888e  No.666

>>665

Sure, show pics, and yeah whenever I try to paint my nails on my main hand (left hand) I just hole the brush still woth my right hand and move my entire left hand to paint the nails on it since I was so bad using my right hand to paint


b5888e  No.667

File: 8849ef5ebe0e527⋯.jpg (1.36 MB, 2106x2020, 1053:1010, nails.jpg)

>>666

Sorry about the hair in fingers and for them being so bony, maybe hrt will change that when i someday get there.

For my my main hand is right so this left hand was easier to paint and take pic of.


b5888e  No.668

>>667

It looks good! Except your middle finger nail is all fucked up lol, take a file to that and even it out. Also I don't think HRT will fix finger bonyness but it might help with the hair


b5888e  No.669

File: 76565baded213c1⋯.gif (565.47 KB, 640x360, 16:9, 1TVtduu.gif)

File: 7d36ac0184a13e9⋯.gif (787.27 KB, 500x460, 25:23, 4QliD3t.gif)

>>664

Thanks that puts me a little at ease.

My hair is a bit like Yui when it comes to style, only a lot messier and a bit shorter and it is also wavy, and it behaves a bit like Mugi it never wants to stay to my head like it wants to escape. That hair in your picture is very beautiful! I bet it takes a helluva lot of work though. My hair color is a bit like that brownish blonde but I would never get it that straight I think.

When I comb it it parts somewhere in the middle but that's not intentional it just happens. I don't style it (you mean like colouring or ponytail or braids?), the only things I know of and use are shampoo and a comb.


b5888e  No.670

>>668

Yeah i should use the file more and thanks if you really mean that they look good.


b5888e  No.672

File: 37289c6d98cb956⋯.jpg (144.33 KB, 600x368, 75:46, heat-protectant-line-up.jpg)

>>670

Yeah I think they look good, its even, I don't see any places where you got it on you cuticle, no big streaks from the brush. Its nice!

Since 673ac5 and I are discussing hair what kind of hair do you have and what kind of hair do you want?

>>669

My hair now is actually a lot like Mugi's its all fluffy and its kind of a similar style and the same color except my bangs are longer

>That hair in your picture is very beautiful! I bet it takes a helluva lot of work though

It did! I had to straighten it and use hairspray and do some styling every morning it was a lot of work to maintain it! That's part of the reason I didn't get it styled like that again actually, plus my hair is dry enough as it is and straightening it every day fried it even though I used that straightening shield spray like pic related. So I stopped

>I don't style it (you mean like colouring or ponytail or braids?), the only things I know of and use are shampoo and a comb.

You don't even use conditioner? And I mean style it like using hair spray or bobby pins to pin certain parts, straightening or curling to get a certain look you like. There's lots of stuff you can do with your hair


b5888e  No.673

>>672

i didn't quite get "its even, I don't see any places where you got it on you cuticle", but thank you.

Also as for my hair well the length is to my shoulders, natural curly and the color is brown.


b5888e  No.674

>>673

Well by even I mean the lines are nice and straight, you didn't get any polish on the skin or cuticle which is how its supposed to be, but I'm bad at it and always end up with polish on my cuticles and skin which is why I pointed it out


b5888e  No.675

>>674

Aah i see, thank you.

I kinda think it as painting and well practise. I need to practise too, i still suck at painting them imo.


b5888e  No.676

>>675

I really need to practice as well, but I can't keep my fingernails at an okay length without them breaking, its awful. Got any tips for keeping things nice?


b5888e  No.677

>>672

I always thought conditioner was just shampoo but now I looked it up. So do you happen to know if this http://www.wikihow.com/Apply-Conditioner-to-Your-Hair website is any accurate? I find it annoying that my hair is not softer I will try this to see if it improves. I don't use pins no I wouldn't dare and even if I would it would be a futile endeavour I would need like 10 pins or so to keep my hair under control. Does hair spray make your hair stiff like hair gel?


b5888e  No.678

>>677

Lol seriously? You didn't know conditioner was a thing? Like how? Haha I thought that was common knowledge. Anyway yeah that wiki is okay but overly complicated. Just buy a conditioner, wash your hair with shampoo, rinse it out. Then while you're still in the shower put conditioner in your hair. Then you'll want to let the conditioner sit for a little bit, like 3-4 minutes so just either wash your body in the meantime or just stand and enjoy the shower being careful not to spray water on your hair. Then after 3-4 minutes just rinse the conditioner out then you're good. You don't even have to wring out your hair or anything.

It will definitely make your hair like 2-3x softer. My hair feels like straw if i don't use conditioner. I don't know how you've lived your life without it.

Also! Learn and love bobby pins they're great and if you start usong conditoner you won't need a bunch as your hair will be MUCH more manageable.

>Does hair spray make your hair stiff like hair gel

It depends on the amount you put in, a bit will help control your hair and mearly all girls wear it all the time in small amounts. Whereas a lot will make your hair stiff and crusty like gell


b5888e  No.679

>>678

No I don't really take care of myself so I thought it was just a marketing trick haha. Thanks that sounds a lot less complicated I will try that next time I shower. It sounds very nice my hair is strawlike too in some places.

One thing though I could steal borrow conditioner from my sis but that is specifically for blonde hair but I don't really have blonde hair do you know if that makes a big difference? Like will it also work with brownish blonde?


b5888e  No.680

>>676

Hmm not really, single my nails like never break, even when kinda long. Sorry that i can't help you with this.


b5888e  No.681

>>680

No I meant paint-wise any tips for getting a nice smooth coat and not getting it all over your skin?


b5888e  No.682

>>679

Haha no conditioner is definitely not a gimmick, you see shampoo is a bit too good at washingyour hair so it even washes out the protective base coat of oil that your body naturally makes, conditioner essentially just replaces that without making your hair greasy.

>Like will it also work with brownish blonde

The hair color doesn't matter at all really, the reason there's conditioner "for blondes" is because blondes for whatever reason tend to have dryer, more strawlike hair than other other hairtypes so a "for blondes" conditioner will just be an extra strength conditioner. So its fine for anyone, if you need conditioner you might as well use the strongest one.

Also a couple other things, there are also "hair masks" or "deep conditioners" you can buy (pic related) that are like a once a week thing which you use instead of conditioner once a week that will make you hair extra smooth. Its great but if you use something like that more than once a week your hair will look greasy even after a shower.

Also leave in conditioners are a thing, essentially its a condtioner that you put it into your hair after your shower and then you don't wash it out. It just stays there. Some people like it, but I don't because it makes my hair look like I haven't showered in a week. People with darker hair can use it with no problems but it just makes blondes look greasy


b5888e  No.683

Forgot puc lol


b5888e  No.684

File: 5ea05f268d46bb2⋯.jpg (609.08 KB, 1600x1200, 4:3, argan mask.jpg)

Sorry I'm on my phone forgot pic***


b5888e  No.685

>>681

Well for one it's not a race, idk i kinda see it like cleaning windows or painting.

Like be precise and don't use too much paint once, i draw lines from the cuticle to the top of the nail.

I'm bad at explaining, sorry. I kinda get the reason why some girls might paint each others nails, because i'm sure that it's easier that way.


b5888e  No.686

>>685

Haha that sucks that I'm awful at painting. I guess I have to practice alot more. My problem is I always get streaks, like I can never get the polish to be a smooth finish. Its like you can see every individual brish stroke


b5888e  No.687

>>682

>it even washes out the protective base coat of oil that your body naturally makes

So is it bad to wash your hair too often? Like 3 to 4 times a week is that too often?

Okay thanks it is good to know that colour doesn't matter. Thanks a lot for your help I will try normal conditioner first and see how that goes.


b5888e  No.688

>>686

Practice makes perfect~

i too still need to get better.


b5888e  No.689

>>687

Well it depends on how naturally oily your hair is, for example I can't wash my hair every day or it dries out really badly. When I shower I'll just clean my body and not even get my hair wet; I'll only wash/condition my hair every other day. But I know people with darker hair who can wash their hair every day and it looks beautiful. So experiment a bit try different things; don't wash your hair every day, or do wash your hair every day but use conditioner as well, or don't wash your hair every day but use conditioner every day.

Everyone's hair is a little bit different so you need to experiment with what works for you and what works best. If I were you I would start with washing your hair and using conditioner every day. Try it for a week then if your hair doesn't improve much try different stuff like only washing it every other day. It takes some experimentation and honestly most girls will keep making little changes their entire lives. So you need to learn to adjust your routine depending on how dry/greasy your hair is that day.

>>688

Haha I guess so, I'll have to try a lot more. It doesn't help that I only attempt to put on nail polish maybe once a week


b5888e  No.690

>>689

Just take your time, there is no rush.


b5888e  No.691

>>682

>blondes for whatever reason tend to have dryer, more strawlike hair than other other hairtypes

Really?


b5888e  No.692

>>691

Yeah, blondes in general tend to have dryer hair so there's products marketed specifically towards us

>>690

Yeah true, everything takes practice


b5888e  No.693

>>689

Okay I don't really know much about my hair I rarely look at it so I will try experimenting a bit with it. Thanks for talking with me and helping me out and treating me like a girl and stuff I really appreciate it!


b5888e  No.694

>>693

No problem, I learned a lot of this stuff probably like any other girl, from my mom because I've had long hair my whole life so since she couldn't get me to cut it she taught me to take care of it. And I know a lot of other transgirls didn't have that education growing up.

Also of course I'll treat you like a girl lol, we're all girls here


b5888e  No.695

>>694

>Also of course I'll treat you like a girl lol, we're all girls here

This, we are all girls who unfortunately have been born in a wrong body, but at least that can be fixed somehow.

Have a great day and keep your head high, you girls rock!


b5888e  No.696

>>695

>at least that can be fixed somehow.

Correct, that's why we all have to do our best and learn all we can and be the best girls we can be


b5888e  No.701

I got my hands on some bobby pins and it is difficult to get one in a good way but I like a lot how they make my hair look thanks for mentioning them. Also I feel like my hair is softer and much smoother or more fluid after using conditioner (I've conditioned it two times now I didn't notice much difference the first time).


b5888e  No.702

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File: 31c157e159c19a3⋯.png (681.02 KB, 1008x1080, 14:15, latest.png)

>>701

Yeah it takes a few times for the conditioner to work but that's great! Soft hair feels amazing.

With the bobby pins they take some practice and getting used to putting in but they're good for being easily hidden and holding hair in certain ways. But in general they're meant to be hidden, If you want something style that does the same job try a hair clip, there's lots of different styles and they can add to a look as well I use the ones in the first pic a lot. If you're a weeb too you can wear the ones that alot of animu characters wear too (second pic related


b5888e  No.709

File: 7ae5f22a2574ffb⋯.jpg (43.33 KB, 411x500, 411:500, 1463345425835.jpg)

>>702

Yes it feels very nice and it is much easier to brush.

Yeah I watched some videos and found out that they're supposed to be hidden and that they're much more useful than they look. For now I don't really need much style just to keep it out of my face and close to my head. I am not a very succesful weeb but I like that style it's cute and simple.


b5888e  No.719

>>709

That's cool, I like cute and simple too, most days I don't do much with my hair so its just long and simple. Sometimes I like to get really dolled up and nice looming but that always takes like an hour and I don't have that kind of time in the morning haha


b5888e  No.720

Great i feel so fucking bad that i want to rip the hair out of myself, tho i don't like pain so there is that, but still.

It's like this shit feeling is inside and outside of myself, i don't even want to look down even with shirt and pants on.

I don't want to look at my arms nor feel my face, because the fucking beard won't ever leave complitely.

I just want to idk what god i feel so bad right now.

at least i found something useful which was hip matrix or something which supposedly makes you walk kinda more fem or soemthing idk afasdfghjgfdsfkog i hate my body i don't ever want o see myself fuck ill just go and put me head to a pillow and maybe wake up and everything will be better.


b5888e  No.721

>>720

Resting helped a bit.


b5888e  No.722

>>721

>>720

>Resting helped a bit.

Yeah that tends to help

I'm sorry anon, that really sucks but think of it as motivation to transition, you don't want to feel like that again so you need to get on HRT, and save up for electrolosis.

You can dostract yourself from feelings like that for a while but eventually they become too frequent to deal with anymore . Which is why you get motivated and become the girl you're meant to be!

But in the meantime if it happens again, try engaging yourself with something like a videogame or something which requires your input and to think. Those very intense feelings of dysphoria come and go pretty quickly if you are able not to dwell on them. Which is where an emgaging activity comes in.


b5888e  No.723

>>722

Yeah i did play games too, luckily i could get my focus entirely on the game, because i didn't even want to see my arms.


b5888e  No.724

I finally moved. I now have an apartment and I'm living on my own. This is a good time to restart my transition, but I'm hesitant. My family will be visiting. They're close enough to get over by car in ~45 minutes and they'll be here regularly. There's still financial constraints to worry about. Clinic visits and hormones are expensive. I'm not financially independent yet. I don't want my transition to get in the way of my job. Being in boy-mode is going to be difficult after some time. I still have my breast growth from when I stopped HRT 2 years ago. It will be hard to hide, especially during summer. It's noticeable even now and I have to wear layers. There's of course the issue of being able to pass. I don't feel that I have a good body type for transitioning.

I was doing the dishes the other day. I thought to myself that it would be easier if my hands were smaller. It made me upset. No matter how much time goes by, I can't stop feeling dysphoria. It's clear that this problem isn't going away. Regardless, I'm going to begin epilating and electrolysis. There's no downside to that.


b5888e  No.728

>>724

Sounds great, the electrolosis is easy to hide or explain away and god does it make a difference. Especially on your face, the day I stopped growing facial hair was the day I really started feeling like a woman


b5888e  No.732

>>724

It is good that you live on your own. I take it you get money from your parents and they don't know about you?

I think maybe you should not just ask "Can I afford to take HRT?" but also "Can I afford not to take HRT?" I don't know what advice to give you I don't have experience with finance or jobs.


b5888e  No.739

>>728

Can't wait. I've been shaving compulsively ever since I started growing.

>>732

They know I've done it before. I had to stop because of them. I wonder if they suspect I'm going to do it again.


b5888e  No.740

>>739

Shit anon just do it at this point. You can't let your family govern all your life's decisions. I understand the pressure from when you're around them all the time but letting them influence you when you don't even live together isn't good. And especially since they know you've been on HRT before, what do they expect? The problem will just go away? And what are you going to do? Never get on HRT and waste the opportunity while you're young to transition effectively? Just do it, you can deal with your family but you can't deal with testosterone changing your body and ruining any chance you have at passing.

it took all my willpower not to say, "just man up and get HRT already"


b5888e  No.743

>>740

>Shit anon just do it at this point. You can't let your family govern all your life's decisions. I understand the pressure from when you're around them all the time but letting them influence you when you don't even live together isn't good.

I only moved this week. It's a hard time to do things.

>And especially since they know you've been on HRT before, what do they expect? The problem will just go away? And what are you going to do? Never get on HRT and waste the opportunity while you're young to transition effectively?

They've completely ignored it since I've stopped. It has never once been mentioned despite being a mild source of contention at the time. I doubt that they have forgotten, so it must be intentional.

>Just do it, you can deal with your family but you can't deal with testosterone changing your body and ruining any chance you have at passing.

Anon, I don't think you understand. I'm doing this only for myself.


b5888e  No.744

>>743

Ahh I misunderstood. I thought you were hesitant to start HRT because of the close proximity of your family


b5888e  No.745

>>744

I'm not dependent on them anymore, so it's doesn't matter what they think. I'll start it regardless.


b5888e  No.746

>>745

Cool, I'm glad to hear that


b5888e  No.754

I never knew shaving your legs would be so great.


b5888e  No.756

>>754

Having smooth legs is amazing, whenever I'm freshly shaved/epilated I can't stop touching my legs and feeling the smoothness


b5888e  No.758

Hi everyone! I hope you are all having an amazing week! Remember to practice your voices and do your best every day!


b5888e  No.760

>>758

I'm trying to find the courage to call my doctor to get a referral letter for the psych… and then I'll need to find the courage to go to the appointment… and then I need to make an appointment with the psych…

Do you have any resources for voice training? Or do you use a logopedist?


b5888e  No.764

>>760

The referral letter from your doc is by far the hardest part. Once you do that the rest kind of falls into place and isn't so bad. Don't think of all the things after just concentrate on getting the referral letter for the psych.

Also there are some resources in the sticky. Check here in the voice section http://pastebin.com/h1vLPxyV

I personally used some tutorials from a tgirl named CandiFla on youtube, but she took her videos down for some reason. :/ its really too bad they were 10/10

I found this as well a second ago when I was searching for what happened to CandiFla. I know >reddit but I read through it and it seems like a decent guide

https://reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1wi7uk/violets_voice_tips/


b5888e  No.765

>>764

I know. I try to do small steps. It's not so much about me being trans that makes me scared, I always have a lot of trouble making a phonecall, especially when I have to make the call. And also talking to people in general, especially about my feelings.

Thanks a lot for those resources!


b5888e  No.768

Hi gals, I just have a couple of questions.

Anyway, I heard that women can see colors better than men. Does HRT have any effects on vision?

Do online retailers like Amazon require a real name? Are you allowed to get your stuff shipped to you under an account name or pseudonym?


b5888e  No.769

>>768

>Anyway, I heard that women can see colors better than men. Does HRT have any effects on vision?

It didn't notice any changes to the way I saw colors but it did change the shape of my eyes. It's also known to make eyes more dry, although I didn't have a problem with it.

>Do online retailers like Amazon require a real name? Are you allowed to get your stuff shipped to you under an account name or pseudonym?

Not unless it's for billing, like your credit card name.


b5888e  No.777

>>765

No problem, I hope they help and I hope you can develop a beautiful voice! Also I understand the talking on the phone thing but like I said its the first step that's the hardest aftet you set up the initial cosultation with your psych then things start falling into place and you kind of stop having to call peoplle and they start calling you.

>>768

Unfortunately the color perception thing seems to be a natal development so unfortunately the structure of your eyes won't change so you won't see colors better but as >>769 says it may change the shape of your eyes so they look different.

Also yeah amazon doesn't require yur real name on the shipping address but it needs ot on the billing address.


b5888e  No.786

Safety bump.


b5888e  No.796

>>777

>>769

I think that what I'll do is buy myself a Amazon gift card; from what I've heard, they don't require a billing address.


b5888e  No.797

File: d924ef6fa11fe52⋯.gif (1.3 MB, 400x360, 10:9, 1469832313141.gif)

Good evening girls! I hope you've all had a great week! Let's look forward to next week and make a bit of progress every day!

What have you been doing to make progress towards becoming a beautiful woman?

Makeup?

Voice?

Have you tried increasing your fashion knowledge?

There's lots to do but that's okay we all have time to do it!

Tell me what you've done this week to move forward or tell me what you want to do next week!


b5888e  No.798

File: 59d1ea165709e56⋯.jpg (322.35 KB, 1120x1224, 140:153, Kiki.jpg)

Wow time sure does fly! Its another week already which means everyone should be one week closer to becoming a pretty girl! If not don't feel too bad there's always next week.

Remember everyone things take time and practice! Nothing comes instantly and no one get results overnight hang in there and keep trying to improve yourself in any way!


b5888e  No.799

>>798

I'll try to follow your advice. It's just that when I see my reflection I always get this 'why am I even trying?' feeling. On top of that I really want to live on my own but I'm scared to talk to people I don't know so I don't know how to move out.

On an unrelated note, on the plus side, I think that for the first time in over three years I have two people that I can call friends, and that might call me a friend of theirs. Granted, they're online friends, but still, it makes me feel better.


b5888e  No.800

>>799

> I always get this 'why am I even trying?' feeling

Don't worry anon, I used to feel that way all the time too. It's a part of depression and I think its the hardest part to get out of; you have no motivation because you think you can't improve or change. But I can tell you that you really can change, big changes like transition or really anything are the result of a lot of small changes. Try making small changes and letting those add up to big changes.

So for example if you're trying to transition or want to and you haven't done anything to do it yet. Start by making a smaller change like shaving your legs. Learn to shave your legs and do it regularly. Its awkward and kind of scary at first but you'll get used to it and it will become a part of your routine. If you can do that then try to learn a bit of makeup, find a basic mascara/eyeliner style and practice practice practice. Keep practicing that one style over and over whenever you have a chance until you get good at it.

I know that looking at yourself in the mirror while practicing makeup is upsetting, it used to upset me a lot too. And whenever I fucked up my makeup and ended up looking like a bad drag queen I wanted to cry myself to sleep. But you need to try to work past that and keep on practicing until you can perfect a nice, elegant look. Finally when you are able to do that you will feel so happy and feminine, it will make all the bullshit feel worth it. If you can conquer makeup I think you can do almost anything transition related

At the same time just grow your hair out longer. Its easy to do, just wait! Then after a few months you'll have more hair to play with, and you can look up tutorials on youtube of what to do with your hair. Lookup styles and different cuts and figure out what would look good on you. Then with pretty hair and makeup you're halfway there already! Maybe looking in the mirror won't be so bad anymore. Maybe you'll actually like the way you look and maybe it will gice you confidence to move on and take the next steps in transition.

But don't let all of that overwhelm you anon, remember all you have to do to transition or make a change or improvement to your lifestyle is to just take the next step.

Think about what the next step you need to do is and make arrangements to do just that step. Don't worry about what comes after that step just worry about completing that one step.

Lets apply this to what you said

>On top of that I really want to live on my own but I'm scared to talk to people I don't know so I don't know how to move out.

So you want to live on your own but you're scared to talk to strangers.

Well the first step is to go on the internet and check out your local listings for apartments to find something you can afford. That's the first step, its easy. If you're in the USA craigslist has lots of apartment listings that you can browse. If you're in Canada Kijiji is your best bet to find listings, if you're a yuropoor you might have to do some searching because I have no clue what website is good for that. Anyway look for an apartment that is within your pricerange. If you can do that then send an email to the landlord or property manager. Whoever is listed just email them about the details and say you're interested.

Searching the web and emailing people is like 90% of finding an apartment to live on your own. That's the biggest part, the rest is actually meeting the landlord or property manager and taking a tour of the apartment. That definitely is harder if you have a problem talking with strangers. But remember it only takes a few minutes at a time. Hardly longer than going to a grocery store or getting gas. Now if you can manage that part the congratulations you have an apartment and can live on your own! You might have to interact with that same person now once a month for a minute or two while you give them rent but that's it. Its simple!

Everything is just small steps, don't let it overwhelm you.

>

I think that for the first time in over three years I have two people that I can call friends, and that might call me a friend of theirs. Granted, they're online friends, but still, it makes me feel better.

Yay! Congrats anon, friends are great and an online friend is just as good as an irl friend. I met my bf through steam and we were online friends for a long time. It was nice to have someone to talk to from the convenience of my room. It helped me socialize and come out of my shell a lot. Now currently we live together so it just goes to show that an online friend is just as good as any other friend


b5888e  No.801

>>799

>I'll try to follow your advice. It's just that when I see my reflection I always get this 'why am I even trying?' feeling.

Get on hormones. They're magic.

>On top of that I really want to live on my own but I'm scared to talk to people I don't know so I don't know how to move out.

It doesn't involve much talking. Your parents will do most of the paperwork.


b5888e  No.803

>>801

>get on hormones; they're magic

this right here. (with the caveat that you may want to bank some sperm first)

"magic" doesn't mean titty skittles will cure depression altogether (they certainly didn't for me. some people are just fucked up irrespecitve of the tranny thing)


b5888e  No.804

>>203

What happened last time (anticipating pol)?


b5888e  No.805

>>803

>you may want to bank some sperm first

That's my one regret, I wish I did that before I had an orchiectomy/started HRT. Other than the tranny thing I got good genes. Any kid I had would be 10/10

also I'm actually starting to want to be a mother ;_;

>"magic" doesn't mean titty skittles will cure depression altogether (they certainly didn't for me. some people are just fucked up irrespecitve of the tranny thing)

I think people should also realize that hormones and transition won't solve all their problems and will certainly cause new ones as well. So they really need to identify how much of their depression is caused by dysphoria. I think some people go into it thinking that all their problems will go away and are disappointed when they don't.

>804

Basically, a bunch of posts got edited with mod edits that told the poster/op to kill themselves and the standard "trannies are mentally ill degenerates" stuff


b5888e  No.806

>>804

>>805

Meant to link, deleted the second arrow somehow


b5888e  No.807

>>803

>with the caveat that you may want to bank some sperm first

It's possible to make sperm after starting hormones, although the quantity isn't as large. Of course it would have to be done before an orchiectomy.

Why would anyone want to make a kid? Infertility is a feature.

>>804

That's right.

>>805

>That's my one regret, I wish I did that before I had an orchiectomy/started HRT.

Care to share your story? I want to know more about those that have gotten so far.


b5888e  No.808

>>807

>sperm after hormones

maybe, but there'll be much less of it (so getting pregnant "naturally" will be less likely and IVF is expensive as shit). Also, there's probably a much higher chance that resultant babbies would be retarded. Really not worth the risk imo.

>infertility is a feature

>not making le hwite babbies for the coming race war

smh kys tbh fam

I'd love to be a mother too, but on the other hand probably the most merciful thing to do to kids is kill them. Life sucks.I wish my mom aborted me


b5888e  No.809

>>808

Christ anon thats depressing, life isn't that bad. There's pretty neat stuff to see being alive, how can you wish to be aborted lel


b5888e  No.811

>>809

yay! the board's not as dead as I thought!

>life isn't that bad…

not sure if irony


b5888e  No.812

>>811

Well I mean life sucks sometimes but yow can you wish you were aborted? That's fucked lol overall I enjoy living. Its interesting at least


b5888e  No.813

>>812

depression is a bitch. I can't really remember a time I could close my eyes without wanting to scream, going back to when I was little. Life is just a series of idle distractions to keep you from hurting yourself in despair. Like psych wards without the coloring books.

thanks for reading my (whiny) blog


b5888e  No.814

>>813

>depression is a bitch. I can't really remember a time I could close my eyes without wanting to scream, going back to when I was little.

What's causing you to be depreased anyway anon? Gender dysphoria or other stuff too?

>thanks for reading my (whiny) blog

Anon, if you ever want to vent I'll always be here to read your whiny blog. I've been depressed and I know how it feels so if you ever need to vent or talk I'll be here.

I'm a janitor of this place so I need to keep on eye on it anyway.


b5888e  No.815

>>814

thanks :)

It's not gender dysphoria, which for me manifests more as longing than discomfort. Depression is this searing pain in my soul that never really goes away. Pretty sure suicide is the only way to make it stop don't worry I'm safe etc etc no 5150 plz :P but I can't just now because it'd destroy my parents. So i'm pretty much just stuck here shitposting and NEETing it up. Not much else I can do but whine about it for the time being again, sorry


b5888e  No.816

>>815

Don't be sorry anon, it's not cringeworthy or a burden like you seem to think it is.

Anyway what is the pain in your soul caused by? There has to be a reason for your depression. If there isn't then its an imbalance in neurotransitters in your brain and would be solved with pills


b5888e  No.817

>>816

>solved with pills

wew lad lass

I've tried andepressants/antipsychotics/mood stabilizers/ECT/therapy/residential programs/parital hospitalization/etc. for years and none of it fucking worked.

I had some childhood trauma, and being a friendless loser all my life certainly didn't help. IDK I just feel broken. And really frustrated because in all modesty I'm pretty clever and could probably do something with my life if I weren't such a worthless piece of shit.

On the bright side I'd say in general suffering makes you kinder and more compassionate; some of the most wonderful people I know I met in hospitals after trying to take their lives


b5888e  No.818

>>807

>Care to share your story? I want to know more about those that have gotten so far.

I mean sure, there's not much to tell.

When I was a kid I hated boyish stuff like sports and physical stuff and instead I was a nerd and read books all day. Whenever I read books I always wished I could have be in the female character's role. So I grew my hair out long so I could have pretty hair too told my parents it was because all my friends had long hair and they begrudingly let me I thought I was just gay because my dad told me I looked like a faggot lel. Anyway when puberty hit I hated all the changes and was disgusted by my dick/balls getting bigger but I was especially disgusted by body hair and kept shaving it until I started epilating it when I was like 20. not even my parents knew I grew any chest or leg hair since I kept it shaved so long

Anyway when I was like 12 or 13 I tried to act 'like a man' because my brother and dad kept pressuring me to do it. Got fat and miserable when I tried. But was somewhat successful at it and ended up as the quarterback of the high school football team. At this point I became anorexic and ate a bowl of ramen a day until I was down to 135 pounds (from 230) then I started eating a normal amount again. Quit the football team because my brother went off to college and I hated sports and only joined because of pressure from my brother. From the time I tried acting manly until I was like 15 I had no friends because I was depressed and pushed people away. But now that my brother was gone and no longer pressuring me I decided to stop acting manly and decided to try to be a trap. I was on 4chan since I was 13 so I knew what traps were and i thought that was my closest chance at being a girl. So I made some girl friends and I started dressing in exclusively women's clothes. Like women's skinny jeans, shirts and sweaters. Told a couple of them I was "gay" so they would teach me makeup. Got taught some basics but I had to learn the rest from the internet. At this point I was pretty happy but I still wished I was more feminine even though I was a fairly passable trap (I didn't apply makeup often because I told my parents that my "style" was just what was in these days).


b5888e  No.819

>>807

So I started wishing I could transition when I was 17 and it wasn't until I was like 21 and depressed as fuck from not being a girl that I worked up the courage to get on HRT and tell my family that I was trans. After starting HRT I worked on my voice for months until I sounded completely female. I noticed that the number one thing that determines someone's gender for me is their voice. So I wanted mine to be perfect. That's when I learned more makeup styles and techniques and I learned to style my hair. Before, it was just long but I wanted it to be styled and cute. So I took to youtube and sat there and learned until I could do hair and makeup like any other natural girl. I also bought an epilator at this point because at this point my leg hair grew too fast to shave all the time. Oh also I took a year off of university to do all this. I didn't want people to see me transition and think of me as a transgirl I just wanted to be a girl.

Anyway throughout my life I hated my dick and balls amd dreamed of getting them removed and having a vagina but once I was a few months on HRT I actually stopped hating my dick so much and kind of started to like it? I guess? Kek there's a whole thing with that I won't get into unless you really want to know. Anyway I still hated the fuck out of my balls and started researching getting them removed. I read SRS was a lot harder without scrotal skin but I think that was the time when I gave up on wanting a vagina. I hated how the ones they made looked and I didn't want my dick gone anymore. So I decided to get castrated/orchiectomy. I did some research and apparently in certain parts of Canada (my parts specifically) having an orchiectomy is considered enough to change the gender marker on your birth certificate and was covered on my provincial health insurance. So I set it all up and got my balls and sack removed. I was awake for all of it since it was just local anasthetic and it hurt a bit but yeah, they let me see my balls when they were gone and it was really weird but i was super happy. Recovery felt like I had been kicked in the balls for like a week but then that went away. Now you can barely even tell they were there. They closed it up and it healed really well.

Its soo much easier now to hide my dick and tuck it away in my panties. Before my sack always got in the way and my balls would slip out from inside of me. But now I just slip my dick back and boom its gone! Anyway that's about it. The HRT is magic and I got nice in between C and B cups now (certain bras of Cs fit well and certain B sized bras fit well too so I'm sort of in between) and well that's it I guess. I'm 23 now and I switched universities, got my name changed and my gender markers on all my ID's including my birth certificate changed and I'm completely passable now! So to the world I'm a girl! The only people who know are my family, friends back home and my bf. Everyone in my classes and clubs are none the wiser.

Sorry for the long post I didn't know what you meant by "my story" so i just d you everything I thought was relevant. If you have any questions feel free to ask


b5888e  No.820

>>817

You're not broken, nor are you a worthless piece of shit anon. Its all bullshit motivational stuff but really. You can still fix yourself and your situation and do something cool. Its as simple as going out and taking the first step in the direction of what you want to do


b5888e  No.821

>>820

>taking the first step in the direction of what you want to do

like going to the hardware store for a length of rope? :P ← le ironic smiley masks the depth of my despair

re: >>819

what are you studying in Uni? inb4 comp sci


b5888e  No.822

>>821

Don't worry anon, /pol/ says the day of the rope is coming anyway, just wait for that :^) **but really it's not as hard as it seems to get out there and do something with yourself. Everyone always says university is a meme but STEM fields are a good way to apply yourself

Also I'm finishing up a degree in genetics with a minor in biomedical science. I'm starting my masters next semester


b5888e  No.823

>>821

Also sorry for the long time in between replies I went and made supper


b5888e  No.824

>>822

>DotR

here's hoping Trump is literally Hitler

>masters

probably a good idea. A PhD takes ages and job opportunites aren't great.

>uni for me

I got my bachelors (in a useless subject I'm not any good at anyways). Took some classes in comp sci after that, which I tended to enjoy, before having a bit of a breakdown. So I've been in and out of treatment programs while classmates are wrapping up their doctorates or making mad dosh. I don't keep up with anyone from school because it's just too damn depressing.

Maybe one day I'll magically get my shit together and find a master's program that'll take me. though my money's still on DotR


b5888e  No.825

>>824

>probably a good idea. A PhD takes ages and job opportunites aren't great.

I'm working on my PhD after I'm finished with my masters lel

>DotR

I wouldn't bet on it anon. I doubt Trump is going to be Hitler like they say


b5888e  No.826

>>824

>Took some classes in comp sci

Why don't you persue something that has to do with computer science? Its better than being a NEET also, its not that hard to get your shit together anon. You say if you magically get your shit together you can do something. But its not like its a magical thing. You just go out and do stuff, make a list of shit you need to do then do it. Simple as that anon, it seems like you're overcomplicating it in your head


b5888e  No.827

>>818

>>819

>So I started wishing I could transition when I was 17 and it wasn't until I was like 21 and depressed as fuck from not being a girl that I worked up the courage to get on HRT and tell my family that I was trans.

I'm in a similar spot. I've wanted to be a girl since I was born and I'm going to start electrolysis and hormones soon.

>After starting HRT I worked on my voice for months until I sounded completely female. I noticed that the number one thing that determines someone's gender for me is their voice.

This is a big problem for me. I'm told that I have a girly voice, but I can't stand listening to it. I don't think it's passable at all. I'm also planning to get an orchiectomy instead of full SRS. The results from SRS are awful. Until DNA based lab grown vaginas are available, I'm not touching SRS. I'm glad you're so successful. I don't believe I stand a chance of passing, but I'm going to do it anyway.

Do you have advice on how to do voice?


b5888e  No.830

>>827

>I'm also planning to get an orchiectomy instead of full SRS. The results from SRS are awful

Good choice, orchie is definitely the way to go in my opinion.

>Do you have advice on how to do voice?

If you have a voice guide or tutorial practice for at least ten to fifteen minutes per day. Giving your self a break every second day. Like practice for two days then break for a day. That way the muscles will have time to recuperate and won't get damaged. If you practice too long or too much you can hurt your throat and it will be like a week before you can practice again.

If you don't have a voice tutorial, check out the sticky. There's some useful links in there.

Personally I used the method where you start at a falsetto and try to work your way down to a normal octave while maintaining the throat restriction. I watched tutorials by a youtuber named CandiFla but she took her videos down :/ I haven't been able to find as good of a resource yet.


b5888e  No.831

>>827

If you have any more specific questions feel free to ask, I probably have more advice if you ask


b5888e  No.832

>>831

How do you find clothes, especially shoes?


b5888e  No.833

>>832

Clothes are easy, just go to basically any store and look in the women's section. Unless you're about 6'4" it should be easy to find stuff that fits you. Otherwise check out goodwill or the salvation army or value village. When I first started dressing in women's clothes in my day to day life I bought all of my clothes from value village. But afterwards once I had a bit more sense of style I started shopping at actual brand name stores. Oh also if you have a costco membership then costco is a pretty decent place for clothes as well believe it or not.

If you want more specifc advice I kind of need to know your bodytype. Like how big are your shoulders? Are they really wide? What pants size do you wear? How tall are you?

Also for shoes what size foot do you have?

For shoes depending on your foot size you might want to check out online retailers. Like if your foot is around size 10 or smaller (mens size) then you can generally find shoes in store. Even up to 11 sometimes but if its any bigger you'll want to check out buying shoes online. Most large clothing stores and shoe stores also have online stores that you can order from and they generally have more size selection than in store. I like to buy my shoes from forever21 but there's a lot of different stores you can buy from online. Check out sears online store too. For clothes and shoes sears is an alright place.

Just a word of warning though, shoes are normally safe to buy online but clothes sizes vary wildly so its hard to tell exactly what you're getting so you want to go and try stuff on if you can.

Also what shoe size do you have?


b5888e  No.834

>>833

>Unless you're about 6'4" it should be easy to find stuff that fits you

;_;

>If you want more specifc advice I kind of need to know your bodytype. Like how big are your shoulders? Are they really wide? What pants size do you wear? How tall are you?

Height 6'2". Shoe size USA men's 11.

I'm hoping that HRT will shrink me. I've heard that it can lower height and shoe size by a tiny bit, possibly due to the loss of muscle mass. I'm not counting on it changing a lot, but it might help.

Another thing I wonder about is style. The type of style that I would like to have is different from the style that is worn in public. I need something that will help me blend in.


b5888e  No.835

>>834

>Height 6'2". Shoe size USA men's 11

Hey don't worry too much anon, I'm only a bit shorter than you and I find clothes in stores no problem. For some reason length never seems to be a problem and I'm only an inch and a half shorter than you. The shoes will be a bit harder to find as that's a women 's size 13, you might be able to stuff your foot in a size 12 which is a somewhat common size, but you'll probably have a problem with that. Your best bet for shoes is to look online. Search women's size 13 shoe on google and you'll find a lot of different results. It sucks but its convenient at least.

What sort of style would you like to have? If you go to google and find some examples I can maybe give you some suggestions of stuff that will help you blend in but still somewhat match the style you want.

But if all else fails just go with a women's tshirt and women's jeans. Its simple and easy to find and will let you blend in mo problem


b5888e  No.836

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>>834

Also look on the bright side anon, at least you don't have size 16 feet like Peggy

I also know a genetic woman irl that has size 15 1/2 feet and she said internet shopping was the best thing that ever happened to her


b5888e  No.858

>Have you tried increasing your fashion knowledge?

Where do I start?


b5888e  No.861

>>858

I wrote a post but I can't seem to post it


b5888e  No.863

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>>858

>Where do I start?

Starting out is a bit tough but the first thing I really suggest is to learn what all the different types of clothes are called, learn what the different cuts of clothes are called and learn the difference between them (pics related) (also for reference I found these here

https://www.pinterest.com/explore/types-of-dresses/ )

The next thing you need to do is start figuring out what's trendy and what works together what I used to do is I started out reading fashion magazines or alternatively I would also read Cosmo and other women's magazines. I wouldn't recommend it since i got the magazines for free and most people have to buy them so what I'll suggest instead is to start by searching for fashion blogs on pinterest (pinterest is honestly probably the best site for this since you can save stuff you like for easy recall if you have an account)

Basically you need anything that will show you pictures of what women are wearing these days and what's trendy. What you need to do is pay attention to what they're wearing. Make a note of shoes, socks or hoisery. Skirt/pants and blouse/shirt/top as well as any accesories they have on. Basically what you're looking for is to see what style of clothes work together and what colours of clothes work together.

Or even if you feel so inclined go out to the mall and people watch. Try not to look creepy though so maybe sit a coffee shop or the food court so people don't think you're weird but you just need anything to start picking up on what clothes you like and what clothes you don't. If you see something you do like pay extra attention to what you like about it and what caught your eye. Was it the colours? The style? The vibe you get from the outfit? What do you like about the outfit and what do you dislike about it? If you like someone's outfit then write down what they're wearing and copy it. See if it looks good on you! If it does, then great you have a cool new outfit to show off. If not then then make notes of why it doesn't look good on you and why it doesn't. Try out different sizes as well, if something doesn't look good in one size, try a size bigger or smaller. Maybe it will end up looking good, maybe not. You don't know until you see for yourself.

Lastly, try new stuff maybe you see an outift you like that's brightly coloured and you're into dull or dark colors, try it anyway. Maybe you'll find that you actually like brightly colored stuff. Also different styles, I used to wear hoodies and all the time until my friend bought a cowl necked sweater that was too small for her so she gave it to me (she just won half a million dollars so she was throwing money around like it was nothing) now I love them and it got me into turtlenecks too. Basically sometimes you might now consider something until you see it or try it. So try new stuff.

Actual lastly, don't forget about accessories. They're important and make outfits work together! Accessorizing can really make the difference between a plain jane outfit and a stunning one.

That's about all I can think of right now, if you have any questions about fashion or any specific advice just ask


b5888e  No.865

How do you deal with transitioning while having to present in public? I'd much rather go through the awkward phase in private, especially since I'm worried about ever being able to pass. I don't want to quit this job and I still have years before being able to retire, so it seems that I'll have deal with it. That means teaching everyone to treat me differently and figuring out how to use the bathroom. That scares me.

I was on hormones a few years ago. I still have breasts from that time and they've been growing lately. I think this has something to do with me gaining weight. It's a pleasant surprise. It helps me to deal with dysphoria, although I know it's not the real thing. I'm just a boy with gynecomastia. I had sizable breasts when I had to stop. I shudder thinking of what I'm missing out on. I must get on hormones again. There's a wound on my foreskin that keeps hurting me. It's where I put my thumb. It bugs me throughout the day and it's not healing for obvious reasons. I hate that I have to keep doing this. I feel dreadful having to getting up in the am hours just to deal with it and not being able to go back to sleep because I can't stop.

These hormones continue to destroy my body. I know I have to get on HRT as soon as I can. I live alone now, so there's no reason why I shouldn't. Even so, it's hard to imagine how I'm going to deal with it. There will come a time where it will be hard to present as a man. I can bind my breasts, but I don't think there's a way to hide it without raising suspicion. After a few months, it will be dead obvious that something is up. It may even be faster since I've been on HRT before. I'm willing to bet that my breasts will inflate rapidly. I'm also getting electrolysis. While it may seem at first that I like a close shave, it will be noticeable that I never grow facial hair.


b5888e  No.866

Not only is the social aspect a problem, but there is also the financial aspect. I want to save and invest so that I can retire early. Transitioning is a big expense, especially the medical procedures, and it will put a dent in my plan. I don't know how much insurance will cover what I need. There's also things like electrolysis, clothes, and makeup. Possibly legal fees too. That's another bullet I have to bite. What's the third? Family of course. They're not going to be supportive. I already decided to proceed regardless of their approval, yet it will further spoil an already sketchy relationship. I'll be completely alone.

Considering the dysphoria I'm going through, it seems that I'll have to do it no matter what. It's been such a strong feeling ever since I was born. I know that I want to do it, but it's going to cost a lot of tears. Never has there been a time where I have doubted wanting to change gender. There's no way to hide from it.

>>863

Is there a way to contact you outside of the chan?


b5888e  No.867

>>865

>How do you deal with transitioning while having to present in public? I'd much rather go through the awkward phase in private

Well what I did is I kept presenting as male until I was sure I could pass, basically I would dress down and act like a normal guy at work and with my family while learning to pass and taking HRT at home. In my private life I would present female, so like when I would go out with friends or to the store or anywhere else I was female. Then when I was confident enough that I passed consistently I quit my job and changed apartments so my new workplace and landlord would see me only as female.

>I don't want to quit this job and I still have years before being able to retire

Unfortunately I'm not sure how to deal with that. If you can take some time off and come back to work female that might be more ideal. Like I said earlier I changed jobs so I had a fresh start and honestly I would recommend a fresh start. But if you can't do that then probably what I would do is start HRT and take it for as long as possible until its impossible to hide anymore. When it becomes like that, then take as much time off of work as possible and make your name change and start living female 100% of the time. Then inform your boss of your name change and gender change and go back to work.

I say to take as much time off as possible to kind of give a separation between your old self and your new self.

I know its not the best advice but its all I got :/ I say get a new start as a woman if possible, because unfortunately you'll always be known as the trans woman to your old coworkers.

>These hormones continue to destroy my body. I know I have to get on HRT as soon as I can. I live alone now, so there's no reason why I shouldn't. Even so, it's hard to imagine how I'm going to deal with it.

Just get on HRT and don't stress about the future of dealing with it. It's easier to hide the changes than you think and especially if you keep acting and dressing 'manly' then people won't think too much about it. Honestly people consider stuff like that less than you'd expect. They have their own shit to deal with so they won't be analyzing the small changes in your body like you might think. Besides you're right, testosterone is slowly working on your body and the quicker you get on HRT the more passable you will be in the future. So do it ASAP. And then start making plans of how to deal with the social aspects. You'll have at least 6 months to plan so don't worry too much.

>I'm also getting electrolysis. While it may seem at first that I like a close shave, it will be noticeable that I never grow facial hair.

If anyone asks just say you switched from safety razors to a conventional razor (like the ones that use an actual razor blade) hence the closet shave and no one will question it. Something like that is such a small change that its practically unnoticeable to normal people

(Will respond to next post in a bit)


b5888e  No.868

>>866

>Transitioning is a big expense, especially the medical procedures, and it will put a dent in my plan

Well that really depends on what medical procedures you want to get and how much your insurance covers. For example where I am my orchiectomy was entirely covered as it was considered SRS. Hormones are somewhat expensive but not prohibitively so. I haven't had a need for Facial Feminization Surgery and I haven't had a tracheal shave either. So those would definitely add costs but you don't necessarily need those right away. All those can be saved for and you can put money away to get each of those if you so choose.

>electrolysis, clothes, and makeup

The only real expensive one there is electrolysis as clothes and makeup aren't all that expensive unless you shop in boutiques. Even most genetic women don't spend that much on clothes and makeup so I wouldn't stress about that cost too much.

>Family of course. They're not going to be supportive. I already decided to proceed regardless of their approval, yet it will further spoil an already sketchy relationship. I'll be completely alone.

Yeah that's probably the biggest hurdle you'll face. At least it was for me, try making friends and getting a support system separate from them. I was lucky enough to have my boyfriend and a lot of friends support me but my family eventually came around as well.

Maybe once you transition and your family sees that you are serious about it they will slowly come around attempt to have a relationship with you again. I know a lot of people's families end up rejecting them but more often than not families realize that you're still you despite being trans and they will eventually be able to see past that and love you


b5888e  No.869

>>868

Well its probably easiest to contact me here on /mtf/ (plus it helps keep the board alive) but if you want you can contact me you can at removed

But like I said here is probably the best since it keeps the board alive and I check it often

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b5888e  No.871

File: 5d48b952d7c20c9⋯.png (40.97 KB, 113x237, 113:237, azusa_top2.PNG)

File: 838913e9bd05998⋯.png (38.89 KB, 103x243, 103:243, azusa_top3.PNG)

File: 2402901a9099545⋯.png (86.72 KB, 176x356, 44:89, azusa_top.PNG)

OK, so I have a fashion question.

I'd like to know what kind of top Azusa's wearing over her long-sleeved shirt? Is it just a fancy tank top or does it have a specific name? Pics related.


b5888e  No.872

File: 9784fdb3619fb66⋯.jpg (8.31 KB, 300x300, 1:1, img-thing.jpg)

>>871

It's hard to tell whether thats a low square necked slip dress or a low "flowy" tanktop

Honestly I've only seen that type of garment in anime and manga so it might be a japanese thing or it might be the artists drawing somehing like this (thats a slip dress)

Try searching for flowy slip dress it might find you results


b5888e  No.873

File: 0827c5a0db950db⋯.jpg (107.23 KB, 600x900, 2:3, dress_top.jpg)

>>872

Thanks! I had better results with "flowy tank top". It looks too short to be a dress. I think that it's a real garment because the girl in the picture is wearing something like it. Anyway, fashion-wise, how is it seen if a girl wears a shirt with an anime or gaming theme? If you move to another state, can you get the needed surgery to change your gender marker first and then get the in-state licence with the new gender marker?


b5888e  No.874

>>873

>Anyway, fashion-wise, how is it seen if a girl wears a shirt with an anime or gaming theme?

That's nothing outlandish. Who would mind?

>If you move to another state, can you get the needed surgery to change your gender marker first and then get the in-state licence with the new gender marker?

I haven't done it myself, but from what I understand, you need to have your birth certificate changed in the state you were born. This involves submitting proof from a physician that you have completed GRS.

Here's an example for Illinois: http://www.idph.state.il.us/vitalrecords/births/Pages/gender-reassignment.htm


b5888e  No.875

>>873

>I had better results with "flowy tank top"

Yeah I was debating which one it was since there's a bit of overlap between the two.

>Anyway, fashion-wise, how is it seen if a girl wears a shirt with an anime or gaming theme?

I mean you'll probably be seen as a "le gaymer gurl" but I mean if that's what you're going for then good, some guys think it cute

>If you move to another state, can you get the needed surgery to change your gender marker first and then get the in-state licence with the new gender marker?

Like >>874 says you need to get the gender marker changed in the state you were born. The surgery can be done out of state (or even out of country) but you need to get a letter from the SRS surgeon that they performed the operation and you have female genitals now.

Check what the requirements for "SRS" are in your area in some places you can just get an orchiectomy/castration and that's enough to count as SRS. Its handy if you can't afford the entire SRS surgery yet (or don't want it) but you still want to be female in the eyes of the law.

I live in Canada and that was available to me so when I got my balls removed I got my birth certificate changed to female too and the surgery only cost $1500 compared to the $30,000-$50,000 for actual SRS it was a really good deal


b5888e  No.876

This is the year.


b5888e  No.877

>>876

This is the year for what anon? Time to finally transition?


b5888e  No.882

>>877

Yes, now that I have all the means.


b5888e  No.883

>>882

Cool, what's your plan?


b5888e  No.884

>>883

I've been on HRT before so it will be easy to get it again. I'll get electrolysis since I neglected to do it before. It would be nice to take a break from work to transition, but I don't have the means. I'll present as a boy for as long as I can while experimenting with makeup and fashion in my own time. I want to get an orchiectomy but not a vaginoplasty.


b5888e  No.885

>>884

Alright, nice it sounds like you've got it together! Good luck anon!


b5888e  No.886

How long can somebody stay on Spiro? It is true that Aspirin interferes with it?


b5888e  No.888

>>886

Theoretically you can stay on spiro your entire life. The problem is that its really hard on your liver and stomach. If you drink alcohol regularly you should definitely consider stopping because spiro with regular alcohol intake will give you the liver of a 40 year alcoholic.

I've never heard of aspirin interfering with spiro before, at least not with blocking testosterone.

BUT aspirin is considered an NSAID (non steroid anti inflammatory drug) and you shouldn't be taking regular NSAIDs with spiro as it can increase the amount of potassium retention that spiro causes and it may cause too high of potassium which can stop your heart. I'm not a doctor so I'd bring it up with yours if you want to use aspirin for headaches and such. As I'm not sure if intermittent use can cause your potassium levels to go too high. (I was just reading off of my old drug sheet that they gave me when I was prescribed spiro)

Worrying about stuff like that made me hate spiro (plus I couldn't eat very many bananas) which is why I had an orchie as soon as I could


b5888e  No.890

File: 8b6998d953b27c0⋯.jpg (726.13 KB, 2221x1666, 2221:1666, bananas.jpg)

Isn't it possible to build a tolerance for Spiro? This doesn't apply to Estrogen since it bypasses the liver by being dissolved under the tongue, but Spiro is swallowed allowing the liver to adapt to it.

>Worrying about stuff like that made me hate spiro (plus I couldn't eat very many bananas) which is why I had an orchie as soon as I could

The risks of that are exaggerated. It applies to the stereotypical type that transitions as seniors. In other words, hons. Bananas are nothing to be afraid of.


b5888e  No.893

>>890

>Isn't it possible to build a tolerance for Spiro?

I've never heard this before but you may be correct

>The risks of that are exaggerated. It applies to the stereotypical type that transitions as seniors.

My doctor told me to limit my potassium intake as a precaution but you're probably right that it only really applies to seniors.

>In other words, hons. Bananas are nothing to be afraid of.

Well even if they weren't before they certainly aren't now that I have no balls lel


b5888e  No.932

File: 539b35cfc3ca05c⋯.jpg (428.25 KB, 766x1061, 766:1061, Shameimaru.Aya.full.197785….jpg)

Are there contra-indications for Acetaminophen or Ibuprofen with Spiro? I also heard that there are emergency rations that suppress your hunger for several hours; does anybody know what they are called?

P.S., What exactly does a Board Volunteer do?


b5888e  No.933

File: 792cf707d5287df⋯.jpg (17.53 KB, 494x375, 494:375, 1485637758.jpg)

>>932

Taking acetaminophen is fine as it isn't an NSAID but what I said here about aspirin applies to ibuprofin as well because ibuprofin IS an NSAID

>BUT aspirin is considered an NSAID (non steroid anti inflammatory drug) and you shouldn't be taking regular NSAIDs with spiro as it can increase the amount of potassium retention that spiro causes and it may cause too high of potassium which can stop your heart. I'm not a doctor so I'd bring it up with yours if you want to use aspirin for headaches and such

So you're fine with Tylenol but I'd double check with your doctor if you want to take ibuprofin.

>P.S., What exactly does a Board Volunteer do?

Board Volunteers are what 8chan calls the board moderators. They delete offtopic or rulebreaking posts and clean the board up, spoilering porn, banning rulebreakers etc.

The reason 8chan calls them volunteers is due to some legal thing that Hotweels was concerned about in the early days where technically a moderator is an unpaid employee and can be held accountable for what happens on a board. Whereas a volunteer isn't an employee and is just a person helping the site


b5888e  No.943

Today I saw a transgirl on the train today. I wouldn't have noticed it she didn't speak. Her voice gave her away.


b5888e  No.947

>>943

Voice is incredibly important. I'd argue that it's the number one thing which determines whether you pass or not. The sad part is I'm also convinced anyone can train their voice effectively it's simply something a lot of transgirls neglect


b5888e  No.982

File: 2188447a48c386a⋯.jpeg (59.02 KB, 640x656, 40:41, 0626e53af3dc3c35b9da62346….jpeg)

Do you allow memeing?


b5888e  No.983

File: 7ff5cbfdfaf61bd⋯.jpg (42.72 KB, 600x400, 3:2, hrt_scout.jpg)

>>982

It's not on topic so no. I guess posting transgender memes like pic related is fine if you want... if the other mod is fine with that then I am too. Just don't be a bully. But I don't really want off topic stuff and political things such as your picture.

Also keep in mind that this board is meant for discussion... if you just want to post funny pictures then there are better places for that I think.


b5888e  No.985

File: 47a2cf2efb0e647⋯.jpg (270.32 KB, 1280x1135, 256:227, 075.jpg)

>>983

Yeah I don't really care either. Personally I don't care if people post those ancap pictures or whatever if the your actual post is on topic. For example if you're asking a question about clothes or HRT or something and you post some random picture just because then its fine in my opinion. But if you're just posting ylyl type stuff for the sake of ylyl then I'd say try to avoid it.

Also like if you're making a weekly bump then post whatever as the picture and just say weekly bump. But I guess that's up to Rose ultimately those are just my thoughts on it


b5888e  No.987

File: b623f566970de1d⋯.jpg (62.61 KB, 640x500, 32:25, 0a18fc42ab2dcac3a18e1403f5….jpg)

>>985

KKK. I'll try to keep my posts on topic.

What's your favorite color? Do you like to wear clothing in that color?


b5888e  No.988

File: b1367a34a8d6584⋯.jpg (427.35 KB, 2304x1296, 16:9, b1367a34a8d658477770e715e8….jpg)

>>987

Darn, I didn't read

>>983

I guess mee-mees are off the table. How do you feel about pic related?


b5888e  No.994

File: be10c8f15f59b8b⋯.jpg (44.27 KB, 800x600, 4:3, delete button.jpg)

Pic related.


b5888e  No.1004

Has anybody here been harassed when shopping for clothes by other customers? I tried to get clothes twice but I chickened out.


b5888e  No.1005

>>876

I did it. I got back on HRT. It took a while because I had to wait for an appointment. I took my first dose and could feel the effects within a few minutes. Now it's time to get electro, makeup, and clothes. The effects are similar to the first time. My testicles shrank and I lost my erection. I'm also leaking. My breasts feel more sensitive and my mood is unusually different.

What is the easiest way to shave leg hair? This is with hairy legs. Last time I did it with a razor and ended up removing so much skin that I had to bandage my leg.

>>1004

It depends on how narrow minded the place you live in is. You can use the excuse that you are buying for someone else. There's also online.


b5888e  No.1007

I got a question. What does it feel like to undergo HRT? I as a man have certain feelings regarding my sexuality, and I would like to know what effects HRT has on a person's mentality.


b5888e  No.1008

>>1007

Read the board. There's plenty of material here to answer that.


b5888e  No.1010

>What is the easiest way to shave leg hair? This is with hairy legs. Last time I did it with a razor and ended up removing so much skin that I had to bandage my leg.

Maybe you could wax your legs.


b5888e  No.1012

Whoever says HRT doesn't help with voice is wrong. It helps a lot. Today my voice sounded perfect for a brief moment, just like a regular woman. Unfortunately my male voice came back shortly after. If I could hold my voice like that, I would be all set.


b5888e  No.1016

>>1012

Have you been practicing your voice lately? If so the timing might be a coincidence because I've never heard of a trandgirl's voice being changed by HRT. Mine certainly didn't but I did learn to speak with a female voice befoee I got on HRT so its hard for me to tell


b5888e  No.1017

>>1016

I wasn't speaking any differently than I usually do. My voice has definitely changed since starting HRT.


b5888e  No.1018

>>1017

Well that's strange, I've literally never heard of that happening before. Congrats!


b5888e  No.1020

How effective would HRT be if I started at 28 years old?


b5888e  No.1021

>>1020

Its hard to say exactly, it really depends on how masculine/feminine you already are. At 28 you won't see as dramatic of changes as if you started at 20 but it will still have an effect. Its hard to say without knowing what you look like now. Do you still look like a 20 year old or are you looking your age?


b5888e  No.1022

>>1021

I never thought about that, but I don't look all that different than I did when I was 20. I did hear that as you get older, there will be much less breast growth.


b5888e  No.1024

>>1022

Well if you look closer to 20 then HRT should make some decent changes. You're right you won't experience as much breast growth but depending on your genetics you might still get decently sized breasts. Another thing is if you smoke or drink a lot of caffeine. Cut those out both Nictotine and Caffeine inhibit the uptake of estrogen into your body and if you do decide to start HRT now those will be detrimental to transition.

In any case whatever you do make your decision soon. If you wait with HRT much longer it will only be less and less effective


b5888e  No.1028

>>1020

If you can make it that long, do you really need to transition?

>>1024

Caffeine is bad? Does that mean coffee should be avoided?


b5888e  No.1029

>>1028

>Caffeine is bad? Does that mean coffee should be avoided?

Honestly, yes. I don't think having a few cups of coffee a day will affect your transition too much but if you're the type to drink a pot of coffee and a few energy drinks to yourself in a day then you'll probably notice that HRT might not be having the effect you want it to. To be honest I still drink half a pot of coffee a day even though I know I shouldn't but like I said if your HRT isn't working as much as you should then cut down on coffee and see if it makes a difference. If it's working fine then I wouldn't worry too much about it.


b5888e  No.1031

>If you can make it that long, do you really need to transition?

I would have transitioned years ago if I had the money and supportive family. Right now, it just isn't feasible for me to transition because I simply have no money right now.


b5888e  No.1032

I went to the pharmacy for a refill today.

120 Estradiol 2MG tablets $56.69.

60 Spironolactone 100MG tablets $143.99.

I'm posting this because I know some of you were interested in the pricing. Due to insurance, I only had to spend $30. Your dosage will vary. I've had 200MG of Spiro before. After an orchiectomy, antiandrogens would no longer be necessary and the dose of estrogen would be lower.

>>1029

I only drink one cup per day. I guess it's not a big deal.

>>1031

You are hurting yourself by stalling for so long.


b5888e  No.1036

Hey all, the following message was posted on the noticeboard:

# OPSEC Warning — by copypaste at 04/07/17 (Fri) 06:25:37

8chan volunteer database is being leaked by the hacker. The hacker is leaking volunteer names, hashed password, salt, account type, board list, and email addresses. Please take time to ensure you are using a VPN or TOR. It is recommended to change your password and volunteer name.

If you have an 8chan account be sure to change your password.


b5888e  No.1037

File: 132a1d309314594⋯.jpg (88.88 KB, 570x736, 285:368, ea666f7913dd82f7aade85193b….jpg)

Is there a bunker we can use in case something like this happens again? This is the best Trans sites I've seen and it would be sad if this place disappeared forever.


b5888e  No.1038

>>1037

We should really discuss that, unfortunately I only know of endchan that is similar to 8chan but I don't know how accomadating they would be to us. If they're impartial or what


b5888e  No.1039

>>1036

Changed my username and password. My email was public anyways, so no big deal.

>>1038

Endchan would be fine. They wouldn't mind us. There's also 8ch.pl which is based on an older version of 8chan. Don't use Nextchan.


b5888e  No.1040

File: 9e1d100a027380e⋯.png (187.47 KB, 1655x845, 331:169, mtf.png)

This is weird.


b5888e  No.1042

The index and catalog are both 404 but threads still exist. Something strange is happening.


b5888e  No.1043

>>1037

>>1038

>>1039

I think that is a good idea. I search for endchan and I found both https://endchan.xyz/ and https://infinow.net/, it seems they are the same but different url? I will look into it.

>>1040

I have no idea what could cause that, it doesn't look like that for me.

>>1042

Huh you're right I didn't notice because I can see the index and catalog when I'm logged in but not when I use https://8ch.net/mtf/index.html or https://8ch.net/mtf/catalog.html

It is weird because on the other boards I checked it worked fine.


b5888e  No.1044

>>1043

https://endchan.xyz is direct

https://infinow.net is cached

I'm not sure what cached is supposed to mean but that's what it says on the site.

As for the site problems, other boards were having the same issue. There were a lot of complaints about it on >>>/sudo/. It looks fixed now.


b5888e  No.1045

Sometimes I feel like nobody I want to date or marry wants to be with a tranny, And then I deep sigh.


b5888e  No.1046

>>1045

Don't feel too bad! There's lots of guys who are completely fine with it. Sure a lot are also weirded out by it but it's not really that bad, lots of transgirls have boyfriends!


b5888e  No.1047

>>1046

I should add, I know that from experience because I have a boyfriend and he wasn't a "tranny chaser" (if that's the type you're trying to avoid)


b5888e  No.1048

File: 23980193d73eb82⋯.jpg (45.58 KB, 800x450, 16:9, 800px-Homu_holding_a_Hitom….jpg)

>>1046

What if you're into girls?


b5888e  No.1049

>>1048

Well shit anon, I don't know. I'm sure there's lesbians/bi who are into trannies as well. Though the dating pool is probably quite a bit smaller. Like I'd suggest a gay bar but that's an awful scene


b5888e  No.1051

Whenever I look at the mirror, I see a monster.


b5888e  No.1052

>>1051

Just let the hormones do their work (if you're on them) if not get on them soon!

Also learn makeup, makeup can help you look pretty! Remember anon practice practice practice. Transitioning is hard work! Its a whole new skillset to learn if you weren't already a trap beforehand. If you keep at it though you can see a real difference and stop seeing yourself as a monster.

Also depending on how much you weigh/your bmi you might want to lose some weight girls tend to weigh a lot less than guys of the same height so you maybe need to do that too. There's lots of stuff you can do


b5888e  No.1053

What are some good short hairstyles that look feminine?


b5888e  No.1055

File: b45077ef99e01e6⋯.jpg (23.48 KB, 500x333, 500:333, Short-Hairstyle-with-Side-….jpg)

File: 38594bf8c7b3629⋯.jpg (10.64 KB, 236x277, 236:277, c165f7c31a0f6df191502bce54….jpg)

File: f8571fb703392ba⋯.jpg (51.19 KB, 736x806, 368:403, 7dafc596d3c2356f16f52a8548….jpg)

>>1053

I personally think these are pretty I personally used to have the hair in the fourth pic for a bit but not dyed when I cut my hair short after a bunch of it got burned off (lab accident lol).

If you don't like those try an "emo" type style. They're usually quite feminine but its a common enough hairstyle on guys that if you're not presenting female full time then its a good secondary option.


b5888e  No.1056

File: a11d705877baed5⋯.jpg (215.18 KB, 664x1000, 83:125, 5364f71e0976089cdc65da5317….jpg)

Forgot to attach fourth pic


b5888e  No.1057

File: c5d4415106c7848⋯.jpg (23.87 KB, 300x378, 50:63, Japanese-short-hairstyle4.jpg)

Oh! Also if you're a weeb or if you think you have the hair for it Japanese girls have short hair very commonly so search of female japanese short hair

Also here's a pinterest link I found if you want that has a lot of japanese type short styles. They all look really cute I'm sure you can find something nice there!

https://www.pinterest.com/explore/japanese-short-hair/


b5888e  No.1059

OK, anybody else notice this? When I'm at the board, it looks like that recent replies have been deleted, but when I look at the threads themselves, the posts weren't deleted.


b5888e  No.1060

Also, How much do informed consent clinics charge?


b5888e  No.1061

>>1059

That's weird I get the opposite problem, on the main page I'll see the new replies but when I go into the thread itself I can no longer see the new replies. Its weird.

(Also I have no idea how much informed consent clinics cost hopefully someone can answer your question)


b5888e  No.1062

>>1059

8chan is broken. The maintainers are incompetent. It's been over a month since the hack and several features like board creation are still missing. Many features didn't even work before the hack. The software will continue to be a problem. The maintainers are incapable of fixing the site. I hope that someday we'll have a better alternative.

>>1060

With my insurance, 20 dollars per visit. 3 months of hormones was 58 dollars. Insurance is a big deal. They may give you a sliding scale but you still want insurance. Paying out of pocket will be expensive.


b5888e  No.1063

>>1062

>The maintainers are incompetent

I mean Hotwheels really wasn't the best web dev, I liked him more than the current admins but he wasn't the best at maintaining the sit. I don't know how long you've been here but the site has been much better since Codemonkey took over the web development part. Also there was the whole infinity next debacle. I honestly don't know if a better site will come along considering 8ch.pl and endchan aren't the best maintained either.

>With my insurance, 20 dollars per visit. 3 months of hormones was 58 dollars.

Wow I feel bad for you americans. That isn't expensive but I didn't have to pay anything for my doctors visit although my hormones are around $200 for 3 months because I don't have insurance


b5888e  No.1064

>>1063

I've been here since the migration. Both Hotwheels and Codemonkey are incompetent. 8ch.pl runs on an old version of Infinity giving it the same problems. Endchan has its own codebase(Lynxchan) but it doesn't look to be done well. We need another software. Something done from scratch by a competent developer.

>Wow I feel bad for you americans. That isn't expensive but I didn't have to pay anything for my doctors visit although my hormones are around $200 for 3 months because I don't have insurance

Your smugness is in vain. We pay about the same in the long run. Pills are cheaper for me but I have to pay for insurance. Your doctors' visits are not free, you pay for them through your taxes.


b5888e  No.1065

>>1064

It wasn't really smugness, I just felt bad for people without insurance. If you have insurance then who cares you're covered. Most people here have insurance as well since pills, glasses and dental still come out of pocket and those things are expensive. I have my university insurance but it only covers a percentage of those things so getting a tooth fixed still costs like $600 and a new pair of glasses is $150. So I didn't mean to sound smug since we have problems as well


b5888e  No.1066

Did any of you notice soreness in your lower back after starting HRT? I've been having problems with it. Tasks that involve leaning are harder and I have to take breaks while doing them. Washing the dishes is an example. Even sitting in front of the computer makes me sore if it's late in the day.


b5888e  No.1067

>>1066

I never got it, but I did some googling and a bunch of people are claiming HRT causes anterior pelvic tilt, where your back goes in and your ass goes out. I already kind of had that posture but look in the mirror sideways and see if your back is very arched when you try to stand normally. If so that's the cause of your pain probably


b5888e  No.1068

File: e74321ccbe28fd6⋯.png (208.71 KB, 1024x1024, 1:1, __kaname_madoka_divine_gat….png)

Has anybody here ever tried Zettai Ryouiki?


b5888e  No.1069

>>1068

I haven't worn girl clothes since I was 6. I'm pathetic.


b5888e  No.1070

>>1068

I'm not that big of a weeb what does that even mean?

>>1069

Never too late to start anon, especially if you're here


b5888e  No.1071

>>1070

>I'm not that big of a weeb what does that even mean?

"Absolute region". The region between a skirt and high socks.


b5888e  No.1072

>>1071

Like so has anyone ever tried showing off that part before? I have, at the very start of my transition my skin softened up a lot of I became obsessed with thigh highs and skirts and would wear them constantly. So I always had a few onches showing


b5888e  No.1073

>>1072

Inches* of skin


b5888e  No.1074

>>1071

But yeah its fun! If you're considering it, make sure your thighs are nice and soft with a body butter and try it! The feeling of a breeze on your thighs is actually really nice. And if you aren't confident enough to go out in public just do it in your own house and you'll get used to it!


b5888e  No.1075

>>1074

Haha body butter what a word. It seems something like vaseline or labello but for your whole body or am I mistaken? Is it only hydrating or does it also give you a good skin (I have bad skin on my thighs some sort of red spots).


b5888e  No.1076

>>1075

>Is it only hydrating or does it also give you a good skin (I have bad skin on my thighs some sort of red spots).

Body butter is a heavy lotion/cream for hydrating your skin. What sort of red spots do you have? A lot of times red spots are caused by dry skin and hydrating your skin fixes them.


b5888e  No.1077

>>1076

Alternatively maybe if you describe them I can suggest something to help so you can wear cute thigh highs too!


b5888e  No.1078

>>1076

>>1077

Thanks for your answer. I read a bit about body butter. So it is a cream that is usually made of sheabutter or cocoabutter right? And it is good for dry skin. I think I have something called body cream shea butter or something like that, I'll try it out. Do you know if there is anything you should know about applying it? I could not find anything about that. Like can I put it on and then just wear clothes over it, is it better to do it right after showering or better not to do that?

About my skin. Around the places where you grow hair, like where you also get goosebumps, there the "bumps" are red/pink and also a bit swollen (the skin should be flat unless you have goosebumps but now it is not flat (but also not as bumpy as goosebumps)). I did some vaseline on it yesterday and it might have helped but I don't know, it's hard to tell. If it is not clear to you what I mean I can take a picture.


b5888e  No.1079

>>1078

With bodybutter you can put it on anytime, but you won't want to wear clothes over it until it soaks into your skin as it will get your clothes greasy and soak into your clothes (think putting gloves on right after applying a hand cream) when you apply just don't wear pants for 10-15 minutes.

I always apply it right after a shower though, its because my skin gets dry from the water and body butter hydrates it again. So personally I suggest using it right after a shower. Though you definitely can put it on anytime.

With these bumps have you shaved or done any hair removal recently? It sounds like what happens to me after waxing or epilating sometimes. If you want to take a picture that would be great actually.

Also when taking a picture remember to open it up on your computer and take a screenshot or use the snipping tool to take a screenshot and upload the screenshot of it to easily scrub exif data!


05526c  No.1080

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>>1079

Thanks for the answer that helps!

I don't shave there because I thought that would make the skin worse. I took pictures hope they are good. My upper and lower legs are fat but the knees and feet and rest of my body are not it's weird. Also thank you for

>remember to open it up on your computer and take a screenshot or use the snipping tool to take a screenshot and upload the screenshot of it to easily scrub exif data!

I would not have thought of exif data otherwise.


0b19f2  No.1081

>>1080

Ahh that, I've had that before as well. As far as I coukd find it's called keratosis pilaris and the best advice I could find was to:

1)exfoliate daily

2)moisturize a lot more

3)apply coconut oil to it daily

It should clear up after a couple weeks as it takes time to go away. I no longer use the coconut oil daily but I still use it 2-3 times a week and it's never come back. I don't know if its because I'm on HRT now or not but I honestly don't want to stop to try.

Alternatively if that isn't working out for you try Retin-a which is almost a miracle cure for nearly anything skin related. The problem is that it requires a prescription. Normally you can just go to the doctor and request some but some doctors noght not give it to you.

I got it in high school for acne and used it on anything skin related and it cleared up everything. And I've read that it works on keratosis pilarisas well. So you could try that as a last resort if the exfoliate, moisturize, coconut oil routine doesn't work.

The big thing is to give it a couple weeks for real because it doesn't clear up fast for whatever reason. But yeah that's about everything I can offer.

>I would not have thought of exif data otherwise.

Can never be too careful on 8chan, people mostly forget this board exists but occasionally a few remember and show up to talk shit and who knows what they would do if they were able to find anything personal out


d38060  No.1082

>>1057

The problem I have is that my hair is so curly that my hair either has to be short than that or long. Otherwise, everyday is a bad hair day.


0b19f2  No.1083

>>1082

You could try straightening it. It takes some effort and isn't great for your your hair but it's definitely an option


05526c  No.1084

>>1081

Thank you I'm happy to hear that it can be done like that! Thanks a lot for the explanation.


0b19f2  No.1085

>>1084

No problem. You're lucky that its very mild, some people get it literally all over their legs and it looks like a big rash that doesn't go away


5f2fc1  No.1086

How's everybody's week been? I think that the RPG thread should be unstickied because it's slower than I thought it would be.


0b19f2  No.1087

File: 1ba0b69e6c2e52d⋯.jpg (20.29 KB, 511x341, 511:341, 1466142971335.jpg)

>>1086

I've been doing okay I guess, I gained 15 pounds over finals by being a fat piece of shit and spiraled myself into a minor slump. Trying to get out of it now and lose that weight again. So hopefully it works out.

>I think that the RPG thread should be unstickied because it's slower than I thought it would be.

You mean un bumplocked? I could unlock it and maybe give it some life again. That April 1st outtage really killed it


8d1c47  No.1089

I remember the fowl taste of Spiro if it wasn't swallowed fast enough. The type I have now tastes like mint. It's not a problem if I can't swallow fast enough. I remember I used to fear not being able to swallow it down on the first time. If I didn't get it in 1-2 tries, the taste was insufferable.


05526c  No.1090

>>1087

I must admit I totally forgot about that thread after 8chan went down.


0b19f2  No.1091

>>1090

Yeah it only had 2 players and the gm anyway. I thought it was a good idea to inject some life into the board but whatever. Maybe it will pick up again who knows.

>>1089

I know what you mean. I'm glad I got my balls snipped, I hated spiro. Also I just seitched to injections of E. It's weird whenever i take my injections I always feel really fuzzy and my emotions run wild and I get really horny for some reason. I certainly do not like that aspect of it. Pills were a lot more stable but I wanted to see how needles were as its not as hard on your liver


8d1c47  No.1092

I'm having regrets. I'm so sad. I don't feel like this is making me happy. If I quit, it's probably going to be even worse. I might be relieved for a while but I know the dysphoria will come back and tear me up. Speaking of dysphoria, can I ever cure it? I'm never going to be happy with my body image. I like the feeling that I have on HRT. I know I'm more closely aligned to it than what I was born with. I just don't think I'm going to have what I seek.


0b19f2  No.1093

>>1092

>I'm having regrets. I'm so sad. I don't feel like this is making me happy.

Honestly anon, for a lot of transgirls transitioning won't make them happy on it's own. They have a lot of separate problems aside from the dysphoria. Dysphoria and being trans is probably only one of the things making you depressed, and it might be only one of the things you need to fix to make yourself happy/get out of depression.

You say that you know you'll feel worse if you stop HRT then that means that HRT and transitioning is helping a little bit.

What else makes you sad/depressed? We can talk about it if you want anon. I'm here for you any time if you want to discuss it.

>Speaking of dysphoria, can I ever cure it? I'm never going to be happy with my body image.

Even for transgirls who have succesfully transitioned, dysphoria comes and goes. Transitioning isn't an end all be all. It helps yes and goes a long way to making you feel comfortable in your own skin but it's not perfect. You still might feel dysphoric occasionally. The key is to focus on the things that alleviate your dysphoria. Do you enjoy your breasts? Your soft skin? Your more feminine feature? Focus on the positives that transitioning has brought you and remember that there's always more you can do to make yourself pass better and feel more feminine. Engage yourself in those things and it will pay off. You'll finally be able to deal with this one big problem so you can work on your smaller problems.

But yeah anon, please talk if you want to. I really want you to be happy no matter what you do. Maybe we can help you figure out some of your problems and work out ways to make you happy


0ebe63  No.1094

>>1089

What brand of Spiro did you get?


8d1c47  No.1095

>>1093

It's not long before my changes become impossible to hide. The signs are already there, especially my voice. Getting electro while working full time is going to be difficult. I'm also going to need surgery. I don't have much experience with that and I don't know how much it costs. With the research I've done so far, it looks expensive. I'm starving for cash. I want to be able to quit my job and live on dividends but it will take at least 5 years before this is possible. That's without counting major expenses. There's also the issue that I'll need to keep my health insurance once I'm out. It's ~150 per month which is insanely expensive. Even while on HRT, it's more expensive that than what I'm saving. At one point it's going to be just estrogen and a yearly checkup which makes me think that insurance isn't going to be worth it. I'd love to be able to deal with transitioning once I'm retired but that won't be for a long time. I'll probably need to get both electro and surgery while still working. It would be a good idea to be insured for the surgery. It's going to be painful. I've been putting it off.

There's a nagging voice in the back of my head that tells me what I'm doing is wrong. All of my friends are male. Most of my hobbies are still masculine. This has never prevented dysphoria. I enjoy doing certain masculine things but I can't stand being male. It doesn't make sense. I don't know if it has so much to do with lifestyle rather than physiology. I like the mood, look, calmness, and self control. Can it be that I'm projecting something that I would want from a woman onto myself? Is this the result of loneliness? In the limited time I've spent around women, I've had a higher urge to act masculine around them. I don't know why. Maybe it feels awkward to try to emulate them. Maybe since I'm still presenting as a man, it feels like the right thing to do. Do I have an unrealistic view of women? I've never spent much time around them, especially ones my age.

There's also a feeling that is extremely confusing to me. This seems ridiculous but I sometimes think about having a family. I keep telling myself that it's impossible because the world isn't worth bringing kids into and I'll never be able to find a wife or afford it. It seems completely unreasonable to even think about. Maybe even selfish. I'm going along with the plan that I'll never do it, which is by far the most likely. I appreciate family. I feel like I have a lot of love to give but there's nobody to recieve it. I think it would be cool to find someone I really like and settle down with them. It seems crazy, especially with how unpopular that is nowadays both in general and in the chans, but it's often on my mind. None of this would be a problem if I was born female. I wouldn't have any awkward medical expenses and I wouldn't be excluded from making a family. I would never have to question myself or feel that the way I live is broken or unnatural.

My dysphoria is real. I know this to be true. It's been a strong feeling that I've known my whole life. Even if I fully go through with transition, I won't completely turn me into a woman. I'll always have that side of me. This is what I meant when I said I don't think I'm going to have what I seek. Is it foolish to think so strongly about gender roles? Will these things change once I'm further along into HRT? Is it worth worrying about something that I'll probably never be able to attain? Even if it's something I wouldn't do, it's nice to have a choice.

At the ICC I visited, there were a lot of unruly looking people. They played rap in the lobby. They talked in ghetto. They wore refugees welcome and BLM badges. They were loud and annoying. I don't believe in that. I want rapefugees out and niggers sent half way back to Africa. That's why I'm on 8chan. I feel like the vast majority of people that are MtF have no business transitioning. There's so many sexual deviants. It makes me feel like I'm in the wrong club. The last time I stopped HRT I felt alright for a short while but the dysphoria came back. It seems that whatever I do, I can't escape. It's a bad situation.

>>1094

It looks like Amneal. I don't think it's the brand since the old one is the same. I think it's something the pharmacy did. I read that it's possible to request that they coat it with a flavor. Maybe they coated it in mint. I'd have to ask.


234269  No.1096

Test


9f3bfe  No.1097

>>1095

i mean sexual deviancy isn't exactly uncommon among transgirls, especially ones you're meeting on chans

even when you're not outright perverted in one way or another a lot of transgirls (myself included, rip) are damaged goods and romanticize abuse

before hrt i was super /pol/ and aligned with my gender roles (i'd adopted like, a really stereotypical view of masculinity while repressing), but transitioning helped me stop giving a shit about gender roles, and made me more centrist.

also wiped away my interest in men, oddly enough.


234269  No.1098

>>1097

>a lot of transgirls (myself included, rip) are damaged goods and romanticize abuse

Lel before I met my boyfriend that's how I was, extremely sexually deviant and abuse was a fetish of mine. But I've calmed down a lot now and want to be treated nicely and I now wish I could get pregnant and be a proper mother and wife. Oh well.

>also wiped away my interest in men, oddly enough.

Weird and you liked men before? Hrt only increased my attraction to men.

>>1095

>With the research I've done so far, it looks expensive.

Yeah its pretty expensive anon, you'll honestly probably need another entire year of working to be able to afford everything.

>There's a nagging voice in the back of my head that tells me what I'm doing is wrong.

That's a legitimate concern anon. I really don't know what to tell you. But do you think if you continue to transition you'll be happier and more content with yourself and body? Really think about it. All of your friends are men and your hobbies are masculine, do you think that's just a holdover from presenting as male? Do you think you'd like having female friends and feminine hobbies? If not being a Tomboy is fine and there's a lot women who are like that.

But I guess I should say it, don't transition if you think its not for you. Don't force yourself to fit into this if it's not the right fit. These are serious changes and it's a lot of money. Its a huge commitment and will change your life for the better or worse. I really don't want to put doubt in your mind about transitioning if that's what you want to do. That happened to me and messed me up inside. So please some doubts and some worries about transitioning are fine. Its normal to be apprehensive! Its a big change, just don't worry too much about the small things, if you're happy with the changes in your body then please keep doing it!

>This seems ridiculous but I sometimes think about having a family

What's ridiculous about that anon? I want a family too. Despite what you say the world is a pretty nice place. It seems crazy because of the over exposure to news all around the world but look around where you live. Is it really all that bad? Having a family is possible, you can freeze some sperm and save it for if you meet someone to marry and settle down with. Stop being so hopeless that you'll never find a wife. Its certainly possible and I've read about a lot of transgirls who do just that.

>None of this would be a problem if I was born female. I wouldn't have any awkward medical expenses and I wouldn't be excluded from making a family. I would never have to question myself or feel that the way I live is broken or unnatural.

Yeah it really sucks. Basically every transgirl thinks and feels that way. Its an awful feeling and its annoying as fuck. The hope is that in a few years you won't feel so awkward anymore. Transitioning is an attempt to fix a mistake of birth. Its not perfect its the closest we got right now.

>Will these things change once I'm further along into HRT?

Maybe, it varies for everyone. The desire to be more and more feminine increased as I was on HRT. I used to be content with being a bit of a tomboy but for whatever reason I just fell into being more feminine as I progressed.

>That whole last paragraph.

Yeah anon there's a lot of deviants and crazy liberals who transition, I don't know if that's because they've been indoctrinated into hating being a white male and want to play oppresion olympics too. Or because they believe that because they're trans and experience dysphoria that they have to buy into the rest of the liberal ideology. I believe the incidence of dysphoria is very low and I think a lot of people latching onto the trans label like some sort of fashion statement or fad. You need to ignore these people. It doesn't change what you feel and who you are. They're degenerates, there's degenerates everywhere. Being trans isn't a club and you didn't join it your were forced into it by dysphoria. It isn't your fault that these people came along and decided that your serious medical condition is their fashion statement of the month


9f3bfe  No.1099

>>1098

i was more into men than the other way around beforehand, and now men just make me uncomfortable

like sometimes i think it might be nice to be fugged by one but then i think about boys and i'm like ew no

i've met a few other transgirls who are similar, but, yeah, the other way around seems more common

guess god just wants me gay.


234269  No.1100

>>1099

That's weird lol. I was only ever into men and then HRT made me even more into them and I developed a fetish for breeding and started wishing I could be inpregnated. Those hentai doujins where the girls are like "make me pregnant!" Never used to do anything for me and now I totally get it and fantasize about it constantly when I'm getting fugged lel. Its weird how HRT affects different people


9f3bfe  No.1101

>>1100

i was into the idea of being a stereotypical housewife but now i'm like, ew, no, and even talking to guys makes me uncomfortable a lot of the time

have you noticed any changes with how you get aroused? i switched to cypro a month or so ago and i've noticed my arousal is like, 100% emotion dependent, like physical imagery does almost nothing for me

and if i'm not in the mood when i do maintenance i get a 'bad trip' and can get really depressed, but when i am i can feel fluttery for like an hour afterwards


8d1c47  No.1102

>>1097

>i mean sexual deviancy isn't exactly uncommon among transgirls, especially ones you're meeting on chans

That's putting doubt in my mind. If sexual deviancy is so prevalent, how can I be doing the right thing? I reject that kind of behavior.

>>1098

>I now wish I could get pregnant and be a proper mother and wife

I want to be a mommy.

>Yeah its pretty expensive anon, you'll honestly probably need another entire year of working to be able to afford everything.

That's terrible. My job makes me want to kill myself. I can't stand it.

I do believe it will make me happier which is why I'm still doing even though it's hard. It's likely that a lot of my behaviors are holdovers. I couldn't help but be under the influence of testosterone which manipulated my behavior for a long time. I would like to have women to learn from but I don't know any. It would be great to do feminine hobbies but I hardly have time to do any at all. The family issue is the biggest thing I'm apprehensive about. At first I didn't think I would ever do such a thing so it wasn't worth thinking about. Now it's different and I feel like I want to. That puts me in a predicament. The reason that it's so ridiculous is that I vehemently didn't want a family throughout my whole life. I've only started to get these feelings now. I think HRT may be what caused them. There are some awful things in this world. I'm rather traumatized. It's not worth going into detail but it makes me nervous. I don't want my kids to have the same kind of problems as I did. As depressed as I am now, this is still the best time of my life. Freezing sperm is expensive, especially in the long term. I've already been on HRT for 4 months. I don't know if I could make enough sperm and for it to be effective. Would it really be good for a kid to have a trans parent? They would be inheriting a problem.


9f3bfe  No.1104

>>1102

depressed, broken people typically don't do well with other people and never get into the social life meme


234269  No.1105

>>1102

>That's putting doubt in my mind. If sexual deviancy is so prevalent, how can I be doing the right thing? I reject that kind of behavior.

Don't let it put doubt in your mind just because those people are deviants it doesn't make you one by association. I suspect a lot of transgirls are sexual deviants because they are transitioning as part of some fetish and not actual dysphoria. Alternatively they dealt with their dysphoria by assuming a submissive sexual role. I know a lot of the times I feel the most feminine is during sex woth my bf so maybe they make sex their identity to chase that feeling? I don't know but the point os their behaviour has no bearing on you.

Also most transgirls you meet on imageboards probably were traps at one point or another and traps do it for the sexual thrill. Besides most imageboard users are degenerate or outcasts in one way or another.

>I want to be a mommy.

Me too anon I want to get married to a nice guy and have him get me pregnant and be the best mom to my kids I could be and make them and my husband happy it's sick fetish I know.

>I would like to have women to learn from but I don't know any

Why don't you try meeting some? If you have gut friends I'm sure you must know or have contact with a couple girls at least? Maybe try to get closer to any girls you do know. Its really nice having girls to hang out with and talk to and stuff. In fact I think its almost essential to transitioning properly as you'll naturally pick up feminine mannerisms and speech patterns from them.

>Would it really be good for a kid to have a trans parent? They would be inheriting a problem.

Honestly I have no clue anon. Dysphoria could possibly be due to external facts during pregnancy or early childhood. It might not neccesarily be heriditary. As for your other concerns about raising a child in this world. Since you've been traumatised and don't want your kid to go through the same stuff then you can be the person to make sure your child always feels loved and cared about and won't feel the things you did. Having a child and raising them right is probably the best thing you can do to influence the future if you're at all concerned about it. I'm sure you'd be a great mommy anon, you seem like you'd be attentive and have the outlook not to turn your kid into a piece of shit.

>>1104

Being around other people is also the best way to fix being a depressed broken person. Being alone with yourself can make your own thoughts and insecurities spiral out of control


9f3bfe  No.1106

>>1105

Kind of hard when you're a self-hating tranny who hates human interaction. I dunno.


234269  No.1107

>>1106

But a lot of the self hatred can go away with more human interaction anon. You stop focusing om yourself so much when you're involved with other people. Besides most of us trannys hate ourselves at one point or another but you can't let that cripple you entirely


234269  No.1108

Weird on the main page you can't see the last 5+ posts


8d1c47  No.1109

I went outside for a walk because it's a beautiful day and I wanted to feel the sun. I noticed that my breasts were showing through my shirt. It made me want to go home. I need more layers but it's pretty warm.

>>1105

>Why don't you try meeting some?

I have no idea how to meet women. 8chan is my only form of human contact outside of family.

>I'm sure you'd be a great mommy anon, you seem like you'd be attentive and have the outlook not to turn your kid into a piece of shit.

I'm sure it would have been great if I didn't lose the coin toss.


234269  No.1110

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>>1109

>It made me want to go home. I need more layers but it's pretty warm.

Lmao awe anon, you should want to show off your new breasts! Don't be ashamed of them. Flaunt those titties


8d1c47  No.1111

>>1110

Please. I'd rather wait until I'm presenting.


234269  No.1112

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>>1111

Why don't you start presenting in anonymous public anon? You can gauge how many people call you ma'am or miss and it will be easier to tell when to stary presenting 100% of the time


8d1c47  No.1113

>>1112

No girl clothes, no makeup, no electro, still not that far in with hormones, plus I would be afraid for my safety. I need to start indoor presenting before I feel confident in going outside.


234269  No.1114

>>1113

Get some androgynous clothes like girl shirts and skinny jeans. Also electro isn't neccesary if you shave well and go out. Also what sort of place do you live? If anything people will just assume you're a bit of a fag so safety probably isn't a hige concern


8d1c47  No.1116

>>1114

A relatively peaceful part of a big city. I don't think anything will happen but you never know. I have no clue how to shave to make it look like I have no facial hair. There's always at least some sort of shadow. Also, I really hate skinny jeans. I just can't stand them. At that point, I'd rather wear a skirt.


9f3bfe  No.1117

>tfw accidentally end up having two gfs

>tfw have lost like 13-15 lb in the last ~1.5 months

>tfw notable boob growth

life would be pretty good if i wasn't still depressed as fuck


234269  No.1118

>>1116

>I have no clue how to shave to make it look like I have no facial hair.

Some girls need to use like foundation to cover it up entirely. Maybe try shaving as close as possible then using foundation to cover it completely. But I guess that goes into the whole "no makeup yet" thing. Also do you like normal jeans? A normal women's cut jean is usually quite feminine as well.

>>1117

Congrats on the weight loss anon! I gained that amount over finals and I still have lost it :/

>2 gfs

How does that happen?

Also am I the only non lesbo here? Lol I feel like I'm the only one who likes guys


9f3bfe  No.1119

>>1118

i'm already really skinny but trying to get to bone mode so i can put on girl fat and hopefully be presentable by ~9 months

i wasn't like, planning on it to turn out that way, but like, there's this one girl i really look up to and who i based all my motivation on being a thing with, and got like really emotionally dependent on, and was planning to mono her

but then things got fixed up with this other girl who i'd been really close with but had cut things off with because she was extremely paranoid and it was really irritating

so i was like

shit i've got two gfs :V


234269  No.1120

>>1119

>but trying to get to bone mode so i can put on girl fat and hopefully be presentable by ~9 months

Thats a good plan. I think a lot of transgirls don't realize how important that is, your fat doesn't just magically move around. So good on you!

But yeah you should really let one of those girls go! Its mean to them!


9f3bfe  No.1121

>>1120

i'm kind of fucked for food for the next few weeks so it's not like i could quit if i wanted to

probably be my target weight by then anyway

it's not like i'm cheating on them, they both know about the other

and one of them is like... outgoingly poly herself


234269  No.1122

>>1121

Lol poly, I don't know how people can do that. I can't help hut think you can't be as emotionally invested in someone if you have multiple partners. But I guess toneach's own. What are you going to do about two gfs anyway? Just have them both?


9f3bfe  No.1123

>>1122

yeah, that's the idea i guess

the one girl is my kinda dom who i look up to for emotional support and caters to my insecurity and the other is much subbier and draws out my protective urges

they're two very different types of relationships


234269  No.1124

>>1123

That's bizzare lol. You're a degenerate anon but congrats anyway


9f3bfe  No.1125

>>1124

it's fun to have people i can justify slutposting to :>


234269  No.1126

>>1125

That's fair, I used to slutpost all the time when I was single. Of course I hd a lot of stories to tell


9f3bfe  No.1127

>>1126

i used to slutpost pre-hrt but i hate people i'm not close with seeing anything of me

like it actively disgusts me


234269  No.1128

>>1127

Like I never took pictures or anything I just used to brag and blogpost about sexual escapades. This was like pre-hrt and early hrt. Now I don't know if it's the HRT or if it's the fact that i grew up a bit but now I feel the same way and feel very disgusted if even strangers know that about me


bbd698  No.1129

Okay so I don't think there's a thread for this but I've been feeling a lot of woes when it comes to dating.

Like, theres a lot of cute people on the local area sites that would be the most open to date an MtF like me but a whole lot of them appear to be into this intersectional feminist/SJW/Identity Politics stuff and I'm worried they'd tell me I was a bad person for not toeing their party line nd using sites with a bunch of wrongthink on them, I'd rather not deal with this shit.

On top of this there's the fact a majority of straight men and lesbians wouldn't want me, and I respect that they like certain things sexually.

I feel like I have absolutely nobody that can love me the way I am. Nobody.


234269  No.1130

File: 2a5acd8305a4db6⋯.png (75.89 KB, 322x218, 161:109, Chen35.png)

>>1129

>a whole lot of them appear to be into this intersectional feminist/SJW/Identity Politics stuff and I'm worried they'd tell me I was a bad person for not toeing their party line

Well I mean anon you can try to talk to them. If its on a site there's no harm in sending them a message and seeing what they're like. Who knows maybe a few of them just look like SJWs but aren't actually SJWs. In any case it's worth a shot to see. Like I'm sure there's someone out there for you, look at >>1119 she's got 2 gfs if she can get two I'm sure you can get 1 gf or a bf. Also contrary to what you say there's more straight guys that would date a trans girl than you think


bbd698  No.1131

>>1130

It is on a site yes, and it's not even like all the SJW are bad people, but there's all that peer pressure in that scene even if I wind up liking one or more of them they'd just get dogpiled too. Lot of shit I'd prefer not to get involved with directly.

Not gonna comment on 1119 because her situation is different from mine.

I'm closeted IRL there's no straight guy that's going to be into this mess yet. I look like a twink at best.


234269  No.1132

>>1131

>it's not even like all the SJW are bad people

Maybe some are okay, every one I've encountered irl has been a horrible narcissist. But yeah you want to stay away from that ideology and those types. You're right when you say they'd dogpile you for stepping out of line. Probably even finding out your browse 8chins would get you dogpiled one.

>I'm closeted IRL there's no straight guy that's going to be into this mess yet. I look like a twink at best.

Key word is yet just wait a bit longer for the hormones to do their magic and maybe style your hair into something a bit more feminine without going all out since you're still closeted. Little things can really make all the difference anon. Or alternatively you can try chatting people and maybe you'll find someone who would be willing to be with you while you transition. But if not don't lose hope to ever find someone because you're still early on in your transition. Even if there's no one out there for your at the moment doesn't mean that a few months down the road when you're even more of a girl, that there will be no one. In fact I'm sure you're going to find your dating options explode soon


8d1c47  No.1133

Over the past few days my voice has been feminine. It comes and goes. I wonder what causes it and how to keep it. Today I was on the phone. The other person had a bad signal and was breaking up. I had to repeat a phrase I was trying to say a few times. I raised my voice and it broke. It was so girly. It was kind of embarrassing but I was happy to hear it. The hormones are working because I could never pull that off pre HRT and I'm hardly trying now. It's hard to imagine that people say hormones don't affect voice.


234269  No.1134

>>1133

I don't know anon, are you sure its not just because of practice? I've never heard of HRT helping your voice. But I mean if its working yay!


8d1c47  No.1136

Today I saw a totally nonpassing MtF. It stole my attention like a car accident. I couldn't help but look. It makes me all the more nervous about my own transition.

>>1134

It's definitely the hormones. I noticed from the second I started taking them.


234269  No.1137

>>1136

Yeah those non passable mtf are weird. Especially when it looks like they don't even try to pass. It certainly makes me feel nervous and weird too. Like what if I'm having a bad day, will I look like that? I think I pass 100% but do I really? But yeah I hate those types.

>It's definitely the hormones.

Alright anon if you say so. Its just super rare I guess so you must be lucky lol


153ff0  No.1138

How well does waxing facial hair work? Is there any way I could do that at home or should I go to a professional?


234269  No.1139

>>1138

How sensitive is the skin on your face? Can you dry shave without having to worry about razorburn or do you have to be careful? Also how thick and how much facial hair do you have?

Facial waxing is viable for some and completely out of the question for others


6c9bf5  No.1140

>>1139

>How sensitive is the skin on your face? Can you dry shave without having to worry about razorburn or do you have to be careful?

I don't shave without cream and whenever I try shaving without it, it isn't very successful.

>Also how thick and how much facial hair do you have?

I'd say that its kind of thick.


234269  No.1141

>>1140

Then I'd say you'll probably run into problems with facial waxing. It might irritate the shit out of your facial skin and make it look like a massive case of razor burn. But it might not be the case at all. If you really want to try I suggest trying it out on a small patch of skin on your face and seeing how it works. Who knows it might end up being okay. Some people don't react well to shaving but are fine with waxing


234269  No.1142

So what are all you American girls doing for July 4th?

On Canada day I baked with my mom all day and them watched the fireworks with my friends and went night swmming in the lake. I hadn't been swimming in years and bought a skirt type bikini bottom online to hide my dick last year and I was super nervous that someone would notice if they looked up my skirt its not actually a skirt its like a skirt sewn overtop of a normal bikini, you see them in animes a lot so I never used it but I finally got the courage to do it because it was night time. And it all turned out okay and it was really fun! I missed swimming, I used to go to the beach all the time but not anymore so it was refreshing!


8d1c47  No.1143

>>1142

I love swimming but I haven't done it in years because of my transition. I'm glad you got to enjoy it.

I stayed home. My family begged me to join them at the beach but I know it would end in violence. After last Christmas, I'm never spending a holiday with my family again. I love fireworks but I didn't get any this year. I only had a single one that I kept from last year. I decided to launch it since I've had it for so long.

I feel like my breasts get bigger everyday. I have to relearn the dynamics of how I place my body. I can't sleep on my stomach anymore. I'm sleeping on my back now. Putting my hand on my chin with my elbow on the desk while leaning forward doesn't work the same way. I have to be in a different position otherwise my breast touches my arm. Doing anything directly with my arms directly in front of me is harder. I have to keep them further apart. It's pretty neato. I feel my breasts all the time and these things are coming up more often. I'm constantly reminded that I'm turning into a girl which is a nice feeling. I don't like having a flat chest.


234269  No.1144

>>1143

Awe that's too bad anon, hopefully get the opportunity to go swimming when you've transitioned more! But its great to hear about your breasts!! I distinctly remember when they kept bouncing around weirdly when I was tryning to do stuff and coming to the realization that "oh wow I actually need to buy a bra" it was pretty great. Lol having boobs is great anon I'm excited for you!


9f3bfe  No.1145

polycuck here

>tfw one of my gfs said she was too unstable to date and broke up with me

>had the nerve to say "nothing has to be different" even though she fucking broke up with me

>from a mutual friend it sounds like she may possibly be moving in with someone else that she was dating before me

the worst thing is she was going to be my potential housing, so now i'm stuck with my other gf who is just as dependent as me with possible homelessness looming in the next few months, and if i kill myself she'll probably kill herself too


234269  No.1146

>>1145

I'm sorry to hear that anon, which one was it? The more dominant one? How are you handling the breakup? Also how come you can't find other housing in time? Where are you staying now?

Please don't kill yourself either I love you anon <3


9f3bfe  No.1147

>>1146

yeah, her.

i'm a nice mix of depressed / angry

she kinda fucked me around a lot

>before we were dating, flirted a ton and i had a huge crush on her, went mono for a few weeks which devastated me, broke up with her gf after i confessed to her

>a few weeks after that mentioned she was 'thinking' of devoting herself to her ex again

>said she was going to kill herself the next morning which made me cry for a whole day and kinda made it way harder for me to attach to her

right now i'm housesitting for a gay guy who's on vacation, that i met at an lgbt group thing. not sure i'll be able to stay here longer than a few months

i'm hoping i can find somewhere but it seems kinda hopeless


234269  No.1148

>>1147

I'm sorry to hear that anon, honestly she sounds kind of unstable. Its probably best that she left or she probably would have pulled your heart every which way even more. At least you still have one gf! Is it possible to maybe find an apartment with her and split the rent or would that be too serious?


9f3bfe  No.1149

>>1148

she's in europe and i'm in the US and we're both extremely dependent

like, i am super non-functional right now and i really can't live on my own

>At least you still have one gf!

desu sometimes i wish i didn't so i could just anhero already

i loved them both a ton, though


234269  No.1150

>>1149

Oh I see, she's long distance. Well anon you seem pretty socialable, do you have any friends you could move in with? Alternatively you could just get a random roommate? (This is assuming you can't afford a 1 bedroom apartment) don't kill yourself anon! Also why are you non functional? Is it because of this breakup?


234269  No.1151

>>1149

Forgot to add you're still lucky to have on gf! Don't forget that!


9f3bfe  No.1152

>>1150

no IRL friends, i miiight be able to find someone on the mainland to move in with but that's super iffy

>why are you non functional?

i've been a NEET my whole life, and i have severe anxiety and depression :/

only job i've ever held was yardwork, and since starting transition i've gotten way too weak for that


234269  No.1153

>>1152

Well what the heck, how does a socially anxious NEET get two gfs? Lel anyway what's making you depressed? Depression normally has a cause, and you have a gf to support you emotionally even if she is far away.


234269  No.1154

>>1152

Also if you can then try to find someone to move in with. Even if its iffy its worth a shot, its better than wallowing away and anheroing


9f3bfe  No.1155

>>1153

they're both LDR

i'm sociable online because that's the only place i've ever been

dysphoria / self-hatred, aforementioned possible homelessness. sometimes there isn't really a reason

but yeah, having a girlfriend helps a lot

i intend to try, it's just that literally every option i've had has withered away at one point or another


234269  No.1156

>>1155

The dysphoria and self hatred is a pretty big one indeed. Even I get that sometimes and I consider myself to have transitioned pretty well. Just keep going and it will get better as the hormones work!

>i'm sociable online because that's the only place i've ever been

Just apply the same skills talking to people online to the real world. Getting over the anxiety of face to face socialization is the hardest part. Then just imagine you're talking to the person but its online. Almost no difference. I believe in you anon


234269  No.1157

>>1155

Also I know I say a lot of cliche pep talk shit but for real anon, if you ever want to talk I've gone through a lot of hard stuff and I don't want anyone else to have to go through stuff like that alone so you know I'm here


9f3bfe  No.1158

>>1156

i'm only like 7 months so... idk, not really passable at all yet

i don't even have the opportunity to practice socializing because i can't drive and am an hour's drive away from town where i live

>>1157

do you use discord or anything?


234269  No.1159

>>1158

Oh come on anon you can be passable even before hrt! You just have to try harder. But I do have discord though I'm not sure how to add people lol


9f3bfe  No.1160

>>1159

uhh, can you give me your username and #number?

i reaallly couldn't have passed pre-hrt

i've got a strong AF jawline, i was muscular as all hell, and i've got a really big build even with reduced muscle


6e18b5  No.1162

I'll be going on vacation soon!


0e44bc  No.1163

>>1162

ooh, nice.

to where, anon?


ff35a4  No.1164

I've been experiencing emotional turmoil. I don't want to be alone. I've been thinking about my future and I want someone that I can be close with. I have friends to talk with on the Internet but I want someone that I can hug. I'm confused about my sexuality. Sometimes I dream about about being a wife, other times a husband. I don't know what I want.


607928  No.1165

>>1164

I'm the anon who brought up the dating sites and sjws a few posts up. We're in the same exact boat here. Like I know I'm Bi label wise (may or may not change with HRT) but I just want to settle down 1 person and in my dreams the gender of that person (among other traits) is constantly shifting.


4ab2e9  No.1166

Does anybody have any idea what the /mtf/ board-tan should be?


0e44bc  No.1167

>>1164

why a husband, in particular? you could just be a dyke


6717cb  No.1170

>>1166

Why? You wanna draw a board-tan for /mtf/? I dunno... what should a board-tan in general be like?

>>1164

Not wanting to be alone is very normal. Same goes for wanting physical and emotional contact.

Sexuality is about who you are attracted to, not about how you feel that you are yourself. Who do you want to be a husband or a wife to? Is it a man or a woman? Or does it differ?

Gender is about how you are/feel not what you like. That you say you're dreaming about being a woman or a man implies that you are also confused about your gender.

If there is anything you want to say or ask feel free to do so.


468043  No.1173

>Why? You wanna draw a board-tan for /mtf/?

My drawing skills are probably worse than CWC's.

>I dunno... what should a board-tan in general be like?

They're like a mascot for the board.


607928  No.1174

>>1167

Do you think that's an easier route or a choice of some kind anon?


ff35a4  No.1175

Sorry for the slow response. I wrote a response before but didn't post it because I didn't like the way it turned out.

My biggest problem is that if I were to have a husband, I wouldn't be able to provide him with what he needs. I know that I want to be a woman but it would make having a relationship a lot more complicated. I feel like I can't be a husband because I can't function as a man and I can't be a wife because I can't provide the biological things that women can. I completely ignored the idea of a relationship until recently. A few events in my life that happened recently made me start thinking about it. I was used to being lonely and isolated but now I feel like that needs to change.


0e44bc  No.1180

>>1174

i mean, why does dating a girl mean you have to be a man

gender identity =/= sexuality

>>1175

there's plenty of men who don't want children, anon.

you can find yourself a cute boy

and like i said, why do you need to be either a husband or a wife? are you just, afraid of being a homosexual, or something?

lesbian women exist, though tbh it's much easier to date other trans women


607928  No.1181

>>1180

Same anon, never said or meant to imply that gender identity was sexuality. That would be stupid.

Also I went back and just re-read >>1164 and I think I had misread it as not sure if wanting a hubby or wife, but actually they were unsure if they were trans or not. I honestly feel semi-retarded for that mistake.


ff35a4  No.1184

>>1180

>i mean, why does dating a girl mean you have to be a man

>gender identity =/= sexuality

I believe that people need access to the opposite sex in order to be healthy. Same sex relationships don't appeal to me.

>there's plenty of men who don't want children, anon.

>you can find yourself a cute boy

That excludes me from a lot of nice guys. Regardless, I won't be able to provide female sex.

>>1181

I'm definitely trans. Even if I stop transitioning, that won't make me any less trans.


ff35a4  No.1185

I went to the pharma to refill my titty skittles. I got Spiro but I ran out of refills for Estradiol. Looks like I'll be taking just Spiro until I can get this fixed. This is bad.


0e44bc  No.1188

>>1184

>i'm trans

>i'd rather be a guy than a lesbian

how retarded are you


c51d5b  No.1191

File: c3a69b3a5f76682⋯.jpg (182.12 KB, 600x669, 200:223, 7875eff6cc0b2b3ebadb3d54f9….jpg)

What does /mtf/ think about making Shuuichi Nitori from Wandering Son our mascot/board-tan?


c2bba2  No.1192

File: b25dd24f2487b25⋯.png (211.91 KB, 438x406, 219:203, 1504465508.png)

>>1191

How about Rukako instead?


ce22ee  No.1193

>>1192

that's a boy though.


c2bba2  No.1194

File: 7baef3daed5f767⋯.png (2.79 MB, 2096x4469, 2096:4469, latest.png)

>>1193

>that's a boy though

Nigger if you say that about Rukakko you could say that about probably half this board.

Erica from Catherine is a good choice too as she's an actual MtF complete with surgery and everything


c2bba2  No.1195

Anyone got any other ideas for a board-tan?


c2bba2  No.1196

>>1195

Weekly bump


e420b1  No.1198

>>1195

Out of >>1191, >>1192, and >>1194, I like >>1191 the best.


3b7ce3  No.1200

What is your preferred technique for taking E pills? I put one on each side of my tongue. I clamp my tongue down so that the pills are not in too much liquid which would make me swallow before they are dissolved. I usually get lascivious for a few hours after I take my pills.

>>1185

Running out of spiro was terrible. Turns out that my clinic sent a refill to my pharma but neither of them alerted me so I had to wait for weeks without E, only Spiro. Thankfully I'm on track again now.

>>1184

External factors got me thinking about it but it makes no sense to get worked up over relationships. I've never been in one before and being cis wouldn't have changed that.


c6ec32  No.1202

File: 31ebed7f4521f0d⋯.jpg (233.95 KB, 568x800, 71:100, __hirasawa_yui_hosono_haru….jpg)

Safety bump. I also heard that the time to post before the board goes up for claims increased from 1 week to 2.


306201  No.1204

>>1202

That might be true but might as well keeo bumping at least once a week until its confirmed


6f06ec  No.1205

>>1198

We could use them in banners, we just have 2 banners so far.


341c46  No.1208

File: aa6883450ab887f⋯.jpg (206.76 KB, 1280x720, 16:9, mtf.jpg)

You'd think that someone making such a massive change in their life would give them something to talk about.


979942  No.1209

File: ad96fe7ee99c091⋯.png (778.57 KB, 1000x1000, 1:1, __kohaku_original_drawn_by….png)

So, hows the week been?

>>1208

I think the problem is advertising but we need to advertise to the right people so that this doesn't become yet another SJW outpost.


c65614  No.1210

>>1209

My week has been okay, I got hired as a teacher's assistant for the school district. I still have university stuff to do but its slowed dow now that I'm doing Masters work, and the way the TAs work. Is like, the teachers post when they need a TA on this internal website (its the same one they use to fill substitute teachers) and then you essentially just click the posting and mark that you're going to fill the spot. Its pretty neat, it allows me to work when I want since I get to make my own schedule this way. So it doesn't interfere with my own schooling.

My only hope is that I get along with the kids, I never know how to act around kids so I just treat them like I do adults. I'm also scared of kids noticing I'm trans but I pass well and no one at my old job knew. Its just that I know kids sometimes have weird intuitions sometimes and i don't want rumors spreading. So I guess I'm nervous about that.

How has your week been?


c65614  No.1211

File: f502944a8ba1620⋯.png (510.68 KB, 995x902, 995:902, 1504976338.png)

>>1209

Oh also.

>I think the problem is advertising but we need to advertise to the right people so that this doesn't become yet another SJW outpost

If anyone knows any other trannies who want to post feel free to tell them about this place. Ideally it would be cool to have a comfy little semi active community here. And as for SJW stuff the board owner seems to dislike that stuff, currently I'm the only mod (other than the BO) and I don't like SJWs either so I guess if they can't have hugbox they might not stay here even if they show up?

I try not to be mean to anyone here, but I'm not against calling someone a fag if they're acting like one.


341c46  No.1213

>>1209

>So, hows the week been?

Depressing. I got a new job and I'm stressing out over it. I'm going to have to be around normies again. There won't be as much free time. I'll have to wake up early and come home late. I'll have to use the public transport. It's a contract job so I don't get paid lunch time and there's no benefits too. I have bloodwork coming up so not having insurance is a problem. I think I'm going reschedule the bloodwork and just get pills.

>>1210

Schools are terrible. They're part time prisons. Those kids are being abused.

>>1211

Unfortunately, it's hard to get activity on a small board.


c65614  No.1214

>>1213

What were you doing for work before that let you not be around normalfags?

>Schools are terrible. They're part time prisons. Those kids are being abused.

Oh come on school isn't that bad. Everyone always says this and I never get it, like school sucked and I was basically like Tomoko with no friends from middle school up to grade 11 but it wasn't abuse. Maybe its an american thing because I'm a leaf and our schools aren't terrible

>>1213

True, especially for a board like this on 8chan of all places


341c46  No.1218

>>1214

>What were you doing for work before that let you not be around normalfags?

I've always had to deal with them. I quit a job earlier this year due to bullying. The boss and employees gradually treated me with more hostility in the last half year or so that I was there. It got to the point where I didn't want to deal with it. I stayed for too long because I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to find another job. Turns out that it's not that hard and I can get paid more. That's because I have "experience" to put on my resume now. I got another job for about a month but it was horrible. It was a 9 hour shift with a long commute. I didn't get along with the people there at all. I kept getting into arguments despite trying not to. It was so hostile hostile that I was constantly stressed and anxious. I cried while there several times. They fired me but I would have quit soon anyway. I have a third job now and I'm hoping that it'll be better. At least it's an 8 hour shift. I've been enjoying the free time between jobs. I learned new things and got new experiences. My friends told me that I've been bubbly. Unfortunately, my life will be on hold again. I won't have time to learn interesting things anymore. All the time I should be spending on my own I'll have to spend chained to a desk in an office. I'll be stuck working all week, sleeping through Saturday, and doing chores on Sunday. I hate this so much.

>Oh come on school isn't that bad. Everyone always says this and I never get it, like school sucked and I was basically like Tomoko with no friends from middle school up to grade 11 but it wasn't abuse. Maybe its an american thing because I'm a leaf and our schools aren't terrible

It's inhospitable to someone that's sensitive to stimuli and social interaction. The constant loud noise was the worst part. As much as I hate my life now, it's not as bad as it was back then.


c65614  No.1221

>>1218

I'm sorry to hear about you being bullied at work anon, hopefully your next job works out better for you. Did you get bullied for being trans or was it something else?

>I won't have time to learn interesting things anymore.

What things do you like to learn about?

>It's inhospitable to someone that's sensitive to stimuli and social interaction.

I guess that makes sense, I'm pretty sociable so I don't mind it nearly as much


341c46  No.1222

>>1221

>I'm sorry to hear about you being bullied at work anon, hopefully your next job works out better for you. Did you get bullied for being trans or was it something else?

It wasn't for being trans. I'm not presenting yet and I'm fairly sure they didn't catch on. This was something that was apparent for years but got worse near the end. It was tolerable until that point. I had a lot of job security which is why they didn't fire me earlier.

Autumn sure is nice. It allows me to hide my breast growth. I'm 9 months in so it's hard to do without winter clothing. Good thing I don't live somewhere tropical.


c65614  No.1226

>>1222

That's too bad to hear. Especially if it was going on for years, at least you found something new now.

How big are you breasts now? Are they in the cup size range or still under?


341c46  No.1228

>>1226

I measured my bra size a few months ago to be 32D/DD. They've grown since then.


c65614  No.1229

File: 978b570d81e05b6⋯.png (859.04 KB, 1080x934, 540:467, Sad.png)

>>1228

>32D/DD

How could you even attempt to hide those anon?

>mfw I've been on HRT for 3 years and only have B cups nearly C


341c46  No.1230

>>1229

That's not as big as it sounds. This site is what I use for my calculator and it explains cup sizes: http://www.brasizecalculator.tk/


c65614  No.1231

>>1230

I know how breast size is calculated and that's still quite impressive given the timeframe


341c46  No.1232

>>1231

It's fun to feel them jiggling when walking on stairs. I wonder how much growth I'll get in the long term.


bd1b2b  No.1233

>>1211

>muh sjws

this is why i'm not friends with chan transgirls anymore tbh.

try dropping the male socialization. it'll make you a better human being.


c65614  No.1235

>>1233

You seem to really dislike men, that's pretty pathetic tbh, you should really work on that, it isn't healthy. But fyi I only socialize with cis girls irl though. My only male contact is online. Sorry but the girls I know get sick of sjws when they have to deal with them too. Unless you think that sjw = liberal, which is completely incorrect.


55ee68  No.1239

File: 5bd3eada11f846e⋯.jpg (2.6 MB, 4800x720, 20:3, megucas.jpg)

Weekly bump. Also, report spam.


77d222  No.1241

>>1239

Thanks, deleted.


a7682c  No.1243

>>1233

>implying SJWs care about transgirls as anything other than tokens to advance authoritarian legal nd social agendas.

These are people who'd gladly attack us in the streets if we wear MAGA hats.


c65614  No.1244

>>1243

This too


c65614  No.1245

File: da41762552a49b7⋯.jpeg (245.17 KB, 1152x2048, 9:16, Cj4DIkvUUAEAfPe.jpg:large.jpeg)

Bump for a lonely board


341c46  No.1246

File: 102978df1a40290⋯.jpg (440.76 KB, 1600x1200, 4:3, winter.jpg)

I hope everything is going well for you girls.

My hormone clinic wants me in for bloodwork every 3 months. I've been on HRT in total for 18 months and I've never had any significant side effects. I'm going to ask them to give me longer prescriptions. It sucks that such a big part of my health relies on getting prescriptions and buying pills. I wish I had ovaries.


c65614  No.1247

>>1246

Yeah it's really annoying I have to go in every three months for bloodwork and to renew my prescription as well. But don't feel too bad about having to take pills, there's a huge number of people that habe various chronic health problems that they have to take regular pills for. So I just try to think of it like that. You know? Like it's a pretty regular thing to do for people, is what I tell myself. It's still annoying though


c65614  No.1248

File: e92ccab200915fb⋯.jpeg (243.67 KB, 2048x1152, 16:9, CUqrD8SUwAEBoxM.jpg:large.jpeg)

I hope everyone is doing well! I know Christmas time is a bad time for some of us but I love you all and hope you enjoy your holidays!


341c46  No.1249

>>1247

The doctor to agreed to see me every 6 months. That's helpful.

>>1248

I'll definitely spend it alone. I don't want to repeat the sadness that happened last year.


c65614  No.1250

>>1249

>The doctor to agreed to see me every 6 months. That's helpful

Lucky, I should see if I can have my length in between visits increased as well.

>I'll definitely spend it alone. I don't want to repeat the sadness that happened last year

I'm sorry to hear that, I hope you can at least make some good food and enjoy yourself in some way. What happened last year anyway?


341c46  No.1251

>>1250

>Lucky, I should see if I can have my length in between visits increased as well.

3 months is silly, especially for someone that's been on HRT for years without any negative side effects.

>I'm sorry to hear that, I hope you can at least make some good food and enjoy yourself in some way. What happened last year anyway?

I knew it was going to be bad but my mom kept whining at me to go. I wanted to be nice and make her happy so I agreed. The event was at my aunt's house. The reason I didn't want to go was because my male parent was there. When I was still living at home, we couldn't be in the same room together. He abused me when I lived with them and I didn't want to be anywhere near him. At one point, my mom and aunt went outside to smoke. I thought they would return quickly but they stayed there to yap. They left me alone with my male parent in the apartment.

The agreement was that I wouldn't have to talk to him and that we would be in separate rooms. When I was there, both of them hectored me into talking to him. They didn't care at all that they left me alone with him. They completely disregarded my feelings, treating me like a lifeless doll. They put no effort into making it a tolerable experience. All they cared about was for me to be there. Whether I was happy was not a concern. Smoking and yapping about inane garbage was more important. When they came back, I could not hold back my anger. I let them know how I felt and demanded that they drive me home. I was in tears. It was a mistake to expect anything from them.

There's a long history of abuse between my male parent and the rest of the family. My mom seems to believe that he can do no wrong. She didn't even care when she found out he was cheating on her. My mom was disowned by a big portion of her family when they found out she was marrying him. That includes the aunt we were visiting. It took them over 10 years to start talking again. The main reason for that is because she wanted to know me. She knew he was bad but she tries to play it off like "so he has a short temper, deal with it". She didn't have to grow up in that environment. My mom is a doormat. She refuses to accept that she has a dysfunctional family. She married a scumbag as a fetish and brought children into it. It caused me a lot of grief and I want to put it behind me.


31cab3  No.1252

>>1251

Yeah 3 months is annoying, I also have to go get evaluated by my psych every 6 months despite my only mental health issue being the gender dysphoria.

>That whole story

I suppose that's fair that you don't want to be around your family if you're forced to be around your dad. Its really too bad that your mom can't see why you're upset about everything. Do you have any friends or anything that you can spend christmas with? It really seems like a shame that you have to spend it alone


341c46  No.1253

>>1252

No psych for me, thankfully. Is that a legal requirement up there?

>I suppose that's fair that you don't want to be around your family if you're forced to be around your dad. Its really too bad that your mom can't see why you're upset about everything. Do you have any friends or anything that you can spend christmas with? It really seems like a shame that you have to spend it alone

I spend all my holidays alone. I don't take them seriously.


c65614  No.1254

>>1253

Yeah its a legal requirement, its really annoying honestly. My normal psuch retired too so now I have to drive 3 hours just to go see the only other one in the province who deals with transgirls. There's like 6 in the province who deal with FTMs but only 1 who deals with MTFs now. I hate it lol.

>I spend all my holidays alone. I don't take them seriously.

I guess I'm too addicted to christmas. I think my mom passed that on to me, she always takes christmas super seriously and now I've adopted that a bit too. I should really try to forget about them more since it doesn't even matter.

Either way I still hope you have a Merry Christmas anon and even if you're alone I hope you can stay cozy and comfy


1e1f0e  No.1257

How was everybody's Christmas?


341c46  No.1259

>>1257

I spent it alone, mostly reading. I got some presents. Some body sprays, a button down shirt, some socks, 2 books, and an Amazon giftcard.


d73c44  No.1260

My new years resolution is to come out to family, start hormones, and I need some re-enforcement and encouragement so I don't chicken out and hide this year. I'm still living at home and turn 21 later this year.


341c46  No.1261

File: a291065b8e7c901⋯.jpg (421.13 KB, 1400x787, 1400:787, snowy.jpg)

>>1260

Do your best, girl. Be independent. If your family reacts negatively, don't let yourself be vulnerable.The sooner you start, the better, so double time it.

It was scary to come out to my mom. The first time I started HRT, I tried to hide it. I got an appointment at the clinic during a time where she'd be at work so that I could get home before she came back. It took longer than expected, she was back when I came home. She pried me into telling where I went. She was under the impression that it was a drug deal, like I was buying meth. I tried to convince her that it's a reputable place and that it's necessary. Things got quiet until my boobs started showing. It made her angry and there was a lot of arguing. I was still dependent on her at the time and she pressured me into stopping. I moved out a year later and started HRT again soon after. This time I came out over the phone before I went to the clinic. It was a depressing conversation. Her response was "why, why, why". We haven't talked about it since. I'm afraid to bring it up. It would be nice to have her support but that's definitely not going to happen. She'll act confused when I react negatively to her treating me like a guy. She knows exactly why I don't like it but she wants to ignore it.


711cb3  No.1262

File: 749ec201299ec2a⋯.png (242.12 KB, 652x990, 326:495, Magia.Record_.Mahou.Shoujo….png)

Weekly bump.

Also, anybody like the new megucas from MagiReco?


7ef106  No.1263

>>1262

I still haven't watched the movies and I don't use my phone a lot to play games... what do you think of them?


d001ab  No.1265

Bump. Glad this week is over.


5a97fb  No.1266

>>1265

What's the matter anon?


d001ab  No.1267

>>1266

It was just one of those week where everything that can do sideways will go sideways.


8246bc  No.1268

Bump for the week

I've been sick and hormones have been making me feel queasy, it sucks


dc2e45  No.1269

File: 0f0a45a654b6771⋯.jpeg (415.92 KB, 2048x2048, 1:1, DOy7HWJUMAIkwCO.jpg:large.jpeg)

Hello everyone, how was your weeks? Remember to keep practicing at girl stufd and don't get too disheartened! It takes cis girls basically half of elementary school and all of middle school before they learn girl stuff so it will take you a bit of time too!


b45432  No.1270

>>1269

My week has been good mood wise but I'm suffering from stress. As of this month I've been on HRT for a year. It's scary. I wish I was on a sunny and warm beach. I'm sick of winter.


279383  No.1271

>>1243

i mean, i wouldn't attack you, but i'd definitetly avoid you like the plague.

>lol let's show support for a transphobic autist


d001ab  No.1272

Weekly bump


d001ab  No.1273

Bump. Having to post through Tor is a *massive* PITA.


abe901  No.1274

>>1273

Why are you TORposting? A vpn works too or just a clear internet connection considering this mtf board isn't bad


b45432  No.1275

File: 2faa08d2384a089⋯.jpg (599.78 KB, 1920x1200, 8:5, winter_landscape.jpg)

>>1005

It's been a year now. I'm pondering whether to continue. I'm still presenting as a man and haven't gotten electrolysis. I can't bring myself to make that permanent change because I feel like there's a chance that I'll want to go back. It feels like electrolysis is the point of no return. I've noticed for the past few months that I have this "background stress" all the time. I think it's because women are naturally high strung compared to men. It varies in intensity but I've spent days at a time feeling like I'm about to have a heart attack. I know it's HRT because stress wasn't like this before. I've seen women go through this and it confused me at the time but I understand now. Being more susceptible to stress is a problem because transitioning is stressful. Add to that other things that induce stress and it's easy to go nuts. HRT makes one more emotional. People don't expect that kind of emotionality from men. Because of this, it's easy to get into trouble. It's harder to hide emotions.


84e8cc  No.1276

File: 04087dbc2b7c93e⋯.jpeg (107.69 KB, 1200x675, 16:9, DWfplJ0VAAUlThw.jpeg)

>>1275

Well anon, if it isn't for you then stop. But if is just dealing with the stress then I think its better to learn to cope with it and learn to deal with it more. Because ultimately that will be better for you


b45432  No.1278

File: 7615d4f04fe8171⋯.jpg (1.97 MB, 3436x2300, 859:575, winter_landscape.jpg)

>>1276

I'm not ready to stop yet. I was a mess when I had to stop before. My dysphoria came back and I felt disgusted in myself. It would be even worse this time. I enjoy being on HRT. I like the changes that are happening to my body. I think that I would enjoy having gone through electrolysis. My fear is that I'll regret it later. I can't shake the feeling that being trans is a flaw. I don't want to be trans although I would still chose it over being a cis man. There's a part of me that feels bad about myself for doing this but I know that it's for the best. I'm looking for a job. I've been having a hard time holding one down lately partly because of trans problems. I went through 3 in the span of half a year. Making my transition more obvious would make it harder to get and keep one.. If I didn't have to worry about that, I'd be more apt to change my physical appearance. Loneliness is a big part of my stress. Living alone takes its toll on me. My mood gets better when I have visitors.

I like the art that you're posting. Where is it from?


84e8cc  No.1279

File: eaf8554d82e000f⋯.jpeg (266.79 KB, 1920x1080, 16:9, C_L_jJCVYAIYmwi.jpg:large.jpeg)

File: 600d3dda6de2b46⋯.jpeg (239.21 KB, 2048x2048, 1:1, Cc52SRSVIAABVgu.jpg:large.jpeg)

File: 8413a7ceda1ea05⋯.jpeg (315.5 KB, 900x1200, 3:4, DW2AkKWUMAABClb.jpeg)

File: da41762552a49b7⋯.jpeg (245.17 KB, 1152x2048, 9:16, Cj4DIkvUUAEAfPe.jpg:large.jpeg)

File: 20e51b812c85a24⋯.jpeg (346.99 KB, 2048x1152, 16:9, CUgEpPRUEAMkR_T.jpg:large.jpeg)

>>1278

I think its slightly natural to feel weird about it all honestly. I mean lets face it, it is a mental illness but you shouldn't feel bad about it. There's nothing to be ashamed of being trans. You can't help it and transitioning is the best way to help allieviate your dysphoria. So congrats! I bet you're looking good! How come you're not presenting all the time? Do you present some of the time? It really helps push you into girl life if you act like it 100% of the time! So I really encourage you to maybe try? I know it will be awkward at first but it will feel more and more normal as time goes on.

But yeah really anon, don't get to down on yourself. You're doing good and you can continue to do good in the future and the longer you're on HRT the better you'll feel I promise :)

Also the art is by Tsukumizu. She's the mangaka behind Girls' Last Tour (Shoujo Shuumatsu Ryoko) I suggest you watch the anime and then read the manga. Even if you dislike anime and manga it's still really good. It's about 2 girls going through the ruins of civilization and learning to get along with hopelessness. It sounds depressing and it kind of is but it's also incredibly peaceful and tranquil and actually really helped me through a rough patch because it helped me learn to accept my despair and move on.It's honestly amazing and I think the world shoukd watch it Anyway Tsukumizu has a twitter account where she posts drawings like this as well as daily thoughts (@tkmiz) she really is a prime example of a tortured artist and it shows through her work in such a beautiful and unique way! Sorry I just had to gush about her a bit. She's honestly my favorite artist right now. I'll post some stuff, I have every one of her pictures from twitter from 2015-now saved (someone uploaded a MEGA of them on /a/ a while back) Check her out! Even if you don't read her manga or watch her anime her art is still great. (First pic is her newest upload)


84e8cc  No.1280

File: 1f99b4d5632704d⋯.jpeg (529.54 KB, 2048x2048, 1:1, CVkMIFrVAAA92sj.jpg:large.jpeg)

File: 2cb7639d461002a⋯.jpeg (230.6 KB, 2048x1152, 16:9, CnKQfkLUIAA-XxS.jpg:large.jpeg)

File: dbf6db767f3a911⋯.jpeg (678.63 KB, 1920x1920, 1:1, DDXqWfjUIAAKwZ4.jpg:large.jpeg)

File: 17a7e277641954f⋯.jpeg (344.75 KB, 1920x1080, 16:9, DMhFN1NVoAECuQe.jpg:large.jpeg)

File: edc13905f655e8e⋯.jpeg (305.83 KB, 2048x1152, 16:9, C2EqNk4VEAAIahS.jpg:large.jpeg)

>>1279

Oh wait the pictures ended up out of order. The drawing in the sand is the newest one here's a few more for fun People speculate that she might be a lesbian or trans as nothing is known about her personally because she only posts under the pseudonym Tsukumizu, even in the credits of the Girls Last Tour anime she's credited as Tsukumizu. But yeah people think she might be lgbt and it could contribute to her depression. Or not, either way her melonchoky art strikes me perfectly


b45432  No.1281

File: e53ead2818b46e5⋯.jpg (173.82 KB, 1200x675, 16:9, つくみず.jpg)

>>1279

>I mean lets face it, it is a mental illness but you shouldn't feel bad about it.

It makes me feel weak even though I know I can't help it.

>How come you're not presenting all the time?

I don't feel like I'm ready to present. I still see a guy when I look in the mirror. I don't have access to girl stuff. No makeup or girl clothes. I've been afraid to go and get it. I really need to get over that fear and get it already. It's been too long.

I'll give this show a try. I downloaded the first episode.

>>1280

>世界中にみんあが幸せになりますように。

For everyone in the world to be happy.


84e8cc  No.1282

File: e4faad2b9a0acdf⋯.jpg (255.08 KB, 1920x1080, 16:9, DOCyazZV4AALcgi.jpg)

>>1281

Its okay to be weak though, I know its hard to shed that tendency to want to be strong all the time, but it really is okay to be weak. Everyone has some weaknesses and it's better to accept them. Also, I think that like if you order some girl stuff online or buy it, it will really help your mindset as well. You could look extremely feminine and passable but the clothes make the girl. Especially makeup too, there's a reason a lot of womeb don't want to be seen without makeup as it's super important to their self image. And I think if you start wearing makeup and girl clothes at least at home you'll feel more feminine and you'll want to push yourself to present in public because you don't want to give up the feeling of femininity

Isn't Tsukumizu great? I hope you like SSR!


b45432  No.1283

File: 2d4e3779bbcad43⋯.jpg (128.1 KB, 1200x850, 24:17, tkmiz.jpg)

>>1282

Being more feminine will help me decide if I really want to continue transitioning. Being on HRT but still living like a guy is making me confused.

>Isn't Tsukumizu great? I hope you like SSR!

I finished the 12 episodes of the anime. It was enjoyable. I don't usually like anime. It was nice to see something that's short and doesn't have fillers. There's a lot of open questions. What is the alien race? What happened to Kanazawa and Ishii? Will the girls reach the highest level? Are they really the only humans left?


9683e0  No.1284

File: 1b268c6b839d7c8⋯.webm (12.84 MB, 960x540, 16:9, 1b268c6b839d7c8dee584661a….webm)

>>1283

Well then I think its good if you try to be girly more. I can really see how being on HRT and acting like a guy can cause mental strife. Please try to do it and update us! If you need any help or tips we can all help you. I'm sure we all want you to succees and he happy no matter what you do :)

I'm glad you liked it I thought it was a nice little story too. Ishii and Kanazawa might be dead or they might not be. Ishii probably is because the lower levels are all scavanged out. Kanazawa might be fine still. As for the mushrooms they might be bioengineered to clean the earth. They say that Chii and Yuu are the last humans but the mushrooms haven't covered everything they are just the last humans alive that they've encountered. As for the rest. The manga goes to the end of their story and it's not very long either. I read it in an hour or two. The ending is perfect for the story imo


b45432  No.1286

File: 727e0f17a1baae0⋯.webm (9.04 MB, 1280x720, 16:9, 少女終末旅行 - 終ワリノ歌.webm)

>>1284

I read the manga. It's sad but it fits with the rest of the story. There's supposed to be another volume coming out soon. I hope the girls will be okay.


84e8cc  No.1287

File: edddcba7848d710⋯.jpg (240.4 KB, 1920x1080, 16:9, DOmZJ9tX0AEicCZ.jpg)

>>1286

>There's supposed to be another volume coming out soon.

Where did you hear that? I remember everyone talking about the top level being the end and Tsukumkzu tweeted out "end" when that chaoter came out. Tell me more I must know!


b45432  No.1288

File: 2af1246d026827e⋯.jpg (112.49 KB, 500x575, 20:23, 記憶なんて生きるジャマだぜ.jpg)

>>1287

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Girls'_Last_Tour#Manga

It's supposed to come out on the 9th of March.


9683e0  No.1289

File: 90dfbdb5c08c9b7⋯.png (408.61 KB, 709x782, 709:782, Sad chii.png)

>>1288

Oh I see, no that's just the published volumes. The individual chapters are serialized so that the story is already completed. What you saw with Chito and Yuuri with no food left, and no kettenkrad onnthe highest level. I' sorry anon, its over


b45432  No.1290

File: d481dc220a063d2⋯.jpg (45.45 KB, 1024x576, 16:9, 旅行.jpg)

>>1289

That's terrible. At least they still made it to the top level. Had they not made it, they may not have known what was up there.


b45432  No.1291

File: 48a4fcc362225df⋯.gif (648.53 KB, 540x506, 270:253, beer.gif)

I measured my bra size to be 34DD. I wonder if I should get a bra with that measurement or get one that's a size up for future growth. I'm worried that I'll grow out of it quickly.


84e8cc  No.1292

File: 311ba18fdff9bb0⋯.webm (9.24 MB, 800x987, 800:987, 18_動く、動く_(ユーリver.).webm)

>>1290

Yeah it sucks but I think that's the best outcome given the story though. I never expected them to find other people and live happily ever after. I'm glad it stayed true to what it was and ended with them getting along with zetsubou

>>1291

Wow anon, I'm like super jealous after almost 5 years on HRT I only have B cups. I think you should buy a bra at that size, there's a good chance that it won't grow much more. It might grow some slowly but I think at this point for you, you might as well buy a bra. how do you hide those things when presenting as a male. Give me your genes now jeeze


b45432  No.1293

File: 45468b4855ae6e5⋯.gif (302.05 KB, 360x360, 1:1, taberu.gif)

I got a nail polish kit, a bra, and a skirt in the mail today. I'm still waiting for some Nair. The nail polish kit has a nail polish remover, top and base coats, and a gray lacquer. The bra and skirt fit well. The bra feels like it can be filled more and the band feels tight. I'll grow into it and the material will stretch out so I'm keeping it. The bra doesn't hide my breasts but it does make them appear more shapely. The skirt hangs just below my knees. I instinctively tried putting it on looking for legs. Once I had it on, I instinctively tried feeling for pockets. This is the first time I've bought clothes online. It was scary because I didn't have a chance to try them on. It seems doable as long as the measurements are closely checked. I'll be looking for more girl clothes. I want to try makeup but I'm not sure what to get. Maybe I should find some foundation that's close to my skin color. I'm tempted to get electrolysis now. Facial hair makes feeling feminine so much harder. My worry is that it'll be harder to present as a guy. Maybe I can start with some less visible parts like my chest.

>>1292

>how do you hide those things when presenting as a male. Give me your genes now jeeze

I can't hide them except with a winter coat. Now that spring is coming, things are going to get scary. Generous endowment runs in the family.


d001ab  No.1294

bump


d001ab  No.1295

>>1274

The VPN I normally used is banned and I don't want people knowing I come on here.


279383  No.1296

>>1283

you can be a woman and strong. dysphoria is about changing your physical body to make you more comfortable, not trying to be a caricature of womanhood


b45432  No.1297

I was called "miss" by a pharmacist the other day. It made me smile.

>>1296

Being feminine makes me happy. Presenting full time is my long term goal. I got more dysphoria from my psyche than I did from my body. The mental aspects of transitioning are more important to me than the physical ones.


d001ab  No.1298

How effective is voice surgery?


b45432  No.1299

>>1298

It's something that should be considered after bottom surgery.


d001ab  No.1309

bump


b45432  No.1310

I'm going to start electrolysis this week. It makes me nervous. I have to expose myself as trans to someone I don't know.


7ef106  No.1311

>>1310

You have to expose yourself as trans to get electrolysis?


b45432  No.1312

>>1311

No but it will be obvious.


b45432  No.1313

I went to the laser place. The electrologist examined my skin and recommended me to get laser hair removal before switching to electrolysis. She said that it'll be faster and cheaper to do it that way. I wasn't expecting to get laser. I'm not sure if it'll work for me since my hair is light. I'm going to get a consultation and see if it's a good idea.

>>1311

There's a form to fill out which asks about medical conditions and whether you are on hormones. I guess it's not a big deal since electrologists see trans people regularly.


b45432  No.1314

>>1313

>I went to the laser place.

That should be "I went to the electrolysis place". For some reason 8chan isn't generating passwords for my posts anymore.


d001ab  No.1315

A while ago I had this not so good dream where I transitioned but the surgeons did the same procedures to me that they did to Chise from Saikano.


b45432  No.1316

>>1315

>the same procedures to me that they did to Chise from Saikano

What's that?


000000  No.1317

bump


546bde  No.1318

Did electro for the first time. It will take a long time but it's nice to finally be doing it.


000000  No.1319

How much would a full laser treatment to remove unwanted body and facial hair cost? Do you have to pay up front or do they let you split the cost into installments?

Anyway, here's a Tsukumizu Touhou doujin I found, it's called Flan wants to die:

https://imgur.com/a/aPQJg


546bde  No.1320

>>1319

Laser isn't permanent and only works on thick, dark hair with light skin. You pay after each visit. It'll depend on how much hair you have. That doujin is nice. I didn't know Tsukumizu did Touhou. It was creepy to find out that Marisa is a doll.


000000  No.1321

>>1320

I know it isn't really permanent but I did hear that is reduces the vast majority of the hair. I also happen to have light skin and dark hair but the body hair is thinner than average.


000000  No.1322

bump


546bde  No.1323

My mother ranted about my transition again. She said that I'll end up homeless and that I'll look like a freak. She says stupid stuff like "You do realize this will make you look like a girl, right?". She talks about it like I'm going to die, saying "I'm sorry for you, you were a nice and handsome boy.". She keeps acting like the only thing HRT does is make me grow breasts. She completely disregards everything else. I'm not going to get any help from her.

Electro is going well. Hair is much sparser in the places the electrologist has worked on. It's going to take a while to complete. I've been doing 1 hour per week.


7583d5  No.1324

>>1323

That sucks anon, that's how my dad is regarding me especially the "you realize this will make you look like a girl" and "you used to be such a handsome boy" comments.

I'm glad to hear about your electrolysis. How much is it costing you per session?


546bde  No.1326

>>1324

>How much is it costing you per session?

90 USD for an hour. It's usually 92-93 because the electrologist finishes up after the timer goes off.


704ee7  No.1327

>>1323

Does electro hurt?


546bde  No.1328

>>1327

It gets uncomfortable when it's done near a nerve. The worst for me so far has been the center of my chin. The electrologist will adjust the setting on the machine depending on how irritated you get between visits. You can feel a needle being put inside your skin, it gets hot, then the hair gets pulled out.


7583d5  No.1329

>>1328

>>1326

Cool that's a pretty good price actually, it must feel good getting it done. How often do you go?


546bde  No.1330

>>1329

It does feel good. It makes me feel feminine. I can't wait once it's done on my face and chest. I'm currently going once per week. I should probably be going more often.


7583d5  No.1331

>>1330

Nice! I still need to get mine done on my chest, I started my face before I even started HRT but I've just been epilating my chest so far because there's only sparse hair there. I was just weirdly embarrased about getting it done a long time ago but I think it's tme i just deal with it, especially now that I have noticeable breasts


546bde  No.1332

>>1331

I was originally going to start electro before HRT but I put it off and started a year after. My dysphoria went away which made me feel like electro wasn't important. My facial hair became finer, sparser, and grew more slowly. It didn't bug me as much anymore. It's a bad idea to transition on autopilot. I should have started earlier. Doing chest sounds embarrassing. At least it's feminizing. Which epilator do you use?


7583d5  No.1333

File: c7388f8212eb5c9⋯.png (498.13 KB, 1880x1268, 470:317, braunsilkepil7wetdryepilat….png)

>>1332

Yeah its going to be embarrasing getting it done on my chest I'm going to regret not doing it sooner so that sucks. I use a Braun Silk Epil 7, I wanted the Silk Epil 9 since its better but it was like $150 and I got this one on sale for $50 it's okay. It comes with a bunch of different guards and a special trimmer to get the hair the correct length to epilate.

It works pretty good, but epilating takes a while and even still is pretty painful. Sometimes if I'm lazy I'll just use shitty body wax but I don't often because it's so expensive. It's basically kept for when I'm really lazy or in a rush


7583d5  No.1334

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a50856  No.1335

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7583d5  No.1336

>>1335

Why are you posting pictures of a figment of Ichii's imagination


7583d5  No.1337

File: 3fc2baf38ccc085⋯.jpg (3.96 KB, 190x159, 190:159, 6ac12662d74ddbd985ac62761b….jpg)

Remember anons you too can look good if you get good at makeup and lose weight so don't give up, if you do I'll be mad at you!


546bde  No.1338

>>1337

Haven't tried makeup yet. If I lost weight, I'd look like a skeleton.


7583d5  No.1339

File: dbb0b3e5f9faa67⋯.jpg (83.37 KB, 600x600, 1:1, 1515105005.jpg)

>>1338

What have you done so far to look more feminine anon?


546bde  No.1340

>>1339

Doing HRT and electro. I always wear a bra when I go outside. I dress in feminine clothes and paint my nails in private. I'm not presenting yet. Makeup has never appealed to me much and it's hard to tell where to start.


7583d5  No.1341

File: 9edcd0d9f478e19⋯.jpg (49.64 KB, 592x592, 1:1, Bqp0yEYCUAAN8nF.jpg)

>>1340

It sounds like you're doing fine so far, I would check out some makeup tutorials and stuff on youtube though makeup is a big thing for being a girl. A lot of natural (cis) I loathe that term girls look bad without makeup. Even if it's nothing fancy just try learning a basic daily wear setup to enhance your feminine features a bit. Then if you want you can try some fancier styles


67e743  No.1343

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eb690a  No.1346

>>661

My hair is naturally curly and I HAVE to comb or it turns into a tangled mess


000000  No.1351

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d43e32  No.1353

I've been on HRT for 19 months now. I can fill a C cup. At first, I measured my bra improperly and thought I was a DD. That was silly of me but I'm glad I know how to do it properly now. I'm always wearing a bra now unless I'm sleeping. I've gotten used to it. I'm confident even though it's noticeable that I have breasts. Having a properly sized bra helps a lot. I've done around 12 sessions of electro so far. All an hour or more. It takes a long time and is expensive. Only part of my chin has been done so far. I want my face, neck, chest, and abdomen to be done. It sucks but I can't help it. I should have started earlier but I was questioning whether I should continue transitioning which seems silly now. Electro is the biggest hurdle towards presenting. It makes me feel impatient. I have a boyfriend. It's fun to spend time with him and it makes me feel feminine. It's so much fun to tease him.

It sucks how quiet this board is.


28a28b  No.1354

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1f07fc  No.1355

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08c457  No.1358

File: 221bba2b0dc46d5⋯.png (1.39 MB, 1502x1202, 751:601, ClipboardImage.png)

So, I'm thinking about changing my name to "Marisa". I like the name but I don't want people to think that I'm stupid and named myself after a video game character. Thoughts?


d43e32  No.1359

File: aecbe1dd3ee2740⋯.png (1.64 MB, 1798x637, 1798:637, 485171179.png)

>>1358

It's a pretty name. If you like it, you should pick it. It's not totally uncommon. Most people don't know about Touhou. You'll have "Mari" as a nickname.


f167e3  No.1360

>>1358

I think it really depends on the combination with the last name. Unless you're changing that one too it might stand out if it's of different origin.


0ca5cc  No.1361

Hello I am trans and bored.


ab6b6b  No.1363

File: 2977a298861e1e6⋯.jpg (56.35 KB, 540x304, 135:76, tumblr_p81em0q3q71rp8y35o4….jpg)

Happy fall, /mtf/.


d43e32  No.1364

File: 5ab77a23f50f3e3⋯.gif (2.66 MB, 500x500, 1:1, 旅行.gif)

I went to the doctor today. I passed out after getting my blood drawn. The nurse drew more than I expected. Right after she finished, I got nauseous, light headed, started to breathe heavily, and it felt like the temperature got a lot higher. The nurse lifted the bed so that I could lay down. I passed out shortly after. The nurse said I was out for a minute. It felt like a blink to me. I had to ask to make sure I actually passed out. She put an ice pack behind my neck while I was out. I wondered how it got there. She had me drink some glucose water which made me feel better. She let me rest for a bit. I was still dizzy, shaking, and numb all over. I was shocked at how much I had sweated. I was soaked.

Eat a decent meal before getting your blood drawn, girls.

>>1363

Happy fall. 🍂


b4ca40  No.1365

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000000  No.1366

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d43e32  No.1367

File: de999bf5a81a9cf⋯.png (1.83 MB, 1280x1682, 640:841, tokiko.png)

How would you girls feel about forming an IRC channel? It might stir up discussion but also make the board quieter.


000000  No.1368

Happy Halloween, /mtf/. I would have uploaded a cute picture of Ellen from the Witch's House but the VPN I use is banned again.

>>1367

I think it would be better to build a community here first.


d43e32  No.1369

File: 734c362826f60f3⋯.png (135.91 KB, 500x380, 25:19, yuuka.png)

I wish we could vote for issues instead of representatives. I'm tired of having to choose which of my rights are respected.

I got my prescription changed from Spiro to Finasteride. I asked to try an alternative to Spiro because I was sick of the diuretic effects. It made me drink and use the bathroom a lot. It feels good for that to not be a problem anymore. Hopefully, Finasteride doesn't have any side effects that are just as bad.


7ec24d  No.1370

i feel like shit and miss my bf already. i want to puke.


7ec24d  No.1371

>>1323

>will make you look like a girl

>all itll do is give you tits

anon your mom is retarded.


d43e32  No.1372

>>1370

What happened?

>>1371

It's difficult for me and her to understand each other.


5392e5  No.1373

>>1372

i sent breakup texts like the nights before I posted that. it still doesn't feel so great.


292ed9  No.1374

>>1373

Why did you break up?


d43e32  No.1375

>>1373

That's terrible, Anon. I'm sorry. A breakup is an awful thing to go through. I hope it makes you happier in the long term.


000000  No.1376

Where can I contact mods?


704ee7  No.1377

>>1376

I think only way is to report your own post and write what you want to say or give your mail maybe?


000000  No.1378

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6f0ce5  No.1379

>>1376

I don't suppose you still need to contact mods? Sorry I've been out of town and couldn't check up


000000  No.1380

>>1379

When I posted, the board had gone up for claims again but it it disappeared from the claims list.


6f0ce5  No.1381

File: fd143c786627da7⋯.png (395.68 KB, 540x590, 54:59, Fine.png)

>>1380

Oh I see, yeah I'm supposed to make sure there's at least one post per week as well as log into my mod account if the BO doesn't and I was out of town and forgot. Luckily nothing bad happened.

So how are you doing anon, are you making progress towards becoming a proper girl?




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