I hope I can just drop my story here.
if not can someone direct me to where ?
not gonna greentext cause im not a fag.
So it all started friday, actually slept early the day before so i woke up early, felt so good to wake up like normal people.
Then my mom told me theres not gonna be electrecity for about 5-6 hours, so I decided to go to my bus card with the student discount, so I went down on in the subway and it was crowded.
I was standing and listening to some music and then this girl. Short blond girl wearing a sweater(the nice kind) and leggings and…
I shit you not on my soundcloud playlist I had this song (https://soundcloud.com/irie_misstxkes/boy) comes into my headphones and the girl, she's so close to me and her air is right under my nose and I never felt that way before, and her hair smelled so good.
Now I'm not saying that I felll in love but that girl showed how women are so fucking awesome and not just fapping material for your amusement (im talking the feminine body wich is so beautiful, not the attitude that females have these days).
and then… it happened I couldnt finish… even though I tried fapping to my favourite videos to fap to, nothing … was rock hard … precum… but couldnt blow my load.
then the next day slept really good, ate breakfeast felt good in the morning, and you know just fucked around the internet while getting high.
sunday too i just fucked around all day.
now its monday, i passed maybe the best day at school, actually talked to a girl made her smile and talked with a bunch of other people and made new friend, I did more socially in 1 day then i did in 2 months.
Now this is my experience, i havent fapeed for now 5 days and I fell fucking great.
you know i didnt even read any posts here, i just read the concept of the no fap board and I tried it out, and man do i feel great.
now im focusing on the real thing like school and losing weight.
Any help towards self-improvment and positivity, I think this is the first time in years that I'm actually feeling good towards my future how do you avoid going back to your old habits(not just fapping but overeating/laziness/badtemper/etc.)?
sorry for the grammar, im not a native speaker
also ross is back
pic not related :(