I just had a huge fight that turned into a long, painful talk with my mom.
My parents know about me being a hebe, my obsessions and I've even told my therapist. I don't download child pornography nor do I look at it. I mainly collect photos of one teen I like a lot and you guys see me post her a lot.
I have a small folder with a few bikini pictures and selfies from JB gallery.
I don't collect NN models anymore.
My sister googled up something on the internet and told me there is some law that says if I have any pic of any minor, clothed or not, as an organized collection, that I am breaking some kind of law or something (she couldn't tell me exactly what it was and I think she was bullshitting but she'd just loudly read the article fast and talk over me as I argued my case)
I had a very long talk with mom, she understands but worries. I explained to her what I am, the kind of people I talk to here and on a few other sites. I don't want to hurt children or teens. I don't even want to contact them, I just want to be alone in my fantasies.
I'm a recluse with many other emotional problems as I've gone it before but -this- thing is a part of me that brings a bit, no a lot of happiness.
My mother listened and agreed with my case, it was a tearful exchange. I told her that I had told my therapist and even SHOWN her my pictures on an ipod. My therapist said that as long as I don't act on sexual desires, contact the girl or other minors and that its helping me cope with my situation right now and not becoming a negative thing..that its alright for me, assuming I have no pornographic pictures.
I assured my family that if I was breaking the law my therapists would have either told me I was or notified them. I've been going for several months.
My mom..kind of quietly accepted things after arguing. I told her it would be stupid if I went to prison for what I had but I love my pictures and writing stories. They help me a lot with my other problems.
My dad and sister are far less willing to lesson. My sister keeps digging up every legal thing she can today for some reason and then getting dramatic saying she just doesn't want me to go to prison so I need to delete my pictures.
My dad is being the same, but well, far more unpleasant.
I'm also to the point where I think my sister might do something stupid like call a state agent or a cyber crime unit and ASK them if I'm doing illegal things. She didn't say or hint she would but my sister is being so stupid and idiotic now I almost think she would.
If talking like we do here and on sites like VoA was so bad and illegal wouldn't they be gone by now? I know sites in the past have actually broken the law (won't name them) and they were nuked. I remember one well.
Can they really come bust for the pictures I have? I don't want to give them up, this is stupid. It comes off as creepy yes but why do I need to go to prison when I just have shit SHE posted for everyone to see and I don't contact her, she's clothed, worst case she's in a bikini.
Can I seriously go to prison for this shit? I don't even have models anymore for fuck's sake.
If I couldn't talk about my feelings then why does psych forum allow pedophiles to freely discuss their emotions and desires openly with a staff that is very strict and has to approve every message.
Shouldn't every single poster be vanned now on VoA? I know they all can't be running behind a bunch of vpns or proxies.
Sigh. ._.
My mom is the closest to understanding but my sister won't stop googling every single legal thing involving minors and pedophiles in hopes that I'll delete my shit and "change".
My dad just keeps saying "It doesn't matter, if they are underage you will go to jail. You have a collection."