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Heyyyyy, anyone looking at this board sixteen and female? If so, you should hit up the BO.

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75dcd3 No.4183

I just had a huge fight that turned into a long, painful talk with my mom.

My parents know about me being a hebe, my obsessions and I've even told my therapist. I don't download child pornography nor do I look at it. I mainly collect photos of one teen I like a lot and you guys see me post her a lot.

I have a small folder with a few bikini pictures and selfies from JB gallery.

I don't collect NN models anymore.

My sister googled up something on the internet and told me there is some law that says if I have any pic of any minor, clothed or not, as an organized collection, that I am breaking some kind of law or something (she couldn't tell me exactly what it was and I think she was bullshitting but she'd just loudly read the article fast and talk over me as I argued my case)

I had a very long talk with mom, she understands but worries. I explained to her what I am, the kind of people I talk to here and on a few other sites. I don't want to hurt children or teens. I don't even want to contact them, I just want to be alone in my fantasies.

I'm a recluse with many other emotional problems as I've gone it before but -this- thing is a part of me that brings a bit, no a lot of happiness.

My mother listened and agreed with my case, it was a tearful exchange. I told her that I had told my therapist and even SHOWN her my pictures on an ipod. My therapist said that as long as I don't act on sexual desires, contact the girl or other minors and that its helping me cope with my situation right now and not becoming a negative thing..that its alright for me, assuming I have no pornographic pictures.

I assured my family that if I was breaking the law my therapists would have either told me I was or notified them. I've been going for several months.

My mom..kind of quietly accepted things after arguing. I told her it would be stupid if I went to prison for what I had but I love my pictures and writing stories. They help me a lot with my other problems.

My dad and sister are far less willing to lesson. My sister keeps digging up every legal thing she can today for some reason and then getting dramatic saying she just doesn't want me to go to prison so I need to delete my pictures.

My dad is being the same, but well, far more unpleasant.

I'm also to the point where I think my sister might do something stupid like call a state agent or a cyber crime unit and ASK them if I'm doing illegal things. She didn't say or hint she would but my sister is being so stupid and idiotic now I almost think she would.

If talking like we do here and on sites like VoA was so bad and illegal wouldn't they be gone by now? I know sites in the past have actually broken the law (won't name them) and they were nuked. I remember one well.

Can they really come bust for the pictures I have? I don't want to give them up, this is stupid. It comes off as creepy yes but why do I need to go to prison when I just have shit SHE posted for everyone to see and I don't contact her, she's clothed, worst case she's in a bikini.

Can I seriously go to prison for this shit? I don't even have models anymore for fuck's sake.

If I couldn't talk about my feelings then why does psych forum allow pedophiles to freely discuss their emotions and desires openly with a staff that is very strict and has to approve every message.

Shouldn't every single poster be vanned now on VoA? I know they all can't be running behind a bunch of vpns or proxies.

Sigh. ._.

My mom is the closest to understanding but my sister won't stop googling every single legal thing involving minors and pedophiles in hopes that I'll delete my shit and "change".

My dad just keeps saying "It doesn't matter, if they are underage you will go to jail. You have a collection."

a67dc3 No.4191

First off, let me make it perfectly clear that I am not an attorney and don't claim to know the law in every single jurisdiction within the USA. That being said…I honestly think your sister and dad are highly overreacting.

There are situations where I can see it being illegal to have a collection of "questionable" material, such as NN models posed lewdly even though nothing is technically showing. However, I can't think of a case where anyone has been prosecuted for having a collection of pictures that aren't sexual in nature in any way shape or form.

Hell, if people like Sally Mann, David Hamilton and Jock Sturges can take artistic photos of naked young girls and not be prosecuted, then I can't see anything you have as being illegal.

You are correct in that if you had shown your therapists anything illegal, or admitted to them you had illegal images, they are required by law to turn you in. Since they haven't, it seems they don't think what you have shown them is illegal either.


5feefe No.4197

you talk and show to your family on what you wanking? ewww


000000 No.4208

>>4183

Your sister sounds really jealous. You should push her for some sweet wincest.


b89bf2 No.4212

I've been through that whole situation with a family that wants you to "change" - it means that you're never going to be good enough for them, and the best you can do is keep as much distance as possible over matters they can't handle.


75dcd3 No.4213

>>4208

Dude…my sister has had two kids, just lost a big chunk of her hair two weeks ago, is very over weight, has abused heroin for several years and goes to a methadone clinic. You can't pay me to do that and it sure wouldn't be wincest.

On the subject of change I had a long, long talk with my mom today and yesterday. She is easily the most accepting and understanding. Pretty much explain tons of shit to her because she ask out of curiosity.

My dad honestly doesn't care but doesn't want the law here.

My sister cares I think but I also believe she enjoys this situation because I harbored a lot of resentment for her during her addict years for things she did to me and my family. I still do harbor resentment and I have a hard time getting along with her. We fight a lot. Doesn't help she had two kids, two boys, back to back, with a worthless alcoholic, crack and heroin abusing shithead.

So me being a MAP, to her, puts her in a position where she can act like she's over me morally. Its a power thing too, SHE was the one who started just googling stuff and while my mom actually listened to things I would say and explain to her, like how sites like VoA have stayed up for over 10 years my sister kept yelling over me, ignoring me and having the attitude of "I know more about this than you do you don't know what you're talking about".

She's finally conceded for now but I can tell she's smoldering over her loss and is being more nagging and passive aggressive than usual.

Also, my sister has some issue with her vag where black ooze comes out, I know this because we live in a small house and likes to announce it loudly to my mother.

Please never suggest I "wincest" her ever again or I may never be able to get a boner again.


ca2e07 No.4214

>>4213

>had two kids, just lost a big chunk of her hair two weeks ago, is very over weight, has abused heroin for several years and goes to a methadone clinic

Then who THE FUCK is she to pass judgement on you?

People are so quick to judge us. Fuck.


75dcd3 No.4216

>>4214

My sister is and has always been an infuriating person to live with. I recall once, over 6-7 years ago, she was on dope and fighting with my parents. I was playing a match in Warcraft 3: TFT and she just runs into the room, points at the screen and goes

"YOU SEE THIS? THIS IS WHAT REAL ADDICTION IS. NOT WHAT I DO!"

She and her baby daddy have pawned multiple game systems off of me and not a thing was done. She did the same to my parents as well.

She's unpleasant to live with and while I don't regret the birth of my two nephews now that they aren't little fetuses she did make all our lives a lot harder and after she had her second son she finally decided baby daddy was too abusive and moved in with us.

She is the kind of person who should be humble and try to be as easy to get along with as possible but its the opposite really. She just cooks and cleans the kitchen a lot so and she helps us with her wick money.

While we don't live in a trailer or live in filth, I think by the standards on this site we pretty much are white trash, I'll be honest there. It use to not be that way though but I wanted to get it out of the way because someone would make the joke and yes I'm from the south.

But she thinks shes very justified in all her behavior right now plus she's going to the methadone clinic so at least she's "clean" but no, I'm not a violent, abusive person. My ex-gf once physically beat me, that's how pathetic I am.

I have gotten into actual physical altercations with my sister because she's that damn hard to get along, knows how to push buttons, ALWAYs has to get the last word, is passive aggressive and spiteful.

Don't worry, she fights back too and usually hurts me more but I kind of stop after I intially react and she just goes "YOU ..YOU..BASTARD!! YOU COWARDLY FUCK!!!" and she will pick up a chair WWF style and get all out serious. Never done anything like give her a blackeye, it'll just start as bitch pushing, like two girls in highschool then some hitting, then I'll swing at her arm and hit her very slightly and that's when she goes HAM mode.

We've always gotten into physical fights since we were little so I hope people don't interpret this as me being an abusive person.


b89bf2 No.4218

That you had a girlfriend exhausts any care you might expect here. And a family that doesn't immediately kick you out, you have incredible privilege.

I suggest you learn to be physically abusive, because when you aren't it enables people like your sister. how do you expect a better life for pedophiles when they can't man up?


75dcd3 No.4219

>>4218

Alright.

I have had one physical girlfriend in my entire life, she was insane, had two sons and moved in with my family for a year. She was 29 at the time. I was not with some loli queen.

I am privileged to have the family I do even if I have difficulties getting along with them at times.

But fuck, you don't speak for everyone here and me being physically abusive to my sister and actually giving her a black eye or something else is not going to help any pedo cause and just make my family actually consider taking action and sending me away.


ca2e07 No.4224

>>4218

what the fuck.


92135d No.4285

and this is why you don't talk to people about that shit

they wont stop until you're in jail or dead and not even acknowledge their fault

good luck


94c31c No.4287

>>4219

>one physical girlfriend

Tulpafag?


75dcd3 No.4288

>>4287

What?


94c31c No.4289

>>4288

You wrote "physical girlfriend" implying having non physical girlfriends


92135d No.4290

>>4289

he meant internet-relationship. probably. just think on your own m8.


92135d No.4291

somehow ended up posting this in the wrong thread

now then, once again i will try

if you're in therapy, why not talk with the therapist about that issue and ask if she can talk to your sister and see what's wrong with her or use her authority as a professional on the topic to tell her to shut the fuck up and leave you alone?

maybe your dad and even your mother who seems more of a help could come with you too eventually.

also, she might end up taking your sister in.

my therapist suggested me to talk with my family to figure things out, just didn't want to myself for reasons.


75dcd3 No.4292

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>>4290

Yeah, I said "physical" to differentiate between online ones. I had a couple of the latter when I was in middle and highschool.

I was curious about tulpa before but I just day dream a lot or just write stories about characters or people I wish were in my life so I see it as the same thing..just different name and not doing all the tulpa-y steps I've seen in guides.

>>4291

This is a good idea. My sister has actually been pretty decent for the past couple of days, even joking some about me liking girls (not really in a mean, derogatory way).


92135d No.4293

>>4292

>even joking some about me liking girls (not really in a mean, derogatory way).

suprising to read after what i imagined her to be like from what you told before, but that's nice to hear

if things get better altogether in the long run maybe write a story about it

good luck


75dcd3 No.4294

>>4293

Yeah, my relationship with my sister is very bizarre, I even told my therapist about it. We're either at each others' throats in some horrible argument or able to laugh and joke about anything.

There is never any middle ground.


4cb172 No.4295

>>4294

Your sister sounds like she is bipolar. Up and happy and carefree one minute, and then down and negative the next. You might suggest during one of her "up" times that she get checked out for it.


75dcd3 No.4298

>>4295

I am a diagnosed bipolar and so was my mother's father (he died right when I was born).

Its hereditary in our family so that's very likely.


c89dfe No.4309

>>4298

My dad is bipolar, and not long ago, he got so fucked up by dropping his medication dosage to half that we ultimately had to get him in a mental institution for a few days to correct it.

You mentioned earlier some shit about not taking your meds. Listen, bitch, if you're bipolar AT ALL, you need fucking medication. If what you have now is shit, go to the doctor, get it changed. But a bad manic or depressive spree is dangerous as hell and could cost you big time.


bab09d No.4350

Anon, you're the only person on this damn site I feel any amount of sympathy for, so I shall tell you this much. You sound like you're going through/have been through a lot of shit that you probably don't deserve. I think there's hope for you to find a way to come to an understanding with (some of) your family, and if not, at least someday find a way to get the hell outta dodge.

I truly do. It makes me happy to hear you're at least getting professional help of some kind.

Only thing I can suggest is… find a less toxic site than 8chan. There surely must be sites than can be as supportive without being as negative of an influence. (Pay attention to that wording, anons.)

Outside of that…good luck, OP. That's all I wanted to say.


75dcd3 No.4352

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>>4350

I kinda have been through shit but then again who hasn't? I'm not special in that regard. (OP here)

/phile/ is probably my favorite MAP community right now, no community is without its issues and troll users/problems but its really not that bad.

/hebe/ is more toxic than Lake Karachay but I think most feel this way and hopefully there's a bigger exodus to this subforum.

My family, despite arguments we may have, are pretty cool with everything. They just get worried a lot and I've made an effort to explain more things to them lately instead of just hiding on forums, keeping everything to myself.

Thanks for your kind words, I appreciate it.


6862c6 No.4497

Just tell them you've deleted it and moved on. You don't get to share this with them. Keep your secrets.


1119f8 No.4499

tldr

You're a fucking idiot for telling anyone. What the hell is wrong with you? Lots of people are fucked up but they have the slither of sense required not to tell everyone. God damn you're retarded.


9bec02 No.4531

>>4183

No… is your answer…

It is not illegal, at all.

What "would" make it illegal, is if you ALSO have child porn, and the other images can be counted as part of your "fixation", used as "evidence" against you, as if they were part of a collection of porn. (Not as being porn themselves, but a "collection".)

Eg, it's a bullshit law that holds no weight, legally. Since every sears catalog or modeling agency, hospital, school, etc… would be breaking the law.

Word of advice… Keep your shit to yourself. Private computer/phone/folders, only seen on your log-in, and password protected folders. All easy shit to do on windows. Easy for phones too… just get a memory card and keep it in your battery compartment, not plugged-in, until you want to use it. Micro-sd is cheap. Can hide it anywhere… or get a USB stick that looks like a normal keychain trinket, or a credit-card USB that looks like a credit card, or one that looks like a key.

Better yet… get a free website and load all your shit there. Then you only need to remember part of the link… leave off the last letter, and after it fails to load, type the last letter manually. Then all your shit is remote and not even legally your responsibility, as it is just a website you visited.


9bec02 No.4532

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>>4183

Just adding…

Stay in therapy. Honestly, if you have a fixation of one individual for too long, healthy or not, it is a "fixation", and is something that, if not normally "getting old", and is causing "issues" as you state… then it is a problem.

I like a lot of things, as does many others. However, extended periods of fixations will eventually begin turning you delusional. (As you fixate on something long enough, you begin to remember it as memories and reality… like god and freedom and working-class slavery…)

Find another fixation, and include it to expand your fixation in another direction. (Don't find another replacement or similar thing to fixate on.)

I suggest writing, as you seem like you are articulate enough to capture imagination well enough in words, by the wording and clarity of your post.

I could use a good story writer for my game. However, I don't think the stories my game uses would be healthy… There is a "white knight", version of the game that is about saving the lolis from abusive relationships in the household, which is "all audiences" safe, and healthy to read. Unlike the counterpart which is about loving lolis and adopting them, from the same situations, to save them. xD


ca2e07 No.4533

>>4532

sounds like a very interesting game

would buy on steam and play for many hours




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