No.345
I used to be fully asexual and apathic for like a year (i was not like this before, with logic and thinking i just arrived to the conclusion that this is how it should be), my only purpose in life is to think and read and learn, know stuff, (i am not getting in the philosophical part right now because thats not what this post is about, but we can talk about it in the thread) i used to play games and shit all the time but all i do since a year is just sit and think or read but these couple of weeks are my exam weeks and i need to be studying all the time, but the problem is i cant even take time to sit and think about stuff let alone reading, also i am sleepy all the time which makes me even more idiotic than i normally am, because of not thinking and all those stuff i started feeling sexual attraction and shit again, i wanna play games and not study and i know its illogical and shit but it started again and i have this constant feeling like anxiety i dont know in my chest that bothers me, theres still one more week till the examd end but i cant study like this, only reason i started studyig hard was because of the way i thought, the apathy amd stuff, before that i didnt used to study at all, anybody got suggestions on what i can do? İ think i would be fine if i just sit and think for a couple of hours but i really dont have the time
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No.347
You seem to have gotten yourself confused in what you want to do, so some stoicism would do good, I think. Find a copy of Marcus Aurelius' "Meditations", read it through and reflect on what you've read (while Seneca and Epictetus are also good reads, I feel Marcus Aurelius is more easier to digest). It should definitely help with your sense of urgency, and might also help with what you describe as your normal apathetic mood. Apatheia is an useful state of mind to strive for, but apathy is something entirely different and excessive.
No.392
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You might want to watch this video. The ending part is the most important part.
It has given me massive insight on the problems that exist today.
Michael Tellinger's solution to many of the problems is really out of the ordinary.
Because fuck working hours and hours a day just to feed yourself.
Because fuck people starving due to not being able to pay for food, despite all the tons of leftovers in the world.
Because fuck being put into a system that basically force you to learn for years, just to be required to work afterwards.
Because fuck people not having any homes because the land "belong" to the governments and nations.
Because fuck major progress being restricted by money.
Michael Tellinger is a bro, and you know it. He's currently doing progress in South Africa (no this is not a joke).
If you care about this at all then stay updated with the situation in South Africa and see whatever good and bad happens.
No.397
>>345If you're feeling tired all the time and you have a regular, healthy sleep schedule, take a good look at what you're eating. Eating properly is huge when it comes to energy. I know this isn't a philosophical answer to your situation, but it could help.