Alright, I suppose I'll share my life story and all of that.
>Born with a multitude of medical issues (deformed hand, severely shortened intestines, rather hard of hearing (can't hear anything over 6,000 hz) would later get addison's disease as a kid)
>Birth mom did some drugs early on, and left the country when I was four to find her birth mom and never met her.
>Adoptive family is, quite honestly excellent for the most part.
>Mom is a head nurse in her unit at the hospital.
>Older brother graduated art school in the early 90's and started a very successful web design/marketing/advertising/branding company and makes quite a lot of money.
>Yet I look at him and I see an overworked alcoholic that's secretly insecure in himself (covers this up with materialistic items) and wants to please our mom for, well, being there I guess.
>End up graduating HS with a diploma from the International Baccalaureate Organization with a gpa of 4.3 and rather good SAT/ACT scores only to go to a culinary college that offered only $500 in scholarships and wouldn't let me bypass any classes.
>Get forced to have to do math classes of shit I learned in middle school and an English class where I was the only one that recognized Jonathan Swift's A Modest Proposal as satire.
>I dropped out of culinary college after my first year due to boredom/shitty curriculum/lack of prospects/fear/and a sense of unease.
>This was 4 years ago and I've been neeting it up ever since, although I applied for another college, but chickened out/didn't go through with the admissions process.
I'm just a paranoid/fearful little boy that gets illusions of grandeur and lurks internet sites all day/night. At least I have almost no desire to find a female partner or anything even though I do have a sex drive. My experiences with sex were really depersonalizing and alienating. I've also never had a girlfriend of any kind. Hope nobody recognizes me from this, lol.