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59b7be No.220302

Looks like the old one died, so let's get a new one started!

Who here is drunk? I know I am! Almost finished with a bottle of Port, having a good time. Feels good, man…

482042 No.220305

File: 1455177717714.jpeg (6.03 KB, 225x225, 1:1, sober 2.jpeg)

>>220302

Maker of the last pone drunk thread here.

I've gone sober now.


9cc60e No.220309

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I will take a shot in your honor


59b7be No.220314

>>220305

Why would you stop drinking, you pussy bitch? What the hell is so great about being "sober"?


482042 No.220315

>>220309

I got drunk 4 times in a week for absolutely reason. I would drink a bottle of wine before going out. Chances are you don't have a drinking problem like I do.


482042 No.220316

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>>220314

Mental stability

fitness

confidence

not having anxiety

not having hangovers

not having your muscles ache

I could go on.


59b7be No.220317

>>220315

You sound just like me. I'm blackout drunk every other night, and getting high on cough syrup and psychedelics on a weekly basis.

Celestia bless my degenerate self!


59b7be No.220319

>>220316

what a joke

none of those are hardly a reason to go sober

wth

that reads like a High School anti-drug PSA


482042 No.220322

>>220319

>high school

Your not anywhere old enough to understand a drinking problem.


59b7be No.220325

>>220322

>old enough

yeah right

pfff

this is a drinking thread!

What are you trying to do, shame me?


8842d9 No.220327

>>220314

Drinking is fun but not 24/7 dumbass unless you want to be a bum.


59b7be No.220328

>>220327

Consider the world we live in - what sort of man would not want to be intoxicated 24/7?? It's insanity to remain sober!! Sobriety leads to despair, which leads to insanity, and ultimately suicide. The only way to survive in the madness that is the modern world is to drown oneself in chemical inebriation…


5fcbc8 No.220340

At first I thought twilight was eating rocks i the thumbnail, thinking "mmmh, rocks"


5fcbc8 No.220342

>>220316

Isn't anxiety a reason to drink?


59638b No.220363

>>220322

And just how old are you anon? Apparently no one here has the right to speak against what you say since we're just too young.


676e3d No.220391

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>>220342

It relieves it temporarily. But try going on a bender and see how you feel by day 4. Bites you back in the ass hard.


59b7be No.220544

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Getting back on subject… I ended up drinking that entire bottle of Port in a single sitting, which was a bad idea. Been feeling bloated and slovenly all day as a result; not a good feeling at all, going to have to overcompensate with cardio when I do my exercise tomorrow.

For tonight though, I am sipping on Cognac. Not a frequent indulgence, but I was in the mood for something different, and a spirit I wouldn't be tempted to guzzle either.


89eaa9 No.220554

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>>220544

> I ended up drinking that entire bottle of Port in a single sitting

Getting drunk during the day just ends up making me feel like shit by the late afternoon. Then after that I feel sober and either have to sleep it off or get more drunk which is really difficult. Stick to drinking after at least 4pm to avoid this.


59b7be No.220557

>>220554

>stick to drinking after at least 4pm to avoid this

No need to remind me Anon, although I appreciate your concern nonetheless. I'm a Night Owl and work second shift, rarely wake up before noon, so I can get away with drinking until dawn on a daily basis. The aforementioned illness is a holdover from the previous night of drinking, lingering the entire day since I awoke, refusing to leave me in peace. A gross sloppiness akin to what one feels after binging on a holiday feast; as if all that unhealthy fat and empty calories cling to your every cell like a parasite.

It's a disgusting and disheartening feeling, filling one with self-loathing. Being an alcoholic doesn't bother me near as much as the fear that all this drinking may cause me to become some disgusting fatass, even if my lack of eating and constant cardio exercising keeps me respectably underweight.


26d72e No.221819

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>>220305

Yeah my sobriety didn't last. I've cut down a bit but I still get drunk like twice a week sometimes more. I go to the gym 7 times now instead of 4. Wondering what to drink drinking before going to anime club tonight, watching anime with a bunch of people who blatantly don't care about normiehood should be aight


1d0d69 No.221820

>>220317

That's not something to be proud of, Taxman.


26d72e No.221822

>>221820

This probably literally is taxman. I don't know anyone else that age that robotrips. That shit is dangerous.


59b7be No.221846

>>221822

There is nothing wrong with DXM so long as you're careful, and believe me, I've done my research. DXM is a potent dissociative, there is absolutely no reason to denigrate it as a "teenager's" drug.

>>221820

Oh please, you sound just like my mother.


26d72e No.221847

>>221846

Robotripping is something people do before they can drink usually. It's rare for someone to keep doing it for this long. It's not the DXM that's the issue long term it's all the chemical garbage your ingesting in the cough syrup in those sorts of doses.

Got 3 beers and strong ciders drinking now.


59b7be No.221974

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Tonight I've got nothing special, just some cheap Merlot from South Africa (hopefully I'm helping out the oppressed Boers with this purchase). Before it, I was alternating between vodka and cognac for several hours, but again, it was nothing special.

Last night though - I cracked open one of my treasures. Pappy Van Winkle, 15 year old Bourbon. The prize of my collection, obtained back in fall '13 thanks to my liquor store connections. Poured out all that remained, enough for a decent glass. Sure it may have been only a Tuesday night, but in a way it was a special occasion: soon I shall be leaving my dead-end job and beginning a new path in life, one that gives me real hope for the future, and if that isn't an occasion to enjoy a fine drink, I don't know what is.

pic related

>>221847

I've already screwed up my kidneys with prescription painkiller abuse, and my liver is surely no better after four years of incessant binge drinking, so it's not like I care about the damage I could be doing with cough syrup. Besides, I didn't start robotripping until last summer (back when I was 27), so it's not like I've had the time to cause any serious damage. Nor do I know anyone who can hook me up with "real" psychedelics like ket or acid, since I'm a socially retarded shut-in with no IRL friends.

We all die one day and sobriety is a curse, so who cares if you damage your earthly body with substances if the use of them leads one to spiritual revelation? Even momentary escape is better than being constantly drowned in misery and despair.


ea5842 No.222022

Scratchy throat convinced me to get some vodka to try and burn out anything trying to get a hold in there. I'll probably be working on it over the next few days, perhaps mixing with OJ for extra vitamin C. Don't wanna get fucking sick. I tend to go down HARD if I get outright sick.

So… if it's gonna happen, I want whatever bug I get to have to fight to live and get a foothold.

The tipsiness is just a side benefit.


59b7be No.222234

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Drinking German brandy tonight. This stuff is very smooth; compared with Cognac, it's slightly more sweet and full bodied, although it lacks that sharp "twang" you get from a good Cognac.

Good stuff though, and I like it for what it is.


6f5ec3 No.222235

Drank a bottle of Apothic Red and halfway through a Bottle of Cupcake.

Now I'm on one of my many depressive drunken tangents, feels bad as usual,


59b7be No.222236

>>222235

Alcohol always makes everything feel worse… to think, I tried explaining things to my mom, after she caught me two weeks in a row doing psychedelics… yeah, it may be a "drug", but at least psychedelics make me feel euphoric, in the true meaning of the word, and the spiritual insight they grant is beyond the ability of words to describe… To think that alcohol, such a horrible and destructive drug, is legal, while entheogens that can open one's mind to God, the Universe, All that Has Ever Been and Shall Be, are illegal? What kind of messed up world are we living in?

Oh that's right - it's a world controlled by the Jews.


6f5ec3 No.222237

>>222236

I think Alcohol just amplifies whatever emotions you're feeling at the time, thats been my experience anyway.

I feel good now, I just need to avoid topics that get me in a bad mood when drinking.


034210 No.222238

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>>221846

Hey, if by any chance you're still lurking, I wanted to ask something.

I'm that guy who tried DXM for the first time in some other thread.

Went to the top of second plateau, it was pretty neat.

I've been drunk before and it was sort of similar, but weirdly different.

Anyway, is a feeling of hypersensitivity that occasionally comes in waves lasting ~25 seconds a normal side effect?

It's hard to explain, but it was like I could feel the exact temperature of the air around me and every fiber in my couch.

It wouldn't have been so bad if I didn't feel every tooth in my mouth where they touched against my gums. It was pretty unpleasant.

Other than that, I can't say I hated it.

I might try it again some time.


59b7be No.222240

>>222238

Every time I do DXM, it's Fourth Plateau + , so while I don't have any experiences in my memory which relate directly to your own, I can at least extrapolate. See, what you're feeling is the dissociation DXM brings, but not at a high enough dosage that your mind is truly liberated from it's mortal coils. So the experience is akin to being drunk, with all it's associated slovenliness.

DXM is an incredible drug - the most potent legal entheogen (that won't kill you like Datura) that I have experienced so far in my spiritual research. I've heard that it's up there with Ketamine and DMT in high doses, when it comes to transcendent experiences - you see God, and all Ten Dimensions at once - you become one of the Immortals, even if for but a moment.

Don't take my word on that though - when I tried taking an EXTREME dosage of DXM, I went completely delirious: goblins assaulted me, stole my glasses, made me their prisoner, completely vulnerable to assault from demons and other evil entities for hours and hours…

The night I took that Epic dosage, I was out at the local pub. It hit me like a bag full of bricks when I was walking home… I sat down under a tree by a pond, watching a spouting fountain… Felt like I was there for only 45 minutes at best, my thoughts churning and fighting, until they coagulated enough to decide my body needed to head home, to my bed.

Only 45 minutes… yet to my mother, to "real" time, I had been absent for *FOUR* hours. My mother was so worried that she was close to calling the police… She was freaking out, wondering where I had bone for so long… Didn't help her psyche when I showed up, my mind in the Fourth Dimension, seeing all sorts of deities and spirits…

DXM is incredible… truly a Godly entheogen…

I've tried LSD and shrooms, and I can say from my library of experience, DXM is, compared with them, the BEST one can do legally. Please, take my word! DXM is the chemical of GOD!


0955df No.222266

>>222240

>DXM

>>221974

>Wine

Hows it going taxie? I'm very mildly hungover need to get breakfast and go to the gym then check my lessons schedule. I'm debating having some voddy for hair of the dog. Anyone do voddy for that was I a decent experience?


0955df No.222301

Who day drinking here. Havin some voddy.


6ae662 No.222317

>>222301

srsly fampais?

Am drunk


59b7be No.222405

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>>222301

Just got back from a wine tasting at the local high end liquor store, and now I'm drinking Oregon Pinot Noir. From a can. Yeah that's actually a thing, and surprisingly it's pretty decent.


6ae662 No.222406

>>222405

>wine

>can

Interesting. Been drinking since 11am it's now nearly 11pm. Not been more then midly drunk the whole day. This is why I hate liquor tbqh, hard to get drunk off it. Take it easy fampai's. gonna have beers with family then more drinks with friends after.


59b7be No.222426

>>222406

It really isn't that bad; hell I'm surprised at how drinkable it is. Sure it may not be not be the type of wine that leaves a lasting memory, but it tastes like a Pinot Noir from Oregon should, which is what matters.

Aaaaand I've already finished the can, which is equivalent to half a bottle. This is just my pre-game before I head to the pub in a few hours, and I truly get obliterated. Going to shower and make myself presentable right now in fact.


277e4b No.222458

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I drank a crappy bottle of pinot grigio this evening, though I don't much care for whites in the first place, and I usually don't get drunk on wine either. I'm pretty sure it was regifted to me.

What I usually do for a drinking night is start off with a good beer or wine, or if I'm feeling it some whiskey or brandy, and then move on to vodka. I'm getting sick of Majorska and company, though, might just have to try Sobieski or something.

>>222238

Other guy who tried it here, you are probably describing flanging.

https://www.erowid.org/chemicals/dxm/faq/dxm_physiological.shtml#toc.9.2.7

>>222240

How often do you do it?


59b7be No.222531

Feeling pretty drunk… had two glasses of wine and two gin cocktails at the pub, then came home to drink more Asbach. My tolerance is too damn high unfortunately, so I don't feel much. 'Tis a shame.

>>222458

I've cut down to once, maybe twice, a month. Trying to keep from building a tolerance, you know.


ffc941 No.222536

I took a quadruple dopse of sleeping pills and drank a glass of whiskey. Honestly, I am amazed that I am still conscious. That's cool. I need the sleep.


60fb0a No.222547

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guys am i cool yet


47ea2c No.222799

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>>222458

had a bottle of rose' then a couple of beers and fell asleep. Been drinking since Wednesday. I'm onto cheap lager, don't mind the taste at this point. I have some beer left will get some more. I need to be sober for like 3 or 4 hours first though, got some studying to do, go to the gym. Gonna go sober next week till thursday at least for the marxist meeting post pub drink.

>>222531

know the feeling I have 3 pints of beer might buy 5 more, need that to get a buzz at this point.

>>222547

>miller

I'm either drinking cheap beer or wine most of the time after a night or two drinking I don't much care so long as it tastes alright. Your only cool if your drunk. post then.


59b7be No.223409

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Took a few days off from the poison, now that I'm feeling somewhat better and seeing how it's hump day, I'm back at it again. One 12oz bottle of Belgian style Tripel (9.5%) and an equal measure of Imperial IPA (8.7%) down, and I'm onto the brandy… Feeling the buzz, and all is well.


519928 No.223422

>>220328

You can't properly appreciate being drunk when you don't have sobriety to contrast it with.


519928 No.223423

About most of a bottle of cheap cab sav, from the sound of it I'm not half as bad as you bastards.


07163d No.223449

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>>222547

>That cheap shit


643080 No.223465

lol apple cider


715cb9 No.223467

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Had a parking lot party with a few of my friends with some gin and mad dog.


07163d No.223522

>>222237

This

I listen to cheerful music and chat with people while getting drunk to make myself happy. Occasionally I start thinking aggressive thoughts while getting drunk, and have legitimately homicidal thoughts. I try to avoid that, but it can be pretty cathartic at times.


60fb0a No.223644

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>>222799

Naw man, I can't drink, I'm only 19. I just had a legal friend buy it for me so I could shitpost here. Ironic, right?

>>223449

thanks man


6cb0f6 No.223672

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>>223644

Thank god there is a drunk thread. Honestly i'm glad you /pone is still here. After the exodus from halfchan and the second one, even through the hiatus, i'm glad to see these threads. I have see these threads get killed on /mlp/ back in 2013

>back in 2013

Hell anything a month ago is considered 'old'

Anyway, My drunken question to you horse fuckers is how has pony changed your life? Has coming into this world of technicolor horses affected/impacted your life?

Mainly due to waifu

>listen to more country music

>be involved in a more southern lifestyle

>drink corn whiskey

>realize that the country life is amazing

Would have created a new thread for this but i'm drunk and found this thread.


01b64b No.223849

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>alcohol


c9884f No.223869

>>220342

I used to smoke a lot of pot to make my social anxiety less serious.


a590c1 No.224349

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I get drunk in 2 days. I'm on a cut till I lose like 40 pounds of fat so I only drink once a week.

Might even watch MLP when I get back from the pub like the glory days.


a590c1 No.224351

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I get drunk in 2 days. I'm on a cut till I lose like 40 pounds of fat so I only drink once a week.

Might even watch MLP when I get back from the pub like the glory days


c0e73b No.224497

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ok am drunk

what do I do now n this thread


f260d8 No.224617

>>224497

Having made the last drunk thread (before spiralling into a drinking problem and then curtailing said problem). I will say: shitpost.


59b7be No.224626

After three nights off, I'm back to the bottle: tonight I've got Spanish Rioja and tequila. Taking my time with the wine since it's pretty good, but hopefully not too slow that I won't get a buzz.

>>223672

>My drunken question to you horse fuckers is how has pony changed your life? Has coming into this world of technicolor horses affected/impacted your life?

Without pone, I would not have the group of good friends I have now. I kid you not, I was so socially retarded I couldn't even make friends on the Internet before I got involved in the pony community. It is also thanks to pone that I got introduced to such amazing things as tulpas, psychedelics, and the occult, which made me realize how much more there is to the universe than what us mortals can comprehend. Ponies are my religion, my philosphy, my raison d'être.

>>223849

>>223869

If I had access to pot, I have no doubt I could cut my drinking in half, but sadly I don't live in a legal State or know any dealers.


19deb6 No.225306

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>>224626

Drinking today fampais.

yay


783127 No.227064

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hit a few too many high gravs at the pub

wake up a little drunk

hangover hits in the middle of work

try to puke discreetly in office bathroom stall

not sure if discreet or if no one gives a shit but nobody says anything

one week later

h1b hanging out by the sink

for some reason our indians spend a lot of time in the bathroom but this guy looks a little different

see him spit in the sink

has the puke spits? yes, the puke spits

i know your ways

then he go back to stall and start horking

[mah nigga]


783127 No.227070

>>223672

>My drunken question to you horse fuckers is how has pony changed your life?

Before it was like the old song: where you are now you can't even imagine what the bottom will be like. Always felt a bit off, but I thought I could power through it and live the good life with good image management.

Pones ended that for me. Not right away, but over time I realized that the problem was me: that it wasn't the specifics of anything that I did, but me myself that was bringing me down. That I was fated to be shat upon by everyone even as I was derided for my so-called privilege.

At first it was devastating. And it still is. I always wanted to be accepted and that hasn't gone away. But I've come to embrace the freedom that comes with knowing I'll never measure up. Not that I wouldn't trade it, but, there are good things here, too, and it's better that I enjoy them for what they are instead of pining after something I'll never have.


277e4b No.227212

File: 1458352243908.png (145.57 KB, 1204x784, 43:28, 1435208114716.png)

Has anyone used kratom? I downed a green, grainy, vegetal slurry of the powder a little while ago. Stuff has been treating me well as an end-of-week treat.

>>223672

I became a lot less autistic. I was a total dweeb when I first started watching. Well, I still am a total dweeb, but I'm great at socializing, public speaking, and started taking care of my appearance. Started exercising and writing regularly. I'm no longer suicidal or generally depressive; I've largely come to terms with the world. I'm pretty much a textbook charismatic eccentric.

I also stopped dating because I realized that 2d poni is better.

I can't say how much is directly related to pony and horsefuckery on the chans, but there is definitely something to it. I wouldn't trade the ride for anything.

Love you faggots

Check out this essay btw: http://alternative-right.blogspot.com/2016/03/in-defense-of-bachelors-virgins-and.html


ba979e No.227238

Boss' boss inviting many to his birthday.

At a karoake bar. Says he intends to drink heartily.

They all know I'm a brony. What're the chances I could bring a laptop with 'my little karaoke' hmm? Sing some Lunar Pirate after ordering a Speed Demon from the waittress. After explaining it's a trash can for ponies.


f99a3c No.227240

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>>227238

Well, right now your coworkers think of you as a bit of an eccentricity, but until they experience your autism in person they won't understand just how deep it runs. So I'd advise against it unless you want to risk being ostracized.

but since you're gonna do it anyways, how about filming yourself for the keks?


255228 No.227241

>tfw I want to get drunk but am afraid I'd either go into a blackout rage or kill myself

>tfw the very things I do to relax have begun to cause stress

>tfw even if I wanted to get drunk and resolved to do it, no one around me would let me

>tfw I want to die, but I'm scared shitless of the void

>tfw no face for how stressed sleep makes me

>tfw no dreams in five years and the last one was about the day I die, including the date

fuck

someone help me relax and cheer up, please


6864dc No.227246

>>227241

>>tfw I want to get drunk but am afraid I'd either go into a blackout rage or kill myself

are you 12 or some native race not allowed to use mouthwash?


255228 No.227247

>>227246

I've had severe depression for years now, and I've repressed all emotion

Basically I think If by some miracle I managed to get drunk, I'd flip my shit.


255228 No.227248

and by managed, I mean I have a bullshit high tolerance for intoxicating substances, so it's hard as hell for me to get drunk


6864dc No.227249

>>227247

>>227248

get your shit together, life is short. that void may be a lot closer than you think. may as well enjoy life while you can.


255228 No.227253

>>227249

I tried, my shit's falling out of reach.

My father chose a bitch who ruined my life for five years or so, I started acting out, did a lot of stupid shit, made bad habits, some of which never went away.

I did a retarded thing a while back, got in a lot of trouble, got kinda lucky with the law, and I'm teetering on the edge of failure. I just got kicked out of my last place, and if I fuck up in college (which I am almost guaranteed to do at this point) I'll get kicked out of here as well. My life was going to hell even before that horrible woman however, I've been fucked up for a while.

I can't even relax, as the things I do to relax make my stress worse to the point of wanting to break shit. I just want to find something to make me laugh genuinely and forget everything for a while.

Something other than alchy, sadly…


6864dc No.227258

>>227253

does breaking anything make a difference? i surprisingly have lived a similar life. i accepted that i needed to forgive and forget.


255228 No.227261

>>227258

Normally, I'm the same way, but I just spent like five hours getting worked up while trying to do the the shit that relaxes me.

And breaking things sometimes helps, but I can't afford to, and some of the things I would aren't mine.

Once I start breaking shit, I don't stop for a long fucking time. the last time I did, I was punching holes in walls and smashing shit with my bat. I finally stopped when I fucked up the bat and the rock I grabbed broke.


6864dc No.227265

>>227261

funny thing is that i had a bat too. you'll get over it anon. someday


255228 No.227266

>>227265

>depression

>over it

I fucking wish


6864dc No.227267

>>227266

i know it may seem harder than it sounds, it takes time.i still go through it, but it's still not as bad as it was.


255228 No.227269

>>227267

The one benefit to my state of mind is that I can't bring myself to die.

I have gone up to the edge three times, nearly had it and shut down. twice because I had a single person I thought might miss me, and the third and final time was after I lost any and all faith and realized that if I did it, that'd be it. I'd be done forever. That scared me so fucking much that I've never even considered an hero-ing as a a serious path.

The shittiest thing is, I know there is no getting around this, because my family has a history of mental issues. It's in every generation for the last century or more, and almost no one has missed being fucked up in the head. I can only think of two, maybe three truly stable people in my family. Not to mention the issues with our genes.


6864dc No.227270

>>227269

be your own man.


255228 No.227272

>>227269

Tried that.

There's a reason that despite available rooms on the main floor, I sleep alone on the lower floor.

I can't handle people or life.

Depression and stress peak when interacting and force me into a state of mind where I get really aggressive and nearly violent. Good with animals and kids though.


6864dc No.227273

>>227272

me too, do you know why?


255228 No.227277

>>227272

I've had a life time of getting kicked around and generally shit on until it got to where I started getting assaulted regularly, not even by a specific group, but by a ton of people from different cliques. I ended up becoming isolated until highschool, when I hit like my sixth growth spurt and the final fight came down, ending with a shattered nose that needed surgery and a facial cast. I have reason to hate trying to talk to people that aren't really close to me. I've even had family that are just dead to me. My father's whole side, for instance. Each of them has done shit that has them on my Forever™ shitlist. I can't stand the false shit, the small talk, all the fluff. If I can't just walk up to someone, crack a joke about murder, rape, and a coathanger abortion that ends with her dying of infection, I don't even talk to them.

If I can't be 100% myself, I can't do it anymore.

I can put up a mask that could hide anything, but I refuse to. If I can't act the way I want around someone, I can't trust them not to betray me later on. I've learned from experience how to find out if someone can be relied on. Woman after woman after woman has been a liar, a cheater or just fucking crazy. Not the fun kind, either, the "I have to watch her every second or she'll an hero" kind. The kind whom, after I moved found a guy EXACTLY like me, appearance and all and got him to marry her. Not to mention she cuts, drinks, smokes, and cheated on me twice.

I have reasons to not interact and for even small talk to stress me out.


f4d0fc No.227279

>go out drinking with friends

>end up finding out friend has drinking issues

>wants me to help sort out their life since I'm somehow more functional ever as a horsefucker

Just wanted a fun night of drinking but found this shit out, is this what it's like being a normie?


255228 No.227280

>>227279

I doubt anyone here can answer that, given that even being here shows we aren't quite normal.


ba979e No.227308

>>227240

>until they experience

I'm forty years old. I don't care what they think anymore. I've been pretty open with my autism – pony background, playing pony music without headphones (at appropriate levels).

I asked opinions about the laptop idea, they all decided licensing was the major drawback. Its why my coworker won't be able to sing Misfits "Die, Die, Die" and be forced to settle for the (paid-for) Metallica cover.




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