This is what I do right now. I haven't been as fucked up as these days.
> wake up at 7
> drink coffee, try to shit so I don't shit myself on the way to school, take shower
> go to school at 8 ( I'm 20 years old, plz no ban)
> anxiety tripping throughout the train trip, try to ignore people as much as possible
> get to school, understand nothing
> go home at 13:30 ( I just had a week at home because my paranoia was pretty fucked up, and I was waiting for the drugs to kick in, also I had a pretty bad seizure)
> at home an hour later
> watch movies and tv until evening
> maybe eat something, but sometimes I forget
> shit or fap ( and hate myself after that)
> take antidepressants and antipsychotics at 21:00
> watch shitty movies or play vidya until I force myself to go to bed
> wake up next morning
> ask myself why I even get up
usually I would drink drink during breaks, but right now I'm on antidepressants and shit psychotic meds, so I can't drink. I can't drive right now either ( because uhh you might get a seizure it's dangerous)
I have a nice big bottle of stolichnaya waiting for when I'm done taking these fucking shit pills.
I'm hoping they'll work, because I've been feeling like shit since I was a little child