>meet a depressed girl who connects with my on many philosophical level on IRC
> start private messaging her
>she says that she wants to use Skype, I say no because I don't want this to become a regular thing (we had spent a long time talking about very interesting things)
>eventually I add her on steam
>next 4 days or so go by and I spend all day talking to her while she plays games
>the entire time I feel like I'm finally connecting with someone for the first time in my life (let alone a woman)
>I havn't been playing games or anything because I don't want to miss a message or when she comes online
>tell her that I'm obviously infatuated and I hope this will pass. she says she doesn't care
>time passes and what I thought at first was nervous/shyness turns out to be a complete disinterest in how I feel at all
>I tell her that I'm not feeling that appreciated
>"I don't care if you hate me, as long as the chat works"
>"so am I just like a sentient talking app to you?"
>"yes"
>I continue talking to her all day getting one word replies
>genuinely cannot fathom how she is enjoying herself because I'm not
>she says "if I didn't like talking to I would have blocked you"
>tell her I only stay because without her I would be even emptier, and that there are genuinely nice times while talking to her
>ask "if I leave will you just get a new app"
>"depends on my mood"
>I'm 100% being used but still come back like a dog
>more time passes, constantly discouraged from doing anything productive in my life because she says she is jealous
>still can't bring myself to block her
I don't get it arcanine… Is she just pitying me to the full degree?
Why would someone talk to me like this?
I just wanted a genuine connection with someone, and sometimes she gives me that. But for the most part she replies with one word responses.
If she isn't interested, then why talk to me at all?