/r9k/ - ROBOT∞

I haven't had any social interactions in years other than two word exchanges with my family

>born with mild autism/cerebral palsy and /almost/ died because did not have enough air

>rasied by single mom and dislike males because bad role models and other males bullying me through middle school and males who tried to help me but fucked me over.

>have a strong urge to become a female. female-in-male body.

>allergic to own hair

>ibs [so no more pizza or cake for me]

>headaches daily [hopeing for cancer] because of add

>cannot handle much sugar or i get mouf pains in be gums [so no more soda for me]

>besides almost dying at birth, i have; drowned/o.d [pills]/hung/poison/cutted/choked yet am still living

>i do suffer from depression/stress/anxiety/autism/add/cerebral palsy/depersonalizion and alice-in-wonderland syndrome

>i get high off audio

besides all that, am just a lazy nihilist shut-in neet couch potato living in pre-08 and getting 500usd a month from ssi.

morning;

>1 advil

>1 allergy pill [hair tickles me noes]

>1 flitstone tablet

>brush teeth

>deo

>freebreeze [a few sprays]

through out while am awake;

>6 mini corn dogs

>1 cereal box [takes me about 3 days to finish a box]

>2 packs of little bit muffins

>1 bag of chips [takes me almost 2days to finish]

>sunnyd/fruit punch/lemonade/lemonade tea/unsweeten tea/green tea/lactos milk [these take me about 4 days to finish because i get the biggest jug the store has]

>leftover fastfood [3burgers with just ketchup/4nuggets/fries]

dinner;

>2 chicken tendies/6 pizza rolls/6 tots/6 boneless wings [mostly 2/4 of those things i have but if really hungry then eat all 4]

>6 mini corndogs

>1 tv dinner

>fastfood

i sleep for about 8 - 12hours

am 5'7/136lb 30x32 as a white male at age 26.

i take a shower;

>when a get a rash

>go out to eat with irl fam

>just need to wake meself up

>after i take a shit

i hear all these people dying from cancer or getting killed by something on the news and am like 'where the fuck is my cancer?'. not that i am in a rush to die, just my life since 2010 [grad hs and got on ssi with 500usd a month] as been like a slice-of-life anime and i have no regrets think i can think of. no debts to owe. no rent/bills to pay since i live with my parents. no chores to do but taking care of me wash once the bin fills up. i used to get the trash can and bring it in while getting the mail but since step-dad is back living with me - he is the house maid because that ocd. i get high off audio. wear my ddcup silicone tits around the house but the shoestring digs into me neck so i have to take me tits off when that happens. if they kick me out, i will go to the police station about report them for kicking me out because i have MILD autism/cerebal palsy and muh LGBT RIGHTS..if all else fails then go to the ward for like 3days then report them again adding muh ward trip.

i do help around the house when asked/needed.

i mostly picture it as if am on my own since am moving into me own apartment this year.

longest time of the day is around 3pm est - 4pm est. just feels like turning off everything and laying down on the ground while the light hits you.

i do not drugs and i do not drink.

still a virgin with no irl friends/gf.

most of all of that was from http://8ch.net/tulpa/res/14147.html

>>115581

Anon, trust me. You have cancer.

>>115545

post pic OP lets see if we can make you look more appealing

just blur out your eyes or blackbar them, nobody gives a fuck about finding you

we could make you more attractive, since attractiveness positively correlates with being hired

>>115581

devote yourself to science and become a savant

know things others don't then make fun of them for getting owned by an autistic cripple

>>115603

No way. I just tried taking a selfie and almost killed myself in disgust. I'd rather look like Quasimodo than the Portrait of Dorian Gray that I am.

>>115545

Same here. Too dumb for technical work like engineering or programming and unable to maintain basic interaction with others so immediately disqualified from menial work that requires interfacing with others.

No man's land. At least dumb normalfags have good motor skills and social ability to compensate for their lack of intelligence. No such luck here.

>>115609

its an anonymous image baord who gives a fuck

you even care about what anonymous retards on le internetz think of you, maybe that's your problem

>>115586

fucking yes! cancer! 14 more years until i can go on adventures with me tulpa.

someone draw a fat neckbeard fighting throw a crowd at gamestop while yelling 'out of my way! out of my way! can't you see?, i have cancer and i need this!' and i will draw ye something in return. draw4draw?

>>115603

i do this anyways.

>they make fun of me

>i tell them what i have

>they feel bad

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rrdoynCu6F8

>>115705

today i saw a nigger with big tits working at mackers. i walked up to the counter and looked at them and gave muh order to her tits.

>30 years old

>NEET

>manlet

>haven't talked to anyone outside of my family in years

>barely talk to my family

>not really interested in anything other than being alone in my room

>useless degree

>years of menial work experience, nothing worth mentioning on a resume

>24yo, live with parents

>flunking out of college

>manlet, shitty chubby face

>apathy, low impulse control

>fap once or twice a day, the height of my day

>no work experience whatsoever

>fucked a hooker once, got chlamidya

>exhude a halo of weirdness, the bus may often be crowded but the sit next to mine will always be empty

>>115545

>be me in high school

>usually first person on the bus

>bus begins to fill up

>girl sees an empty seat, sees that its near me and sits on at the tip of another seat with two people already on it

>half way through the bus ride the bus driver pulls over and uses the microphone to tell her to sit near me

>she hesitantly does so amid dead fucking silence

>the whole bus snickers

Just…

>>115581

nux it pains me to read this shit…i don't even know what to say ;_;

>Paranoid delusional schizophrenic

>Take high dosage medication that is slowly killing my liver

>Drink every weekend to escape from the pain and possibly just wanting to die

>Have to lie about it to the psychiatrist I see every three months who is more interested in how fat I'm getting because of the medication

>Have to live with my mom and her boyfriend because I can't get a job

>Bright side is at least they're understanding about my illness

>Trying to get disability so I can pay for the $858 worth of medication I go through in a month

>Too white to get disability

>Anxiety every time I go out of the house

>I hide it well because I used to be in sales before I was afflicted and know how to act to be perceived well

>Never know if certain sounds or things I see are real

>Have to adopt a worldview of no nonsense in order to keep sane

>Became an atheist because I was having thoughts that I might be the reincarnation of Jesus

>Don't believe in ghosts, aliens, angels, reptileans, or anything /fringe/ related where even normal people believe in it for fun

>Kind of want a tulpa because I think it would be very possible because of the delusions and the crippling loneliness but afraid the paranoia would turn her into a monster and become a living nightmare

>Take a shower once a week because fuck it I'm not going anywhere

>My memory reminds me of everything embarrassing or bad I've ever done regularly throughout the day

>Have developed a tic where I have to say something loudly but not shouting in order to interrupt my train of thought

>The only good thing I can do is grow my hair out to donate to Locks of Love so some lady with cancer can have a wig made out of my hair

>It's the only thing making me feel like a contributing person

>My mom has a rare auto immune disease and keeps talking about dying when she gets drunk

>I wonder almost everyday if that's the last day I'm going to be able to say I love you to her

>Will probably become homeless or kill myself when she dies

>Fantasize about stabbing myself through the carotid artery because I think that would be the least painful and quickest way to die

without some elaborate science experiment