I need drugs for adhd-pi / negative schizophrenia symptoms / procrastination / fatigueCan be nootropics, prescription stuff, research chemicals, illegal drugs. whatever. I am willing to take anything, even mercury.I have following problems:

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Arcanine 03/21/16 (Mon) 15:21:04 No.117214

I need drugs for adhd-pi / negative schizophrenia symptoms / procrastination / fatigue

Can be nootropics, prescription stuff, research chemicals, illegal drugs. whatever. I am willing to take anything, even mercury.

I have following problems:

adhd-pi (working memory, executive functions, daydreaming)

negative & cognitive schizophrenia symptoms (I don't mind most of them)

fatigue (mental & physical). I often don't start tasks because I'm scared off effort.

procrastination

I can only do instant gratification. I have RESISITING willpower - I can NOT eat unhealthy tasty food, I can NOT buy stuff I don't need. But I don't have ACTING willpower - I can't force myself to do needed, important task.

What I have tried before:

caffeine. is a scam, doesn't work. gives anxiety at high doses and hypertension.

2-fa. another scam, destroys your body, gives hypertension, tachycardia, anxiety.

eph. somewhat scam, just makes you forced to do a task, even if it's stupid task like playing games or masturbation. Doesn't let you choose task you want to do.

St john worth - dangerous, long half-life, almost killed me. More evil than amphetamine.

Recently I was out of money, unable to buy food, almost homeless. But now has some money, so can buy some evil illegal nootropics. Just gimme names of them, and explain how will they help me.

What I consider after some reading:

sulbutiamine - but isn't that placebo/scam?

iph - I'm afraid it's a scam. And I already did ethylphenidate.

caffeine + l-theanine. - probably placebo?

dextroamphetamine - is any difference with fluoroamphetamines?

tianeptine - but it also raises mood, I don't want that.

CDP-choline - possibly scam. Also I'm scared it will change me irreversibly.

SEMAX

mementine - Huge half-life. Gives dissociation, I think I already have a lot of it…

Acetylcholinesterase inhibitor - that could work, but it's side effects could result in disaster

aniracetam - placebo/scam?

modafinil - isn't it just stronger coffee?

methylphenidate - I already tried eph, mph could be worse (norarenaline activity)

nicotine - it destroys heart and body

Any other suggestions? And comments for my considerations?

Arcanine 03/21/16 (Mon) 15:48:58 No.117225

I tried 4mg nicotine, but nothing happens

Arcanine 03/21/16 (Mon) 16:03:20 No.117233

>>117214

Cardio.

Arcanine 03/21/16 (Mon) 16:10:05 No.117237

>>117233

what? you meant exercise? it only makes me more fatigued

Arcanine 03/21/16 (Mon) 17:48:37 No.117254

>>117214

maybe work on your will instead of working on finding drugs. You increase your will by exercising it, you set a task to accomplish them you fail and then you get back up trying again. you don't despair or hate yourself, you evaluate your reasons for why you want this thing and why you failed then you forgive and love yourself and then you ask for forgiveness of God and you end up trying again.

there is no shortcut for this, drugs will only make it worse.

Arcanine 03/21/16 (Mon) 19:46:23 No.117267

>>117214

modafinil is more than just "stronger coffee", I'd say to give that a go.

You're better off doing what >>117233 and >>117254 said, though.

Arcanine 03/21/16 (Mon) 23:22:25 No.117293

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The first time after tripping on a 2/8th oz of shrooms my focus, creativity, and productivity exploded. All my stress and anxiety vanished and I felt so bored wasting time I started doing shit even while tired as fuck. Overnight I went from browsing imageboards a few hours a day to only half an hour a couple times a week because they weren't as interesting anymore.

The only thing they won't help you with is fatigue. You're gonna be tripping balls for 8 hours unable to do any work and feel tired physically and mentally the next day. The changes on your cognition are permanent though.

My first trip gave a deeper appreciation and understanding of everything. There was no more resistance. My senses and intuition had become so much clearer. I knew what I had to do, why I wanted to do it, and started doing it.

Arcanine 03/21/16 (Mon) 23:36:43 No.117295

wtf that guy cutting open a coconut? "what's inside" what the fuck do you think's inside it's a fucking coconut

that kid is gonna grow up to be such a shitty teenager

OP eat some 2-FMA or microdose LSD

Arcanine 03/22/16 (Tue) 01:30:47 No.117305

>>117254

>You increase your will by exercising it, you set a task to accomplish them you fail and then you get back up trying again.

that's a lie. I did complete tasks before, but didn't make me stronger, but fatigued, exhausted. If training will worked, I would have better will every next day. But it doesn't work, so I don't.

>you don't despair or hate yourself, you evaluate your reasons for why you want this thing and why you failed then you forgive and love yourself

What reasons? The reasons are I am unable to, too much effort, I am unable to effort. I need drugs.

>and then you ask for forgiveness of God and you end up trying again.

I won't ask for forgivness, nobody. And when I meet god I will put knife into his eye socket. And will rape him then.

>there is no shortcut for this, drugs will only make it worse.

Can't be worse, so I am not scared of drugs.

>>117267

>>117293

that doesn't sound good. I do not want to lower anxiety, stress. I want to be miserable.

Also taking a trip could be risky for me.

>>117295

>OP eat some 2-FMA or microdose LSD

I have 2-FMA but when I tried 2-FA it almost killed me, gives huge hypertension, tachycardia, body shaking. I expect 2-FMA would give similar results. Yes, I used low dose.

> microdose LSD

Arcanine 03/22/16 (Tue) 03:59:39 No.117317

>>117305

>I won't ask for forgivness, nobody. And when I meet god I will put knife into his eye socket. And will rape him then.

Careful with all that edge.

If you genuinely are having symptoms of schizophrenia, if I were you, I would not do any psychedelics (i.e. lsd or shrooms). For normal people, the anons who recommended them are right in that if taken in moderation they can seriously improve your life, but for people with warning signs of severe mental illness (particularly schizophrenia) they can seriously fuck you over. It doesn't even have to be a bad trip for it to fuck you up. It happened to Syd Barrett, it can happen to you.

That being said, if you're exaggerating your symptoms of schizophrenia, then it might be worth considering.

Arcanine 03/23/16 (Wed) 02:26:50 No.117509

>>117317

>Careful with all that edge.

I no careful, I stronger that gods, they weak.

>If you genuinely are having symptoms of schizophrenia, if I were you, I would not do any psychedelics (i.e. lsd or shrooms). For normal people, the anons who recommended them are right in that if taken in moderation they can seriously improve your life, but for people with warning signs of severe mental illness (particularly schizophrenia) they can seriously fuck you over. It doesn't even have to be a bad trip for it to fuck you up. It happened to Syd Barrett, it can happen to you.

>That being said, if you're exaggerating your symptoms of schizophrenia, then it might be worth considering.

I do not have psychosis, so maybe I could try LSD. But I am afraid because it can change me in way I do not want, for example it could make me a happy relaxed friendly person. I do not want that.

Actually I wish I stay how I am, I just need option to temporary activate mode where I can do important tasks.

Arcanine 03/23/16 (Wed) 04:23:02 No.117545

Oh, you posted this shitty thread here, too. Attention whore.

Since I'm not going to bother unhiding your shit thread you dumped on >>>/kind/ to copy and paste my response, I'll just politely point to what I said because I know you read it. Fuck you.