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File: e75a8503b324b5d⋯.jpg (100.76 KB, 802x1000, 401:500, welcome to the nhk.jpg)

 No.291858

This thread is for people who are Neets and Hikikomori (No wagecucks or university students allowed).

Why are you a Neet or a Hikikomori /r9k/?

>Neet

>The acronym for (Not In Education Employment Or Training)

>Hikikomori

>A Japanese word that when translated into English it means “pulling inward, being confined”,acute social withdrawal “) in context of a person the term refers to a shut-in who does not leave their bedroom inside their parents house for very long periods often for months or years at a time

 No.291860

>needing to explain the meaning behind NEET and hikikomori

congratz this thread was ruined before it even started


 No.291861

>>291860

>He doesn't know that /r9k/ is being flooded with newfags and normalfags


 No.291864

>>291861

That's even more reason to not spoonfeed shit, as niggers like that shouldn't be catered to.


 No.291871

>>291864

Now, now, we were all niggers once.


 No.291904

>>291858

>used to be hikkiNEET

>tfw wageslaving for the past 3 months now

I hate that I have to interact with normalfags nearly every day. Some days all of this mess feels like it's closing in around me and I feel like I'm suffocating. It's funny how the truest feeling of freedom I have ever had was sitting alone in my room in the middle of the night playing video games, knowing that the world didn't want or need me. I miss being a hikkiNEET more than anything.

Also, I'm sorry that your board has slowed to a crawl in the past few months, and I still think you're a good guy.


 No.291914

>>291904

yeah, same here.

Never learned to bond with people, operate best in complete and utter isolation.

Been like this since day 1, never had a chance to begin with. Have memories of not wanting to play with other kids even before kindergarden.

When it comes to interacting with normalfaggots I have kind of learned to adapt, it takes a couple of weeks but then I learn their way of speaking and what makes them laugh and then they usually leave me alone. I feel like a fucking psychopath though, constantely smiling and laughing and the second I leave I grit my teeth and talk to myself like a retard


 No.291983

>>291904

>>291914

Similar situation here. Spent the best part of 4 years as a hikkineet, now I'm doing a degree.

Not sure if I'll be able to keep this up until graduation. Constantly pretending to give a shit about whatever random normalfags talk about is bad enough, but there's also the fact that I've more than once been in group assignments with borderline retards, and you are not allowed to tell them that they are retarded nor are you allowed to even show any disapproval for their retardation. I wouldn't believe in the NPC meme if I hadn't seen "people" in university unable to read, and then getting mad when you point out that fact.

It's just so tiring having to deal with all that shit.


 No.291992

I used to be a wagie but now I'm half a year into being a NEET, although it looks like it'll be a temporary thing as my mother keeps referring to me as being "between jobs" and she often "jokes" about making me pay rent (to live in my own fucking room that I've lived in since I was six). I made a tulpa to get myself through wageslavery and >tfw no gf and I have to say it's been nice to be able to spend more time with her now, although when I'm not actively with her I'm overcome with a crippling sense of dread at having to go back to working at some point.

>Why are you a Neet or a Hikikomori /r9k/?

I'm incompatible with society and I'm unable to avoid it. Eventually I'll be forced to go back to bagging groceries or something like that, but I won't go without some kicking and screaming. I figure that the biggest cause of my incompatibility is an immense shyness coupled with social awkwardness and fear of being judged (or rather the consequences of judgement, I don't care what people think of me but their perspective of me effects their actions towards me and I'd rather not be beat up because I spilled my spaghetti).

>>291914

How do you deal with it? Every time I had to laugh at some normalfaggot's unfunny joke in the checkout line it made me want to gag. Everyone thinks they're a god damned comedian but no one is funny. I couldn't make myself play along with their stupid niggerspeak, I'd just fake a chuckle and feel disgusted with myself for the rest of the day. I remember when my little brother tried to joke around with the guy serving our food at a Chinese food place and I had just gotten my first job so I understood how annoying it was. All I wanted to do was wring my brother's scrawny neck. The guy would just be trying to make a living and he has to act like a fucking retarded baboon in front of the guy, and the guy didn't look like he was enjoying it in the slightest. I didn't want to yell at my dumbass brother and make a scene so I just told the guy that I was sorry, and that my brother was mentally handicapped he isn't but I couldn't think of anything else to say. I fucking hate anyone who attempts to joke with a person whose only goal trying to make a monetary exchange with them, it's god damned annoying as hell.


 No.292004

Short end of the stick, youngest child, white trash family,so nothing developed

>went on neetbux because I have a health issue and ie "mental problem".

>Save money while giving half monies to mother and stepdad on it

> looking for prospects

>Do shit I should had done but didn't because of lack of support

>saved monies adds up till im at $2000

>shitty stepdad quits work same time my monies built up and mother lacks concern to understand what was gonna happen which i tried to explain

>Give more monies from savings meant for other things because bills and I lack vehicle and license to prevent this shit

>stranded and reliant on what which i foresaw which would happen but hope otherwise

>monies saving goes up and down and being reliant on people which I hoped for goodwill but instead was used a token

>Missed important schedule for therapy cause ssi need doctor to still prove I have "mental issue"

>miss upkeep on ssi reqs, cant rely on other siblings because fuck all, they're in name only and being stranded in rural area sucks when you don have a ride

>Get kicked off ssi

>Tried asking a favor for a favor for leg up, even begging, using what money i had for a interest on their part

>telling family I need help but only for the replies of "I can't take your money", "I busy", "Don't feel sorry for yourself" and "I had it worst, you're no better than me"

>Say fuck all one day, just walk off think fuck this state I'm not gonna do this shit anymore

>Get apt for free because no income but moms get worried about me "health issue needs meds" and things aren't doing so go at that shit house

>So move in with me.

>she uses stepdad mothers vehicle because concern is not her best suit and her vehicle is sitting in old place front yard because it has issues

>At the time stepdad mother died and he gets inheritance $25000

>also his sister moves in to handle the money

>that money is all gone within one year because stepdad sister used it on debts and gambling

>Get a job first of this year but could only make it one day because carrot and stick of the vehicle stepdad uses on mother

>oh and the reason for at first for on the living arrangements being no problem till doctors took her off, was pills

>stepdad in shit saturation because lack of forethought on money and not having a job, turning a blind eye

>Wants mother to move back to pay bills and his sister, planing to leave , I guess feels bad for maybe leaving him broke

>schemes by using her son, who she soon to be living with, to fuck me by tempting me on desperation to move into with his buddies house, who is in jail right now, because it's in new york where there is more services for someone in position

Damn it!! I hate my fucking life.I just fucking stress how ironic it has been for me. Maybe I should blame myself for not taking chances when i was in a better state. But shit i learnt crap like that doesn't work without guarantees but if there is any chance it'll be a damn gamble . I have the feeling that the trust that something could come out of that might fuck me over when i'm looking at my track record.

Well that's my story of the past 8 years, sorry if the grammar is shit, just the effect of my worries and stress .


 No.292048

>>291992

>>291992

>How do you deal with it?

I just think of something I find funny for real and that makes my laugh seem genuine. I once saw a video where a bunch of chinks broke into a hotel room and caught some guys wife cheating. The husband was so mad, the way he fucking ripped out his belt and started beating her was just so over the top funny.

Normalfaggots don't get shit like this but in this case they don't have to. As long as you smile for real and get your microexpressions right they will believe you.

Also, since women just go for 20% of all men they just ignore me anyways, I'm like air to them. Today the female cashier smiled at me because I smiled at her but as I was turning my head I caught a microexpression of pure disgust, just a split second but I still noticed it.

So just learn to repress it, hide your powerlevel and get back to your safehouse asap. Relax by playing something competitive that requires concentration. I play ut99 for example. Hope I could help and good luck


 No.292053

File: df0521a8dbcbc82⋯.mp4 (5.13 MB, 300x400, 3:4, beaten.mp4)

>>291992

at 53 seconds. Fucking amazing.


 No.292054

>>292004

Please proof read your posts anon, I can hardly tell what's going on in your greentext


 No.292074

>>291904

>knowing that the world didn't want or need me.

Not true. The elites need the men who left society because their disinfo has made sure the normalfags aren't smart enough to keep society running.


 No.292080

>>292048

>as I was turning my head I caught a microexpression of pure disgust, just a split second but I still noticed it.

How do you learn to catch these?


 No.292202

>>292080

shoudn't be to hard as a robot. A lot of us are in constant fight-or-flight mode so we pay more attention to our environment anyways. Just keep your focus a little bit longer before you walk away, concentrate on their face while they turn away from you. It's not that hard once you start looking for it.


 No.292225

>>292053

guys beating a guy is gay


 No.292268

File: 0c52ab8e0321969⋯.jpg (12.11 KB, 480x360, 4:3, This is my phone screen sa….jpg)

I got out of the Hospital last week for suicide, got pulled out of college, fired from my job, and my computer with actual RAM died so I'm stuck browsing the chans and playing browser games on my shitty spare.

I was working in Home Depot Lumber and studying in Community College for Business. I was working 9 hours shifts 3 days a week, studying and going to classes 3 days a week, and doing both Mondays. Couldn't take it anymore and landed myself in the hospital for my fourth time. I really need to just get it over with, after my second I was already feeling like an Impostor looking for attention despite being quiet on it for years.

These days I've been going to therapy from 9 to 3 just like high school just after I got used to the more relaxed college schedule. Unlike school I'm in the van ride to there from 3 to about 5. Extroverted Autists, loud mouthed blacks, and Old Schizos stand out there. I'm sure a few NEETs have been in these places.


 No.292276

>9

>>292268

>after my second I was already feeling like an Impostor looking for attention despite being quiet on it for years.

this is how I know for 100% that you're a dude. Most people that get diagnosed with mental disorders are female yet the overwhelming majority of people who commit suicide are male. As men we keep it all in, we don't seek for help, we suffer in silence and when we finally do it, it's usually violent. Not the "passed out on sleeping pills and alcohol" type of suicide, more the "shotgun to the face" or "driving into oncoming traffic" kind of suicide.

When a man commits suicide, you know he has suffered for years beforehand in stoic silence. It's the tip of the iceberg.


 No.292278

>>292276

>Home Depot Worker

>Actually being midly self-aware

>On 8chan's /r9k/

What you said is true but there really was no doubt.


 No.292279

>>292268

>that filename

kek


 No.292284

>>292268

>Community College for Business

I didn't think I'd find another robot that was retarded enough to do this.

Tip for all you underagebanned-fags: Business is a major for chads, or, if you're doing quantitative finance, ultra-hardcore math/statistic lovers. If you are neither, stay away. Unless you like to torture yourself pointlessly, that is.


 No.292285

File: 57f09693d42f8a1⋯.jpg (20.16 KB, 480x360, 4:3, norm.jpg)

>>292276

>yet the overwhelming majority of people who commit suicide are male

But the overwhelming majority of failed suicides are female, so now you don't know what the hell to think.


 No.292286

>>292285

How stupid are you? Females constantly posture about suicide for attention, men actually mean it and have the will to go through with it.


 No.292288

>>292286

It was a joke dude. I know that the ratio is skewed by attention whoring roasties.


 No.292387

File: d1f532c6a680baa⋯.gif (96.51 KB, 398x303, 398:303, d1f532c6a680baa651c82018e6….gif)

I used to be a hikkiNEET but after a while I just kind of got over it. I eventually realized working was a preferable alternative to asking mommy and daddy for cash.


 No.292401

>>292387

Only makes sense if they are abusive and even then I rather be oppressed by my parents than by normalscum


 No.292420

>>292387

I never asked my parents for anything unless it was absolutely vital. Otherwise, anything I wanted I would either find for free or learn to do without. That being said they still paid for food and bills, and I felt terribly guilty because of it. That was the one and only thing I didn't like about being a hikkiNEET. Even now, I'm starting to practice programming so I can try to get coding work, get to the point where I can afford my own place, and hopefully work from home in the near future. The less I have to deal with normalniggers, the better.


 No.292438

File: 688f46f499ea483⋯.png (625.52 KB, 582x741, 194:247, 1455922771217.png)

>>292401

see, that's the thing though. Normalfags in the workplace aren't like normalfags in school, they have lives of their own and generally don't give a shit what you do with yours as long as it doesn't involve fucking children or something. I've been able to actually communicate with them without sounding a like a fucking weirdo, granted the whole socializing stuff is kind of hard for me right now but it's coming back. I got bullied all the time in school but at work they just want you to put in your fair share.

The breaking point for me was when my dad got injured on the job and I couldn't get any money from him for a couple weeks, they're good people and never gave me shit for being a loser but seeing how much of a burden I was being, the fucker still wanted to give me money despite him being broke, made me snap out of my old way of thinking. Wageslaving isn't the best but at least I feel like i'm doing something with my day instead of jacking it 5 times and acting like i'm learning how to program or whatever dumb ass shit i'd say.


 No.292521

Invidious embed. Click thumbnail to play.

>>292438

>>292438

>Wageslaving isn't the best but at least I feel like i'm doing something with my day instead of jacking it 5 times and acting like i'm learning how to program or whatever dumb ass shit i'd say.

iktf anon. Felt like a miserable sack of shit every time my parents brought it up

>SO ANON HOW'S THE CODING GOING

<g-good dad, I'm making good progress on.. uh.. Python.

<*type a few lines of input in command prompt*

>OH MAN YOU SEE THAT?! MY SON'S A FUCKIN COMPUTER WHIZ! HE'S A GENIUS!

Sometimes I'd even tell my parents I had spent the whole week creating some random 3D model I found on the unity store or somewhere.

To any aspiring NEETs out there, at least be honest with your parents if you're an untalented and inept leech. Being smug about your lack of prospects or ambitions isn't the way to go but neither is continuously stringing them along about why you actually spend 90% of your day locked away in your room.


 No.292841

>>292019

I've got some student loans too. I applied for income based repayment, and I don't need to pay any money towards it as long as I don't have a job. The interest keeps building though. I think you had a 6 month grace period after leaving school so you might still be in the clear depending on how long it's been. I personally have trouble finding the energy for dealing with things like loans, but you should probably force yourself to look at it sooner rather than later.

>>292276

>>292285

I'm pretty sure that women are about 4x as likely to attempt suicide, but men simultaneously make up about 80% of all suicides. Women are unarguably either 16x more incompetent/ non committal or 16x more likely to be seeking attention. The most depressing part springs from the fact that society isn't particularly geared towards giving women lasting happiness. They benefit from the rules when they're young, but suffer later. They deal with being alone a lot worse, and sluts that can't land or bring themselves to settle for a beta past 30 end up both extremely alone and extremely depressed. Even with a society that has a large portion of women who are prime suicide candidates, four men kill themselves for every washed out slut that is doomed to a life of solitude. Then you've got another 15 younger women who are so totally depressed that they like tried to kill themselves, and you should be like extra nice to them and pay more attention. If you just go by what you see and hear it seems like there's a huge problem with depression in women. After all, you'd be hearing 15 girls brag about their totally suicidal depression in this example, and you wouldn't hear anything from the 4 men because they're already dead. Suicide statistics are one of the most depressing things out there ironically.


 No.292861

>>292438

>>292521

I can relate as well. I used to play around with the idea of getting back into programming, but never bothered to actually put any effort in until I became I wageslave. Now that I'm working with and dealing with normalniggers every day, having to listen to their dim world-views and uninsightful political rants, I realize first-hand how fucking awful my life is going to be if I don't get it together and make a real effort at improving myself.

Get to work anons, because I can tell you from the horse's mouth that the alternative is fucking horrible.


 No.292865

>>292438

>Wageslaving isn't the best but at least I feel like i'm doing something with my day instead of jacking it 5 times and acting like i'm learning how to program or whatever dumb ass shit i'd say.

There's something nice about having a reliable schedule, but at the same time, I feel like wageslaving only makes you wish you had more time to do the things you should have been doing back when you were free and had the time. Now, I come home from work and I'm too fucking burnt out to do anything productive, and when I have a day free, I can't seem to bring myself to focus on anything for long enough to get something meaningful done, because I know I've only got so much free time before it's back to work that I'd rather spend it relaxing and recovering from work.

If money were off the table and there wasn't that constant nagging in the back of my head to make myself useful to my parents, I'd probably be a far better artist than I am now. I might have even finished many of the projects I started years ago.


 No.292867

>>292053

>Men should express their emotions more

I don't know what I expected. Although I feel most American men would target their anger at the man because they are incapable of holding a woman responsible for her actions.

>>292285

>>292286

>>292841

It's called a suicidal gesture and nearly all women that 'commit suicide' are not intending to kill themselves. Whereas nearly all men are, hence why they choose a gun instead of a bottle of pills.

>The most depressing part springs from the fact that society isn't particularly geared towards giving women lasting happiness.

Yea men are better at coping with life in general. Even with all the cards stacked in their favor, they still end up miserable.


 No.292869

gentlemen, just wanted to tell you that next year I will join you again

I tried everything.

Tried working factory job that ate away my soul

tried college which drove me crazy because of team assignments

now office job that makes me sick because everything is unorganised

fuck this shit, I was happiest when I was neet so I will do it again

or should I rather say, least unhappy while neet


 No.293025

>>292869

What do you mean? What's your plan? Sorry, I'm a bit dense.

If you're desperate to get back into NEET-dom, why not just fake a serious mental illness that is likely to land you governmental support? You can probably pull it off if you do proper research in advance.


 No.293066

File: b9f99fd931361a2⋯.gif (7.54 MB, 600x255, 40:17, You're not terribly import….gif)

I haven't left the house in 5 months, but I left it periodically every 2 months for roughly 5 years prior. So, Hiki-NEET of that long, 5 and a half years. Will have to resume leaving every 2 months again at some point in the near future. Legally in Japan, you by definition cannot be mentally ill and a Hikikomori, but for the Western niche classification I still consider myself as such. I just as well would literally never leave this room if I didn't have to.

I'm a Schizophrenic with other highly intrusive mental problems. I have literally never been interested in anyone platonically or desired familial contact, or even just wanted sexual relations (I have literally never wanted to fuck anyone, but I can masturbate because I still find things attractive for as long as my arousal lasts but even in that lust do not wish to be in contact with people), I have no friends, and I do not associate with anyone. My issues are getting worse, I have the potential to one day be more catatonic than not.

I do not even have the capacity to be a normal human being, not that I would ever wish for such a thing. People to me are boring and stupid, and ruin everything. I don't like you, but I would like things to be fair. Fair, not nice. The whole of the world should be put to numbers, not feelings. If by some form or fashion I ever felt love towards a person, it would certainly lead to my death in one way or another as I would never be enough in my mind for them just as I would never be good enough in my mind for me, not that I expect so much of other people because if I were to give a person a list to go to the store and they manage to get everything on that list I would be genuinely impressed. I would additionally simply never trust another person, even myself, ever.

I functionally enjoy next to nothing inside of my uncontrollable mania aside from base attraction which I do not actively, consciously feel, I refrain from almost literally all forms of indulgence. I don't even own a bed. My being indulgent is buying and eating a small cheesecake once every roughly 6 months, or drinking a single bottle of classic root beer like I did a few weeks ago that was offered to me, and which was the first soda I had drank in roughly 2 years, but otherwise eat meals of water and S.O.S. style meal rations or sometimes water and other such thoughtless but functional food things. Everything else is to waste time unto death while trying with minimal effort to not to expire prematurely. It's honestly a farce, but it is what it is. I would go die in a hole, if only I cared to.

A world that is not orderly is not a world worth living in, so I don't. In such a case, I would wish to be functional. As it stands, I am not and I do not. I am mentally ill, therein capricious, and apathetic. I am weak, tired, and worth less in too many cases to otherwise live a life. It's fine, but I understand enough to think things can be more and mean more than what they do. Or maybe, I'm just parroting.


 No.293094

>>292053

>dat webm.

Cheating bitch getting what she deserves?


 No.293104

File: d084a61ff7df471⋯.jpg (288.36 KB, 1582x775, 1582:775, Daily-life-of-a-hikikomori.jpg)

>>293066

> Legally in Japan, you by definition cannot be mentally ill and a Hikikomori, but for the Western niche classification I still consider myself as such.

This is correct however it doesn't mean that they aren't mentally ill at all many of Japan's hikikomori were not mentally ill before withdrawing from society and ended up mentally ill as a result of their isolation also remember it doesn’t mean they don’t leave their house in general it means they don’t leave the room they withdraw themselves up into in the house they live in.


 No.293107

>>293104

I am aware of this, and I did not try to imply differently.


 No.293108

>>293104

>>293107

In any case, I should have specified better. You are correct, my mistake.


 No.293122

Do you ever have that phantom feeling of disapointment, digust, anger, and a feeling that something is missing and that you desperately need to fulfil it

yet you cant put your finger on it


 No.293133

>tfw third day fasting

>tfw this is like the 6th time ive reached the third day milestone, and each time ive conditioned myself to be better at resisting food cravings and looking at food porn

my ideal goal is to do a 40 days water fast. or just lose weight

fat people are an abomination, and i fully believe it should be illegal to be fat. the japanese did it right when they had laws against obesity

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vdZKFTtWJs


 No.293152

>>293122

No, I can't say that I do.


 No.293196

>I'll be forced to get a job soon because I'm flat broke and parents are actually kicking me out for good this time

>7 years neet with 0 experience


 No.293202

>>293122

I have feelings of disappointment, disgust and anger every time I look at society, but I know what is missing: A sense of propriety, honor, a higher meaning than commercial self-interest, etc. etc. Basically anything that makes a civilization.


 No.293204

File: 5de40fa405bf129⋯.png (218.64 KB, 303x365, 303:365, niggers.png)

>>293202

We live in a society but we don't live in a civilisation


 No.293480

>>291871

we don't need niggers who can't be bothered to google a fucking acronym


 No.294101

>>293204

Go back to 4channel.


 No.294102

File: b6d2048aa39c116⋯.png (157.18 KB, 1266x536, 633:268, b376a1d4319daf6e197a5f633f….png)

>being a neet


 No.294156

File: d8131950b2808fd⋯.jpg (334.15 KB, 1280x965, 256:193, Tired.jpg)

>>294102

This whole thing is low-level. It's all so tired, tried and inane. There is already at least one comment in this thread disproving this and I've only read the three, not including this one right here. But no, everyone must be a baleful, contemptible loser. That everything negative must be therein wrong, inherently. It's all so fucking stupid, and exhausting. Just go fall on your sword and die already, for fuck's sake.


 No.294167

>>294102

You tried this on /v/ you spamming cross posting loser. Now go back to whatever imageboard you crawled out of.


 No.294476

>>293107

>>293108

It is all good anon.


 No.294953

>>292004

know that feel all too well, like nothing ever works out and will always find a way to fuck things up. I was watching Zombieland Saga and they touch on this on the final episode and I broke down crying. Shit hit so close to home. Beautiful ending though, never expected anything so powerful from this anime.


 No.296870

>>293480

>we don't need niggers who can't be bothered to google a fucking acronym

Nothing wrong with teaching people.


 No.297244

>why

>depression

>long underlying emotional trauma as a child

>father used to come home drunk or just angry

>would hit us sometimes for no good reason or to punish us

>at least it wasn't punching or beating, but I was <5-6 years old

>I remember calling the police one day and two officers arrived at the house

>I wasnt fully conscious of what that decision could have meant for my family and myself

>sort of like a 5 yo emotional trolley problem equivalent of either saying our father would wrongly hit us at times and be drunk possibly be taken away from parents or say nothing and takes what comes of it

>just never really learned how to express my feelings to others

>bullied some boys in elementary school

>even a girl at one time, although at the time I wasnt fully aware why I was doin it

>was even awarded a certificate of excellent citizenship

>took me years to fully come to the realoty that I didn't deserve it

>thought my best friend at the time should have gotten it instead

>I used to go over to his house a lot

>pushed him away and got angry at him because I feared we'd get too close and I had to share with him my home problems

>started having some superficial friendships where I only showed the outside and I may habe visited some houses and even slept over a couple times

>never truly confided in one of them maybe for solace

>ff into middleschool which was a whole mew element

>7th was ok but 8th grade I stopped sitting by myself omw home on the bus

>friends started changing and whenever I looked back I always felt this was a pivoting point

>ff into high school

>had some robot tier friends but stopped it with them after freshman year

>sophomore year, some more normie friends but then they started leaving second semester

>even recall walking onto campus the morning after winter break and the group I was normally with stopped being there

>junior and senior only because of somebody I knew from middle was in agroup I latched with him until he left senior year and I was left in a group of people I didnt really know yet still stayed in and even conversed and did things witb

>until I finally left high school and ff 4 1/2 years to now

>in bad shape, shut in with poor diet and malnurished

>read up a lot of vitamins and things sbut still had no money to do healthy myself and no job for 4 years

>paying for it now with how I lhysically feel

>hairline due to stress, lack of nurishment and sunlight is receding

>I think the shape of my head has changed because of possibly depression shrinking my brain and my skull as sloped because of it

>still dont go outside regularly

>just wish I ate better after school

>took care of myself and so my hair line would nkt be fugged

>can still salvage rest of body and possibly make hair work

>going to see doctor since over 4 years

>so many questions

>would rather put it all behind me and let go of the past and wake up to a new day

i


 No.297261

>tfw you sleep for 12 hours, eat enough food to put yourself out after being awake for only 6 hours and then sleep for another 12.

Thursday afternoon already?

Its like hypersleep!


 No.297262

I'm a poor and my country are grappling against economic crisis.


 No.297292

I'm hikikomori because I'm fundamentally broken as a human being. I literally can't have a conversation with anyone who isn't my mother. When I'm outside for more than a simple task like taking out the garbage, I have panic attacks and shut down verbally, physically, mentally. It's like I'm a child again. I've been stuck in my house since I was 18 when I dropped out of high school, I'm now 21. But I'm comfortable inside. I realize I'm a failure, but what difference does it really make when there's so many successful people out there. One more failure isn't going to ruin the world, is it? I can't blame the world for the fuckup I am, it's completely me. Something genetically went wrong and I got what I got.

Avoidant Personality Disorder, Bipolar (forget which one), aspergers, and social phobia got me my autismbux, $500, which might go up to $750 when I turn 22, so I'm in this for the long haul. I'll leech off the state until it collapses or I die, I suppose.


 No.297310

>>297292

>Avoidant Personality Disorder, Bipolar (forget which one), aspergers, and social phobia got me my autismbux

Anything happen to bring these about?


 No.297341

>>297292

Did you develop those mental disorders due to the isolation? also how long have you been in your room?


 No.297345

>>297310

>Anything happen to bring these about?

The only environmental factor I can think of is moving from school to school every year and having been severely bullied throughout my entire school life. I never properly figured out how to make friends or talk to people, and constantly being the new kid made things worse. But then again, plenty of military brats experience this and turn out just fine, so perhaps it's malapropos to try to blame purely environmental factors when it's more likely I was just born incredibly flawed and my childhood only drove me more quickly towards what was always going to happen.

>>297341

>Did you develop those mental disorders due to the isolation?

I don't believe so, but I do think being so isolated as I am has made things worse. Nothing is getting better, I'm certain of that.

>also how long have you been in your room?

I leave my room often, but I rarely leave my house. I haven't gone outside in 6 months, where 6 months ago I tried taking the garbage out but failed to do so. My previous record was 2 years of not going outside of my home.


 No.297355

File: 4745f0a4c17bd57⋯.png (259.29 KB, 555x418, 555:418, hikikomori depressed.png)

>>297345

>I leave my room often, but I rarely leave my house

Hikikomori is not not leaving your house its not leaving the room you withdraw yourself up into in the house you live in for months or years you are not a hikikomori you are just a mentally ill recluse.


 No.297363

>>297355

So, I can meet the requirements of complete social withdrawl but unless I'm in one specific room, I can't be considered hikikomori?


 No.297396

>>297363

No, like he said, that just makes you a mentally ill recluse. You have to not leave your room at all to be a cool hikikomori kid. Also you got be Japanese or at least trans-Jap (otaku as we say on deviantart).


 No.297420

File: 79066621b190fd4⋯.pdf (3.08 MB, 9b7ra_Hikikomori_Adolescen….pdf)

>>297363

>So, I can meet the requirements of complete social withdrawl but unless I'm in one specific room, I can't be considered hikikomori?

Hikikomori is a group of symptoms that result in the affected individual withdrawing from society and living in isolation in their bedroom for 6 months or more but has no physical condition or other psychological problem as its main or only principal source please read Hikikomori Adolescence Without End by Dr. Tamaki Saito.


 No.297421

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

>>297396

>You have to not leave your room at all to be a cool hikikomori kid.

Cringe also technically the definition has changed over the years because recent research has found that 86% of Japanese hikikomori do actually go outdoors but spend a very limited amount of time outside and that these hikikomori people are still spending most of the day and nearly everyday at home in their rooms also you don't have to be Japanese to be a hikikomori but you do need to fit the Japanese definition and criteria.


 No.297425

>>297421

u dense


 No.297427

>>297425

>u dense

That's not an argument.


 No.297457

>>297427

I was obviously taking the piss and you responded seriously. U DENSE


 No.297683

>>297421

oh look its hikikomori1993 with his much-needed hikikomori definitions. Thanks!


 No.297692

File: 9102561de2a106b⋯.jpg (22.24 KB, 396x382, 198:191, f63.jpg)

>>297683

>A Reddit faggot using /r9k/

You have to go the fuck back normalfag.


 No.297752

>>297692

you literally spend your life yelling at NEETs on reddit nigger


 No.297753

>>291858

Are there any hikki-related anime that isn't NHK, the author of which has contempt for shutin neets and wants them to wageslave yet is himself a shutin who can live indefinitely off royalties? Harder difficulty setting: is actually neutral to or sympathetic to them, no wish fulfillment where a girl swoops in to save the day.


 No.297755

>>297753

>Are there any hikki-related anime that isn't NHK,

No Game No Life and Rozen Maiden


 No.297756

File: d991d556cc9cb14⋯.png (231.13 KB, 894x894, 1:1, 50a2c23bf1524576681bd52f0d….png)

>>297752

>you literally spend your life yelling at NEETs on reddit nigger

That's a throwaway account reddit is for normalfags like you get out and never come the fuck back.


 No.297761

File: 461ccf8a65b4077⋯.jpg (14.28 KB, 240x320, 3:4, 137593505136.jpg)

>>297756

>having a reddit account


 No.297763

>>297756

>actually having a reddit account

okay normalnigger


 No.297832

I'm a neet cuz i quit my job in Oct. I'll need to start back working soon else I'll end up homeless


 No.297849

>>297756

>has a reddit account

>has the nerve to call anyone else a normalfag

Fucking

w

e

w


 No.298761

>>297832

Did you find somewhere to work?


 No.298819

>>297756

>That's a throwaway account

Fuck off.


 No.298850

>>291871

Evolution is a jew lie


 No.298853

>>298850

Fuck off, kike worshipper.


 No.299160

How do you manage hikihood? Do you have a bathroom in your rooms or something along those lines?


 No.299182

>>298853

Jesus wasn't a jew, but you most likely are, kike.


 No.299185

>>298850

Biological Evolution is a fact of reality, and jews hate it greatly because it contradicts their Noahide laws. You most likely have no idea what it even is, so you ought to actually read what it is and how it works instead of posting bullshit.


 No.299186

Guys, serious question. If I'm officially fucked in the head, how feasible is Uncle Remus' SSI bennies in America today if I get paperwork to prove my conditions, and an attorney to help my case?


 No.299325

>>299160

>How do you manage hikihood? Do you have a bathroom in your rooms or something along those lines?

Some hikikomori leave their rooms to use the bathroom others pee in bottles and only leave to go number 2 or like you said have a bathroom connected to their room.


 No.299405

>>299186

I'd be more worried about the feasibility of being a NEET, without parents or family to support you. NEETdom doesn't sound too comfy even with family, but I couldn't imagine being on my own. As tempting as it, I'd be too afraid of ending up homeless to seriously consider it.


 No.299407

>>299405

In my current situation, autismbux NEETdom is a straight upgrade. I'm already on the path to homelessness, so moving across the country to somewhere with a cost of living that autismbux can actually cover is no biggie.


 No.299409

>>299407

How much do you get a month with autismbux? I was looking into SSI, and it could be feasible if I did odd jobs from time to time.


 No.299410

*SSDI


 No.299412

>>299409

I don't get anything right now, but I think SSI is like 750 a month. Don't know about SSDI


 No.299445

>>299412

>750 a month

If only.


 No.299496

>>298761

Thanks for the concern anon.

I just had a phone call with a recruiter that sounded promising. I'm still unemployed. It was an exaggeration on the homeless bit. I have enough savings to pay rent and expenses for 1 year. But time is flying by and my mental state is rapidly degrading. I live alone and my family is parasites.

I thought I'd be happier unemployed and that I'd have more time and energy to work on my unity engine mobile game idea.

Shit is harder than I estimated. I've made incremental progress at times. But I'm more miserable now than before. I dunno if I'm fucked and need ssri or some other pill.


 No.299510

File: 8d94d49111510a1⋯.png (412.83 KB, 989x1018, 989:1018, 3a5f25c803150124ec3e6f0bf0….png)

>>297396

>You have to not leave your room at all to be a cool hikikomori kid

I thought being a hikki was more avoidance of social interaction if you just don't want to leave your house you are agoraphobic


 No.299572

I don't want to go to university with younger people


 No.299582

File: 8e4f1bf81d851a1⋯.jpg (647.74 KB, 1242x608, 621:304, roy_batty_by_cyberaeon-d8z….jpg)

>>291904

>freedom

How are you fairing now, anon? Why were you a hikki before? Was it just for the enjoyment of leisure that the lifestyle offered? Or was it because you were terrified, and completely incapable of dealing with everything and everyone on the other side of your bedroom door? I was the latter for nine years, to the point were I couldn't remember, or even imagine living any other way. That said, I've been working for the past year and a half, in a job that demands 'I interact with people on a regular and rather involved kind of way. It's shit, but in that time I've changed, I'm not like how I was before, and I can definitively say that I will blow my fucking brains out before I go back to the prison that is being a hikikomori.

"Freedom" is a gross, tortured parody of the word. Pic related.


 No.299590

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

>>299510

>I thought being a hikki was more avoidance of social interaction

No hikikomori is a medical term used in Japan to describe a person who doesnt leave their bedroom for six months or longer it is a serious psychological problem if you are introverted but still leave your house to go to work/school you're not hikikomori.

>If you just don't want to leave your house you are agoraphobic

Not exactly many people become shut ins for many different reasons and there are many different types of recluses not just hikikomori or agoraphobics..


 No.299595

>>299590

>well, technically…

Colloquially, hikikomori describes a person who becomes a severe recluse due to reasons related to social anxiety.


 No.299650

File: 2756704f69af4cf⋯.jpg (116.78 KB, 492x277, 492:277, hikikomori-ne-vihodi-iz-ko….jpg)

>>299595

>hikikomori describes a person who becomes a severe recluse due to reasons related to social anxiety.

That's incorrect too because hikikomori is not social anxiety they are two completely different conditions hikikomori is a social condition caused by a group of symptoms that result in the affected individual withdrawing from society and living in isolation in their bedroom for 6 months or more but has no physical condition or other psychological problem as its main principal source so this means a physical injury or some kind of mental disorder can not be the cause of the isolation read this book. >>297420 and watch these videos. >>297421

>>299590


 No.299655

>>299650

>hikkis with nice rooms, nicer clothes than mine, nice battlestations

Meanwhile I don't even have an actual stable room and am forced to move every few months, my only belongings are clothes/laptop.


 No.299844

>>299655

>my only belongings are clothes/laptop

How's that working out for you?


 No.300043

Please try not to respond to the /hikki/ BO attempting to shill his board.


 No.300443

>>300043

>Please try not to respond to the /hikki/ BO attempting to shill his board.

At least /hikki/ is a good comfy board with no normalfags unlike /r9k/


 No.301100

>>300443

I wouldn't call a dead board with nothing but the avatarfag owner talking to himself comfy.


 No.301330

File: 333d74b3a9e2494⋯.jpg (261.87 KB, 867x881, 867:881, doomer.jpg)

I'm thinking about becoming a NEET andi have several disabling conditions. I want to get my first government check in the next 2 months or so, but i'm worried that what i have may not be enough. I'll list out my conditions here and hopefully get some experienced NEET's opinions.

>Major Depression Disorder (Diagnosed)

>Anxiety (Undiagnosed)

>Suicidal Ideation (Diagnosed)

>Cluster Headaches (Undiagnosed)

>Vertigo (Diagnosed - i think due to the cluster headaches)

>Maybe some other shit i don't know about

I'm a pale, akinny shut-in who hardly eats and never sees a reason to get out of bed. The reason i have no job is i was disqualified from a really good job i tried to get but was diagnosed by one of their mental evaluations.

What are my chances /r9k/? If i got committed, would i be able to get it in 2 months?


 No.301331

>>300443

Except the trannies


 No.301332

>>301330

2 months is overly optimistic. if you fill out and turn in all the forms in person, your still looking at 4-6 months. i doubt your diagnosed conditions would grant you neetbux anyways. unless you've recently been hospitalized for suicide. it goes without saying if you get cluster headaches diagnosed you would get neetbucks. but that is a very rare condition and if you do truly have it, it's odd you haven't killed yourself yet.


 No.301333

>>301330

Would you stop posting fed generated memes?


 No.301334

File: 5acf5551dfb41df⋯.jpg (617.21 KB, 641x1000, 641:1000, shroomwizud.jpg)

>>301332

It's not rare, it's underdiagnosed

I know a lot of people who have "migraines" but since i know the symptoms of cluster headaches i know many of them don't actually have migraines. I'll talk to people and they'll mention migraines and i'll be like "Yeah, migraines? Like it's always on one side of your face behind your eyes and your nose either gets runny or stuffy and you have to lay down and try not to cry?" and many of them say "Yeah! Just like that!"

Most of them don't know migraines are a different thing

But i do have cluster headaches.

Recent research showed that psilocybin mushrooms can treat anxiety, depression, and cluster headaches btw. That's three of my problems gone with a single treatment. Too bad it's illegal.


 No.301336

I was hikki for 3 years, but not exactly NEET since i worked out obsessively, if that counts as training.

my building had a 24 hour gym and i'd go there early in the morning to work out then sleep all day.

it was a really nice time in my life, i got to play all the vidyas i wanted to and experiment with drugs. now im forced to wagecuck and do it out of sheer spite for normalfags. i want to expose them to my presence and disgust them. also i can't do drugs anymore, which is really irritating to me. also im fat now.


 No.301337

>>301334

>too bad its illegal

if you really had problems, you wouldn't care tbh.

plus, getting caught while tripping would just give your problems validation in the eyes of normalniggers


 No.301355

>>301337

I don't care, but the illegality still maks it too hard to find people that sell it.


 No.301366

File: 1baa595d02abf6e⋯.png (109.63 KB, 934x783, 934:783, b6e4c33596f84f010f4fece5c9….png)

>>301355

shame on me for spoonfeeding larpers


 No.301502

>>301334

I used to have those a lot when I was young. Hope they didn't mess with my brain too much.

I used to have the back of my head and one eye aches so much that I was incapacitated. I couldn't talk or walk properly.

Whenever I had those kind of headaches, when I was asked to read something or talk I would say non sense things. Like it was clear in my mind what i wanted to communicate but when I tried to voice it, I would mix words / pronunciation / grammar like my own language was foreign to me.

Idk if it's truly cluster headaches.


 No.301527


 No.301623

>>301100

>I wouldn't call a dead board with nothing but the avatarfag owner talking to himself comfy.

You are retarded if you spent anytime on there you would obviously know other people post there you stupid autist.


 No.301624

>>301331

>Except the trannies

They are only allowed to stay in that one thread talking about trans faggotry outside of that one thread is a bannable offense that is what the users wanted.


 No.301625

File: 4f1d6ebb3ee9cab⋯.jpeg (24.29 KB, 406x406, 1:1, bSZaJjxE.jpeg)

>>301336

>Hikikomori

>Willingly going to the gym where a bunch of people can see you and you can't avoid social interaction

you're a fucking idiot how many times do i have to fucking say it? hikikomori don't leave their bedrooms also by training they don't mean working out they mean like working an intern position at a job they could eventually be hired at that is what they mean by training you normalfag.


 No.301626

>>301336

Actually, you were a NEET but not exactly a hikki. NEET means you don't have a job or go to school, and hikikomori means you don't interact with the outside world/society. I seriously doubt you've been here longer than two seconds if you don't even know these terms though.


 No.301629

File: 986af32900be501⋯.jpg (433.96 KB, 2048x1536, 4:3, 671347376-DSCI1108.jpg)

>>301334

When you're ready to heal give this a try. PF Tek Let's grow mushrooms on youtube.


 No.301630

>>301355

They're easy to grow though, and you might enjoy doing so.


 No.301639

>>291858

>spoonfeeding faggots what the word NEET means

great job. you ruined it.


 No.301709

I am applying for benefits but apparently need to make efforts to procure employment. How can I do this while failing to secure it so I can end up getting money for doing nothing? I figure I might occasionally get hired by someone desperate and should try to get fired? Starting with Ontario Works but hoping to get on ODSP soon as I can figure out how to get a psychiatrist to diagnose my depression/anxiety. ODSP pays better and you don't have to try and get work.


 No.301710

>>299325

even if the bathroom is connected to your room, you are still leaving your room. I don't like this 'room' requirement because it means some hikki with some giant 25'x50' mansion room is apparently less reclusive than soeone who sleeps in a 5'x9' closet and comes out to cook meals in some 5'x'9' kitchen. In total it is still half the space of giant mansion room


 No.301805

>>301334

>cluster headaches

When you learn more about this shit, it's absolutely horrifying. Stories of people hurting so badly, feeling pain on a level fucking incomprehensible on the scale we understand for pain with other conditions, so fucking bad that people call them "suicide headaches" because people who get them suffer so badly that they sometimes just kill themselves to escape cluster headaches.

Some guys turn to growing their own mushrooms, because it's a well known treatment for the horrendous things, because they'd rather deal with the consequences of arrest and jail time, than suffer from more cluster headaches.


 No.301808

File: f361331b793368c⋯.gif (479 KB, 380x257, 380:257, psilocybecubensis.gif)

>>301805

I'm going to fucking get my hands on some if it's the last thing i do.


 No.301822

>>301334

>Like it's always on one side of your face behind your eyes

I previously suffered fairly frequently from headaches like this, similar to how the pain of cluster headaches are described (piercing/burning behind one eye) but I lean more toward thinking they were migraine or something else because other symptoms didn't fall in line. Like they apparently don't typically last long, but usually mine would go for at least 6 hours. The longest I had was maybe like 2 weeks straight from wake-up to bed. Or such as occurring regularly at certain times where mine didn't. I also can kind of sense an oncoming one, which I read was a migraine thing. They've become significantly less frequent, luckily. Seemingly after I made some dietary changes. I did get headaches for a bit as a kid and they'd gone away for some time before this all started in my late teens though so here's hoping they don't come back.

You have any decent methods to help alleviate the pain currently? I was always trying out different things and while I never found a sure thing some things would help sometimes, though there were also days where I could do not but lie in bed in the dark icing my eye/head.


 No.301824

OP is a fake hikki, he goes to mcdonalds weekly kek.

u fag


 No.301826

>>301710

>even if the bathroom is connected to your room, you are still leaving your room

Not necessarily.


 No.301829

File: a05c6265debee03⋯.jpg (176.49 KB, 1663x1247, 1663:1247, 1444355455932.jpg)

File: 720d7522592321e⋯.png (296.91 KB, 600x587, 600:587, dd18fe99018e25c3f6f943d001….png)

File: e58b7b79042ff11⋯.png (246.62 KB, 680x697, 40:41, e58b7b79042ff11ac10745b6ba….png)

File: 809357136f3bd1c⋯.jpg (346.35 KB, 900x627, 300:209, 809357136f3bd1c59924d82e0b….jpg)

>>301824

>That Aussie pedo non-virgin failed chad from 4/r9k/ has found his way here

>Rule 2. You must be a male virgin to post on this board.

You have to go back.

>>>/4chan/

>>>/reddit/

>>>/normie/

>>>/discord/


 No.301830

>>301829

>browses cuckchan such that he's able to recognize others from cuckchan by their posting style

>reddit-spaces

You both should get the fuck out.


 No.301831

>>301830

>muh reddit spacing

Literally a DNC psyop. "Reddit spacing" has been commonplace in writing since typewriters were invented. It's still popular in colleges today. Fuck off shill.


 No.301832

>>301831

>has been commonplace in writing since typewriters were invented.

I haven't seen people deflect this hard since the days were the Amazing Atheist was getting popular. Holy shit, the delusion.


 No.301835

File: dee8da376ffc5e1⋯.webm (212.24 KB, 340x190, 34:19, dee8da376ffc5e110dedb74f6….webm)

>>301829

>>301831

This is embarassing. If you had been here for longer than two seconds you'd be familiar with the difference between doublespacing paragraphs and redditspacing your posts. Instead you charge in here acting like you own the place. Not that the shitposting nigger you're responding to is any better.

>do not reply to normalfag posters

Take your own advice then. Why did you reply to that anon and yet you still post that image? Dumb faggot.


 No.301842

File: 519dc9508c7852f⋯.jpg (38.75 KB, 640x640, 1:1, 14647852964190.jpg)

>>301835

> you charge in here acting like you own the place

Not exactly i've been on imageboards since 2007 and been here on 8chan since gamergate and been using this /r9k/ board since 2015 long before i started running my own board in-fact i have created some of the most popular threads on this board just go back and look in the archive seriously if anything this is embarrassing and i feel like you only have a problem with me because you either think i am a failed normalfag or are a grammar nazi faggot on imageboards of all places or are angry at me because you find me annoying even though i literally have always been here anon just go back and look in the archive also that other guy you replied to wasn't me.


 No.301857

>>301842

>i've been on imageboards since 2007

>i have created some of the most popular threads

Even if true, none of that fucking matters. Even if you aren't an actual newfag, you're displaying the mentality of a newfag. You want to be able to point to a join date or post history whenever someone insults you? Go to reddit or someplace else with accounts. Not >>301835, I just hate seeing this kind of "defense" as it shows a complete lack of understanding the fundamental spirit of anonymous imageboards. A post is judged based on its content, not who made it.


 No.301875

File: a1f3a208ee9ab81⋯.jpg (22.73 KB, 474x259, 474:259, reddit-spacing.jpg)

>>301831

It's not a D&C psyop, you fucking doublenigger. Go back where you came from if you think that's the case, because you're sure as hell not from here.


 No.301892

>>301842

GET THE FUCK OUT NIGGER


 No.301902

File: 42e12112a582455⋯.png (9.7 KB, 318x260, 159:130, definition of a nigger.png)

is suicide the answer?


 No.301903

>>301892

>GET THE FUCK OUT NIGGER

Not an argument.


 No.301905

I was off for over a month from my blue collar et job due to weather.

I had a taste of the neet life and I want more.

How achieve this in America?


 No.301956

File: d453e05b78424a2⋯.jpg (34.2 KB, 600x600, 1:1, cutelilkitty.jpg)

>>301905

I'll give you a good reason to go to the doctors; to get NEETbux and free yourself from wage-slavery.

>step 1: go to mental hospital

>step 2: tell them you were about to kill yourself, you never get out of bed, sleep too much, never eat and you cry a lot. You'll go to a psych ward (they're not bad, you'll be among friends for anywhere between 3 days to 3 weeks)

>step 3: get out of the psych ward and go home

>step 4: request forms to apply for disability

>step 5: see ssi doctor who will interview you, make sure to tell him you cannot work and you got out of a psych ward for suicidal thoughts. Make sure you act really glum and depressed so he takes you seriously.

>step 6: ???

>step 7: be sad and lonely, but with income!

This process will take you 2-3 months if you get admitted to a psych ward, 6-7 if not.

>archive.is/oZaaZ


 No.301959

>>301956

Maybe I'll give ths a try




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