No.88780
what medication did they put you on?
No.88791
>>88780
SSRIs. None of them worked, unless they were supposed to just fuck my shit up even further, and I've refused to take any "medication" ever since.
No.88794
citalopram is a big meme that doesn`t do anything short term or longterm. might as well have given me sugar pills.
No.88809
Used to get Effexor. Was horrible. Withdrawal brain zaps were awful.
Then on Wellbutrin. Much better, but didn't help much.
Now I self-medicate occasionally with psychedelics. Life is good when you don't have the chemical jew in your veins.
No.88900
I got prescribed venlafaxine.
I actually picked it up for giggles.
>mfw pink capsules are supposed to appease the pains of this world
No.88916
if ssri's do not work, you are probably bipolar 2, in which case try topiramate, there are like 14 classifications of bipolar 2 (or more).
Topiramate was like a switch for me even at 25mg, I take 150mg now it had a lot of side effects though, but it kept my head off the desk and I stopped sleeping 22 hours per day.
Originally topamax (topiramate) was an antiseizure medication, but it is used to treat bipolar. The doc may try to put you on other bipolar meds. Remember being bipolar 2 doesn't mean you are robin williams bipolar, it just a general classification basically you are depressed and ssri's don't work on your brain chemistry.
No.88918
Useless shit that does nothing, and illegally, DMT. 10-15 minutes of a truly unearthly experience.
No.88944
>>88809
I only used Effexor for two days, that's some fucked up shit
No.88950
Zoloft - fucking dry mouth, dick of steel though
Wellbutrin - Seizures
Seroquel - Tightened my neck muscles till I couldn't breath
Remeron - Don't really remember why I stopped this one
Abilify - great but akathisia
Saphris - felt like I was getting electrocuted
Lamictal - was fine
Haloperidol - fuck this
Was on a lot of others, can't really remember them. Been a fun decade. Clean now though.
Still depressed as fuck sometimes.
No.88955
None. Was told to join groups and converse with people instead.
No.88980
Have you taken the green and purple pill yet, maytes?
No.88991
Tried Cipralex, didn't do shit apart from giving me shaking teeth or what it's called. Generally heightened anxiety-levels
Took lithium in addition, didn't do anything
Went over to effexor, max dose for a few months, did nothing apart from give me brainzaps when quitting (those shits are pain). Also seperated my mind from the body (like losing the ability to instinctively know where your arms are so things like holding hands was my right hand holding onto a hand and my left hand also)
So now I am taking Zoloft, doesnt do much, apart from dry mouth and occationally lose sensation of my body.
I never had lowered sex-drive or as we call it masturbation-ability on any of those.
It's like I am immune to the effects, and only get slight side-effects..
I just want to feel some joy..
No.88996
Risperidone - made me feel tired and achey. Couldn't ejaculate properly.
Sertraline - made me give less of a fuck about everything, which is the last thing I needed when I already struggle with building motivation. Talking to people felt a little easier at the very least, but it didn't come to fixing my problems.
No.88999
>>88980
Of course.
Thanks doc!
No.89007
>>88980
Jeremiah Peabody is the first thing in my medicine cabinet.
No.89025
>>88999
Triple dosage?
You're too kind doc
No.89032
>>89025
I used to be very sick, the normal dose didn´t help me. Luckily, i was given the extra heavy dose, and truly i have never been so fine as i am now.
No.89075
>>88950
Holy shit, it wasn't just me! Saphris was fucking torture!
No.89106
>>89075
Holy fuck, I checked what it was. Look at this shit.
To take Saphris sublingual (under the tongue) tablets:
>Keep the tablet in its blister pack until you are ready to take the medicine. Open the package and peel back the colored tab from the tablet blister. Do not push a tablet through the blister or you may damage the tablet.
>Using dry hands, gently remove the tablet and place it under your tongue. It will begin to dissolve right away.
>Do not swallow the tablet whole. Allow it to dissolve in your mouth without chewing.
>Swallow several times as the tablet dissolves. Do not eat or drink anything for 10 minutes after the tablet has dissolved.
And all the precautions, side-effects, recommended changes in behavior and shit for a pill that's supposedly to help you with your disorder.
I don't envy you that..
Anyone else have a doctor who is more focused on the blood level of whatever drug you are taking then the effect you experience taking it? Like mine, according to the blood levels I am within limits (didn't know I was low before, she just put me on a random medication). But it has no effect on my mental state, behavioral pattern or anything else. I could might aswell not take it at this point..
No.89198
>>89106
I was on that shit for awhile. I think about 2 years or so. Tasted like shit, then I'd pass out within 10-15 minutes. Doctor only had me taking half tablet at night only, so it wasn't too big a deal.
Didn't do shit, either. Nor did Lexapro, Gabapentin, Geodon, Abilify, and a few others I was on. All fucking addictive garbage. Took myself off em all, then later left seeing him. Geodon was SHIT to get off of because it was impossible to sleep without it; exploding head syndrome, restlessness, and even if I did doze off I'd get up feeling extremely tired anyway. Since it was a capsule with powder, I had to open up a weeks worth, cut it in half, and keep doing this until there was hardly any powder in the capsule. The first night completely off it was shitty, but it got way better quickly after that.
Never take those pills, ever.
No.89211
Tegretol for seizures
>tfw trying to form actual relationships but can't because I have crippling social anxiety that prevents me from not fumbling social interactions and I can't attempt with alcohol because meds
No.89248
With regards to legal drugs, I've tried citalopram (2013) and desvenlafaxine (this year).
Citalopram worked really good for me for about 3 months, helped get me out of a dangerous rut and compelled me to change my life for the better. Unfortunately after 3 months it seemed to stop working. I just felt like I didn't give a fuck about anything and the mood boost had disappeared, so I stopped taking it.
Those 3 months though…holy fuck, it was amazing. That must be what normal people feel like. I felt compelled to actually do things, to live my life, rather than just sitting in a chair staring at a computer screen all day waiting to die.
I'd give anything to get that feeling back. Anything.
Desvenlafaxine on the other hand…jesus. It just seemed to make things worse. I ditched it after 2 months, and tried to kill myself at around the same time. Massive heroin overdose (800mg IV). It sadly failed due to me already having some resistance to opiates. Ended up in the loony bin for a week.
With regards to illegal drugs…I've tried pretty much everything there is. A few things stand out to me as being very useful:
MDMA: After I tried it for the first time, everything just felt…okay? For about half a year. It was nice, I wasn't troubled by negative feelings. Didn't feel positive either, just felt a nice sense of feeling 'okay'.
MXE: For about a year this stuff replaced booze. Instead of getting drunk every night I'd just rail lines of MXE. I found out for myself, and then scientists found out later, that MXE and other NMDA antagonists (such as ketamine) have certain antidepressant effects. I definitely felt fine during that year when I was binging on it. Shame I've built up a giant tolerance as a result now. Even with K I have to IV it to get a decent effect, insufflation just doesn't do much and is kind of a waste.
LSD: Wonder drug. I take it several times a year and it helps me work through my issues bit by bit. I come out the other side feeling better and more comfortable with myself. If it wasn't for my little self-therapy sessions a few times a year, I'd fall apart quickly.
No.89250
>>89248
Some people microdose LSD
Also AMT is interesting, I used it a few times at recreational doses before it got emergency scheduled
It used to be an anti-depressant in the Soviet Union
No.89468
>>89466
DEXEDRINE BITCHES.
No.94926
No.98070
>>94926
i hear that's good for periods
No.98074
Has anyone done quetiapine?
No.98077
Xanax, prozac and lexapro.
I really like xanax, works for me and feels great.
No.98089
>>88780
Why are americans so medicine happy? You take medication for the smallest things. It's a great plan for if you want to completely fuck your shit up.
No.98130
Some SSRIs and a SNRI which made my anxiety worse such that I withdrew from my classes. I cold turkey came off that shit, spent my holiday week at home unable to stand I was so dizzy. My hands still occasionally will make involuntary grabbing motions like 2 years on. Pill box is now filled with Arugula seeds.
>>89211
My father took that for Epilepsy. I have a chuckle because they also had him on Temazepam and Diazepam which I've taken and still have myself.
No.98158
>>98089
it's no shocker we are some of the dumbest people in the world. our educational system is pure shit, our healthcare is dogshit, people here think working 80 hours is a virtuous thing to do, then they wonder why they're so miserable but they're do stupid or impatient to sit down and do some real introspection so they opt instead to pop pills thinking it will cure them of all their misery.
No.98160
My doctor is trying to put me on medicine for shaking and sperging out when strangers are are talking to me.
Anyone else have those horrible moments where you shake like a fucking pussy for no reason… I would like some advice on what medicine to use.
No.99071
No.99099
Nothing, I've never been to a doctor for anything other than pain killers or blood work in my adult life and have no interest in a diagnosis since nothing they stick me with is going to net me autismbux in freedomland anyway. Though last visit my new GP was pushing really hard for me to see some therapist she recommended because she somehow immediately knew I was depressed from the way I "carried myself". Might look into something for anxiety when I'm eventually forced to find a job of some kind because I can get retardedly shaky when I'm at all nervous and that'll likely end up being a problem, but I really hate the idea of having to go through a therapist for it.
No.99128
The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new dark age.
No.99137
take paroxetine if you never want to feel emotions again
No.99138
>>99137
that being said, i loooooooooooooove valium. i dont go over board with it either like most people. 1 or 2 pills in a night to make me sleep tight is all i need. and no, it's not every night or even most nights, only when i cant sleep because my fucking brain wont shut the fuck up and stop forcing me to see images and my thoughts wont stop looping like they are right now before fucking bed time and i dont have any Valiums because i haven't been to the doctor.
so i just take painkillers. fuck me up fam
No.99159
>>98160
When I just started anti-depressants I went to the dentist. The needle they give you has adrenalin in it, I started shaking uncontrollably and my vision blurred. It's always fun revealing mental illness to strangers.
No.99206
Been through Citalopram, Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine, Aripirazole, Lamotrigine, Quetiapine, Risperidone, and Zopiclone and Melatonin for sleep, and Lorazepam, Olanzapine, and Diazepam for panic attacks.
Load of shite imo.
No.99479
No.99626
>2016
>not using herbal maois like cappi or syrian rue to correct brain chemistry.
No.99648
doctors are salesmen for the big pharma industry.
you are a sucker if you fall for it.
No.104996
I am afraid of seeking help
No.105024
>>99206
How was your experience with Mirtazapine? For thread I've tried Effexor,Klonopin,Buspar,Zoloft and currently only take Ativan occasionally.
No.105050
I used to be on Ritalin and Strattera when I was a kid because my mom made me go to the psychiatrist every week. All they did was make me feel depressed and throw up but I had to keep pretending to take them because my mom wouldn't take no for an answer.
I fucking hate shrinks and I will never see one ever again no matter how robot I get.
No.105098
Time to quit Zoloft cold turkey :^)
It's a hassle to try getting a new one, even though my psychiatrist recommends Wellbutrin, but he can't write it, nor is his "word" good enough for my doctor. So it has to go through some higher holds and blabla formality.
Such is life in free healthcare.
No.105149
>>89248
MXE is a fucking miracle. Most mind changing/repairing thing I ever witnessed. More than just a shame I cant get a hold of it, anymore.
>Seroquel
All time high of my nightmare. Made me schizo, also seizures. Aborted after 3 months.
>Citalopram
Made me even more useless and no positive effects
>Mirtrazapine
First one to have actual positives effects. Took it for 2 years, made me stable.
>Venlafaxine
Positive effects on mood and energy at first but drove me nuts after a month, completely fucked my sleep up and sleep deprivation is the one thing I can not deal with.
Took 2 or 3 others as well but canceled after a short while. Forgort their names.
No.105151
>>105024
Other peoples experiences with SSRIs are pretty much useless to you, since your brainchemistry is different.
Mirtazapine is pretty soft though, heard of noone who got dramatic side effects from it.
No.105169
>>88780
Clonazepam for panic attacks. Very small doses. Barely works after I take 2.
No.105174
was put on a small dose of some amphetamine level crap to calm me down before sleep. After about a month of no sleep and having basically no short term memory I was institutionalized. they took me off the amphetamines and I returned to sanity.
No.105183
>>105174
But did you have the same problems with sleep after they took you off the drug?
No.105256
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
i remember the first time i took antidepressants. i think it was cymbalta
at first i wasn't plagued with shit feels, but at the same time i felt like killing myself was a bretty gud idea
never knew suicidal urges could be so blissful
>>88809
>ssri withdrawal
>brain zaps
i remember feeling something like that in my blood. took five attempts to get off that stuff.
No.105723
I was prescribed Prozac when I was 14 but I didnt wanna turn into an autistic zombie like the kid at school who threw a trash can at the teacher so I never took a single one, just threw em away. Eventually at the age of ~16 I bitched at the doctor and "I know its your job to sell these but I dont need them and they dont do anything" to which doc replied "lmao ur calling me a drug dealer" and ended the prescription.
No.105799
basically, if you get prescribed psychotropics, it's because you're normal and you can see what's wrong with the world.
society doesn't want you to see thru it's lies. the government wants you to be passive cattle.
in other words, they want to feminize you. mood stabilizers are for women. that's why 25% of all women in america are taking them.
the only way these gifs could be more chillingly accurate is if the pill was blue
No.105826
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/health/news/12126146/Antidepressants-can-raise-the-risk-of-suicide-biggest-ever-review-finds.html
Antidepressant use doubles the risk of suicide in under 18s and the risks to adults may have been seriously underestimated, researchers found
No.105838
>>105799
no its more like >>99648
the brain is a complex organ that is not fully understood, so trying to treat depression with drugs is anywhere from very difficult to impossible.
if you're depressed, might as well take a walk or something, that is also said to be good for your mental health and it doesn't have horrible side effects. unless you live in a bad neighborhood or something.
>>105174
>amphetamines
>calming anything
wat
>>105723
>which doc replied "lmao ur calling me a drug dealer"
but that is a psychiatrist's job
No.105871
No.105881
>>105871
>daily reminder psychiatry is a scam
Seriously, for a lot that claims to be redpilled too many of you still fall for some pretty basic hoodwinkings
No.105897
>tfw too poor to go to the doctor
I'd end up selling the pills, no way i would fall for the pharmaceutical jew. Too bad I live in a country with third world healthcare
No.105979
I have been on SSRI/SNRI for a good 15 or 16 years. My mother had me put on paxil when I was 12. I went through dosage increases, then I was swapped to Cymbalta….. went through dosage increases on that then to brintellix for a week but it made me really sick. Now I am on Effexor XR…. they just increased my dose.
I decided to quit last year; I tapered down and worked with the doc. Even after tapering down for a month, withdrawals were hell. I withdrew for a good month and every day was physically hell. Afterwards, I got extremely depressed. I would have to leave work and cry like a baby in my car and then clean myself up and come back to work. I went on like that for a good 8 months until my mother talked me into getting back on the meds. I am doing better now, but I am completely devoid of hope. I do like that on Effexor XR I don't cry. Like, ever. I haven't cried once since going on Effexor XR. The bad part is I am dead inside. The doctor told me my brain has grown accustomed to having the serotonin regulated by meds and I lack certain neural pathways. He says I will likely be on the meds the rest of my life, otherwise I will have the crippling depression and physical withdrawals for years and years. Considering in eight months I nearly slit my wrists, I am not sure I could take it. 29 years old now… never been on a date…. still a virgin, obviously. I don't have friends anymore. I just go to work and come home and use the computer. I haven't had hopes or dreams or plans since 2007 when I bailed on college ambitions. I am completely dead inside. I feel like I am taking these now so I can just be a worker drone and pay taxes without killing myself. That is what my life is at this point. I am completely dead inside, /r9k/.
No.105984
Celexa
Effexor (worst one for me)
Wellbutrin (least worst for me)
Prozac
Zoloft
Fuck all SSRIs. All of them shit. Benzos are the way to go. For me at least.
No.105994
>>105984
Benzos are OK for short term use. Long term use = no way. They have horrible, horrible side effects. Also they cause dependency in a far worse way than SSRI
No.106024
>>99648
i regret recommending depressedanons to see a therapist and get on antidepressants
No.106026
>SWALLOWING THE CAPJEWLES
No.106032
>>105979
>>106024
Just popping in to remind everyone to consider a life of crime.
Pros:
+get revenge on society and normalfags
+do exciting things
+unlimited opportunity for growth
+girls love criminals (even james holmes gets nude pics sent to him)
+contribute to the destruction of society and it's eventual rebirth
+life on the edge will help you forget your existential dread
Cons:
-may impact life expectancy
-not for the faint of heart
-jail time
-success not guaranteed
-brief moments of calm will fill you with existential dread
No.106197
>>106032
Such shitty advice. Does it hurt to know you were born in the 1990's? I mean, the edginess. Does it cut you?
No.106280
>>106197
>muh edgy
You can just admit that your feelings were hurt at some point, the meme doesn't make it any less obvious.
No.106396
Currently taking Welbutrin. It has helped with most of the anxiety and the screaming in my head. Have a job and a license now, but I'm still so far from being the person I want to be. It feels impossible to learn because books aren't a sufficient distraction from undesirable thoughts. I cracked down for 10 minutes, then every minor infraction I have ever caused loops in my head to where I feel awful and can't focus.
No.106408
MY faggot Insurance Company fucked me this year and now I dont have insurance so ran out of lexapro yesterday, All was fine until about half way thru today when I noticed I did not want to move at all…. Now I have been having this gross clamy sweaty feeling all over my body and I alternate between feeling really hot or really cold….
I have only been taking 10mg for a month now so I did not think was going be to a big deal, what should i expect?
Dont even drop any bs about depression not being real or I am a bitch for wanting a pill, I have a shit life and bad health problems I cant fix in addition to being dirt poor despite working freelance 7 days a week and living with my rents at 28 years old, I blew out my back at 22 and I was pretty good looking and had good prospects, I havent been with a girl in 5 years, I lost my job and no one would hire me due to back injury and I have been shit on daily and not taken care of for my back.
I bought a 357 magnum last year to kill myself and still have it but the prospect of leaving my mom alone to try to survive in this world when my dad will be dead from cancer in 5 years at the most and my dipshit sister who buried her self in debt and mom supports her makes me feel like a coward for killing myself, I went to get lexapro to try to give myself more will to fight and it did not really do much but it did alleviate some anxiety issues i have….
Now I dont have any more and I will deal with that but I am wondering what withdrawal is going to be like….. I have come off tramadol, hydrocodine, 4 years of daily weed smoking, and tobacco cold turkey…. Does Lex compare to any of these?
No.106465
I'm on Zoloft, what'd you guys think of it? Been taking them for 3 months now
No.106473
>>88950
Seroquel tightened my neck muscles, but only when i smoked.
It helped me quit, and made me sleep, i liked ti, though didn't help with my anxiety
No.106474
>>99138
Valium killed my grandma
No.106475
I'm on Lovan and 2 types of Seroquel, but i dont usually take the other one.
The Lovan made me a little bit more zoned out, so i didint think of suicide often. But after about 3 months, it started to do nothing.
Seroquel only helps with my sleep.
No.106482
>>106465
Enjoy trying to get off it.
It's not the withdrawal mentally that's the issue. But for some fuckign reason you get severe stomach ache and extreme discomfort.
No.106494
>>88950
Haloperidol : what was bad about it?
No.106984
>>105979
>My mother had me put on paxil when I was 12. I went through dosage increases,
i had the greatest, most vivid dreams at 40mg Paxil
also great panic attacks and always depersonalization in the mornings for up to 3 hours after waking up
No.112224
No.112286
>im negative
>here these drugs will fix it
>doc the drugs don't work
>you're just being negative
>if the drugs were working i wouldn't be negative
No.112289
>>106482
Wew.
Still withdrawals occationally. I take 25 mg to fix it.
However, I spoke to a psychiatrist about it. And the end result was, try 3+ months without meds.
And he asked what I wanted out of the meds. Like if I know :^) . I want ambition, joy, initiative.
I don't understand what meds are supposed to do.
Make you "not sad"? C ause that is how he spoke of things like Cipralex, Zoloft and alike.
That they were temporary drugs when somehow suffering hard. But why have people been on that shit for 10+ years ???
What is worse is that he looked even more socially retarded and confused then me. Guess it takes one to know one.
No.112295
I've tried just about everything and this combo is working somehow:
- Lamictal
- Sertraline
- Lexotan
- Levetiracetam
No.112299
I took Effexor once. I ended up seeing grass shimmer like emeralds, water beautiful like a sea of molten sapphires, and I also emptied my bank account and loaded my CC on clothes and shoes. I normally fucking hate buying clothes and shoes, I dress at Target, so I hated even more the kind of shit I was buying after I went back to normal. A few hours after I felt so drained that I had to check myself in the hospital else I would have shot myself there and then. I was told I went through hypomania, and that does happen to be a side effect of Effexor. So I had to pay back all this shit. Thanks, big pharma.
After that I didn't even entertain the idea of pharmaceuticals, I just smoked weed. Weed was the best, even when sober there was an afterglow and I always was pretty happy and calm. So fucking calm, nothing got on my nerves, it was glorious. Unfortunately I had to move back to my mom's after my job was cut, so I had to quit smoking weed, and I soon became a mess again, depressed as fuck, anxious as fuck, just like before. Three weeks ago I started to go through panic attacks related to health anxiety, and I don't know how anyone is supposed to live through that. I didn't sleep most nights because I was so fucking certain that my heart would stop were I to fall asleep. It was not rational, I knew that, but there was no stopping the feeling, and eventually the panic would increase with each heartbeat and I'd become a crying mess. So I tried again.
This time it was Celexa they put me on. I was very apprehensive, but I took one anyway. It was weird as fuck. I had this weird fucking smile scotched on my face. I just couldn't stop smiling for no reason, but at the same time anxiety went up to 11/10 (because let's face it, that wasn't normal), so I was basically panicking inside with a smile. Then my heart started beating super fast and I just couldn't fucking sleep. It was terrible.
This shit is poison. I wish I could just smoke weed. That was the happiest I'd been. When I have a panic attack I swipe one of my mom's clonazepam, at least it calms me down and I can sleep, but when I was smoking dank indica I didn't have this problem at all. Medical marijuana is legal here but almost no one prescribes it unless you have cancer. Better just take all these pills instead.
No.112328
No.112426
If i go to the therapist for the first time ever and tell them i had social anxiety since i was 9, would they just tell me to get friends?
i've tried everything. even with friends i constantly worry about them wanting to fuck me over, or me acting like a complete madman all the time.
i just want them to give me something to stop this
No.115127
No.115190
>>112299
Buy a quarter ounce and take 'walks'
No.115377
>>115127
Take more drugs, then.
No.115384
No.115404
>>112426
Nah, he/she will understand. I said this and they gave me seroquel, didn't help. But snorting it was quite the treat
No.115428
>>112426
Buy some Xanax or Etizolam off the dark net.
No.115436
>>106032
Sure, there's a lot of opportunity. But being a successful criminal requires a good deal of motivation and being a self-starter, no matter what type of crime you engage in.
If you piss on the floor because you're too lazy to walk 20 feet to the bathroom, this isn't for you.
Most types of crime also require being able to properly interact with others. Screwing up around regular people will, at worst, result in them rolling their eyes and laughing at you.
Sperging out around that big burly biker dude with a .45 in his waistband? Well that might realllly shorten your life expectancy.
No.115682
I feel like a lightweight here, all I can say is fuck ritalin, when you're on it it makes you a zombie and when you're not it makes you crash hard. Somebody already posted Piccolo Dick so I don't need to do that