No.94425
FTDDTOT
You know how this works. Come and share your feels of all kinds.
No.94427
No.94429
>when you don't realize you went into the womens restroom until mid shit
No.94430
There is a perfectly good thread up right now, I want to see it get to 800 posts.
No.94431
>>94430
>There is a perfectly good thread up right now, I want to see it get to 800 posts.
>"…get up to 800 posts."
>implying
No.94455
>haven't fapped in a week due to certain circumstances
>the yandere personality for CM3D2 was released a few days ago
I'm fucking livid.
Somebody help.
No.94463
>retards on /furry/ are spazzing out over some furfag's "game"
No.94470
>>94455
On a trip or something? That feeling's the worst, needing to fap but can't for days on end.
No.94479
>tfw someone else made a FTDDTOT: II and it wasnt even me
>i am the OP of the original FTDDTOT
No.94481
>tfw when I used my family connections to set up my best friend for a decent job. (my grandmother knew a guy who was willing to put someone through trade school to work for him).
>I know I am shit at that stuff so I told her to give my friend the recommendation.
>mfw I might soon have no friends because I helped my only friend to rise above NEETdom
No.94500
>>94470
A little something like that except it's gonna last 1 to 2 months. I'm making it worse since I've started to lurk /monster/ + /paladin/.
No.94504
I am not sure how I should feel but I though I overcome being a robot like a week ago only to know that I was being used because of exams.
No.94505
trying to write a movie
>five main characters are basically /r9k/, /pol/, /tv/, /mu/, and /k/ incarnate
>despite going on all those boards frequently, I feel like an idiot whenever I try and think of things for them to say
>dreading the point when I actually have to write dialogue
No.94518
>tfw hair on the top of my head has been thinning more and more for the past few years and is starting to get pretty bad
>tfw one of my eyes has been bloodshot on one side for a few days now (not itchy or any puss thank fuck)
>tfw i look/feel like pic related
Tempted to say fuck it and go full skinhead.
No.94527
>>94505
>dialog between /r9k/, /pol/, /tv/, /mu/, and /k/
that will be interesting for sure
No.94529
>feels that don't deserve their own thread
I actually think I've lost the ability to feel. I only ever really feel angry or sad anymore, but even that's starting to go away because at this point I don't care about anything anymore. I'd probably be concerned about it if I cared but I don't.
No.94538
>>94529
>tfw when I have no feels
Iktf, or lack of feel. I've put up such barriers to my emotions that everything is just numb. I stopped caring about me long ago and now I care less and less about everything else. I am become apathy.
No.94541
>>94527
The story is these four guys meet in a psych ward and they all sort of embody those boards and they rob banks and other shit together.
It's fucking stupid I know
No.94551
>>94479
WELL I WOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO IF YOU WEREN'T SUCH A GOOBER AND MADE ONE WHEN WE HIT THE POST LIMIT, NOW WOULD I?
>>94500
>1 to 2 months
God have mercy on your soul.
No.94552
No.94553
>>94552
Do they get burgers and fries?
No.94554
>>94553
Just for you, I'll write a scene in where they eat at a five guys.
No.94558
>>94554
>doing that for me
That's pretty big of you.
No.94559
>>94558
You're a big guy.
:^)
No.94568
>>94538
Care too little to live. Care too little to die.
No.94569
>Tfw I have never been able to remember my dreams.
>Tfw I look online how to start remembering my dreams
>Tfw it's super easy just start righting a dream journal as soon as you wake up
>Tfw I start to remember flashes after only a few days
>Tfw I start to remember more and start to feel like shit every morning
>Tfw instead of being considered a "morning person" by my mom every morning she asks what's wrong
>Tfw I am able to remember most of my dreams most days now and I wish I was unable to ever remember any dream ever again.
>Tfw all my dreams turn to nightmares of bad feels
No.94570
>>94569
>Tfw I can't upload images for whatever fucking reason
No.94572
>tfw my mother is constantly sick
>she always asks whats wrong or how to fix it
>she has been to specialist after specialist because of her allergies
>she moves to relatives' summer home to get better
>tells me to go with her in the weekend
>bring books to read
> tried to read something but she constantly ask me how to get better
>I just stare at her trying to think of an answer
>mfw I have no answer
No.94573
>>94505
post what you've written so far
No.94574
>>94573
Nah m8. Not gonna risk one of you autists passing it off as your own :^)
No.94576
>>94573
also I'm still in the outlining phase
No.94578
>>94576
it's not like it'll go anywhere, just post a small extract. i'm interested how /r9k/ would be as a person.
No.94580
>>94578
None of it is in the form of a screenplay yet. It's all just tons of scribbles on a legal pad. If this thread is still alive by the time I have some ready to go, I'll post it.
No.94581
>>94576
Nigger, just fucking post it.
I actually know your feel on this, but it's better to post your stuff, let it stand on its own, and just take any criticism with stride. Than it is to just pussyfoot around it.
I'm a shit tier artist, but I've been getting better lately first and foremost because I shared my shit with skilled artists and had them tear into me. And you'll never get better if you never try to get some feedback on stuff.
Hell, someone might even like it.
No.94582
>>94581
It's on a legal pad right now. Let me transfer the basics to a document or something. This isn't gonna be in screenplay format, and it's not gonna be everything that I've written, it's just the basics of the plot split up into acts and sequences and scenes.
There's gonna be some holes where I haven't figured out what to do yet.
I'm lazy as fuck and only just started actually writing stuff recently
No.94583
>>94541
maybe not. What I was saying is, you know what happens when all those boards interact with /pol/ each other.
>>94569
>tfw your dreams are better than real life, so you just force yourself to sleep for 12 hours.
>tfw today a girl I was obsessing over a few years ago showed up on one but now I can't remember what she did.
>tfw you're a fucking cunt for reminding me of said dream, m8.
I'm gonna take a shower now and try to remember again.
>>94582
DO IT
No.94598
>>94505
Please tell me it involves a school shooting
No.94600
>Finally got a gf and lost my virginity
>Since she's only 18 and poor she had to move across the country with her parents
>Now I feel more empty than before
No.94603
I'm too lazy and apathetic to even formulate my feels
No.94616
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
>>94583
I'll write it out as soon as I get home, I'm at work right now.
No.94617
>>94616
I didn't mean to embed that, oops.
No.94625
>Finally get a BF after years of being alone and hating myself for being gay.
>We get along very well and after a month or two sex comes up and we do it it was my first time
>Can tell that I'm hurting him with my dick, its not super long or anything but pretty big girth
>He starts dodging doing full butt stuff for a couple of months, I later hear through a mutual friend that he used the word "scary" to describe my dick
>Feel like a jerk for pushing for anal now
This is an abstract kind of hell, I never thought that I'd wish I had a smaller dick. I feel like such an asshole because I wanted to do anal and I could tell he was hesitant and now I know why.
Can't wake up.
No.94639
>feel lonely
>remember that each post has a person behind who was born, and lived for years, they had birthdays and friends, and crushes, hopes and dreams. All of these things I'll never know about them, but it reminds me of how precious people are and then I wonder why the fuck they post cartoon frogs on the internet and realize that all of that was sentimental crap and that the only escape is death, suicide, the sleep that knows no waking.
No.94648
>>94625
>I feel like such an asshole
you feel in pain?
No.94654
>>94583
>Tfw the girl I've been obsessed with for years shows up in my dreams and I confess my love
>Tfw she reacts well even walks up to me and stretch's up to hug me
>Tfw I try to kiss her but she headbutts me so hard my knees crumple
>Tfw I'm hugging her around the waist crying asking why she hates me/why would she do this to me
>Tfw she grabs my hair and wrenches my head back so I'm looking up at her
>Tfw she spits on my face and laughs at how pathetic I am
Fuck you for making me remember this
No.94657
>>94431
Didn't know that, but you can see how I might not have thought otherwise.
No.94660
>>94657
*might have thought otherwise
No.94679
>took an advil because could feel a headache coming
>do not wanna go to hospital again for not eating [feel guilty for wasting food because eyes bigger than stomach]
>unsweeten tea/bbq chips/cheez-its/little bits and a lunchable atm so i get something to eat
>soda [aka sugar] got to me teeth and have to go to dentist do get 6 teeth worked on this weekend
other than mouf problemos, been playing secondlife/watching super milk chan and reading >>>/tulpa/ and >>>/x/
shoutout to >>>/late/ for the webms
No.94680
>>94500
here, anon, lete me help..
d / gts / furry / monster / mg / abdl / trap / bbw / bellies / chaos / hnt / pee / bimbo / erp / hentai / hypno / gfd / vore / fetish / slob / ass / creepshot / femdom / girlfeet
have fun. ;]
No.94681
>>94625
Why don't you talk to him about it? should've started with oral
No.94683
>>94680
>/femdom/
COME THE FUCK ON MAN I CAN'T FUCKING HANDLE THIS FRUSTRATION
No.94700
>>94504
stay off of r9k for a while until ye get exams done.
No.94702
>>94541
>>chad1 steals r9k's girl away
>chad2 joins a hunting tourny that /k/ is also on
>chad3 trys to shut down /mu/'s radio station
>chad4 run against /pol/ in a voting thing
>chad5 trys to ruins /tv/'s movie of all of this
No.94703
>tfw went to the dentist
>tfw my cheek is sore
>tfw I couldn't move half my face for hours
>tfw I got to go through this shit 2 more times
No.94707
>IBS caused by anxiety
>Anxiety caused by having to use public bathrooms, or even the possibility of it
It's a vicious cycle m8s
No.94709
>>94703
>yfw there once was a time where ye go to a waiting area to play video games or watch tv in a corner but only for kids
>tfw toy after dentist
>mfw the dentist place i go to is next to chuckle cheese
No.94710
>>94707
iktf of IBS
>tfw no more dairy unless i want cramps
No.94712
>don't have outstanding grades
>not really that /fit/ other than being able to run
>not charismatic
>not even really handsome in my own way, pretty disgusting despite trying to work on it
>not creative
>not energetic
>not talented in anything but video games, but there's so much talent out there anyway
>not interested in a single thing other than CS and politics (right wing as hell though)
>no income
>no clear path
>father is dying
>can't be a NEET, parents won't allow me to
>losing all of my friends slowly but surely
>no one loves me
>starting to become immune to tfw no gf
>accepting the fact that I'll pretty much die alone because I seriously lost the genetic lottery
Cuck my life into pieces
No.94716
>been studying drawing every day for months now
>burning out recently
>for some reason it doesn't feel like drawing a bunch is the cause
>if anything it's been keeping me sane
>still accomplishing things every day, and made sure to get stuff done today
>but still have this abject sorrow kind of feeling hanging over me with everything
>can't pin down why and just feel like giving up
I mean I have clinical depression and other stuff wrong with me too, so it could just be biological like it has been in the past.
No.94718
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
not a fan of stupid roastie whores on jewtube but i found this video oddly relateable
No.94721
No.94729
>>94551
those are tears of happiness dude
alls im saying is that my impact on this board is so profound that others feel they need to carry on my legacy of feelposting for a board full of people with such low self-esteem that they feel their feels dont deserve their own threads.
No.94738
>>94654
wew that sounds painful.
>tfw when no oneitis saliva on my face
about the bits I can remember from yesterday, she was acting like a distant cuntas usual
all this years and and I can only remember one occasion where we were happy
>>94729
>tfw I never make my own threads and just wait for these ones so that I can post something discreetly
No.94739
>>94639
I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought of it
No.94787
>>94729
It just made sense to me. Most people who posts on this board do it to vent their feels in one way or another.
Having a dedicated thread to that might admittedly remove potential threads given that people will just post here instead, at the same time that opens up the board to more threads about more unique things.
Granted /r9k/ doesn't really have a topic, it's just become the dedicated feels board due to the people surrounding it.
However, unlike other boards we're also not in danger of becoming a circle jerk general in these because nobody here is the kind of person to want to namefag in the first place.
Don't worry, I know that feel too.
"I don't care about recognition/notoriety" is true for the most part, but it's always a nice feeling seeing people take notice of or even praise you.
No.94815
I have lived semi-segregated for most of my life which means that i have only had 1 crush on an irl woman in all my 21 years and she had bf.
No.94819
>step-dad is starting to be an ass because only has 2weeks to squat at me mom's place.
>'want something to eat? fix it yourself.'
not sure how that is being an ass but way he said it as 'welp. now do not have to worry about feeding him. took care of that.'
>'out of drinks? walk to the store and buy some.'
i do not have any money and it is winter time.
>inb4 he tells me that i cannot eat chips and junk all the time
>inb4 he ask me what i would do if i lived on my own…again
there-you-go-talking-that-bs-again.jpeg
No.94839
>last week before Christmas
>everybody is partying
>there is a group of them literally at my doorstep
>the entire building is vibrating with awful music
>try to study for the last test I have this year in the morning
>can't, too loud
>too autistic to go outside my room and join in or tell them to calm the fuck down
fuck dorms and fuck normies
No.94840
start threads, hardly get response.
go to uni, 10 years older than everybone
basically ignored oh well thank god it's mostly DAT STEM
still sucks though but at least there's marginally less normies
mfw the chads get shit grades
one chad probably studied and got a 70 on a final and i didn't and hit a 88 XD
No.94842
>>94839
>autist
>going to uni in dorm
mother of god, how do you handle that shit and not being able to jack off 24/7 if you're roomed?
No.94843
>>94839
>go to college with "51% minorities", the actual statistic on the school's website
>live on campus first year
>roommate and I are at the very end of a long hallway
>2 doors down live a couple of nignogs
>they have more nignogs over almost every day to party until 4 in the morning
>rap music playing all day
>every
>fucking
>day
I hate niggers.
No.94848
>>94842
>not sure if serious reply, but fuck it
I'm not actually autistic, just really anti-social
as for the masturbation, usually there is a time window once a week when all roommates are out and also I go home for like every other weekend
>>94843
>51% minorities
god almighty
there is probably >50% foreigners, but they are almost exclusively Russians and Ukrainians (who are just fine). There are like 2 niggers in the entire commie-block dorm.
>yay Eastern Europe
No.94852
>>94848
HAHAHAHAHAHA
yeah i was just joshing you
I guess I'm really the autistic one, I would just roll over and do the two finger stroke till i shot it in my shorts lmao.
that's how I got off in prison every day
mfw good when
No.94868
>tfw the Zoloft I've been taking starts making me change
I don't like it, it makes me feel even more down and lack of initiative then previous. I could might swell lie and stare in the wall instead of watching a show or anything else . Road to nihilism woop woop
No.94874
>>94843
>>go to college with "51% minorities", the actual statistic on the school's website
>>live on campus first year
>>roommate and I are at the very end of a long hallway
>>2 doors down live a couple of nignogs
>>they have more nignogs over almost every day to party until 4 in the morning
>>rap music playing all day
>>every
>>fucking
>>day
my roommate is a drug dealer, there's always niggers over. they're so fucking loud, all the time.
No.94939
>fail out of college
>dad wants me to help him start a business so he can quit his job
>the business is making shovelware mobile games
No.94951
>>94600
thats what happens, you fkin normie, reee
No.94960
No.94968
>>94839
>>94843
>>94874
>tfw going to Community College
>tfw the more I hear about 4 year "real" college, the more I'm glad I went to community
No dorm bullshit, don't have to pay for all my shit, still have all my comforts of home, and to top it off no debt.
Yeah I'm not really going anywhere, but then neither are all the normies people I recognize IRL who had to move back home before even 4 years.
>>94939
You do realize that's actually incredibly profitable, right?
Unustainable, sure, but still if you play it smart you'll rake in the cash in no time. Yes, even on mobile shovelware, people are that stupid.
No.94976
>>94840
You're like the opposite of me- I'm not sure which is worse
>go to uni, two years younger than everyone
>get belittled constantly
>normies everywhere even though I chose STEM
>tfw you barely pass even though you study more than everyone around you have quit fapping/vidya and playing instruments just so I could study more
No.94985
>>94518
props if you do, i've been buzzing my head but don't want the hassle of shaving it, been there done that
thanks for the pic XDD
>>94976
Sorry bro, I have a theory that "it gets bedder"
>people are more self-absorbed, don't even fuck with me
Maybe it's because it's STEM tho and the classes are straight lectures for 50 minutes, love it though and hate working in groups.
Thanks for the reply btw, what STEM do you take? I'm in Renewable Energy Technologies, it's not super hard yet
Sucks about the studying, would you happen to be a robot? I am and I killed it, 4 A's and a B. You're probably more intelligent than most, you just might learn or retain stuff differently.
I don't understand that really. Kinda ironic because my short term memory isn't getting any better, my mom's sucks, and my grandmother has pretty bad dementia; yet I still remember shit well. Though I feel like I'm just learning how to take tests well, Have always been a killer test taker.
What's your living/everything situation? Might affect your retention; also, when I study/class i ALWAYS take notes, which I NEVER even read. Just putting it down helps it keep better for me :^)
No.94992
people really need to get over the "prestige" of going to college, and learn a trade.
No.94997
>>94968
Yeah, I figure it will probably make some money but not enough for him to quit his job and live off it. I'm a bit ambivalent because I dislike the idea of creating shovelware but I should probably start building some skills, and I don't really care about the money but if I don't do this my mom will make me get a McJob.
No.95032
>boss texts me and says I have to go to the Christmas party
>fuck
>15 minutes late, finally find the damn place
it's some Mexican place, but the locals call it something completely different than the actual name of the place. fucking retards
>walk in and look for their table
>the one fucking day I eat at this shit hole my ex and her friends happen to be there
>she makes a face and starts talking about me, I ignore
>find the table, and realize I'm horribly overdressed
>"oh hey anon, you found the place. why you so dresses up?
I was wearing a tie and really casual blazer, motherfucker was wearing SWEATPANTS
>10 minutes later
>"Let's all take a moment to appreciate how well dressed anon is"
I don't get it, it's not like I'm wearing a suit or anything
>"…heh I didn't get the memo guys"
>they seem repulsed at my presence
>order food, it comes 10 minutes later after everyone else's
wasn't too bad, I'm not a fan of mexican food but nice job beaners
>awkwardly stare at the tv, or my phone
>coworkers say my name so I look over at them, then they laugh and whisper something
well fuck you guys too
>an hour passes
>they start talking about hanging out sometime, obviously I'm not welcomed
>i excuse myself (nobody cared) and left
what a fun time boys
No.95033
>>94968
>no debt
well I'm sure there is atleast some, right? or is it pretty much negligible, assuming you can easily pay it off once you get employed?
No.95034
>>94842
this is what our dorms look like
No.95040
>tfw you get so bored and unsure what to do when 8ch is down that you started writing porn for your friends
>tfw the only thing that upsets you about that is now you've got another unfinished project you've gotta work on
>but you're so god damned tired from just continually working you want to take a break
I should seriously take a break from the really involved stuff and just doodle some butts. I was going to spend my first day out of classes, semester's over, yesterday just shitposting to relax. But fucking cripplekike's migration didn't even fucking work. This better not be another canv.as scheme HotWheels, we trust you man don't blow it.
>>94997
That too, I don't think he should quit his job. Especially since a lot of this can be done in a weekend once you learn how to program mobile games. The way you get people isn't the quality of the game, it's making them wait like a day for an arbitrary reward.
>>95033
I'm willing to admit in general I'm really god damned lucky and that my parents handle the costs of it.
But I remember something about the state paying for it or something. I don't know, the point is that the classes are cheap enough that if I found a job and kept living at home to funnel all the paychecks into these classes, I could easily do it.
And no, you can't sign up for classes if you can't pay when you sign up, I'm not going to a four year even if I start getting beyond whatever this place can teach me because I don't want to shackle myself, and by extension my parents heavily, with student debt.
No.95050
>>95032
I'll never understand normalfag coworkers. Why the fuck did they even invite you?
>coworkers say my name so I look over at them, then they laugh and whisper something
*anxiety intensifies
No.95065
>>95050
idk, probably to make fun of me
No.95068
>>95065
AWW YEEEEE PUT TAHT TAMALE RIGHT NEXT TO THE HOT SODA
No.95093
>silence breeds anxiety
>have tv streaming from computer, aircon on dehumidify and a fan on
>kettle trips the breaker
>sit in silence in the dark
No.95185
>>95040
>tfw you finish the story anyway and wind up ditching the non canon porn aspect in favor of working on your actual canon.
Better than expected, but I didn't really do much unproductive stuff today. It's hard to explain, but I feel like I'm being too productive lately, and should ease up on it and play some video games or something instead of working on shit for most of the day.
No.95202
I think I might have started having panic attacks
Those are those things where your organs drop and you start not being able to get enough air, right? I don't really want to out and out say that I do, I hate people who self-diagnose like that.
I also feel like I'm stuck. Classes are dragging on more and more, and the thought of going to school next semester is weary at best. My ma could get me a job managing apartments like she does, but she hates her job and doesn't want me to have it. The idea of really pushing for that makes me want to throw up, kind of, as does the idea of bringing up to my mom the fact that I kind of don't want to go to school anymore, since that's what she wants me to do.
I'm nineteen and still living with my mom. Not incredible unusual, in today's climes, but I'm still feeling cramped.
God, she's going to fucking hate me when I fail more classes. I'm sure I must have, one or two.
I could go on, but I guess that's all of my feels in a nutshell, OP.
No.95220
>>95185
>I feel like I'm being too productive lately maybe I should play some vidya.
No that's dumb and your dumb. Your just scared of actually accomplishing something for once in your life.
No.95254
>>95220
Yeah you're probably right.
I've been spending like 8 hours a day for the past 4 months studying and working on shit like this (drawing, writing, planning out details) with a specific goal in mind that this all culminates into. Prior to that I've just loafed around all day every day accomplishing nothing.
No.95306
>tfw eating microwaved leftover pizza
Why does pizza taste so gross when it's reheated in a microwave?
No.95322
>>95306
>microwaving pizza
If you reheat pizza you have to do it in a toaster oven so it gets crispy.
Unless you got pizza hut, in which case that grease sponge shit is just completely fucked.
No.95332
>>95322
I didn't reheat it my mom did. I would just eat it cold. My mom didn't want to finish it so she gave it to me
No.95367
>writing fap fic
>finally finished the buildup and the characters are about to shag
>Dad pounds on door throwing me out of the zone
>say calmly and politely "What?"
>no response
>stomp and slam open door
>"WHAT?!"
>"Don't you fucking get mad at me."
>He's a literal speg, this is one of his mannerisms that I keep explaining to him why he should ditch, and despite him agreeing with me every time he STILL fucking says it every time someone shows the least bit of disapproval. So it's like a trash compactor of compounded rage right now.
>"What."
>"Go help your mother."
>starts angrily sperging about how late it is and how he has to get up early tomorrow
>go downstairs and see groceries on the floor, Mom isn't anywhere.
>figure it means I'm supposed to put them away.
>I'm never even asked this, first time I've had to.
>take care of it as fast as I can
>Mom walks back in with toys she puts in the guest room.
>"Is that everything?"
>sighs and groans "Yeeesssss." like the bitch she is
>thinking silently to myself something along the lines of "Don't give me that whore ass attitude like you always do, especially when I did exactly what was asked of me. I don't think you understand just how absolutely volatile and miraculously restrained I am right now. I'm two blue balls away from going god damned nuclear on this house and clubbing that betamax cuck of a yellowfever Dad of mine in his sleep and enacting the same fury on you, you god damned gold digging spoiled little Filipino brat. I am this fucking close to tearing this house wall to wall. I am fucking livid right now. Do you understand how fucking potent the blazing inferno of a perma-virgin who just got blue balled is? I could power the god damned hadron collider with the white hot wrath of my dick at this very moment. And you give me this shit AGAIN? So help me god the only reason I'm not brutalizing everyone and everything in this house is because people want to read the finished product and I'll lose all my work if I go to jail and or die. So don't fucking fuck with me you peabrained womanchild skank."
>go back upstairs and try to start working on it again.
>too god damned angry to even think straight
>decide to vent in the FTDDTOT thread
IT WAS GOING PERFECTLY, YOU GUYS. I'D BEEN THINKING ABOUT HOW TO SEQUENCE AND TELL EVERYTHING FOR DAYS NOW AND RIGHT AS IT HIT ME THIS SHIT HAPPENS AND I FORGET ALL OF IT.
No.95368
>>94529
>the guy taking that picture is dressed like a fucking hipster
of course
No.95389
>cute co-worker makes small talk with me every time I come in to work and we share a shift
>worry that if I start dating her she'll turn out to be a psycho and I won't be able to break up with her because I'm such a soft-hearted pussy who doesn't want to hurt her feelings
No.95420
>take the no-fap pill
>everything goes fine at first
>on the third day the dreams start
>grills in every dream, hand holding, cuddling, and staring into each other's eyes included
It's the only reason I fail no-fap. After some time, I can't take dreaming about things that I'll never do.
It's not even sex, it's everything else. I would rather be numb than wake up sad every day
I really don't want to cave, but I probably will
No.95427
>post virtually all drawings on Normiebook
>pretty confident about my skills, not super god-tier amazing but definitely above average, people always give me compliments when they see my art
>literally one of my few qualities, but not good enough to make a living out of it or get laid
>drawings will only have a few likes and maybe a share from mom on her wall with look at how good my son is
>haven't drawn in a few weeks.
>just can't
>look at the paper and i can't force myself to draw
>only doodle cute pokémons in my notebook in class
>go home and draw incredibly fetish pokémon porn to share on the internet
>i don't even really care about pokémon, i just got into it because a few of my female friends kept talking about it
>draw the porn just to please strangers on the internet so i can feel appreciated
No.95430
>wake up in the middle of the night
>thinking about oneitis
>check her youcaring page that is for her to move out with her trans partner in the first time for a couple of months
>it's absolutely barren
>literally says "I'm about ready to do anything for a dollar at this point"
>realize if I did end up going out with her somehow, I'd have to deal with her family issues
>realize that I truly feel no pain anymore in reading that page
>realize my feels have become steel during what people say is the most charitable season
I have surpassed mere mortals, for now I have really become a robot. Now begins the 12 year descent to wizardry.
No.95453
>>95427
Why not make some money while you're at it?
No.95475
>>95453
I'm not good enough to charge for it.
No.95477
>>95475
Make a shit text based porn rpg combined with the artwork and people will pay. Look how much some western porn game creators make on patreon with low quality works, it's crazy and non japanese content barely exists in the genre so there's little competition.
No.95484
>last summer
>have an actual group of friends because my brother is in the group and they let me tag along
>im the little brother because im youngest so im not really friends with them at first
>eventually they start to actually like me and give me nicknames and let me smoke with them and invite me to hang out
>one guy always plays one song in the car whenever we go on an outing as a group
>a few months later my brother gets into a fight with one guy in the group and they stop being friends
>i took my brothers side so we dont hang out with the rest of the group anymore
1 year later
>hear that song on the radio the other day
>remember the sun coming in through the windows of that car, being squished between a bunch of other people who were my friends and wanted me there with them. driving to the lake or a bar or someones house to smoke or anywhere really.
>turn off the radio
i had friends once
No.95502
>>95427
I sort of know that feel, drawing and wanting recognition because it's nice.
But the confidence thing I've only known recently because I actually deliberately started studying it.
First of all, you shouldn't be after money with this, or getting laid. Seriously, what the fuck man "get laid" because of your drawings? Are you retarded?
Second of all, why the fuck are you posting to facebook? The only way you're going to get any recognition there is if you start baiting normies with whatever hot topic they're on. You get recognized, and learn, by interacting with other Artists, not trying to get some acquaintance to like share and subscribe.
>Mom cares about your drawings
That's one step above me, my Mom would always tell me to stop and get back to important shit. Even now with me taking Art classes she doesn't really give a rats ass about me and will always immediately jump back to
>So is this what you've been working on for class? How are your grades?
After I attempt to show her something I made personally because I wanted to.
Third of all, the praise they give is genuine, but ultimately hollow. That whole "you're the worst judge of your own work" only applies when you label something as "finished." You can always improve and you can always learn more.
What I'm getting at is you're probably lying to yourself about this.
You're drawing for attention, not for fun. There's so many things in this post that point to this.
>Posting them on facebook
>taking pride in your work
>selling your work short
>selling your work up "why aren't I getting recognition?"
>can't bring yourself to draw without a reason
>drawing fetish pokemon porn to appease people on the internet
>your picture implying that you're irritated at this
And before you get at me on the second to last one, I draw stuff for people online for free too. But I do it, first and foremost, as a means of practicing things.
No.95534
>No one respects me also I have done so much for them.
>As socially needy as a mating rabbit.
Change is impossible
No.95562
>>95306
>>95322
You're supposed to pan fry it face down
No.95575
>>95502
Thanks a lot Anon. I needed to hear that.
No.95579
>tfw your stepsister is on her way to becoming a doctor
>tfw you're just a mentally retarded code monkey straight out of community college
No.95580
>>94600
Serves you right normalblood
No.95585
>>95367
t.Eurasian gets mad for getting cuckblocked form writing his gay fan fiction.
No.95597
>>95367
Thanks for the laugh.
No.95633
>hope
>I wanna kill myself or try and fix my life but instead i'm stuck in robot limbo where i hate myself enough to want to die but have just enough hope to think maybe some day things might get better. It's the hope that get's me because i can never truly accept that i'll never amount to anything, no matter how much i know it to be true. I never thought about it but honestly i wish i had no hope so I could just man the fuck up and either sort myself out or just hang myself, instead I just pump myself full of drugs to try and numb the pain but it never works. Oh well I guess if i don't do it directly the shit i'm putting inside myself will kill me eventually
No.95660
>>94625
We don't wanna hear about your faggot drama problems, shit dick.
No.95667
>>94712
Yeah, blame your genetics for your apparent shortcomings instead of trying to work on them, that'll help in the long run.
No.95668
>>95575
It's no problem.
Being there for other Robots is why I lurk /r9k/.
No.95671
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>>95585
And then there's this faggot.
>>95597
No problem.
No.95685
>tfw taking old grandma type cat back to the lady that my mom got her from since she feels depressed mix with anxicity because of yapping small dogs making her trapped in a room that is smelling of cat piss and smoke [my step-dad smokes in that room very few times because of stress of something]. she hides under guest bed [which is accross from my room] and the closet [we once found her in the bathroom almost behind the toilet]. i brought her the food/water bowl and refilled the food with my hand and refilled her water with what was left in my water bottle. she drank more than ate [thought she was going to drown herself]. i confessed to her that it is not easy to deal with depression while crying. atleast she only has 1 week left until she can see her friend[s] again and pass away happy. ;_;
No.95688
>tfw want to try sucking a dick but know i'd be terrible at it and don't want to waste some dude's time
No.95769
>tfw eating wasabi peas too fast
No.95792
>keep my scholarship by 0.038
it's a Christmas miracle
No.95832
>>94752
iktf
ye play secondlife?
No.95835
I just feel like giving up.
It all feels so pointless, because it is.
No.95876
>>95202
have someone record the class[es] for you then you can take ye time listening to them instead of rushing.
a job? what could you see yourself doing? have a skill or hobby ye can make money off of? when the teacher asked ye 'what do you wanna be when you grow up?', what was ye answer?
No.95878
>>94992
This senpai
>go to community college
>learn how into plumbing
>always liked fixing things and systems/paths tickle my autism
>family made fun of me
>fast forward to now
>when I'm on a job, never have to talk to people
>"what seems to be the problem, sir?"
>The toilet won't toilet
>ignored all day, fix things
>people always astonished when the drain works again
>that'll be three hundred dollars
>mfw
No.95879
>>95427
r/ing giantess stuff?
No.95884
>>95876
>ye
You a fucking pirate m80?
No.95922
>>95878
>touching the poop pipes
No.95939
>take a walk out to the park
>about to come full circle
>suddenly, cat
>i love cats
>the cat sees me coming but doesn't change course
>i stop, wondering if it wants to be pet
>i crouch down and extend my hand
>the cat just walks around me and lies down behind me
>i try to pet it
>it stands up, walks a few steps away, and lies down again
>the cat's fucking with me
>i go over and try to pet it again
>it snaps at my hand but doesn't bite me, gets up, walks a few steps, lies down again, and just looks at me
>we stare at each other for a few minutes before i walk away
>as i look back, that fucking cat is just watching me
>go to a local antique shop because i need to try socializing with people before my mind implodes
>hit it off with the owner, as i always seem to do when i go to antique stores/historical societies
>spend money i don't really have to spend
>spend over two hours rummaging and talking about stuff with the owner
>go to pay for my goods
>owner's daughter comes in
>total qt, voluntarily wraps and bags my goods
>keeps glancing at me
>we talk for a bit, she smiled a lot
>she looked like she was fifteen
>i feel bad for being a scumbag but good that i can still come off as relatively normal
No.95967
>have bad ear infection in left ear.
>get prescribed hydromorphone as a painkiller yesterday
>It doesn't do too much and my ear still hurts like hell
>go back to the doctor today and get prescribed hydrocodone as a new painkiller.
>the pain is all gone now.
>I tried to whack it yet it took me an hour and a half and the orgasm was lousy.
>braces are doing some serious work as a special wire was put into place a while back
>I realized I may be short but I got all the other good genes from my family
>learned I put on weight and are close to being 140 lbs, my eventual goal being closer to 150.
>my grandfather wasn't very tall either yet my father is the shortest of all his brothers at 5'10"
>even my shorter aunt from his family is close to 5'8"
I miss my great uncle, I wish I had more time to talk to him.
I'm feeling pretty good over here.
No.96003
>started coding and now making a game
>mother yells at me
>I am a failure cause I am the only one of 5 kids that didn't move out
>step dad asks me what I am doing one day
>show him my game that doesn't even have a functional goal yet
>asks why I am doing this
>tell him the gaming industries market
>he smiles
>week later mom yells at me again for spending too much time on my computer
>step dad steps in and tells her to leave me alone, and that she just doesn't understand that I am doing a hobby that could yield an exceptional amount of money
>they fight
>later I thank my step dad
>feels good having someone to step up for me for once in my life.
No.96006
>tfw spent 3 hours cleaning apartment and cooking only for friend to be too sick to come over
No.96039
>>96003
Make sure the game isn't absolute shit, you'd make him stand up for something that ultimately failed if it's shit, and he'd hold a grudge on you.
No.96049
>breaking up with le gf
>she doesn't change passwords of any online service
>besides that, i'm still logged into Whatsapp Web in the browser of my old phone, basically checking every conversation she has
>i'm logging into her Skype, checking every conversation she has
>i'm checking her Dropbox uploads, she has auto upload enabled on her phone so i'm checking every image she uploads
>i'm logging into her Facebook, checking what pages she visits and the conversations she has
>i occasionally log into her Google account, looking at her search history (which i turned on a while ago)
tfw im a passive-aggresive cyber stalker without her knowing.
No.96061
>>95427
post some examples, faggot.
No.96062
>>96049
>breaking up with le gf
>breaking up with
>le
>gf
Go back to reddit you fucking normie. You are the cancer that killed halfchan and obviously don't belong here.
No.96064
>>96049
>>96062
At least if he would have said "la gf" that would make more sense.
No.96066
>>96062
im using 'le' ironically you speglord. this place isn't only for neets
No.96074
>tfw I'm not smart enough to be a Stemfag
>tfw I don't won't to dissapoint my parents by not going to college
No.96106
>>96074
colIege is a scam.
No.96135
>>96066
>This place isn't only for neets.
The cancer that killed half/r9k put into on sentence.
No.96330
Got a job so no longer a NEET.
Paranoid about what my coworkers think of me.
They probably mistake my silence for being a stuck up ass. Get the feeling they talking shit about me behind my back. Bah.
No.96331
>>96049
You should work for the NSA anon.
No.96332
>tfw Santa doesn't bring me stuff anymore
No.96335
>>94839
Last night I couldn't sleep, All of a sudden I hear a bunch of drunks singing 'Dancing Queen' off in the distance
No.96337
>>95185
No faggot,you're on a roll, keep going. You can always vidya later.
No.96340
end of day
coworker leaves
need to go to bathroom, see her standing near elevator, say bye
go back into office,leave a bit later (finishing up some stuff)
go to bank, get on subway
she's in the same subway car as me
great now she'll think I'm stalking her
why couldn't I have just stayed a NEET?
I think my coworkers already hate me, this'll just give them more ammo.
No.96341
>>95032
Goddamn it anon, this is exactly how I see a party going with my coworkers as well. Luckily I don't have to go anywhere.
No.96347
>>94429
>be me
>9 years old
>in shopping centre
>walking into bathrooms
>realise is women's when I see only women and no trough in there
>literally 180 degrees on my heel and walk away
Shit myself tbh
No.96349
>be me
>move across the world at 12
>be me now, 18
>go back home, TOMORROW
>mfw all the questions my family will ask me
Gotta mentally steel myself
No.96350
>>96074
Major in something that is practical but doesn't require a lot of math like IT, business, econ etc.
No.96386
>>96349
Can you explain that in a little more detail?
No.96415
>>94648
Heh
>>94681
I just recently talked to him about it, we're going to take it a bit slower in the future. This is my first relationship so I have no idea what's going on, I appreciate the advice.
>>95660
Thanks for the contribution m8.
No.96467
>>95939
sounds like a female cat.
No.96469
No.96471
>>96335
>not 'me&bobby&bobby's bro' to make it sound like they were gay.
No.96496
>>96386
what would you like to know
No.96748
>>95034
What state are you in?
No.96754
>cousins expressing interest in my OC's
>think I'm boring them/going into too much detail
>they ask to know more
>spend a lot of time just divulging details, recounting what I'm doing, and bouncing ideas around
>emerge with even more ideas and a reignited vigor for drawing
Finally. Someone finally listened to me sperg about this.
No.97022
>cousin is taking me with him to do under the table work tomorrow
>has to take Christmas lights off some guys house
>He doesn't need to take me but he wants me to get work experience because I'm a neet and my parents probably suggested it
>remember him saying the house is 2 stories
>I'm terrified of heights and shake like a leaf as soon as I climb on the 3rd step of a ladder
>I can't tell him no because I'm a neet and my parents will go ballistic
>If I bring up that I'm terrified of heights my mom will snap at me and tell me to get over it
This isn't going to end well
No.97065
>tfw u just had sex but want to fap
No.97069
>>97022
The fear goes away with experience. Just climb a fuck ton of ladders, you will start feeling at ease eventually.
No.97075
>>97065
Fucking normalfags
No.97080
>>96074
literally anything that isn't liberal arts horseshit will get you a job. don't make a stupid choice
No.97083
>>96341
yeah, coworkers suck. especially when they'll all turbo normies
No.97085
>>96368
>posting Disagreeable Diego
No.97086
>>96748
ohio. $450 a month and everything is included (except for electricity which is split). too bad my roommates are turbo normies, but it's whatever
No.97107
>>97022
Fighto anon. I'm sure you can overcome your fear of heights. Just stay focused and let your fear fuel your concentration and balance. And you'll be fine. Before you know it, you'll be shaking less and you'll be taking down those lights.
No.97122
>>97022
atleast ye do not have a size-fetish so badly that even the sky triggers you or even looking at a microscope.
>am a neet
>>>/neet/
No.97183
>>97122
Fuck off yefag everyone hates
No.97217
>>95034
that's a suite you cocksucker, i'm proud!
the state dorms at suny plattsburgh are just large 2 bunks in one room, floor bathroom and showers
you stay in your room most of the time like I would?
No.97221
A friend of mine who had a really bad first semester in university sent me a message on kikebook saying that he wants to switch to an arts major. I found that hilarious. Does that make me a bad person?
No.97231
A friend of mine who had a really bad first semester in university sent me a message on kikebook saying that he wants to switch to an arts major. I laughed. Does this make me a bad person?
No.97232
>>97221
>>97231
Only if you didn't tell him how stupid that is
No.97277
>>97183
just get used to it.
might aswel dislike me grammar and lowercase..i took the caps bottom off
No.97289
I decided to check out my old mail account today. Fuck, I haven't cringed this hard for a long time. The mail section was spammed but I went back to the oldest ones and found absent reports letters and general messages from teachers, my old high school grades that were shit, old essays that were poorly written etc. Then came a shit ton of lost memories that I tried to forget because they're just cringe worthy like that one and only time I tried to ask a girl a who'd then regret me, that one time I had to do an oral presentation but failed, my apparent lonesome world without friends or anyone, I was fucking suffering back then compared to today, at least today I don't have be forced to socialize with normies.
No.97309
I don't know what it is, but I have a feeling I sound genuinely autistic to everyone I talk to.
It often feels like an episode of South Park or something in which somebody is talking normally, but to everyone else he sounds like he is saying something completely different and strange. Sometimes things will be going well and something I say will suddenly turn the person away from me.
No.97311
>>97122
>>97183
Eh… his posts are getting better.
No.97328
>tfw you go absolutely nuclear on some Anon
I tried being reasonable, but that shit didn't work. I don't even care how much of a tantrum throwing dickbag it made me look like, it was far more satisfying than just pretending he wasn't full of shit.
No.97362
>tfw you basically waste your entire day arguing on the internet
I need to stop letting myself get so worked up over dumb shit on the internet.
It ended horribly the last time I did.
No.97375
Maybe I can finally wake up from this nightmare that is falling for someone.
Cheers boys, may we find peace in 2016.
No.97381
>>97375
forgetting the OC thing. i'm suck a normie jej
No.97468
>get a job last winter as a cashier
>slight qt walks in, smiles and makes eye contact
>see her maybe once a month or every couple months, last time I saw her was a couple days ago
>every time she walks in, we make lingering eye contact
>decide one day to do more than greet her and attempt small talk
>find out she lives just around the corner like I do
>she's clearly shy, looking down and smiling as we talk and sometimes even giggles
>I never see her around outside
>starting to think she's a NEET
>she comes in on Christmas Eve and I'm taking care of another customer
>she stands in line behind customer, looking at me every now and then
>all of a sudden my fucking co-worker opens up the next cash register and tells slight qt to go to her
>don't get the chance to talk to her
>probably won't for another couple months
I don't know if I'm overthinking things, but she always looks at me when she comes in and smiles. She only comes in for things like gum and comes to my cash register if there are multiple ones open. She only comes in rarely, but I've been obsessing over her for a year. She was kind of big when she first started coming in, but I see she lost weight and I've only gotten bigger. I want to ask her more about her to get in contact with her, but I know I'd get in trouble with work. I can't stop thinking about her and I've maybe seen her six or seven times since last year.
No.97591
>tfw you don't brush your teeth for days then finally brush them
>tfw I have started to do this on purpose
>tfw I'm addicted to the feeling
No.97631
>>96330
If they talk about other people behind their backs, they talk about you behind your back.
No.97637
>tfw when I dont know what to do anymore
>tfw my ex broke up with me back in may
>tfw when the first love that gave me actual hope, a life better than music, drugs, OD by 30
>tfw when moved back to my old state and started dating a girl from highschool in August
>tfw when moved in with her and her mom after shit hit the fan with my old roomies (coke head women beater and his gf, you paint the picture)
>tfw I love this girl but can't find myself falling in love with her
>tfw when I've been through three jobs since moving back
>tfw I owe my sister $600 for rent from when i lived at my old place
>tfw I Keep trying to live my life on a straight path and some shit always happens
>tfw when id be better off financially living like a scummy pos like I used to, doing drugs, not giving a shit, doing whatever I wanted
>tfw I wont so that because my ex showed me theres a better path for me (even if she left me) and I dont have to live like I'm trying to die by 30 anymore and no matter what happens I keep trying to crawl through the mud and get back on my feet
>tfw I'm trying to find my own place, buy a car, go to school for animal behavioral science and pay my sister back and keep my gf happy cuz I do love her
>tfw my job is only part time
>tfw i don't even know what to do anymore
No.97652
>'friend' bragging about his gf and asking me if he's a cuck or something
>can't call him a faggot or anything because he's a limp-wristed, thin-skinned depressed guy
I wish I wasn't so desperate for friendship.
No.97657
>>95967
Ear infection bro here.
Both ears throbbing nonstop, haven't slept in about 3 days. Genuinely considered suicide last night, never been in more pain in my life. I've broken bones that didn't even come close to this level of misery.
I finally went to the doctor today and got some antibiotics, still couldn't sleep though.
I went outside and >blazed about an hour ago. Came back in and started browsing Steam and remembered an old cozy game I pirated years ago. Now it's on sale for like 2 bucks, so I get it, make a chocolate milkshake while it's downloading, and now I'm reasonably high, drinking an amazing cold milkshake and Playing Peggle Nights.
the world is pointless and so is existing, but God damn if I'm not a blissful little kid right now
No.97661
>>97637
oh noooo i dont know what to doooo
work more, faggot
No.97666
>>97637
Your problem is that you're a whiny ass bitch who needs an anchor bitch just to keep himself docked.
Do yourself a favor and seriously evaluate your life, if you're actually dissatisfied with what you've got, then fucking fix it.
And none of this american dream bullshit, don't just try to get your own place, car, and rid of your debt "just because" you god damned baka, fucking think about why you want those in the first place.
Think about why you want them, why you don't have them, and if it's worth undergoing the effort to get it based on how much you want, it's just basic fucking human behavior for motivation.
Ironic how you want to study animal behavioral science and can't even figure out yourself.
No.97667
>>97657
Putting something that vibrates against where your ear meets your skull can help drain the inner ear.
You're fucking welcome, you weedlmao faggot.
No.97681
>>97657
Did you get blondies to put next to that cold cocoa?
No.97851
>>97661
I do work.
I have a part time job and an apprenticeship that take up most of my time.
>>97666
I'm actually not that whiny, it was just a vent post. Animal Behavioral Science is just so I can get some dog training certifications. I'm good at it, it just comes naturally to me and I love doing it. But no one wants to hire a dog trainer without papers or certs.
I could just breed dogs, train them, then sell them. But I don't like that idea. I'd rather work at a rescue and in time establish my own.
Thank you though anon.
No.97857
29/12/2015;
'i see ye are counting down the days until he gets kicked out and ye just been a hermit eating in your room but am not trying to mock ye lifestyle because i live how i want too and am sure you want too also but he is a changed man because he goes to AA meeting [which i drive him too but he knows how to take the bus but am not gunna be an enabler to anyone anymore. so strong. much indepence. no man. u go gurl] and is trying to stay clean but am also waiting for him to mess up. much change. such clean. my feels are upset because you do not interact with the family like you used too. now you just eat/drink in your room while i bring you more food in your room and not see you the rest of the day and let you be how you are but not no more because i am a strong white independent 50yearold grown female who do not need to be told anything because muh house muh rules! if you do not like it then grow up and move out or shelter! where be my little boy at? where did he go? le guilt trips le human sheilding le le le le le! oh and also bought a female bassit hound because of his face is so le sad all the time! enjoy the headaches from the whining but cannot live off advile forever. but wanna go to books-a-million with me? :)' - me mom
No.97884
>>97468
I had a thing like this once except I was the customer and it was a head shop in a small town so it was always just the two of us talking for half an hour or so until she got fired and I never saw her again. Take my advice on this man it's next time she comes in complement her and ask her out. If she doesn't come to your register than go on break and ask her out but don't let her slip away man it's so painful.
>>97637
Didn't finish cuz fuck you normie scum get out REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
No.97886
>>97468
I had a thing like this once except I was the customer and it was a head shop in a small town so it was always just the two of us talking for half an hour or so until she got fired and I never saw her again. Take my advice on this man it's next time she comes in complement her and ask her out. If she doesn't come to your register than go on break and ask her out but don't let her slip away man it's so painful.
>>97637
Didn't finish cuz fuck you normie scum get out REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>>97657
I had a really bad ear infection and had to get on a plane once my ears didn't pop for over 24hr. What relieved the pressure and allowed them to pop was shooting high pressure water up my nose so it would come out the other nostril try that.
>>97857
Didn't read cuz fuck you yefag
No.97888
>>97884
>>97886
Fuck you hot wheels fix your shit
No.97901
>>97851
>>97851
>I could just breed dogs
No.97906
>>97851
You're dream is weird and confuses me, but if you really want to train dogs then fucking do it.
I know you're probably not whiny IRL, it's not personal either I'm just really abrasive. It's like decking some sense into your best friend when you can see them losing it.
Check out the animal shelters around you, look into volunteering, do whatever but god dammit you better actually fucking do something between now and the next time you reply to this.
I don't care if that's as simple as googling for places around you, nobody who ever accomplished anything did it in a day.
No.98035
>tfw looking at my future job prospects
No.98100
>>97309
Having that feeling sucks. Using 'I' or 'me' in a sentence and refering to yourself too often can do it, as well as redirecting a person's problems back to yourself. It's a problem I still have with communicating with other people. I relate stories and anecdotes back to my own experiences, but sharing them makes me look like a self-centered dick, much like how this post is turning out. :/
No.98136
>tfw Jonathan Bowden is dead.
No.98208
>spend time practicing
>take breaks during it to shitpost, check shit, and change up what I'm listening to.
>think I've only spent around an hour or so on it. (2 is recommended)
>I've spent 2 and a half
I don't know if I'm happy that I'm actually practicing as much as I should, or unhappy with how much slower I am than I thought I was.
No.98209
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>>98100
>this entire post
Are you me?
I'm extremely empathetic and helpful to people, but I keep struggling to not do that especially in casual conversation.
It's just, I'm not them, I'm not you, I can relate to you incredibly well, but as far as shit to talk about I tend to try and find common ground based on my perspective.
What else is there to talk about besides our thoughts and feelings? Even casual topics unrelated to the participants are just shit other people have thought about.
No.98234
The world is my will
>mfw I have no face
No.98250
tfw /pol/ is trying to invade other boards on 8chan, because they think "tumblr" is taking over. I'm probably just being paranoid, but goddamnit /pol/ is fucking cancer.
No.98251
>>98234
>The world is my will
>I have no face
DIOOOOOOOOOOOOO
No.98259
>wish my stalker would give me a break every once in a while
No.98264
>>98259
not happening, bitch. Post more pics.
No.98265
>>98264
>implying ima qt grill
oh I wish anon.
No.98312
>>98250
thats because /pol/ is mostly 12 year olds
tbh i kind of stopped browsing imageboards alltogether. its all cancer.
No.98319
>got to round 117 in survival on insurgency
>got bored and quit
No.98517
Feeling nice and comfy in my sweatpants after taking a shower and browsing when suddenly i have to take a shit
No.98523
>>98250
I see more people complaining about /pol/ than I do /pol/acks. No, people on 8chan don't have to agree with everything you say, that doesn't mean they're national socialists.
No.98549
>>98265
>>implying ima qt grill
not real, but I am a stalker.
Now, get your mother's underwear and make your wishes comes true. I'm here waiting.
No.98550
>>98549
>not real
mean "not really"
No.98559
>>98550
doesn't it suck when you aim to troll and you fuck up the spelling?
worst kinda feel imo :^)
No.98563
>>98523
People complain about /pol/ because you can't enjoy anything without some schizophrenic moralfag squealing about durgenerates and shills. If /x/ dragged their conspiratard nonsense with them every board they went people would hate them to.
No.98588
knowing I'm never going to see zunechans lesbian video.
No.98613
>>98559
That's considered trolling?
>worst kinda feel imo
It's worse when you fuck up twice in a row like I did there, tho tbh fam
>>98563
>because you can't enjoy anything without some schizophrenic moralfag squealing about durgenerates and shills
ahh shut up, they complain when we talk shit about negroes too.
>>98589
>posting without text
Is the robot kill or did they fix it?
No.98650
>>98613
>people complain when we shit up threads
dis is annada dresden
No.98657
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>Working a shitty retail job
>Decided to get back into school, so walk into work intending to give them my two weeks' notice
>They fired me before I had a chance to ask
>Ultimately got what I wanted but I still feel like shit
No.98672
2006 is now 10years ago. ;_;
No.98674
>>98657
who cares, fuck 'em
happy new year
No.98682
>>95671
aren't all eurasians automatically born as faggots?
No.98696
Finally stopped having the desire to be with any woman, as I stopped believing in love.
Coming from a guy that had a gf for the longest time this means something.
Meaningless make-out sessions with desperate women turns me off, it just makes the whole idea of male/female relations on any level laughable.
All I can see them being is a drain of time, attention and money. They all want men to be a success before dating them, but what's the point if the man already has a full life?
Never make out with someone out of horniness or desperation, it will haunt you. Love is not that and you want love.
No.98727
>>98674
Thanks anon, happy new year to you too.
No.98780
>TFW had three perfect chances to ask a qt out for dinner today
>Did nothing all three times
>>98250
That's /leftypol/ you dumbass. /pol/ already has most of the site. /leftypol/ is pissed about that and have stated that they will try to subvert 8chan to their SJW faggotry.
No.98788
>think you did a good job on something
>eager to present it
>it turns out you did dogshit
This happened last time.
This will be the fourth attempt I make of it if I even try again.
For tonight though I. Just really feel like doing nothing.
I think I'm just going to binge on anime for the rest of tonight.
No.98906
>>98788
I don't feel any better.
I don't feel like trying again.
Ever.
No.99027
I want to make my own thread so that I'll actually get replies but don't know what image to post/don't really have any appropriate images saved.
No.99034
>>99027
When in doubt, post anime girls.
No.99036
>>99034
I don't watch anime so I wouldn't know what girl to post.
No.99160
>>98696
Dude. Solid fucking advice. A friend from work invited me to a New Year's party between 90% coworkers and 10% coworkers of her roommates, and both of the roommates I had worked with but left like 6 months ago. I caught up with one throughout the night, figure out she's pretty based and not the dumb whore I pinned her to be, yet I can't really drag myself into pursuing her. She's cute, has the personality of wife material, and we hit it off well, but damn if I don't want to just wait about half a year or so to sort of stabilize myself first.
My only fear is waiting too long and watching her get taken by some other dude. That happened to me at least three times last year, and I don't want to experience that shit again, especially when a good friend started dating my last crush without him knowing.
No.99213
>tfw i quit dota so i dont have to play with brain dead peruvian crayon eating downies every game
>tfw ive been playing hearth and ive been enjoying it
>tfw whenever i post in 4chan's vg's hearth my posts almost always trigger people because i point out that they are bad and the game over the long term is not even remotely rng
>tfw i lost my both my scissors so my nails have grown fucking long as SHIT
>tfw my room is literally a dump
>tfw i had garbage piled up so high at one point you couldnt see the floor and at another point the garbage pile was higher than my bed
honestly, 2015 has been one of the best years of my life i think.
very stable, very comfy, gaming/channing all day, getting bux, moved to a new apartment with SUPERRRR chill flatmates so im never stressed unlike before, just enjoying life more
i guess getting older really does means you get better at life
No.99218
>last two 'friends' spam me with their social activities and shit on shitty message apps
>decide to finally fuck off and cut 'em off
>realize this hasn't changed my life at all, for better or for worse
I don't know whether to cry or laugh.
Perhaps I'll do neither.
No.99262
>>99213
hearth stone is pay to win and RNG. its fucking trash. kill yourself for liking blizzard garbage that takes no skill or intelligence to play. just a fat wallet and luck.
No.99301
>>99160
I used my gf's help to get my job and a car, go ahead and if she gives you bullshit you know she's not a keeper.
No.99324
>>99262
>hearth pay to win
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
HOOOOHOHOHOHOHOHOOOOOOO
HEEEEEHEHEHEHEHEHEEEEEEEEHEEEEHEEHEEE
fucking retard, i dont play constctucted. i EXCLUWSIVELTY fucking play arena. i have 2 accounts, do quests on both, and literally spend good-goy-coins on nothing but arena
honestly what's your iq. i thought about it, and i quess it is possible for someone to actually have your opinion, but its really hard for me to believe
like how in the world arena be rng? you say that like its all rng, but tell me, why are there consistently good players at the top, and consistently bad players at the bottom?
rng plays such a TINY portion of that game, its like
> kill yourself for liking blizzard garbage that takes no skill or intelligence to play
>literally a math based card game that could EASILY have TEXTBOOKS worth of math and statistical analysis takes no inteligence to play
i just… i dont… i dont know, maybe some people unironically think its just rng. something tells me these are the same kinds of people who buy lotery tickets
somewhere in my mind whispers a voice that says "maybe he's just a troll"
but my guts tell me otherwise
No.99506
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anon dealing with parents and moving out here.
>female jew behavior therapist asked me to show her how i would use the oven/microwave to heat up food
>i do while making a week menu [which has mostly checkin tendies on it] since me mom is gunna be gone this week and step-dad is staying at home blasting his beatles songs and reading about steve jobs and smoking and whatnot
>she asked me about me teeth
>i told her i only have about 5 left that need worked on but only sting when i have over 30g of sugar
>we talked a bit about moving out and me mom taking me to 2 places to check out
>she asked me if i have stinky/sweaty feet [because she wanted to check out me room and it has an odor like a male gym locker room. i sweat in me sleep.] and i felt very unease about someone like /her/ asking me that. she told me she has stinky/sweaty feet because she runs a lot then asked me which type of girlfriend i wanted but i sperged out and told her none at the moment because am trying to get me life on track.
tl'dr
>i called me mom and made her fall over because am doing good progressing to a goal [over the phone].
the sooner i can get on a waitinglist to move out - the better.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O4o8TeqKhgY
No.99520
>>99506
Good job and good luck, pirate anon.
How are you planning on paying for the apartment?
No.99538
>>99520
http://8ch.net/r9k/res/99268.html#99312
there is one nearby that i have me eye on but the waitinglist opens at end of this month/next month.
No.99541
>>99538
Ah, okay, fair enough.
No.99584
>tfw my dad might go to jail soon
fug
No.99586
>when you exercise the pain away only for it to return the next day
>when you fuck up bulking and have to shred 20 pounds of fat away
>when you can only get motivated to do exercise by watching anime or j dramas and exercising at the same time
>when I realize even if I ever do go live in grorious nippon I will always be a dirty gaijin despite being 1/8th jap
No.99593
>tfw got told I'm going to get dragged down to a lumber yard for inquire about a job tomorrow morning
>tfw the rest of my night is now ruined
No.99603
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>>99593
>cutting lumber
Better than dealing with drunkards, prostitutes, cocktail waitresses and shitty managers. Better than dealing with lawyers who think they're superior to you despite being fucking morons who wouldn't pass a basic algebra test. Better than dealing with a call center and a nigger manager in it who doesn't know that -.04 is significantly fucking smaller than -.9.
At least you're going to be doing physical work.
No.99835
>don't post on anything for like 3 days
>just going full Hiki binging on anime
>feel like checking back
>by some unfathomable logic this board has gotten exponentially worse in that short time frame
>don't want to finish the series I was watching because then I'll have to find a new one
>don't want to stop watching because then I'll have to kill time on the internet
>haven't even done anything with the hobby I'd spent the previous month working tirelessly daily on
>have a need to do something all the time
>just want nothing more than someone to put a bullet in my head
No.100052
>you will never have someone to just hug whenever, understanding your feelings and hugging you back tightly for minutes, even hours on end
>despite what you'd give or do to have that, it'll never happen
Damn it, I really fucking need that. [spoiler]it's even fucking worse when you're someone who's supposed to be one of the manly men around the house, but these constant fucking pains keep you from doing fucking anything
and the topping on the shit cake is when your tulpa tries to help but it does nothing[/spoiler]
No.100053
> tfw can't sleep because so depressed
> tfw dumped nearly whole bottle of brandy down kitchen sink
No.100064
>made the mistake of working at a place that requires me to stay enrolled with college
>only have a few more weeks left of work now that I'm finished with college
>can't find a new job because everyone wants experience
>time to buy a rope and find a secluded place to hang from
No.100066
>tfw get accepted to university and people in my class react more than i do
Also looked autistic for not telling them straight away.
No.100076
>wew birthday
>Same people as last year (sister, mother and father)
>Wew time to sit alone and get drunk
:^)
No.100157
>>95502
>>95575
But is doing something just for attention inherently bad?
As long as you're being honest to yourself about it, what's the problem?
No.100354
>finally tell single mother i have constant anxiety and fear failure+letting people down but at the same time fear saying no to opportunities/jobs
>she's understanding at first but i laughed at a dumb image later this evening after an entire day of new class adjustment and wading through normies and autists
>she now thinks i'm bullshitting cus "i'm clearly yucking it up"
>400% now more eager to try for getting doctor to prescribe new pills to deafen the screaming inside
I'm 22 and am walking a tightrope of obtaining education for a career and just wanna be fucking left alone while i do it. What is so baffling about riding on autismbucks untill i can get a respectable career?
No.100365
>step-dad [age 60] applied for a job after 37days of being a neet and would have been gettng 1k a month from unemplyoment check[s] if he stayed a neet
>he was talking to me in a tone of 'i have a job and you do not. i have something to show for my work and will be making good to society. [the usual wagekek talk]' while showing me to how fold a bag of animal crackers the /correct/ way
>been on the bux [500usd a month while staying at me mom's [mom took him off the lease of the house and removed her ring.] but will get 733usd + food stamps when i move out] while being a hermit since 2010. next month, will get about 3300 - 3533usd in savings.
>niggaplease.gif
atleast he will be working 12pm - 8pm as my wake hours are 2pm - 2am nowadays.
No.100430
>have completely given up on 3D women
>have no real desire to live life after graduation
>only person who staves of my suicidal thoughts is my robot brother
>I'll likely move in with him after graduation just so we don't end up killing ourselves
No.100456
>tired of getting depressed over not having womyn
>begin finding other things to make life not so shit
>life seems to be getting better
>have a dream I was snuggling with a girl
>no sex, no talking, just holding each other and blissfully enjoying the moment
>been depressed about dream for past few days
>tfw back to square 1
No.100596
>family is noisy as fuck
>I rarely make any noise at all, even my footsteps are fucking quiet
>if I ever get on a skype call or some shit they instantly get on my case and tell me to be quiet
>despite my retard autistic brother literally pounding on the floor with his hands in the other room
>"Nah man, you know how it is." every time they do a call.
>in general house is noisy enough that I have to listen to white noise constantly with noise cancelling headphones just to have some peace
On the plus side my internet friends at least get pretty hype whenever I show up for anything because it's so rare.
No.100604
>>100066
Are you Jap? Or from Yurop? Anyhow, congrats, sort of, since if you're doing Uni, it's STEM or bust.
Because let's be honest, if you're here, you're very likely not a social butterfly. And to succeed in today's liberal arts courses it's mandatory to be a social butterfly.
No.100614
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hsaGuwMM7PI
I've gotten yelled at for posting this band before because apparently FP is "normie music" but fuck it, you might enjoy it anyway.
No.100627
>literally don't know how to talk to people or make normal conversation
>hardly have any friends left due to being a fucking sperg
>have hardly gone outside in weeks
>sleep dwindles to the point where i only get an hours sleep a night
>start smoking heavily again
>haven't fucked in about 7 months
I just want to lay down and die
No.100649
>tfw fall in love with a grill on omegle
>has actually seen my picture, thinks i am kawaii
>we skype
>she lives near my moms place
Fuck
No.100652
>>100627
Quit smoking, start exercising (start by walking), and eat regular, healthy (no sugar, home cooked) meals.
Spring is right around the corner, and the increase in daylight will help you facilitate this change.
No.100655
>>98251
ZA WORUULLLDDDOOOHHH
No.100667
>tfw all i want is a qt neet girl or guy to cuddle and look after
>tfw I can hardly look after myself
No.100670
>tfw wanted to keep making more FaceRig vids but suddenly the stupid thing won't work properly for no apparent reason, and now looks like I need to buy a shitty webcam instead of relying on the shitty webcam embedded in laptop, or forget about the whole thing
No.100682
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>tfw finally seeing a decent psychologist
>tfw even she can't decipher what the fuck I have besides the obvious social anxiety
>tfw says i probably also have dysthymia which explains a lot
>tfw says i also exhibit slight signs of aspergers, schizoid pd, and add
>tfw just want to know whats wrong with me
>tfw forever socially retarded even with alcohol
>tfw i will always make people feel awkward and uncomfortable when i dont even want to be around them
>tfw just hearing the word awkward reminds me of all of this
at least etizolam makes me feel better and give less of a fuck about that shit
No.100709
>>100627
>>haven't fucked in about 7 months
Nice bait.
Back to reddit you go.
No.100950
>mom being a bitch again
>step-dad being a high-horse cocky shit again
here we go again.
this is like the 5th/6th time since 2013.
i can already feel they are gunna mock me about my lifestyle and not joining the working force and living a normal healthy life while ignoring what i have to say.
i have allergies and not in the mood to take this shit today.
No.101078
>>100709
>TFW I'm checking out my groceries at Central Market today
>qt cashier asks for ID because of beer
>she's a bit taken aback when I say I'm not over 30
>she looks at ID
>freaks out that I'm 6 days younger than her but she says I look like I'm 30-something years old
>we're both 21
>kinda flirty now that she knows I'm around her age but acting weird like this event just threw her life out the window or something
>I don't even know what to think of her reaction and I'm like pic related
No.101080
>>100709
Fuck the fact that I couldn't post the pic. Fuck the algorithm.
No.101083
>just autistic enough to not really fit in with people well
>too autistic for facebook, hate 99% of people
>not autistic enough to have a high talent like programming or something cool
>not autistic enough to really feel like I belong online or make any OC
>just not a good anon in general.
Sucks.
No.101093
>>98777
Do you work on the dc metro?
No.101097
>>101083
It's like you copied my feels fam, where is the way out??
No.101112
>first day of second semester
I just gotta not fail this time guys
No.101191
>tfw can't actually see a future for myself that doesn't involve suicide.
>tfw had dreams as a kid.
No.101196
>>100682
>decent psychologist
>she
No.101202
>>101097
I have no idea. Maybe this is what normies actually feel like - I mean the ones where they're just spending their lives doing nothing, playing by the book, manipulated into some cuckoldish marraige that's always on the brink of total failure or something.
Maybe if I'm lucky I can just die while jerking off one day.
No.101258
>>95032
>they seem repulsed at my presence
This is my life.
I don't really get it. I'm not fat, I shower every day, I dress plain, no fedoras. I don't sperg out about random shit or my hobbies or anything. And yet whenever I need to speak with someone (which isn't often), it feels like they're upset that they have to interact with me.
No.101351
No.101353
>>101258
i think people can "sense" how we really feel, and subconsciously react to that
No.101364
>just wanked and passed out when i came. when i woke up i felt like i was in laying down in a grassy field as the sun beamed on me face and and holy shit just like one of those anime intros so fucking vivid/lucid holy shit! i woke myself up again by burying me face in the warm grass feeling all warm like i was just outside on hot day.
am still warm
>went into a lucid dream after cumming
>went to bathroom to take a piss
>listening to chill/vaporwave and seapunk
>it is cold and snowing outside
>i wish there was a windows i could watch the ouside while taking a warm bath
reminder; water before you sleep
No.101380
My work tried to call me into work on Monday but I didn't answer because going to my job gives me lots of anxiety and I get paid like shit. I know I will have to call and talk to them soon because they only scheduled me to work one day this week.
No.101704
>tfw still scared of pissing in public toilets because muh dick pricacy
No.101715
>>96754
sperg about what fam
what are you drawing?
No.101720
No.101721
>>100667
>someone saved and posted my OC
No.101779
>automated sms saying psych was sick
>call for another appointment
>asks if I want an SMS reminder or to confrim now
>say reminder
>it's Friday, appointment is Monday, she sends me the sms 5 minutes after I've hung up
No.101820
>practically dropped out of college, no scholarship or financial aid due to terrible gpa
>can't live the neet life because my sister pulled that shit 6 years ago
>mom wants me to get a driver's license and job within the next month
>will probably need meds to get through both of those without committing sudoku
>dad wants me to work at being a gamedev
>not that interested in gamedev
>not that interested in much of anything
>tfw i did this to myself
Even if I enroll in community college I'll still have to work part-time. My dad said I should wait tables, because he used to make a lot of money through tips. I feel like he must not know me very well to suggest that.
No.101872
>>101715
>>101720
>21 days ago
I've been world building this one setting for years now, and only recently I've started getting serious about it. So I've been writing down all the details and practicing how to actually draw pretty much every day (I've been lapsing in the past few).
It's this really dumb schizophrenic mishmash of all sorts of stuff and stupid little details that I loved sharing.
I'm not gonna blogpost and clog up the thread, but some of the shit I've got going:
There's a cyberpunk city in the middle of a desert, the city draws power from this giant sword planted in the middle of it bigger than the fucking sky needle. There's roving bands of Mad Max style street punks in the desert that keep people from wanting to cross it. There's an occult style church that worships another normal sized sword and its main enforcer is a /fit/ girl made of candle wax who bludgeons shit with a big metal cross. The main source of power are "Hearts" that work kind of like spiral energy from TTGL, and mechanics are "doctors" here.
No.101875
>Just installed a new game I was looking forward to playing yet can't find the motivation to play it
No.101901
>>101820
heard of RPGmaker?
>>101872
check out; http://secondlife.com/destinations/cyber
>>101875
same.
>have a backlog of 3218 games on me homebrew'ed wii made up of GB/GBC/GBA/NES/SNES/GENISIS/MEGA DRIVE and GAMEGEAR
>have a backlog of 64 shows to watch
>have a backlog of 2477 movies to watch
>have a backlog of 138 albums to get
>have a backlog of 16 things to fix in me room
backlog total; 5913
>tfw live in pre-2008 at age 25 [almost 26]
>shut-in neet since 2010 that is about to get 733usd from ssi because am moving out of parent's house soon.
i have hobbies but if i keep doing them - they would feel like something i /have/ to do instead of something i enjoy doing.
i play games,listen to tunes, watch shows and all that but i wait for the motivation or the feeling to mess with them instead of just /going/ to them only to say 'what am i doing?' and return to what i was doing.
what i do while waiting for the motivation?
watch porn/sleep/eat chips and drink..just be a couch..well..bed potato.
No.101907
>>101901
>second life
No thanks. If I do anything with this it's gonna be my own thing.
No.101959
>>101875
>just installed a new game i was looking forward to playing
>my phone is too shitty to even open it
No.101993
>>101959
>gaming on a phone
There's your problem.
No.102000
>each day the days seem to get shorter and shorter
>it's as if I wake up and then I'm going to sleep again
>it's as if I have to walk this straight and narrow normie path that seems so unnatural to me
>I'm afraid of going to prison for doing something due to my absent-mindedness/impulsiveness/how frustrated I am with life
>my debt keeps growing and my body keeps ageing
>feel like I can never do things right, my frustrations are piling up higher and higher each day
>i'm sad and angry and just want to disappear.
No.102014
>realized yesterday that on the internet I can just lie.
It's one of those things you hear all the time and even say you agree with, but, I don't know it just sort of clicked with me.
It has it's limits, but, it just kind of hit me how easy it is to lie on the internet and have people take it at face value.
No.102034
>>102014
you're so stupid
it's obvious that you can lie
who's stoping you after all?
No.102037
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>poop a poop twice the length of my erect dick
>stomach feels like it was inverted
>felt like the opposite of vomiting
>pic related
No.102044
>tfw 28 years old and still get all giddy when a cute female or "popular" guy acknowledges me
No.102045
I want a gf that does nothing. Basically Rei of my life, just does what I want to do, talk when she needs to, costs no money, is a human being, has a tight pussy and is cute. But I dont want to do that normie shit of going to the mall and spending money etc hanging out and shit. Just stay at home and shitpost together on the internet, watch some shows or read manga, or play games, simply not needy etc.
Shame I will never find a gf like that, I wished I won the powerball so I can just be a NEET for the rest of my life, but It would be 100x harder to find a gf since all women would just try to fuck me and have a kid with me so she can take my money.
No.102053
>>102037
>my dick is 4 inches fully erect (doesn't have much circumference either)
>I can drop turds that are over a foot long
Sometimes I wish I was never born.
No.102056
>>102045
>what you need is a dandere,
No.102071
Well…
>friends coming home from abroad invited me on a country-side trip
>meeting time is 4pm
>ready since 1am
>waited till 8pm only to know that they already left without me
Ah well
No.102088
>trying to suppress all feelings and emotions for months, and even years
>moved out to another country to work (from 3rd world shithole)
>meet new people which are actually nice and friendly
>fast-forward few months
>friends with said people (a group of 4 including me, two women and one guy)
>this Monday, me and two girls go to nearby shopping centre
>we buy a bottle of vodka
>come back, meet up at my apartment
>start drinking, only me and one girl, which is 12 years older than I am btw, are drinking, other one is sipping a beer since she doesn't like to drink much
>after about half of bottle is done, she starts to tear up when we talk about Christmas
>calms down, some time later the other girl leaves and we're left alone
>we're pretty drunk, she starts telling about her secrets and problems and cries again
>I awkwardly scoot up to her and embrace her
>she tells me she's angry I'm holding her because she's always been alone (she's the strong kinda leader type)
>I dunno what to make of it and let go
>we talk some more and it's time to go to sleep because work in morning
>next day she's not angry, we still joke around but inside I'm devastated
>devastated because I can't suppress my feelings anymore and I realize that I can't be alone much longer without falling into severe depression and probably killing myself
>she also leaves every other weekend somewhere, she doesn't talk about it so I suspect she has someone
>there are no other single girls even near my age, and even if there were I doubt I would get along with them as much as I do with her
>last night, after work we drank a beer, played some vidya for an hour and then she was off, said she's going out for weekend again
>drink rum and cry myself to sleep saying to myself "I don't want to be alone" while completely alone in an empty apartment
I'm 23 BTW
No.102092
>>102088
At least you have friends.
No.102093
>>102092
I guess. I just want someone to be together with. Friends aren't really filling that niche.
No.102094
>>102093
It's better than having nothing and no one.
No.102111
>tfw you waste countless hours of your life trying to git gud at a video game
>tfw still get rekt like a bitch
I guess someone has to be created to lose at everything otherwise winners wouldn't exist.
No.102128
>>102000
>each day the days seem to get shorter and shorter
>it's as if I wake up and then I'm going to sleep again
i feel.
the DAY only has 16hours nowadays.
the NIGHT only has 8hours nowadays.
it is only going to seem faster at ye age more.
It is all about reaching the dream but when you do get to it - You are close to retirement looking back on your WHAT IFs on life. You try to do stuff with the life you have left but as soon as you get out of the door - You are on deathbed.
everyday is same - only clouds change
yesterday is dream - woke up today
life is memory - remember until fade
No.102132
>tfw you stare at a girl in the grocery store but you think she won't notice but she looks back at you with a disgusted look on her face.
>tfw you don't know what flirting is.
No.102194
>102111
tripmaster you're doing it wrong
you play vidya that you like
hint, if your tongue isn't sticking out by itself when you play, it's not a good game.
No.102195
>>102088
>drunk girl makes advances
>girl let go, let's see how you like me when you're sober
>girl now genuinely hates me for both pointing out she's drunk and refusing her
>meet her again, she is quite avoidant, tell her "see? i was right!"
>mfw i am my preferred stereotypical loser character
No.102216
>>95660
Seconded.
It's spoilered incorrectly. I thought you were a lesbian making a transition to being straight but a man can only dream.
No.102219
>>99586
>1/8 jap
Don't kid yourself anon. Do you really display nip features or do you just like saying that? I understand if you took some test on ancestry dot com but if it doesn't show then can you really proclaim to be that?
Sorry if it sounds like I'm busting your balls, too many posts lately have that
>I'm 1/5 italian no wonder I love spaghetti XDD
feeling
No.102249
>>102056
Shy girls are boring.
I want a girl who talks when she needs to, which is probably hardly. Chill and easy to live with and hang out.
Basicly me but with a vagina not saying im gay but I don't like going outside, I hardly eat, low maintaince etc.
No.102334
>Be me
>Grill asks to watch movie with me
>First time spending time with a girl in over a year
>Hella excited fam
>She gives me a time we'll meet up in my room
>Planning to watch Rushmore - one of my favorite movies
>Time comes to meet
>Grill not there
>Fuck.robot.txt
>Text grill
>No response
>Posts pick of her on snapchat at some resteraunt with all her friends
>fak
No.102369
>>102111
I feel your pain, Anon.
That's why I just git gud at single player games.
No.102455
>>94752
I used to dream about this when I was younger before I even knew anything about it
No.102475
The only reason people talked to me in high school was because they were afraid I'd lose it one day and kill everyone. This succubus piece of shit that'd say hi to me everyday told me this a few days before graduation.
It was funny then, and now it hurts.
No.102545
>>94718
all that girl needs is a hard cock
No.102546
>>102475
she was joking
and it's still funny
No.102556
>>94568
>>94538
"Go deep into your cave and find your power animal"
No.102568
>>101191
I feel you, robot
No.102575
>get nagged at by parents about getting a job
>no place has ever called back or given me any further info
>keep sending applications like crazy
>"anon you need to start working again"
>ask why when the economy in this town is too shitty and getting a car or getting an apartment is financial suicide
>"well we work so you do too!"
>ask what's the point if I'm not going anywhere
>"because we said so now go get a job!"
>tell them nobody is showing interest
>"well you must be doing something wrong anon. just keep submitting"
tl;dr I'm being nagged to work for absolutely no reason and I'm fearing I'll be kicked out without any warning.
No.102624
>after a lot of years with no female talk
>finally able to talk to a girl
>she doesn't shut me down completely like every other one
>She does this out of compassion
>she is like 8/10 while I am 4-5 with out 150+IQ or anything special about me
>I know she just pity me
>I keep talking to her even though I don't want to
why is it too hard to control my own mind.
No.102634
18/1/2016;
>family was getting ready to rip me a new one and slap me shit down
me step-dad with his headshakes and acting nervous while looking at his 600 dollar facebook machine because the goy knows how to play the game and me mom with her feels and eyedrops to make fake-tears.
>BT [behavior therapist] visited
i had pictures just incase they they wanted to slip my le shit silly and gone on about their day feeling good about themselves because they got another free golden ticket to watch me sperg out with a side order of feels and popcorn but mostly feels.
now am gunna list somethings she did in no order;
>called me a hipster
when we were talking about the apartment area, she told me that 'all the hipsters are going in the area.' and 'a hipster is a younger cool person like you.'
nigga_please
bitch_please
me and the 'hipsters' are migrating west for the winter
let me break that shit down.
me and the weak left-winged indie style coffee stained handle bar faggots the has a label called 'hipsters' are going to roll in toxic waste and get wings and then make a band called 'Me & The Hipsters' but we are only going to play in local areas and disband when we get mainstream. with those wings, they are gunna pick up most of our indie-coffee shit to the west. do you know what is in the west? niggers! niggers are in the west of louisville KY. me and the 'hipsters' want our boipussy fucked by niggers and i only know of 1 by the name of kelvin heggs. gee, interracial/cuckolding trend is /the/ IT thing to do since /hipsters/ are going at it. is this 2011 again? also, do not label me since am going to be a 'hipster' and should make a tumblr while taking pictures of food and brick walls.
>tried to guilt-trip me
am i watching the plane scene of BM;TDKR because if i am then should not ye be dead because i pulled ye mask off? '4me'. JUST DO IT '4me'. it think the term is '4u' as in 'are you a big guy?' and the only think i can JUST do is i can JUST CUCK MY SHIT UP since am going to be fucked by niggers with the hipsters. but - ye did get me to drink lactos-milk which is now as you said '4me' since i drank it from the jug with me tongue in it.. bend over bitch boy!, time for ye milk enema! i have had an enema before because me mom gave me one. i had to pull down me pants and lay sideways on me bed as she looks into a blackhole and stuck an enema up me ass. poo poo pee pee mommy clean me ;] you want a girlfriend someday, don't you? i looked at her and said 'no. i am gunna be and stay single for the rest of me life. i do not subscribe to guilt-trips or human-sheilding and i do not orbit my life around schedules. why? because it will make me overload and have a headache trying to rush everything in a limited time.'.
>acted high and mighty and smug
reminds me of /someone/ i used to know [raed update Tuesday, August 25, 2015]. good thing, i had the guts to say no and talk meself out of it before /that/ shit started again. how did i talk meself out? she wanted me to take a picture of everything i did as in what i did in the bathroom and kitchen with a date-mark and a time-mark. nope. fuck that shit! she leaned back with a big fucking grin ear-to-ear with arms crossed and shorted 'EVERY. SINGLE. DAY'. she even stopped at the periods like 'EVERY.' stop 'SINGLE.' stop 'DAY.' stop. oh boy!, the slap-stick does not stop there! when i came back from the other room, she was talking to my parents! not allowed to do that since /you/ said and the contract stated [somewhere about me do/don't rights] that you will not treat MY seasons like group-therapy because i KNOW my parents are going to say /anything/ to get at me to make me the bad-guy and them correct with using the saying 'respect your elders' while wearing a big fake smile. respect is not given to someone on command like a big golden plate. it is earned! but wait! saying 'sorry ;[' will cut the cake and give you another free pass to slap me shit and play dumb. oh? i have not changed me bed sheets in 3 weeks? she visited LAST LAST friday which is 2 weeks but add 1 more week to make it sound like it is the end of the world and am a slob. speaking of being a slob, i do not follow or subscribe to what is the IN thing because of a guide or a fashion/health tip. it is my body not someone else's.'
in other news, i made her freak out and stutter because i do not like star-wars.
i also told her the spoilers of the 7th movie which made her sad.
No.102635
>>102575
>get on ssi
>'work' from home
No.102640
>at college
>make friends with a band in the music department
>they're a sort of psychedelic/acid/space-rock kind of thing, pretty good at it too
>they keep trying to get me involved because I'm a decent singer and I can almost play guitar & people think I look like a rockstar (I do look a lot like Ronnie Wood/Joan Jett)
>really want to do it but I'm too self aware, get really bad stage fright
No.102660
>Still living with parents
>They keep trying to get me to go do work they find sometimes
>Everytime I ask them "What for?"
>Experience is always the answer
>fuckno.jpg
>No motivation to work
>Can't get motivation since no one will hire me for money
>Get bitched at almost daily for spending too much time online
>They don't realize that if I wasn't on the internet a lot to give me some feeling of accomplishment I'd off myself within the week
>mfw
No.102669
>>102624
>she is like 8/10 while I am 4-5 with out 150+IQ or anything special about me
>while I am 4-5 with out 150+IQ or anything special about me
>150+IQ or anything special about me
What was the point of this?
No.102670
>>102669
To show he's retarded.
No.102672
>>102640
wear a blindfold and perform tbh
No.102681
No.102683
>>102660
>Experience is always the answer
>cannot put ye dick in exp
>cannot buy things with exp
>cannot eat exp
>cannot wear exp
but there is something ye can do with exp…
LEVEL UP and boost 'em stats!
>get on ssi
>'work' from home
No.102691
>>102634
What the fuck are you on about yefag?
No.102699
>good internet friend I knew for a long long time
>lives in Iraq, I don't know where
>been talking less because he needed to finish high school to get out of that shithole
>haven't seen him for a while and something feels fishy
>wake up and and one of the things I see is my friend told me today that his sister told him that he got killed in an ISIS attack last Monday
>it was a couple days after he graduated
>more of an urge to go fight in Syria for Assad as a mission for God and defeat this Islamic scum
>if I do go I will never return since the west is dying and I can do shit about it
>just live the rest of my days as a hermit
No.102714
No.102808
>>102669
to show there is nothing worth being attracted to
No.102868
>>102660
For fucks sake anon I could have written that…
Cyanideyesplz
No.102873
>>102660
This is pretty much me right now.
No.102994
Built my first pc
Tfw I forgot to get an OS
Tfw got no more money cause shipping was a bitch
Tfw my TV can't be used as a monitor
No.103002
>>102994
pirate the Os and get an adapter somewhere for 5$
No.103076
>>102994
Pirating an OS is braindead easy and you can probably buy some jank-ass monitor on sale for less than $60.
No.103109
No.103138
>tfw accepting the fact that you'll always be a lardass
If I die early from this sedentary life, then the world will be better off anyway.
It's a win win.
No.103141
>>102994
Install Linux Mint, even if you're not a fan of Linux it's one of the easiest distros so you'll be able to do whatever you need in the interum.
No.103142
>>102660
I know that feel.
My Dad's been good about it, understanding how I don't handle prolonged social environments very well and how it's borderline impossible to get a job for me.
Mom's been getting better about it, in general she's started catching on to how much of a pain in the ass she can be when she brings up shit I don't want to talk about.
No.103405
>tfw no truly accepts an apology
No.103578
>60yo step dad that has OCD [read as neat-freak] and is scared of germs
>told me [25yo shut-in neet with autism and cerebral palsy] to clean me bathroom floor with a bucket of water and a rag while guilt tripping me like 'what if you had your own apartment, what would you do?' 'your mom and me are not going be around forever.' 'you need to know how to do this sooner or later.'
>when i told him that i saw no problemo with my bathroom, the only answer he could come up with was 'the floor /is/ dirty because i can see germs all about.'
>he showed me how to do small wipes on the floor
>he moved out of the way and handed me the rag and pointed to the spot then walked and stood in doorway
>i thought that if i just put a towel over the vent then the water would not go to the basement then put down more towel after i dumped the water to dry the floor but could not do that
>take rag and go to the spot
>autism_sets_in
>fuckthisshit.gif
>get bucket and pour half of it on the floor
>ohshitniggawhatareyoudoing.gif - me step dad
>hear a scream from basement
>me mom came to the upstairs bathroom looking like the blob was about to enter the house
>sixtyniggers.jpeg - me mom
>takes me to the basement as stepdad follows [am glad she was not the kind that held onto me ear]
>almost get into a shouting match while stepdad plays the dindu nufflin card and me mom plays the what if this happened card
>me step dad gets smug for a moment and says 'well. you know what? you-'
>i fucked stopped him and talked me way out of having him take away something as punishment for idk how long [can he still do that kind of shit?]
>just get sent to me room while he keeps the bathroom
>get this feeling of gotta do something besides do what i was doing while feeling like it is my fault [ever get that feel?]
>everything seemed like it has calmed down [putting my ear to the door]
>see trash in me room and debate about taking it out and what they would say
>fuckit.jpeg
>get to me step dad and tell him to ignore me the whole day and let me do my own thing because i do not have any energy to deal with anything atm
>rogerthat.jpeg - me step dad
>i make some tendies in oven and clean me room while waiting
>things go back to normal
later karma kicks in and gives me a rash on me balls and sides.
i walk to me bathroom looking like i am holding shit in me pants and me mom helps apply cream to the rashes.
No.103581
>>103578
more towels*
cleans the bathroom*
No.103589
>dreaming last night
>I'm back in my old high school again
>tell a girl who I used to be infatuated with that I care about her
>she stands up and says "I don't care about you"
>everyone in the classroom laughs at me
>I get made fun of by another girl who sarcastically says she feels bad for me
I woke up and felt sad about the fact that I will never find love for the first time in a few years. I usually keep it buried though.
No.104704
>get prepared for class
>even wrote a memo
>it's still closed thanks to the blizzard
welp
also
>tfw noticing I tend to rotate which places I lurk and just spend entire days at a time doing whatever I'm doing that day.
No.104777
>tfw no gf
>tfw too sick to work, too healthy to receive government assistance
No.104840
>>104777
>too sick to work
>too healthy for NEETbux
>but just cool enough to get sick trips
No.105074
Not a feel but a question,
Do exchanging an ice cube mouth to mouth with a girl count as a kiss?
No.105087
>>105074
Uh… Probably not.
No.105116
i got really high last night, probably the happiest i've been in a while
not sure how to feel about this
No.105163
>tfw what you want and what you desire are not only two differents things, but opposite from one another
>tfw feels like there's a buzzaxe splitting my head in two whenever I think about it
Is this what they call cognitive dissonance, or is it something else entirely ?
No.105261
>>100649
Alright guys
We met in a forest during the night. Held hands and kissed and stuff
No.105270
>>104777
Hedge your trips in a low-risk meme fund. Then start swing trading your rarest pepes until you can afford to start day trading from all your dank returns. It's what I did and now I trade pepes all day, every day. Pepes are my passion and the market is ripe for the meming.
No.105286
>tfw gf is insane
>"broke up" with me for the 3rd time
>can't find anyone else because i love her
>forced to wait for her to come back again
No.105288
>>105286
Fuck you normalfag you problems are shit and you should die for coming here and thinking you are one of us. Fucking scum.
No.105289
>>105288
She lives in memeland, I live in the US
I met her on cuck/r9k/ just a little after the first exodus before I left, she's a racist /pol/lack.
I live with my parents and every waking hour of my life spent away from this place is filled with failure and shame.
No.105303
>find myself free to do whatever I want this weekend
>realize that I have no friends to do anything with
Another weekend wasted shitposting here with you faggots.
No.105545
>tfw i saw my oneitist as a cashier
>tfw i was looking like shit and she didn't recognize me
No.105552
>>105545
Dude if you looked like shit and she didn't recognize you isn't that a good thing? Unless you made an ass out of yourself.
No.105699
>leave cave to buy weekend supplies
>crossing the street some young redhead with a cute face passes me walking the other way
>we both look at each other, empty eyes meet
>she is dressed up nicely from waist up, but lower body is all ghetto urbanpattern pants and boots
>lanky movements of a druguser
>I turn around after maybe 20 m
>wtf?
>she is only like 5 m behind me and just in the process of turning away from me
>she probably was thinking she could beg for money since we made eyecontact but thought better of it and turned back
>continue watch her a second, she asks some passing granny for money and gets blown off
>turns head and sees me watching her
>gives me the most defeated look ever and walks on
>I go back to my place
>Part of me now won't stop dreaming of doing utterly retarded whiteknighting shit for some passing junkiebitch that is by now probably sucking some sandnigger off for her mindcandy
Fuck me for still getting feels over people who make their own bed, and being so unable to excise the wish to whiteknight women.
Guess I'll get some fapmaterial out of thinking about it at least
No.105700
I cant study any more. I ve passed all my years without revising at home and just got good marks because I am smart. now I am in my final year, I can still succeed without studying but I feel like I am wasting a lot of things. i know I should feel guilty wasting my time on doing nothing but I just dont feel anything
No.105775
>tfw plenty of cute chicks at the gym my mom pays for me to work out
>tfw I can't see the difference from "you pay for my job" and genuine smiles
>tfw one of them I feel has payed more attention to me then the other in terms of looks and kindess
>tfw the Zoloft-abstinences starts kicking in and dizziness, head-aches and other shit is present.
>ZEEEE JEWS, ZEEEE JEWS
No.105933
>>104777
I was wrong. It's not that I really need money, or maybe it can contribute to my independence and allow me to move from home.
Ironically, I got reduced payment since I was to sloppy to fill out the bi-weekly card about how I haven't done any of the tasks I haven't received.
No.105967
i wish i had a gf that had a sweaty ass and would facesit me for hours.
how awesome it would be like her having power over me and stuff.
to have my face in her ass for hours and she just ignoring that i am there!
No.106153
Im so autistic i cant do what im good at around people
>be doing an access to science course
>adults getting qualifications for uni
>im good at maths so doing a maths A level
>understand most of it fairly easily
>some people are doing gcse (high school) maths
>girl asks me for help
>i like her so say yes
>we sit down and she tells me what shes having problems with
>its piss easy, solving a quadratic
>ive done hundreds of these
>asks me what she needs to do, looks me in the eye
>mind goes blank and cant think of what to do
>cant actually think of anything
>tell her to do something thats wrong
>she does it for a bit then realizes its wrong
>looks at me like im stupid as fuck
>says she will ask someone else, gets up and leaves
>i sit there for a while hating myself
I hate my brain
No.106154
>>106153
>>girl asks me for help
>>i like her so say yes
That is where you went wrong already.
Don't jump on it, tell her you are busy but you'll do it in 5 min or such.
If she really wants YOUR help or your company, she'll ask again. If not, you were a convenience.
Jumping on stuff that without receiving anything or at least letting her squirm some is setting course straight for beta orbit.
And that time would have helped you to ponder what to say to her so that mental blackout might never have happened.
No.106163
>>94425
>be me, captain oblivious
>90s beta convinced he's a normie
>tendency to isolate myself when I don't like someone or someplace, 100% sure this won't backfire
>bullied in college, naturally I think my mates will side with me good guy
>start losing friends, used as stepping stone on social ladder by some
>final year is hell, never go to school and shit grades
>tfw no gun to make my own Columbine
>I'm gonna restart my life with university, psychology cuz I'm a good guy and want to save Bambi
>living by myself is cool, but I'm always an alien wherever I go
>chubby pussy time
>tfw religious & ignorant family never sent me for a single visit to a fucking pediatrician, I'm 100% fimosis
>get sent to jew doctor to eat my dick
>two words: postoperative complications
>spend a year medicating muh festering dick in total isolation
>it hurts like a bitch to put up boxers, it's too sensitive after 20 years being covered
>I never asked for this.jpg
>I choose isolation over killing myself
>I can't tell anyone of my uni friends about this, they think I broke bad or just gave up on life
>start having fights with family for their responsibility, live in shame, isolate myself from everything
>one of my parents is dead now and we had been fighting for years, they think I'm a crazy bastard castrato
>many years later I'm an hikikomori out of time and fear I might end up homeless
I am so tired of this.
No.106164
>>95420
I'm trying for no-fap February.
Is it really that hard?
No.106169
>>106164
The real question is if it's worth it.
I stopped choking the chicken for 2 weeks and didn't get shit out of it.
No.106178
>>106169
It depends on what you're going after.
There are certainly effects to no-fap, but it's so fucking stupid to take it as a lifestyle or some shit. It's no different than no-shave november, a dumb challenge people do for fun.
No.106259
Jesus fuck.
I'm currently living at home as NEET in my late 20's, and I am not being allowed to be a grown up. It's like I am 12 years every day.
Sure, I can make dinner, I have fucking shown that I am not handicapped in the kitchen, but even so, whenever I intend to make something, I have to be watched, given "tips" and shit like that. And if I go and grab a slice of bread and go down, I can hear my father walk into the kitchen afterwards. Like he's controlling or checking what I took. Like I have to check in and inform them about everything and be told the "correct" opinion about whatever. Then shamed for not being my own person.
Speaking of, ever since my father lost his jobs, he's always at home. Passivly watching TV, listening to radio, reading whatever newspaper. Maybe he's fixing something in the house, installing a wire and whatnot. But he's always home, always checking what I am up to when I don't rot infront of the PC. I don't know if it's his stupidity, lack of confidence, boredom, wanting to "connect" or whatever, but man it's frustrating.
And of course, I can't say that, because then I am the bad guy and the whole chirade
No.106273
>/pol/ has gone to shit
It's just TRUMP2016 24/7, the consensus used to be that politics is a mugs game and that the system is all fucked and there's no use participating in the political system, now its full of flag waving republicans that go to political rallies, no different to the HOPE/CHANGE/YESWECAN democrats in 2008.
/pol/ used to shill Ron Paul as the voice of reason that nobody would listen to, and be as much libertarian as they were fascist, with the occassional uprising of leftists before they ran off to their own hugbox.
I want it to go back to just pointing out societal decay and watching it all burn.
No.106275
>>106259
I wonder if your father posted in this thread, whether his post would read almost exactly the same as yours
No.106279
>>106275
Probably. Like father, like son.
No.106321
>going stir crazy from being stuck inside after the blizzard
>enough snow has started melting
>go for a walk
>eventually encounter a snowbank
>have to either turn back and around, through it, or jump.
>jump that shit
>"Hey, that was. Actually kinda fun."
>start looking for more shit to jump
>don't even care that I probably look like an ass to whoever sees me, just having a good time
>get back feeling a little better
I miss doing stupid shit like that as a kid for fun.
No.106346
>post yfw you're not josh
No.106353
I had a dream about a girl I used to like speaking to a lot until she got a bf she blocked me and it was long distance so it wouldn't have worked out anyway, and I haven't been able to stop thinking about her since.
Posting it here because we already have too many lonely anon threads as it is.
No.106355
>Work at dad's company
>Don't like it, but have to
>Can't find other job, still searching
>I am 100% not motivated at all
>I cannot do anything good at all
>He gets mad at me
>"You know how other people view you? They look at you as someone with a mental disability!"
Wew.
No.106386
I'm listening to an entire vaporwave album at 50% speed, where did I go wrong in life.
No.106387
Friend just died today
Feels bad man
No.106404
>I got banned from the r/foreveralone chatroom
>hadn't been on it in months
>not an actual redditor
>just went there for e the memes and the complaining
pls no bully
>I make some observations about the comments they're making
>I say "ow you guys sure are fags
>"what happened to the chat I used to frequent?"
>it wasnt that faggy some time ago, we used to watch filims together
>I am banned
>I forget what I actually said
>can't remember why I was banned
>this was only like ten minutes ago
>I am such an alcoholic I can't remember what happened ten minutes ago.
>mfw normie /r9k/ was taken over by normies.
No.106409
>>106404
I should clarify I;m drunk right now
No.106421
>>106404
>Not expecting reddit to censor you
No.106423
>shit at drawing
>shit at playing instruments
>shit at singing
i fail at everything i try and i like to daydream about drowning myself
No.106460
>>106423
Same. I put in hundreds of hours when something really catches my interest, but I'm still always below the skill level of the average faggot just participating whenever they have free time. I eventually take notice of my complete lack of improvement, deduce that I'm too retarded to become proficient at the activity and then drop it entirely, and yet I keep on finding new things to be shit at no matter how hard I try not to be.
No.106463
>>106423
>actually have a good idea
>still basically an emotional cripple
>ask mom for help
>she blows me off like she always does
>lose hope
I fail to see how this is all my fault anymore. I refuse to accept that anymore.
No.106472
>>94625
At least you have a bf
No.106527
>>106423
>>106460
Look guys, not everyone can be a master at all three of those, but nobody started off as good as they ended.
The most simultaneously reassuring and crushing one rule of life is that to get good at anything you've gotta practice.
So yeah, you're probably right in that you suck at those things now, but if you keep at it and deliberately make an effort to keep learning each time you do, you'll get better. It's just an inevitability if you're serious about something.
If you feel like nobody is rooting for you, you're wrong. Because I am.
I don't care what it is you're interested in, just fucking do it and keep doing it until you like where you're going, then keep doing it and don't forget to enjoy it.
No.106531
>>106527
What about getting the highest score in life?
No.106656
>>106531
Then you aim for the jackpot.
No.106697
>doing stuff with someone online
>bail after like an hour
>get a "Dude, what the fuck?" message
No.106790
>born male
>hair tickles nose
>allergies through out the day/night
>sneezing knocks the energy out of me
>me nose took up running track
>out of allergy pills
>only stops when i sleep
good thing today is a cold day.
besides that i..
>watched anime
>made a mixtape
>drew a scene of what the blob would look like in video game format
No.107478
I get so fucking triggered by the awful music they play in public places. I just want to get some groceries in peace, I don't need to hear jungle beats and some nigress with a shitty voice to do so. Goddamn mindkill shit.
Why are normalfags so scared of silence?
No.107487
>earliest memory of my current period of depression was last year during the superbowl (probably going on longer than that, thats just as far back as I can remember)
>total loss of interest in anything, future seems hopeless, the list goes on :^)
>tfw have this stupid hope that today it will magically turn around because it is the superbowl again
pic 100% related
No.107522
>tfw starting to develop feelings for the girl working the counter at the asian take out place because she acts friendly to me.
No.107523
>been going to the gym for years
>never normally do but chat with qt who works there
>start liking her
>dont know if shes the way she is because shes at work or she likes me
>been thinking of asking for her number
>be today
>see her getting out of a car on my way into the gym
>nigger driving and nigger baby in her arms
>she kisses them both goodbye
Im starting to think those 2d fags are right
No.107541
I don't know whether if I should shave my beard or not
No.107550
>>107541
Dont, anything that covers your face is a good thing.
No.107630
>>107522
Same thing at the gym for me.
Cuties who are so pretty and happy when I go in. Greets me with a smile and all that.
It's not faaaaairrrrrREEEEEEEEEEEEE
No.107669
All my favorite places are being overrun by shit posts / trolls and normalfags whining that they broke up last week. Fuck this shit.
No.108477
>>99835
>Learn some basic electronics
>Buy shotgun
>Make a circuit that randomly counts numbers between 0 and [preferably] 500 per second
>Give it something to pull a trigger when it hits 500, and quickly
>Attach gun
>Sit infront of it as it randomly counts numbers, thinking of shit you could've done/been doing or did wrong/right
>Even just messing around on a phone or something
>For maybe like 2 minutes a day.
>1 in 500 chance, adjust the number to whatever makes you comfier with your odds.
>Eventually by the time 500 hits, you won't notice
Tadaa, even if you pussy out you might find electronics a fun hobby, and if you don't it'll be over without you even knowing.
No.108519
>>108477
This is good I might do this when I move out
No.108524
/fit/ raus, you fucking failed normalfaggots, go back to halfchan.
No.108557
>tfw you stay in a skype call for too long
>tfw you just listen and not sure if should go out of call
No.108674
>>108477
That was a month ago, champ.
Thanks, but I'm not going to kill myself, as much as I do want to die.
>>108524
FUCKING THIS
>>108557
>not using discord
shit's way better dude.
No.108721
I'll be driving 300 miles tomorrow to go visit some family. Besides being a nervous wreck about the trip (general anxieties related to driving, navigation, etc), I'm also quite bitter at the fact that my first 3-day weekend since New Year's is now shot.
No.108766
>>103578
>getting sent to your room at 25
No.108767
>>108766
after age 20 my mom build a door between my room and the rest of the house, and started sleeping in the living room, to make absolutely sure I couldn't eat when I was awake.
I tried sneaking out of my window a few times just so I could walk up to a store, and she barred the window so that I was forced to stand outside the front door for a half hour ringing the doorbell.
No.108783
>>108767
Why is she not dead I swear to god I would choose to be homeless before I put up with that kind of shit. What's wrong with you?
No.108895
>>108674
i do not have any computer games,
am more of console/handheld.
No.108900
>>108766
not >>108767
but i was walking to me room anyways.
eh, i had backlog to work on anyways.
No.108999
>tfw you're taking a really good piss, but then you realize it's a fucking dream.
No.109036
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>ate dinner
>went to bed to lie down for a bit
>end up falling asleep
>have dreams
>wake up
>2.20 am
>cant sleep back
>fell asleep at approximately 7 pm
>slept for ≈ 7 hours
>CANT SLEEP
No.109053
>>108783
it's hard to be on the internet when you're homeless. :(
in a way, it made my life better, actually having contact with people who weren't my mom for the first time in my life. otoh, it did keep me locked in my room for many more years.
No.109189
>>109036
I kinda know that feel.
>be tired, go to sleep around 9 PM
>wake up at 1:30 AM to piss
>can't fall asleep again
>either go to sleep around 5 AM or stay up until evening and be a zombie all day
This has happened to me on work days too. It fucking sucks. I dunno why it happens, sometimes I fall asleep and sleep through whole night easily.
No.109202
>>109189
nice to know that I'm not the only one who fucks up like this periodically.
I hope we eventually get over this problem.
Gdi bodyclock
No.109226
No.109531
>have a favorite mechanical pencil i use when writing things for tabletop campaigns and such
>want to work on a campaign
>can't find the pencil
>can't work
>have minor panic attack
No.109546
>>109531
know that feel all too well. get emotionally attached to my possessions since i can't really connect with people.
i feel heartbroken when i lose a piece of stationery i use regularly
No.109567
>>109531
>>109546
I used to have a special pen I really like that I used when I tried learning how to draw. I lost it for good though. I've moved onto a plastic clip-board I really like.
I also have a small fingernail clipper I I keep around me. I twirl it around while using the computer. I freak out when I drop or lose it when I sleep.
No.110237
Do they want to drive us mad, straight into revolutionary bloodlust?
>Be NEET against my will
>Constantly screwed by the system
>Find a humble but good entry level job offer, might be the start of a bright new carreer.
>Offer is from a private company, but only available through a goverment employment agency, for some reason
>Sign up in first goverment site, choose the offer I want
>Redirected to another goverment site, where I must create a second registration to complete the aplication
>Database error everytime I attempt to register
>Wake_me_up.why
I can not grasp this reality.
No.110239
>tfw you're dependent on benzos
As I fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait
Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
Start off with the NyQuil like I think I'll just have a taste
Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate
To a harder prescription drug called Valium like ya that's great
I go to take just one and I end up like having eight
FEEL WITH ME
No.110247
>>109531
>>109546
>>109567
>yfw you get back from school and most of your stuff is gone because your mom had a yardsale while you were away because 'you do not use that stuff.'.
years fucking later, i got it most of it back from buying it online.
No.110265
>>109567
My nigga.
I've got a special pen too, it's actually pretty shit but I like it and I've hung onto it for years now so I'm not going to just abandon it.
I also have a multitool I keep with me and when I'm bored I'll flip out the knife bit and close it repeatedly.
Recently I wound up adding a few more "special" writing instruments as well to the repertoire (my shirt pocket) and while it's neat having things near me that I have attachment to, it's a little shit given that I'd be genuinely upset if I lost any of them.
No.110268
>>110237
Here we go, breathe deep, in and out.
You're going to have to ring them.
No.110293
>Living in a timeframe of 4 days working slave wage job and 2 days getting stoned to avoid thinking about the fact that I no longer have any aspirations due to being too aware of the shit happening around me and the fact I've been a mute loner all my life and finally have my past haunting me in my dreams most nights
No.110297
Well my feels are odd.
I've been depriving myself of sleep over my obsession with particle physics and my theories about the universe. I keep on letting the idea that none of my ideas are going to be worth anything and that I am a useless waste of Hydrogen and Oxygen.
Gotta just keep trudging along I guess.
No.110320
>be college student
>3 months ago meet a girl in class
>decide to try to change my virgin ways and talk to her
>ask to go to dinner at the res halls
>we talk and some meals later I realize that we have some chemistry
>we share a lot of ideologies and beliefs, she also has God tier taste in animu
>this could be the sort of relationship that can last
>start to fall for her
>ask her out
>she rejects me
>a week later find out that she's been in several relationships with manipulative, abusive guys
>in one particular relationship she was threatened into sex even though she wanted to wait
>this dude would come in the middle of the night and threaten to hurt her little sister and family unless she came out to have sex with him
>another guy is just emotionally abusive and she would yell and scream with him all the time
>she was never really herself around the second one
>never noticed it before but she's got emotional damage and she's hurting bad
>help her get through it
>she goes to see the counselor now
>realize her strength in deciding to not just outright quit relationships, but to just "take a break and focus on herself"
>realize how much farther I fall for her because of that
Part 1/?
No.110323
>>110320
>the days pass by and I notice how much happier I am now
>even though I think we both have feelings for each other, respect the fact she doesn't want to date
>don't try to kiss her or hold her hand when we walk places
>I don't even want to fuck her, being with her is enough
>always flirting with her and reminding her I can wait for whenever she's ready to date again
>sometimes spend the night at her dorm staying up late until she passes out on my shoulder
>even her friends start to warm up to the fact that I am a good fit for her
>life can't be better
>fast forward to two weeks ago
>she meets a guy who can drive her to the high school where she volunteers for her major
>she talks about how he's traveled Europe for 2 years and how he's been in successful, long-term relationships (exactly what she wants/needs at this point)
>I would be willing to be that guy and she knows it
>meet the guy
>he's funny and charming
>can't even compare to him
>last Valentine's day he asks her to a dinner
>she tells me she told him that it wouldn't be a date but rather "JUST dinner"
>couldn't be with her on V-day because my sister's fucking birthday is on V-day
>the next day she tells me about how great it went
>she's calling it a date now
>before her dinner, I made a bet with her that the guy would kiss her thinking he would respect that it wasn't a date and not kiss her
>turns out I lost that bet
>not only that but she kissed him back
>the two of them are noticeably closer now
Part 2/3
No.110324
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>>110323
>>not only that but she kissed him back
my condolences
No.110325
>>110323
>I tell her again how I feel about her and that I would like to go on a date with her
>she rejects me once more, telling me she "appreciates my boldness"
>she tells me that after "he kissed her" that she told him she didn't want a relationship
>the guy asks if it'd be okay if he could take her out to the Natural History Museum (something she and I have been talking about visiting) or taking her dancing (she loves to dance)
>he then says he wants to take her to see the world with him
>she says yes
>after her dinner with him, they go see a movie, a comedy show, and then walk around getting drunk together at a park
>later she reveals that she also went to a party with him on Saturday
>they were playing drinking games and played couples games then too
>meanwhile I'm left in the dust eating shitty food at my parents' house
>this is all because he once mentioned he had a car and would be able to drive her to where she needed to be
Part 3/3
I don't even know what to feel anymore. I know there's disappointment in there somewhere, but mostly I'm numb. This is what I get for putting off my license and being a nice guy.
No.110326
>>110325
>this is all because he once mentioned he had a car and would be able to drive her to where she needed to be
>cucked by a car
>pic related: her baby in a few years
No.110328
>>110326
Having a car gets you the girl even in college. I thought I'd be past that after graduating high school.
No.110334
>>110325
>>110320
>>110323
She's also going out dancing with him this Friday, so my chances at this point are zero. At least I tried. Even though we never actually dated, I can't help but feel depressed.
No.110338
>>110320
>>110323
>>110324
>>110325
>>110334
Holy shit, those are some high octane feels. Just tell her whats up and move on I guess. My condolences.
>>110326
>>110328
>Have relatively new 2013 and "cool" car
>Still perceived like an ogre
I'm turning that shit in and going Army.
No.110339
>>110323
>respect the fact she doesn't want to date
Haha.
Nice guy don't get to finish, ya know.
You gave her authority, and thus authority to choose someone who didn't.
Cut contact and she'll come crawling back.
No.110340
it happened
>meet girl
>shes actualy a transgirl
>you now have to fuck her
No.110347
>>110339
important note for everyone:
women hate men who obey the rules. this is why they are attracted to scumbags, shit heads, and convicts.
women are an anti civilizing element. if you really still feel the need to couple with their disgusting slime holes, put on some kind of act.
No.110350
>>110328
>implying
>have one of the better cars at my university, where even having a car is fairly rare
>a few compliments from guys, that's it
Being a normalfag is what got him the girl, not the car
No.110361
>tfw made dozens of videos with facerig and video editing software, almost none of them have more than 10 views in months, this is the same kind of shit that happens whenever I get the urge to scratch a creative itch (write blog, no one reads; make comics, no one reads; sing songs, no one listens), abandon project when I get over the fun of making things and the reality of no one giving a crap about all my heartfelt effort sinks in and I become depressed about being unable to scratch the creative itch
No.110364
>>110361
"the greatest stand up comic is a cab driver who had one bad night and gave it up forever." - brian regan
imo this can be applied to all forms of artistic endeavor
No.110368
YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.
>>110364
this being said, I've gotten surprising mileage out of even an audience of just one.
I've been doing some very simply streams with my brother and one other guest. we had clumzor and plebcomics on several shows. we don't get many views, and people whine constantly about how we don't have the same production values as pewdiepie, but we have fun talking about whatever we want while fuxing around with video games.
and it takes way less time and work than actually editing together videos carefully (something else I have actually done before).
perhaps most amusing is how many thousands of hours I've sunk into editing hentai videos along with their audio tracks, with no intention of ever sharing or showing them to anyone.
No.110425
>>110350
But if she never overhead that he had a car, she would never have talked to him in the first place. Usually she'd have to wake up at 5 and take a bus at 6 to get where she needs to be. Having that car ride is just more convenient since she's able to go directly to her place.
No.110452
>>110425
Sure, but if the situation was reversed, if OP was the one with the car carrying that girl's ass wherever she needs to go, and the normalfag was the one without the car, the girl would still be sleeping with the normalfag. The car was involved in this specific case, but only an accessory, bottom line being that OP at the very least doesn't have to blame himself for putting off his license too much.
No.110534
>TFW YOU CAT-FISHED TOO HARD AND NOW YOU'RE IN TOO DEEP
No.110590
No.110610
>>110320
>>110323
>>110325
Honestly at this point I read stories like yours and just fucking laugh.
This shit's god damned hilarious given that people will try to put the onus on you for not "being a man" or some shit and "making the first move"
You have damn good reason as a man in the 21st century to be wary of Women, especially approaching ones that don't immediately drop their panties at the sight of you like she did to that guy.
Fuck "nice guy" bullshit, fuck normalfag "game", fuck 3DPD, fuck all of it. I don't care if you are a beta, you didn't fucking deserve that. You opened your heart only to get it devoured before your very eyes, casting a twisted gnarled grin of how she "appreciates your boldness" baring those blood soaked mouth daggers at you.
>I don't even know what to feel anymore.
Hate
No.110612
>>110610
just stop being a beta and rape her
fuck y'all are so stupid if you think women don't like being taken control of
no questions, just grab her, kiss her good, touch her good, fuck her good, she belongs to you now
No.110620
>>110334
Cut her off. Stop talking to her and reclaim your balls.
No.110623
>>110620
>guys rape her
>she dates them
>anon is nice to her
>she doesn't date him
>random guy takes her out
>she says its not a date
>he makes it a date anyway
>she likes it
>anon asks her out
>she says she doesnt wanna date
>anon: o-okay
>she doesn't like it
No.110636
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>>110612
At this point of decadence in society, that seems to be a legitimate tactic.
No.110662
>>110610
>>110620
>>110338
Thanks for putting this shit into perspective. I think I'm going to keep being her friend for a little while longer, but I'll definitely distance myself and eventually cut her off. If I just drop her completely right now, it would hurt her even more and I'd like to leave a good last impression before ducking out of her life completely. I'm not so heartless as to cut someone off without making distance first, even after being hurt in this way.
This is the first time I've ever tried this hard to be with someone else, and this entire experience doesn't help how I view romantic relationships. I should never have tried, I'm sticking to 2D from now on.
No.110682
>spend 10 minutes typing up a thread or response to a thread that I think might contribute to the discussion or be funny or otherwise interesting
>delete it and re-write it several times
>look at it when I'm done
>pause for a moment
>ctrl+a
>delete
>close tab
No.110685
Didn't want to make a new thread or anything.
I think I have been having panic attacks with out knowing, can someone verify the symptoms?
So, I get this weird feeling where I feel really hot, almost itchy all over, like hot prickles. My heart will start racing. I thought it was a skin condition at first, but I'm not sure as it only happens when I am in public or stressed/scared/worried about something… I don't think it happens at random is what I am getting at.
Should I go to a doctor for anxiety or something more serious? I have been having
these for about 2 years maybe, but I don't really like going to doctors.
No.110742
>>110662
>If I just drop her completely right now, it would hurt her even more
Good
You don't quite grasp the situation, so I'll spell it out for you. She played you like a damn fiddle and deserves to have you walk out of her life without even saying goodbye.
If a woman is such a whore as to be unable to look past the ingrained biology of "FUCK STRONKEST" and all the risk taking "alpha" bullshit their warped perception entails, they don't deserve even orbiters.
By not completely excommunicating yourself from her RIGHT. NOW. You're sending the signal that what she's doing is a-ok.
Is that what you want to tell her? That you're a lil bitch nigga who's cool with sloppy seconds of table scraps? Because that's what you're doing.
No.110747
My body is getting desperate. I've stopped masturbating and watching porn of all kinds for 2 weeks now (I even skipped the H-scenes in the VN I'm currently reading) and the shit I'm dreaming is scary. It started with normaly asian girls in lingerie and ended with CP-beastiality. Is this ever going to stop?
No.110801
Holy shit.
I was accidentally outside the house yesterday. Was invited to some 30 year olds celebration at town.
I didn't know how socially retarded I was before this - or rather, I got t o experience how retarded I am.
Not only that, but much lower alcohol-tolerance due to quitting meds. I was even approached by a security guard and asked to leave after finishing my drink.
And of course drama, which I was a big part of since people are totally unable to control their emotions, especially women.
And what the fuck do people "talk" about? How can they spend hours drinking and talking without really talking.
No.110816
>Actually on a normal schedule
>Fucking hungry
>Go up and start making some ramen
>Parents and normie sister are in the living room
>Open space so they're talking to me
>"Anon you need to get your license"
>"Anon why do work nights"
>"Anon blah blah blah"
>My vocabulary shrunk to "Ok", "Yep", "Nope", "I don't know"
>Finished cooking and went back to the basement
Why do I live with these fucking people.
No.110820
>>110747
If it's affecting you poorly why are you still doing it? Just fap and you will feel better.
No.110824
>>110820
No, I will feel terrible if I fail after 2 weeks of hard work. I want to have a healthy sexual orientation, not this degenerate lust for interracial beastiality CP crap. I want to become more than an animal.
No.110872
>>110816
I feel you hombre.
My family rarely ever want to discuss anything with me other than my license, employment, or going back to school.
No.110884
>>110662
>If I just drop her completely right now, it would hurt her even more and I'd like to leave a good last impression before ducking out of her life completely
Or Continue to bend over backwards to show women that their actions have no consequences while you cry yourself to sleep? You deserve more than that, she deserves less. Get angry, you're allowed to have feelings. Fuck, I could slap you.
No.110907
>tfw your web of lies is unraveled
No.110925
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I'm in my late 20, I started working a skilled industrial labor job a few months ago. It's mostly nice, work schedule is unpredictable but pay is good, and the company pays for travel and food.
When I'm on the road, I usually end up eating and drinking as a group with my coworkers after work.
The coworkers are not terrible people, but they come from a different world than I. Very normie, lots of ex-military and firefighters, most of them listen only to the pop country radio station, watch sports.
Being the new guy, I get picked on by every group I end up working it. Whatever, it's an initiation, a camraderie-builder.
I try to be up-front around these people about who I am, not hiding the fact that I'm kind of an introvert with niche interests, I like making art and music, that I've only been laid a very few times.
Most of it's just harmless banter, very often related to drinking or fucking, but this one guy, this ex-marine- he was trying to be friendly, but he gave me this talk about how I sounded like I was behind the eight-ball in life, how I needed to work on 'doing something with my life', how I needed to get a house, find a girl to marry, think about kids, et cetera.
On another occasion, he brags about how great his life is, how he's fucked many beautiful women, how he's married with two beautiful kids, been to war, skydiving, all that shit.
I didn't give a hostile response or anything, but on the inside I was REEEEE ing at this guy
I haven't had spectacular success so far in my life, living in a gold mansion surrounded by hot babes like donald trump, but it's been decent.
I pay my dues to society, I'm not a parasite, I haven't burnt out on alcohol or drugs, I've meet interesting people, had interesting experiences, deeply immersed myself in art and culture.
but yeah, I wish I had more money and wish I could figure out what behavior changes I could make to attract women…..
It pisses me off, but then, I guess this feeling of shame is supposed to spur me to redouble my efforts of self-improvement, but then the state of the world upsets me. The materialism- it feels like I only get to meet the mechanical side of people- the part concerned with making money, drinking, and fucking- shallow pleasure- There only a few rare people who feel anywhere close to the same feels, like the same aesthetics, find beauty in the same ideas.
So yeah, it was pretty gay
No.110927
>last weekend
>have dream about ex gf who i was deeply in love with
>in dream, we have have passionate sex and i vividly see her face, which i've been trying to forget since breakup in 2014
>wake up, but keep eyes closed and try to hold onto the memory of the dream
>am horny, so i try to jerk off for 20 minutes on my bed, with my eyes closed while trying to imagine her face
>finally give up
>look at calendar on phone
>its valentines day
>whatthefuckamidoingwithmylife.png
No.110928
>>110907
Can you elaborate?
No.110931
>>110747
You have demons, anon. Don't be alarmed, its as normal as having intestinal parasites.
Drink holy basil tea every night an hour before bed. Buy a pound of it and use at least a tablespoon per cup of water, so that its very dark green nearing black in the cup. You will not have any fucked up dreams that night. As added bonus its also a mosquito repellant and helps you gain muscle (androgenic)
No.110960
>every day my sweetest memories slip between my fingers
>can never capture how i experienced the world at different stages in life; how bigger it all seemed, how much warmer i felt, those indescribable mental states through various ages, various lenses through which life was experienced
>any chance of reviving those feelings is left solely to music that i listened to during those periods; no journals, few photographs
>as inconceivable as a camera was to the man of the middle ages, and as inconceivable writing was to the man of prerecorded history, i now believe the whole human interpretation of life as they experience will someday be capturable, but not now nor anytime before i turn completely cold inside
No.110962
kind of just hit the point where i realize my ship has sailed. i received so little meaningful parenting and little aid when there was obviously something wrong with me and now im 22 with absolutely no prospects. college dropout with no skills. asocial and somewhere in limbo between melancholy and apathy.
sucks but it's what it is and i suppose i just have to make due. and i have my fair share of blame. but what do i do now?
check it out fam for a while I've been mulling over the pros/cons of pursuing a "normal" life:
>work for money
>money for materialism and living expenses
>past that, saving for self improvement endeavors, or ultimately supporting a family
>supporting a family requires finding a wife
>women are mostly vile, chances of asocial hermit fuckup finding one are laughably slim
>furthermore western civilization is accelerating towards death
>if I succeed it's likely I'll just end up in the same 9-5 work/sleep/eat boring shitfest most people own
I think I could easily do it if I wanted to but it'd be a dead end job likely and I wouldn't be fulfilled. I'm quite attractive and girls gravitated towards me in the past because they thought I was mysterious or some gay shit but I don't want to waste affection on a harlot I don't truly love.
my plan for a couple years now is to bank it all on a longtime excursion into the wild. I figure the direction I'm heading now I'm likely to blow my brains out so the danger in such an adventure is fairly moot. Along the way I could gain valuable, and memorable experiences during my time as a young adult that I would keep 'til the grave. I'm young and I don't want to be fantasizing about this shit when I'm 30 and my problems have utterly crippled me.
However, I have to be realistic. There's a very high mortality rate in such a journey, and there's a myriad of skills that have to be learned. I'd like to make some sort of abode for myself out there and that requires a total plan for where I'd go. There's limitless potential for improvement out there, though. I'm still human and would require interaction, but I have a sufficiently developed tulpa to cover that and in the solitude of the wild might become alarmingly strong.
I rationale that in the long, long term I'd be serving to make the best of my innate detachment from other humans. Making the best of a bad situation, so to speak. Detaching myself from material desire, restrictions of society, and detachment from my own humanity and morality might yield potent results. I might also just end up as a loony fuckup or stabs campers or something.
When I think about it all I get fairly excited, but there's also a deep sense of dread knowing that any mistake in such a pilgrimage could result in my being carrion. I still have lots of years left so maybe youthful recklessness is not the best thing to act on.
No.110966
>tfw you really like a song but the lyrics being about having a gf ruins it for you
No.111232
>tfw have autism so bad you install gmod and get a bunch of female models then ORGANIZE the ones that look the best and by color.
>play army on single player with mostly tall female models because they would just stand there when i grew them too big
>sandbox games like gmod trigger me size fetish and other fetishes
>tfw no friends to play gmod with
>uninstall gmod + steam
i still have it on steam but lost all 'em models and the big city + mcds maps and would have to redownload steam/redownload gmod again
steam; nuct
No.111306
Oh, the feels I get whenever I see OP's picture
>>110742
>>110742
This so fucking hard dude. I don't know of a way to break things like this off because I've always preferred to keep the peace and not make any waves but sometimes you have to be a dick, grow a spine, and make a stand.
The unworthy females you orbit literally won't even notice you're gone, until they want something. This is because they do not see you as a man. To quote Eggman: you are not genetically superior.
But it's not as easy as that. You have to admit defeat, give up the last bit of hope of ever getting her. This is not something everyone can do, and stick with it. By accepting what your heart already knows, you can break the one-way Bond of the relationship and feel that weight lift.
But you have to surrender to win, can you do it?
No.111343
>>110747
>>>/suicide/
You let yourself get this bad by watching porn. You ruined yourself physically and mentally. It's over for you. You did this to yourself.
>>110816
Maybe you should try GETTING A JOB. Get your license, get your job, stop living in your parents' basement you disgusting welfare leech.
>>110962
Just get a job.
No.111418
>>111343
>get a job
>"Anon why do you work nights?"
One of these things does not add up here.
No.111421
>>110590
tl;dr
i fell in love with a very passable transgirl and i fucked up because i lied about something huge
im getting over it, just hurts knowing you can be rejected by a mentally ill person like that and you also realize you have no empathy because you cannot predict at all how people will react to things
>inb4 its a tranny dont feel bad
I do because this has happened to me so many times before.
so many lost friendships, relationship potential….all gone, like tears in rain.
No.111485
Some girls are attracted to me and sometimes I get to touch them… like a mutual touch. You know when they put their leg against yours and they don't move it? Or when they put their arm around you? This cute Greek chick dressed up as a cop on Halloween and she pressed her boobs up on my back. I would have done something with her but idk, I really don't like the idea of promiscuity. I would really rather marry one girl and just focus on her. Few days ago I went to a party and all these drunk girls kept standing behind me, not sure if they were all accidentally standing really close to me but they kept touching me. Most satisfying feeling these days… I love it when girls are physically close to me. Femininity is so warm, bros. Something about that beautiful long hair. Maybe I want to impregnate a woman and just stay with her. Thing is, all the girls that I know are sluts. They all get drunk and kiss dudes and suck dicks and wear skimpy outfits. I don't want any of that. I need a girl that doesn't even show cleavage or thigh, and doesn't yell or swear. I'm a huge hypocrite though because I yell and swear, but whatever I'm too busy and lazy to improve myself
No.114257
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>be me 22
>have a lack of common sense
>grandpa dies
>funeral
>everyone in family are giving speeches about how great my granddad was
>myturn.jpg
>stay quiet
>…
>still quiet
>I try to say something but words won't go out
>"Just leave anon be, he's really deppressed."
>after the ceremony
>my grandma told me that I'm "Some kind of animal with no signs of humanity."
>all 30+ people heard her
>mfw I feel like shit
>I wanted to express my feelings and speak my mind
>but I couldn't
>justendme.png
No.114277
>>114257
wow nice fucking family. :(
they really are the ultimate traitors.
No.114343
>>94425
>tfw no gf
HOW MANY ROBOTS KNOW THIS FEEL?
No.114347
>>95420
>take the no-fap pill
>everything goes fine at first
>on the third day the dreams start
>grills in every dream, hand holding, cuddling, and staring into each other's eyes included
this, every time I go a week on No-Fap I start getting these dreams of qt Grills
No.114350
>>95484
>>have an actual group of friends
>>>have friends
YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE
No.114351
>>96049
>le
>gf
FUCK OFF PLEBBIT NORMIE
No.114353
>>100652
>(no sugar, home cooked) meals.
>>home cooked meals
>>>/fit/ >>>/cooking/
No.114357
>dragged to party, take drugs, meet girl (also on drugs)
>spend the night kissing each other and saying nice things
>fall madly in love with girl for the first time in years
>she hasn't replied to a text I sent 6 hours ago
God I'm so lonely…
No.114360
>>114350
>>114351
>>114353
Reported. Go back to wizchan you fucking moron.
No.114584
>>114357
>>114357
>>she hasn't replied to a text I sent 6 hours ago
Just wait, you do not want to sound desperate
If she does not respond within 5 days you have 0 chance
>tfw no gf
No.114586
>>114584
as afor already said, if she doesn't respond in a day, she has no interest in you that day. if she doesn't respond in 5 days, she has no interest in you for 5 days. if she never responds, she has no interest in you anymore.
No.114593
> be 7
> bored at break
> invent "whos" and "lice" as microscopic creatures in a battleshit
> imagine twigs as battlecruisers, trees and rocks as massive citypoos
> imagine school as massive lousepoo fortress
> whos are basically humans, lice are basically grey-skinned clones
> characters, Peter Brownshit and Emily Greenpiss
> in 5th grade, whos finally blow up louse fortress, and flee to my middle school toilet
>mfw I play with shit and piss
> peter brownshit and emily Greenpiss have children, orionshit and pissodedia
> after middle school, peter and emily die escaping the supershit in a giant air battle
> whos wander to a giant tree-city outside my house
> orion takes it from the corrupt leaders and prepares it for war
> imagine my poo as invasion of thousands of louse ships
> vacations become quests by the whos to discover ancient secrets
> lots of characters live and die, story stretches over 40 years
> i am 21 now, and I still imagine this story sometimes, when I go for walks late at night
> about a year ago I was walking through a college I was volunteering at, and imagined a battle I'd been building up to for months staring a new character called Shitzoid McGee
> started writing story
> 300,000 words after a year of writing
> huge outline and blog
> way more detail than I can express in one post, like there is a 30 page outline of this and a 531 page novel in huge fragments as I try to link the different parts of the story together from over 13 years of my life
> one of the only things i have left from my childhood.
>34 now
>mfw
No.114595
>>114593
>mfw Emily Greenshit married Peter Brownshit
No.114645
>be teenager, time to choose GCSE subjects
>choose media (among others) because I want to be a filmmaker
>mother disapproves, "you're so clever, you should do more academic subjects!" but I'm really not
fastforward
>time to choose A-levels
>choose Media Studies and Film Studies (physics and IT too)
>mother disapproves again
fastforward
>time to choose Uni
>Media Production (foundation degree level)
>mother disapproves again
fastforward
>in 2nd year, gonna do 3rd year at another Uni
>just showed mum my most recent work, haven't been able to bring myself to show her any for the last 4 years because of her constant disapprovals
>she complimented me and my work, said she was wrong to doubt me
Lads I don't know how to cope with this feel…
No.114693
told me mom about https://www.inhousepharmacy.vu/p-1313-procur-50mg-cyproterone.aspx but she is more irl face-to-face than just taking advice from someone online without knowing them but not in a stranger danger way - more of; see what the person says and suggest ye take before you just buy something like this willy-nilly.
now she is going to pay someone for advice [aka therapy] and the adice will be to 'be strong independent white female who do not need any help' just like
29/12/2015;
'i see ye are counting down the days until he gets kicked out and ye just been a hermit eating in your room but am not trying to mock ye lifestyle because i live how i want too and am sure you want too also but he is a changed man because he goes to AA meeting [which i drive him too but he knows how to take the bus but am not gunna be an enabler to anyone anymore. so strong. much independence. no man. u go gurl] and is trying to stay clean but am also waiting for him to mess up. much change. such clean. my feels are upset because you do not interact with the family like you used too. now you just eat/drink in your room while i bring you more food in your room and not see you the rest of the day and let you be how you are but not no more because i am a strong white independent 50yearold grown female who do not need to be told anything because muh house muh rules! if you do not like it then grow up and move out or shelter! where be my little boy at? where did he go? le guilt trips le human shielding le le le le le! oh and also bought a female basset hound because of his face is so le sad all the time! enjoy the headaches from the whining but cannot live off Advil forever. but wanna go to books-a-million with me? :)' - me mom
since i cannot be popular,
i am going to be depressed.
No.114700
>wake 1:30pm
>old apartment was demolished
>none of my furniture fits in the new place, have no desk
>lego will have to go in the main room where it can be seen by other people
>go to Ikea
>the smaller desk I wanted that would fit is out of stock
>due in late next week
>thesis due (?) because mental health
>text prof, doesn't reply to the content of emails
>email was asking for extension that needs to be agreed to and then signed off on by cray-cray wrangler
>cray-cray wrangler doesn't give a shit, has had you show up and her not be there previously
>outted self as weirdo to cray-cray wrangler by "meh'ing" when she said one of your other profs was attractive
>out of Valium
>don't want to go back to doctor who's talks to me like I'm completely gone
>don't have the guts to tell another doctor about my problems
>out of alcohol
>no specials on booze
>really want a manhattan
>shitpost from battlestation on floor
>wanted thesis done by the end of the month so I can have my Birthday off.
>haven't felt too guilty to have a fun on my birthday because I have things to do since the early 2000s
>internet people coming to give proper internet today
>hide lewd figurine
>compulsively unpack some books at 2am
>airconditioner needs a frame built to fit in window
>realise the tools I needed were at my dead mother's, gone now
>sweating at 2am due to humidity
>wonder how I can do thesis with all these little things making me OCD
>sleep 4am
>internet guys will be here between 8 and 12
>wake 8am
>eat shit breakfast of poptarts and energy drink
>there goes weight loss from lifting my huge ass tube tvs and other shit
JUST
No.114703
It took a few months, but now I finally feel I am making some mental progress :—*D
Just in time for me to reach my allowed amount of sessions at that place. "We only deal with short therapy"-crap. So now I got to wait another few few, a couple of months and be sent to another one.
God dman, it takes a toll on you to be ill.
No.114704
>>114700
>filename was GNU+ NASA.gif
>joke ruined
Fix your shit incendiary rims
No.114705
>>114693
>tfw have to talk to a red haired female jew doctor if i wanna be a MTF
>cannot /just/ order pills online because mom said so + her name is on me card
>fall into depression
>try to make tendies but forgot how to into oven and just sit there while room gets hot as 350o show for like 10minutes and am waiting for it to change to 100o.
>hungry but will get stared at by step-dad waiting for me to mess up
>go to store tomorrow night with me mom
>no car and store is a 15minute walk.
>eather a blackhole or step-dad took a pair of me panties because i looked all over me room and took pictures of under me bed but cannot find them and stepdad maybe threw them away + i cannot /just/ tell my parents am missing a pair of panties or i will get questioned.
i have a box of vanilla waffers and 3/4ths of unsweeten tea left in me room. i have tv dinners and tons of tendies and tots and other stuff but
>you open up the door and see lots of food but do not know what to eat then you close the door
or
>eyes-bigger-than-stomach syndrome
am like 23% full because all been eating is burgers [from white castle] and waffers and tea.
i thought the day would be good but i just fucked it up without doing shit. it auto-JUSTed me.
No.114723
>>114257
watch how fast they act like nothing happened after like a week.
when my grandma died of tit cancer, i wore my sonic shirt with 'you're too slow' on it because she was a bitch to me during my 3 years of depression then died when i got out of it.
>tfw normies ask you if you are ok and shit like that
>your fucking face when
>you have no face because state of shock
No.114846
>>110662
You are making me really angry here anon. Fuck that "nice guy" noise, tell her to either fuck you or fuck off. You don't deserve to be hurt this way.
No.114877
>>111343
>Believing the reddit boogeyman.
>Using goon retorts.
No.114878
>I finally think I found a friend that I can be myself around.
>Have friendship with them for 6 months.
>They block my number.
>tfw you fell for the "just bee yourself meme"
No.114880
>>114878
the only person this has never happened with is my brother.
with absolutely everyone else, everywhere else:
>bee myself
>extremely "developed" sense of humor from watching sam kinison and george carlin as a little shota
>value honesty above social grace
>people get fucking PISSED OFF when you are honest
>used to back down in the face of their anger years ago
>made me physically ill to cater to their self delusion, so I don't do that anymore
I refuse to accept that I am the problem now. this is not narcissism, this is the result of years of dealing with normal scum. I have less respect for them than I ever had before.
No.114883
>>114880
Yeah, I wish I could just be myself, however I want to become a Neuropathologist. Which means I have to get through med-school, which requires me to deal with a lot of normies. And, once I get out i still have to act "normal" because a) I will be interacting with doctors all day, and b) my job will consist of cutting up brains, so I have to do everything in my power to convince people I'm not a serial killer.
No.114885
>>114880
Also, I'm sorry about your brother. And, I'm sure you're not the problem, maybe try doing some standup comedy. People will PAY YOU to piss them off.
No.114886
>>114885
nothing happened to my brother, I live with him now. we survived that hell together.
I actually have tried stand up, but the problems with it were: I am a horribly awkward fuck who is incapable of natural public speaking, and I didn't like the idea of having to create a routine based around 5 minutes - 30 minutes. too complicated, not very much fun. also, if listening to jim norton and bill hicks about their career is any indication, stand up is really not for people looking to make their fortunes.
No.114887
>tfw you go to get a haircut and the hairdresser leans into you
It's a pathetic kind of feel.
No.114889
>>114886
>not wanting to be like Bill Hicks
You're telling me that you don't to die penniless from Pancreatic Cancer?
No.114911
>>114887
>getting my heart scanned for some shit years ago
>massive tits mgee receptionist is putting the little (strobe?) thingies on my shirtless body
>she leans over me while I'm laying on the table
>her massive old fucking tits go all over my chest and in my face
>she doesn't seem to care
>start cranking a quarter chub in my pants
>hoping she'll notice
>she probably doesn't
damn, I wish I coulda fucked her right then and there.
Reminds me of another time I saw a random female GP for a bad ear infection. She was getting flustered and stuttering the whole time and started soon as she saw me. Kept looking at me, smiling then looking down and getting even more cutely flustered.
>everything gets done, get my script etc
>about to leave
>she says "Is there anything else?…tee hee…"
>mfw I could fucked dat fat delicious ass and sucked on dem tities and tonged that hot mouth.
WHY THE FUCK AM I SUCH AN AUTIST BETA
SO MANY LOST CHANCES OVER THE YEARS BUT MY AUTISM GETS IN THE WAY EVERY TIME
No.114918
>marriage proposal from friend out of the blue Monday
>a fucking marriage proposal, not even dating or whatever the fuck
>don't know what to think
>don't say anything
>we can't be friends anymore on Tuesday
>after 15 years I can't believe you don't love me anon
What the fuck. I still don't know what to think. It messed me up pretty bad.
>should have married her :^)
It was a guy, and I'm not a fag. But he was my only friend, and I'm too much of an autist that I don't even have online friends.
No.114958
>be me
>receiving unwanted attention from a succubus
>like handing me notes soliciting sex and pressing its disgusting succubus body against mine when I'm trying to fucking work
>immediately ask myself what I can do to make it go away
>decide that the best course of action is to just bee myself
>start acting perfectly comfortable around it and give hints that I'm receptive to its affections
>it moves on to bother other men before the week is out
>tfw wizardhood preserved
It's a triumphant kind of feel.
No.114969
>>114911
get out you fucking normie
No.114978
>tfw laptop has finally given up on me
>too poor to get it fixed or finally get a decent rig
>can't play my H-games, the only thing that matters to me anymore
>don't know what to do since I play AA2 until it's already 4 AM
Just kill me already.
No.114989
>>114978
- [DELL][windows_7]laptop cannot hold charge/no sound
- [HP][windows_7] laptop shuts down often/overheats
- [ACER][windows_7] laptop has blank screen
- [HP][windows_7] laptop keyboard does not work/broken sound card/cannot update most software/cannot play youtube videos/cannot hold charge
- [ASUS][windows_7] laptop keybaord does not work/blank screen
- [TOSHIBA][windows_7] laptop is missing screen
- [windows_95] crt computer tower needs old monitor to find problems
- [windows_98] crt computer tower needs old monitor to find problems
- [windows_XP] crt computer tower needs old monitor to find problems
2gaming consoles
- dreamcast laser broke
- xbox has no controller
2tv
- crt tv cannot get cable
- flat vizio Y [RWY] is mashed
1gameboy game
- [JAP] pokemon gold glitches at start of NINTENDO LOGO
1ipod touch 2G
- trouble turning on
No.115004
>>114887
>he doesn't just buzz his shit every month
When will this endless migration of normals come to an end? You all have to go back.
>>114918
Should have had him blow you at least.
No.115005
>>114969
how is any of that normie?
No.115134
>>115005
>Gets boob
>Not normie
No.115154
>>114257
it's fucked up if people didn't warn you about having to do a tribute.
the funerals ive attended have been pretty organized and it was set out who was doing a tribute. gives you time to right stuff down
fuck those niggers anon. some people choke when it comes time for public speaking, but emotion/personal subjects are always tricky
>>115004
my nigger
i go a step further and shave my head because its so fresh and clean.
bald/buzzed is the ultimate robot haircut IMO. It allows you to not give a shit but still have a "functional" look.
>>114880
people prefer comfortable lies to uncomfortable truths
even with people who say they appreciate brutal honestly seldom seem to want that. you always have to sugarcoat this shit.
No.115169
>mfw working 12 hour shifts every day
It really reminded me how much I hate people, since I have to socialize again. At least it helps me practice my social skills
No.115231
Trying to improve myself by getting fit but all I can think about when I leave the house is jumping in front of passing cars and trains
I wish I had a gun so I could at least pull a tactical bowlcut and then kill myself
No.115266
>>114705
>wait for everyone to gtfo the kitchen
>go to the kitchen
>open fridge and cabinets
>look at all the food
>go back to my room
>repeat
No.115268
>>114705
where do you live? i'll give you rides and buy you shit.
No.115365
>>115268
heh, i have trust issues with people [mostly males] but i have to be in a 'fuck this shit nigger. not like am gunna see any of these people that are around me [in public] the next day or something. i do not give a fuck. *sips on green tea and blast vaporwave*' mood or me mind goes all 'fuck this. fucking shit. /they/ are watching me. fuck fuck fuck. i-i-i gotta get the fuck outta here. i look like a fucking autist. fucking shit. stop thinking.'.
am in louisville ky. what did i do the past 2 weeks?
week 1
>went to mall with irl bro and his gf to get jeans and a cookie ;3
>got rash from jeans when was walking with me mam in the food store because wrong size of jeans [28x30. i wear a 30x32]
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1Xn0I5BOdz6
No.115391
>>94425
>tfw i can't feel anger
>i can't feel emotions
>i can't be angry for a unknown reason
No.115400
>>115134
bruh, she was like 60
No.115410
>>115391
Visit /pol/ more. You will learn what real anger is.
No.115419
>tfw spilled your spaghetti even though you knew it would only be a one night thing regardless
No.115424
>>110320
>>110323
>>110325
Did you tell her about your Eva Unit?
No.115429
>wake up
>see vomit all over my chair, keyboard, headphones and boob mouse pad
>its my vomit
>even after succesful cleaning everything stinks
No.115445
>>114593
stop spamming you lice and whoos niggershit
No.115453
>tfw family of endless judas
>tfw cannot say anything without it reaching all of their ears no matter pleas for confidence
>tfw overhear them blatantly going behind my back
>tfw yell at them only for them to deny what they literally JUST did
>tfw they represent my side of the conversation poorly and manage to successfully misrepresent even the smallest details until I'm no longer even saying what I originally was
>tfw now everyone thinks I 'agree' with them because of how they've shaped my words when I was originally tearing into them for being wrong about XYZ with coherent and concise points
>end representation is emotional nonsense that doesn't even logically follow when taken the way its spoken
It's like playing a game of telephone where your life depends on a successful transmission, but the first person who the information transfers to has managed to distort it as much as if the game had had 6 gorillion people in it and they were the last one.
No.115531
>>115365
would you trust a clone of yourself? we're pretty much the same person, that's why i'd feel comfortable buying you shit and driving you around like a cuck
portland(not a sex trafficker)
No.115532
>>115365
shit ur pants for me baby <3
No.115538
>>97362
What kind of arguments do you get into, on what boards?
If you're still here I guess
No.115584
>>115531
skype; motivat10n
i have cam/mic
No.115585
>>115532
i do not do that anymore. the times i did it was for attention.
No.115737
>>115453
Feel you, man.
In this house it's filled to the brim with passive-aggressiveness and casual politeness. Then over time, it's just expected that everybody has picked up the social cues that has been steadily dropped over the past months.
It's like the disappointment of not knowing "common sense" when they were fucking supposed ot have taught me that shit.
The constant undermine of my proposals and suggestions.
They bitch about how the computer is slow. Old Win 7 installation, NORMAN antivirus, lots of bloatware from Asus and shit. I say it's a quicck fix, but noo. "Experts", that means dimwits in media and tech-bloggers say you need this and that, and they would never lie.
And they wonder why I don't really suggest anything.
Well, when you throw your child under the bus for many, many years, that is what you get.
My own father is like the kid in class pointing finger to the guilty one.
And instead of him being a man, he justs looks over sighing and instead of taking the "fight", I guess he hopes I just get it together and "know" the truth.
Unconditional love :^)
No.115748
I feel just a little sad when I see pictures of pretty girls like >>112119 . On the rare occasion that I see a qt in person I feel similarly, but I feel a little sadder online because I can stare at the picture for longer. I'm sure some of you can relate.
No.115768
>>115748
Can relate. It also makes me feel really insecure and crappy because I got a friend that says that looking at girls makes him feel good and happy, gives him energy.
He's not insecure and he focuses on positive stuff all the time. Wish I was more like him.
Looking at pretty girls makes me feel like shit
No.115771
>>115737
Man, your dad needs his ass kicked and maybe the rest of your family too.
I wish sometimes I could be a superhero that goes around righting wrongs for my robot brothers.
>mfw the time my friend accidentally melted a bowl cover his mom left in the oven and he got bitched at the rest of the day
No.115837
Oh god.
I was in for an interview in relation to some learn-to-work stuff. And when I was supposed to shake herh and, I missed!
I missed the hand when she held it out with mine. Holy shit.
I was nervous, but that shit did not help one bit.
Fuck me..
No.115972
>tfw nihilist at age 26
>tfw want someone to help me and be there for me but push them away and cut contact once they know too much about me
>only one who gets me is the 1 female tulpa i have had for 9years
>just wanna move into me own place/buy the sexdoll she wants to be her body/be in the arms of a loving person and hopefully get a notice that i have cancer and die in her arms as the sunlight hits the bed and wind blowing the fan very slowly.
my family would understand why i wanted to die.
i do not see myself living past age 40.
i would had have like to be born in the 40s or 70s.
i used to like night time because of how peaceful it was. i just wanna go back to yesterday but i know i will wake up tomorrow. why have not i left yet? death has been trying to take me multiple times but i feel that i /just/ cannot /go/ yet.
hope is there - just keep looking at the sky.
No.116171
>>115972
your life will improve when you become a cute anime girl, i just know it
No.116365
>tfw gf is amazing but a mestizo
>be white blue eyed non-mixed guy
>gf is mestizo brown eyed, brown haired and surprisingly fair skinned
>loyal, cooks, loves sex
>problems: wants to get married ASAP, wants kids I don't and overweight w/ small tits
No.116413
>>100596
>mom is loud as fuck
>no indoor voice
>sneezes like a fucking elephant
>yawns so loud the neighbors can hear it
>yells at the TV constantly whenever a sports game is on
>tries to talk to people from all the way across the house instead of just walking to them
>not even noise-cancelling headphones help
No.117035
>tfw you can't mind-control someone who pisses you off, have them go on a murderous rampage, and make them look like the bad guy as a result
No.117036
>>116413
Mine smokes like a chimneystack, on top of it.
Can't wait to get lung cancer.
No.117110
>tfw skin condition on my fucking ears
>constantly itching and poking at my ear all day long, like a disgusting retard
No.117129
>tfw look at sky everyday
….someday
i just think about the afterlife until i cannot stand it and go back to what i was doing.
No.117130
>>115531
i posted me skype but >>117129
might help ye understand me more.
No.117138
>never held a girl's hand
>never kissed
>never been on a date
>never had sex
>24 years old
>tfw so lonely i jerk off with perverted old men online
No.117734
im a basement dweller turned /fit/izen. i currently am pursuing a scholarship in ballet, have a job, am going to school and have stayed pretty active on the market for staying single.
i now want a girl and have realized now that i have what i would call self respect and a better body, i cant seem to find anyone my age i could possibly like. no one has ambition anymore. aesthetics and depression and laziness have made the smart girls fat, the gym rats bitchy garbage, and any femanon in between is still going to grapplw with dating a 'chad' that has the interests of a person who grew up on 4chan.
and holy fuck if she has bad taste in movies; i tried, i really tried, but if i cant /tv/ with a girl and know she's enjoying it, the disconnect is just too far. its petty, but shit…
when you change for the world, why should we ever expect as much in return?