>dad was serious alcoholic
>he quit heroin but couldn't quit alcohol
>always bitching and hazing
>died in my early teens
>just in time because I wanted to kill him
>highschool
>got into the humanities (lol, following my passion for history/human-geography and english, gj retard)
>my country doesn't even bother having tradeschools or proper highschool trade courses (BECAUSE SOCIALISM AND FREE USELESS COLLEGE DEGREES FOR EVERYBODY, YAAAAAAAAAAYYY)
>shitty enviroment with many useless disciplines
>spend most my highschool time sleeping in class and coming in late
>pass with an average GPA, I don't give a fuck
>hm, I have no idea what to do with my life
>Try a random option
>Nope.jpg keep looking
>Get first real gf
>She turns out to be a psycho bitch who stole like 3 years of my life, because I was inexperienced and had pitty of her suicidal/depressive nature… Maybe because deep down I felt the same way she did
>didn't find good job opportunities in the first year I was with her…
>…so in the meanwhile I got into college… but dropped out, because with humanities in highschool I could only access shit degrees
>Find a possible great opportunity
>My health is not compatible with it
>Shamefully have to decline, and feel like I'm a lazy fuck
>People in my family were looking forward to me getting that job…
>feels like shit
Now I'm almost 22… Lucky for me I will probably be able to find work abroad soon. I'm just finishing my driving lessons, then I'll get my licence and fuck off to greener pastures. This because I paid upfront (was cheaper that way).
My familly is actually nice to me tho. I just feel like a useless sack of shit and want to run away tbh