>>1960I'm just as worried that I failed to be such an effective funambulist in a similar balance between those myself.
You're a far more considerate person than most of the spergs and closet-spergs I've ever spoken to on /cow/.
Savvy maybe does deserve you, but perhaps in a slightly different way to the one either you or she thinks. I think you two would be most propituous in balancing each other. From Savvy, being provided an escape from your previous neuroses, and from yourself, showing a guiding light heading towards a path that's a little less astray from righteousness.
I have a lot more to contend with on my plate than any of this chan-drama anyway, these days. The progess of improvement in my health remains questionable. The wildest fluctuations in my day-to-day functioning seem to occur with increasing variability, and it's beginning to drain me in a greater way than our parting of ways ever did.
Having read the symptoms and being careful to rule anything mitigating out, it's beginning to sound a lot like multiple sclerosis.
Have a quick look here:
www.webmd.com/multiple-sclerosis/guide/multiple-sclerosis-symptoms
In particular, brain fog, co-ordination difficulties (I once tripped over and fell inexplicably, that is, without fiction or the aid of another object, several weeks ago, when having walked just a few yards from the bus stop), peripheral neuropathy (I'm 50/50 over whether this is diabetes or MS; no matter what I do for the former, it doesn't improve), and memory lapses are all increasing concerns. I never had near the problems with verbal articuation that I now do, as recently as 2014 yet.
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